#this was such a nice message thank u again (^^)

[athenagranted]

idk if you're still writing the post-cemetry scene fic with pining eddie (idk if i'm describing it right) but i would love to hear more about it/see a snippet or too if you feel so inclined 👀

someone asking about angsty pining fic in the month of our lord april 2024? this was such a lovely surprise 😭 i'm gonna be honest with u anon i'm likely not going to publish 911 fic again BUT because you asked so nicely i'll give you a few older snippets from my draft:

Eddie sighs, breaking the stare. “You have a key, you know,” he says finally. “Feel free to come join me whenever you want.” He turns on his heel and walks back inside to finish his goddamn brownies, leaving Buck standing in the doorway.  It’s silent for a few minutes. He’s in the middle of measuring a tablespoon of espresso powder when Buck steps into the kitchen and shuts the door behind him. Eddie feels the weight of Buck’s gaze on him as he folds the powder into his brownie mixture, but he doesn’t turn to meet his eye until Buck speaks.  “Is that…” Buck falters. He clears his throat. “Is that my recipe?”  “Yeah,” Eddie says gruffly. “Chris asked me to make it. Said he wanted to share it with his friends when they come over tomorrow for their playdate.”  Buck snorts. “Man, you can’t call it that. Chris nearly bit my head off last time I tried. Kept reminding me that ‘playdates are for kids, Buck,’ and that he’s not a kid anymore.”  Buck emphasizes that last bit with air quotes, and Eddie can’t help but grin at that. But his smile fades instantly, remembering the somber look on Buck’s face when he’d opened the door. He highly doubts that Buck came over just to commiserate about the trials and tribulations of watching Christopher grow up.  Eddie bites the bullet. “Why are you here, Buck?”  Buck shifts nervously. He shrugs and looks away from Eddie. “I — I don’t know what to say. I don’t know how to answer that. You’ve never asked me that before.”  Eddie scrubs at his face. “I've never had to ask you that, Buck. Things are different now. You’ve been busy.” 

+

“Wow,” Buck says acidly, all traces of heartbreak gone. “I’ve never heard that one before.”  Eddie frowns. “What?”  “Really, Eddie?” Buck’s voice cracks on the last syllable. He shakes his head. “Unbelievable. Just — unbelievable.” “Buck — what are you talking about?”  “We were just trying to protect you, Evan," Buck mocks. "You were never supposed to find out. We kept it from you because we love you. Any of that sound familiar to you?” Eddie’s breath hitches on the word love, because he doesn’t know, he can’t know, but then —  Oh.  Fuck.

+

Buck: We’ll get through this just like everything else. I promise. It’ll be okay.  Buck: Eddie, did you eat enough today? Should I come by and bring you some food? Buck: You know you’re still my best friend, right? That’s never going to change, Eddie. Never.  He reacts with a thumbs up or a tap-back heart on most of the messages, too exhausted to do anything else. He replies with a thumbs down to the message about food, certain that he wouldn’t be able to handle seeing Buck so soon. He knows he’ll have to face him in person eventually, but his tired, broken heart just wants to postpone it as much as he can.  The last one, though, is a balm that both soothes and agitates Eddie’s burning, aching heart, and he taps out a brief, Thank you, you too. Always, in response. It feels like too much and not enough all at once, and Eddie wishes once again that he was a little better at resisting Buck, that he didn’t feel that need to reply to his every message lest Buck worry even more about him. The only one he actually acknowledges is a message that comes in at 2:43 AM on Sunday. As he opens the message, Eddie absentmindedly wonders if Buck’s having a hard time falling asleep for the same reason as him. Probably.  It’s a link to a new exhibit at the Griffith Observatory, accompanied by a text that reads: Can I take Christopher here next weekend? Eddie squeezes back tears as he replies with a brief, Of course, and puts his phone down, letting the darkness swallow him again. 

+

Hen beats him to it. “What happened, Buck? I thought you really liked her. Weren’t you planning to introduce her to Maddie and Chimney next week?”  “Not anymore,” Buck mutters. “I broke up with her.”  “What?” Eddie snaps head snaps up. “Why?”  Buck doesn’t meet his gaze, his lip quivering. The rest of their team is watching them, eyes darting back and forth, and Buck blinks hesitantly before swallowing down a sip of coffee. He wipes the cream off of his upper lip and looks Eddie in the eye.  “You know why,” Buck whispers. 

[abd-illustrates]

YOU!! I DONT KNOW IF PEOPLE SEND ASKS ABOUT HEARTLESS ANYMORE BUT I RECENTLY RESURFACED BACK TO IT AND I JUST *EXPLOSION SOUNDS* /pos

BRO I cannot express to you how much I think about Doppel and Glass and their character concepts and their dynamic and just generally the story. Man, I don't know what it is about those two, but like...AJHSJHD!!

I really like thinking about angst and ways that you can make both of them complex and stuff, you know, separating from just "haha silly comic relief guys!" I like thinking about them and how their not the same, and how they're both technically separate beings kinda? And how they're different and stuff and AA-

ALSO I love they're character design man? Like, it looks...crunchy. that's probably a bad way to put it, but they feel like those sensory videos where people take wax and slime and crush it all up and its really satisfying and crunchy.

AUGH they're all so awesome and I love love LOVE thinking about Heartless as a story and how it would play out and stuff. Keep up the good work and stuff, sorry for word bombing you I just suddenly got a lot of feelings and had to get it out somewhere

sgssgfjsgh thank u so much for taking the time to send this ask dude!

Seeing any love for the Heartless gang always sparks more joy than I can convey, no matter when -- but ur timing is uncanny haha, these two have been on my mind a lot lately too! (Especially since the new Madds Buckley song dropped 'cause it's just sO--- 👀😩🤌)

I'm not very articulate rn but pls take this doodle as a big thank u for the encouragement and for sharing ur thoughts about 'em! 🪞💜

[missingn000]

[enden-k]

According to the leaks Kaveh and Alhaitham will appear in Cyno's story quest.

Kaveh has 71 lines and Alhaitham has 49.

people already told me abt 4ggravate appearance enough, its no news but thanks anyway.

[stoned-eren]

um… hello.

[wulfhalls]

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[sixofclovers]

i loved the half a witch's duel animation snippet you posted here, when I found out the full animatic was on youtube i sprinted over to check it out and..... Ahhhhhh it's so good! 🌱🤯The way you animate willow's powers is so creative, especially the forest -- even in the show she mostly does vines so to bring out rhe trees was really cool. I liked how even hunter's bravado faded into sheer awe for a moment there.

I love the raw strength vs speed/evasion and training dynamic in the fight, and how Hunter looked more confident and playful while Willow is a little more nervous and defensive as a less experienced fighter... and the high five at the end! So cute I am LiVING!

Also, the choice of music was perfect for the mood of the animation. Basically 14/10 work and i will definitely be rewatching the animatic and keeping an eye on your blog from now on!!! 🤩💚

This is so sweeeeet thank u for your detailed thoughts, it's lovely to hear what you like about it :D hope the final one measures up!!

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

[superangsty]

i just stayed up way too late getting caught up on dead on arrival in the wake of. recent events and i love this little universe you've created very much. "what if friends was good?" i've often wondered and you answered

aaaaaa tysm!!! I have this curse of every time I watch a sitcom I think 'I Could Fix This' but friends specifically haunts me mostly bc I just HATE ross but also so many of the recurring side characters got done SO dirty and also because, obviously, most of the main characters deserve to be gay and actually ESPECIALLY Rachel like I really think lesbianism would've fixed her she'd have had her whole life Sorted by season 2 or 3

[woozi]

thank u for giving this lil blog lots of love even though i'm not as active as i used to be 🥰

[cult-of-dollbabies]

cult!!! hello!!!

I hope you've been well, I just wanted to pop in and see how you were doing! I feel so bad for not interacting with you for so long. Apologies for the absence :'(

Hey what's the happenin❗️ You don't gotta apologize I'm not one to talk much myself not even to friends asgdhsjsk I've grown accustomed to my own company ig.

Nice of you to drop by, though! I'm doing alright, some days better than others as life goes always, my only hopes that you're doing just as well! ♡

[djsadbean]

Are you ever gonna continue your The Return Of Miss Power AU? Btw your art and writing are amazing!! I can't believe there is another person who's in the Wordgirl Fandom :)))

Yessir!!!!! 💛💛💛

(/neg for this paragraph) I’ve been going thru a bunch of stuff behind the scenes that I try not to talk about bc I know my page is an escape from bad stuff for a lot of people. One fraction of it is that the ao3 curse is real and im glad I did all that research for chapter 5 xD but there’s a lot of other stuff too…

I’ll get back to it soon :D I have like 60% of the next chapter written! I’ll post when there’s an update ready.

Waahhhhhh thank u sm!!! 💛💛💛 that means a lot /gen /pos Hell yeah worg fandom!!!!! The kindest fandom ever!! 🥺💕💕

[crescentfool]

Hi! I recently came across some chulip x persona fanart and I loved it so much I was reading the tags to see if more people liked chulip and when I came across yours it made me happy to see someone else that has seen the chulip lp from stephenplays since I don't know many people who watch him, but I just wanted to let you know that your tags are the best thing of that fanart! Made me happy to see someone appreciate the game also the implication in this crossover that you have to kiss everyone to finally kiss Akechi is hilarious to me lol. I hope you are having a good day whenever you read this and remember to drink lots of water!

WAAH thank you so much for taking the time to stop by the askbox- i'm really delighted to see a fellow chulip liker and someone else who watches stephenplays! (context for anyone who's reading, this is the fan art nadja is referring to! please look at it, it's genuinely so good.)

i absolutely adore crossovers and like... chulip is such a fever dream of a game. shuake in chulip where you have to kiss everyone to kiss akechi is just Phenomenal™ and it's great to see someone else who gets the implications as well 😎

anyways thank you once again for the message! i hope that you also stay hydrated and i wish you a very good day! ✨

[tomwaterbabies]

I'd just like to say your art is amazing. Especially your Varigo pieces. I'm not even a big fan of Varigo and yet your pieces just absolutely captivate me. The colors, expression, and poses are all so perfect! It's just *mwah!* Perfection! I'd give anything to do art the way you do! It's so disney-ish! Honestly, if I ever got around to making a Vat7k TV show, I'd hire you in an instant.

WAUGhh thanks so much!! this really means a lot!! putting my Professional Animation Training™ to good use (drawing gay people and stuff for a show that isnt real)

[mushtoons]

i been looking @ your art lately, I'm so in love with it fr..

DHDHJDJD AHHHH THANK U THATS SO SWEET !!!! we are very honored u like it 💖💖

[nulltune]

❝ —just a moment longer. there! perfect. alright, miss hakuno, you're all set to go ... just be careful not to burn your hand again, alright? ❞ With a smile to him, Rutile presses a kiss against her now bandaged hand.

i wanted hakuno 2 get a kees, thank u naiad 4 my life !! @coeguale ♡

remaining perfectly still,  only her bandaged hand moves  ——  it curls and uncurls as if to test out the post - treatment performance  /  in a manner that is nigh robotic.  the natural bodily response of a twitch from a still sensitive spot is ignored,  good as new,  she affirms to herself,  and her head nods once to convey a satisfaction. the action is then repeated once more;  to the wizard now,  and with a lower dip.      ❛   thank you,  and ...  i apologise.   ❜       the latter part of her words is spoken with a kind of soft kind of guilt,  like she'd wronged him in a way. like she'd done something wrong, which ... she did.    

❛   i will be more careful next time.   ❜      i won't be any more trouble for you,  that is the sentiment underlining it all.  it brings a shine to hazel hues,  doe bright wide and resolute.  to hammer in that fact,  she thinks to give him a thumbs up  ( the perfect gesture for this situation,  shethinks ! )  but before she could do so, completely freezing her in place is his own gesture  —  a soft kiss to her hand. an action so unexpected, her stern expression gently slacked in the most subtle way.  she is not of the age to be comforted with sweet comforts and bye - bye - ouchies,  but something about the act is so endearing——

she could only stare at him in response.  like a damn fool ... !  her mouth opens, closes, and opens again.      ❛   a ... ah.   yes,  alright.  yes. i got—  chu.   ❜