#this is just normal boy behavior

[pup-has-rabies]

I’m so fucking horny right now, god please I need hot and weird transgender sex rn or I might actually die

[rainbow-string-tied-me-to-you]

Joel after revealing he built the statues everyone thought were Ethos:

[softd0m-charlie]

if One More Person. reblogs my posts about doms being allowed to be silly by crying and whining that switches aren't included in it. I'm going to fucking delete the post. i do not even care if you're "being silly" or "doing it as a joke" you're derailing what i was trying to talk about. i would rather not have that post on my blog at all than have most of the interactions on it be completely missing my point and whining about how I'm not catering to you, joke or not. suck it up or I'm turning reblogs off.

[basuralindo]

So I was asked to expand on the whole Jamil having a trauma response to Leona comment on my last post, aaand here's that.

(This pertains to chapter 6 btw, so spoiler warning)

(also it's very much sleep deprived rambling so sorry if it's, well, rambly)

First off, I'm operating under the assumption that he has cPTSD. Jamil has clearly been programmed since birth to always obey the Asims and act in their best interests, even at the expense of his own life. This is a boy who has been forced to eat poison to protect them and their assets, who's family was forced to let that happen, and who has been so desperate his entire life to escape that situation that he was willing to resort to murder and doom not just himself but his whole family which he is implied to care about. Which means if simply quitting was an option, he would have done so. So, you kinda have to infer that he and his family don't have a choice in this role, and there are severe enough consequences for disobedience that fucking up or refusing is a worse option than risking a slow painful death every time Kalim wants to eat something. And this is all stuff that's been depicted blatantly in canon, not even touching on the assumptions that could be made from there.

So that's the position Jamil is in. That is a traumatic situation. This is a guy who has been groomed for servitude and obedience since he was old enough to talk. These kinds of circumstances absolutely can lead someone to be triggered into subservience or other trained behaviors. That's just, a thing with trauma.

Now, with the Asims being one of if not THE most powerful merchant families in their country, one of the expectations of Jamil as their servant and especially as the attendant to their heir is to ensure good relationships with other rich and powerful families, especially royalty. This was shown in the fireworks event, where he states that as a prince, if Malleus came to any harm under his watch while a guest of the Asims, it could start an international conflict. These are incredibly high stakes, a misstep on Jamil's part could ruin the Asim family and potentially even endanger his country, and it's pretty strongly implied that he and his family would take the blame and suffer the consequences. Now, much like how wearing a company logo while at work makes your actions representative of your employer, Jamil serving the Asims 24/7 (and especially as the chaperone of their heir) means that he is representing their family At All Times. This is why he is forced to defer to Kalim in all aspects of life even outside of their country, part of his job is to make his employers look good, and there are consequences for not doing so. This means that anyone of high enough status to be significant to the Asims is someone who Jamil is required to be subordinate to.

Then, enter Leona. As a wealthy prince, he would be someone who Jamil is expected maintain good relations with at any cost to himself. With his position Leona could literally destroy Jamil's (and probably his family's) entire life with a single complaint to the Asims about his conduct. Like, he could do that with no actual cause just for fun, because the Asims are 100% going to take the side of a prince over an expendable servant. This means that one misstep or any backtalk from Jamil puts him at massive risk, it is entirely up to Leona whether or not he suffers for any of these actions, and while the audience knows Leona's personal morals would prevent him from actually doing that, Jamil does not.

THEREFORE (sorry this ended up so long), once Jamil was in a life threatening situation with Leona, it seems likely that all this programming and fear would manifest in desperately trying to protect him and follow orders the way he's always done for Kalim. To me, the way he snapped into bodyguard mode, and immediately complied with every one of Leona's bitchy commands (like giving him a hair ornament to throw away without question, and barely saying anything about it after), even while being humiliated and knowing he was less trained in magic, just comes off more like a trigger response than anything. Especially because I can't imagine that situation not being triggering, and I can't imagine him knowing any other way to respond.

[bonefall]

Idk if I’m wrong or not but if I remember correctly doesn’t Clear Sky once slash Quick Water for daring to question him? I very vividly remember her confronting him about something and him getting pissed and slashing her over it.

I remember it being Falling Feather, but can't check the book atm (fighting a sea lion rn, yes i have my harpoon dw)

But yes he does lose his shit on one of the two, it's in The First Battle after Thunder comes back to SkyClan for (iirc) a negotiation purpose. She says goodbye to Thunder too nicely and Clear Sky reprimands her about it.

Afterwards, he jumps in front of the whole Clan and says that everyone is allowed to abuse her however they'd like until she's learned her lesson. He compares her to a snake in the dirt. They're allowed to bully her, steal her prey, and command her however they'd like.

But like, he was just sad about his wives, so it's ok actually.

[saionjeans]

i love how wakaba/saionji is normie4freak except you wouldn't ever expect which is which

[taonpest]

Do you ever think about the fact that Vorador and Raziel were burning with rage the moment Janos died

[sappho333]

i love how charlie walks into tara's party with nick, in nicks hoodie, with a hickey and everyone has the audacity to act surprised when they say they're together

[axolotlclown]

Y'know, I just want to put on the record:

Making jokes about raping your friend's girlfriend is not a thing that men typically do.

[itsrex]

spins him around in my head heeheehoohoo <:3 chews on him bites him shakes him im sorry for the hell pit youve been tossed into but i was given an opportunity to make a character that is sooooo self indulgent

[pup-has-rabies]

Being unbearably horny all the time but having nobody in my immediate vicinity to fuck is the price I must pay for being such a pretty little puppy, which is so fucked up. Me phobic if you will.

[springsteens]

I'm kind of tired of seeing posts about loneliness being caused by sitting alone in your room or not going out on daily walks because I never feel more lonely than in the middle of the crowd, when I am surrounded by all the "normal" people that look at me the weird way, that could have been my friends or lovers if only I was more like them. When I don't see them, I don't even think of such things and they remind me of all these things. When I'm alone I have the best company – me.

[rongzhi]

he's cooperating

[sophiethewitch1]

www reader "of course i follow dick grayson's cereal review Instagram" not-wayne

[zzxya]

shout out to the bkak fam on here and on twitter y'all are the coolest kids on the playground

[cparti-mkiki]

governmental mismanagement & emotional distress