#the 2nd background is more what i was looking for but unless theres specifically a watercolor brush in photoshop idk

[oswaldthehero]

Aight I got the focking “almost died to a nuclear reactor” fit

[puppet2611]

//from 4.24.23

daniel said to write more in here and im in a5 brainrot hell so

THIS PART OF A5 WAS ACTUALLY TAKEN FROM AN EARILER CONCEPT OF LF...

ok so its nothing too specific or special - just that the characters zodiacs have a special part in their stories ig 💥💥

well it only rlly applies to micheal and adam ngl

micheals a goat and adams a monkey 💥💥 (im talking abt chinese/birth year zodiacs)

this doesnt go into anything too deep, goat just means sacrifice and monkey is just a reference to a monkeys paw

micheal is really the only thing the family ever had to sacrifice and it fits in with him being catholic soo why not!! adams just a horrible bad luck attractor btw. ollies luck is sm better when hes not around

oh yeah abt oliver i decided hes gonna either b transfem or bigender 👍👍 he/she prns r fine & he goes by oliver, ollie or oliver :]

might as well continue and finish it idk

olivers also bi-romantic & asexual :3

adam and micheal r both cissies/lhj... adams deadass just gay and micheal is panromantic asexual ^_^ only reason adams not ace is for my sillu dilly rps with mfs on chai/hj

I WISH I HAD SONGS TO ASSIGN THEM BUT I RLLY DINT HAVE ANYTHING RN... i guess olivias sweet tooth by cavetown but thats like it lmfao

THIS IS SO WRONG NOW... NEW MICHEAL CONCEPT (replying to micheals old concept design)

2nd img is after death/ in the afterlife !! dont mind the text

SHITPOST ART OF HIM FROM A MAGMA WITH BUGZ BTW 😭😭 its too goofy not to show

stupid gay/j

OH YEAH I HAVE TO ADD CONTEXT TO THIS BUT UHMM I WAS RPING AS ADAM WITH A RANDOM CHARACTER FROM A FANDOM IM IN AND THEY GOT TOO FRUITY. THIS POPPED IN MY MIND WHILE I WAS OUT SHOPPING W/ MY DAD 😦 the canon charaer on first img. im cringe and a oc x canon shipper

this was set after micheals death kind of in a au where adam doesnt get depression and fixates on him for years on end 💀 but anyways itd kinda be funny if it wasnt // if they had an open relationship but when micheal finds out hes just like. "you fucked the mf bishop of the basilica?? how am i gonna show up to church each week w/o him staring at me funny now." 😭😭

anyways that eas just a random thought

i was thinking that red would be yhe overall main color for the story :3c adam already wears red usually, red is practically going to be micheals main color in art concepts i have and oliver just looks good in it lol

oh i forgot to mention earlier

i havent done the math for what year oliver wouldve been born in but im thinking his zodiac would be a dog.. theres nothing big behind it either, its just that hes kinda lost w/o adam or micheal and would probably run back to them no matter what - slight reference to the song like a dog ^^ - but its also kinda based on the fact habit said he gave off doberman vibes lol

unless yall rlly wanna judge them based off their birth month zodiacs i dont think ill give them actual birthdays 💀 but micheals birthday is april 5, just because its kind of a main part to yhe story.. (ihy server stfu abt zodiacs for one second challenge fr. i got called slurs bcz im a leo)

mentioning this again!!

i have basic ideas on how to draw scenes attached to the lyrics now :)

"see how his feet miss the ground" - plain red background against two feet just kinda dangling from the top. the lyrics are right below the shadow

"and he falls inside a hole he dug for me" - i really didnt know what to for this even after hours of thinking since micheal never planned to kill adam or anything alike so i just opted to have adam standing there in shock again, against a plain red background. theres might be a little of that on his hands too :]

"the kind of irony youd read in bible stories" - shillouette of micheal sitting up jn his grave. the backgrounds still red. hes holding a white book with yellow text on it ^_^ you might be able to infer what the book is from the lyrics imo (replying to another msg. too long to include )

i might make a bunch more oc x canon (8:11) interactions soon too :33 or crossover stuff

like ryker meeting both emilio and oliver (mc meeting lol) or emilio meeting micheal since micheal wanted to be a priest but last minute settled for being a jeweler 😞

i deadass kinda want micheal to meet my friends oc felix but i have not the slightest idea how that would work

ooo micheal and aster meeting would be cool too ( old jewelery making mfs/silly )

Anyways that's all I've got for now!! i might come back jn a bit or some other time ^^

[augujerdeer]

🍎👠🎃🌆👂😱💬!!! Feel free to not answer any of them!

IM CRYING BECAUSE YOU ACTUALLY SENT INE THANK YOU jnsjshdjhsdjh

🍎what are yall’s favourite foods?

I think this is gonna be a long post now that I think about it, but i’m asking everyone what their favourite food would be if they could only pick one or two (not everyone answered or can but >:0)

Mine (Jamie) would be pancakes! or grilled salmon! OR SPICY TUNA SASHIMI!!!!

Kris, Chara and Matthew immediately just have chocolate as their answer dicenksfvjk but kris says “anything” and he lives up to it sometimes

Jaiden says gummy bears and gummy worms (all he eats is CANDY)

Kobe says flowers,,,,

Sal is picking between pizza and cheesecake smoothies

Peter says he doesn’t have one yet ;;

👠how difficult is it for y'all to agree on one cohesive outfit?

So this kind of depends on how many people are out, but I usually follow whoever wants to wear something if only one person is requesting something (Like when Kris would screech and ask for me/us to wear the pink hoodie or his sequins sneakers)

But if there’s multiple people, (usually Kris, Chara, or Matthew) it might take a while ksjskjskjs but generally everyone would go rock-paper-scissors or let the other person have us wear what they want! Usually because they deserve this turn or we take turns :0

🎃how many head mates could be considered scary?

HMM,,, I guess I would say Severous first. He’s a 8+ foot werewolf man, he is a BEAR

his fur is PITCH BLACK especially at night and his eyes and drool glow white (so he has no pupils, that’s his entire eyes), so if you’re in the forest in Providence in the middle of the night, you’ll just see a scary OwO face in the dark

HE DOESNT DO THE OWO FACE BUT ITS NOT LIKE I CAN COPY IT IN TEXT FORM

he always stands on two legs unless he’s SPRINTING , but honestly??? HES BABY and we all love him, Kobe calls him “PUPPY” and even drew him a few times while fronting ;;;;;;;; He’s actually a dad to one of our littles Penny and is gay and dates someone from one of my partners’ system

Also he doesn’t speak very well? He used to speak fluently but overtime and he was recovering from being a persecutor, his ability to speak was kind of, disintegrating? So he only speaks in SUPER SHORT and almost broken english sentences. if you visit him you can catch him reading children’s books and practicing to read and speak again,,, he’s baby,,,,

Chara (from undertale) could be considered scary inspace becaus ethey can go goopy- they’re not a scary person but if they want to scare you, (especially if you don’t know who they are i mean), they will be intimidating and stuff ;; when i first met them, they did spook me, and their eyes are very bright red

Sal (from Sally Face) I guess could be considered spooky because i was drawing him in class one time (prosthetic ON of course) and my friend said he looked scary ;;;? poor sal;;; he’s not scary at all

🌆what does your headspace look like?

*clasps hands together* goodness it’s a good thing i made this map. it’s VERY OLD but it’s still the same except imagine everything is WAAAAAY more spaced Out!

honestly i need to move the teleporters and mansion higher up (and the main tree closer to them) but this is it!!!

The most common places people go to is The Mansion, The Bunker, The Farmhouse, and The Picnic Ground! People when going for walks in the forest usually stick around the Picnic Grounds-Cave Pool-Farmhouse Triangle but usually can go anywhere- the forest is SO big though (alven took me flying once and it stretches to the horizon)

The Mansion is where most of us live! Here you can find Jaiden and the kids (Kobe, Aco, and Penny– and Carla (Carla is an NPC [who is aware of the outside?] but we don’t care she is family). Alven is also here with his lab, so is Joseph and Louise!! (and their dog, Troy). On the outside, you can’t see the mansion, only two giant doors (nobody ever uses kdndckdocsl we honestly just use the teleporters to go anywhere– Also, everything you see INSIDE the meadow excluding the bunker was what our headspace FIRST looked like!!! it was the start of everything ;; Jaiden made the mansion. The mansion has two main rooms- The Main Hall, and The Tall Corridor. There’s a looooot of history here

The Farmhouse is where I (Jamie) live! But i’m not inspace a lot so it’s honestly empty until i meditate there ;;

The bunker existed and is a place some people permanently moved to because we started having some Bad Refuses To Do Good Persecutors, or just bad people. They were VERY violent so half of us went to hide- and eventually the entire system actually moved to the bunker for almost a year and a half before moving out- and then some people stayed- mainly Matthew. People who live in the bunker are Matthew, Kris, Peter, Jade, Chara, Liam, and Sal! Icari should be here somewhere but i think she’s still hiding ;;

Most of the time if we have a new person, they move to the bunker right away. There’s a teleport system almost all over the frequent spots in the headspace so they can easily leave and enter! Matthew lives one the second ground below the 1st ground below because of some bad things that happened- he never leave the bunker because being outside scares him a lot- especially with the entire headspace being a forest :( you need special access to get down there

The Picnic grounds isn’t very special to me personally but Jaiden made it so people can have picnics!! It’s honestly SUPER pretty oh goodness, and no matter what time of day (unless it’s night) the sun is always shining nicely and it’s so pretty there, and people actually go there!!

The only people that don’t go there are Joseph and Louise because we had one bad person hurt them badly in that area,

Also the Ruined City i didn’t mention because– no one goes there- but we all know it exists. Basically it’s a purely grey/monotone/greyscale land? Like the moment you enter, the world transitions to black and white (not your body but the environment) and the only things that have colour are the miss and greenery in the background (mostly grass and parks, not a lot of trees). all the buildings are collapsed or destroyed in some way- so imagine a big area with degree and rubble and standing building but there’s so many destroyed parts like one building is missing an entire second floor and another has a giant gaping hole not eh side, etc.

we also don’t go there because it’s dangerous- there are giant SPIDER robots that patrol the area- we still don’t know why, but they shook lasers! (come back to this post later because I WILL add a picture of what i’m talking about!! i just don’t have my phone on me)

ANYWAY THERES MORE BUT ITS TOO MUCH TO PUT HERE

WE ALSO HAVE ANOTHER PLANET

👂What kind of music do y'all like?

Jamie - what do you mean people have favourite music? i’m just kidding uksdeijfdkj i like indie and broadway!!! pop is pretty cool but it’s not my first choice at all ;;; rock and metal hurts my ears

Chara - they have 4 playlists on spotify! One playlist is called Soft Knives for calm music (it’s usually happy but there could be some sad ones there- but no angst songs- imagine songs you can sleep to or calm down with). Blunt Knives is for angsty or apathetic moods- and Angry Knives is for ANGRY LOUD music. The have a 4th playlist called Chara’s Classical Collection. Chara can range from Classical music to indie music death metal and rock. They usually hate pop

Kris - he loves rap and r&b! though he loves a lot of music besides those! He loves tally hall and kid bloom :0 mostly chill or music that makes you go aW YEAH (his words) he also has Classic Songs in his playlist. So if you have it one shuffle, you’re listening to some sick bops and then all of a sudden Rockefeller Street Nightcore comes on and you get whiplash. doesn’t like metal or rock. He has a second playlist called “it’s Saturday Morning” for stuff like heo soul or “music you can dissociate to but not in a bad way” (Listen to Sugarcoat by Kid Bloom or Different State of Mind (some artist) for a general idea)

Matthew - rock and stuff similar to chemical romance and panic! at the disco. they like metal and rock but he says Sal’s and Chara’s are too aggressive for his taste- and hen you find out he sometimes listens to screamo

Sal - honestly i find his playlist super weird ? Some music sounds weird to me but otherwise his playlist is full over a lot of genres ! It’s kind of wack and funky- not the genre- but the amount of variety he has. And in his 2nd playlist is death/metal and rock- a bunch of loud music that can be fast sometimes too- is not afraid to head bang in public and do air guitar

Peter - We’re not sure yet but he likes music from his time- plus old music- specifically New Wave for now!his playlist is super new and he hasn’t been here a while so we’re not sure o>o

Jade - Soft calm or upbeat and happy music

Kobe and Aco - they are babies- Kobe still sings the ABC’s everyday so

😱do your headmates have any phobias?

i don’t think any of us has phobias- because it’s defined as “irrational fear” actually wikipedia says it can be CAUSED so nevermind dkjjkfd

Honestly these feel like triggers more than phobias butnit first thendescription of a phobia so;; i’m putting POSSIBLE because we’re not sure

Chara - Possible Nyctophobia (fear of the dark, but specifically extreme pitch blackness for Chara), Possible Ecclesiophobia (fear of the church -either building or what it represents])

Matthew - Agoraphobia most probably (fear of going outdoors/leaving the house, some say wide open spaces)

Sal - somewhat Cynophobia but wants to overcome it (fear of dogs) ((likes dogs but is afraid of them honestly))

Kris - Monophobia/Autophobia (Fear of isolation and abandonment) ((this is a big one))

That’s all i can think of for now

💬free space! one cool fact!

uuHHH,,,,,, i can’t think of any, but i know one thing: i love our system and i can see everyone’s trying really hard to take care of each other or are doing a lot to process their own memories and feelings ;;;

[fmcs3100-blog1]

Digital Cultures: Assessment 3: Production Project

Digital media and technologies allow people to express themselves and find others in their community who support and encourage their sexual growth. The digital environment for queer identifying people or individuals questioning their sexuality can be used as both a private or public forum. The anonymity of the internet has provided a safe space for many LGBT identifying people as well as others looking to explore their sexuality to express themselves and in an online community (Culturalpolitics.net, 2018). Some digital technologies can encourage users to question and explore their sexual identities in a nurturing space, while other sites may be harmful to queer identifying or people questioning their sexuality. But has this anonymity also allowed homophobic and transphobic harassment to spread and is the internet the best first point of call for youth questioning their sexuality?

In the past couple of months, I have gained a full-time job, left home and moved to another city. It has been challenging and at times overwhelming. Leaving the home town bubble and my family has been liberating and also gave me a chance to reflect on my personal values and my sexuality. While studies show for many, university is the time when sexual experiments are more likely to take place (Kuperberg and Walker, 2018). I was never one of those people, I always felt that like I was very grounded in who I was attracted to – men and I felt sure as what I identified as – a straight female. I believe this has to do with my upbringing. My parents are, and always have been, very conservative. My parents, grandparents and a couple of siblings voted ‘No’ on the Same-Sex Marriage Survey. Just an example of how conservative my family was, I remember asking at an early age what would happen if a man and another man got married, my mother shook her head and said it was impossible and doesn’t happen. Although I wouldn’t go as far to call my parents and grandparents homophobic, I know if I ever came out as gay, they would be upset, I don’t believe they would disown me, but I know they would be disappointed. While I have been an ally of the LGBT community, until recently I never thought I could fully explore my own sexuality.

As someone who was mature and worldly enough to not be worried about my attraction to the opposite sex, I wondered how young people would feel, especially around adolescence, when puberty and hormones are happening and when things can easily become overwhelming.

Studies show that 78% of queer-identifying youth have turned to the internet to research sexuality and sexual health, the main reasons being having no one to ask and privacy was a concern (Mitchell et al., 2014). Googling: ‘How can you tell if you are gay’ will shower one with WikiHow articles, phycology articles and humorous YouTube videos. What queer youth need is a safe space online to feel interconnected and discuss how they feel.

A great example of a contemporary digital site is Tumblr, the community-building site offers users opportunities to explore gender and sexual identities and for many users, the site offers a complex digital network that supports safe explorations of identity (Byron and Robards, 2017). Although Tumblr is far from the perfect site, users have discussed the need to leave the site to avoid drama and negative spaces (Byron and Robards, 2017). Another LGBT-friendly site, Beyond Blue provides forums where users can share their experiences as an LGBTI individual and encourage others to talk to others or seek help (Beyondblue.com.au, 2018).

When I was questioning my sexuality, I turned to Tumblr and Twitter, I followed and read what LGBT people had to say about their experiences. What I liked about these digital sites was it was easy to be anonymous, much more so than any other platform, such as Instagram and Facebook. While I was quiet about my sexuality, due to the fear of what my family would think, some LBGT people are out and proud in the digital space. Herrera recognized that many young female-identifying individuals were using sexual identity hashtags on Instagram, such as #lesbian, to affirm themselves in the queer community. When queer identifying people join and connect with these queer digital communities, it encourages inclusivity and a sense of belonging to a group. (Herrera, 2017).  

A good example of digital queer technologies is the gay hook up app, Grindr. On this app, participants can choose to remain anonymous or upload photos and reveal themselves to potential sexual partners. Ahlm describes Grindr as, a “…cultural space where publicness and privateness co-exist, creating tensions for self-preservation that are structured by contemporary sexual politics” (Ahlm, 2017).  Being confident enough to come out to others as a proud homosexual can help with confidence building and sexual identity.

 Unfortunately, the internet isn’t always a safe space for queer people. There is no shortage of hateful, homophobic and transphobic sites on digital spaces. It doesn’t take long to find anti-LGBT sites on the internet, especially sites like Reddit (Reddit, 2018). Online sites like Reddit and Discus are unmoderated forums where reading hateful messages may be detrimental to a young persons mental health. And although these sites terms of service explicitly forbid targeted harassment, hateful language, and “communities dedicated to fostering harassing behaviour”, anti-LGBT material can be easily found (Warzel, 2018). Care needs to be taken to help ensure that the online digital spaces are is accurate tone specific to sexual minority youth (Mitchell et al., 2014). There is no doubt that discrimination and exclusion can contribute to LGBT people experiencing levels of depression, anxiety and other mental health issues (Lee et al., 2017). This can contribute to higher levels of alcohol or drug abuse, homelessness and poverty, disengagement from education and schooling and chronic health conditions (Rosenstreich, 2013). Although it’s important to note that not all LGBT identifying people turn to substance abuse.

Homophobia and transphobia lead to queer identifying people to hesitant to disclose their sexual or gender identity. Depending on one’s background, many LGBT people will not disclose their identities unless they are confident of anonymity, this may lead people to not seek out the help they need (Rosenstreich, 2013).

  From my own experience, Tumblr and Twitter helped me research and explore LGBT possibilities in my own life. The anonymity of these spaces let me research and connect with other people in the queer community. Whilst the anonymity and convenience of the internet is positive, young people questioning their identity need to access safe sites and keep away from harmful websites that preach hate against queer identifying peoples. Digital spaces such as Tumblr and queer-positive sites such as Tumblr and Beyond Blue forums, where people can build a sense of community and comradery should be sought by young people identifying as LBGT or questioning their sexuality. Whilst caution should be taken when reading unmoderated forums, such as Reddit and Disqus (Warzel, 2018). Tumblr and other sites that encourage inclusivity can be helpful, but users must be aware those digital sites may become overwhelming. It’s suggested that users manage this by taking breaks from digital spaces (Byron and Robards, 2017). It’s important to remember that LGBT-identifying youths mental health and wellbeing is most important.  

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