#the man who mistook his wife for a hat was the book that made me fall in love w sacks/his writing so i was disappointed that i didnt find a

[0alanasworld0]

yessss my turn

tagged by: @mchiti (ilysm cutie xxx)

name: alana

birthday: december 16th

zodiac sign: saggitarius

hobbies: art, football, fashion (making clothes and putting outfits together), baking, music (piano, guitar, violin), shopping

favourite colours: peach, yellow, green, blue,

favourite books: The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat" by Oliver Sacks: I'm really interested in neuroscience and neurology in general so reading in detail about patients and their complex issues had me gripped from the start. the patients he details aren't the 'normal' cases but rather the ones that made Sacks, himself, think about how to better cater to those who suffer from neurological problems as well as highlighting the issues they face.

last song you listened to: "Be Like That" by Kane Brown, Swae Lee and Khalid: its just such a chilled and fun song, i always feel a little bit better when I listen to it

last film you watched: Spiderman: Into The Spiderverse: i needed some reference photos for my sketchbook and I thought that it gave me the perfect excuse to rewatch this masterpiece and it honestly took me back to 2017. i remembered just how much this film impacted me. the way that miles is extraordinary yet relatable, the way in which the film tackles grief, the animation style, the soundtrack is all so inherently beautiful, i dont think i could ever stop talking about this movie lmao

something that helps people: oof thats a tough one lol. I think that open-mindedness would be a good one: far too often, we take what people say as a complete picture of their character or take things at face value without considering other possibilities. i certainly think that we'd be a lot less bitter if we tired putting ourselves in other people's shoes before coming to unkind conclusions about them.

meaning behind url: originally this was gonna just be a space where i ranted like a mad woman so i thought alanasworld would fit quite well but that url is taken by some tarot card reader who hasn't posted since 2018. so i thought about Xs like: XalanasworldX or XxalanasworldxX but looks very porn-bot-esque so I just picked the next symmetrical key and i thought that 0alanasworld0 looked okay. however once the other alanasworld's account name is given away, i will be removing the 0s lol.

tysm for tagging me bb xxx.

I choose: @cherryxcadbury @chrxstac @prettypleiades @lululuvsfooty @gracelsalvatore @pedriswife @yourstory-teller and @cryingforcrocodiles

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Title: The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat

Author: Dr. Oliver Sacks

Rating: 2/5 stars

From the publisher:

"The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat," the world's first true medical-improvised autobiographical narrative, is a personal account by the author, Oliver Sacks. The story is set in and around London and its psychiatric hospitals during the late 50s and early 60s, and reveals the author's deep fascination with the human mind as he meets people with extraordinary and disturbing personalities and makes startling discoveries.

But I was the one who had to write, because nobody believed me. When I would describe my findings to my colleagues or to journalists in the press room of the hospital, I would get no reaction. I remember one journalist, who had written the most famous medical story of the year, the book The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat, made me sign a statement: "I, Oliver Sacks, assure you that I did not make these discoveries. The book was written by Oliver Sacks; I only acted as his literary executor."

(Sacks is a neurologist; he writes books like this to document his personal relationships with patients and to challenge the view that the mind is simply a passive receiver of the senses, the source of cognition just a transmitter of sense data.)

The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat is a very baffling book. In some parts the narrative is a bit like the old "reporter's notebook" accounts Sacks himself loved as a boy, describing the doctor/patient interactions with no intervening material. "On the morning of April 17, 1952, I saw Mrs. [Mabel] D. … At my suggestion, she had made a visit to Dr. [John] Smyth at the London Clinic. I had also arranged to have her examined on the next day, and I saw her again there. It was clear that Dr. [Smyth] was right in saying that she had suffered a stroke, but it was equally clear that I must have a longer look at her than Dr. [Smyth] had had. I sent for Dr. [George] Pickering, the consulting neurologist in the London Clinic. On examining her I found she had suffered a lesion in the right temporal lobe of her brain, the right hemisphere of the cerebrum, the medial region of the temporal lobe. The lesion was about 2 to 3 centimeters in diameter, and the symptoms were those usually called hemiplegic."

The book is a collection of many of these personal narratives, with Sacks' voice intercut with Sacks' description of these encounters. The book is also a mixture of the "reporter's notebook" and the psychoanalytical ("What I found was a case of paranoid schizophrenia, without doubt, a case of paranoid schizophrenia caused by an injury or lesions affecting the right temporal lobe").

It's very well-written, but I'm still trying to wrap my head around some of the things Sacks tells us about Mrs. M. D.'s brain. I don't want to say anything that might spoil this book, but let me just say this: in some ways, I found it more entertaining than enlightening.

In the course of Mrs. M. D.'s visit to the hospital, Sacks describes her as a sort of "super-woman," able to endure and recover from severe blows (for instance, she spent over a month in bed after a stroke, and survived by eating just a few spoonfuls of water a day); able to read, cook, play the piano, and draw; so calm and even-tempered even during episodes of violent rage that people sometimes found it hard to believe she had actually had an argument with her husband and could kill him; and who apparently didn't even seem aware of the unusual nature of these abilities, because when told by Sacks that she seemed to have recovered, her family's doctor replied that "in other conditions a patient with her abilities might have died." Sacks also describes (pp. 68-69) his attempt to draw some kind of mental map of Mrs. M. D.'s brain using what was in effect a cross-stitch-sewing technique.

(This bit is from the introduction, but if the book is going to be this strange, it might as well be in the introduction. Sacks' fascination with the bizarre, his love of the "weird," and his fascination with his patients probably makes for much more entertaining reading than trying to describe something like his brain map. If you don't want to know what it looks like, this is the place for you!)

[52booksproject]

Book 30 Musicophilia

RNG gave me 781 General principles and musical forms and what do you know, there was an Oliver Sacks book in there. So, huzzah, it was time for bizarre medical stories that shed light on how the human brain works.

I don't know if you've ever read the first Jeeves novels by P. G. Woodhouse, but they were a series of short stories that Woodhouse built a flimsy narrative around to make it a coherent novel rather than just a set of mostly unrelated short stories. Musicophilia seems to be series of essays, but Sacks doesn't give us the flimsy framework to edit it into a coherent book really. Stories are often repeated as if we hadn't heard them earlier in the book, etc. Just a minor complaint that it makes a lousy coherent product, but fair enough, no one is reading Oliver Sacks for structure. Also, just as an asside, he sure liked to name drop. Leon Fleisher came by and played his piano once.

Earworms that don't go away for YEARS is one of the major problems discussed in the book. People actually think the music is playing outside of them until they eliminate the possibility they realize it's coming from inside their head. Many times, but not always, it's accompanied by profound hearing loss. Sacks thinks (forgive my lousy summing up) in some cases the lack of information from hearing bores the brain which picks up the slack by providing earlier music. Or something like that.

Also, many professional musicians, or just very musical people who have severe conditions like amnesia (one guy can't remember outside a roughly 1 second window- ouch!), dementia, etc seem to be their old selves when performing or listening to music. Some people with aphasia - an inability to speak from say, stroke, or something- can learn to say a few things using musical lyrics, which is a separate thing in the brain from the language center. Even the man who mistook his wife for a hat makes an appearance as he uses songs to help his daily routines of getting dressed, etc. even though he can't identify objects correctly.

SHOULD YOU READ THIS BOOK: Do you like medical "oddities"? Do you like music? Do you not like music and wonder why? This is definitely not a waste of time, if so.

ART PROJECT:

I kind of drew a blank this week, so I present some of my favorite music, the Detective theme by Katsuo Ōno that I made into a midi. And if music sounds like crashing pots and pans to you, I'm sorry.

[deadpanwalking]

“One important reason for the neglect of the right, or 'minor', hemisphere, as it has always been called, is that while it is easy to demonstrate the effects of variously located lesions on the left side, the corresponding syndromes of the right hemisphere are much less distinct. It was presumed, usually contemptuously, to be more 'primitive' than the left, the latter being seen as the unique flower of human evolution. And in a sense this is correct: the left hemisphere is more sophisticated and specialised, a very late outgrowth of the primate, and especially the hominid, brain. On the other hand, it is the right hemisphere which controls the crucial powers of recognising reality which every living creature must have in order to survive. The left hemisphere, like a computer tacked onto the basic creatural brain, is designed for programs and schematics; and classical neurology was more concerned with schematics than with reality, so that when, at last, some of the right-hemisphere syndromes emerged, they were considered bizarre.”

Oliver Sacks, The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat

[pharawee]

Ohhh, can I ask several Top 5s?? Top 5 books. Top 5 countries you want to travel to. Top 5 bl shows. Top 5 dishes/recipes... Haha, sorry for being greedy. >_< Hope you have a nice sunday!

Hiii & thank you! ♥ And of course! If you don't mind my faves changing like, weekly, and probably not being v accurate lmao

Let's see...

Top 5 books (ok so these are probably more permanent - I read all of these ages ago but they influenced me a lot)

David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves

Stephen King, The Stand

Colin Dexter, The Remorseful Day

Oliver Sacks, The Man Who Mistook His Wife For A Hat (not a novel but Oliver Sacks' writing is amazing)

Top 5 countries I want to visit

The gf and I had planned to visit Dublin before covid hit so I guess that's still on the agenda once things have calmed down some more

Chiang Mai looks so beautiful and I really want to go there some day 🥺

Greece & Croatia because I'v never been and that is an outrage

I'd love to go hiking in Japan and just enjoy as much food as I can tbh lmao

Top 5 BL shows (oh no don't make me choose)

Love By Chance (because it's one of the first BLs I watched so I'll always have a soft spot for it)

Our Days (it's still running but it's so beautifully done)

ITSAY & IPYTM

Not Me

Something in my Room

There's lots and lots of other shows I love (Manner of Death, 1000 Stars, Bad Buddy...) but I think I prefer quieter, drawn out stories that... kind of linger on its characters.

Top 5 dishes

Pho (I can't get enough of it atm but I haven't made it myself yet... but the place I go to always gives me extra so no complaints here)

Pumpkin Soup (now the only reason why I'm looking forward to autumn)

Green Curry (I have a lot of food intolerances but for some reason I can eat spicy so ever since I made that discovery I've been going to town lmao)

Tom Kha Gai (yeah ok I bought a Thai cookbook last year can u tell)

Also, for some reason kimchi and mashed potatoes. Idk I tried it once because I had leftovers and it's so good? Like, I know it's about as sophisticated as rice and egg but it gives the same level of warm comfiness

[mcnobi]

I’m so sorry you’re stuck inside today :( I hope the storm eases up soon. 4, 14, and 30 for the favorites ask, please 💕

Also, here’s probably my fave pun of all time!! Hope you enjoy 🥰

Why did the mushroom go to the party??? 👀

Because he was a fun guy ☺️

(Tbh I learned this one while watching the one direction X factor video diaries as a teenager 😂😂😂 and I just found them on YouTube, and I’m about to watch them again and maybe cry 😂😂😂)

thank you my love; that's very thoughtful of you to say. 💜 we've just made sure the roof isn't going to fly off so i feel a bit happier now! thank you for keeping me distracted though 😉

4 - shade of green? this one:

i don't know what it is about that shade but it really calms me down. i always lean towards blue-green colours i think, because teal is another favourite. 14 - aspect of a person’s face?

eyes. always the eyes. if people want to let you, you can see a whole world in someones eyes, and i also feel like there's nothing better than seeing pure joy in people's eyes - when someone's whole face lights up with it. they can also be sexy as hell, of course.

30 - book shorter than 300 pages? i read more non-fiction than anything else but i also forget every book i've ever read when people ask me about them so i'm going to go for one that's jumped into my head - Oliver Sacks: The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat. Oliver Sacks was a unique and fascinating man and the secret failed doctor in me will always appreciate how he writes about the brain.

thank you for that excellent pun fun too 😂🧡 sometimes the simplest ones are the best! i'm going to leave you with my favourite comic strip i've ever seen because it makes me laugh so much it's embarrassing:

ask me my favourite things

[thegirlwho]

I was tagged by the lovely @fleckcmscott so here it goes.

Story of my url: This is going to be so long! So, for a long time my name was different because thegirlwho was taken. It’s only been about a year or so since I was somehow able to get this name but I had always wanted it! My all time favorite band, Travis, named their second album The Man Who. That is the album that made me fall for them while I was going through an incredibly tough time in my life. Many of the stories in the lyrics of their songs are tied and the names of some of their other albums follow a similar pattern: The Invisible Band, The Boy With No Name, etc. I feel like The Girl Who describes me best, because of my very personal attachment to the band, that album in particular, and because the name comes from the book The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat, a book of essays about different functions (and malfunctions) of different parts of the brain.

Favorite color(s): Pink, purple and black.

No pressure, but I’m tagging: @kipli, @fly-like-a-phoenix, @mynameisjenbob, @raven-romanoff

[fishklok]

4, 31, and 42, please! (Gointothevvater 🖤)

get to know me

4. what are you looking forward to?

I'm almost done with this chapter of w3 and I really like the illustration I made for it, so I'm excited to post that! Also after a rough November, I finally have the weekends to myself again and I cherish this time even more now.

31. 3 random facts

My favorite author offered me a condom (unused) and when I said no thank you he gave me shampoo from his hotel instead.

I bought SOAD tickets today

From ages 7-8, I used to come home from school, grab a lemon from the kitchen, climb the tree in our yard, and sit on one of the branches while i ate the lemon whole. I'd throw the peel on the ground.

42. favourite book(s)

The Butchering Art

The Kane Chronicles (children's series, but it's both the only book I've been in a serious fandom for, and my longest-running fandom involvement, so I have to include it)

The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat

That Nick Cave graphic novel

[reminaissance]

Hi ! I'm a french-canadian so I'm sorry in advance if my question isn't clear. I'm trying my best ! :)

I would like to know which are your 10 favorite books.

By the way, your story is amazing and you are inspiring! I've been to New-York before and every time I read JOTU, I want to go back.

omg dude don’t apologize, you did great! hell, speak to me in french if you want - je parle un peu français :)

you know it’s funny cause i told a friend recently that picking favorite books is like picking a favorite child, it’s practically impossible, but let me try! 

Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel García Márquez - He is big in magic realism, and as such he gives this love story a very dreamy and melancholic quality. It is sigh-inducing for sure. Very dear to my heart.

IT by Stephen King - I love King in general. I strive to write like him - to immerse people in the life of every character he presents whether they are main, secondary or simply background. IT in specific though develops in such an intricate way that, to me, it becomes more than just a horror story.

A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini - Yo, this book broke me tbh. It changed me. It made me cry. It is heart wrenching but so so special. 

The Price of Salt by Patricia Highsmith - I mean............................. Carol.

The Prophet by Khalil Gibran - It is not exactly a story, per se. But it is a series of reflections with such rich use of words that oftentimes while I was reading it I would have to put the book down and contemplate my entire life.

The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat by Oliver Sacks - What can I say, I love neuroscience, and the way Sacks explains and talks about the way our brains sometimes work in very peculiar ways is stupidly immersive and deeply humane.

Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë - “Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.” This book is heavy, there’s lots of words, lots of descriptiveness, but Brontë is a genius and that is all. 

The Color Purple by Alice Walker - A tiny piece of my heart was left in between the pages of that book. 

Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden - Ahhh, I remember this is the last book I bought in NY and the very first one I read when I had just moved to LA. I gifted it to a very dear friend of mine. That’s how special it is.

To Live by Hua Yu - Deeply humbling. The story is so simple yet so full of life, you can’t help but be immersed from page one.

what are yours?

thank you so much as well for your last comment, you are amazing! 

[mxlxdroit]

a few weeks ago, my friend lent me oliver sacks’s book the man who mistook his wife for a hat and other clinical tales. i read the entire thing in a day and i really can’t recommend his writing highly enough except to say that it made me feel connected to humanity- his, his patients’, and my own. anyways. i got a subscription to starz just to watch black sails, but i found that they have the 1990 adaptation of sacks’s book awakenings, which is an account of fifteen patients afflicted in childhood with encephalitis lethargica and rendered almost paralyzed for decades thereafter. robin williams plays a (re-named) sacks, who proposes the use of l-dopa, an experimental drug used to treat parkinson’s disease, in treating these paralyzed patients. the movie is fantastic and i felt so deeply for the patients, struggling to connect with other people in their unresponsive state and having a miraculous but temporary return to themselves. so uh. highly recommended very good etc.

[diminished-fish]

References for “A Portrait in Synesthesia”

This fic is COMPLETE now, so anyone who might have been hesitant to follow a wip, here you go! The whole synesthetic package, wrapped up with a nice lil bow on top. :3

For those who might have missed the masterpost: the fic was my contribution to the good omens big bang and is a sweeping, canon-compliant romp through history, told in (almost) all original scenes, with lots of nature imagery and T.S. Eliot. Kind of my own cold open, but with way more feelings and flowers. Also the sea. And an emotionally significant comet.

I had the opportunity to throw all of myself at this project and really enjoyed making it an intense focus for a while. In a way, it was an experiment to see how much I was capable of, which as it turns out, is more than I thought! (there’s a lesson here, probably...). Going this deep with the research and worldbuilding is not something I will likely be doing often for fic writing, but since I did with this one, I figured I’d share a bit of the process.

Under the cut are major spoilers for the timeline, story, and historic events in my recent fic, A Portrait in Synesthesia. I had originally planned to post this information in the end notes of the fic, but at some point, the list got way too long and posting it here became the sensible choice. There is a link to this post in the end notes of the fic, so it will be easy to find your way back here if you get to the end and want to know a bit more about the writing and research process. 

The Title:

Putting this bit at the top because I don’t know where else to put it: The working title for this fic throughout the entire writing process was “In Synesthesia.” I almost changed the final title in the eleventh hour to “The Still Point of the Turning World” because of what a prevalent theme Eliot became (that line was also slipped into the story three times at important moments — once for each POV character). I also briefly considered “Always, We Were Enough” as a title, since the conversation with Adrielle at the lighthouse kind of... accidentally became the thesis of the whole story, but that was a bit too sappy even for me, a Confirmed Sap. 

And while I’ll be questioning my choice of title for the rest of forever (titling things is hard, y’all), I ultimately thought the more descriptive title was best, and wanted to keep the nod to the song that inspired it all.

Speaking of the song... have you listened to it yet?? It’s great, I promise!

Synesthesia:

This was my research starting point. Before I dug into any of the historical or astronomical research or even started any serious plotting, I started reading about synesthesia, or, as Psychology Today defines it: the neurological condition in which the stimulation of one sensory or cognitive pathway (for example, hearing) leads to automatic, involuntary experiences in a second sensory or cognitive pathway (such as vision).

Full disclosure: I do not have synesthesia. I spent a LOT of time researching it for this fic and did my best to portray it accurately, in spite of the fantastical elements I added. If I’ve overstepped or gotten something wrong and there are any synesthetes out there who would like to talk about it, I am very open to those discussions. The AO3 comments are always open to that, or you can message me/send me an ask here if you would like a less public forum.

I probably read r/Synesthesia in its entirety, but this thread of first-hand accounts was one of the most interesting to me and provided a lot of the inspiration for how I used the emotional synesthesia imagery. 

Besides everyone’s favorite research staring point of Wikipedia, this link is one I got from Boston University’s Synesthesia Project, and it is a pretty exhaustive list of research and books, as well as art and poetry about synesthesia. I have also been working my way through The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat and Other Clinical Tales, by Oliver Sacks which is the book that came most frequently recommended to me in my search. It’s an extremely approachable and interesting look at neurological conditions, synesthesia among them.

As it appears in the fic:

In a broad, generalized sense, Aziraphale and Crowley have a few types of synesthesia in this story. Obviously, I gave it a supernatural/celestial twist and a healthy glug of magical realism, but I did try to keep it firmly rooted in the actual condition. The types of synesthesia they have are:

Chromesthesia: they both have this. Sounds, specifically each other’s voices, have a color association

Lexical-gustatory synesthesia/emotion-flavor synesthesia: Aziraphale has this. Words (in this case, emotions, specifically Crowley’s emotional state) have a taste.

Odor-color synesthesia/emotion-odor synesthesia: Crowley has this. Words (again, emotions, specifically Aziraphale’s emotional state) have a smell.

One of the defining characteristics of synesthesia is that it is constant. If a synesthete connects the number 9 with the color blue, for example, then they will always connect them in this way. This was the major difference between real synesthesia and the fantasy synesthesia in this fic. The sensory/emotion connections for Aziraphale and Crowley changed in subtle ways as their relationship evolved through the ages.

The “binding thread” also had nothing to do with synesthesia. That was me wanting to make the spool analogy work for the body swap, baking it into the entire fic because I liked how the imagery fit with the synesthesia, and then leaning into the magic and the soul memory so hard that I fell flat on my face into magical realism. (A True Fact: I have spent a fair amount of time lying on the floor in the past 6 months, shaking my fist at the cute little plot bunny who grew fangs and claws and dragged me down a rabbit hole that ended up being 100k words deep). 

Anyway! Research!

Before I get into space and history and flowers... Yes, I admit to absolutely making up some wacky shit about Europa for the sake of fun banter and making a metaphor work. All those pre-Fall scenes on abandoned Earths are 100% a fantasy setting and I exercised the super fun right of a fantasy writer and embraced the worldbuilding (moonbuilding?). I also just thought Crowley would have delighted in tying a moon’s guts in knots, and Aziraphale would have delighted in the idea of whimsy-for-whimsy’s-sake. Please don’t lose sleep over the scientific inaccuracies.

Halley’s comet:

I promise not to bog this down with a billion comet facts, but there were a few particular things about Halley’s comet that had me gasping dramatically about how it’s “A.J. Crowley, but a comet!!” Specifically, it’s orbit and it’s structure. 

Halley’s retrograde orbit gives it one of the fastest velocities (relative to Earth) of any object in the solar system. I never explicitly worked the “you go too fast for me” line into the fic because I was trying to do original scenes (this particular story lived between the lines), but... just know that tidbit is there and join me in these emotional dire straits. If you like.

The comet’s structure is what is known as a “rubble pile”, meaning it’s made up of a bunch of smaller rocks held together by gravity (read: a hot god damn mess held together by stubbornness). 

As it appears in the fic:

The nucleus of Halley’s comet is shaped like a weird lopsided peanut. In fact, one could almost look at it and say it resembles a contact binary star, if such a thing could be a shriveled, misshapen pile of rubble.

Officially, Halley’s comet might have been recorded as early as 467 BC (a comet was recorded in Greece that year— unclear if it was Halley’s, but the timing and the fact that it was visible to the naked eye suggests that it probably was). This was the year I had Aziraphale making the scroll that causes Crowley’s panic in Athens (390 BC). I like to think that some human, at some point, caught a glimpse of it and tried to bring it to light, only to be written off as a crazed conspiracy theorist.

The apocalyptic depiction of Halley’s comet in chapter 9 (Bithynia) is actually based in fact. The comet made its closest approach to Earth (in human memory) in 837 AD, passing within 5 million kilometers. Its tail stretched halfway across the sky and it appeared as bright as Venus to the naked eye.

1910 Halley’s Comet panic. Bonus: c o m e t  p i l l s

Where 1910′s appearance was a spectacular sight and one of the closest approaches on record (coming within 22 million kilometers of Earth), 1986′s was the worst viewing conditions in 2,000 years. The comet passed within 63 million kilometers at its closest approach, and had the sun positioned between it and Earth, making it impossible to see from areas with any amount of light pollution, and almost invisible to all of the northern hemisphere. 

Historic events and settings:

Chapter 6 (Ostia): This was one of the chapters that I did a bunch of arguably unnecessary research for, since the history and the meat of the setting faded into the backdrop as the scene itself focused on dialogue and train of thought. The port town of Ostia was incredibly engrossing to read about, and between wikipedia’s ever-branching paths, ostia-antica.org, and ancient history encyclopedia’s entry, it ended up being one of the deeper rabbit holes I went down. My original intent for Aziraphale being in town was as a response to pirates sacking Ostia in 68 BC. I had him stationed there to guard against further attacks as the town rebuilt, and had him lingering because he was swept away by the romanticism of the art and the sea and the constant ebb & flow of people. I never found a way to work this in that didn’t feel super awkward and expository since the chapter was Crowley POV, so it was just left it as background noise.

Chapter 6 (pyramid of Cestius): Beyond being a magistrate of one of the four great religious corporations in ancient Rome (the Septemviri Epulonum), little is known about who Gaius Cestius actually was. As the city expanded, his lavish tomb was absorbed into the city walls (circa 3rd century AD), where it remains what he is remembered for to this day. I took most of my information from here (cross referenced with our lord and savior, Wikipedia) and had a chuckle at this poem by Thomas Hardy.

Chapter 8 (Plague of Justinian): The Yersinia pestis bacterium leaves no indicator on skeletal remains, meaning we rely on written records to track its path through history. The 6th century plague pandemic is the first recorded outbreak of bubonic plague, and for the purpose of our story, a certain distraught chronicler was the one on site, writing that history.

A note/cw: I wrote chapters 8 and 12 in October and November, respectively, and did much of my research for them over the summer. I imagine, given the current covid-19 pandemic, these sources would be less fun to follow up on now. Please be aware that the podcast episodes linked here, and the book cited in the miscellaneous refs section, get into pretty grisly details about illness and pandemics.

Chapters 8 and 12 (bubonic plague/The Black Death): I took a fair amount of my notes on bubonic/pnuemonic plague, specifically it’s path of destruction through Europe in the 14th century, from the two plague episodes of This Podcast Will Kill You. It’s pretty fascinating stuff and the Erins are great hosts, so check it out if you’re into delightful nerds bantering about epidemiology! 

Chapter 9 (the death of Peter of Atroa): Peter of Atroa was an abbot whose fame as a miracle-worker landed him in a scandal accusing him of exorcising demons by the power of Beelzebub, rather than God. Theodore the Studite’s letter cleared his name enough to avoid execution, but his reputation didn’t fully recover until after his death in 837 AD, when he was canonized as a saint. Peter and Theodore were tough to find extensive information on without passing through a paywall, so I took these scraps and ran a mile with them.

Chapter 13 (Tlatelolco, the Aztec Empire, the Feast of the Dead): I used this site as the source and starting point on much of my research on the Aztec Empire. And listen… I know it looks like a website for babies, and yes, I’m aware that a lot of the articles are literally written for a pre-teen audience, but it’s also one of the most concise, thorough, well-researched, and — perhaps most importantly — easily-searchable sources I found. Most of the pages cite papers and archaeological journals and I was able to jump to SO many other great sources of information. Mexicolore has my undying love and devotion for making my research process easy and fun and also having lots of pretty pictures.

Most of the physical descriptions for Tenochtitlan and Tlatelolco (surrounding landscape, canals and causeways, chinampas, etc.) started here.

Tenochtitlan and Tlatelolco were independent cities, but shared a border (kind of like a city and a suburb) and the small island on Lake Texcoco (located where present day Mexico City is). Tenochtitlan was the capital city of the Aztec Empire, and besides cross-referencing Mexicorlore, the link in the previous bullet point, and Wikipedia, I got a fair bit of information from these essays. 

Tlatelolco’s market was the major hub of trade and commerce, and saw 20-40,000 people trading PER DAY. Research on the market started here.

Chapter 14 (Terschelling and the Brandaris lighthouse): While I strove for historical accuracy as much as possible in this fic, I did take some liberties— especially with the island of Terschelling and the Brandaris lighthouse (yes, it’s real!) circa 1350-1435. 

The village of Brandarius is based on present day West Terschelling— a settlement founded as a direct result of the lighthouse. In the middle ages, both the village and the lighthouse were named after Saint Brandarius (or Brendan of Clonfert: ‘The Navigator’, ‘The Voyager’, ‘The Anchorite’, ‘The Bold’; patron saint of divers, mariners, and travellers). It’s still a relatively small village today, and it was a surprisingly difficult task to find historical records for Brandarius/West Terschelling dating back to the 14th century that say much beyond “it existed.” I loosely based the village off information found here, and named it “Brandarius” instead of “West Terschelling” based on the information found here. 

The original lighthouse was built in 1323, destroyed by the sea in 1570, and rebuilt in 1594. Since there were no records (that I could find) of what the original lighthouse looked like, I loosely based the height and floor plan on the current tower, and made up everything everything else about the interior. The interior was based on information about other live-in lighthouses, specifically this one which is roughly the same height as the Brandaris.

The present day Brandaris lighthouse sits directly in the middle of West Terschelling. For the sake of that sweet Self-Imposed Exile + Cryptid Lighthouse Keeper drama, I took the liberty of making my fictional village of Brandarius teeny tiny and setting it slightly apart from the lighthouse. 

Miscellaneous references:

In addition to the podcast, details about plague in chapters 8 and 12 were gleaned from the book The Great Mortality by John Kelly. It’s a cool read if you’re into nonfiction that reads like fiction, but does have some rather graphic passages so proceed with caution.

Yaretzi’s maquizcóatl/Aziraphale’s memento. To clarify, they were NOT the same item. I pictured Aziraphale cherishing the memory of the day by the lake with Yaretzi so much, that once he acquired the bookshop and had a place for all his kitsch, he hunted down a bad luck dragon of his own.

Here is the Aztec creation story about sun cycles and Earth’s rebirths that Yaretzi told Aziraphale. Another version of it.

In the scene in Mexico where Aziraphale briefly remembers, I used an analogy about a moment that hovers and flits away as “quick as a hummingbird.” Besides just liking the words, this was a nod to the legend of the cempasuchil flower. I originally had Yaretzi telling Aziraphale that story too, but the chapter was just way too long and something had to go.

In my very first outline, I had Aziraphale’s grief and personal growth chapter taking place at a Día de Muertos festival in Mexico. When the plot and the timeline finally got ironed out and I realized only half of that story was going to take place on Earth, I ended up focusing on Aziraphale’s brief relationship with Yaretzi instead of the festival itself (she was always the important bit). I also found myself married to the idea of that chapter happening in the 14th and 15th centuries, which meant the scenes in Mexico take place before Spain invaded and the festival was based solely on its Aztec roots. Because the plot shifted in this way, a lot of research went on behind the scenes that never made it into the fic, but for anyone interested in the Aztec Feast of the Dead, Mexicolore was my starting place again. From there, I found my way to reading about Mictecacíhuatl, the Aztec goddess of death, who was the main focus of the festival.

This isn’t research, but it might interest, like… three of you, so here you go. The scenes in Heaven (Aziraphale’s solo chapter in general tbh) were hard to write. One of those walls you hit with writing where you kick and punch and bang your head against it for months (literal months, I started wrestling with it in August and it didn’t come together until the end of January) but can’t seem to make any breakthroughs. Inspiration truly comes from unexpected places though, and when @gottagobuycheese sent me this Gregorian chant generator it actually… worked? I cranked that hum slider up to 100 and left it there for a few days (to the chagrin of my spouse) and lo— Zophiel.

There’s a cool legend about Saint Brendan of Clonfert’s sea-faring journey in search of the Garden of Eden that has nothing to do with this fic beyond being neat parallel. If that happens to be anyone’s cup of tea, the story is here. The tl;dr version is here. My original vision for the lighthouse included carved whales (St Brendan’s attribute) over the front door, and images from this story (the island of sheep, the Christmas island, the paradise island of birds) drawn on the walls of one of the bedrooms used by previous keepers’ children. Continuing the theme of “how stories echo” if you will. It felt really awkward and out of place once I wrote it in though, and that chapter was already so long once I got through all the plot bits I wanted, so it was left on the cutting room floor. 

Speaking of taking liberties with the 14th century, I did fudge the timing a bit on the art created by Crowley and Adrielle. Drawings, especially pencil sketches, have their historical roots in the late 15th century, and I’m chalking this one up to the fantastical setting of the Good Omens universe. In a fantasy world where angels and demons walk among us and the earth is literally 6,000 years old, I feel like inventing pencils 100 years early is small potatoes. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

This is the edition of A Midsummer Night’s Dream that Crowley nicked in Norwich. There are some really wonderful illustrations and scans of full pages under that link. I may or may not have lost a few hours down that research rabbit hole for a few throwaway lines (no regrets, I fall like Crowley). 

One last rabbit hole...

I saved this bit for the end of the post since it’s not really research and I don’t know how interested people will be in this kind of thing. Also... this is a lot more emotional and personal than the historical aspects of the fic. This is just what I was feeling and thinking while I was writing, and this story is absolutely the kind of thing I expect everyone to take something different away from. If you read the fic, took your own meaning from it, and want to keep that meaning without me tarnishing it by babbling about symbolism (first of all, high five, I love you, thank you for hanging out with me and my stories), then feel free to skip the rest of this post. <3

But! For anyone who wants to know more about what I had in mind with the flowers and nature metaphors I worked into the story, read on!

The tag “it’s an OT3 where Earth is the third” is something I really worked to pull to center stage. In my mind, Earth was a fully formed character who also spent the pre-Fall storyline being jerked around by God and having its memory wiped. It experienced transformations, pain, heartbreak, joy, and love just like Aziraphale and Crowley did, and I wrote it as falling in love with the two of them over the course of the Earth Project, then remaining very much in love for the entirety of iteration 23 (the current iteration). “Memories that are buried in places deeper than the mind” referred to the soul imprints being formed, but also Earth’s buried memories— seeping through the cracks to connect them via synesthesia in emotionally charged moments, allowing them to find each other from orbit in iterations 20 and 21 (music and the sea), and pulling them together in moments of distress like Constantinople and Barcelona.

In the vein of “Earth as a character,” I used plants (mainly flowers), topography, and weather as Earth’s “voice” in the grief chapters when Crowley and Aziraphale were separated from each other and going through their individual arcs. I’m not sure it technically counts as flower language, since all the flowers featured in the fic were wild and growing in nature, but (almost) all of them served a metaphorical purpose.

Flowers:

Jasmine (for the moon): Aziraphale’s flower. Love, beauty, sensuality, good luck, purity. The rational hedonist.

Marigolds (for the sun): Crowley’s flower. Grief and remembrance of the dead, lost love, the fragility of life, creativity, winning the affections of someone through hard work. The fallen artist.

Purple Hyacinth: Earth’s flower. Regret, sorrow, a desire for forgiveness. The witness. These were the wildflowers that grew in the orchard/vineyard on the penultimate Earth, where Aziraphale and Crowley managed to work out the differences they couldn’t by the sea. Hyacinths are also the hazy images they would see in those moments of vulnerability, compassion, and compromise. 

A fun aside! In very early drafts, the placeholder name I was using for angel Crowley was Jacinto, which is a Spanish/Portuguese name meaning “Hyacinth.” It was meant to be a reference to both the flower and the Greek myth of Apollo and Hyacinth, but my brain absolutely could not disconnect it from Manny Jacinto (and kept insisting on imagining Crowley calling Aziraphale homie and calling everything dope). Eventually I leaned into the Latin and landed on Joriel, then attached my banner to the Achilles and Patroclus myth instead of Apollo and Hyacinth, but the name Jacinto still makes me think of starmakers.

Honeysuckle & morning glory, climbing the oak tree: Aziraphale + Crowley + Earth. Seen in chapter 10, when Aziraphale and Crowley shake hands on the Arrangement. Two plants whose vines grow in opposing spirals. In nature, they have a symbiotic relationship, twining around each other in order to climb trees, walls, and fences, allowing both of them to grow higher than they could alone. 

Or: local woman sees this tweet, hasn’t known peace since.

The deasilwise / widdershins (clockwise / anticlockwise) thing got sprinkled throughout the story, with deasilwise being the “angel direction” and widdershins being the “demon direction.” Halley’s comet, with its backwards orbit, orbits the sun deasilwise, even after Crowley becomes widdershins.

Amaranth: Immortality, unfading affection, finding beauty in inaccessible places. 

The garden in the dunes and Petya’s travelling garden:

Where Aziraphale took a methodical, Kubler-Ross approach to dealing with loss, Crowley’s process was meandering and chaotic. The garden in the dunes was where it all came to a head— his way of throwing all of his emotions on the ground like a big jumbled pile of pick-up sticks, then slowly sorting through them and putting himself back together. There was a whole lot of Earth/flower speech going on in those scenes.

With the exception of zinnias, the garden was made up of perennials or self-sowing flowers. This happened “off-screen” as I could never find a decent way to work it in, but... the zinnias which Crowley bullied into being perennials returned to being annuals and died off after he left Terschelling and sometimes I still cry in the shower about it. 

Zinnias: Adrielle’s flower. Endurance, lasting friendship (especially friendships lasting through absence), goodness, daily remembrance. This one is also a small self-indulgence on my part since Adrielle was something of a self-insert. My mother loves zinnias and, growing up, our house was absolutely surrounded by them in the summer. Anywhere there was a free patch of dirt, Mom planted zinnias. They’re a scrappy, weird looking flower that doesn’t have a smell and a lot of people find rather ugly... and I love them with my entire heart. There is no flower on this earth that fills me with more whimsy, nostalgia, or childlike contentment. Also butterflies love them.

Chamomile: Patience. Fresh chamomile flowers are very aromatic and smell like apples.

Daisies: Transformation. Also simplicity, loyalty, and new beginnings.

Poppies: Restful sleep or recovery, peace in death, remembrance.

Tulips: Each tulip color has its own meaning, but the most common thing they symbolize is deep love. That said, I mainly chose this one for their prevalence in the Netherlands, as well as being very colorful perennials.

Pansies: The love or admiration that one person holds for another, free thinking, remembrance.

Lily of the valley: Rebirth, the return of happiness. They also have a very strong, very sweet smell and can grow in cool climates. These were the main reasons I chose it, rather than any of the religious connotations.

Lavender: Silence, devotion, serenity, grace.

Orchids: There’s... actually no deep symbolism with this one. Nothing intended anyway. Orchids, lavender, and cranberries are the dominant native plants on the island of Terschelling. I thought they’d be pretty in the dunes.

I am also a music-must-be-playing-at-all-times kind of person and I came out the other end of this project with FIFTEEN (15) playlists. Some of them are all instrumental playlists that I used to set the mood while I wrote certain scenes/segments, others are lyrical and tell a story or helped me sort out the story, some chapters got entire playlists all to themselves (looking at you, 14th century). The main playlists are linked in the notes on AO3, but I may collect them all in a tumblr post at some point if there’s an interest.

This entire project was an enormous labor of love that took up pretty much all of my free time for six months. So, if you read this far... thank you for coming on such a long journey with me!! Truly, deeply, and from every corner of my heart, thank you for reading. <3

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confessions, childhood memories, story time!

Hello!!!! 🌼🌺🌹

childhood memories - your hogwarts house! your god parent in camp halfblood!

Hogwarts house: ravenclaw or slytherin, took some tests recently and i get both results equally 😅

God parent: well, i have yet to read the series, but tests say its Aphrodite! (I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing though.)

story time - 3 books that have affected you and how?

Awww yea so:

1. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak.

It's the last book i read, and it really changend my view on the world. After I finished it, i felt like a new oerson, but I can't explain it completely? It gave me a very interesting insight on the situation in Germany during ww2. The book is told by Death, and follows the life of a young girl growing up near Munich.

2. The secret of the Dragon Wall (Tajomstvo Dračej Steny) by Jozef Žarnay.

The author is slovakian, and so is the book. It was my introduction to the sci-fi genre! I don't really remember a lot about it, so I might re-read it!

3. The Man Who Mistook His Wife For A Hat by Oliver Sacks.

It's a collection of medical cases, all in the field of neurology. It showed me how people with various disabilities deal with life, and it certainly made me grateful for my health. It's not written as "coldly" as I would expect, i even cried about 3 times while reading it- from my perspective, the author shows these people as people, not just as their diagnosis.

confessions - past lives? do you believe in them? do you know any?

I don't know yet if I believe in them, but I like the idea very much. I, unfortunately, don't know any....

Tysm for asking and have a nice day!!! 🌼🌹🌺🏵️🌼💮🌹🌺🌸🌼🏵️🌷🌹🌷🌼💐💐

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what books have you been reading recently, and would you recommend any of them?

The Book of Why and the Philosophy of Science: An Introduction (D. O. G. Arcediano, Penguin Books (Random House). 3 stars / 3.5 stars based on Wikipedia says: "All the Birds Are Brown is the first book in the All the Birds Are Brown series")

The World According to Skydiving – Larry Correia. This is a hilarious book and if you like my writing style I think you'll probably enjoy this one. This review is pretty bad though, but then everything I wrote about this book was pretty bad.

The Invisible Gorilla – Robin Hanson. A very strange book that is one of the most original and creative books I have ever read.

The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat – David Seuss.

Harry Potter and the Methods of Mathematical Thinking – Eliezer Yudkowsky, although this review of HPMoR is probably better than anything I have ever written about anything. HPMoR has been the best book I've ever read for the way it changed my life. I'll come back to the review, but that's the spirit of the book, you see

Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality.

More books that don't stand out for their quality or literary merit per se but that have been very important to me:

Richard Feynman's famous Feynman Lectures on Physics.

The Physics of Star Trek.

The Quantum Thief

The Last Question

Mason & Dixon

Causality and Chance in Modern Physics: The Physicist's Guide to the Subject (Amsterdamsma & de Raeynders.)

The Blind Assassin

A book that's really important to me that isn't one of the above that I would recommend highly:

Lucifer by the name of Uriel, or the Secret History of the World. This is the book I've always wanted, ever since I was a kid, where every book in every other story was actually the book of the story. It has the following qualities:

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was corrupt before the world had come into existence, and God perceived that it was corrupted. So he brought the first man and the last man and the animals of the field together. Then God brought the man and the woman from the earth to the garden, took away their names, and made them one. This is the beginning of your name.

God saw all of the things that God had made, and God said "this is very good. Now we will make another thing and we will see if this thing is good. It would be good if things were bad, but since they are good they will be the same." Therefore, God made another thing, and God made man in God's image and God's likeness. And God saw every thing that God had made, and it was very good.

Now that we are all made, God gave us orders. One of those orders is to eat a bunch of meat. But because meat is good, that order only goes as far as the order for good things.

And after the order for good things, we gave God a big hug, and God said "please don't break my arm." And we said ok and then went off and did some other stuff like inventing baseball and flying to the moon and the thing where man became god and that other one where the snake bit its own tail and so forth.

After we had been in space for a while, we got in the space shuttle with God, and God said "would you like to see some of our stuff" and we agreed, and he opened the sun and the moon and the stars, and we saw, and we said we liked it. We made another thing and asked God's permission to make it bigger. God said "no, that's bad." We tried to stop God, but God kept making the thing, so we had to throw him in jail and shut the sun and the moon and the stars up in their boxes. And we threw some other stuff away and told people it was broken.

From the point that everything was destroyed, God was imprisoned for a while in the Earth's core. We threw God in prison in order to keep him from being able to make another thing.

Since this is a very important part, I will tell you about it. After everything was ruined, God got out of prison and said "let's make one more thing", and we agreed, and God made the sun, and the moon, and the stars, and people, and everything good that people have

[abrillherrera]

Musicophilia: Tales of music and the brain | Book review

Author: Oliver Sacks

The “mind detective” is back to show us that music has more power over our minds and bodies than we ever imagined. This time, the famous neurologist is back to my personal library with a book where he collects the stories from his patients and some of the most interesting cases where he got to witness people affected by different mental and physical conditions that seemed to be treated with certain success with music.

I first got the chance to read this author with “The man who mistook his wife for a hat”, for which I also wrote a quick review, where he also tells medical cases offering special attention to people within the spectrum. The way he writes his books and the very interesting cases caught me and made me search for another title, so this one popped up right away.

The mental conditions showed cased here prove that the human mind and brain are still big mysteries, we still have a lot to solve and find out, each case can be so different –enough for doctors and specialists to scratch their heads– depending on the patient and their lifestyles, which makes it hard for them to standardize and therefore, find a cure or a treatment for those mental diseases.

It is so interesting to see the adaptability of the human brain. Where the mind seems to excel at some tasks and being deeply affected by some other areas, our brains are able to overcome those limitations and, at moments, even work their way out by developing other abilities to their advantage to assure survival, most of the time, as illustrated in this book, using music as conduct and even an accelerator of the process, making their lives better while giving them and their families the hope they needed to maintain a good life quality.

Some of the stories and conditions mentioned here are far from being diseases properly, some of them could be betters described as “extensions of the human senses and capacities”, simply by the great musical abilities that those force the people affected to develop, or even the impressive talents that come as a result of those experiences. The one I can think of is synesthesia, a condition where the subject can smell colors, see figures or perceive smells when listening to music or even co-relate numbers along with sounds and musical notes. Lorde has this condition, she has described this as a colored fog while listening to music.

The book is written from the patient perspective, which makes it easy to read and provides a more human look over a matter that can get pretty technical and scientific, which makes it interesting for people like me – who don’t know anything on neurology, or medicine for that matter– while it’s still interesting and a good way to start conversations amongst doctors and specialists in their respective fields. I started reading this for my love of music and I keep going for the interesting and illustrative stories that truly shine a light on, the still long way, towards unveiling the deeps of the human brain.

[sixth-light]

hey this is uni anon again and I wanted to say thank you for the first genuinely helpful piece of advice I have gotten over the course of 2 years. also if you had a list of popular science reading recs that would be so immensely helpful, the last time I did anything close to this was when I was deciding on the topic of my seminar paper (german education system, yay) and that mainly consisted of reading Wikipedia articles about early 1900s murder conspiracy theories which isn't really helpful rn

Popular science recs, coming right up! (I will note if you’re in Germany there’s a bit less wiggle room so definitely make sure you get to grips with prerequisities and what you have to take to complete a degree in a specific field - but I know there’s lots of Germans here who can give you more specific advice on that.)

BiologyAlmost Like A Whale (Steve Jones) - evolution in generalThe Emperor Of All Maladies (Siddartha Mukherjee) - cancer biology and medicineI Contain Multitudes (Ed Yong) - microbes! microbes microbes microbes. Other Minds (Peter Godfrey-Smith) - octopuses and intelligence

GeologyLab Girl (Hope Jahren) - a memoir, but one that revolves around geobiology and palaeoclimate sciencePale Blue Dot (Carl Sagan) - space exploration and planetary geologyKrakatoa (Simon Winchester) - VOLCANOES (he also wrote a good one on the San Franciscon 1905 earthquake)

ChemistryUncle Tungsten (Oliver Sacks) - a chemistry primer/memoir comboThe Poisoner’s Handbook (Deborah Bloom) - forensic toxicology in Jazz Age New York

Psychology/AnthropologySapiens (Yuval Noah Harari) - the evolution of our species The Man Who Mistook His Wife For A Hat (Oliver Sacks) - case studies in weird brain things 

Maths/computersThe Code Book (Simon Singh) - cryptography

PhysicsThe Elegant Universe (Brian Greene) - prob a bit outdated now, but made string theory vaguely comprehensible to meThe Glass Universe (Dana Sobel) - a social history of female astronomers in 19thC AmericaHidden Figures (Margot Lee Shetterley) - you may have seen the movie, but the book is equally good and can get into more detail about the scienceE=MC2 (David Bodanis) - how the famous equation works, with some great side-trips into things like how Norwegians on skis stopped the Nazis getting the nuclear bomb

There is also a lot of good science writing out there on the internet - for long-form articles I particularly recommend Ed Yong and the magazines Wired and Scientific American. Also, some of these books are pretty long and this list is intended as a “try this” list, not a “you should read the whole thing” list. 

I’m going to throw this out to my followers - any other great popular science book recs, especially in the areas where I have fewer and/or written by women? 

[wondroussimmer-blog]

GET TO KNOW ME-

Basically, no one actually tagged me in this, but I thought i’d give it a go anyway seeing as this is a new blog and you guys can get to now me a bit, so I tag anyone who sees this and also wants to have a go...

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1. What is your full name? I’m not putting my last name on here, but my first name is Maja (Miya) 2. What is your nickname? I don’t really have one 3. Birthday? January 1st 4. What is your favourite book series? I don’t really read book series’ 5. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? Not 100% sure, I don’t believe in the sort of ghosts you see in films, but I think I believe our loved ones stay with us in some way. As for aliens, idk, we can’t be the only life but idk.  6. Who is your favourite author? I find the fault in our stars quite overrated, but i’d say John Green because some of his others are my favourites! 7. What is your favourite radio station? BBC Radio 1 8. What is your favourite flavour of anything? this is such a weird question, how can you have a favourite flavour for everything? but if it’s sweet, definitely strawberry! 9. What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? Again, weird question, but i use so many words for this, my most used are probably lovely and amazing 10. What is your current favourite song? this changes alll the time, but right this minute it’s probably sunflower by post malone and swae lee 11. What is your favourite word? is this a thing? 12. What was the last song you listened to? vacation by hippo campus 13. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? big mouth, orphan black, queer eye, dexter 14. What is your favourite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? the breakfast club or mean girls probably 15. Do you play video games? only the sims 16. What is your biggest fear? probably the death of people close to me, and in the future not being able to have children 17. What is your best quality, in your opinion? probably that i’m a friendly person  18. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? i’m v insecure 19. Do you like cats or dogs better? DOGS... always dogs! 20. What is your favourite season? autumn/winter 21. Are you in a relationship? yes 22. What is something you miss from your childhood? having way more friends and barely any responsibilities 23. Who is your best friend? my boyfriend 24. What is your eye colour? blue 25. What is your hair colour? brown 26. Who is someone you love? my boyfriend and family 27. Who is someone you trust? my boyfriend and closest family 28. Who is someone you think about often? okay wow, so much variety in these answers but the same as the previous two answers 29. Are you currently excited about/for something? christmas and my birthday 30. What is your biggest obsession? probably sims 31. What was your favourite TV show as a child? Probably Tracy beaker or that’s so raven  32. Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? my boyfriend 33. Are you superstitious? only slightly 34. Do you have any unusual phobias? cracking knuckles, moths (but only indoors), realistic looking mannequins and gas masks... so not much 35. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? behind, every single time 36. What is your favourite hobby? playing sims, graphic designing, video editing 37. What was the last book you read? The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat by Oliver Sacks 38. What was the last movie you watched? Muppet’s Christmas Carol 39. What musical instruments do you play, if any? I play a bit of guitar and can play the mr bean theme song on piano if that counts 40. What is your favourite animal? dogs 41. What are your top 5 favourite Tumblr blogs that you follow? I definitely have more than 5  42. What superpower do you wish you had? be able to teleport and go invisible  43. When and where do you feel most at peace? probably at home with my boyfriend 44. What makes you smile? sorry if this is becoming a boring answer... but my boyfriend! also my dog :) 45. What sports do you play, if any? I don’t at the moment, but I have done tennis, dance (ballet, tap and modern), swimming, karate, speed skating and netball 46. What is your favourite drink? water... how boring ik 47. When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? Last month, I made my boyfriend a scrap book as one of my boyfriend’s presents for our anniversary and wrote some letters as part of it  48. Are you afraid of heights? not if it’s a secure height 49. What is your biggest pet peeve? I have wayyy too many and so many grammatical ones, I absolutely hate when people incorrectly use was and were, so if someone said ‘we was going’, I think it’s quite an essex thing but I hateeee it, I can’t stand bad grammar, but also slow walkers, people who walk through the door without looking behind them to hold the door open for people behind, other drivers not indicating, people that have to be louder than everyone else, people that chew with their mouths open... basically I have a lot and this list could go on and on and on 50. Have you ever been to a concert? I’ve seen all time low, the 1975, imagine dragons, sunset sons, ed sheeran and paramore in concert so far and i’m seeing panic! at the disco in march which i’m MEGA excited about!!! 51. Are you vegan/vegetarian? vegetarian 52. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? This would change all the time, it went from radio dj, to dancer, to teacher when I was really young, then architect when I was a teenager, and now it’s clinical psychologist which i’m slowly working towards 53. What fictional world would you like to live in? I’ve not got a clue 54. What is something you worry about? EVERYTHING! I get a lot of social anxiety, so basically whenever i’m out of the house i’m worrying about absolutely everything and it’s the worst and gets me super down, so yeah, love that 55. Are you scared of the dark? okay so I don’t like leaving the dark, i’m fine being in the dark but I hate when i’m home alone and have to turn the lights off in the living room, kitchen and hall to go to bed... if that makes sense 56. Do you like to sing? i’m someone that, at home, is constantly singing, and when it’s only my boyfriend around, if one of us says a sentence that can in some way relate to a song, i’ll immediately sing it, but I suck so I won’t ever sing in public 57. Have you ever skipped school? in school I faked being ill a few times to get off of school, but in uni i’ve skipped way too many lectures over the past 3 years 58. What is your favourite place on the planet? I absolutely adore Spain, but also Belgrade (i’m half Serbian) 59. Where would you like to live? If not my current home town, i’d love to one day live somewhere like Norway or Sweden 60. Do you have any pets? yep, i’ve got a french bulldog 61. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? I wake up pretty early, but I hate to start the day early 62. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? sunsets. 63. Do you know how to drive? Yep 64. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? the sound of headphones but I normally use earbuds 65. Have you ever had braces? nope, thank god 66. What is your favourite genre of music? this really ranges from charts, to indie rock, to ‘former emo kid’, to early 2000s r&b, to musical theatre 67. Who is your hero? probably my boyfriend 68. Do you read comic books? no 69. What makes you the most angry? as we’ve already gathered, I have a lot of pet peeves, so a lot! 70. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book?a real book! 71. What is your favourite subject in school? I currently study psychology which has been my favourite subject since A levels, but during GCSEs I enjoyed maths  72. Do you have any siblings? 1 younger brother 73. What was the last thing you bought? some christmas presents for my boyfriend’s cousins 74. How tall are you? 5ft4 75. Can you cook? yes 76. What are three things that you love? spending time with people I love, travelling, collecting photos  77. What are three things that you hate? busy places, cheats, confrontation 78. Do you have more female friends or more male friends? I actually barely have any so this is kind of hard to answer 79. What is your sexual orientation? straight 80. Where do you currently live? England 81. Who was the last person you texted? my mum 82. When was the last time you cried? I’m not actually sure, which is funny because I cry all the time and super easily 83. Who is your favourite YouTuber? I have so many: in terms of sims: lilsimsie, urbansims, sophsims, simkim, plumbella, in terms of lifestyle: louise pentland, in terms of fashion and beauty: samantha maria, tati westbrook, busybee carys, patricia bright, antonio garza, and others: shane dawson, sarah baska, kendall rae, jaackmaate, and loads more! basically, if i’m not on tumblr, i’m on youtube, if i’m not on youtube i’m playing sims, and if i’m not on sims i’m on tumblr... 84. Do you like to take selfies? rarely 85. What is your favourite app? any social media  86. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? fab 87. What is your favourite foreign accent? Australian and Scottish 88. What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? I have so many but I won’t bore you with another long list, so just a few: Sweden, South Africa, Iceland and Canada 89. What is your favourite number? 1 90. Can you juggle? no 91. Are you religious? I was baptised but don’t really consider myself religious 92. Do you find outer space or the deep ocean to be more interesting? both as interesting as the other 93. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? not really 94. Are you allergic to anything? no 95. Can you curl your tongue? yep, one of my weird ‘party tricks’ is I can actually curl it 180 degrees 96. Can you wiggle your ears? no 97. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? not as often as I should 98. Do you prefer the forest or the beach? probably the forest 99. What is your favourite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you?my dad probably gives the best life advice but there’s too much to put here   100. Are you a good liar? It depends 101. What is your Hogwarts House? Hufflepuff 102. Do you talk to yourself? All the time 103. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? I N T R O V E R T, i’m so introverted to the point I hate it but seriously struggle to change it 104. Do you keep a journal/diary? no but I have in the past 105. Do you believe in second chances? it depends 106. If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? Hand it in 107. Do you believe that people are capable of change? It depends 108. Are you ticklish? VERY 109. Have you ever been on a plane? manyyyy times 110. Do you have any piercings? nope, I have but not anymore 111. What fictional character do you wish was real? no idea  112. Do you have any tattoos? nope 113. What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? I’m really not sure 114. Do you believe in karma? to an extent, but at the same time bad things seem to happen to good people, sooooo 115. Do you wear glasses or contacts? neither 116. Do you want children? yes 117. Who is the smartest person you know? my cousin 118. What is your most embarrassing memory? omg my whole life is filled with embarrassing memories that I seem to always remember at the most inconvenient times or when i’m about to go to sleep that just haunt me out of nowhere...fun 119. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? yes 120. What colour are most of you clothes? black or white 121. Do you like adventures? yep 122. Have you ever been on TV? no 123. How old are you? 20 - nearly 21 124. What is your favourite quote? not really sure. 125. Do you prefer sweet or savoury foods? sweet