#this mmd changed me...

[killjoy-prince]

A comment on a MMD video inspired me to draw this

[kn96artworks]

jonathan, inochi

[musicrevu]

Be sure to check out the new collab!

[regret0fgod]

It’s been 2 months since I posted that MMD vid with P4 dancing in drag

I’m planning on something… let me cook

Song: Change Me

[boueibu-and-budgies]

I haven't made any art in the last year pretty much but here's a dump of the 3D pictures I made roughly between july of 2023 and may of 2024. I had insecurity of drawing around that time so entering the KH fandom with all the MMD content on deviantart helped me at least have another way to make art and learn bit by bit some things.

These are all on Blender, some actually rendered and a few only screenshotted. Also at different points I started doing stuff like custom lighting and custom textures like the eyes and the emission maps, so some of these are tests. The VanVen one with the KH3 models, I didn't know how to change expressions back then but I do now so it's fine

Credits for each asset will be on my deviantart, I'll be uploading each picture there individually over the next few days

[busytrailblazing]

The Gacha community right now

part 1

As a female gacha fan and an active participant in fandom culture, gacha communities are making me sick right now. This isn't just about "oh this game is better than that game" or "genshin could never" or "wuwa just has girls with big boobs", it's about a polarized community, a split between male and female gacha fans.

Female gacha players had very few options before; for us, it was either playing as girls barely wearing anything or over-designed, poorly funded games that wouldn't last long. Genshin changed that by making attractive male and female characters, having both male and female travelers, interesting backstories, great exploration, and lore crumbs that kept us coming back. Over time, Genshin released less and less male characters, and in all of Natlan, the last actual nation before Szhenaya, we only have one male 5-star, who, by the way, had so little screentime it was silly.

Then wuwa came along and as a 1.0 player i hate where the game has gone, I saw cantarella and i felt so sad, what could have been a complex character will eventually be boiled down to fan service for more money and the company won't stop this pattern anytime soon cuz people will spend a ton of money to pull for her (someone was trying to compare her to Bayonetta but like apples and oranges) and then i took into account the male character drought and realized they were prioritizing their male players first, even the new girl is so poorly designed (in my opinion).

But most of the male fans don't care, they don't care if the characters are becoming caricatures of them selves, if the character has no personality besides a gimmick or even if the story goes no where when it comes to actual character development, why would they care when the main reason some are interested is the flat sex appeal. Examples being a character like Varesa or Citlali. Both had potential but were ruined by fan service. Varesa is a poorly hidden fetish, while Citlali blushes for the traveller over such dumb stuff, you would think it was a fan-made MMD of Ayaka fawning over the traveller.

And what happens when women in the gacha community talk to them abt it? they claim that liking yaoi/bl makes u a gonner and hypocrite, but that wasn't even a part of the convo. The convo is abt the game having more male-adjacent fan service. No one cares if u goon for a character like at all, but liking ship art and yaoi doesn't make you a gooner . they are plunging Gacha back into the male-only/male-centric games. I only ask for at least equality in character release, and that these people realize that simping and shipping are fandom pillars that are usually fanon and not canon. Lastly, I ask the men to understand that just because they are being catered to by these games doesn't mean they should close their eyes to these problems.

if this becomes the new status quo, what we're gonna get is not another Bayonetta but rather another NIKKE (in terms of fan service), we ARE going to lose the plot, we ARE gonna lose old players and lose poteitial players, we ARE gonna have to compete with otome games and dating games for men because at the end of the day, when everything is removed but fanservice it will devolve into nothing but sofcore porn and un reached potential.

Disclaimer: I'm not saying fan service is bad or that having more female characters is bad, I'm saying games advertised as for all audiences shouldn't focus on fan service that would only appeal to male players. Also please consider some of these points as dramatized to put more emphasis on these points the points themselves

[starfirexuchiha]

My Tokyo Ghoul Tumblr Theories/Meta Posts Directory

Tokyo Ghoul was the manga series that changed my fandom life. It changed my way of thinking, helped me write essays better, and greatly improved my reading comprehension. It turned me into a theorist and lore enthusiast. It made me start taking Japanese classes to help translate leaked manga chapters, magazines, and the Tokyo Ghoul Carnaval game (my very first gacha game that introduced me to the gacha genre). It also introduced me to MMD and animation.

It was the very first fandom that I contributed so much and became so invested in. I had so much fun no matter how cringey I was. 🥹

So for nostalgic reasons, I decided to dust off my old archive of Tokyo Ghoul theories and meta posts and list them in this directory so that I can go back to them! 💖

Some of my old theory posts ended up being wrong but I will still list them here because they are interesting to read and can be used as headcanons👀

Links to my Arima Posts

My Theory that Arima is the One-Eyed King

My Theory that Arima is a Quinx

Arima is not 100% human

Links to my Amon Posts

"This World is Wrong"

Amon Foreshadowing

Half-Ghoul Amon will go against the CCG

Floppy Amon and the Yasuhisas

Links to my Rio/Shikorae Posts

Shikorae has all 4 kagune types

Shikorae represents "The Scream"

Rio's Rinkaku mask

TG Carnaval hint that Rio is Shikorae

PUT IT BACKKKKK!!!!

Links to my Hide Posts

I didn't realize how obsessed I was with Hide until I saw how many theory posts I made about him 🤯

Hide the Ace of Spades Analysis - (This is my craziest TG theory to date ♠️)

Why I am positive about my Hide Ace of Spades theory

Finding out who gave Haise that book

Hide and Rize parallels

What Hide said in V14

HIDE IS GOING TO FINALLY APPEAR IN TG:RE?!

Hide is part of V too?

Possibility that Hide knows Furuta

Hide is a Washuu theory

"The witch's servant"

Hide communicating with Arima during V14

Links to my other theories/meta posts

How Kaneki was able to defeat Yamori

Snake textures on chapter 53

Snakes and Centipedes

The Nutcracker Ghoul and the Nutcracker Ballet reference

The Icarus myth reference in TG:Re

Urie & Centipede parallels

Tsukiyama angst from TG Carnaval

Touka Death flag?

Kaneki representing the 5 Stages of Grief

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If I find any more old posts, I will update this 👍

[genshingorlsrevengeance]

Since you can do MMD stuff now I have a request!

The Fontaine gals with an S/O who likes to eat ice cream with them atop somewhere high while watching the sunset! (Inspired by Kingdom Hearts)

(Genshin Impact) Navia, Furina, and Lynette eating ice cream with their S/O

I'd throw my sea salt ice cream at Xion's head.

Navia prefers baked treats over cold ones, but she'll have no complaints about sharing either with her S/O!

And when it comes to their choice of their scenery, Navia absolutely loves it.

Watching the sunset with her lover at her side gets her heart racing.

Though with that being said, she only goes along if that evening is not particularly windy.

The last thing she wants is her hat flying off into the wind at that height.

Mostly because she'll go after it, which S/O would have to grab Navia and make sure she won't fall.

And with how strong she is, she's taking S/O with her.

She also tries to make sure the ice cream doesn't drip down onto her dress, but other than that, sitting next to them is one of her new favorite past times!

===

Navia smiled as she took a bite into the frozen treat, turning to S/O and raising her sunglasses.

S/O blushed at her bright expression, staring more at her than the sunset itself.

(S/O) "Sure thing! I'm sure you can make it taste better too!"

(Navia) "Aw, I can't make it without you, silly! Now, what did you call this again?"

(S/O) "Sea Salt Ice Cream."

(Navia) "Sea Salt, got it! There should be no shortage of that around here, I'm surprised no one's made this sooner!"

(S/O) "A friend of mine taught me the recipe. He liked sitting up here with his friends and eating the same thing."

Navia's sunglasses dropped back down as she moved closer to S/O, taking another bite from her ice cream.

(Navia) "Well...I'm glad you wanted to share this sight with me too!"

Furina is a woman of class, only enjoying the most delectable of desserts adorned with fancy decorations.

And their taste must be nothing short of sublime!

So when it comes to ice cream, admittedly, she finds them lacking, but sweets are sweets!

And the ones S/O had chosen to share with her passed her expectations!...When it comes to the taste, anyway.

But when it came to their choice of location, Furina was more than happy to watch the sunset in silence with S/O.

It was honestly a nice change of pace than the opera houses they'd frequent. This secluded place on the wall overlooking a large part of Fontaine felt like a special place, reserved only for them.

===

Furina examined the treat before her under close scrutiny. Appearance-wise, it was just a block of blue. Boring!

But, S/O had made this specially for her. The taste passed her inspection but it was admittedly bland. She would have to properly inform them how to make amazing treats!

(S/O) "Do you like it?"

(Furina) "The taste is adequate. But would it have killed you to put some flair onto this ice cream?"

(S/O) "Well, my friend never really taught me to do anything special with it."

(Furina) "Your friend?"

(S/O) "Oh, did I not tell you? He's the one who taught me how to make it! We all shared the ones he made at this very spot. Heh, everytime he showed us, he'd ask if we "got it memorized" every single time!"

While Furina was listening, she became enraptured by S/O's face as they recalled their fond memory, smiling as the sun was shining on them.

They had noticed she was staring and tilted their head curiously.

(S/O) "Is something wrong?"

Furina smiled and tasted her ice cream, then leaning the treat towards S/O.

Admittedly, Lynette did not try too many dishes that were either too hot or cold. The only exception for that being tea, and even then she had to wait for it to cool off.

Due to inheriting the cat-like traits, a very sensitive tongue was one of the things she had to learn to live with.

So, ice cream was something she did not have often, although she admittedly did enjoy it, but not to the same degree as other dessert aficionados.

But she won't say no to a free meal, especially one provided by her S/O.

And seeing how happy S/O was to give her the homemade ice cream, she couldn't refuse that smile.

Doubly so when she got to watch the sun set next to them, though feeling the heat directly made her want to take a nap more than anything.

===

Lynette looked at the ice cream in her hands, noticing how basic the shape was.

Shrugging, her tongue poked out from her lips as she gave the ice cream a lick, immediately recoiling.

S/O chuckled at her cute reaction.

(S/O) "I mean, it is ice cream, Lynette. How did it taste?"

Lynette stared blankly at S/O before failing to contain a small smile from growing. She waited for a few moments before taking another lick, noting the taste.

(Lynette) "Salty, but sweet at the same time. Surprisingly not too strong in either direction."

(S/O) "Okay, good! My friend would never let me live it down if I messed up the recipe for my girlfriend."

Now it was Lynettte's turn to quietly chuckle as she looked at the setting sun, feeling the warmth on her skin.

(Lynette) "I don't think Lyney would either. Speaking of which, do you mind making more for him as well?"

(S/O) "Sure. Want me to teach you as well? It's pretty simple."

Lynette paused for a moment, her ears twitching.

(Lynette) "I don't have to use any appliances, do I?"

(S/O) "The stovetop and freezer, mostly."

(Lynette) "I...think I'll watch, so that way I don't break it."

S/O laughed, almost dropping their own ice cream.

(S/O) "Okay. You'll at least eat them when I make them, right?"

Lynette smiled at them before getting back to slowly finishing up the ice cream.

(Lynette) "I won't eat one every day, but I will when you make them."

[flowering-darkness]

Lorenza: "Had I been at Laxan Loft that fateful day, then perhaps.. You whom the Ascians kept in the shadows might yet have had an ally for that last sacrifice. ..Ah, but who are we two of the void to dwell on a hundred years past?"

(comments/reblogs are appreciated but never required. further context is under the readmore!)

A little idea I had earlier and was successfully able to get a friend to queue into E10 with me to access the location for! This is actually technically my first thing made for my selfship with the Shadowkeeper (or to use her truer name Cylva), so it's perhaps a bit too context-heavy of a piece to start things off with, but.. oh well! I hope that it's still alright/people like it, even without everyone being aware of the full background ;w;

(If you are curious what's actually being depicted here: it's just a hypothetical musing about "if Lorenza had been present at the Battle of Laxan Loft a hundred years ago, where Cylva turned into the Shadowkeeper and forced Ardbert and the Warriors of Light to fight her (but they refused to kill her like she asked), then maybe that whole event could have been a bit less emotionally harrowing for Cylva". There was no way Lorenza could have been there, of course - she didn't even know Cylva at that time, as the two only met at the start of Shadowbringers despite both originating from the Thirteenth - but.. it's still something she idly muses after learning about Cylva's past. For more background context, feel free to have a read of this other post!)

When it came to putting this together, I was limited by what remained of the duty timer (since we had to do the whole boss fight against the Shadowkeeper and then I had to wait for everyone else to leave), as well as my own inexperience with manipulating reshade parameters like colour curves and brightness (so I apologise if this is a bit all-the-same-value - I tried to mess with the background vs. foreground a bit, but that was about all I could muster). To put things into perspective, this is how the arena looked before I went in and started the posing process - so as you can see, a lot of processing needed to be done to get the final vibes!

I'm also still not really adept at posing within FFXIV, which is why Lorenza is incorrectly using her right hand to reach out to Cylva; the day I learn how to flip/invert poses derived from paused animations will be a very advantageous one indeed! There's probably a better workflow than the one I currently use, but.. like when I was first starting out with MMD, it takes a while to get properly familiar with the tools involved and how to do what you're aiming for with them. I'd meant to get some alternate/closeup camera angles, but exited out of /gpose instead after taking the initial one, which meant I lost everything I'd loaded in .w.

In any case, though - I like how the final product turned out (even if the composition is almost identical to my January render..), and I hope that some of my thought process in making it could come through! I did finish making this at one minute to midnight on Valentine's Day, but I'm aware it isn't really a very Valentine's Day selfship thing.. so, I suppose it's more fitting that I wasn't able to get around to posting it until after the date had changed here! =P

Thank you kindly for taking the time to read this! I hope it all makes sense ^-^

[elizaditton]

Update: The End

Hello everyone, it's with a heavy heart that I feel I must make this announcement. I have decided that Perthea and its many projects must cease to continue. This includes a great many things, such as a majority of the artwork I create, a majority of the music I create, as well as more specific projects like the Storie series of UTAU voice libraries and my book Too Small To Be Afraid. All of these projects must cease to continue effective immediately.

Lengthy explanation ahead.

I'm sure you're all wondering why I'm suddenly choosing to stop creating something I've been so passionate about for the past 13 or so years. And there lies the problem-- it's been 13 years. I used to be proud of the fact that I've been carrying this project on for such a great length of time, but I now realize this isn't something I should be proud of. Not like other creators can be. Perthea never should have been a "project." It never should have seen the light of day. It began as a coping mechanism and an escape for me, one that tied itself around my throat and began to choke me until it was all I knew how to do. I've lived and breathed Perthea every day since I created Derrick.

I created Derrick during the spring or summer of 2012 with the intent of using the character for what are known as "MMD Dramas," which, without going into too much detail, are animations using the program MikuMikuDance that usually involve Vocaloids such as Hatsune Miku among others. Derrick was originally a re-color of the model for the Vocaloid KAITO that came with MikuMikuDance. Derrick's original purpose was to be a character that could act as Miku's creator/inventor in the story I wanted to tell. Derrick's original name was Riku (no last name). For about 8 months to a year, though, I didn't use this name (probably because he's white), and he had no name. I came up with the name Derrick Drake around March of 2013. (I came up with a middle name for him, Allen, around 2018 or 2019.)

I wrote a short script of something I wanted to animate (basically Miku being created, aaaaaaand that's it!), and then decided it sucked and proceeded to give up. Except, I didn't exactly give up on the idea. I remembered when I was younger, I used to make up stories in my head. Usually to help me go to sleep. So, I decided to take all the ideas I had and use them for stories in my head. I changed Miku to my own self-insert character, Kaylin... who, at the time, was named Keitorin, which is the Japanese phonetic spelling of my real name, Caitlyn. Except it was pronounced in the most American way possible for some reason. (I was 11 years old and a full-blown weeaboo. And yes I still cringe at this.) Making up stories in my head proceeded to take over my entire life. I began to daydream maladaptively, and used my daydreams as an escape from the real world. A world where I was a sheltered homeschooled kid with crippling social anxiety and no friends (not that I was even allowed to have any).

Over time, I only daydreamed more and more. I would stay in bed as late as 5 or 6 in the afternoon just to make up stories in my head. My parents had to beg, and I mean beg for me to get out of bed. I used to have to pretend I was doing some activity like playing on my 3DS so that nobody would think I was asleep. I couldn't tell anyone about my daydreams. I knew they'd tell me to stop.

Over time, I fell in love with Derrick. I don't mean this figuratively. I mean I was head over heels in love with a guy I made up for some stupid animation project I never finished. He became my world and my everything. My safe place. The only person I felt cared about me for a long, long time. I imagined having conversations with him, I imagined the two of us going on random misadventures... and over time, I started to ignore the fact that he wasn't real. From 2013 to 2016, I believed he was real and was going to find me in the real world and basically save me from the life I hated so much.

On May 18th, 2016, I requested prayer from my small group at church for my daydreaming. Derrick's absence was hurting me far more than I could bear. This ended up leading to a private conversation with my small group leaders, where they told me there was no way Derrick was real. I was crushed. On top of this, they wanted to bring my parents into this and suggested I see a therapist.

My parents may never understand Derrick. My therapists may never understand Derrick. But the knowledge that I'm never going to really know him or ever see him or be with him has destroyed me in a way I'm not sure I can be healed from. Imagine your soul mate suddenly ceasing to exist, and nobody understanding your grief because they don't believe the person ever existed. That may not have been exactly what happened, but it's the torment I've experienced for the past several years.

That's when I began working on projects. I began working on projects to "save" Derrick. So people could know him and so I could have some tangible part of him to hold onto. But in my grief, all I did was begin digging the grave. I never buried the body, and now I'm stuck in a deep, deep hole. I wanted Perthea to be perfect, because Derrick means so much to me. I wanted to give him something to show my love, even if he doesn't exist. But Perthea has been choking me for so long. I don't really have any interests outside of it since it consumed all I do. My art, my music, my writing... everything. It's nearly all I think about. It's nearly all I do and live for. And I want it to stop. I want to be done. And I know that if I don't post this now, I'm going to let it continue to choke me until the day I die. It's going to continue to ruin me and destroy my relationships.

The thing with Perthea is that it's never going to be finished. If I let it continue, it will always be a part of my life. Even if I did finish the book (which I've been struggling to do for years now, and it's taken a huge mental toll on me), Perthea would manifest itself in some other way and continue to control everything I do.

That's why this is the end. I have to make the choice to stop, to turn over a new leaf, to start anew from the beginning. I need to figure out how to live my life without Derrick in it or I'm never going to be happy.

I don't know what Derrick would have wanted for me, but I think he wouldn't have wanted me to suffer for his sake as much as I have. I think he would have wanted me to figure out how to continue living. To figure out how to be happy somehow.

To my readers and followers, to those who have supported me, and to those who have reached the end of this document, I want to take a moment to thank you all for your continued support. Seeing how you all have enjoyed Perthea means a lot to me. Seeing you care for my characters and how you want to see them succeed has meant so much to me. I must now ask for your forgiveness for my decision to not continue Perthea.

I plan on leaving all my content online as is, for everyone to read, listen, see, and enjoy. I ask that no one try to continue these projects in any way, shape, or form. I will try to quickly tie up the loose ends of TSTBA in a summarized sort of way, since I know it must suck to be left hanging. Other than that, Perthea is over, and I'm leaving everything as it stands.

Thank you again for reading and for supporting me. I'm here if anyone has any questions or concerns.

[moyodescry]

➤ Carrd

➤ Bluesky

➤ Tags directory

➤ Public gamerip resources

DO NOT REPOST, REPRODUCE, USE, AND TRAIN AI MY WORKS!!!

i'm also MonoCereal on dA (i will change my handle there eventually TRUST)

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MMD commissions now open! slots available for:

Individual asset - 0/2

VRoid2MMD model - 1/1

will open more if taken slots are finished early

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figured i might as well make this a mini introductory post

hello i am Moyo and i make models for this very ancient software called MikuMikuDance (abbreviated as MMD).

my main focus rn is making VRoid2MMD models.

(specifically just using VRoid bases, i make every mesh from scratch.)

i also make full original models and low poly models sometimes but only if i feel like doing them.

i'm not an animator unfortunately, so in order for me to test my models, i use ready-made motion data either made by other users, or ported from games.

(THIS IS DIFFERENT FROM USING GEN AI OK IT'S NOT THE SAME!!!!)

softwares i use for making my models:

VRoid Studio (for the bases)

VRoid2PMX (for exporting VRoid bases to PMX format)

Metasequoia4 (for main modelling)

SAI2 (for texturing)

Blender 3.6 (for weight painting)

PMX Editor v.0254f -Eng ver- (for physics rigging and optimisation for MMD use)

my models ARE NOT FOR PUBLIC DISTRIBUTION unless stated otherwise!!!

[glitch--gamer]

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

I wanted to use the Santa Hank model I made last year, and I found a sexy male Santa outfit that I wanted to try with Gavin (I think it looks funny to be honest).

I revamped my Christmas themed Connor model, and I wanted to add holiday accents to Nines' outfit (since I figure he wouldn't be super enthusiastic, but I wanted to give him a slight outfit change nevertheless even if it is just adding green and red accents).

Credits

Original Hank, Connor and RK900 models by Enpitsu

Hank Outfit Credits:

Outfit by Bluehole Studio and UnluckyCandyFox

Hat Ripped by Poyo, and Converted and edited for MMD by Shiro-NekoVocaloid

Mittens by Metra-Philia

Stage by Stage by Shiruhane and chrrox (I edited the textures and composition)

Gavin Reed model by me

Gavin Reed Outfit by Jalmod

[kodokberjamur]

Funny story, actually—this was back when I was in middle school. Back then, I used to think yaoi = shounen ai, and I used to proudly proclaim to everybody that I love yaoi... One day, YAOI APPEARED ON TV... The presenter was saying something about yaoi being popular, and I was saying to my mother that I love yaoi... and then the presenter proceeded to continue with something along the lines of "yaoi is a manga genre that focuses on two men doing the deed," and I immediately wanted to die.

kodok this was THE funniest thing ive seen coming outta u 😭 nnever change kodok.. never change..

PLEASE STOP AAAAAAAAAUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHH AKFJSKFJSKFJSKFJAKD L-LOOK. I DID NOT KNOW. I SWEAR TO THE SEVEN THAT I DID NOT KNOW ANYTHING... I GENUINELY THOUGHT YAOI WAS SHOUNEN AI. SERIOUSLY.

I WAS MERELY A CASUAL VOCALOID MULTI SHIPPER. I SAW SOMEONE SAY "AKAITO AND KAITO YAOI" IN A CERTAIN MMD VIDEO'S COMMENT SECTION (if you know, you know...) AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS WHAT IT MEANT. I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE LOOKED IT UP PROPERLY, BUT WHEN YOU'RE THAT AGE, YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING AND ARE ABOVE LOOKING UP SOMETHING THAT, APPARENTLY FOR ME, WAS SO SIMPLE.

...and you can tell that I did not change... I always yell about my interests to the whole world. I wish I could stop doing that, but I just cannot handle a single day without yapping about my interests....

[yupuffin]

YouTube suggested an MMD of Dan Heng dancing to Penta's choreography of Gimme×Gimme and the incongruity is SENDING ME

(To avoid clickbait, I usually ignore YouTube's suggested videos unless they are directly related to dance, and MMDs count)

But that aside I am a fan of this particular choreography and how it works with the sounds and textures, and I do wish MMD translated the textures just a little bit better because it would be sooo sexy 😛 (dance brain speaking)

One thing this MMD does utilize that I am a big fan of conceptually is. hmmm... how to describe

Like the idea of Dan Heng not transforming per se, but just changing his appearance,,,, almost like a projection of sorts? Like if he reveals his true form it's not because there's a physical change occurring but it's him changing how he presents to everyone else. hhh I don't know if that makes any sense

Like it's mostly inspired by how I understand gods and supernatural creatures to appear in Japanese culture and folklore (which I know is not the same as Chinese culture/folklore but my studies are in Japanese, so that's what I'm using for the sake of comparison) where they like. transcend the physical plane and can be chosen not to be seen or whatever but that doesn't necessarily mean they're physically disappearing. Like it's particularly inspired by this one scene in the second season of A Lull in the Sea where Akari (I think? It's been a few years since I've seen it) goes back down into the sea to meet Lord Uroko, and when the camera cuts to different frames of him it spontaneously shows him standing or sitting in completely different locations, so it looks like he's teleporting, but in actuality it's more like. he's everywhere and nowhere at once, so there's not any physical relocation going on, it's more a matter of how and where he chooses to appear, and that choice being made in the moment when Akari/the audience change where they are looking

...I have no idea how well I explained that but that's my thought 🤣

And by "I'm a fan of this concept" I don't think it necessarily fits into canon, more like I just think it's enjoyable to consider from this perspective

So to bring that back to Dan Heng I think it'd be more like... Dan Heng as an entity is the essence of himself, and his "form" is not necessarily what he physically is but more how he chooses to present in any given moment from any given perspective, so his humanoid form and his draconic form are not like two separate versions of himself but rather two potential instances of how he can appear in any singular scenario

So like I have this vision of Dan Heng being in a body of water, and any part of him that appears above the water's surface will bear his humanoid appearance, and likewise anything below the water will bear his draconic appearance, but not because that's physically what he is, more like the specific perspective and circumstances of perceiving him will change how he is perceived. So the precise distinction between humanoid and draconic would change based not only on his position at any point in time but also based on the viewer's position at the same point in time

...wow this post got too long and rambly 🤣 and it's on-topic enough now that I might as well tag it now. Even though I have no idea if any of this is even coherent KGDKHD

[winsdayink]

Realizin I never shared my avatar of my sona Alastor so Im takin the chance now that I've recently updated it to fix some things (mainly I wasn't happy w the legs) I need to find a good song to record to show off the MMD seein my lil guy move makes me unreasonably happy

This is the og design from 2022 and like the next year I changed the legs but never updated the ref dfghjk The human forms the same tho

[strawberry-metal]

Tbh I think at this point I just gotta admit I don't have the same work ethic like I once did. Even if I'm doing better mentally, I just can't work up motivation to create anything art wise. Actually honestly, with my ear condition, it's pretty much changed life entirely for me and it's a struggle to get through almost every single day. I just do not have the energy to create things like I did when I first made this blog, when I'm already struggling to just make it through each day. Life has been hell this past year. It's hard enough to mask all day long or try not to get a break down from noise that doesn't bother anyone else, or that they frankly can't even hear because to them, the noise is not that loud, but it's extremely so for me. I'm constantly exhausted, and would much rather spend time just chilling or distracting myself in some way from it all like playing a game or just sleeping through the majority of the day. I hate it though, because I miss creating. I can't even draw or make something in MMD anymore because any small amount of stress has now become too much for me to handle.

Please take good care of your ears. Trust me. You do NOT want to live like this.

So no more deadlines or estimates when something will be done. Things will just... be done when they get done. Probably in extremely slow fashion. I'm very sorry.