#diaryposting

[sabrebash]

Recent thoughts. I wish i had a photo, but the oncoming lane faces the booth and i haven't been able to snap one while driving. Texas is wild.

[neurodivergenttales]

Shoutout to everyone who…

Relies on ‘junk food’ to eat

Is not able to or does not have the spoons to cook regularly

Whose relationship with food was damaged by their parents

Struggles to eat fresh fruit and veg

Has a limited diet due to sensory issues

Is made fun of for their restricted diet

[evergreen-femme]

i honestly hate the trans girl narrative that we were all always women no questions full stop. i get why it needs to exist and like i won't break the orthodoxy right now but to be honest that isn't really my experience. i was a boy who really desperately wanted to be a "girl" growing up, whatever that meant to me. now, i am a woman but i'm still that boy inside - he's my inner child. it may not be the nicest truth but it's my reality. it's immensely sad. but i need to acknowledge him if im ever going to have a sense of continuity in my life. so yea that's what the femboy stuff has been all about and why it feels so completely healing for me. its hot too yeah i know but i feel like i need to explain that it has a much deeper meaning to me than that as a "fetish." it's literally the narrative of my life, and me being happy enough with the results of my transition on a more or less every day basis to try and acknowledge and embrace the part of me i've always been the most ashamed of.

and also im really afraid of people saying shit because of this like "you aren't really a woman and you definitely aren't a lesbian!" bc i am still a woman. my adult self is a woman. acknowledging my womanhood meant acknowledging the 17 years of my life i spent fully dissociated from my body or any real sense of self, which was a terrifying thing to do that i think a lot of people would lack the courage for. and my lesbian and especially femme identity (to me, i'm a femme first, and a lesbian second) is incredibly important to my sense of womanhood. i had to embrace my womanhood to grow up, basically, and i delayed that for way too long. WAY too long. but i was still existing during that waiting time and i'm not going to just throw away 17 years of my life because it doesn't make sense to dumbass queer discoursers. i'm a boy who grew up into a woman. ppl like me do exist.

[fennopunk]

I made a new wrist loop thing for my cane!

I've been obsessed with making yarn plants recently, in general as an old low-key obsession, but also as an preparation for the craft fair in two weeks. AND! I learned how to embroider moss :D

[peachesnabsinthe]

🌿💗🍯

@hausfaerie (18+nsfw)

[aceofworlds]

"What's your love language?"

Utter devotion & fervent worship.

[sheviolentlyher]

absolutely make way for the dominant species. 🐈‍⬛

[hotsodax]

Artemis dubois (from IASIP) is one of the most beautiful women that I’ve even seen

[arowrath]

really awesome sentence from my 2nd grade diary

[myfemininedivine]

love sick or touch starved — who knows !

[neurodivergenttales]

BPD is watching yourself burn your own life to the ground over and over again

[kyokocanary777]

昨日は横浜にいました

昨日は、仕事の用事と音楽の用事があって1日横浜にいました。

毎回、横浜や東京に行く時は、夜行バスで行って夜行バスで帰ってきます。宿泊はしません。

理由は、節約もありますが、それだけではありません。

新幹線に乗って行ったり、宿泊するとなると、私にとっては負担が多いことに気づきまして…

まず、節約面の話をすると、京都から新横浜までの新幹線代は往復で2万6000円位で、

夜行バスは、平日ですと、往復が5000円から6000円ですから

かなり違います。

しかも、夜行バスは京都駅まで行かなくても、近くの長岡京市から乗り降りできるようになってしまいましたので、移動も楽です。

そして、一時は事故が多くて勤務体制が指摘されていた夜行バスですが、現在は絶対に2名交代制になってます。

次に、新幹線に乗って東京や横浜に行く場合、私なりに感じる負担をあげてみます。

・朝早く起きなければいけない

・切符を買うのに駅まで行かなければいけない

・日帰りとなると滞在時間が少なくなる

・横浜の場合は、新横浜から横浜や石川町に移動しなければいけない

・宿泊するとなると宿泊代がかかる

・宿泊するとなると荷物の用意が面倒になる

こんな感じです。

さて、昨日は少しだけですが写真も撮りました。

しかしながら、昼過ぎまでは順調だったものの、雨風が強くなってきて、関内駅でベイスターズファンと一緒に雨宿りするはめに笑。

傘さしても、傘に風を受けて持つのが大変で、横殴りの雨が入り込んで結局濡れてるし、あんまり意味なしでしたね☔️

予定では、400枚くらい撮る予定だったのに、100枚くらいになってしまいました。

iPhoneでも撮りたかったのに、雨に濡れて壊れ��ら困るのでやめ��した。

雨宿りの間は、仕方なしにiPhone取り出してライターの仕事の記事をまとめてました。

アウトラインだけでも作成しておくと、後から楽なので♪

写真が撮れなかったのは非常に残念ですが、、、石川町にオープンした料亭屋さん経営のおにぎり屋さんと、桜木町のシアルの中のカフェに行けて、写真も撮れたのでよしとします。

それと、関東の仕事関係や音楽人と話せて楽しかったです♪

では、後日写真など投稿していきます。

こちらのブログも更新ペースが安定しつつありまして、最終的には短めの記事をメインに、1日1投稿になると思います。

Instagramは、2日に1投稿で、少しだけストーリーズやってます。

ぼちぼち。

では👋

2023/05/12

23:14

カナリヤ響子

[fennopunk]

I don't like this adulthood shit

I used to be able to go on even if I couldn't sleep for a night or two. Now if I go sleepless for a night I'm practically bed bound for two days.

[peachesnabsinthe]

Jungle Sunset 🌄🌿💦

[aceofworlds]

Making self-love my priority, my addiction, my prevention, my cure and my salvation.

[sheviolentlyher]

Actually——- ——-