No one else I know has watched voyager so sorry to come to you but I just happened to get to meld and whyyy aren't people more into lon suder and whatever the fuck he has going on with tuvok??
Brad dourif is a fave actor so I'm already biased but I'm screaming. Like how fixated tuvok was on execution since suder himself suggested it and how he went straight to him when he got out aaaa. How clearly suder was into the idea of tuvok dominating him??? And then when he held tuvok in the end and called for help???? ScreamING. Cannot believe I saw this much not gay sex gay sex in star trek to be honest. Anyway. I hope you are having a nice day and you are a great artist.
Tuvok/Suder Aesthetics, Themes: Charged silences. Long letters to prisoners. Large bodies of water that threaten something though they are seemingly still in the moment. Dark rooms you can sense someone is in. Pristine rooms where you can sense something horrible has happened. The opposite of love is indifference. Courthouse drama. A keen and intense interest. Self-harm though sex. Crushing loneliness. The feeling of being fundamentally misunderstood. The feeling of being so intimately understood it's frightening, euphoric. Desperately keeping something hidden. Hands that only held things with the intent to kill them cradling you close vs Hands that've only ever been sure and steady now shaking, grasping for your throat. Church confessional. Stabbing someone as reference to another penetration. Desire so strong it threatens to overwhelm but you must fight against it. Melting steel so you can bend it. You make me a better person but I know I'm making you worse. Observation vs Experience. Conjugal visit. Dual death. Nothing can simulate the sublime.
(shows up a million months late with nothing in my hands but an aesthetically pleasing vibe) Heeeey..............SORRY;;
Tuvok/Suder is such an amazing ship with such a cool dynamic and the writers didn't HAVE to show Suder gently lifting Tuvok from where he'd collapsed on the floor to cradle him closer, a bit unsure, looking around as if he's never held someone tenderly in his life, but they DID show that and they did it for folks like you and I v_v
I also really love how fixated Tuvok became about the execution. Even though he's being driven a bit mad by the violence Suder's mind tapped into he's still justifying it to himself as the moral thing to do, not just going off-the-wall and killing for the pure pleasure of it.
He brings up the family of the man Suder killed, says that an execution would be justice, insinuates that he finds it unfair that a person who killed someone else's punishment would be to live a relatively easy life and that the ship would spend its resources to facilitate it and tells Suder that he takes no comfort in the fact that he 'has' to kill him.
Suder of course questions this as he correctly sees all of those things as excuses which allow Tuvok to kill someone while trying to disguise the choice as a moral one in line with his values rather than one that outright breaks them. I really liked the back-and-forths between them.
It seems like Suder really does make Tuvok question his worldview just by existing and Suder himself is obviously a deep thinker though he's apathetic about the world due to feeling fundamentally disconnected from it unless he interacts with it in a violent manner. The fact that he's tried to curb or be rid of his violent impulses in the past (and is willing to try new ways to do it in the present) is also interesting to me!
I also find it interesting how he seems genuinely thrilled that Tuvok is willing to kill him, he seems almost euphoric in the moments before his potential death - gazing up at the light with wide eyes and a smile. I find it interesting how he's the one who says "then we'll both die" though Tuvok didn't imply that and he doesn't move to attack Tuvok back - he's just entirely certain that upon killing him Tuvok will kill himself out of guilt.
Oh, and the fact that Tuvok's fascination with Suder leads him to performing a mind meld despite the fact that there's literally no need for it beyond his own personal desire for an answer...what a detective, what a homosexual. Why are you so stuck on establishing a motive you understand? So you can become one with the mind of another man - a bond which mimics briefly the one of marriage which you've lost?
Last but not least some funnier elements are the fact that Tuvok literally does the -kills you with my mind- thing, a power which he apparently has and also whenever you watch that scene where (holo)Neelix is being annoying and Tuvok chokes him to death for it please just remember that Tuvok wrote every word of that. Tuvok sat down, sweating, consumed by a desire for violence and he wrote 'itty-bitty little smile'.
Also interesting that he wrote a narrative that again he could excuse himself in - a sort of 'he drove me to it' narrative instead of say, one where he could just kill anyone for no reason GTA style. I like that part of him that still needs a reason(excuse) for his violence! It's a good character trait and contrasts Suder who kills people because 'I didn't like the way they looked at me.'
Everyone in the world who likes HEAVILY implied gay shit with a hannibal-style vibe please go watch 'Meld'.
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my snowbaird playlist
disclaimer: some of the songs listed on the playlist are there only for one line that relates to snowbaird. most of the songs are taylor swift songs because i really only listen to taylor swift, olivia rodrigo, and different soundtracks. anyway enjoy!
the alcott by the national and taylor swift
it's the last thing you wanted (tell me, which side are you on, dear?)
it's the first thing you do (give me some tips to forget you)
you tell me your problems (have i become one of your problems?)
all too well ten minute version by taylor swift
'cause in this city's barren cold
i still remember the first fall of snow
and how it glistened as it fell
i remember it all too well
begin again by taylor swift
i've been spending the last eight months
thinking all love ever does
is break and burn, and end
cardigan by taylor swift (except the voice memo lyrics which have a chokehold on me)
i knew i'd curse you for the longest time
i knew i'd wish you would've changed your mind
i knew you'd miss me once the moment died
i knew to love would be to lose my mind
cowboy like me by taylor swift
now you hang from my lips
like the gardens of babylon
with your boots beneath my bed
forever is the sweetest con
cruel summer by taylor swift
and i screamed for whatever it's worth
"i love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?
he looks up grinning like a devil
dear arkansas daughter by lady lamb
you with the dark curls, you with the watercolor eyes
you who bares all your teeth in every smile
says i can always hear you sing, i wanna hear you speak to me
don't blame me by taylor swift
don't blame me, love made me crazy
if it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right
the great war by taylor swift
all that bloodshed, crimson clover
uh-huh, the bombs were close and
my hand was the one you reached for
all throughout the great war
haunted by taylor swift
come on, come on, don't leave me like this
i thought I had you figured out
something's gone terribly wrong
you're all I wanted
i bet you think about me by taylor swift
does it make you feel sad
that the love that you're lookin' for
is the love that you had
i don't wanna live forever by zayn and taylor swift
i'm sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck in my mind
wondering if i dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life
baby, baby, i feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
i gave you something, but you gave me nothing
what is happening to me?
is it over now? by taylor swift
when you lost control
red blood, white snow
labyrinth by taylor swift
you know how much i hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back
just like that
uh oh, i'm falling in love
oh no, i'm falling in love again
oh, i'm falling in love
logical by olivia rodrigo
you built a giant castle
with walls so high i couldn't see
the way it all unraveled
and all the things you did to me
you lied, you lied, you lied
out of the woods by taylor swift
we were built to fall apart
and fall back together
say don't go by taylor swift
'cause you kiss me and it stops time
and i'm yours, but you're not mine
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Tag (re)Drop
//At long last, I finally decided to stop everything and focus on my blog by itself! This post is quite long (obviously) and a few tags were slaughtered in the process since I no longer use them and also to make place for new ones, but I hope this eases the tagging mess for once!!
🌊 | outside the ship / ooc
🌊 | inside the ship / ic
🌊 | stuck in my datapad / mobile
🌊 | coming aboard / threads
🌊 | message in a bottle / asks
🌊 | grayfaced annoyance / anonymous
🌊 | a reflection of myself / visage
🌊 | Lapis did a thing / arts & edits
🌊 | in troubled waters / memes & prompts
🌊 | watching over seas / dash comm
🌊 | this looks fun / dash games
🌊 | from another point of view / headcanons
🌊 | through the soul of a sailor / study
🌊 | you're not the only fish in the ocean... / musings
🌊 | all the beauties hidden underwater / aesthetic
🌊 | don't call me tidepod! / crack
🌊 | pay attention landlubbers! / psa
🌊 | maybe for later... / wishlist
🌊 | a story for another day / drabbles
🌊 | singing sea shanties / music & audio
🌊 | in the waves of love / ship stuff
🌊 | ocean man approval / promo
🌊 | ocean man brand / self promo
🌊 | captain's data log / status
🌊 | my new treasure / saved tag
🌊 | checking again / self reblog
🌊 | swimming along / queue
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// tag dump <3
🍷 || 「 MINE. 」
🎬 IC || ❝ And… Action. ❞
💔 OOC || ❝ But I really wanted to shoot someone! ❞
🌃 RP || ❝ Just improv it! ❞
🎞️ Headcanons || ❝ I said I'll fucking kill you! And I will. ❞
🚬 Valentino || 「 I Could Make You A Star 」
📺 Vox || 「 How Vile Can You Be? 」
🤙 Velvette || 「 You'll Never Make It In The Business 」
🎙️Alastor || 「 Who’s The One Who Wrecked Your Life This Time? 」
⚡ The Vees || 「 Inmates Running the Asylum 」
🕷️ Angel Dust || 「 Hell's Favorite Boy Toy 」
🪽 Heaven || ❝ Well this just got interesting. ❞
🩷 Ship || ❝ Oh you know me too well. ❞
📱 Mobile || The Show Must Go On
🎥 Answered || ❝ Fucking FINALLY! ❞
🃏 Crack || 「 Welcome To My Hooker Palace 」
🍷 Aesthetics || 「 Cause You're Hotter Than The Sun 」
⭐ Promo || 「 Do I Know You? 」
✉️ Ask Meme || 「 Complaints Go Here 」
🪞 Dash Comm || 「 Suffering’s Just Another Perspective 」
🪶 Wishlist || 「 Better Cover Your Drink 」
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