#theres nothing to love about myself

[hansoeii]

did loki just compare thor falling for jane with what he feels for mobius?

"and when he came back, he was different. changed somehow. I thought it was weakness. I mocked him. said he'd gone soft."

He just said these words while actively defending mobius after sylvie hurt him. He said those words while thinking about mobius and while standing in the pie room where they had one of their most intimate moments.

loki is different because of mobius. he's become weaker and soft because of mobius. the exact same thing that happened to his brother has now happened to him, and he's completely aware of it.

[transsextual]

untitled, elle emerson (@transsextual)

[text id: my baby and i couldn't be happy with just these human bodies. i'm her boy & her puppy & it's right because have you ever seen a truer expression of joy than that of a puppy who has done nothing all day but sleep and wait when his person walks in the door? not many things more eager, more honest, than that kind of love. and truly i'm clumsy and nervous and i take silly things too far. even now i expect to be punished for my wildness in at least some small way. she's training me out of all that hurt. "no more sleeping on the floor, baby" she says. & every night i get next to her is the best one yet. i can't always say it as well as i'd like, but in my heart i'll be wagging up a storm, & i know she sees it when she tells me hello like i'm brand new, even though we've been in love for ages.]

[faunandfloraas]

i love being friends with girls and then they get a boyfriend and then he becomes the center of her entire existence and all she talks about and all she focuses on and i sit there and i smile and i nod and i feel myself becoming genuinely evil

[quaranmine]

I've been rereading Firewatch AU because I intend to make a copy to give to my mother to read. It will, um, be the first time she's ever read my writing but this is probably the best example of it anyway. It's not like I want to explain Watcher!Grian to her either lmao so it may as well be this

I wanted to use the Gdocs comment feature to sort of "annotate" parts for her to give her some fun facts as well as explain the more fanfiction-y elements. (For example, explaining what calling Mumbo a spoon means.) So since I am doing it alongside minor edits in a reread, I am doing it in the most inefficient way possible by copying and pasting one page at a time to the new document. For 217 pages. Yay! Gdocs has a feature to just copy an entire document, but since I am editing it as I go I want both copies to be the same. Except one has comments and one is clean. And I only want to read it through once for comments/editing. Anyway!

Things I am noticing:

I do, as always, cringe a little at earlier writing. But I actually do this less than normal on this fic? I actually still like most of it and can reread it pretty easily. This is in contrast to some other things of mine where I whiplash back and forth dramatically on love/hate.

I have used THREE different formats for "am/pm" in this fic.

Somewhere, somehow, the formatting is different on the documents because the new copy is??? shorter than the other??? But they have the same wordcount so I know I haven't skipped anything. there's just Something off between them

i will add more as I go 🤔

[xamaxenta]

Kind of whelmed

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

I LOVE going everywhere by bike. Don't need to wait for a bus. Don't need to cram myself into a bus with (urgh) people. Or even worse, what feels like every single student in town. I still get home in about the same amount of time. I'm so so flexible including with places. Like yeah sure, let's go there! I don't care if the next bus station is far away. Doesn't matter to me.

Stayed out late with friends recently. Two of em had to get their family to come pick them up because that's too far to walk and it was too late for buses. A different friend lives like 30 minutes away but always walks and their way goes through a small park where literally no one is at with few lanterns so it's pitch black and I could literally just walk them home and then take the bike which is faster and has its own light and feels and probably is safer than walking those dark ass streets at night alone.

Like. I can just do all that. And yeah, sometimes when I'm not doing too well I feel like collapsing afterwards and yeah, maybe my fingers feel like falling off a lot at this time of year but that's like. SO worth it. I have no idea how people can live and NOT go everywhere by bike. Like if it's more than 20-30 minutes maybe but even with hills.... I fucking love my bike.

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a lot of things people blame for why fandoms feel like ghost towns these days, but no one's really talked about the way discord's contributing to it

[orcelito]

Actually is there any cure to feeling like I'm a failure of a person if I don't keep posting fic regularly. Like I know this is not a job or anything. It's just for fun. But with how most people comment only within a day or two of when something is posted, I end up with weeks and weeks of no comments, even when the hits on my works still go up, so it makes me feel rather forgotten.

Like idk. This is probably just feeling worse bc im apparently phenomenally neurotic today. But I wish people commented on older fics more.

[skeletalheartattack]

We're going to the zoo. Love the animals?

person who's only ever watched super metroid speedruns voice: kill the animals

[hecksupremechips]

re: udg reblog,

clearly the solution to “oh i love this but i don’t think anyone should play it” is to write a fic with only the good parts and none of the bad parts but then you have this big empty space where the bad parts were so you just make something up that seems vaguely believable

that seems like a normal thing normal people do right?

RIGHT?

It’s always correct and totally won’t ever lead to agony as you look at the canon and scream because my god how are you supposed to salvage something this stupid why are you doing this you used to be so normal and not care oh god why does attacking the little girl make her pants fly off oh god why is delta a character

[calkale]

guys ngl. i am at my limit

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

might remake to a new account entirely and change the name i go by

[red-dyed-sarumane]

ik my layout rn is rime bc shes also very important to me but if im not the person obsessed with an obscure & obtuse vocaloid song series to everyone else then whats even the point. my favorite character ever rn has one single piece of official art & a 3 & a half minute song with weirdly specific wording and like 30 different possible interpretations & thats it thats all that exists of her. her creator never speaks of her (or any of the other characters from the series or even the series itself for that matter). she's referenced in other songs as only a sacrifice/victim with no extra details about her character. the amount of fan art of her minus my own is in the very low double digits & several of those are because i got my friends to draw her for me. u may be insane for ur fave character but are u strong enough to subsist off exactly two things of them for 4 years & love them just as much if not more than when u first saw them.

[choking-on-roses]

It deeply bothers me that nobody in my life ever responds to messages from me and they often leave me on read even when I'm talking about something really important

On the other hand it leads to some pretty hilarious conversations when days later I send a meme

[kiras-monkey-bum-face]

where's the love for the average lesbians (me)? you know the ones that are too masc to be considered femme but too femme to be considered masc (still me)? the lesbians that don't want to move fast and can't stand the idea of dating apps because they just favour the conventionally attractive (also me). where's the love for the lesbians that dont want to fall into a stereotype catagory and just want to exist (I'm talking about me)

[oblivioustinygay]

I am feeling....soft