My Antisepticeye Theory
Notes
âLore SeĂĄnâ is Jack, and SeĂĄn is âreal life SeĂĄn.â
While I tried to find as many videos as possible, most social media posts will be excluded. Many of the captions have since changed, bios and avatars have gone back to normal, and posts are buried deep. Many of them are irrelevant at this point.
So everything is easy to read, things originally in zalgo text will be bolded.
This is the longest post Iâve ever made. Iâm so sorry. Itâs all under the cut.
Some of this probably sucks. Feel free to prove me wrong.
Itâs a long shot, but Iâd love to hear @therealjacksepticeyeâs opinion on this stuff.
2016
May 1
Reading your comments #90
In a reading your comments video, someone asks âWhat do you think of antiseptic?â and Jack says âWHERE?! Donât joke about that!â
While this is a joke, itâs also the first acknowledgement of Anti.
July 10
Welcome to the Game #2
Jackieboy Manâs first appearance.
August 11
Title: The Jacksepticeye Power Hour - Marvinâs Magic
Marvin the Magnificentâs first appearance.
September 15
Title: The Jacksepticeye Power Hour - Dr. Schneeplestein
Dr. Schneeplesteinâs first appearance.
October 10
Antiâs first official appearance.
Title: THE START OF THE NIGHTMARE | Five Night at Freddyâs Sister Location #1
The bottom of the description reads âYouâve waited a long time, now I wakeâ and in the source code, one of the keywords is âsnooping.â (I think that the keyword was added at a later date, but it is still significant)
The description suggests that Anti has been watching us for awhile, or at least knows that we created him. Heâs calling us out in the source code, or maybe just observing.
A lot of this first video is Anti testing us, seeing how we react. Heâs new at this point, so he doesnât know much about the community and how we work.
October 13
Title: THEY HAVE AWOKEN | Five Night at Freddyâs Sister Location #2
Description says âfollow the signs, release me.â In the source code, one of the keywords is âcurious I see.â
Again, Anti is testing the waters, seeing what we do, how far we go for clues. Heâs seeing if we obey him, if we are willing to âreleaseâ him out of pure curiosity.
When he says ârelease meâ heâs asking us to follow him. Us believing in him/obeying him gives him power, which would help him escape.
As far as where he is trapped, I think that is Jackâs computer. This is why the face-cam can still glitch without Anti having a physical form. Heâs manipulating the camera itself.
October 17
Title: BE THE BAT! | Batman Arkham VR
The whiteboard behind Jack says âIâM HERE.â
October 18
Title: SOMETHING INSIDE | Five Night at Freddyâs Sister Location #3
At 5:26, the glitch has Anti saying âI am near.â There is also multiple glitches that include Anti laughing.
In the description there is âI see you understand now, keep watchingâ and a keyword is âstronger.â
Anti has learned that we will still watch, even if it hurts Jack, because we are curious. This following has made him stronger.
Also in the description, there is a link to a video.
Title: SOON
In this video, there is general static, creepy music, and children laughing. Text that says âIâM HEREâ shows up. The description says âVery good, you may be worthyâ and Jack also left a comment that says âIâm glad I have your attention now.â
Anti now has the strength to make entire videos. He doesnât have a physical form yet, but he is able to all of this from within in a computer. He has figured out how far we go for clues, and is taking full advantage of that.
The next video of the 18th also includes a small appearance.
Title: Temple of No!
At 11:10 Jack says âWe all know about Anti donât we?â and there is a slight glitch. This is important because it is a direct acknowledgment of Anti.
October 19
Tile: TOO MUCH WEIRD | Accounting (HTC Vive video)
Whiteboard reads âSOON.â
Title: PLEASE DONâT KILL ME | Hello Neighbor #2
9:45, the game glitches and then crashes, and Anti is seen in the face-cam.
The way Jack reacts to Anti messing with him is important. He almost pointedly ignores it/plays it off.
October 22
Title: MERGED TOGETHER | Five Night at Freddyâs Sister Location # 4
At 1:19, Jack complains that his eye is itching. This is the first time that Anti influences Jackâs body.
7:32, Anti says âIâm here.â
10:06, intense glitching, and then Jack slumps in his chair.
The end clip is Jack saying âI donât feel so good.â
Description says âWe are merged together now as one in Five Nights at Freddyâs Sister Locationâ and at the bottom it says âItâs almost time, I grow stronger.â
Jack becoming sick/weak happens after Anti says âIâm here.â This is implies that Anti has âmerged togetherâ with Jack, and is presenting as a virus.
Keywords, which were added in 2017, are âThe doctorâ and âcanât save.â
October 24
Title: SWIMMING IN POOP | Pipe Job (HTC Vive)
The end clip has Jack super close the the camera saying âHi there, my nameâs Jackâ with a glitch after.
This glitch and the slight laugh he does suggests that this is Anti imitating Jack. Almost like heâs getting used to piloting his body.
October 26
Title: MEET THE YANGS | Guts and Glory #5
6:57, Jack coughs and there is a slight glitch. This suggests that Anti was the one to make Jack cough. He is making him sick.
October 28
Title: ALONE AND AFRAID | Layers of Fear #1
22:08, Anti laughs, and Jack acknowledges it. He says âThe hell was that weird sound? Just came from my gully hole.â Again, he is pointedly ignoring Anti. He doesnât say talk about it beyond this. More importantly, Anti is laughing through Jack.
The description says âItâs time to say goodbyeâ which emphasizes that Anti is taking over Jackâs body.
October 29
Title: SORE FROM LAUGHING | Stuntfest #2
2:19, there is a glitch when Jack coughs. Again, Anti is presenting as a virus.
So why is Anti presenting as a virus? Well, if he is a demon, then he is âpossessingâ Jackâs body. I think that the way he takes over his body is systematic. He takes over the immune system first so Jack is weaker and canât fight back. Then he takes over the nervous system, which we will see in the following pieces of evidence. Simultaneously, he is a virus in Jackâs computer. He corrupts camera footage, crashes games, and screws up text.
October 30
Title: SCARIER THAN IT LOOKS | The Cubicle (HTC Vive)
White board says âDONâT WATCH.â This is generally out of character for Anti, who gains power from a following. So is it Anti who wrote this? While many people think it was Jack, I think it was Anti. Heâs testing us and mocking us. He wants to see if we follow everything he says, or if weâre just curious enough to want to see what happens next. He knows that we are powerless.
3:47, Anti appears standing behind Jack. This is not an actual physical form. Instead, Anti is glitching the camera footage to make himself appear to be there. However, it is still significant that we see a full shot of what Anti looks like. He sees himself as a version of Jack.
7:24, the screen goes black and we hear â1, 2, Antiâs coming for youâ and reversed audio of âand heâs dead.â This is Anti mocking us again, because he knows that we will continue to watch, even as Jack dies.
In the end clip, Anti stands in front of the camera saying âI have comeâ and when it switches back to normal, Jack looks genuinely scared and says âI could have sworn I just heard something.â Jack is really starting to notice that something is amiss.
The description says âTomorrow ends him.â
Title: THE SIGNS ARE THERE | Layers of Fear #2
13:03, Jack talks about foreshadowing, and Anti glitches in to wink at us. Not a whole lot of significance, just one of the communities favorite gifs. ;)
The description says âItâs almost time.â
October 31
Title: SAY GOODBYE
Because there are so many glitches in this video, and because Anti is in a good chunk of it, I will only be discussing the parts that I find the most important.
4:21, Jack comments that the smell of the pumpkin isnât making him feel good. There is intense glitching, and his nose starts bleeding. This is Anti affecting his immune/respiratory system. When he appears on screen after Jack leaves, that is him glitching the camera.
6:34, this glitch includes Jack twitching/yelling. It also has Anti reaching out and touching Jack. This is both aspects of Antiâs power shown at once. He is affecting Jackâs nervous system (rather severely), and the camera.
8:28, Jack hears banging/walking around in his apartment and walks off screen to investigate. Anti glitches himself in. The auditory allusion for Jack is Anti messing with his head, and for us itâs Anti messing with the audio.
10:37 starts Antiâs first major appearance. We all know what happens here, but my explanation is that Anti gained full control of Jackâs nervous system.
During this appearance we hear Jack say âhelp meâ which means he is still alive, but is unable to escape and defeat Anti. Anti tells us âyou could have stopped me, but you just watched as this happened.â
In the description it says âyou wanted me so here I am.â
We all watched this video despite the warnings we were given, and Anti grew stronger because of this.
In the keywords, which were added in 2017, it says âIâm backâ and âgood puppet.â
To summarize 2016, Anti was brought into existence by the community. He grew stronger through that following. He infected Jackâs computer, then Jack himself. He presents as a virus because he attacks the immune system first. He eventually took over Jackâs body and trapped Jack in a place where he couldnât fight back.
2017
January 25
Title: IâM SO SORRY | Detention #2
3:45, face-cam glitches and audio distorts as Jack reads âforgotten, or just too afraid to remember?â In this glitch, Anti is pointing at the camera, like he is accusing us.
The description says âforgotten, or just too afraid to remember.â
This phrase suggests that Jack has suppressed the events in October 2016.
February 4
Title: BROKEN INSIDE | Detention #3
There are two glitches in this video, but, more importantly, the description says âbroken spirit, let me outâ and one of the keywords is âantisepticeye.â
The fact that the description is in zalgo, and that a keyword is antisepticeye leads me to believe that Jack somehow found a temporary way to suppress Anti. This angered Anti, and he now wants to be let out again. Remember, all he has to do to get more strength is gain a following.
February 16
Title: BLOOD ON YOUR HANDS | Detention #4
The title itself is again pointing a finger at us for Jackâs defeat.
27:49, as Jack reads âmemories are like a mirror, reflecting the true likeness of your soulâ there are glitches and audio distortion. This is more of Anti blaming us and mocking us.
28:01, Jack reads âmaybe you still want to forget, maybe youâre still afraidâ in his Anti voice. Anti knows that he scared us and that we underestimated him.
The description reads âbetrayal neglect mistake.â This can be taken as Anti saying we betrayed Jack by making the mistake of neglecting him. By neglecting him and paying attention to Anti, we gave Anti more power.
A keyword is âantisepticeyeâ again.
March 8
Title: ALWAYS WATCHING
At Jackâs Pax East panel, he played a video before he went on stage. As we all know, Anti appeared in this. Here are the things that I found important.
@broadway-of-life deciphered the beginning audio that was spliced together from previous videos as âHaha. Jack is dead. Youâre too late.â I think Anti is bluffing. However, he did take over Jackâs body again.
âIâve been here this entire time, keeping an eye on things.â This is significant because it confirms that Anti was never truly defeated, he was at least lurking in the background.
After Anti says âIâm always there, always watchingâ you can hear Jack say âhelp meâ very faintly.
The description of the actual video says âyou thought I was gone. Tried to replace me. Iâm always here.â By âreplaceâ he means that we tried to go back to Jack.
April 11
Title: The Jacksepticeye Power Hour - Chase Brody
This is Chaseâs first appearance. In this video we learn that his wife, Stacy, left him, and that he has two kids.
June 12
Title: SPREADING THE SICKNESS | Epidemic
8:40, when Jack says âlaughter is the best medicine for deathâ there is a glitch and Antiâs laughter.
June 24
Title: TRUST ME, IâM A DOCTOR | Bio Inc. Redemption #4
In the keywords, âcracks.â
July 31
Title: TOUGHER THAN EXPECTED | The Escapists 2 #2
Description says âneed a doctor?â
August 3
Title: KILL JACKSEPTICEYE | Bio Inc Redemption
This video has the most individual glitches, so I will again only analyze the important parts.
0:36, Jack gets sick and runs off screen. Dr. Schneeplestein takes over the video. This confirms that Shneep knows who Jack is.
2:57, Schneep says that Jack has mood swings where heâs like âa completely different person.â This suggests that Anti and Jack inhabit the same body, and they alternate control.
4:20 (HA), Schneep confirms that he saved Chaseâs life after his suicide attempt.
6:51, Schneep says that he ALMOST lost Jack once before. This further confirms that Anti didnât actually kill Jack.
7:14, Schneepâs voice distorts as he says âsystem failureâ and at 7:26 he says âonce one goes down, they all go down.â This is more evidence for my theory that Anti takes over bodies systematically.
8:05, Schneep begins to acknowledge Antiâs existence. This makes him the most knowledgeable ego so far.
8:42, Antiâs appearance begins.
Anti says âthey all follow meâ and âweâve always been in control.â This is basically Anti stating that he has control of all of the egos, and that he can get them to do whatever he wants. Furthermore, he calls them âmy puppets.â
The description says âso concerned for your little boy, pay attention next time, whoâs next?â and the keywords include the following âsave him, virus, no, puppets, no strings on me.â
October 31
Title: The Jacksepticeye Power Hour - Jameson Jackson
This is JJâs first appearance. However, the end of the video features an appearance from Anti. I actually do not believe JJ was ever good. Heâs separate from Anti, but he was created by Anti.
Text appears during Antiâs appearance that says âstill here, still watching, puppets, watching, smileâ and JJ rips off his mustache while smiling.
November 22
Title: MEMORIES OF UNDERTALE | Heartbound
It is important to note that this is not an official appearance, but the audio distortion while Jack reads lines is really important. Here are the stand outs.
âI was like you once.â
âHeâs not coming back. You did this.â
âWhat kind of person are you?â The original line is âWhat kind of person you are,â but Jackâs audio is glitched.
âYou canât stop me.â
âYouâll get your chance.â
December 17-18
Title: Overnight Watch
So this is one of the biggest events ever. I do not have a video of the full night, and therefore I cannot analyze it properly. If you have a video like this, please send it to me so I can update this section.
2018
May 4
Title: THE DOCTOR IS BACK | Gastric Bypass, Liposuction Surgery
18:56, Schneep bursts into the room and Jack says âWho are you?â This tells us that Jack doesnât know who Schneep is, even though he saved Jackâs life.
May 5
Title: WATCH THIS WITH THE LIGHTS OFF | Stories Untold Chapter 1
âYou are entering a realm that is unusual.â (See May 14)
22:06, Jackâs door opens behind him and he glitches into the TV.
May 6
Title: Barry Has A Secret
12:36, a first person sequence where Jack (or maybe Anti) catches us and presumably attacks us. My vote is that this is Anti catching us snooping. And we werenât supposed to know that heâs back yet.
Title: THEY ARE LISTENING | Stories Untold Chapter 2
âThis door leads to a place unknown to you before.â (See May 14)
30:29, floating cameras that look like eyes are watching the camera.
May 7
Title: THEYâRE HERE | Stories Untold Chapter 3
âYou take a picture of a man. When you check the film, you realize the man is not in the picture.â
40:58, we hear âJack. Jack. This is Chase. You need to wake up.â There is also morse code that translates to âwhere am I?â Obviously, Jack has been defeated once again by Anti. This happened during KJSE. However, Jack is unaware of his defeat this time.
May 8
Title: IT WAS ALL CONNECTED! | Stories Untold Chapter 4
âYou see a man in front of you. This man looks strange, not like any man you have seen before. Suddenly, you realize you were looking in a mirror.â (See May 14)
45:07, Jack wakes up from a nightmare and says âI remember what he did to me.â This means that he either woke up from his coma, or just remembered what happened and is dreaming about it.
May 9
Title: Try to Fall Asleep!
3:33, Marvin is seen in the TV static.
11:15, Marvin is in the static.
11:20, âJack you have toâ in static. This statement mimics Chaseâs from Stories Untold Chapter 3.Â
11:42, Jackâs lighting turns red.
16:41, JJ in static after Jack says âcan a doctor revive me?â This is JJ mocking Jack.
17:34, Marvin in static. These appearances are Marvin attempting to get through to Jack.
May 11
Title: TIE - A Game About Depression
In this video, the most important thing is that Chase confirms the fact that Jack is currently in a coma.Â
âForeshadowingâ is a keyword. Not sure what to do with this. It could just relate to the game.
May 14
Title: Dark Silence
âYou are entering a realm which is unusualâ Chase is seen walking through hallways, confused and lost. There are lots of strange sounds.
âThis door leads to a place unknown to you beforeâ Chase obviously doesnât know where he is.
âYou see a man in front of you. This man looks strange, not like any man you have seen before. Suddenly, you realize you were looking in a mirrorâ Chase sees Anti at the end of a hallway. He doesnât know who he is, and is confused when Anti turns around. Chase sees himself at the end of the hallway. We know that it is Anti in Jackâs body, but Chase doesnât.
In this sequence, we hear children crying and screaming. When Chase seeâs Anti, he asks âWhere are they? What do you want from me?â
At this point, we do not know the status of Chaseâs kids. It is easy to assume that Anti took them.
The video ends with Anti running at Chase.
May 16
Title: EXPLORING AN ABANDONED HOSPITAL | Exiles
Jack wakes up confused and playing a game about being in a hospital.Â
14:30, Jackâs eyes are bleeding and thereâs whispering that is repeating âitâs all your fault, you did this.â
This video is Jack waking up after Chaseâs disappearance. Anti comes after him again.
May 22
Title: I AM SO CREEPED OUT BY THIS! | First Winter
Two glitches with Jack bleeding out of his eyes.
26:02, there is a glitch as Jack says âlet me out.â This is Jack asking to be let out again.
(Note: I am skipping Akinator and Transference. I do not find them important)
October 14
Title: 3 SCARY GAMES, 1 VIDEO #7
30:43, face-cam glitch and audio distortion as Jack says âtime to take off the masks.â
Anti is tired of âplaying pretend.â
October 22
Title: THIS GAME SCARED THE **** OUT OF ME | Watson-Scott Test #1
The end clip has Jack asking âare you playing a game right now?â In my opinion, this is Anti. Heâs asking us if this is all a game to us, if we take him seriously or not.
December 1
Title: TIME IS BROKEN | Umfend
The title itself references a twitter bio of Jackâs on Halloween 2017 (JJâs appearance).
End clip, Anti asks âdo you remember?â Accompanied by a glitch. Heâs mocking us once again.
December 16
Title: QUIT THE GAME TO WIN
Anti stares at the camera and comes off as unsettling and creepy with out a single glitch. His eye twitches in FUCKING MORSE CODE that says âAnti.âÂ
The end of the video has Anti saying âyou passed the test, now letâs move onto the next phaseâ which tells us that Anti is toying with us again. Heâs testing us further, because he already knows so much about us.
December 18
Title: Take Your Eyes Off The Screen
The title was originally âSimulacra Pipe Dreams.â Anti changed it.
The thumbnail had â2019âł in the corner very faintly. It has since changed.
By giving us a vague date, Anti has made us want him to appear, has made us excited to see him. Heâs going to have a lot of power during his next appearance.
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Rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people
tagged by @bluegrumpsâ
(Iâm not tagging people)
â what was your lastâŠ
1. drink: mate (counts? itâs a south American beverage. I'm an alcohol-free peson)
2. phone call: My doctor, to make an appointment
3. text message: One of my friends (he is like a brother to me)
4. song you listened to: Dubstep _ Instrumental Core - The Angels Among Demons
5. time you cried: a year and a half more or less. When my father died.
__ have you everâŠ
6. dated someone twice: No.
7. kissed someone and regretted it: I regretted the relationship, because she used me, but no. I liked kissing my partner in all my relationships. (Or you mean outside a relationship? Never did that)
8. been cheated on: Oh... god. Twice. My first relationship, and my second and most meaningful one. The feeling of not being enough is horrible when this keeps happening like a habit. I have this certainty that my relationships will end in that way, always.Â
9. lost someone special: Who didn't?.
10. been depressed: Since teenage. Ups and downs.
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Never
â fave colours
12. Black
13. Dark red
14. Brown
â in the last year have youâŠ
15. made new friends: I guess I did. I think.
16. fallen out of love: No.
17. laughed until you cried: A couple of months ago. One of my friends is hilarious... he makes me laugh and cry at the same time.
18. found out someone was talking about you: No.
19. met someone who changed you: No. I changed because I had to pass an exam, and I acquired really good habits that I keep them.
20. found out who your friends are: No. I know long time ago.
21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: What? no. How specific this one is
â general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: 70%. The rest are online friends. I hope I can meet them personally. Eventually.
23. do you have any pets: My dog. She is called Maia.
24. do you want to change your name: Please, yes. I wish so much to change it... but Law is so binary, that never considered that option for us.
25. what did you do for your last birthday: Nothing. I try to make everyone forget my birthday.
26. what time did you wake up today: 3.45 am. Ughhh.
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Trying to sleep.
28. what is something you canât wait for: Shadowhunters new episodes. And More Magnus Bane.
30. what are you listening to right now: The sound of the Void. Aka, silence.
31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: Never.
32. something thatâs getting on your nerves: People full stopping in middle of the street just to watch their phones, while I'm walking super fast behind them, and bump them, and then they are upset. Like, Fucker!. You are the one in middle of the street watching if your useless social life means something to someone while you are burning my almost non existent free time that I have to waste in commuting! And YOU are the upset one!? FUCKER! (yeah, I get really an ass for that... because I'm all the fucking time bumping people doing this, and I spend more than 5 hours per day commuting and walking fast, trying not to waste MORE time than necessary. So, yeah, I become pretty a Golden asshole ever. But these assholes never use their brains to walk aside, stand in a corner, close to the wall, and THEN watch their phones.... Noooo, that's too much to ask)
33. most visited website: tumblr, facebook, email accounts.
34. hair colour: Dark brown. I want half of my kind-of-mohawk in red or blue... but never got the time to do ALL that work.... nou.
35. long or short hair: kind-of-Mohawk. More like Banehawk :D
36. do you have a crush on someone: No. I think. I never know if I have crushes anyway.
37. what do you like about yourself: My self-discipline. Hell, that's the only thing that kicks me all the time when I'm getting down and down with my depression. I love it. Itâs like a military voice in my head, repeating:Â âAre you fuckign depressed? No, not on my sight, get up, go ahead, fucking hell, DO your things, there is not time for softie bullshit, you are not going to stay alive if you donât move your ass, assholeâ.Â
38. want any piercings: Maybe?. I don't know if I want one in my lip. Really I don't know. They look awesome in others... in me, I don't know.
39. blood type: 0
40. nicknames: Maco, Mako.
41. relationship status: Single and nostalgic for things that I know I will never have again (I know, it sounds dramatic, but it's true)
42. sign: Taurus
43. pronouns: They, them. Or mixing the binaries.
44. fave tv show: Currently, Shadowhunters.
45. tattoos: None. I want one that follows the arms muscles, but I never found a nice design. Something like Zevran has in his face, but over the arms, playing with the form of muscles.
46. right or left handed: right
47: ever had surgery: No. Soon I will have my surgery for my wisdom tooth :(. Fucking tooth.
48. piercings: Both ears. Fucking society.
49. sport: Martial Arts.
50. vacation: it means days without commuting.
51. trainers: ??? Jeff Cavaliere?. I mean, I watch his videos on youtube, not that he is my trainer..... what the fuck?. Or you mean the shoes?. I like trainers/snickers. I also like these kind of military boots.
â more general
52. eating: A lot. And everything too healthy. Among the non-healthy ones, ice-cream.
53. drinking: Water
54. iâm about to watch: Shadowhunters, tomorrow. Lot of Warlock Lore! :D
55. waiting for: Shadowhunters. In long term, to find a place where to belong (probably it will never happen). In long-long term: to realise I'm immortal, so I can destroy the capitalism with just my immortality and my evil plan. (hey, dreaming is free)
56. want: to stop my disphoria. This year has been, and keeps being a monster set free in my mind.
57. get married: No. Never. What for? For being cheated on?. No, thank you. haha.
58. career: Physicist. I also would like to be a writer.
â which is better
59. hugs or kisses: uh.... Both.
60. lips or eyes: Eyes
61. shorter or taller: eh?.
62. older or younger: EH? I like to wear old clothings.
63. nice arms or stomach: âŠ. this is getting gore.
64. hookup or relationships: Relationships.
65. troublemaker or hesitant: Eh?. I'm not getting this part.... what?. Can anyone explain how I should understand this?. Is this about sex? Because... I don't have a clue what a troublemaker sex would be...... and thinking on it makes me develop the weirdest ideas ever....
â have you ever
66. kissed a stranger: No.
67. drank hard liquor: No.
68.turned someone down: Yes.Â
69. sex on first date: No.
70: broken someoneâs heart: How would I know?. But probably no. I mean, my ex told me I broke her heart, but, hey.... you cheated on me, so, I think that doesn't count.
71. had your heart broken: Deeply. Beyond healing.
72. been arrested: No. But police always looks at me as if they want me to arrest.
73. cried when someone died: Of course.
74. fallen for a friend: Yes.
â do you believe in
75. yourself: Yes.
76. miracles: No.
77. love at first sight: No.
78. santa claus: Pft. No!.
79. angels: hahahha. No. Well, I believein Shadowhunterâs angels (hahaha, Iâm totally rotten in this fandom by now....)
â misc
80. eye colour: Brown.
81. best friends name: Not writing them. But I can write 3 names.
82. favourite movie: No, it's not Shadowhuntersâ. That was a disgrace. I have many favourite movies... but if I reduce the list to my fave film in the last year.... I would say Die Welle: The Wave. German film related to fascist behaviour and ideology. Loved it.
83. favourite actor: I'm going to be super obvious here, and considering I have no idea about actors and actress in general, I will keep myself in my current well-known area: Harry Shum Jr.
84. favourite cartoon: Natsume, Or Hosou, Or so many films of Hayao Miyazaki, or Mushishi.... no, man. I can't choose. Anime has so many wonderful gems.
85. favourite teacherâs name: Carmen
Tagging:Â Any person who follows me, and read this whole thing is invited to do it, and tagging me back so I can read too. :D
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Random Survey 1.
1. Do you have a nice yard? If so, do you spend a lot of time outside in it? If not, where do you go when you want to relax outdoors on nice days?
The new house did come with a yard, yes. I donât think the previous owners really knew what to do with it, though, as itâs pretty bare. Iâve got plans for it, this spring, though! Weâre getting rid of the evergreen that had been planted right next to the garage, because thatâs a dumb place to put a tree. We have a huge side yard, so I want to plant a new one, there. Maybe a cedar. I dig cedars. I also want to plant lavender in the back yard, and maybe fox gloves, and put a smol gazebo-thing for a place to sit. The roomies will have to clean it out a bit, though, as itâs currently full of their puppyâs poo, and I donât fancy kneeling and digging around in it, when the time comes.Â
2. Is there a group of friends that you used to hang out with but no longer do? Why donât you hang out anymore and how do you feel about them now?
Sure, Iâm sure everyone does. There are friends I knew in school, who just faded away after I was no longer in school. There were friends who proved toxic, who simply no longer exist to me. There were friends who came with my husband and predictably (and thus painlessly) disappeared the moment he became my ex-husband. A lot of people in life are temporary. Most, in fact.Â
3. Do your parents enjoy any of the things that you enjoy? Do you bond over these things?
I inherited about half my taste in music from my dad (classic rock, like the Beatles, Led Zeppelin, The Rolling Stones, etc.), so we bond over that. Any time I discover a video of someone doing something awesome with a guitar, Iâll share it with him, and he was really impressed with 2Cellos. Things like that. When I was a kid, I bonded with my mom over hiking. We used to go to state parks and pick a creek and follow it back into the wilderness for hours, come back wet to the knees and muddy and sometimes vaguely hypothermic. (Fuck ur namby pamby trails, ok? City Folk...) We donât really bond over anything any more, though. Sheâs turned too toxic for me to do anything but keep her at a safe distance.
4. Did you ever say or ask something that you assumed was a neutral subject, but the person you were talking to became offended and you had no idea why?
... Honey, you know what site this is, right..? Â
5. What is the movie that you have waited the longest for/which film do you remember anticipating the most/are still anticipating?
I waited with bated breath for both Only Lovers Left Alive and Crimson Peak. Iâm really fond of Tom Hiddleston, so when I heard he was gonna a.) star in a vampire movie with Tilda Fucking Swinton, and b.) do a Gothic Romance directed by Guillermo del Toro, I was completely ecstatic on both counts. I always get a little âoh yay!â moment when I pick up on the actors/directors I like doing something new, but in those instances in particular I was glued to the screen for any news until they came out.
6. Do you have any ideas for a story or movie youâre planning to write or youâd write if you got the time/had the talent? Please share a synopsis!
Oh dear lord... So far as stories, there are so many, and I feel protective enough of the ones Iâm actually working on to not wanna share a lot. Thereâs an Epic Steampunk Fantasy Iâve been working on for like ten years (AKA The Goddamn Novel). Since Iâm giving that one a break until the ideas feel fresh again, Iâm also working on one involving The Magic of Writing and a girl inheriting an outrageous fortune and being haunted by her awesome great great aunt, and thereâs also faeries. Thereâs about a thousand interconnected short stories I wanna do modernizing Changeling legends. Thereâs a gothic fantasy about a pair of incestuous half-demon half-siblings who usurp their actually-worse fatherâs kingdom. Thereâs... thereâs just a lot I wanna do, ok?
If you want movie ideas, let me show you my book shelf, but god help you if you donât respect the source material, okok.
7. Do you ever feel like anyone is âout of your leagueâ or does that concept not make any sense to you? What do you do when youâre attracted to someone but find them out of your league?
I donât think leagues exist. I mean there are people who are Very Not Suited for one another, and sometimes itâs really obvious theyâre not, but...  When Iâm interested in someone, all I care about is whether the interestâs mutual. If it is, then yay!  If itâs not, you lick your wounds and move on, or maybe you at least get a shiny new friend of out of it, which is pretty great, too. Youâve just gotta talk to them and find out.
8. What is something that an interested guy/girl could comment about you, that would make you instantly open to them (e.g., âThat book youâre reading is from my favorite authorâ)?
Instantly open... eeehhhhnnn *vague hand-wiggle* I think Iâve got too many trust issues for that, really. But similar tastes/interests/viewpoints is a big plus. Â
9. Do you refer to yourself by any sort of fan nickname (Belieber, Little Monster, etc.)?
Iâd classify myself as a phan. (Phantom of the Opera fan) I donât think any of my other fandoms actually have cutesy names. Or, if they do Iâm not involved enough with the social aspects of it to know.
10. Do you ever just get lazy and give up on your friendships?
When thatâs possible, I think it probably shouldnât actually be classified as a friendship. Sounds more like an acquaintance, to me. At which point, yeah. Â
11. Is there a person in your life (maybe barely) that you feel in constant competition with (even just in your imagination)? Maybe you feel they are consistently outshining you.
No. There are people I admire, and consider sort of role models. But, as twee as it sounds, the only person Iâm ever working to outshine is past!me.
12. If you are single, even if you are normally happily single, are there certain specific things you witness that make you wish you were in a relationship (e.g., people getting engaged)?
I am mostly happy single, but I miss having someone to cuddle with sometimes. So, little intimacies, I guess? Romantic gestures just for their own sake, especially if the person has paid enough attention to their partner for it to be actually personal and not generic. Or, people having intimate conversations, where they really obviously click and theyâre just excited about each other. I donât feel jealous of people who get to do these things, but they do make me feel a little lonely.
13. What sort of situations make you feel most self-conscious or inadequate? Are there any people or places that just make you want to crawl into a hole? If you canât think of anything specific, can you remember the last time (or any time) you felt this way?
Wasnât our school system designed around creating instances like this...?
14. Out of all your usernames for websites, which one is your favorite? Do you use it for more than one site?
I like the one I have here. Itâs from a Dorothy Parker poem (one of the ones where she isnât just trying to be flippant and clever, though I like those, too.) Over on the only other site I really do much on, I go by sister_midnight, because David Bowie is one of those celebrities who I always kind of felt like was a beloved weird uncle I never actually got to meet. Also I like that song.
15. Are there any cities near you that youâre afraid to go to because of the crime rate or its other bad reputations?
I donât think Iâd want to be in parts of Indy after dark. But honestly there are plenty of rural places and smaller towns around here Iâd say that about, too.
16. If you went to camp as a kid, was it a pleasant experience? Do you think that all kids should be able to go to camp? If you didnât go to camp, do you feel like you kind of missed out on something?
I got hustled off to Bible Camp, once. I mostly didnât bother protesting because it was something to do away from home, and my step-mother never respected me not wanting to go to church, so church-camp was the same sort of thing. It was kind of an alien situation, seeing as I hadnât actually been Christian for about five years, by that point, but I was also used to it. Plus, sometimes itâs just interesting what you can learn by letting people think what they want and just standing back and... watching them go. I learned way more about what they were really like by doing that than by reading the Bible, thatâs for certain.
17. Do you grandparents ever judge you or stick their heads in your business? If not, is there someone else in your life you dread seeing because of their unwanted input?
I was half raised by my grandparents after my parents divorced and my Dad moved back home, with me in tow. They were never Catholic enough to do the church thing often, but by god they were Catholic enough to wanna use judgement and shame as a means of trying to browbeat you into who they thought you should be. According to my father, the judgement started at conception, actually. I was an accidental pregnancy, you see, and Grandma only stopped abusing him over it after he pointed out that abortion was always an option.
18. Have you ever spent the whole day (or multiple days) just looking up one thing on the internet (e.g., videos of your favorite band, how-to videos, quizzes, etc.)?
I studied faerie lore pretty much non-stop for like five years when I was a teen.
19. Would you ever go on a media fast (i.e., avoiding tv, movies, the internet, and magazines for a certain amount of time, in an attempt to become aware of how media makes you feel)? Do you think that sort of thing would benefit you?
Yeah, and actually I have found it beneficial in the past. Itâs good to take a break and unplug sometimes.
20. Are you happy with where you currently live? If not, what donât you like about the area and do you plan on leaving?
I love the actual land, where I live. We have some beautiful countryside, here. But I donât like the people, and would love to eventually move someplace more liberal. I love New England, especially around Boston, and my best friend lives there. (Though I donât think Iâd want to live in the city.) Iâd like to poke at the West Coast, especially around Washington and see how that suits me. And I adored Ireland, when I visited, so I wouldnât write that off as an option either. For now, though, here will do. Iâm in a good situation to save up money and plot a permanent escape.
21. If someone told you that we live in a society that hates women, how would you respond?
Seems obvious to me. Though, I do hold out a certain amount of hope for things to change for the better. We just need to build enough guillotines and put them to good use.
22. When was the last time you were on a boat? Whose boat was it, and what were you doing?
... I honestly canât remember that last specific time. o_0 Clearly I should fix this.
23. Have you ever been completely blindsided by a break-up or have you sort of felt all of your relationships deteriorating before they ended? If you would prefer not to answer, what is the last instance you can remember being totally blindsided by news you heard?
No, not really. Generally you can feel things starting to unravel. Â
24. Can you remember the last thing you thought and subsequently thought, âwow, I really shouldnât be thinking thatâ?
No. Like Shakespeare said, thought is free.
25. If you ever think about getting married, what are some aspects of the wedding that you would like to see in a non-traditional manner (e.g., a different color dress or âpartnersâ over âhusbandâ and âwifeâ)?
I donât do white clothes, wedding dress or otherwise. As for the rest, if I bothered with a second wedding it would actually be for me, this time, so you can bet it wouldnât be traditional. Given that I couldnât see myself choosing a traditional partner, I donât imagine theyâd mind.
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