#the rewrite to spite x men apocalypse

[merlinfromberlin]

Hi, hi. I am really not good at this posting or writing regularly business.

But anyways, this is a snippet of my writing concerning the Beach Divorce and a Charles that is not okay after Erik killing Shaw in the submarine and struggles a lot do to losing contact with Erik's mind.

It's angsty.

„They‘re just innocent men following orders.“ The words feel wrong as soon as they leave his mouth. Something ugly happens on the face beneath the helmet. He is not sure if he could name it. He is not sure if it matters. It would have been terrible to say that to Erik, to his Erik. But this Erik is not real, how could he be if his Erik‘s mind was the most wonderful and fascinating thing and he doesn‘t have that. How could he be more than a hallucination. But no, he is still looking at Charles, and.. he is just as real as before he put on the helmet in Shaw‘s chamber, isn‘t he? But he can‘t be sure. Maybe he could make himself believe it if the hallucination just kept looking at him because his eyes are so much like Erik‘s that he couldn‘t have made them up, maybe this is how he can be sure he is real now.

Then Erik grits his teeth and turns away from Charles and the missiles turn towards the ships and he still can‘t reach Erik‘s mind but he doesn‘t think that a hallucination could still control a flock of missiles - a herd? a group? a school? a flock seems right - but the fear of his companions and the soldiers tells him that it‘s real and missiles can‘t change their trajectory on their own but Erik can. And- that clearly isn‘t right. He can‘t let his friend kill all those soldiers and now that he‘s got a taste of their fear he is in their heads and doesn‘t know how to let go again and he doesn‘t know and he reaches out for Erik to pull him back, to be his anchor just like after especially daunting sessions with Cerebro when Erik would be his beacon and pull him back and. ErikErikErik-But Erik‘s NOT there, only his body, but what could that possibly mean without his mind, and… and the soldiers are still there in his head with all their fear and their students with their hope in and expectations for him and if Charles can‘t stop Erik from doing this who possibly could and he needs to do something because it‘s been three seconds and the missiles are still moving and he needs to- something, maybe if he could get the helmet and just know for certain that Erik was really real.

And so he hauls himself at Erik and tackles the taller man to the ground and grabs for the helmet and for a moment, he is absolutely certain that Erik‘s real because how couldn‘t he be if he is so very warm and solid underneath Charles, and oh, what a dreadful thing he had said to a very real Erik, and then Erik slaps his hands away and he can‘t, he can‘t feel him because the helmet is still on his head, blocking his thoughts from Charles and how could someone whose mind and thoughts were so brilliant be real without them and so he hauls his question at the helmet like a demand. Make me believe that you are real. Please, Erik.

Erik just flips them over in the sand because he is stronger like Charles like that and then their eyes lock and Charles goes still beneath him and in the background he can hear their students panicked thoughts but he can‘t bring himself to care because maybe, maybe if Erik leant down now and kissed him he could finally be sure that he is real again and this is nothing like he imagined it would be but he doesn‘t care because he just wants Erik back and maybe this is his way of making Charles believe.

And then Erik turns away and lifts the arm that isn‘t pinning Charles into the sand to take back control of the missiles and  the panic of the soldiers is back in his head as if it were his own and he starts struggling against Erik‘s grip with the kind of desperation only the dying can muster. And he knows that if he could only get the helmet off the man above him everything would be okay. If only he could reach it he could know that Erik is real and everything would be okay. And so he grabs for the helmet again, a wild wretched sound trapped in his throat that only manages to escape as a pained groan as Erik hits him in the face and the whole world goes dizzy as his body sinks back into the sand and his mind is cast out over the ocean only to be reeled back in by the horde of panicked thoughts that are the ships full of soldiers fearing for the life, only teethered to his body by a small thread. And, god, how he wished he could grab onto Erik, to let himself be pulled back to safety like he had done so before in Cerebro. But he isn‘t there and even though it hurts, god, how it hurts, it had never hurt this much before when he had got lost outside his body, not even the one time Erik had to pull Charles back from Canada, and this time, this time it‘s only a few miles, and it still hurts so much and for the briefest of moments he wonders how much damage that coin had really done and whether there was any chance of ever repairing it and if it wouldn‘t be better to just let go and look until he had finally found his beacon, his Erik again and this time he wouldn‘t bother with courtship, he would just crawl into his mind and curl up in a nice corner of his memories and never have to leave again and if he couldn‘t have anything else than maybe that would be nice. But he knows that even if he went to look for Erik, he would only be able to find him on that beach, and even then he wouldn‘t be able to find him because he was still wearing that helmet and not even real. For a moment he just let himself be wrecked by his grief and if soldiers on both ships randomly broke into tears that had very little to do with fearing their own death, well, in 30 seconds when all of them were dead no one would care to remember anyways.

And so he begins to pull himself back towards the bloody beach.

[spongebobafettywap]

I wish this xmen era was more crack than whatever we got because at least it would have been funny. might be a me problem but all those rewritings were completely unnecessary and hurt so many characters, good guys and villains alike. I don't recognize sinister or apocalypse anymore and I don't know what the fuck they pulled with destiny but I was indifferent to her before and now I don't wanna read anymore about her because it's so static and boring yet it gets shoved into any and everything that's related or not to her so you can't even avoid it

On a side note, there's something I've noticed to the added backstory they gave to apocalypse and I can't unsee it.

So he was apparently the ruler of an ancient mutant civilization located on an island in the middle of the ocean until he went to war with powerful magic users, a war which ended with his kingdom being sealed away in a hell like dimension, leaving his people to constantly fight for their lives there while he looked for a solution against those beings as well as a way to bring his kingdom back to earth.

... Isn't that azazel's backstory? Like beat for beat? They just gave apocalypse a wife but like this chunk of lore, she came out of nowhere. Am I hallucinating because if not I'm legit speechless

Yeah thats why I stopped buying the comics back in 2015 it just felt like there was a lot of character assasination done for the Maximoffs it was for the sake of the crappy MCU movies but the other X-men character also just suffered due to a bunch of rewrites and forced drama. Honestly Marvel as a whole has a real problem with writers who just have contempt for their audience and love to troll them that kinda spiteful relationship between the creators and fans is so toxic and there's only a few creators there that do not participate in this behaviour at Marvel.

We have talked on my blog before how this weird Destiny fanclub has somehow come about in recent years with her rabid fans accusing fans of all kinds of things if they don't like her. Its very weird, in the majority of the decade I was a fan of X-men I had barely heard anyone talk about her at all because in all honesty she was never a major character she was just a supporting character for Mystique. For all the hate Azazel gets from these types he had at least been talked about by fans and haters alike and had a memorable role in the films.

It's very weird because as much as DC does stupid things I never get the impression that the creators there just love to annoy their audience. I get more of the impression that the changes they make is an attempt to appeal to more people which I can at least respect in some regard.

Hmmm I recall Apocalypse's old backstory had him as an Egyptian Ruler but nothing about a war with magic users and then being sealed away just that he was put to sleep in a Escophagus. This new one does seem to rip off a lot of Azazel's backstory so thats really weird.