#thesecretofrain

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46 | Dinner 

35 minutes later.

London: Let’s get a bit on a serious note. Tell me, Vivi, how are you keeping up, girl?

Vivian: Do I feel alright in general? I believe so.

London: You miss her, don’t you?

Vivian: After all, you lost your sister, too. Do you miss Imani? You understand very well how I feel right now.

London: Sadly, we have that in common.  I do miss her daily. She always called me bear.

Vivian: Bear, oh? That's a sweet one. Would you mind if I continue that tradition?

London: Really, you would? I don't know it's kind of early for that. Maybe sometimes? Will let you know.

Vivian: Sure. All we can do is keep them in our hearts forever, and we will always love them wherever they may be, won't we?

London: Always loved, never forgotten, and always in our hearts. What would Diosa say if she would know that we dated each other?

Vivian: I guess she would approve. After all, you are a good man. A bit cocky, but your heart is in the right place. What would Imani say?

London: Imani? She would love you. She made me promise to find someone who loves me unconditionally. I should not settle for less. You need to know. Back then, I used to be young and naive. I believed in stuff like fairytales and love. Well, and I used to be madly in love with my ex. After Farrah? I never had a relationship again. It was Imanis' last wish. That I only get involved with someone who also loves me in return. That's that what she told me I deserved.  

Vivian: You do deserve love. I wish I had met the shy and charming London. Surely would like him very much. But do you want a relationship at all?

London: Ah yeah? [snickers] Let's say it that way. I would not say no if it feels right. It has to be mutual, you know? How about you?

Vivian: Oh me? Um, I'm just a happy single.

London: Of course! No crazy ex-boyfriends or ex-girlfriends around you? Do you say nobody is haunting you from the past?

Vivian: Obviously, I'm into men! Just one. Pierce Beckett, a basketball player. I caught him in the act with my so-called BFF. As you can imagine, both are history.

London: Wow, that must have been hard.

Vivian: First love. His loss, not mine. She, on the other hand? As it turned out, she wasn't my BFF. Today? I'm sitting here with you. We date.

London: [snickers] We date?

Vivian: You said it's a date, right?

London: Right, the question is: What does it mean for you to be here with me?

Vivian: Well, I would say we have a date.

London: Wonderful, so all is forgiven that happened earlier today? [smirks]

Vivian: If you remember correctly, there is a catch with us, though?

London: [smirks] Hm, what's the catch, darling? Remind me, please.

Vivian: Let's explore who will resist kissing first. Final question would be: Who gets kissed first by whom?

London: [laughs] Tough one. I have to admit, but I'm in. Teasing is allowed, don't you think?

Vivian: [snickers]  You only want to provoke me to kiss you first.

London: It's up for a challenge. Let's see who is going to give in first.

Vivian: Alas, sadly, no one is going to be kissed today. 

London: Snap, destiny sucks at times. Damn! [chuckles] Vivian: Look at the delicious food we have. Maybe we should eat a bit?  London: Good idea, I guess. 

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50 | Stagg

RJ turned off his phone. Nobody could reach him - in fact, he does not want to talk to anybody either, regardless of who it could be. Nor did he want to tell anyone where he went and why. He cannot breathe in the city any longer. Things felt wrong all sudden, displaced and unsustainable.

As soon he returns to San My, he will move to a new place. He contacted his real estate agency earlier. The penthouse where he lives now was a head-over-heels escape. RJ put it up for sale.

He misses home or that place that he once called his home. Now? It is an empty house, stark, blue, and filled up with nothing but memories. In the end, it was their home.

A place where his very own family once lived until his world shattered into a million pieces. Of whom he was robbed by fate. Nobody awaits him here. But he needed this feeling to be home, at least for a moment. He cannot let them go, at least not yet. 

RJ turns around and searches in his pockets for Diosas' keys. His fingers slide over the tiny Eiffel Tower in his pocket. Before he enters, he leans against the door. Aware that no life awaits him inside, no laughter, no love, and no Daddy, I missed you so much, and I love you. He unlocks the front door and turns the little light on. Stepping into their old love nest, knowing that the memory lane could crush him.

He hardly manages to take off his coat. The door slams shut and he drops onto the ground leaning his head against the door. He is unable to move forward as the feeling overwhelms him. Slowly, he opens his eyes, yet his mind is blank... as he stares into the bleak of the darkness.

In the shade, his eyes become habituated with the dark. Ansty they roam over the outlines of the furniture which his dearest ones used to touch. RJ is not focusing on anything in particular, but his gaze wanders to a tiny toy still lying on the floor in front of him.

Christina's Yarni is on the ground ... she must have left it here before they went to the city. A painful stab pierces his heart.

On his drive, he made a quick stop at a liquor store that was still open. RJ purchased a pack of smokes together with a few bottles of his favorite bourbon. He averts his gaze, takes a deep breath, grabs his bag, opens it, reaches for his Stagg bottle walks quickly to the kitchen and grabs a glass with some ice cubes. He goes back and sits down. The icy liquid rolls apace down his throat.

The coldness of the bourbon feels comforting. RJ exerts pressure on his upper and lower jaw. He is clenching his teeth to suppress those arising tears. The thing is, though, why should he stop them? This is a place where he's free. He shuts down and keeps drinking. It's only a room where we used to live, he told himself... just a room. Yet, it is painful to recall all the memories.

RJ searches in his bag for the zippy. Actually, he usually does not smoke. But, today has been an exception in many ways. He snatches the pack of cigarettes. While lighting the cigarette, his tears flow without restraint. The cigarette burns, he observes how the smoke dulls his senses.

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49 | NUTS

RJ closes his eyes, shreds of memories flash up. The ghosts of his past haunt him again.

RJ: [rough] My mind is going nuts, I can’t think straight, so please.

Evelie: My condolences on your loss.  I was not aware, though it wasn't my intention to intrude.

RJ:  [exhausted] Thank you Evelie. But I can't handle any further condolences at this point. Currently, I am at war with myself and every sympathy is like a knife stab in my heart.

Evelie: I get that. We haven’t seen each other for a while and seeing you devastated like this made me wonder, you know? 

RJ: I understand. My bad [smiles fragile] How is your fiancé? 

Evelie: We broke up, figured out he cheated on me. I called the wedding off.

RJ: I see. What a jerk that he could not appreciate your love. His loss, not yours. You did not deserve such treatment. Sorry to hear that.

Evelie: [smiles] That's very sweet of you to say. Thank you! I am sure that this is not what you want to talk about now. RJ, look if you need company at any time please let me know. Don’t hide and be all by yourself. Especially because we both know how much this place means to you! [Short silence…]... Well, let me know, okay?

RJ: I will, thanks, Evelie. But tonight I need some me-time, feel me?

Evelie: Sure! Before I leave, would you allow me to hug you?

RJ:...

Without a word, he allowed her to hug him. She sensed that he felt lost. RJ knew it and it made him feel uneasy to be so exposed.

Evelie:  I  hope you come by if you need anything… okay? I’m not far away.

RJ: Mayhap I will Evelie, sometime later.

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48 | EVELIE

Evelie: RJ? RJ Homes?  Is that you? 

RJ: Yes, it’s me. [wipes his tears away]

Evelie: What happened? Where is your family?  I thought you guys moved here for good. Wait, did you cry? 

RJ: [irritated] I'm alone, as you can see. I cried, so what?

Evelie: Are you okay?

RJ: [spiritless] I am fine... Evelie: You don't look like you are happy.. Want to talk?

RJ: Listen, I am not in the mood for a chat. Can you please leave me alone?

Evelie: Sure, one last question. Are you going to stay here?

RJ: Yes, I will, for a few days.  Wanna know the truth? I am not in the mood for company, either.

Evelie: Okay, in case you need someone to talk to, you know where I am, right?

RJ: [a tired smile escapes his lips] Thanks, I guess? Evelie? Evelie: Yeah? RJ: Everyone knows, so how come you don’t know? Did the news not reach you? Evelie: What do you mean? Which news? RJ: Long story short: My wife and kids died in a car accident a few weeks ago …, [sarcastic] That's why we aren’t here any longer, Evelie. A ‘We’ no longer exists. I’m alone, a widower! That’s fuckin’ why...

RJ noticed how her face out of the blue turned ghostly pale. Any joy of seeing him again was now replaced by the horror that appeared on her face.

She didn't expect this sort of answer. Her dismay only revealed how REAL his current situation is. Clearly, she doesn't follow the news very often.

That was exactly the face expression he tried to avoid. He was fed up with the sympathy for his family. Peace, he merely wished to have some peace. It was an expression that only reflected his loss. The reminder of this thought became unbearable for him.

To him, it felt like he was hassled, and he could well do without pitying faces. For this reason, he escaped from the stuffy city. Hoping to find at least a small fraction of peace here.

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45 |Flirt

Same evening, 08:45 PM, Fusionics Restaurant, San My.

Vivi was late. She did it on purpose, making him wait. Of course, she did! London did expect no less. Both have to wait for a little to be seated at their table. In the meantime, they enjoy a glass of wine together at the bar.

Vivian: [snaps] London, daydreaming much? Like what you see?

London: [snickers] Glad that you still made it. You’re beautiful tonight, Vivi!

Vivian: Thank you. Biggy, look don’t complain to me! Blame yourself. You made me do it. 

London: [laughs] Biggy, really? Is it my fault, tho? Aren't you the one who showed up at my door unannounced?

Vivian: Aren’t you a biggy? Oh, pardon me. You’re the Big Benny, right. [chuckels]  I almost forgot. I showed up, so what? But, understandable that you lose track if you have so many women. [eyeroll]

London: [bold] Well, as you noted, I was definitely booked elsewhere on the spur of the moment. RJ, his cousins, and I were out last night. Can't blame me for living life, can you?

Vivian: Yeah, I noticed. Won’t blame you. Yet, you are lucky to have me here now! You owe me at least a great evening.

London: [smirks] Lucky? Maybe! Come on, Vivi, face me. Were you a bit jealous this morning? Me in a wet towel, and you know...? Just a tiny bit? Be real here.

Vivian:  You are pretty cocky today, aren't you? Guess what? I don’t care. Jealous? Why should I be? We are not together, right?

London: I prefer the term confidence. Not yet. [chuckles]. If you were my girl, you would be the only one I date. Sounds good?

Vivian: We will see. I'm not going to do you a favor and boost your ego.

London: Damn, see, and I was hoping you would. It’s been a while, you know, that someone did boost my ego.

Vivian: Sure thing, Big Ben! Must have been a nobody who did boost your ego this morning! By the way I’m curious have you ever been to London, yet?

London: [laughs] What? Don't you believe me? Girl, you just broke my heart! The UK? Nope, not yet. Wanna show me the literal Big Ben? [teases] 

Vivian: Who knows... maybe one day I will show you the real deal. 

London: I count on you, Vivi. [smiles] Are you sure you can handle me? Big Ben has the stamina for the long haul, as you know! The clock is ticking relentlessly.

Vivian: I’m the queen, so are you sure that you handle a real queen? 

London: Queen, huh? I see! Come here.

Vivian: [smiles] What are you doing, London? You know if you kiss me now, you will be the one who will lose our challenge. Meaning you could not resist me.

For a second, Vivian stops breathing while her heart beats faster as London approaches her. He pulls Vivi close before giving her a sweet little peck to her cheek.

London: You wish I would give in. [confident] A little kiss on the cheek is all I need for now. I appreaciate our time. But do not worry, our lips remain cherry until you pine for mine.

Vivian: Sure, you know what you are doing.

London: Is that a question?

Vivian: No, just an observation.

London: Charming, Ms. Washington. Not only beautiful but clever as heck. Does my little swirling charm work? Vivian: [saucy] Try harder!

London: [whispers] Look Viv, I’m ready whenever you are. You just missed out on your opportunity to kiss me. Chances are, this is still not the moment for our picture-perfect first kiss? Am I correct? But yeah, I’m so damn hungry.

Vivian: You love to tease me, Mr. Crawford! Sure, I'm ready for dinner. Let’s go.

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52 | HAUNTING HEARTS

RJ Holmes Deep in my soul, I undergo a subtle alteration. Confronted with the shards of my life, I know there is no turning back. I feel broken inside. My heart lies in the wreckage. I am no longer who I used to be. All my dreams of the past have been shattered by reality. There is no love. The loss, and the knowledge that everything should be over and done forever are crushing me. Without them, the shadows of my past, who am I now?

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51 | NEIGHBOR

Getting up, he takes the bottle with him, picks up Yarni puts it on the coffeetable, and sinks into the sofa. The first bottle is empty, it's time to open the next one.

Evelie is a kind-hearted being. She lives in the neighboring house. When they met each other for the first time, the flowers were growing in all glory, she cut them. Evelie is a landscape designer, so they got to talking. Later he hired her to prepare his garden for his engagement party. Once Evelie finished the garden design, RJ proposed to Diosa at this little piece of heaven. 

He recalls that Evelie loved what he did. Her words stuck in his mind that any woman can consider herself lucky to have a man like him. A man who does such romantic things for the lady of his heart. In retrospect, this made him reflect. He couldn't shake the feeling off that she fancied him. He liked her but right now? RJs head and heart was far away and not here. 

A Holmes man loves one time and then forever. The Holmes Curse! RJ is genuinely convinced that he will never love again the way he still loves Diosa and his children. In each, he would search for her but never find her.

He could like women, sure who would not like them, right? But loving as he loves Diosa would be cheating for him. Deep inside, he knows he must let her go, but he cannot. Maybe one day he will.

RJ would have nothing to give. Relationships? No, they are out of the question for him, sooner or later the question will arise anyway and every woman wishes to be the one. The one love you love till the bitter end. No, his love account is depleted. Any woman would have to compete with Diosa, none would be her equal. He doesn't expect anyone to understand him, but his heart is taken - and now broken.

A few hours later, he decides to add a last bourbon pure in one swig before heading upstairs with a new bottle. Drunk and staggering, RJ first walks to the bath, relieving himself.

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@ellemant 😩 Oh well, Josie what can we do? Someone needs to talk some sense into him! 🤔

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47 | CHRISTINA

10:24 pm, Holmes Residence at Windenpark 

RJ closes the door of his SUV. A fresh breeze is blowing through his hair. With a deep breath, he has the feeling for a split second that he can breathe again. RJ listens to the mellow sounds of nature for a while. Insects of the night are chirping in the distance. The water down the street is lapping in the creek. It sounds soothing. It’s already late but mother nature calms him a little. Does he hear a peal of laughter? There seem to be some kids playing in the distance. At this time? It reminds him of Christina's laugh, a laugh that gets under his skin. 

In his mind, he envisions her running to him, throwing herself into his embrace to hug him lovingly. Her little arms would wrap around his neck. Whenever RJ came back home from work, his daughter would run to the door to give him a big hug. All that happened that given day at work just melted away because nothing was more beautiful than to feel the love of his child. For him, Daddy from her lips meant pure love. This love has been taken away from him.

Painfully he realizes how much he pines for the love of his daughter. Her sunshine used to brighten his bad days. His kids and Diosa were all he ever needed in life. How do you fill a void of this magnitude? How do you move on? RJ doesn't know. But he knows this pain is unbearable.

He trembles as he tries to breathe calmly, but suddenly his throat chokes, and his lungs refuse to catch some air. The thought of his little princess Christina shatters his heart all over again. 

Unaware, his hands clench into a fist, and he feels how the tears start to run. His guilt awakens again. The belief that they could still be alive if he had been here at home instead of at the office eats away his soul. Diosa begged him to take the day off, but he was not able to. There was an important team meeting for his construction project R.E.D.

This meeting was of immense importance to his company. At stake was the construction of a bridge linking San My and Windenburg. Of course, securing further construction projects within the respective cities stood or fell with the R.E.D project. If only he would have instead stayed home, but he failed to do so.

Somewhere in the distance, he can hear a soft, reassuring female voice interrupting his self-mortification that he has just begun. Set free temporarily by his thoughts to punish himself any further.

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40 | Unavailable

Out of nowhere, he had this urge feeling to escape, he had to escape San My, to escape everything at least for a while, he could barely breathe. Silence, fresh air and nature, nobody around him that’s all he needs now.

His phone is ringing, he picks it up from the side table. 

“London is calling... fuck dude. No, I can’t talk right now.  Fuck memories, fuck life, fuck everything!”

RJ drops the phone, his eyelids feel so heavy, he closes them and tries to stop crying but his sadness wanted to scream “I’m here... I’m alive and I’m fuckin’ alone without the ones who mean the most to me.”

Impossible to talk to anyone right now. Why can’t the world just disappear for a while? Leave him alone with his thoughts? Stop asking him how he is doing? As if a new day could make his pain go away like a fuckin’ fairy who just needs to snap and et voila pain is gone. There is no such thing as a happily ever after, and fucking fairytales are tales for fuck sake. 

As if covering his mouth could heal his pain. Why in the hell is he doing this? RJ closes his eyes and wipes his tears away.

“I can’t breathe”. Fuck this shit, I can’t pretend any longer that I’m fine.

He gets up but then he decides to drop down on the floor.

“What should I do? What can I do to escape all this fuckin’ pain and hell?” Diosa you are gone and our kids are with you please set me free. My heart is three times broken. Please, take this pain away... Fuck, I wish I could talk to you.”

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43 |  Silent doubts

“The rain is pouring and the sky is black as the devil’s soul. The world became pitch-black, and the crooked, billowing sky looked as if it would collapse over me. Yeah, this weather knows how I feel. Should I tell London that I will be gone for a while? I can’t focus on the job right now, sorry man! I know you will rock it without me but I can’t be here right now”.

RJ grabs the bag from the floor, unlocks his Escalade SUV, it beep, door opens and he gets into the car. He puts the bag on the passenger seat, closes the door and stares at the weather with no focus. He couldn’t remember how long he was sitting there like a frozen ice sculpture. RJ switched off for a while simply because he drifted away into infinity, letting the locked-away memories of Brindle Bay shower him with pieces of better times. Stolen by the time of the invisible thief of life, irretrievable and gone forever.

Then there was an explosion like a sonic boom - black clouds, pregnant with malice, stirred up and agitated. They were vaporous like mist and fleecy like black wool. The purple flashes of lightning immerse the sky in an ocean of edged firepower, awaiting a suitable prey to plunge the blades into a heart, only to illustrate how involuntarily truly cruel life itself is. Lightning is the megawatt smile of nature, but the terrawatts of violence it has unleashed has been unkind. It crashed into San Myshuno, the violent explosion plunged the ungodly dark sky into a purplish color that shook RJ to his very core. 

After this strike, the sky turned black and it started to rain harder as if someone else would cry the tears RJ is tired of to do.

Back to reality his left hand grips the steering wheel and starts the engine. The car rolls. Regardless of the weather, the streets are full of traffic. He has to get out, simply get out of this city, because this dark monster threatens to consume him. 

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41 | Reservation

A few moments later his eyes wander to his phone back and he decides to dial another number.

Voice: “Fusionics”, Mr. Blakeshire speaking, how can I assist? London: Hey Jake, Canoway here. A table for two, please. Um, tonight at 8, if possible? Blakeshire: Set up as usual? London: No, private purpose. Blakeshire excited: Oh Mr. Canoway I’m happy for you. Pardon, my curiosity but is it a date if I may ask?  London smirks: Yes, it is but keep it to yourself, Jake! Blakeshire: Take it for granted, sir. Mind if make sure to be it a bit romantic? London: It’s our first date, even if she denies it. I just don’t want to go overboard, Jake. But a small nice fresh bouquet of flowers would be nice. May white lilies and a little candle should be fine, right? I like the smell of lilies, hope for me that she loves it, too. Can you arrange it? Blakeshire: Of course consider it as done, Mr. Canoway. A table for two with a candle and white lilly at the best place is set up for you. London: Thank you, Jake, see you later. Blakeshire: You're always welcome Mr. Canoway. We’re looking forward to seeing you tonight, Sir.

Well if a host at a restaurant gets excited for him, it must mean something. London rubs his hand right hand. This just reminds him of how long he has been a single. Actually, since Imani was gone. Five years can be a long time still London could not complain, he always had a sort of fling here and there or an affair for a while but this time it feels different with her, she is different. Bachelor Life is history once she tells him that she loves him and he has this strong feeling that she could be that kind of soul for him.

The weather forecast wasn’t promising a sunny day today but even the dark weather outside could not make him feel depressed, quite the opposite he feels, he feels like dancing in the rain. Just waiting until he will see his sunshine tonight. London whispers: “Imani, I wish you could have met her, I’m sure you would love her”. I wish that I could tell you that I’m going to date her tonight. Who would have thought that I would develop years later feelings for Diosa’s little sister? The sister of my best buddies wife who passed away, recently? How will he react once I tell him? Miss you so much, baby sis. Your “bear” is about to be taken off the single market if all goes well.” Imani knew about Vivi simply because of Diosa and RJ but she never had a chance to meet her in person. He strongly believes that his sister is always with him, in his heart.

He feels good. Yes, London is happy but somehow he thinks if he only could talk to RJ about such things. Right now he can’t talk to him about his happiness while RJ struggles to find a way to be himself again after such a loss. As sad it is for his bro, he feels for the first time, for a long time something like happiness. He will tell him, once he feels better.

London looks out of the window and smiles.

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24 | Rush of Lust  [🔥 Simspice]

RJ turns her around while he moves up her dress. Now he goes down on his knees between her thighs and begins to please her. He licks her intense, hard, fast and makes her come in less than five minutes. During this time somehow he managed to unbutton his pants with one hand. He slides quickly out of his Chelsa boots together with the socks. RJ gets up and grabs the pink condom from the counter he rolls it over his dick and turns her around just to enter her instantly, right there. Tonight he goes hard and deep. They continue to kiss each other wild and rough. RJ groans and lets himself go. While being inside of her, he feels that his pain vanishes soothingly. Lust and urge take control over him, he feels how his hormones got unleashed thrilled to enjoy this ride. He wants to dominate her, to control, to fuck her good until she screams his name. Until he can unload himself just to feel the rush of pure testosterone in his veins.

RJ breathes heavy: Shit, you feel fuckin’ good. Woman whispers: I need you to go deeper. RJ husky: You want it so bad, huh? Woman: Right now I’m all yours. RJ groans: God damm woman you drive me nuts. RJ hands lift roughly her dress further up to reveal her beautifully shaped breasts. He sinks into them, licks, bites and challenges her nipples which go instantly hard. He grabs her ass, picks her up from the counter. While he holds her, he steps back and goes down on his knees with her together. Her satin dress slides down and it covers her breasts again. RJ feels the cold floor beneath but as soon she sits on him the journey of pleasure continues. Both move on the same level they simply complement each other, right here on this floor at Ginger and Gin. Having the same rhythm as one heartbeat. This kind of rhythm makes it way easier to come faster, the floor is no longer cold now but hot as hell. RJ focuses on the vibe they have. It feels so fucking good, he doesn’t want to stop, that’s what he thinks.

After a little while, he stops and makes to her clear that he wants to get up again. RJ leads her the way back to the counters. He turns her quickly around, takes her hands and places them on the counter, he enters her from behind, again. His right hand goes straight to her throat. He puts some pressure on her throat while his left fingers slide between her tighs to please her again. Her right hand goes over his head and she starts to stroke his hair. But RJ grabs her hand and puts it back on the counter. She moans and breathes heavier, his trusts are harder, deeper, skilled and faster. She could feel him so deep and he is pleasing her again. After another set of a few minutes, she starts to shiver. She is about to come again RJ intensifies his penetration. Woman moans: You all over me is heaven, grab me stronger. RJ growls: Like that? Woman: Mmmh, yes! RJ: Fuck! You turn me on so hard, you’re bad. Woman breathless: Oh holy fuck, RJ I’m coming. RJ: You are a very hungry beast. I can tell. Woman moans: Before you come let me taste your milkshake. RJ snickers: Are you for real? Woman: Yes! A few seconds later he pulls his dick out, takes the condom off. She goes down and wraps her wet cherry lips around his dick as she starts to suck him hard and intense. After several minutes he can’t hold it any longer and bursts into her mouth. She looks up to him so that he can see how she swallows it, he moans. Seeing her with her half-open green eyes, how she tastes his milkshake with her cherry lips, drives him nuts. RJ reaches his climax and he closes his eyes to enjoy his final explosion.

The quick encounter for a rough quicky came to the end. Both began to dress up, again - wordless.

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31 | Tease Me, Babe   [🔗]

He approaches her and steps closer. His wet skin looks so inviting and some of the water pearls still run down his chest. Vivi feels a bit aroused by his sudden naked dominant, masculine appearance. She tries to focus on his eyes but deep down she can’t deny that she likes a lot what she sees and blushes slightly. She presses her lips together trying to focus her attention on him and not his body.

Vivi reluctant: All good, we are friends, right? London chuckles: We are but we both know there is more between us as you know... Vivi’s eyes widen: What do I know, 'Big Ben'??? London smirks: Okay, touché. You want me to suffer, huh? Vivi raises her eyebrow: Do I?

London feels today bold. They play this cat and mouse game for a while now and for the first time, he crosses the invisible friendzone border. He steps so closely that she can feel his hot breath on her skin. Vivi knows that he won’t let her escape until he is satisfied with the outcome of this conversation.

London confident: You know there is a tension going on between us. Vivi muttered low: Which tension? I don't know what you mean? Can you please step back a little, your girl is waiting for you. You should let me go. London thrilled: Vivi, look, here is my offer. Please, have dinner tonight with me, will you? Vivi mocks: For real? Her for breakfast and now you want me for dinner? You must be damn hungry, aren't you? Um, how about NO?

He grabs her left arm, holds it firm and looks deep into her eyes. London obviously enjoys seeing her how she is twitching, trying to escape his firm grip. Her lips speak another language compared to what she actually says. Unintentional her lips talk to him clearly that they crave to be kissed. Her mind starts to spin, she can almost touch his wet skin, probably super soft and he smells so addictive but he hasn’t used any shower gel yet, she thinks. Of course not, he just had fun with this chick who is calling him Big Ben. Is he really that big??? London smirks: Earth to Mars, Viv are you still on Earth? Vivi: Um, yeah sorry I just drifted away for a sec. London pleading with a smile: Viv, come on, seriously? You can't blame me. Officially, I’m single and we are friends, right? Vivian pensive: Friends, yeah I guess. We are going to have one dinner as friends and that's it, understand? No mingle, or whatever crosses your mind. London grins: Don’t tell me you don’t want to be kissed...I can see it in your eyes and your body talks to me, Viv.

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42 | Exodus - RJ’s escape

Three hours later.

Things are packed, what else does he need? “Ah, the shaving cream, the pills and may the pictures as well.” He needs only a few things, nothing special. Everything else he has at home. On his way, he will stop by a liquor shop to grab some good stuff to drink. “HOME” RJ closes his eyes. No sobbing, no sound, it’s just a soundless painful inwardly desire to continue to cry but he can’t, he feels drained and exhausted. 

The thought of " their" home is tearing him up inside, yet stubbornly he wants to go there. Fact is he has no home where he can go back to because he has no roots - no more. The place where he wanted to plant roots with Diosa was in Brindle Bay “their” new home for the family.  What once used to be his home is now a grave of memories causing only pain. But where else can he go? He couldn’t sell “their” house, he wasn’t ready for this and most importantly this was the only place he still considers as his real home.

RJ feels deeply uprooted. Like a nomad, he is forced and doomed to move forward all the time. 

“Just don't freeze, don’t stop, keep moving, nothing here is for you, move on, everything you will experience here is pain and only pain remains. You know this RJ even if you go home you will feel nothing but even more pain.” 

But the pain and memories are all he has. He did set up his mind that he might need to go through this on his own.

RJ clung to the idea that if he would go “home” at least for a while, he would feel her presence and he could say may goodbye. Apologize for what he has done last night that he betrayed her. He washed off the last kisses and last touches from Diosa, he felt deeply guilty for that. Someone else touched him and took all that he had away, Alyssa. He allowed it and now he regrets it. If he goes home, he might find and inhale something that will remind him to who he belongs, simply because he feels lost.

 “I’m such an idiot, how could I let myself let go just like that?”

He doesn’t need much, he won’t tell anyone where he is and he won’t take his phone with him, either.

Just escaping for a while - he leaves a note on his bed.

After grabbing the items he needs he changes his clothes into something cozier for a drive he looks at the items and checks if all necessary things are really packed, his face freezes into an emotionless expression. He’s ready, ready to leave everything behind. He wants to be alone. No one and no other voices should tell him what he should do, how he should feel, and that he would need to move on...he will move on but on his own terms. He leaves this penthouse... with the thought, depending on the outcome within the upcoming few weeks, one thing he knows for sure: 

“The old RJ is gonna die, he wants to figure out who he wants to be in future. He won’t be probably the same, everyone knows.” RJ grabs his bag, picks up his brown trenchcoat and doesn’t look back. He will call the real estate agent and sell this penthouse, he won’t come back here. A dark cold smile hushes over his face. 

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32| Almost

London ignores her wording “as friends - no mingle etc, etc..” He is obviously relieved that Vivi is not so mad and that she doesn’t hold grudges towards him for having fun as a single man. Damm he even didn’t plan to have Leonie here. Their bodies are now just an inch away from each other and London is almost a bit intrusive. His index finger lifts up her chin and he looks straight into her soul.

London clear: 8 pm at Fusionic! It's a date, awesome. Vivi rolls eyes: London, please. London whispers: Don’t please me. Viv, if you don’t want this happening between us? Nothing is easier, simply don’t show up tonight. But tell the truth, would you kiss me, now? Vivi challenging: You want to kiss me but you want me to convince you that I want it? Really? London: You’re playing a tough cookie all over sudden! Huh? But I can feel how I make you tremble. Vivi firm: I don’t date players and you try to play me, right now! London snickers: I can play but do not underestimate me, Vivi. look I’m so close I could kiss you, right now. I see how much you desire my sweet, tender lips, but you know what? I changed my mind. I will wait until you want to kiss me and you will want it sooner or later. How about that, sweetie? Vivi feisty: You wish...Big, Ben! London mused: You want to challenge me? Watch and learn... Vivi smiles: I’m so sorry that you can’t kiss me now. London: Viv, I know what you want and trust me. Oh how much I would want to kiss those cherry lips of yours right now. But I think considering the circumstances this is not the right time for us, right? And how sweet it would be to win this challenge. Vivi notifies: Now I’m a challenge for you?

London brushes with his finger over her lips, unleashing a hot electrifying fever running through her whole body, down her spine. She closes her eyes the feeling is wild and urgent it wants to be quenched right now but the way how he teased her she could not give in, not now and not like this. She wants him to suffer like she does and thinks: “Okay you think you can play? I play better.” She grasps his muscular left upper arm with her tiny soft tender fingers at first a bit gentle and then stronger. He feels how her cute little fingers try to escape his embrace and can’t help but smile.

London dreamy: So close, almost, so delicate and yet so far away…ts, ts.. so sad.

The tease is real, this man is going to be her death that’s for sure, she thinks.

Leonie: Big Beeeen, are you coming? I’m dyin’ over here Schätzchen* Vivi teases: London, you should go to your what did she say? “Schätzcken”*??? Whatever that means but she's hungry to ring your bells, go on ‘Big Ben’! London confirmed: I promise, I'm getting rid of her, okay? Vivi: Sure thing! I'm leaving now. London teases: 8 pm, Fusionics, still stands right? Vivian smiles: I don't know if I will come, I need to think about it. London serious: I'll be there, if you don’t show up we will have a serious talk, girl. Vivi confirms: We will see. London snickers: Do you mind if take care now of my business? Vivi: Sure, go ahead, guess I will see your poor ass later. London laughs: You wish Viv, you wish...

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36 | German Chick

He goes back to the bathroom. Leonie expects him to join but London stops in front of the shower. He looks serious.

Leonie sweet: I’ve got some sweet treats for your ‘Big Ben’, hottie. Will you come?

For a second he was thinking about to join and enjoy it, he is a free man after all. But Vivi was all over his mind and that made him rethink to join, he couldn’t continue…regardless of how seductive this situation was. It didn’t feel right anymore. But he does not miss the opportunity to enjoy the beauty of Leonie’s flawless natural shape of her body at least for a moment. 

London dry: Look, as soon you’re done with the shower, you need to leave. Leonie: I heard a female voice, is that the reason why it took you so long to come back? London: Your guess is correct.  Leonie surprised: What? What did you just say? You know we just fucked and we wanted to “shower” together. Because of her, you don’t want to continue? Who is she? London: Yeah, sorry changed my mind and for your information, it’s none of your business. Leonie speechless: Wow! A few seconds ago you wanted to fuck me right here and now you’re talking to me like this? I thought we connected? London: You said it, “wanted” past tense. Connected? Physically, yes but that’s it. Leonie pissed: Why? Wait, nevermind, whatever… *Fick Dich!  London: I’m leaving you alone now and I will overhear what you just said, so much I know what that means. Be ready in 20. I need to leave. Leonie: Oh yeah, let me teach you a bit more. How about that? **Gibt’s dich auch in Nicht-Scheiße? London raises his eyebrow: Seriously “Scheiße”? come on, Leonie Leonie feisty: Oh yeah? I didn’t insult you I just described you, learn fuckin’ German if you want to understand. London: Fine, good thing is that this will be a one-time-only experience with you, sweetheart. Thanks for the good fuck, tho. Much appreciated.

Leonie was fuming, she slammed the glass door of the shower and turned on the hot water. London sighs he had no time to deal with this type of behavior right, he went to the kitchen.

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*Fick Dich = F* you ;) ** Gibts dich auch in Nicht-Scheiße? = Is there a non-shitty version of you?