#there was also one of him in an american psycho tshirt that i did not include because it was too ugly.

[fungh0u1]

manjoume.... thunder!!!

[tobthoughts]

london, fidget, fall out boy

saturday, november 4th, 21:38pm

i’m on the train back from london now! going back home to brighton. i’m currently delayed because of congestion at the next station ahead so that’s really fun and not annoying at all. anyway i thought i would take the time to write my little blog about what i’ve been up to!

i met my friend jen in london waterloo yesterday (like two hours late… standard tobi fashion) and then we went on a little trip to the big selfridges! i also got mcdonald’s because i didn’t eat in the morning. selfridges is basically just a big shop full of designer clothes for tories, but the top floor is a big toy shop. we went to look for the jellycats, jen wanted the cloud and i wanted the skeleton, but they actually didn’t have either. i ended up getting a bat and jen got a burger and a snowman. this is them!!!

i decided to name my bat fidget! i think that it’s pretty cute. i’ve also started an instagram account for him (i’m that guy) it’s @fidget.adventures if anyone wants to follow his journey! so far he’s come everywhere with me!

after we went to selfridges we went to our hotel which was actually super fancy and i just had no idea??? jen was in charge of booking and organising, i just paid however much she told me to. i paid back in january so i guess i forgot that it was right next to the O2 arena. like RIGHT next to. and so posh. insanely posh, we both felt so out of place. it was fun though. we put all our stuff in the room and just chilled out for a bit, then we went to get something to eat but it was a nightmare. jen’s a really picky eater so she didn’t want wagamamas, she wasn’t in the mood for pizza, blah blah blah we went to costa. i know what you’re thinking… “costa? before a concert? when you hadn’t eaten since lunch?” i know. but we did that. i had a brie and cranberry toastie and oh my goooodddd it was so good i loved every single bite. nom.

once we’d eaten we headed over to the merch store where we had to queue for like .. half an hour? 45 minutes maybe? it wasn’t that bad but it was raining and we were queuing outside so it could’ve been better. i ended up getting a fall out boy tshirt, and maybe surprisingly i got merch from one of the opening bands. honestly i’d never heard of them and they weren’t the best but i thought their merch was cool so i bought it! i also put the fall out boy tshirt on over my jumper so i was #prepared for the actual concert.

the queue to get in was short but we were like two hours early because jen tends to freak herself out if she’s not early to stuff, basically the complete opposite of me. i left my passport in the hotel so i couldn’t even get a pint (DEVASTATING). i did get a pepsi max though! we headed into the actual arena as soon as doors opened at 6:30 to find our seats. the opening bands were okay! the first people, nothing,nowhere , are the people who’s merch i got. they did a lot of shouting and “get the fuck up!”s but you could tell the crowd were NOT feeling it. it was also relatively quiet still. the second opening act was PVRIS. she was alright! maybe not my type of music but i can definitely see the appeal. her talking voice is so different to her singing voice too, so it caught me off guard a little bit. but the people seemed to like her more. maybe she’s a little more well known, i have no idea.

then fall out boy came on.

oh my god.

i’ve seen them before, for the MANIA tour in like… 2018 i think? and i loved it then, but i definitely enjoyed last nights show more. i don’t really know anything from the new album, so much for stardust, but imagine my delight when they play their old music. i’m not talking american beauty/american psycho old, or even folie a deux old, but they did play some folie. i’m talking TAKE THIS TO YOUR GRAVE. the debut album. 2003. music older than i am. they played saturday, where is your boy, calm before the storm… ohhhhhg my god i was living my absolute best life. there were songs that jen didn’t even know and i was screaming my little emo heart out.

here’s a lil video of sugar we’re goin down:

it was incredible. i’ve missed concerts so much. and jen. i haven’t seen her since summer ended :(

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i’m home safe now and feel so weird. my “old” life feels like so long ago… but it’s really a few months. uni is weird like that. i feel like i’ve known some of my uni friends for years.

tyler i don’t even know if you read these, but i saw akira in a book shop and it made me think of u. i’m sorry i fell asleep, i won’t next time i promise<3

[josieoh]

[ moon gayoung, cis woman, she/her ] - was that JOSIE OH i saw by the lighthouse today? i heard that the TWENTY SIX year old who has been in nightrest for HER WHOLE LIFE and works as a PARALEGAL has a reputation of being PERSUASIVE, but also OBSESSIVE. they reside in ASHMORE & people in town usually associate them with ADAM AND EVE IN THE SECRET GARDEN, A DAMSEL WHO BECAME THE DISTRESS, & SILK SHEETS KISSING BARE SKIN. let’s hope the killer doesn’t go after them next. ╱ pinterest. dossier.

BRIEF BACKGROUND!

tbh i'm too lazy to do anything special with the bg so we just gonna have to agree to settle for this sry

raised in the shadows of her siblings, jealousy was the emotion most often felt, especially towards their mother's favourite jacob. tried to be the best kid, kept her grades up, got every award she could, played sports, danced, but nothing seemed to work to gain her parents attention ( or the attention of the adults taking care of them ). by her first year of high school, josie was over it. while she maintained her grades, she began hanging with the wrong crowd and leaning more into the black sheep persona among her peers while still trying to be the golden girl for her parents. nothing was off limits and by the time she graduated, she'd secured acceptance to a university out of state where she got her bachelors in paralegal studies. she took a year off to travel ( read: party ) and got together with the wrong guy. long story short, it was another two years before she was able to break away from that situation and finally come back home to nightrest where she's been putting her degree to good use ever since. -- basically she's been back nearly two years now.

HEADCANONS!

now onto her as a person.. she's a #Mess. petty, spiteful, overly confident, twisted, loves to argue and will literally do it just for shits and giggles ( even better if it pisses someone off ), does whatever she wants whenever she wants with no regard to other people and their feelings, and very i am woman, hear me roar. she's loyal to one person and that's herself ( and her siblings so ig 3 people ). here for a good time, not a long time. doesn't believe in anything that isn't a dress or skirt but wears pants suits to work bc the men she works with are pigs and she likes her job. speaking of her job, i imagine she works for one of the best lawyer firms in the area and specialises in criminal law, but she knows her way around business law too thanks to her parents ( yes she's still trying to find acceptance what of it ). takes her beauty seriously --- the type to have an extremely intensive skin care routine, work out routine, and diet. think like patrick bateman from american psycho sorta serious.. just minus the psychopathic murderer tendencies ( maybe. it's a surprise ). a practicing wiccan with an altar and all. will happily read your palm or tarot for free if you're a friend or for a "price" if she thinks you're hot enough. still a partier with nothing being off limits. has probably gotten really good at detoxing herself just in case there's ever a drug test at work. despite the fact that nothing's off limits and she's..well, her..she's very diligent when it comes to her job and probably one of the best around. organisation skills are on point, attention to detail is top tier, mistakes are an absolute no-no, etc etc. don't get her started, she can talk about how amazing she is forever still very much jealous of her older brother, but won't hesitate to add your ass to nightrest's body count if you fuck with him in even the SLIGHTEST way 😠 and did she settle in ashmore to be close to said brother? maybe. we don't talk about it. if you wanna help her help her bro find love tho......ig you can hit her up. just don't use her in an attempt to get to her brother. been there done that didnt want the ugly tshirt. did i mention she was a scrapper? bc she is, she just prefers to do so verbally due to her job ( tho given her parents, she's probably not likely to lose it even if only due to them trying to keep their rep in place ).

anyway she's an annoying lil hellion but i hope yall love her as much as i do thank u

[ghxstface15]

Here's Crow's origin story

(Crow is pretty much like Zero, but they have a few differences.)

Tommy was a young boy at the age of 15 with dark brown hair and hazel eyes. He wasn't really smart and he was mainly introverted which caused him to have no friends. However, he only had one friend. And that was his imaginary friend, Crow. Crow was the same age as Tommy and also had dark brown hair, but he had red eyes, a red flannel, a black tshirt, jeans, and black converses. They would always watch horror films together including their favorite film "American Psycho." When his parents saw him talking to himself, they thought about seeking therapy for him. One day, his parents went to work and he had the whole house to himself. An hour passed by and he was sitting in the living room watching the news. The news reporter talked about two people who were killed at the bank. When the photos of the 2 victims came on screen, Tommy felt his heart drop. The two people that were killed was his mom and dad. They had been brutally beaten to death by a robber who was robbing the bank. Tommy got on his knees and started to cry, banging his fist against floor. After 10 minutes of crying, he suddenly felt pure rage take over him. He started to break everything. Throwing against the ball, at the floor, as glass shards of glass flew towards him and put cuts in his face. He had no one. No family, no friends, no nothing. He was all on his own. Months flew by and Tommy had started living on his own in the same house he always lived in. But he wasn't the same boy used to be. Every day at school, he would always threaten this bully named "Jason" who bullied everyone in the school including Tommy. Tommy threatened him by saying the most violent gory things that came to his mind. But it never scared Jason. "You really think you scare me, kid? What a joke." Jason said as he threw a punch to Tommy's face. "Go ahead. Get up. I dare you." As Tommy got up, he finally snapped. He kicked Jason in the stomach and then in the face until Jason fell on the floor, covering his stomach. "Now how about you get up?" Tommy yelled as he speedwalked towards Jason. He then repeated started kicking him the stomach and in the face until his mouth started pouring blood. He then stopped when the principal came in and took him to the office. Sitting in the office, Principal Rogers talked to him about what happened. "Tommy, I know things have been rough for you since your parents died, but this is not the way to get over it. I mean this is not who you used to be." There was a long pause until Tommy looked up at Principal Rogers and smiled. "You're right. This isn't who I used to be. This is the new me. This is who I am now. And I'm so glad that I've changed." Principal Rogers got up from his desk and opened the door. "Get out of my school. You're expelled." He said to him. "Gladly." He said as he walked out of the door. When he got home, he ran to the bathroom and immediately cut his arm with a knife. He has been doing that ever since his parents died. Because all he felt was sorrow, rage, pain, and insanity. He looked into the mirror and jumped when he saw his reflection. It was him, but it didn't look like him. When he moved, the reflection didn't. All he did was stare. "Who are you?" He said to the reflection. The reflection replied, "Several months have passed since your parents passed and you forgot about me. You forgot about your old imaginary friend, Crow." Tommy was so confused on what was happening. "Crow, if you're upset because I forgot about you, I'm sorry. But it's time to move on." He tried to leave the bathroom, but the door shut before he could walk out. Tommy tried to open the door, but it wouldn't budge. He looked back at Crow who had a wide smile on his face. "Do you really wanna live through this for the rest of your life? Going through pain every day for nothing?" Tommy started listening to him. "What are you trying to say?" He asked him. Crow replied, "I can help you. If you just let me take over your body, I can help you."

Tommy thought about what Crow was getting at, but he disagreed. "No. Absolutely not. Remember that girl named Alice? Her imaginary friend messed with her mind and caused her to go on a murder spree. But you wanna take over my body? No way! Never in a million years!" The smile on Crow's face disappeared. There was a long pause and then Crow said, "Tommy, think about how much fun you would have? Like today, you beat the crap out of that kid Jason. Isn't this what you wanted?" Tommy only wanted to hurt him. He never wanted to kill him. "I'm not a killer. And there's no way I'm letting you take over." Crow's smile went away and the mirror began to crack. "Well, it looks like you don't have a choice." Seconds later, the mirror exploded and a shadow flew towards Tommy and knocked him against the wall and knocked him out cold for several minutes. When he woke up, he had a sharp pain in the back of his head. When he went to rub his eyes, he saw that he was wearing fingerless gloves that he didn't have on before. He also had on a ripped up black and white flannel, a black tshirt, and black converses. When he looked in the mirror, he realized that Crow had taken over him. He smiled and then, as Crow, he said, "You lose, Tommy." He laughed maniacally while looking for sewing supplies. He saw how some killers had a smile sewn onto their faces. But instead, he's gonna have a frown instead. Slowly, he used some scissors to cut the cheeks into a frown and then started sewing the frown. He also started adding stitches around his neck. It was painful, but he just laughed quietly as he continued. Another thing he wanted to do was stitch and X onto his left eye. Without hesitation, he took a scalpel and took out his left eye before sewing the X. After the X was sewn, he went to his dad's shed and grabbed two shotguns with all ammunition and an axe. When he got everything, he rode his bike to Jason's house because somehow, he knew where he lived. When he got there, he snuck into the house and went up the stairs to Jason's room. He got into Jason's room and locked the door. Jason woke to see Crow standing there holding his axe. "Roses are red, violets are blue. I belong in hell and so do you!" He raised the axe and brought it down on Jason's neck, decapitating him. But he wasn't done yet. He took Jason's head to his mom's room and placed it on her dresser. As he rode away on the bike, he let a maniacal laugh and rode into the woods. Riding on a dirt trail, a girl jumped in front of him and caused him to spin off the trail and fall down a hill. He got up and the girl was standing right next to him. "Who are you?" He asked her. "I'm Zero. I'm an imaginary friend of a girl named Alice. I imagine you've heard the story." She replied. "Yes, I have heard the story and I love it." He held out his hand for a handshake. "I'm Crow. I'm also an imaginary friend of a boy named Tommy. I took over his body about 2 hours go." She shook his hand. "Nice to meet you, Crow." They decided to become friends and then they both disappeared into the woods forever. They say that both of them are still there. Waiting for someone to kill.

[softpink]

FOB Question Tag

patrick: are you shy? It depends.  I can be if I am having a bad anxiety day,  but on my best days I am pretty forward person.

pete: what advice would you give to your younger self? I would tell my younger self to not be so panicked about my future, there’s so much time left.

andy: what is one thing you'll always fight for? I have a lot of passion for reform of mental health care, especially long term mental health care facilities for the severely mentally ill

joe: are you an optimist or a pessimist? I am dangerously optimistic.

eowyg: say something nasty about your ex. Trains.  That’s all that needs to be said.

ttyyg: what are 5 things that make you angry? 1. My friends being treated poorly, especially by their S/O 2. Being accused of lying when I’m telling the truth 3. Invasions of privacy 4. When people cannot see that their actions are clearly, blatantly wrong/corrupt 5. Republicans

futct: what was your first major success? First?  Oh geez, I don’t know.  I remember feeling VERY accomplished when I taught myself cursive in the first grade, but if we’re talking about successes that matter....I would say becoming a black belt in Tae Kwon Do.

ioh: what is your sexuality? Bisexual bby

fad: are you mentally ill? Is water wet?

srar: what was your greatest triumph? Finding peace with the trauma I endured in my early teen years

ab/ap: are you missing anyone? I miss Mike every single fucking day.  I am always thinking of him, wishing he was still here.

release the bats: what's the most reckless thing you've ever done? OH GOD.  Fall semester 2015 was one bad decision after another.  I’m going to say house hop night.  “Dating” a drug dealer when I was uhhhh fourteen was pretty bad too lmao.

bedussey: what's your favorite high? Doing well on tests, because I’m a fucking teacher’s pet at my core and I work very hard in school

if you don't do drugs, which would you be willing to try? I’ve smoked a couple of times, but other than that I don’t particularly want to do any “real” drugs.  My body already is barely functioning, I don’t need to be adding insult to injury.  I’m also just realizing now that the last question was probably about highs from substance abuse, not just like.....getting high on life. Why am I like this

saturday: who is your best friend? Kathryn, going on eighteen years strong

grand theft autumn: do you have a secret crush? Nah, it’s no secret that I’m in love with Michael

sugar, we're goin' down: have you ever been in a physical fight? did you win? I’ve never been in a physical fight, unless y’all count sparring matches, which I don’t

dance, dance: when you go to parties, are you more of a wallflower, or the center of attention? Something in between?  The only parties I go to are ones with my close friends, where I am comfortable with everyone.

16 candles: do you believe in the paranormal? Oh hell yeah

thnks fr th mmrs: what's your favorite animal? I love bichons and otters

this ain't a scene, it's an arms race: who intimidates you the most? Master A. Chong, that man is so intimidating

what a catch, donnie: what is your greatest insecurity? My skin

i don't care: what's the craziest thing you've ever seen in public? A whole shelving unit of cd’s at my library fall over on a toddler (the child was okay)

america's suitehearts: create an alter ego for yourself Curly red hair, living in Manhattan and working as a curator at The Frick Collection.  I would have a lifestyle blog, and would be going to Columbia for my PhD.

the youngblood chronicles: what's the worst injury you've ever had? The sub ovarian hematoma I had in January, I never want to feel that kind of pain ever again

uma thurman: can you dance? I am very bad at dancing, but I don’t let it stop me

american beauty/american psycho: what's your favorite movie? Silver Linings Playbook

irresistible: what are you most addicted to? Putting way too much on my plate.  I love having shit to do, and I get such a rush when I get all of those things done.

soul punk: do you play instruments? how many? which ones? I played marimba and flute in high school!

the black cards: how many people have you slept with? if you're uncomfortable answering, how many have you kissed? I’m going to go with kissed and the answer is a lot because I love kisses

the damned things: how diverse is your music taste? It’s all over the place.  My spotify daily mixes usually cover a wide spectrum.

clandestine: if you were a cartoon character, what outfit would you be drawn in? Black leggings, over sized tshirt or a long tunic type top, knee high lace up boots, hair always in a top knot or ponytail

gray: have you ever been suicidal? :-)

fall out toy works: are you an artist? I love to write and draw, but I wouldn’t say I’m an artist

chicago: what is your hometown? Lockport, NY!!

I tag @helloyddam @alextrebekofficial @lookingfor-theupsides !