#the autism is STRONG in this chili's tonight folks!!!!!

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

guess who FINALLY found the right combination of wiki rabbit holes to access the list of pre-20th-century European charms & runes & stuff, like ACTUAL EXAMPLES *AND* THEIR MEANINGS

[pleasantartisanhottea]

ayo, time to Overshare (TM)

what up, my three (3) followers and (i think?) a bot! instead of, idk, writing lol, or Posting Seriously, i am shrieking into The Void.

this is because i am Feeling Some Kind of Way, and i figured the tumblr void would be the best place for me to post about this.

so! in my personal opinion which can be flawed and wrong!

aromantic and autistic solidarity is attaching your aro/autistic-ness to a metaphor and then seeing it get "cured" lol

like, god, i just,,, i read this fic, (which was so good and sweet and so respectful of aro people, and tagged with the main ship, sodon't get me wrong the author's great! they're great), and the one main character couldn't do The Thing everyone else could do, the fic CENTERED around them not doing The Thing, and my little gremlin brain immediately went "oh? aromanticism? y e s" even though The Thing was just triggered by strong emotions, like grief and anger and pain, it was mentioned that Love was a strong motivating factor, and i just latched the fuck on to that... and the fic ended with the Main Character falling in love and doing The Thing. and their crush, when seeing them doing The Thing, went "!!! I knew you would do it! all along!"

ladies, gentlemen, and nonbinary friends, THAT FUCKED ME UP. because they were a teenager, like me, and, they did The Thing after falling in love, and i just... god. it might've hit hard because i knew they'd fall in love, but i didn't think they'd Do The Thing, i thought i'd still have something to grasp onto, but... just.

the fact that it was romance that was main character's Event, that it was their time to shine when they fell in love, it just... ;-;

and it feels weird, i dunno, just. i've never seen myself as broken or particularly longed for anything that i can't and have never had, but... i'm feeling things in this Chili's tonight, folks

thank god for that one commenter that quoted a line and went "wow, I saw [insert Thing] as a metaphor for Autism!" and quoted another line and went "the need for Main Character to be happy versus my feelings that The Thing no longer happening are at War" (paraphrasing! didn't wanna post their comment w/o permission) because what a mood.

... yeah, that's it lol. *chucks post and runs*