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quirkle2 · 2 years

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POKEMON AU????????? yes yes please tell more I am already invested amazing stupendous yes good

WIGGLES IN MY SEAT im gonna ramble abt it under the cut cuz it might get long (edit: it'sfuckign long). so sorry if i end up talkin abt it for way longer than anybody cares for (edit: i absolutely did) VEIAUGV

it's sort of a world where the concept of pokemon is settled into it more realistically. not saying it's super realistic or anything like that, i just mean certain aspects abt the traditional pokemon world is changed to reflect what i Think it would probably look like irl

there's still magic, bc a lot of pokemon moves can definitely be considered magic. i don't rly care abt the whole like,, "omg this move would end humanity omg most electric pokemon let out the volt equivalent of like a small refrigerator omg the very concept of evolution is fucked and an evolution would kill everything within a 5 mile radius Probably but that's just a (game) theory" i do think that stuff is fun to think abt but for the sake of everybody Living i kinda ignore a lot of that GVIYEAGA

THERE'S,, a lotta little things abt trainers in this au that i've thought abt !! first of all u have to be 18 to be a pokemon trainer. this 10 year old child is not handling this 11 foot tall dragon. and most trainers do not have 6 pokemon !! raising pokemon is a fuckin Task, and i sorta equate it to like,, being a zookeeper and trying to train lions and tigers to obey u. it takes a lot of effort to train even one animal like that; now imagine ur taking care of and training six. that's,,, usually too much for the average person GVIYAEGV not to mention,,,, fuckign expensive

most trainers ofc start w one and usually get at least one more somewhere along the journey, but a lot stop there ! that's still a lot of work, and everybody deals w work and stress differently, so a pretty solid chunk of trainers stick to loving and training their one or two buddies

a lesser chunk of trainers make it up to 3 pokemon, an even lesser amount trains 4, and even lesser percentage trains 5,, u get it. wars in particular has 5 pokemon on his team, and another herdier at home that's simply one of the tamer, pet-like pokemon people have.

on the more realistic side of things, trainers can get hit w moves, and it's not like a Oh Haha They Got Shocked and They're Smoking like in the animes or anything. it Hurts and it's very dangerous. pokemon training in general is dangerous as all hell, not just bc the obvious caution it takes to train a team, but also just bc most of the time trainers are out in the wild ,, yaknow. training. and being in the middle of the wilderness isn't the safest thing, especially when there's wild pokemon everywhere

on the more boring side of things, i think every trainer is legally required to have a pokedex. pokedexes here do a bit more, including basic phone features and emergency stuff cuz This Is Dangerous yaknow. also yes the pokedex Can run doom somebody's already tried it

uhhh more boring shit so sorry but im mentally ill abt the boring logistics of this. every trainer is issued an id card and u can see wars' in my drawing ! the back of it is the typical trainer id from the games, but the front is fancy and quickly gives info abt the trainer themselves

they r color coded !!!! different colored pokeball symbol on the card for the number of team members they have :) red is 1, yellow is 2, blue is 3, bronze is 4, silver is 5 (wars !!!!!!!!), gold is 6. the more important figures in the pokemon world (gym leaders, league winner, elite four, champion) have a black colored card to quickly tell people Hey Im Fuckin Good (hint hint legend has a gold id card >:])

the league competitions r prolly split into categories ?? like,, there's a league category just for trainers w one pokemon ! and then there's the typical 6-pkmn team category, and everything in between. it seems a bit unfair to let somebody w 3 pokemon go up against somebody w 6, especially given the fact that some people have Jobs they need to go to . training is a side-hobby for most people (not to mention a lot of people straight up can't afford it). so the league splits them all up into different challenges. (not quite sure what would happen if the winner of the 1-pkmn category tried to challenge the champion ...... maybe there's champions/elite four/gym leaders for each category !!! that'd be cool i think)

^ just bc people r shitty and dumb sometimes, there's prolly a stigma around people who only have one or two pokemon, but i like to think the Good, Nice trainers know otherwise. just bc u can train more pokemon doesn't mean ur immediately Better. yes, a trainer with 5 pokemon versus ur 2 will Probably win, but it's not rly abt that ? pokemon is abt bonds and all that mushy shit. respectful trainers will know that the 2-pkmn category champion is not Worse than the 5-pkmn champion. they r very, very different things, when u get into it

side note on that i feel like the 1-pkmn category would be strangely popular in this world. it's a 1v1 ? u only have one buddy w u, so covering ur weakness is very hard to do i'd think. idk i don't play online competitive GVIAEYGV AND ALSO, abt the categories being different ? in a competitive sense, a team of 3 is going to be WILDLY different in terms of strategies and plays than a team of 6. u have to think much differently

also im not totally sure abt this part, still kinda thinkin on it, but people who Aren't trainers still have pokemon at their side, and im wonderin abt the laws of that . similar to the law of like,, not being allowed to have a Fucking Leopard in ur living room, i feel like having super dangerous pokemon would be,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,not good <3 GVEAIYVGA i wonder how they'd fix that problem,,,

i debated on like,, they have pkmn in a tier list ? of like,, how dangerous they can be. and maybe if it's just a household pet, it'd have to be in This Tier (points at overly complicated graph) to be able to house that pokemon. and what abt like,,,,,,, pokemon that get Way more dangerous w their evolution ? they'd be in a different tier, surely. maybe they legally have to hold an everstone ?? i don't fuckin know GVEYAUGV

oh lastly i am very fond of trainers actually Asking a wild pokemon if they want to be caught. Not doing that and just catching them against their will seems like straight up imprisonment to me VGIEAGV so i think that's generally a good courtesy. if u Don't do that when catching a wild pokemon then everybody kinda thinks ur a ://////////// trainer

wait i lied that wasn't the end imso sorry GVIEAYGV the Bad Group in this world are actual criminals who aren't stupid and Will fuck u up. the end

#qktalks #servantprincess #wow that was ridiculously long. ok #there's stuff i left out but i think i covered a good chunk of what's in my lil noggin #also sorry if u wanted like ..... ..more wars and ledge adventures rather than world exposition ............i may be stupid #to the people who read all the way through im giving u a kiss on the forehead and if u don't want that im giving u a cool rock

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now-we-say-c0ral · 1 year

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April 27, 2023

Woke up at 11am today thanks to that 20mg of Melatonin that I took last night but to be honest my head feels more heavy than usual and it was really hard to get up today.

Spent the most of my day just playing Pokemon Unite and watching VGC plays on Youtube by Aaron Zheng. Brunch today was Mega Sardines from Zamboanga and some rice plus I ordered 2 burgers from KFC today which honestly just lifted my whole mood. I also sorted my finances since my salary just came. Rent here, rent at Eddie’s, credit card payments, phone bills, sent some money home for mommy, and I still had some to spare.

I was feeling so bored at home so I went to the gym despite still having some body aches from the flu. Took the bus to the gym and went home walking because I needed to pass the time. Gosh, today was so boring. I would think that I'd appreciate this because, well, I'm usually like this when I'm not working but being always away from the flat because of work, gym, and during the weekends I'm with Eddie, I'm not used to just being at home anymore. Maybe that's a good thing.

Kuya Luigi is organizing a bbq on the 6th of May for Airen and Me since we're leaving and I really appreciate that they're planning this on our behalf. It makes me feel good that there are people who want a proper send-off for me and Airen before we leave the unit. It makes me feel that I really made some good connections and relationships at work because people are going out of their way to see us off.

Everything about me feels so different now. I can't just point it out but something in me is changing. I can't say it's a bad thing but I just feel like I'm feeling less like myself and it's mainly because of this relationship with Ed. I can't say if it's a bad thing now but it's uncomfortable, to say the least. Only time will tell if it's for the best. I'll see this through no matter what and even if it feels uncomfortable, I'll still give it my all. That's just it. It's either I'm with him or I'm not. No regrets. I just feel like I'm not myself anymore.

Eddie called around 10pm. He wasn't himself. He seemed burned out from work yesterday. Had a weird conversation, well, in a good way, about some plans in the future. I appreciated him a little bit more after we had this conversation. It was all about his 6 months plan in the future which he is willing to change just because I came in his life.

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a-partofthemob · 2 years

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some random mp100 HEADCANONS for any character i can think of at the moment ok u ready im ready- ready set GO

- reigen has a dad sneeze

- one time he sneezed and almost broke his back

- whenever mob drinks coffee he feels sleepy (yes im projecting)

- dimple and the claw security guard made an agreement to let sg be dimple's host body from time to time and that's how we get the official arts

- teru was made to sit in the very back of the class when his haystack hair made an appearance

- teru set reigen as his emergency contact at school

- the kids all referred to reigen as 'Dad' at some point in their lives

- yes including ritsu

- he and reigen made an agreement to never speak of the moment ever

- reigen's a master at uno

- reigen has double jointed fingers

- mob and ritsu have a shared collection of pokemon cards but neither of them know how to use them

- multiple students at Salt Middle School refers to the student council as the Hair Club because of ritsu's signature spiky bedhead, kamuro's greasy hair that is now tidied up, and tokugawa being the only one with neat hair

- tokugawa helped kamuro in hair care

- shou has numerous candid pictures of ritsu on his phone

- teru didn't express his bright fashion sense pre-mob because he's afraid of judgement from his peers and only started after getting the wig

- whenever the Black Vinegar soccer team loses everyone looks out for teru bc he gets feverish

- Black Vinegar Middle School all had a collective sigh of relief when teru came to school with shorter hair

- Black Vinegar MS also all know of mob bc teruki keeps mentioning him in conversations and could talk p a r a g r a p h s about him

- mob has a lisp that comes out whenever he's talking too fast or really excited

- the kageyamas specifically set aside some money as their 'Spoon Funds'

- ritsu doesn't have a sweet tooth and whenever valentine's day comes around he gets gifted all these sweets and sweet chocolate

- on the other hand mob does have a sweet tooth

- meaning that ritsu shares the chocolate he receives with mob :)

- he hoards all the dark chocolate though

- mob does little hops when he's excited

- mob jumps, bent knees and all, when he's REALLY excited or happy, like he gets an A in a subject

- reigen pirates all his music

- reigen started working out again after the marathon arc

- takenaka has a collection of noise cancelling headphones and he doesnt know what to do with them but, he, just, keeps, getting, gifted, more, because his family doesnt know what else to give him-

- tsubomi and takenaka are friends bc of tennis club and he was just being mean when he was insinuating that he was trying to get close to tsubomi, he doesnt like her that way

- the super 5 have monthly lunch outings just to check up on each other, everyone's happy that serizawa's happy with his job

- shimazaki bounced from job to job until he landed a job as a bodyguard

- shimazaki had to lie low for a while bc he made live tv kidnapping the prime minister

- minegishi's manager at the flower shop swears that whenever minegishi's around the plants just,, perk up more

- many customers of the flower shop find minegishi cute (yes im projecting my love for them)

- tsuchiya and shibata work as personal trainers at the same gym so they become friends sooner or later after a brief period of suspicion

- koyama goes to the same gym tsuchiya and shibata work at and left immediately after seeing these two glaring at each other

- tsuchiya legally adopted mukai after the events of the 7th division

- matsuo has a very obvious sweet tooth

- matsuo sometimes threatens his spirits by eating the things they were named after

- rarely gum-chan and cookie-chan though

- they're his favorites

- everyone who has joseph's contact number have him named as 'joseph from the government'

- the body improvement club's everyone's big brothers

- teachers actually don't mind onigawara that much during class, sure he's delinquent but he never skipped attendance, save for the Cleanup Arc, and he never really makes a fuss or noise

- tsubomi prefers more straight to the point confessions rather than letters with flowery words and compliments

- shou has a plushie of a hamster

- shou is also very meticulous about his hair and how it's styled

- shimazaki had babysat shou when he was a kid and he's part of the reason why shou's like that

- whenever minegishi babysat shou, shou would use their plants as a makeshift jungle gym

- shou used to ask minegishi if they were a boy or a girl and was convinced that minegishi used to be a plant that became a human

- minegishi supported this thought a bit too much and had half of claw second guessing if they actually used to be a plant until serizawa got wind of the rumor and asked them

- shou locked himself in his room for 10 hours straight in embarrassment when he's told that no minegishi wasn't a plant that had gained a human thought process

- shou would have taken sakurai to the HQ if the 7th division hadn't been disbanded

#☆.headcanons #☆.mine #idk where half these hcs came from #minegishi just radiates chaotic neutral energy #and i love it #first half was just the esper kids with touches of reigen and then claw hcs followed #also side character rep?? on my blog??#more likely that u think #id have put more in but thought that this blog was getting a bit too long

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solarishashernoseinabook · 3 years

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6, 16, 27, 33, and 42 for the ask game? ^_^

Thankies! :D

6. What do you use to keep your place when you’re reading a book? Bookmarks or the dust jacket if the book has one! But my "bookmarks" can be anything from actual bookmarks to business cards, which I actually prefer for smaller books. I also love love love books that have a ribbon to mark my place with :D

16. Describe your favourite hoodie. How long have you had it? What makes it unique? It's just a grey hoodie with black arms and a black hood, and it's got a zippered kangaroo pouch. It's simple looking but very much my gender and personal style! I've had it for maybe four or five years now. Part of the reason I like it so much is that when I went to see my brother after he moved out, he took us to a store and suggested I get it, so I've got that nice memory associated with it ^-^

27. Do you have any keychains on your home or car keys? Describe them! I've got a keychain with art of some characters from a book series a friend of mine has published, as well as a keychain with a little green dinosaur!

33. Headphones or earbuds? Headphones are my preference! But I use earbuds at work cuz it's easier to pull one away when someone needs me (and they're more discreet lol

42. Do you have any games on your phone? If so, which one(s) is/are your favourite? Quite a few! The ones I've actually had for years are Pokemon Go (stop judging me) and Love Nikki lol. I've got some other more mindless ones, match three games and stuff, that I play when I'm watching videos, but usually I lose interest and uninstall them after a few months

Link to the ask game if you want to play!

#asks #ask games #just because asks

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vael · 3 years

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My Mint Mobile Experience

Looking to cut our recurring costs and having heard an ad at the right time, I looked into Mint Mobile and estimated I'd save $1,000/year by making the switch from Sprint. I never felt comfortable paying ~$120/mo for just two Sprint lines, especially given that we spend most of our time at home. (I work remotely) As an added bonus, they gave me a full year's credit just for buying a Samsung S10 Edge through them. I essentially bought a phone and got a free year of service for it.

Unfortunately, the process has been a bit rocky. Despite the trouble I had, I still recommend Mint Mobile if you want to save money. Use this code for $15 off your plan, and they'll give me a credit, too: http://fbuy.me/ry-C9

Before You Start

You'll need to unlock your phone. Don't pay a service for this! Just call or preferably chat with your provider's support team and when they ask why you want to unlock, you can just say you may want to sell your device later, or you can just be truthful and be prepared for them to try to retain you with special deals. (do not be tempted) Make sure to find your account number while you're in there, should be on your bill.

And obviously, make sure your phone will work with Mint Mobile, which it likely will.

And So I Started

My phone arrived a day earlier than the SIM cards. I set it up and downloaded the Mint Mobile app. They provide step-by-step instructions to guide you through adding their network to your phone and the app portion of the switch was easy.

The SIM card can be a bit tricky if you have a tier-3 ("military grade", I dub it) protective case on your phone. Otherwise, inserting the new chip should take about a minute. Mint tells you it will take up to 48 hours to configure your new SIM, but for me it took about two minutes for the app to tell me the card was ready. This really should be the end of your Mint-conversion journey, and should have been of mine.

Technical Difficulty

Update, two months later: all seems to be resolved. Rarely I'll notice Pokemon GO acting up, but I'm not sure if that's Mint's fault.

To recap, I switched service from Sprint to Mint. I bought a new Samsung S10 Edge through Mint. I swapped my wife's Samsung S9+ over to Mint as well.

The problems were immediate, which is to be expected: you should be prepared to miss calls and texts for about 48 hours. I happened to switch on the weekend, maybe a weekday would have sped things along. We were (proven) uncontactable for about 48 hours each: my mother tried calling us both and it went straight to voicemail. I may have permanently missed texts; in some cases the texts came through in bulk.

Post-48-Hour Problem Summary: early on, would randomly get a mass of texts sent (both outgoing and incoming) at once. That seems to be better now. Calls are generally fine but rarely I'll have to call, get no signal, and then call again. Just yesterday at over 3 weeks of using Mint, my wife couldn't get a text out to me. (trivial; we're learning to just use Facebook) I honestly still feel like it's worth it to save $1,000/year.

For reference, here's my house's coverage from their Coverage Map. They tell me coverage isn't so great in my area. Looks decent to me. Word on the street is their coverage map isn't very accurate.

Customer service was a mixed bag.

Phone call 1: This guy was okay. We went through the general IT steps, resetting the network and such. Eventually, "We can see there is an issue, let me talk to the network provider and do some things." I was told. The line eventually dropped after 40 minutes of holding.

Phone call 2: This woman seemed trained in doing little more than offering replacement SIM cards. Her accent made it hard to understand her and when we got our confirmation email for the replacement SIM, she'd butchered our street name. She'd even spelled the word "road" as "roud"!

The new SIM did not end up helping. At this point I went to customer service chat. The helper did everything he could, but it looked like my last hope was MintMobileAlex. Have a look at that page and you'll see Mint is not without its problems.

MintMobileAlex is run by a 24/7 team. They're fairly quick to respond. They were the most helpful, but ultimately they just kept coming back with telling me that our SIM cards both don't look like they're properly activated:

I can confirm that the SIM from our end shows to not be read on the device or recognized still.

This is after installing a replacement SIM in my phone. It seemed that no matter what I tried, we were just going to be unrecognized to Mint, despite the fact it was working quite well most of the time. Perhaps that's why we still have intermittent trouble; I doubt the heart of Greenville, SC should have poor cell coverage.

Ultimately, I would still make the switch. I think Mint Mobile will improve in the next few years, but I'm also starting to think the bigger carriers will start to offer cheaper plans. I'd originally dropped Verizon for Sprint because Sprint was considerably cheaper (and Verizon is evil).

Mint's app and website are really good and I'm very impressed with their web developers.

Let me know if you sign up, and don't forget to use my link to save you and me money! 🥳

#mint mobile

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dadtrap-the-nonbinary-pirate · 2 years

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My AU vent creatures Supernova facts.

Name: Supernova

Nickname(s): Nova, info machine, the purple animatronic cryptid

Gender: yes

Pronouns: she/her, he/him and they/them

Sexuality: Pansexual and Demisexual

Relationship status: single

Species: Celestial cryptid animatronic

Background: They've been here since fnaf 1 but just crawling in secret vents being their cryptid gremlin self and stealing things from visitors secretly, though they did get lonely in fnaf 3 through fnaf 6 until the mini music men broke out of their display cases and took residence in the vents so Nova now has friends.

Modes: Info mode, night mode and cryptid gremlin mode(which they're in constantly)

Extra facts:

The things they love to steal most are; phones, credit cards, sun plushies, moon plushies, hats, nintendo switches, pokemon cards(mostly Gengar, Haunter and Gastly cards), water bottles(for some reason) and anything shiny.

He's a kleptomaniac.

They like freaking the others the f*ck out.

She accepts gifts like children's teeth, DJMM plushies, fizzy faz, dead animals, burnt metal, paper, metal, animal heads, human remains, food and anything really(unless it's tampons/used tampons and human organs/your own body parts).

Accepts your sexuality unless it's invalid like MAPs.

They f*cking love fast food.

If you manage to become her s/o expect little gifts like sun plushies, moon plushies or even DJMM plushies!

Their love language is spending time with their s/o and acts of service!

She will protect you if need be.

If you're ever feeling overwhelmed, depressed or sick he will take care of you.

Loves pda.

Stays in the vents most the time since loves their safe space!

Will start to panic if you don't show up on your regular time.

Does have ptsd from the fires so just don't have a open flame around them.

#fnaf security breach #fnaf au #supernova #Dadtrap's characters

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frogsandfries · 5 years

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Daydreaming about all the things

I'm gonna do with my first check, which I estimate will only be like a hundred bucks.

For example, I want to get a frappuccino and a big bag of sandwiches from Arby's, I'm obviously going to pay my phone bill because I get tremendously stressed out at the thought of needing to call work and being utterly incapable, but also, it infuriates me how many kilometers I'm totally blowing in Pokemon Go. Additionally, purchasing tokens, with how consistently I'm pretty sure I'm going to be working, is going to be more expensive, especially when there are going to be days when I want to run errands and make extra stops.

I think I just had a squirrel bounce off my head, but it's raining, so I have my heavy sweater on, hood up. It's fine. I found some mysterious bug bites on my wrist after carrying my friend's dog into Walgreens when I was trying to get my dad's Western Union. Turns out, despite flea treatment, she has fleas. So guess who's not allowed on my bed till they get that under control.

Anyway, back to the topic of extra stops and errands, I want to purchase the next shelf and a couple more etoiles of DMC, which may have to wait. I'm not sure if I should order the next big bag of 18ct aida while I'm actively earning money, or just work through what I have and see how far I can get. I'm already anxious about running out of materials. It's incredible to me how much thread I use per ATC, and then the massive variety of colors this project is going to take. I know skeins are only around fifty to seventy cents a hit, but that's a lot if you end up blowing through a hundred skeins. And then, I still haven't found my thread conditioner, and cross-stitching sucks tannins without it, so I'm thinking about preemptively buying like three of the little kits with the sewing machine conditioner extra. When I'm actively stitching, especially when I'm using two strands, that stuff disappears quicker than you'd believe.

Something I definitely need to purchase is just an actual basket, like ten or fifteen water flavors because I cannot even tell you how quickly I go through them, even being back in Wisconsin, and even though we're quickly fading into autumn. Oh! Speaking of autumn, so a) I'd like to waterproof a sweater for walking in the rain, and b) I want to make my friend a felt autumn wreath that she hasn't even implied wanting. I'm gonna find my good hot glue gun, eh, strike that. It'll last longer if I sew it. Of course, by the time I finish it, whether I use glue or thread, it'll freakin be full on winter.

Another thing I eventually need to add to my stash of useful things is caffeine tablets. I'm usually the type to reach for actual energy drinks, because generally, I'm going to have a soda anyway, but also, they're becoming excessively sweet to my palate. My sweet tooth is quickly becoming sensitive to beverages; candy is one thing. Speaking of candy, I'm probably going to pick up some Halloween candy. Probably when it goes on sale. I'd like some Sixlets, and chocolate covered bridge mix. The chocolate covered bridge mix will be its own errand. There are a couple places I could get it from and it'll be an adventure to see who has it for the best price and the best quality. And once I finish my jelly beans, I'll have plenty of space to store a lot of chocolate covered mix.

Organizing a thread stash takes a lot of investment. I know some people just throw their skeins and scraps and the thread information into a bag, throw the bags in a binder and call or a day, but even that, when you're just starting, is going to take quite a bit of investment. I feel like the number of bags I would need also would command a serious financial investment. Even something as simple as making my thread into pre-cut lengths and loading them onto my cards is a lengthy time investment, and considering the sheer quantity of colors I already have, let alone the colors I intend to eventually acquire (it would be cool to mix in more over-dyes and variegated colors into my work, especially for scenery and backgrounds). I absolutely love using the twenty-hole cards. I'm considering linking them together so they're always in order but I'm not certain. I'm also not certain quite yet how I want to organize my multicolored threads.

Oh. Metallics. I haven't cross-stitched with metallics yet, but I've freehanded with them and......ehhhh. I'm also not certain when I would use metallics. Maaayyyybe when I stitch Kitty looking at the school. Maaayyybe to bring depth to certain kinds of textures and effects?? Like if there's ever any metal or....... maybe decorations??

Honestly, I'm probably just going to buy shoes, pay my phone bill, if I'm lucky I'll be able to afford at least another week of tokens and some shirts, but I might just have to wait on shirts, let alone water flavor or even an exchange carbonation canister. A carbonation canister doesn't really help when I can really only bring two or three water bottles with me and I drink like three or four. I already carry two, and with everything else, it's a bit much. So I could only have one soda water every day, at work.

Eventually, things will start to level out. Sooner than later, I need to purchase an actual work shirt, so I can leave off the heavy vest that wrinkles too easily.

I'll once again be even on all the things I need, and I can start stockpiling cross-stitch supplies, and saving to move out on my own and for going back to college and thesis.

Oh, back to the topic of my project, yet again, there's going to be all kinds of fun stuff as we go. Vertical frames, double vertical, double horizontal. I'm not above arranging a four-frame frame if I want maximum detail, or making panoramas. All kinds of shit. I'm really going to push the capacity of cross-stitch and ATCs in/as a storytelling capacity. In fact, at least once, I need a panorama of the village and the school. I think the school is actually one of my few planned panoramas and use of an effect thread. I think I might do the school itself as a maybe two vertical high and maybe three vertical in the bottom row. Then the cafeteria will probably be two side by side, and maybe I'll use an etoile for the parts of the floor hit by sun.

I didn't really overtly plan to make crazy layouts which will require different plans of frames, but definitely inthe back of my mind, it has been kind of just a part of using a pixel kind of style and wanting those details. Maybe that's where I'd be better off just making molds of each side, and I could cut the edges and fix everything back together with UV resin. Apart from visually detailed scenes, in the really quotidian scenes, it's not necessary, since there'll be more people action. It will be cool and fun to make bigger frames with little window frame dividers. I think it'll look cool, but it may cause some difficulties. Or maybe I should just make a bigger frame, a longer one, maybe like a comic strip. I would have to see the ATCs mounted, and be able to have enough of them to play around with arrangements. I'm probably just going to do what I originally had in mind and wait till I finish at least my current sheet before I wash, cut and mount.

Once everything is washed, it's glovey tiiimme! I should probably wear gloves all the time; it might save washing ha ha. Once I have them washed, I don't want to have to wash them again. I'm thinking maybe saturate them with the pre-treatment, then finger scrub each panel with dish soap, and rinse the hell out of it.

I'm really excited to be moving forward on this project.

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fly-pow-bye · 7 years

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Powerpuff Girls 2016 - “Musclecup”

Written by: Haley Mancini

Written & Storyboarded by: Kyle Neswald, Benjamin P. Carow

Directed by: Nick Jennings, Bob Boyle

Buttercup used BULK UP! It wasn't very effective...

The episode starts with a superhero flexing his butt cheeks. Let that set the tone for the rest of the episode.

That aforementioned butt belongs to Totally Not Terry Crews from the old Old Spice commercials, or Abs Man for short, a superhero that loves to advertise his Muscle Maxifier. He's opening up the Briepot Depot, a cheese store, and cuts the "now opening" ribbon with his abdominals. That cheese store ends up being a running gag that doesn't really go anywhere.

Buttercup makes it quite clear that she is a super fan of this character of the week. No real reason in particular, though it's implied that she loves those muscles as she slowly flies across them in an exaggerated pan. She tries to introduce herself in a way that makes her look like a dork.

They introduce themselves as The Powerpuff Girls, Townsville's superheroes. Hey look, they found a use for the hearts after getting rid of the Narrator! Bubbles adds that they are not to be confused with Townsville's Super Gyros. We get an advertisement for those gyros, because we needed a scene where Blossom "noms" a gyro in an off-model way. Much more needed than actual superheroic acts.

Abs Man isn’t swayed by this, and starts to mock them for being so tiny. I will say this is not going to be a total ripoff of Members Only. One will wish this was ripping off Members Only.

Abs Man: (practically bullying these poor little girls) Who are your villains, hmmm? Insects?

It's a good thing Buttercup initially likes this guy; the last time someone Buttercup never met did something similar, Buttercup destroyed an entire Renaissance Fair over it. Buttercup instead politely tries to correct him by saying they have real villains to fight. Before she can talk about that silly monkey with the silly hat, the pink fuzzball that actually cameos in this episode, and that shadow guy that whines about his toys, we get a gnat riding on a giant hairspray can.

Specifically, the Gnat, who proclaims himself to be the Powerpuff Girls’ most notorious arch-nemesis. He even gives a flashback on his last encounter, where he was just a tiny gnat getting sprayed by the Professor. I may have problems with this episode, but this gnat isn't one of them. Sure, he seems to be only here to prove Abs Man correct, but they sure make him ham it up.

Another part of the reason is that Buttercup just swats him away into a airplane that happened to be flying by. After all the Monster Punch, Girls Down scenes, it’s so refreshing to see a Girl Punch, Monster Down instead. Despite her easy victory, Buttercup realizes that Abs Man was right: she is puny. Blossom tries to reassure her and offers her some of that soft cheese, but Buttercup made up her mind. She's going to a gym to become a beefcake, in her own words. And not just any gym...

...JayDeep's Gym Jam! It's very fitting for something that could turn Buttercup into a monstrosity to have the name of one of the people behind that Buttercup muppet shot from the last episode. Don't think this name on the sign is just an one-off case of writer vanity, either.

It’s also the name of this character of the week! The writers sure like to write in their co-workers, and I feel I should just stop there because it's not that bad here and the original did it too. JayDeep asks Buttercup why she wants to be welcomed to the Gym Jam, and Buttercup practically blurts out one of the lessons of this episode.

Buttercup: Don't say peer pressure, don't say peer pressure...PEER PRESSURE! I mean...fitness! Totally fitness.

A week passes by, as told by a title card that says "one week l8r". Is txt talk even relevant in the age of phones with touchscreens? One would think they would know this when they gave the Powerpuff Girls smartphones. Blossom and Bubbles, chalk this up as another episode where two Reboot Puffs are playing the same role, open the refrigerator to find nothing but Muscle Maximizer.

I knew from this scene that I was going to see something horrific. Maybe it won't be that bad?

No, that's not my rating for this episode, that was a representation of my face. Because somebody really wanted it, we get an overly buff and swole Powerpuff Girl, complete with stubby "hands" that make her look like an overly muscled chicken. We even get gratuitous use of photos to show off these muscles, which I won't screenshot because I don't hate you that much. I guess it's supposed to be disgusting, but intentional disgust is still disgust.

Blossom tells her she's taking this too far, but Buttercup assures her that this is what she is now. Blossom tells Buttercup that she doesn't have to look like a superhero to be one, a general lesson the Powerpuff Girls prove by existing, at least in the original. Buttercup just walks away, busting through the door as if the Powerpuff Girls busting through walls wasn't a normal aspect. I guess it isn't in this reboot.

Also not a normal aspect of this reboot, Blossom gets a call from the Mayor, telling her that the Gnat is doing the same evil deed downtown. Bubbles asks if they should get Buttercup, but as the strong independent superheroines that they are, Blossom decides they don't need Buttercup. Well, except for those last six times the most boyish one had to save the two girly ones. I counted.

The Gnat is back, and he's doing the same plan he was trying to do earlier. Of course, he was thwarted by a single Powerpuff Girl, and now there's two of them to take him on. Unfortunately, by the time they get there, Townsville is covered with clouds of hairspray. You would think something would come of this, like a funny hairstyle joke, but it doesn't. It does lead to Blossom and Bubbles getting lost in it, making them targets for the Gnat's other plan.

With his sinister knowledge on where to get giant terrariums and how to lift and drop them, The Gnat drops a giant terrarium on Blossom and Bubbles. As revenge for humans feeding gnats to their pets, he intends to feed the Powerpuff Girls to a pet of his very own: a giant horned frog. Blossom and Bubbles narrowly avoid his tongue and charge towards it to "make this frog croak", but, guess what?

Frog inflate, girls down. Womp, womp. Buttercup easily dispatches monsters, while Blossom and Bubbles are victims. Okay, even in the original, they had trouble with a giant fish balloon monster. Granted, that fish balloon was about 10 times bigger.

I would also ask how these girls can smash through walls, but not through this glass. There's no mention that this is a special superhero-proof terrarium. Maybe they’re afraid of smashing through the glass because they could get stabbed by giant glass shards! Huh, if only there was a way for them to make some sort of giant protective barrier around them. An aura, if you will.

The overly-muscled Buttercup shows up to save those poor little girly ones with her strong muscles, which the Gnat is completely disgusted by. Another reason to like this guy! Buttercup treats this as him being jealous, and tries to fly towards him for another beatdown. Unfortunately, Buttercup falls into a problem. Literally, she falls because can't fly with her overly-large muscles. I shouldn't get into the science of little girls flying, because there isn't one, but I feel like they're just trying to find excuses to make those muscles not work.

Rolling her overly "swole" body, apparently heavier than buildings full of people, to the gym, and she cries out to her idol of the week. The short answer, he doesn't help at all. The long answer is actually pretty clever. Her idol betraying her, she finally realizes she's just not built to be a muscle-woman, but she was good the way she was.

JayDeep, infuriated that Buttercup used his building for selfish purposes but easily forgiving her, offers a new "fitness" plan with his brother Sundeep. He represents the "Jam" portion of the Gym Jam, and they meant the preserves. Not the ''Come on and slam! And welcome to the jam!'' kind.

He’s going to try to make Buttercup lose all of that muscle mass by making her lazy. We get a workout montage showing some sort of workout equipment, which immediately pans to Sundeep and the overgrown chicken sitting down and watching television. How does this new way of working out help out Buttercup? Well, I'm sure somebody was happy to see this.

Buttercup: Nooow I can saaaave my siiiisteeeeers! (slumps)

Overly large muscles, inflation, and now weight gain. I guess they realized this reboot wouldn’t be popular enough for that kind of “special interest” art, so they decided to do it themselves.

JayDeep, the character, not the storyboarder, is insulted by this conversion of muscle fat to regular fat, and forces Buttercup to do some cardio. Persumably, with no weight lifting. Meanwhile, how are Blossom and Bubbles doing?

Ah, yes, the classic "if only Buttercup can save us" scene! I would say they took the "Buttercup, she's the toughest fighter" line too seriously if they were still using that ending theme song. Maybe it's a good thing Bis has nothing to do with this. This reboot doesn't deserve them.

Buttercup shows up, all back to normal outside of a spray tan and some flabby arms. She is a superheroine, maybe her metabolism is super, too. Gnat gets punched into the aquarium’s walls, spurting out the closest thing to blood they ever shown outside of those unicorn hearts in The Last Donnycorn. Buttercup then lifts the terrarium to let her sisters out, and The Gnat gets eaten by his own frog in an ironic death. Why couldn't Blossom and Bubbles lift it from the inside? Pineapples.

The episode ends with Buttercup opening her mouth super wide and eating Blossom and Bubbles whole. With the way this episode went, would it even be surprising if that wasn't a total lie?

Does the title fit?

The title promised us Buttercup with muscles, and it gave us that.

How does it stack up?

It’s a bad idea done as well as they could. I said the same about Wrinklegruff Gals, but it's more true here. I certainly want to see more of The Gnat, and I can't exactly say they were not creative. The characters of the week aren't too horrible, either.

However, outside of the muscles, this is just another "Buttercup does something wrong, the other Powerpuff Girls get into trouble, and Buttercup has to learn the lesson to save them" episode. The reboot has done far better episodes with that concept, and they should have done something new instead. It's not the worst, but it's no Man Up 2.

Next week, it's a special Father's Day episode about the Professor. Hopefully it's more Fashion Forward and The Big Sleep than any of his other major appearances.

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FROM ONE PIKACHU TO ANOTHER sidenote do they play pokemon in the au do they have fave pokes. also i can't wait for alex and maggie to meet and realize they're soulmates and to be like "ok but i'm still mad about the trex and feathers thing" and then forl ucy to come in like "guys theyve been dead for years"

oh oh dude okay so I hadn’t really thought about it in context of the soulmate au specifically so it hasn’t been mentioned and it probably won’t be but they totally do and on valentines day when Magie is like 6 she doodles a pokeball and some cheesy shit like I choose you to be my soulmate and it’s adorable.

Also that is totally like an ongoing ‘fight’ Alex and Maggie have, like Maggie actually took some paleontology classes for funsies and as an adult she actually thinks it’s really cool the kind of strides we’ve made in science and the hows and whys T-Rexes probably had feathers but then there’s the little kid nostalgia and Alex gets so worked about science facts so Maggie just ‘nope 15 years later and it’s still lame’ and they bicker endlessly about it

And when Lucy is like ‘guys guess what? they’ve been dead for years, technically none of them have feathers anymore.’

Maggie looks up at her with the biggest saddest eyes and Alex pouts because she was going to get Maggie to see reason this time but now look at how sad she is and Lucy is just jfc how did I end up with such nerds for soulmates and she has to go put on Jurassic Park 2 and cuddle with them(Jurassic Park is Maggie’s go to comfort movie but Jurassic Park: The Lost World is Lucy’s ‘I fucked up by saying the dinosaurs were extinct to end an argument so now we have to watch a T-Rex rampage through San Diego to balance it out).

Sooooo….I got so carried away with various pokemon hcs that I had to put it under a cut….

I have so many poke hc’s for them in general but like I tend hc Maggie as a gamer, little Maggie growing up and she can’t afford to collect the cards but she loves the anime and eventually saves up enough to get a gameboy color. Her first game is red and she plays it so many times she practically wears out the cartridge. She’s the first person (and only for awhile) in blue springs to catch Mew. She eventually collects and plays all the games and she’s a complete expert on all the glitches and secrets.

Alex was more of a casual fan she watched the anime sometimes but Vicky liked playing the games so Alex asked her parents to buy her a gameboy color and trading pokemon on the playground is probably the most social Alex ever was without alcohol.

She did really REALLY get into collecting the cards though and at one point Maggie and Alex visit Eliza in Midvale and Alex’s room is as she left it. Maggie is having fun poking around and teasing Alex for her Xena memorabilia and Dana Scully and BtVS posters(seriously Danvers, Faith is practically eye-fucking the camera in that one across from your bed how did you not know) when she finds the three thick Pokemon card binders and freezes. Alex notices and grabs them like I totally forgot I had these and she starts flipping through one reminiscing and handing another to Maggie and Maggie almost shits herself because Alex has a first edition base set holo Charizard, she has all the starters, she has all the original 151 cards in various editions from different series and collections , She has holos, she has Japanese cards, she has shining cards. Kara ends up stopping by because I could hear Maggie’s erratic heart rate from National city and ‘holy shit is everyone okay?’

Alex’s attachment to the cards is more nostalgia than anything so she’s like you can have them if you want, Maggie almost has a heart attack. Of course she refuses those cards are worth more than she makes in a month but Alex brings them back to National City and they just kind of end up ‘Maggie’s’ anyway.

Lucy collected the cards too but she actually played the trading card game. Being an army brat could be isolating but pokemon in the 90s was inescapable and it was something to do on any base, in any school she ended up in for awhile. Lucy played to win and for keeps and she ended up with her own pretty decent collection of cards even though hers aren’t nearly in the kind of mint condition Alex’s are in. Maggie still hyperventilates sometimes if she catches sight of the 5 card binders on the bookcase(Alex organized Lucy’s collection from an old shoebox into binders of their own).

For her birthday Lucy and Alex get Maggie an unopened special edition pokemon gameboy color from the yellow bundle. She cries because she had wanted that one more than anything as a kid but couldn’t afford it and they spend the night cuddled up together playing pokemon on their gameboys like the nerds they are.

Maggie and Winn stay up all night outside gamestop for the 20th aanniversary red and blue 3ds bundle.

Maggie’s ultimate fav is Bulbasaur she remembers watching the anime and wishing she had one to protect her from the bullies and eventually she gets older and decides she may never have a Bulbasaur but she can be one for others.

She has a bunch of favorites though including pikachu (she will physically fight anyone who says something about anyone not being a ‘real fan’ because pikachu is too famous or popular a pokemon), Aerodactly, Kabuto(her first body on the beach she sees a horseshoe crab and has to try really hard not to lose her shit because she’s from landlocked nebraska, and she is looking a kabuto and basically it’s an effort to remind herself that she is a newly promoted detective that needs to get her shit together) Tauros, Nidoqueen, Donphan, Tyranitar(basically if it’s vaguely dino-like she has a soft spot but dragons can go either way stemming from her childhood belief they arent as cool as dinos), Mightyena, Groudon, alright I’m going to stop but she develops favorites in each gen.

Alex meanwhile is staunchly first gen and she and Maggie bicker about constantly.

Alex tended to favor water pokemon but not exclusively some of her faves Lapras, Vaporeon, Porygon, Starmie, Dratini, Ninetails, Abra/Alakazam and Onix. She also has a secret soft spot for Togepi as well as Espeon and Umbreon who she thinks of kind of like her and Kara, sun and moon and argues that they still technically count as 1st gen because they’re eevee evolutions.

Lucy is mostly only really familiar with the first gen and some of the second but she doesn’t really care either way and will choose sides based on maximum amusement for the moment. Some of her favs include Squirtle/Blastoise, Arcanine, Pidgeot, Nidoking, Machamp, Lickitung, Gyarados, Flareon.

And well Alex is a BIOengineer and she studies alien physiology and genetic engineering and if anyone was going to ‘accidentally’ create real life pokemon it would be her okay.

(mostly I just really think J'onn needs a Ditto…..)

And I was talking about this with nerdsbianhokie ages ago and they pointed out that Alex has seen Jurassic Park enough times to know to not create large creatures that can kill humans and would probably go with the mini-zoo variety and then they blessed me with the mental image of a tiny little Ditto riding on J'onn’s shoulder.

Vasquez would end up making obligatory pocket size jokes that they don’t even pretend aren’t about Maggie and Lucy. They’d only stop when Alex threatens to withhold the actual mini pocket monsters from them and even then only when They’re within ear shot of Alex.

The spacefam ending up with mini-pokemon protectors. Maggie gets her fucking Bulbasaur and everyone cries.

And then my dude I have not even touched on pokemon go hc’s

Kara blowing an entire paycheck on upgrading her pokemon storage because she can’t bring herself to turn any of her duplicates into candy and she needs to catch every single pokemon she sees. She has like a thousand pidgeys at this point.

Nerdsbianhokie was like but Kara being upset that she flies too fast for the app.

And Alex/Maggie/Lucy? Pokemon go would be terrible and awesome for those competitive nerds. They have zero shame.

Lucy exploits her military contacts, her and Alex abuse DEO resources, Alex makes Kara fly her around the world to get the region locked pokemon.

After Lucy came back from a ‘work trip’ in Asia with a Farfetch’d, Alex made Kara take the day off and wouldn’t let them go home til she had multiple Farfetch'ds, Kangeshkans, and Mr. Mimes.

Maggie tries to keep up but detecting only gets her so far. She does have a network of ppl who are the type to text the location of a Lapras at 3am.When Kara realizes the edge Lucy and Alex have she starts exclusively helping Maggie.

Alex is completely overdramatic like my own sister, MY OWN SISTER pretending to pretend to make a huge production about loyalty. And Kara’s just like ‘I’m just being fair besides Lucy and Maggie are my sisters too at this point’ and Alex just melts. She also gets Winn to build her a long range Jet pack into the kryptonite suit in an attempt and get back on top of the game but she’s melty while doing it.

Winn Mr.tech genius manages to get himself banned from ‘suping’ up his account and has to start over at level 21. He cries.

As repayment for not commenting upon the melty-ness during the jet pack building Alex takes his phone with her on flights since he had to start over. Of course, being Alex she doesn’t actually say this she just sort of punches his arm in thanks, steals the phone and drops it back into his lap later with a few eggs hatched, some new pokemon and a full items inventory.

Lucy realizes she’s the only one currently unable to fly which oh hell no so she starts scheming.

‘Director Lane, did you requisition military resources for a video game?’ 'Of course not, it’s an app.’ (via nerdsbianhokie)

Vasquez is the first to get the original 151….All of them… no one understands, they have no obvious hacks, seemingly haven’t left North America, Ditto is still a spoty rumor at that point and Mewtwo is confirmed as not yet available or even programed and yet… Vasquez has them. When anyone asks They deflect and says you should see my wife’s.

Erin is level 48 way too early in the game.She has a Mew. Everyone is kinda of scared of them after learning about it, the true power couple.

No one ever figures out how they did it.

J’onn just wants his agents to behave like professionals and bans non-related phone use during working hours after seven agents ran away from their posts to catch a Charizard. He’s in the middle of lecturing them when Lucy and Alex stroll in like did you guys see that Charizard?!

(Kara downloaded the app to his phone and J’onn totally caught the Charizard)

James takes pictures of the gang doing absolutely ridiculous things while trying the catch pokemon and it becomes a meme.

There’s a gym (The D.E.O was also accidently made a gym what no Vasquez and Winn had nothing to do with that what are you talking about) accessible from Alex’s apartment and it’s a bloodbath because they’re all on different teams, Maggie-Instinct, Lucy-Valor and Alex-Mystic.

Just yea……uhmmm this all got away from me *shrugs sheepishly*

#yokothetypo #asks #skin canvas soulmate au #hcs #holy shit this ran the fuck away from me #director sanvers #pokemon nonsense

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pointthefingerblametheother · 3 years

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First of all I don't hate you either. These posts are coming from a place of love. True love deeper and longer lasting than any romance book could portray. I love you more than you let me show you or that you would accept when I tried showing you anyways. I thought you stopped loving me months ago. But really, you stopped loving yourself and couldn't see how much I truly do love you either. Seeing you depressed only made me more depressed and vice versa. It sucks.. I couldn't show my love after trying so hard and getting rejected just trying to even have my arm around you; I'd get rejected day after day. - I would take you back someday. But you have to learn to love yourself again, first. And not just chase for someone else's love (fake or not), running from your own love for yourself. Our own depressions had been feeding each other's. And we should have went in to get help sooner, but we didn't know any better... After the first Covid shot I felt even worse and my daily migraines have been even more powerful for me I wanted to escape my own body and mind.. not you. It's been absolutely terrifying losing myself during this pandemic... So dark and cold inside my own mind. I didn't know how to get help (The Nice app just told me they didn't have the meds they thought I needed and I felt worthless ever since last June when I tried to get help)

Only you can get help for yourself, if you want relief from your struggles, but I can try to help that process if you would like a little guidance. I love you, but I can't force you to love yourself. You have to want it yourself, for yourself. - I was paralyzed by my own depression and rejection. I got tired of trying to be good enough for you and still being told to go in the other room every day. Yet, somehow I still love you more than anything on this Earth. I'm trying to learn to love myself again. - I was depressed. Hating myself. And then you went and left me for it.. and now all I feel is emptiness inside without you by my side. If you only knew the guilt I've been feeling inside, unable to let out for leaving RTI; when you promised me everything was going to be okay... I know you only left me because of my depression and the lack of love you were feeling yourself, you wanted someone who seemed happy and to feed off their energy. I don't hate you for doing that. But I still never stopped loving you even though I couldn't love myself and it hurts to feel given up on.. twice now due to my depression. I haven't been able to think straight ever since my panic attacks started at RTI and that mixed with depression and made every day agony. Not your fault, you can't feel what's inside of me. I'm seeing a doctor and getting help soon. I want to fix things. I'd compromise anything with you, honestly. I still have gift cards for Sugar Factory saved.. but I am so heartbroken that had to sell the engagement ring I bought you, just to pay for a down payment now for a place to move to.

Listen to Lost in the Woods from Frozen 2 to know how I'm feeling before proceeding reading the rest of this post. One of the last movies we ever got to go out and watch together over a year ago, you stopped wanting to watch movies with me once the pandemic started... We used to do Redbox and all that stuff before we got depressed.

If you end up going through any of my other posts, just know they're in reverse order because it's a blog. I also have OCD so I edit and touch them up too much and add too much to them. I can't do that or delete all the messages I over sent you. Sorry about all those messages, honestly. I was going through lots of withdrawal: Crystal Love, Video Games, AND Caffeine. So yeah, I got nasty like when someone gets off hardcore drugs or smoking cigarettes. That's what it felt like and I'm sorry I let all that out on you and all the horrible things I said about myself. I'm sorry you didn't feel the love I was giving anymore. I honestly didn't feel loved by you either. Or that you even loved yourself anymore. Everything was about murders and people having painful life experiences every conversation I had with you and you were watching all these dating shows that made me uncomfortable because it seemed you'd rather watch them than accept the love I was trying to show you. You wouldn't even let me sit next to you or put my arm around you. When we went to the mall you wouldn't even hold my hand anymore like you used to... You weren't being yourself at all.

I want to get back to who we were together before the pandemic.

Before you left, I honestly loved you more than life itself. Would have killed myself if it would have made you happy.. That.... THAT is why I was speechless when you said you were leaving me. My heart SHATTERED before you. It killed me inside to hear the person that I love more than my own self wanted to leave me for someone else after 7 1/2 years. I was so sad with you being unresponsive to all my signs of love for the past few months. I honestly sat in that room for days on end debating suicide because I'd been getting rejected to even be allowed to sit on the couch with you for weeks... While you texted away with another guy? I honestly almost killed myself over this because I thought you just hated me because of my depression. The only words that saved me were when you said "I don't hate you". I don't know why that saved me but it did. It sure felt like you hated me. How do you leave someone who loves you more than themselves, more than life itself...?

You stopped telling me your wants. You stopped telling me your desires. It felt like you only wanted me out of the room and to get yourself off to sleep multiple times a day and try to sleep for days on end, even sleeping through your work shifts only to stay up all night to make up work. It felt like you wanted nothing to do with me. And it hurt me. Every. Single. Day. I used to be the one you turned to for that kind of intimate stuff.. and you seemed to want nothing to do with me anymore. I felt like yesterday's trash for months, so I turned to Twitch to try and make other people feel better since you stopped receiving my actions of love. Just being friends with people since I couldn't meet new friends in person. Only friends. Never thought once of not loving you or pursuing anyone else.

I just barely finally started to love myself and bought the PS5 and then the NES (the NES was an impulse buy, trying to do some retail therapy like you used to do in healthy amounts). But realized I was still addicted to Overwatch, because I had a feeling you were talking to another guy and that made me even more depressed. I figured I'd rather play video games than kill myself. When I realized it was someone who also pretended to be my friend I wanted to kill myself even more. I wanted to kill him too. But it was your choice to fuck me over. When all I did was love you too much and get rejected to the point all you did was talk to him about my shortcomings from being depressed for over two years from leaving my job FOR HAVING PANIC ATTACKS... Leo doesn't love you. I can forgive you for leaving me for him, but you also have to be able to forgive yourself. You were in a vulnerable state and he took advantage of you. He just wanted to steal you away while you were depressed as an easy trophy.. He wants you to keep needing him, and he will do anything to keep you hanging on so he has a chance to take you away for himself (not for you or your best interests).

Opposed to me where I have always wanted to raise you up every time I could muster up the courage to try to cheer you up again.. I'd get rejected yet again. Every time I tried playing board games, watch TV with you.. the games sat on the table for WEEKS on end... collecting hair, collecting dust... and you'd reject me day after day to play board games saying "not today, maybe tomorrow, maybe next weekend, etc." You stopped eating and making food for yourself and for us and sharing that weight even though I tried encouraging you... And then you got mad at me one day for not making food, after making it for us for the 5th day in a row... I asked you to please make something for us and you decided to starve instead... It fucking hurt. I love you Crystal but you let yourself go and you decided to chase a guy lying to you rather than the man whose loved you and has been with you and committed only to you for over 7 1/2 years.

We both got depressed, both needed help, but couldn't help the other enough to get them to a doctor. Sorry... I never stopped loving you, even though you hurt me so bad. So yeah I started buying things for myself to cope. Spent too much and you stopped seeing the things I was buying you and gestures I was trying to do for you and for us. But it doesn't have to be the end of us, Crystal. Neither of us could control our depression on our own without seeing a doctor, so I can't hate you for leaving.

I tried changing the topics we would watch, to happier things and watching shows with you that were not so dark, but it seemed every time I tried talking to you you'd rather be messaging someone on your phone than talking to me about anything at all. When we went out and played pokemon you'd have side conversations with Leo instead of showing me you cared about me on our date nights.. I tried many topics to change what we watched and tried encouraging you to look into your health, but I forgot about my own health and you started talking with another guy behind my back. It was pretty to do such a thing to someone who loves you more than life itself... But he'd also been badgering you for months to just let him back into your life, the sick bastard.

When I was messaging after you left I could only focus on the negative about myself because I was depressed (and have been for months, hating myself for having to deal with companies rejecting me for months.. and not being able to get close to you while my search for work was absolute Hell. You pushed me away a LOT). You really didn't deserve all the messaging and hearing me beat myself up. You have been depressed too. I tried explaining all the things you needed help with too, but it was way too much all at once and I'm sorry. Sick people can't fix other sick people - One of them needs to at least get help first. I'm glad you gave me a chance to go get help. I hope you can do the same for yourself and take the time to love who you are.

She always tried her best to make every day feel better for me... No matter how bad it was for me (or herself) inside. If you're out there reading this right now, clearly you still care. Take your time and feel free to read this window into my mind. it won't be easy to get through, but I still love you, Crystal, okay? Please relearn to love yourself. Sick people can't help sick people, but I'm working on myself and getting better; if you want help from being depressed I'd be glad to help you get you the help you need.. but you have to actually want it. For yourself. Don't do it for me. Sorry I got so depressed and stopped caring about myself. It must have been hard for you to watch... I know it was hard for me to watch you going through the same thing. Neither of our faults, okay? We just have to learn to care about ourselves and our own wants and desires. The pandemic's been so long I can't remember the last time I styled my hair or put on cologne (I used to put product in my hair every single day.), or you put on perfume or lipstick... I miss those days. Check out my new photo below this post, too. I'm trying hard to love myself again. 😁

Take all the time you need to read every word. We were both very depressed and confused when you left, both being depressed for a year in isolation. Something needed to change for us to get better. I understand that. Maybe some day we can get back to going to shows and traveling the US or the world together like we always wanted.

I'm trying to focus on me now though, so we actually have a chance. I need to take a break from only thinking about what I think you want or trying to make you happy with the little things. The little gifts and stuffedies things don't add up if you don't love yourself enough to want them for yourself anyways. (I'm glad I still have all mine from you. But.. because they're mine from you. Not because you gave them to make me happy. Band aids don't last. We both needed real healing from our depressions. They've just been feeding on each other's and we turned into horrible monsters towards each other.) I don't hate you for it though. I turned gross too. I'm getting better though. 🙂

Gifts and kind gestures don't fix depression though. I needed professional help to get through Covid Isolation. But. She gave up on me instead of telling me to get help or explaining as someone out of my own mind that I stopped doing chores. It wasn't a choice. Depression is a mental disorder. It disables our ability to be happy and do things that make others happy that we love. We say and do things we don't mean. It's the way life is... We're only human. You gave me everything I thought I wanted and way beyond. But nothing fixes depression other than getting professional help from doctors. And that needs to be our own decision to make for ourselves if we are worth that kind of investment for our own quality of life; we have to love inside our bodies no matter what, and we only get one body and one mind. Let in; let doctors help. - I will help you if you decide you want the help, but the decision to GET help needs to be your own choice, as I have also made my own choice to get help on my own.

I wish I could have gotten help sooner so I could treat her the same way sheas trying to treat me, before she got depressed, too. But stuffed animals and gifts weren't going to save her either. The proof is in the bag I got her.. it made her so happy to get it but her own depression she just wanted to escape into it rather than face her own love in herself. It happened to me with video games, too. Babe I get it we both fell for depression at the same time.

Gifts are just little bandaids, and ours were holding back cracked dams of depression... I wish I could have done like I used to do without this dark cloud hanging over me not letting me be myself. Covid was a horrible year for us.. as individuals, both. All my brain wanted to do was escape my depression and so all I did was play games instead of getting real professional help, that I actually needed. No healing shows to go to or musicals - that's our love language.

This damn pandemic... I just want to go to shows to be happy again... But the thought of going alone is heartbreaking. It's really hard with E3 going on right now. Lots of great memories flooding in. None of what happened in our fallout means we meant to leave the way we did; you left with practically no notice and it made no sense.

Not to mean to beat a dead horse, I KNOW you don't want to hear this or accept this. I don't care if you end up single or dating someone else on your own merit, but Leo is not good for you and he is NOT a friend. He only wants you as a trophy as "the girl that got away". You are an amazing woman, Crystal. 7 1/2 Years I know what the good times AND the bad times are like and I wouldn't trade them for a minute without you. but Leo worked on you for months. He really did. You had no idea, after being manipulated so long. Try to look back to the beginning of how annoyed as fuck you were that he was messaging you again. You told me how mad you were "some guy" was messaging you, but you didn't tell me who. I wish you did, but how could you know this would happen unless it's happened with him before? But you also let him. You gave him the chance. I tried early to help you and you refused. I warned you the first time you said he was bothering you that I would help if you wanted me to tell him to go away... But you let the bastard talk you in to leaving anyways he started planting seeds in your mind months ago and worked on you slowly over time. I saw the messages because you have always told me you have nothing to hide from me. Only reason I ever looked.. I KNOW and I COULD SEE you didn't want to leave like this; one month before the pandemic ended... We both knew the end of the pandemic was near. But there's no helping you when you decide to leave.. no matter how badly I wanted to... I couldn't convince you otherwise. I know how you get by now after 7 1/2 years. You had a flare up and his words hit at the right time after badgering you for months... I should have let you go earlier so you could learn earlier but I was trying to protect you.

This is a lesson you needed to learn on your own though.. Leo is a manipulator and will never change that he is one. He's not even a friend, please get away from him as early on as you can. I don't mind if you find another guy that actually cares and is in it FOR YOU, or if you choose to stay single gonna while and reflect on what's happened in order to heal. If you don't get away, he will jump at you again the moment you let your guard down again. I know people like this (women) from my own past. I will not hold it against you for being convinced out of our relationship or hate you for it. We were both depressed, trying to break the cycle some way, some how. Come back to me; talk to me when you're ready. I will not force you, you need to decide and learn this on your own. Even if you just need to talk to me as a friend.

I hope it truly isn't the end for us... I'm not hopelessly obsessed, just addicted to your love and then you were gone cold turkey. The same day I then quit gaming and caffeine. I am sorry my withdrawals came out on you.. I want to give you a window into our past if you ever just so have the desire to look here again on your own. Some of these posts I have made already I forgot you might have been able to see so... Sorry if anything hurts you. Not intentional. Just venting at points. This hasn't been easy on me. I love you and couldn't call this the end, just yet. Not like this. I saved all the memories in the memory box, when you're ready to go through them again some day.

I do hate my body though for not physically being able to hold back messaging.. Like I can’t shut the fuck up when you leave cold turkey like this. You've done this twice now so I know you didn't mean it. Sorry Crystal. You didn’t deserve that. My love was so strong for you I forgot to love myself... And let you go. I know you couldn't handle seeing me and my depression day after day.. You couldn't fix me and you felt defeated. I needed to see a doctor to wake out of my depression. I wish I could go back and delete the messages. Those last few messages I just wanted you to get help with your thyroid. For you, not for me. Even though reading them they did come off like I'm trying to be an asshole. I wasn't trying to. Just feral after covid depression and being hit with you leaving without talking through things, that's all. It came off wrong, it was a bad time for me to try to help you while you were so upset.

I wouldn't have known you didn't mean this breakup to happen if you hadn't told me about your password in the exact way you had at least 25 times in our relationship with the exact words: "This is my password. Remember it. If there ever comes a time when you need to get in, use it; I have nothing to hide." I heard it singing that night in my mind... I KNEW something wasn't right. I had to listen to your past words and take your past words seriously after you saying it so many times. I did it for you; not for me. I only made sure I got caught because I hated myself for looking... Even though I was only following your own words because I love you and I cared enough to remember you telling me you had nothing to hide.

Maybe some day we can be mature enough to actually talk about things again.

I will be getting medication soon to help with the pain. I didn’t mean to take out all my frustrations on you, a lot has been built up inside me during the pandemic and I burst open with the cut of you walking away cold turkey. I hope you can find a doctor for your thyroid and other therapy you will need to get through this. Don't forget I love you and that I'd still do anything for you; even after all of this.

If you need help and don't know where else to go, talk to me. I'll help you through anything but you have to be willing to listen. - and if you don't know where to find me anymore... Talk to your mom. She should help us reconnect if you can't find your way on your own. I'll be waiting, but also focusing on bettering myself, too. Take care of yourself, love.

I hope you have the ability to forgive me some day. We had good times, too. Mostly good times. But that doesn’t make up for a year of depression and isolation. If you apologize I will have a lot to think about. But, I know... I will never forget you. What we had before he started interfering. I should have known when you were so hesitant to add him in PoGo. And then weeks later "someone" was bothering you on Facebook but you wouldn't tell me who. You said you could handle it on your own telling him to go away. I trusted you and dropped it. I let you handle it because I trusted you and can see your strength, but isolation made both of us weak. Thats where this all stemmed from... You sat and debated so long to add him in PoGo or not and I never understood...

But I understand why now... At least the tip of the iceberg. I saw months of his prying and prying thanks to your foresight of telling me you never had anything to hide from me. Thank you for telling me that. I knew something was wrong. I never meant it as a harmful act or selfish, only to help you. I made it look selfish and said that I did it for myself to try and protect you. I thought it would be easier on you to hate me... But even then

Later the next day you said "I don't hate you" from the bottom of your heart. I know that was you talking to me, not the panic. Not the entranced Crystal that couldn't control leaving. You didn't want to leave, but your body wouldn't let you stop and think. Neither did I.. I was so confused how you'd leave so much behind with places starting to open up, seemingly so easily. But we can't see when we are being manipulated by ourselves. We need others to tell us and try to help, so I did. I gave it all I could.

I was only doing what you always asked of me, that if you needed help I knew how to get in. That was always so important to you... Talk to me when you're ready.

I'd still love to go to this with you. So you can go for yourself. Doesn't and shouldn't be going for me until you're ready again. But, we owe it to ourselves to go and enjoy the things we love again. You wrote that paper on them and broke down their music. Don't forget that and that you love these bands too. We talked so much about their new songs as they were coming out. Do it for yourself. But yes I want to go too. Just not .. alone.

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