#tobjzl x reader

[w2soneshots]

Tobi smau as a dad plzz. but like more than one child.

Dilf -Tobjizzle

warnings: mentions of pregnancy.

summary: the internet talks about you and Tobi being parents to two little kids, then you announce some exciting news.

notes: hi ml! I took me ages to find these pics so they’re not the best😅. I hope you enjoy!!🤍🫶🏼

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y/username: my babies

Tagged: @tobjizzle

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tobjizzle: ❤️❤️

faithloisak: cutest little family🥺

y/nfanpage21: omfg I can't! The jelly cats😭

user10385391: when is mr tobjizzle gonna put a ring on that finger???

-> user35198560: there's a rumour that he already has, but they're just keeping a secret

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y/username: double surprise💍👶🏽🤍

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behzingagram: he's done it!!!!

-> user927501469: is he talking about the engagement or y/n?😅

zerkaa: congratulations again guys🥳

manny: ❤️❤️❤️❤️

taliamar: crying😭🥺

y/nfanpage21: WE CALLED IT

user91038632: omg I'm so happy for them

[marauder-exe]

why,, do i kinda wanna write for the UK youtuber scene,,, watching too much will and jim is rotting my brain 🫣 send requests!

[sour--disposition]

Be Alright

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tobi brown x fem!reader

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Requested: Bella... I’m sending in my second request of today. Can I please get one based off of the song Be Alright but the reader is the one that’s cheated? Either Harry, Vik or Tobi thank you x

please see my pinned post for masterlists and prompt/request info

Your eyes darted away from Tobi’s the minute he looked up to you. You knew that as soon as you saw the pain that was inevitably going to be written all over his face, you’d cave. Your heart would shatter and you’d leave every bit of yourself on the laminate flooring of your kitchen before watching Tobi retreat, never to be seen again.

Tobi’s hand was warm against the sheet of ice that seemed to coat the skin of your fingers. “Please, Y/N”, he said quietly, voice pleading and begging with every inch of it’s tone. “I can see that something’s up. Just… Just tell me and we can figure it out”, Tobi reasoned.

“I made a mistake”, you said, voice wobbling despite all the effort that you were going to to try and keep your words strong. “I - The other night…”, you trailed off, letting your head drop and hang as you tried to find the words.

“What? Smoking? You think I’m gonna get all annoyed over you having a cig?”, Tobi asked incredulously, thinking back to how paranoid you were about hiding the packet and the lighter that had been left on the coffee table of your terrace just a few days ago.

“Ethan left them here”, you whispered, eyes flitting back up to Tobi’s face to catch a quick glance of his reaction.

He looked confused. “Why would you…”, Tobi trailed off, eyes searching your face for answers that your words were failing to provide. The guilty look that had settled over your features seemed to tell enough of a story. You could see the moment that Tobi had read between the lines, connected the dots.

You watched as his face lost all of it’s pressure, muscles going slack in hurt and disbelief. “How could you?”, Tobi spat, voice more vindictive than you’d ever heard it in all of your months together.

“We were drunk. It was an accident. I regretted it as soon as I woke up”, you rushed out, tears blurring over your vision. “I didn’t know how to tell you”, you admitted quietly.

Tobi turned to leave, hand snatching away from yours leaving a cold absence. “Tobi”, you begged, following him down the hallway and towards your front door.

“No. We’re done. Stay away from me”.

-

Two days later, Tobi found himself huddled up on Josh’s sofa, a few beers deep. Tobi was staring at a picture of the two of you on his phone from a few weeks back. Someone had taken the photo whilst you’d been in the middle of laughing with each other, pure happiness written across the both of your faces.

His thumb hovered over your contact photo. “Don’t, Tobi”, Josh said heavily, coming and sitting himself down next to his friend. “It’s not worth it. Especially not now. Maybe you just need to let her go”, he sighed.

Josh watched as Tobi took a deep swig of the beer in his hand before going to the chain of messages between the two of you and swiping to delete them. He did the same through every app you’d ever communicated on, unfollowing your account and deleting any message thread. Any photos that you were in were deleted from the depths of Tobi’s phone, your contact name changed to simply your first and last name…

Any trace of what you and Tobi had was seemingly deleted from his phone. A weight settled in his chest once he set his phone back on the arm of the chair. “I miss her. I shouldn’t, but I do”, he said quietly, eyes focused on the ceiling.

“I know you love her, but it’s over, mate”, Josh said gently, voice apologetic and sympathetic as he cracked open another beer to hand to his best friend.

“I feel like I left half my soul in her kitchen”, Tobi said, voice devoid of emotion.

Josh looked to Tobi, from the vacant look in his eye to the slumped posture he rarely saw Tobi sporting. It was clear to Josh that you’d done quite the number on Tobi and, no matter how much you regretted what had happened, there was nothing you could ever do to fix the damage that your actions had caused.

He sighed, turned to Tobi to try and offer whatever he could to ease the pain that his best friend was in, even if it was only temporarily. But Josh knew that there was little he could do to help, all he could do was be there for Tobi, talk when he wanted and provide the beer when he didn’t.

“It’ll be alright, Tobi”.

[w2soneshots]

Can you do a Tobi smau? x

Wifed up -Tobjizzle

warnings: none.

summary: the internet talk about your long term relationship with Tobi.

notes: hi babe! I haven’t done anything for Tobi in so long, so I hope you enjoy this social media au!!💓🫶🏼

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y/username: hi

Tagged: @tobjizzle @ksi

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taliamar: your so hot

-> y/username: so r u

tobjizzle: sheeeesssshhhh

y/nfanpage21: the third pic💗

user61230937: I want to be her

y/username just posted a new story!

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y/username: oh didn't see you there😉

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faithloisak: weird way to propose but yes😘

-> y/username: glad you got the hint xx

tobjizzle: hot stuff🔥

y/nfanpage21: she's so gorgeous

user19460375: I just know Tobi was behind the camera hyping her up lol

[w2soneshots]

20vs1 -W2S

words: 1.3k

warnings: none.

summary: you are asked to be on the sidemen’s 20vs1.

Liked by sidemen and 901,452 others

y/username: guess what I'm filming today🤫

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y/nfanpage21: ooo I'm excited to find out❤️

user30781614: SIDEMEN LIKED OMFG🤭

-> user91368481: y/n x sidemen ahh!!!

A month ago... "Rach!" I shouted through my apartment. "Ye?" my roommate Rachel shouted before appearing in my doorway. "Do you know who the sidemen are?" I asked her. "Yes, they're massive on YouTube, why?" She replied plonking herself next to me on the bed. "They just asked me to be in one of their videos." She shot upright "what! Did you say yes?" She asked excitedly. "Umm, I haven't replied yet, are they weirdo's?" I asked since she knew of them. She laughed aloud "no I don't think so." she said with a giggle. "It says they want me to film a "twenty versus one", what's that?" I said flipping my phone around to show her the email. "That's a series, they do, let me just show you." she grabbed the control and flipped on my tv.

That night I went through a rabbit hole, researching these people. I wanted to make sure they weren't creeps before agreeing to be in a their video. They had a pretty massive following and there videos were entertaining. I eventually decided it'd be fun so agreed to be in the video. When I told Rach she was ridiculously excited.

Today is the day of the shoot. All I'd been given was a location and a time, so I got up early to get ready. I took a shower, dried and straightened my hair, did my makeup (adding extra powder so I wouldn't shine in the studio lights) then got dressed into a black, tight play suit, an oversized denim jacket and some black four inch heeled boots. Once I was finished I sprayed myself with my favourite perfume, grabbed my bag and left my apartment.

After a 30 minute drive my uber finally pulled up outside the filming location which just looked like a large building. I thanked him and slid out of the car. Just as I was walking towards the front entrance I was greeted by a woman who said her name was Tanya and that she was the head of production. "She seems nice" I thought as she led me inside. She brought me to a green room with multiple other women, and a table with drinks and food. I sat down on one of the chairs. "wait, are you y/n y/l/n?!" One of the girls asked me. I nodded "yep, that's me." I replied with a light smile. "Omg I love your vlogs!" She announced excitedly. "Thank you!" I said appreciatively.

Almost 20 minutes later all twenty of us were taken through into a small hallway, and formed into a queue. I was sixth and when it was my turn I walked out and stood on the marked spot on the white floor. "Hi, how are you?" I asked who I learned from my stalking was Harry. "Not great to be honest." he replied, clearly not enjoying this shoot. I laughed slightly "just breathe." I said breathing deeply in and out. He copied my actions and did the same. He smiled "yes." he said, flicking his hand towards the door then I heard a cheer from another room. "Thank you." I said politely and walked off the set.

Ten minutes later everyone was sent back into the room and we all stood in an oval shape facing the camera. Then Harry walked in and greeted us "hello everyone, I said yes to way too many people so if you don't like me please- leave." he chuckled then turned around to face the camera. Five people left leaving nine of us. Harry opened his eyes and turned back around "I'll take that, I'll take that, I'll take that, I'll take that," he repeated quickly "thank you very much. alright, I'll see you shortly, I guess." Then he left and all of us were taken back to the green room.

I sat there for well over two hours waiting, since I was the last one. Once it was finally my turn, I was taken back to the studio, by Tanya. "You'll do great!" she said with a light pat on my back just before I entered the room. I was reattached to a mic and then told to sit down on the comfy looking chair. Harry entered a few minutes later and I stood up to greet him with a hug. "Hello again, sorry you've been waiting so long." he said politely, before sitting down. I smiled "no problem." He took a breath in "so what's your name?" "y/n." I replied. "And what do you do?" He asked. "For fuck sake I hate this question" I thought. "I do YouTube." I replied. His eyes lit up slightly "oh, what kind of videos do you make?" He asked, sitting forward in his chair. "Vlogs, beauty stuff, outfits, that kind of thing." I said counting them on my fingers. "Oh cool." he said with a nod of his head.

The date lasted just under 15 minutes. From the video Rach showed me it seemed that these weren't just normal dates but it felt completely normal to me... actually in the other video there was one date where the man was just told to be himself, so maybe that was what was happening. We talked about what both of our favourite movies were, we found out we both lived in London and when I asked if he was into football he explained that that was what his YouTube channel was based off, along with an online game to do with football.

Once the date finished, we hugged goodbye and he left. Then I was asked two questions by the main camera man: what I thought about him and if I would go on another date. "I thought he was a really sweet and seemed interested in our convo. I will definitely go on another date with him." and as I said those words, I heard in eruption of cheers in another room, which Tanya had now explained was the other members of the sidemen watching the dates. I laughed slightly then stood up. I quickly had my mic taken off, then went to collect my things from the green room. As I was grabbing my things Tanya popped back into the room to ask me something, "the boys were just wondering if you could come and see them so they could thank you for coming." she asked. I smiled "of course."

She took me through a corridor, and then down a smaller hallway and into a room. There was a group of boys stood up in front of around six TVs that I assumed they had been watching the dates on. "Hey, nice to meet you, thanks for coming!" who I knew to be JJ said putting his hand out for a handshake. I shook his hand and said "thank you for having me." They all introduced themselves to me and we stood talking for a few minutes. Just before I left I heard my name "y/n!" I turned around to see Harry stood in front of me "I was just wondering... if it was okay with you, I could get your number?" he asked. I smiled "sure." He passed me his phone I typed my phone number in. "there." I said, passing his phone back to him. "thank you." he said with a sheepish smile. I waved the other boys goodbye before I left the building.

The next day, I got a text from Harry asking if he could take me out on a "second" date, and obviously I said yes.

[w2soneshots]

Oh shit -W2S

words: 0.8k+

warnings: secret relationship.

summary: you and Harry get caught while trying to hide your relationship.

I've been with Harry for just over 2 months now, but no one knows. When I say no one I mean no one, not any of the boys, not Faith (my best friend and also the person who introduced me to Harry), even our families don't know. When we decided to get together we knew it was slightly risky, we didn't want to divide the group if it didn't work out. It's a complete secret, we've been sneaking around during parties and night outs, lying about where we were when we were actually staying at each other's apartment and there's also been times where we've almost been caught, snogging or being a little to touchy.

Today Faith asked me to come along with her and Olive to one of the sidemen shoots, so that she had someone to talk to and help her with Olive while they filmed. I've never been to one of their shoots before, Harry always told me he'd bring me along when everyone knew. We weren't planning on keeping our secret for so long but we just couldn't figure out how to tell everyone, it's also quite fun sneaking around, it kinda makes you feel like a teenager again.

I got dressed into some jeans, a white t-shirt, dark blue hoodie and my converse. I left my hair how it was and applied a little bit of makeup. Once I was finished I left. Once I arrived outside of the studio that they are filming in today, I looked down at my phone and saw a message from Harry: "I'm the only one here, come inside!!" I looked up to see him standing just outside of the building. I smiled and quickly got out of the car.

"Hi." I said with a smile as I walked up to him. His lips spread into a small smile "Hey, how are you?" He asked. "I talked to you this morning." I said with a slight chuckle, referring to our phone conversation earlier while I did my makeup. He pulled me into him and pecked my lips. "Harry!" I said sternly then pulled away "someone might see us!" I said looking around the car park. When I made sure the coast was clear I looked back at him, he had a huge smirk on his face. I shook my head and playfully slapped his chest.

Josh turned up soon after followed by everyone else, Ethan, Faith and Olive being last to arrive due to a toddler meltdown. I sat next to Faith while Olive sat asleep on my lap "you have the magic touch." she said looking down at her daughter. I laughed slightly "she's so cute!" I said quietly. "She's all cute when she's asleep but as soon as she wakes up she turns into a little gremlin." she stated. I laughed "I know, I've seen it first hand." I said referring to the time I looked after her for an afternoon so Ethan and Faith could film a video, and she was a little menace, but she's to adorable to get annoyed at.

The boys finished filming almost an hour and a half later. I quickly popped to the toilets before everyone left. But before I could get there I felt two hands on my waist, pulling me back slightly. I turned quickly, knowing exactly whose big hands those were. Without a word he smashed our lips together. "gosh so confident today." I said as we caught our breath's quickly. He smirked "wanna come mine later?" He asked. I smiled "you know it." and smashed our lips back together. When I heard a gasp. "Oh shit" I thought. I quickly separated myself from Harry and looked down the hallway to see JJ standing there with a shocked look on his face. My eyes widened, as did Harry's when he realised the situation.

I looked to Harry "it's time to tell them." I said softly. He nodded and we looked back to JJ. "Are you too?" He said pointing at each of us quickly. We both nodded and he gasped once again "omg!" He said running towards us and pulling us into a joint hug. The three of us walked back into the green room. "We have something we wanna tell you." Harry started. Everyone looked up confused as we sat down. JJ looked as if he was about to burst with excitement. "Me and Harry have been... seeing each other for a while now." I said. Each one of their eyes widened. "No, fucking way!" Ethan shouted, jumping from his seat. "How long?" Faith asked. "Two months." Harry replied. "Two months?!" Tobi exclaimed. I nodded "sorry, we couldn't find the right time to tell you." I shrugged. They all quickly began celebrating.

"Wait why are you telling us now?" Simon asked after everyone calmed down. "I caught them snogging in the hallway!" JJ said with a chuckle. The entire room erupted into laughter and I shared a slightly embarrassed look with Harry. I actually feel relief knowing everyone now knows, it was fun for a while but I feel like we can properly start our relationship now.

[w2soneshots]

Oblivious -W2S

words: 1.5k

warnings: light smut, alcohol consumption.

summary: you realise that you and Harry aren’t ‘just friends’

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y/username: 🫶

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wrotoshaw: wow

faithlouisak: unbelievable❤️🔥

taliamar: 🥵🥵🥵

y/nfanpage21: the most beautiful woman ever

user29368103: HARRYS COMMENT!!??

Today I'm having a party to celebrate my new apartment and the entire group: Josh and Freya, Simon and Talia, Ethan and Faith, Vik, JJ, Tobi and Harry are all coming. I've already brought a load of alcohol, plastic cups and a speaker (since I accidentally left my last one at my old place). I met everyone through Talia, we've been best friends since high school so when she met Simon I began being invited to parties and eventually just became apart of the group. When Faith met Ethan around two years ago she immediately fit right in and we quickly became great friends, I was there for her during her entire pregnancy with Olive (who is staying at Faith's mum's house tonight so the couple can have fun) and always offer to look after the toddler whenever needs be.

The party begins at 7:00 o'clock so I began getting ready at around 5. I straightened my hair, applied some makeup and got dressed into a nude, lacy body suit along with some low waisted blue jeans and some matching nude heels. I then took some pics for insta and by the time I was finished it was 6:45. I dimmed the lights slightly, turned on the speaker and began playing the loud music from my phone. A few minutes later there was a knock on my door. I quickly traveled towards it and swung it open to reveal Simon, Talia and JJ. With a big smile I led them into the room "come on in!" "First here ya know!" JJ said loudly. "Ye because you came with us you're usually late." Simon stated with a chuckle. "Oi low it fam!" JJ retaliated.

Freya and Josh arrived soon after then Tobi, Ethan and Faith, Vik and finally Harry. Once everyone was here the fun really began. With the music blasting, drinks in everyone's hands (except Tobi's) all four of us girls stood in a circle dancing drunkenly. I glanced over to the boys who were all sat on and around my couch, I caught Harry's eyes. I smiled sweetly at him and he returned it.

A few minutes later I decided to go to the bathroom. Once I was in there I quickly fixed up my makeup and washed some of the sticky alcohol off my arm from where Talia had accidentally spilled her drink. As I opened the door to leave, while trying to manoeuvre one of my heels so it wasn't digging into my foot, I banged directly into Harry. "Shit, sorry!" he blurted out. I laughed "it's fine, I should have been watching when I was going!" As I looked up at him properly I noticed that he was looking at me slightly differently. I smiled "What?" I asked with furrowed brows. "Oh, nothing." he said and moved around me to enter the bathroom. "Strange?" I thought, but I just shrugged my shoulders and walked back into the living room/kitchen.

After a few hours once almost everyone was pissed we decided it'd be fun to play truth or dare. We all sat around the on the couch, floor or extra chairs brought from the kitchen area into the circle we'd created. When everyone was sat we began. "Me first!" JJ shouted throwing his hand into the air. "Go on then." Josh said. "Ok... Simon truth or dare?" JJ shouted once again. Simon rolled his eyes "for fuck sake, truth." JJ giggled mischievously "have you ever done anal?" Talia grimaced "yes." Simon said glancing over to Talia who now sat with her head in her hands, embarrassed.

The game continued and the questions and dares just got worse... "Vik, truth or dare?" Ethan asked. "Dare." Vik replied. "Umm... I dare you to do a shot of... sambuca and tomato sauce." Ethan said confidently. We all turned to stare at him "uh, what?" I said and we all burst out laughing, our drunkenness making it hilarious. "I wasn't expecting tomato sauce!" Josh said through laughter. Vik did the shot and it looked absolutely disgusting.

Once it finally became my turn Faith asked "y/n, truth or dare?". I sighed "truth." She thought for a moment "ok, have you ever had a sex dream about anyone here?" My eyes widened, I wasn't expecting Faith to ask a question like that. I looked around the room. I'm sure no one will remember this tomorrow anyway... "yes I have." I blushed and grabbed a pillow to cover my face. I heard a few gasps "no fucking way... who?" Freya questioned. "Wasn't part of the question." I mumbled into the pillow. When everyone calmed down I removed my face from the pillow and quickly moved on to someone else, "Tal your turn."

After Talia it came back to JJ "wait Harry hasn't been!" he stated. "Bog truth or dare?" Ethan asked. "Truth." he said simply. "Have you ever thought about any one here as more than a friend?" Ethan said jokingly gesturing to himself. "Yes." he said. Everyone quickly looked at him and he looked shocked at himself. "Who?" Ethan questioned even though there was realistically only person it could be... me, assuming he's not gay or has a crush on one of his friends birds, but surely not right? I mean I guess he's been a little more complementary lately and there's been a few weird looks, I've caught him staring a few times, he's been commenting on my posts, his breath hitched strangely once when I lent over him to grab my phone... oh. my. fuck.

"Who?" I said seriously, standing up. He just stared. The room fell silent and my heart sunk. I left the room and entered my bedroom. I feel really weird right now, how could I be so oblivious. I was sat on my bed with my head in my hands when there was a knock on the door, "y/n, It's us can we come in?" I heard Faith say from the other side of the door. I sighed slightly in relief "come in!" I said. The door creaked open and Talia, Freya and Faith walked into the room. Freya and Faith sat ether side of me on the bed and Tal squatted in front of me. "Surely you knew?" Talia said. "No, now I think about it I don't know how I didn't notice." I said. "Do you like him?" Faith asked putting emphasis on the "you" and "him". I inhaled "I dunno... maybe?" All three girls jumped slightly "you do!" Freya shouted. I shushed her "they'll hear you!" I said.

After a few minutes once I'd calmed down I said "I should really speak to him." They all nodded "do you want me to go get him?" Tal asked. I nodded, now nervous. They left and a few minutes later Harry stood at my door "come in." I said looking up at him from the bed. He shut the door behind him and sat next to me. "Im sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I was gonna talk to you I just couldn't find the right time-" he started. "You don't need to apologise." I said looking up to him through my eyelashes. Our eyes looked, something washed over me (probably drunk confidence) and I leaned forward connecting our lips. He froze slightly at first but quickly melted into it. My hands roamed through his hair as his stayed firmly at my waist. I removed one of my hands from his hair and placed it onto his hand, I moved his hand so it rested on my ass.

He pulled me forward slightly so I swung my leg over him so I sat on his lap. He groaned quietly when I sat. With both his hands now firmly on my ass I pulled away "Wait." He furrowed his brows "did I do something wrong?" I laughed slightly "no, just give me two seconds." I said and jumped off of him. I opened my bedroom door and walked into the living room. Everyone looked to me, I smiled lightly then leaned down so my mouth was close to Talia's ear. "Harry's gonna stay so can you get everyone to leave?" I whispered so only she could hear. She widened her eyes at me then nodded. I smiled then ran back towards the bedroom.

The smile stayed on my face as I sat back on Harry's lap "there gone." I said with my hands around his neck. He smirked then stood from the bed with me in his arms. He lay on the bed with me under him. "Just for the record, that sex dream was about you." I whispered and his eyes closed as he let out a deep sort of growl.

[w2soneshots]

Trust -W2S

words: 0.9k+

warnings: angst, jealousy, argument.

summary: you and Simon have known each other all your lives but everything changes when he meets a certain girl.

notes: I absolutely love Talia! This does in no way represent her irl🤍

I've known Simon my entire life. I met him during my first year in preschool, and we immediately became inseparable. We also share a birthday (7th of September). Since I moved to London with Simon I naturally became great friends with the boys, along with Freya and Faith. Our relationship has always been completely platonic, he's like a brother to me and I wouldn't dream of ever going near him in that way. Each girlfriend he's had has always seemed liked me, I presume it's because I make sure that they know I'm a girls girl and always make an effort to become their friend too.

Until he met Talia. She has made it very clear that she doesn't trust me, which completely confused me since I've been nothing but nice to her. It's been 3 months since Simon met her and I've barely seen him. He avoids me at parties, every night out and rarely replies to any of my messages.

One night during a party at JJ's apartment... as I walked towards the counter containing all the alcohol I realised Simon was leaning there with his back against the marble and arms crossed. I took a deep breath and quickly lent over him to grab one of the red cups. "What are you doing?!" My brows furrowed as I quickly turned around. Talia stood in front of me with an angry look on her face. "Getting a drink?" I replied. "Didn't look like it." She retaliated angrily. I turned my head to Simon. He stood sheepishly looking at the ground. I huffed "you know what, I'm so fucking tired of your shit. Both of you!" I shouted. Everyone quickly gathered around the kitchen area. "I've known him my whole fucking life!" I spat in Talia's face. When nether of them said a word I shook my head in disbelief, grabbed my things and left, with a quick "sorry" to JJ on my way out.

That night I got a text from Harry checking if I was alright and after that we became close, sitting in the corner and chatting amongst ourselves at parties and nights out (that he'd made sure I was invited to), going round to each other's houses to watch a movie (even though he hates them) and eat takeout, texting constantly, etc.

One night while we were sat on my sofa, my feet perched comfortably on his lap, he told me he liked me. Surprisingly it wasn't at all awkward and I quickly told him I felt the same. When we told everyone they seemed very happy for us. I didn't personally tell Simon but I believe JJ informed him about it, which felt weird because we always told each other everything.

Soon after Harry asked me to be his girlfriend while we were on a date in a cute restaurant, obviously I said yes. It continued on like that for another few weeks. I seriously missed Simon, I mean we've known each other forever. We did everything together and I'm so incredibly appreciative of Harry but I just feel like something's missing. So for the first time in months I decided to text him.

y/n:

Hey, how are you?

Simon:

I'm good

You?

y/n:

Fine

I miss you

Simon:

I miss you too

How are you and Harry?

y/n:

Really good

I'm glad he's been here for me when you weren't

Simon:

I'm sorry.

Are you free tomorrow?

y/n:

Why?

Simon:

Talia wants to apologise

And so do I

That message shocked me. I told him I was free so I'm going round to his apartment tomorrow at 1.

The next day... I woke up relatively early, got dressed into some comfy clothes, did my skincare, hair, then had some breakfast. Once I was finished it was almost 1 so I grabbed my phone and left.

When I arrived outside the apartment building I let myself in using the code that I've had memorised for years, said a quick "hello" to the receptionist then made my way up through the lift. I knocked on Simon's door. And played with my hands while I waited. The door clicked, I took a deep breath. He stood with a comforting smile on his face. "Come in." He said, stepping aside. I nervously walked into the apartment, then he led me towards the living room, where Talia sat on the sofa. Both me and Simon sat down. It was silent for a moment before Talia spoke "I'm ready sorry y/n," she began "I should've trusted you. I- I was just a little intimidated by how good you and Simon's friendship was and I was worried he'd chose you over me." I smiled lightly. "I understand." Her head shot up. "You do?" She questioned. I nodded "I'd feel the same way, but if you'd just gotten to know me you'd have realised that I seriously wouldn't go near him with a six foot pole." "Oi!" Simon shouted, offended. Talia laughed.

After almost an hour sat in the apartment it became considerably less awkward, and I realised that Talia was actually a really nice girl. Simon also apologised for pushing me away and since life's too short to hold grudges I easily forgave them both.

[w2soneshots]

Attention -Tobjizzle

words: 0.5k+

warnings: angst.

summary: Tobi has been really busy lately so decides to make it up to you.

I lay on the bed waiting for Tobi to get home, he's been really busy lately and I feel like Ive barely seen him. Before he got home I ended up drifting off. I woke up almost an hour later and he still wasn't home "how long are you gonna be? x" I asked him over text. "another hour, Im really sorry babe" he replied after a few minutes. I sighed and went back to sleep.

Tobi pov:

I got home around 1:30am and immediately went to see y/n. When I got to our room I cracked open the door to see her laying fast asleep on the bed. I sighed. I haven't been around much lately and I feel awful. Ive been so busy with Sidemen shoots, bright side and streaming but she hasn't complained once. I slowly crept into the room and stripped my clothes off so I was just in my boxers, then slid into the bed and went to sleep.

y/n pov:

The next morning I woke up and reached my hand over only to feel a cold empty bed. I sighed and got up but when I walked into the kitchen I saw Tobi stood plating up breakfast. "Whats this for?" I said with a smile sitting on one of the stools. He placed a plate In front of me, grabbed his own and sat down. "I know I’ve been busy lately and I haven't been showing you much attention so I made this to thank you for being so patient with me." he said as we began eating. "thank you, and I know you can't help how busy you are." I said before taking another bite of my food.

Tobi cleared his whole schedule so we could spend the whole day together without any interruptions. "get ready we're going out for dinner." he said getting up. "dinner?" I said also standing. "yup, we leave in an hour." he said. I quickly got up and ready, doing my makeup, my hair and picking a nice outfit that Ive been saving for a special occasion.

Once I was done I picked a bag and walked into the living room. "I'm ready!" I said to Tobi who sat on the couch with his back to me. He quickly stood up and turned around "wow, you look beautiful." he said with a smile on his face. "thank you, you look handsome," I said with a smile "now let's go."

When we got to the restaurant a waitress took us to the table Tobi had booked. "this place is beautiful." I said as we sat down. Once we ordered and ate our food Tobi asked me to come outside with him onto the small private balcony that was attached to the restaurant. "I love you so much." he said once we were outside. I smiled "I love you too." "y/n, we've known each other for almost 10 years and been together for 6 of those years, and since the moment I met you I knew you were the one," he said while staring into my eyes. "so," he said getting down on one knee. I gasped and put a hand to my mouth. "will you marry me y/n?" I smiled and nodded. "of course I will!" I said. He stood up and wrapped me in a passionate hug.

[w2soneshots]

I hate you? -Miniminter

words: 1.4k

warnings: light smut, angst, friends with benefits, enemies to lovers.

summary: you and Simon realise the real reason you hate each other so much.

I met Freya during high school, we immediately hit it off and have been best friends ever since. When she met Josh during college, we got to know each other, since me and Freya were roommates, so whenever he came round we would usually end up chatting the next morning while Freya got ready. After college, when Josh started the sidemen I ended up helping Freya with sidemen clothing. I became good friends with all of the boys, except Simon, for some reason we just never got along, always bickering. And around ten years later we still hate each other. I've tried in the past to be his friend but it always ends with an argument.

Today is my party for my 29th birthday and I'm hosting it at my house. Here's the guest list: Freya, Josh, Faith, Ethan, Vik, Tobi, JJ, Harry, Freezy and Simon. I didn't really want to invite Simon, but I don't think it would be fair to invite the entire group and leave him out, so he's coming. I decorated my open plan living room and kitchen with balloons (to take pictures), lights, set up the speakers and set out a bunch of alcohol along with cups. Once I was done I got ready, taking a shower, drying, and straightening my hair, putting on a bunch of make up and getting dressed into a long sleeve, black top, a light, blue, short denim skirt, tights and long, black boots. As I was adding my finishing touches, my doorbell rang.

I quickly put my lipgloss down and shuffled towards the door. I opened it to see Freezy and Harry. "Hey! Come in." I exclaimed stepping aside. Tobi was the next to arrive followed by, Josh and Freya, Vik, Ethan and Faith and finally JJ and Simon. I tried to just avoid Simon as much as I could, practically ignoring him. As the party went on, everyone began to get progressively more drunk (except Tobi). I quickly popped upstairs to go to the toilet when I banged straight into Simon. "What the fuck!" I shouted, stumbling into the wall "you fucking idiot." I said drunkenly. "you should've been watching where you were going." Simon retaliated. "No you should've!" I said moving past him and into the bathroom.

Once I finished using the toilet and touching up my makeup, I went back down stairs. The party continued until 2am when everyone began leaving. Simon accidentally fell asleep on my sofa so once everyone was gone I harshly shook him awake. He shot up "what the fuck?" he said groggily looking at me. "You fell asleep, everyone is already gone." I said. "Oh sorry." he said getting up. My eyes widened "wow, never heard that before." I said sarcastically. He rolled his eyes "you know I don't really hate you, you just annoy me to fuck." he said. "I highly doubt that." I said, scoffing.

"Why don't I prove it to you?" he said standing up. "What?" I furrowed my brows. He walked around the couch then slowly got closer and closer to me until I could feel his breath on my face, staring down at me. "What- what are you doing." I stuttered quietly. "I'm proving to you that I don't hate you." he said then leaned in and connected our lips. I froze "what the hell is happening?" I thought but suddenly began kissing him back. All of the built up anger and resentment was finally being realised. His hands traveled down to my ass, squeezing lightly. As my hands traveled to intertwine with his short hair.

Suddenly he broke the kiss and lifted me up, firemen style. He ran up the stairs and I squirmed and cursed in his arms. "Put me down!" I shouted. "As you wish." he said once we were in my bedroom, throwing me onto the bed. As I held myself up by my elbows Simon undressed in front of me. My eyes widened as his massive hard cock hit his stomach when he released it from his boxers. He moved towards me and pulled my boots off, then my skirt and tights in one fail swoop. "No underwear, you dirty girl." he practically growled. Then he pulled me forward and placed my legs over his shoulders.

The next morning... I woke up with a banging headache. I threw a hand to my head and groaned. Once I was properly aware of my surroundings I looked to my left. I gasped "no, fuck, fuck, fuck!" I whispered. Simon Minter the man I've hated profusely since I can remember was lying asleep next to me in just his boxers. I looked down at myself "shit I'm fully naked!" My brain shouted. I frantically jumped out of my bed and pulled on some clothes. When I was dressed I walked round to the side of the bed Simon lay asleep on. I shook him "Simon!" I shouted, making my head ache. He slowly opened his eyes and they widened as soon as he saw me, "What the-". "Yea, that's what I said." I joked sarcastically. "Did we?" he said flicking his finger from me to him. "I think so, I was um- naked when I woke up." I answered. "Shit." he cursed.

After that night I assumed it would never happen again but when we were, once again drunk we did it in the bathroom of a club. Then It became a regular occurrence, don't get me wrong I still didn't like him but I was horny and so was he so... this went on for just over three months, he'd come to my house, I'd go to his. We told nobody, non of the boys knew and I'd been keeping it from Freya, which was difficult because we talk every single day.

One day I went round to Simon's house like normal, I knocked on the door and we immediately got down to business. We were in the middle of having sex on his couch when I heard the front door click open. I pushed Simon of me, grabbed the blanket that was folded on the head of the sofa and covered my bottom half (since we hadn't taken our tops off). Simon was confused "What are you-" Then there was a gasp, Freezy stood at the front door, eyes wide and the bag he had in his hand was now on the floor. "Shit!" Simon exclaimed and also jumped under the blanket. "You- you too were- oh my god!" Freezy stuttered.

I quickly pulled my sweat pants on under the blanket and stood up "wait, Freezy you can't tell anyone." I said trying my hardest to keep calm. He was still in complete shock "how long have you too been- wait I thought you hated each other-" words and questions stumbled out of his mouth. "Three months." Simon said as he walked up next to me, now fully clothed. "I only came round to drop off these footballs and I find this." Freezy said and I couldn't help but giggle.

After a long talk with Cal we agreed that he would keep the secret. Once he left I looked to Simon, since my birthday we haven't really been arguing and recently instead of leaving immediately after we fucked he's been cleaning me and wherever we did it up, he also stayed the night a few times and we've sat and watched a few movies together. Another thing is that when we started this we made a rule of no kissing so I was purely sex but a few weeks ago we broke that rule and didn't regret it.

"I don't know if I trust him to not tell anyone." I said. "Would it really be that bad if he did?" Simon said. My brows furrowed "what do you mean?" He took a deep breath "I know we've... disliked each other since we met but I think it was just because there was something else there we were trying to distract from." I raised my eyebrow and shuffled closer to him. He stared into my eyes "I love you y/n." I smiled "I love you too."

After we finally admitted to ourselves that the reason we've despised each other, all these years, wasn't because we were bad people, but was because we had fallen for each other and were trying to deny it, was when everything finally fell into place.

[w2soneshots]

Changed -W2S

words: 1.8k

warnings: mentions of controlling and abusive relationship, friends with benefits.

summary: you organise a fwb relationship to get over your ex’s but it turns into something that you didn’t expect.

Me and Simon have been best friends since we were teenagers. Well we've actually known each other since I can remember. Our parents met during college, and became friends so when we were born we were naturally introduced to each other. I'm a year younger than Simon and we would always fight and argue, we practically hated each other, I'm not actually sure why, we just did. But once we hit high school we realised the other wasn't actually that bad, and gradually became friends.

He was there for me through everything as I was for him. Once he moved away to London to start the "sidemen" we grew apart slightly but then my online career blew up so I also left my family home and moved to London. That was when my ex came into play. When I met him he was the dream boyfriend, he was so kind, but slowly he started to change, so slowly in fact I didn't even realise until it was too late. He would take away my phone so that I couldn't text any "other men" that he thought I was cheating on him with because he was so ridiculously insecure. He cut me off from society and there was a few times he would physically hit me, if I did something he didn't like or just if he had a bad day and needed to blow off some steam.

He also wouldn't let me see Simon, which broke him, he would turn up to my apartment and try to talk to me but I always told him everything was fine. I don't know how I was so stupid, the first time he hit me was when I realised what a monster he was but somehow I still loved him. He broke up with me suddenly and I was left heartbroken. That night I turned up outside Simons apartment that he shared with JJ. When he opened the door and saw the state of me he immediately brought me into a gentle hug. He rocked and shushed me as cried into his chest. I didn't tell anyone about what I went through, except Simon and he promised to tell no one. After that I became good friends with the rest of the group.

Almost 3 months after my ex left me, Harry's ex left him. In an attempt to get over our previous relationships we hooked up. It went on like that for almost 3 months and I felt as if me and Harry were becoming more than just friends with benefits, we would hang out just us two just because we enjoyed each other's company not for sex he'd also spend the night when I was upset and vice versa but suddenly his ex came back into the picture and Harry completely cut everything off with me. I was again left broken and I was seriously struggling, then one day I was picking up some lunch when I bumped into the man I never thought I'd ever see again... Collin (my ex). We began chatting and it seemed as if he'd changed, we exchanged numbers and from there he convinced me we should give it another go and so we did. Simon warned me multiple times but I just told him that Collin had changed.

Today I'm going to a party at Simon and JJ's apartment. I told Collin about it and he seemed apprehensive but I told him that It'd be fine. I got ready into an outfit that Collin deemed appropriate: some low waisted jeans, a gray jumper and my uggs, thankfully it's a casual party. I did my makeup and hair then Collin insisted he'd drop me off. I text Simon that I was outside. I was about to get out of the car when Collin spoke "you not gonna kiss me goodbye?" I turned and put on a smile then quickly pecked him on the lips. "Bye." I said and got out of the car.

Once I was upstairs and outside the apartment, I knocked on the door. JJ opened it a few seconds later. "Hey! come in." he said enthusiastically. Me and JJ walked into the living room, and Simon quickly stood up, then pulled me into a hug "how are you?" he asked. I smiled "I'm alright." I said, but I'm not sure if he believed me. When I sat down, I didn't even look in Harry's direction.

At least an hour into the party, I got a text from Collin: "I'm coming to pick you up now" I furrowed my brows and quickly sent a message back: "what do you mean I only just got here?" "I don't care, I'm coming." he replied. I sighed "I have to go." I said standing up. "What, you only just got here?" Harry said now also standing. I shrugged my shoulders and made my way to the door. "y/n!" Simon said loudly, "Don't." I shook my head at him "I'm leaving." Harry quickly walked towards me and grabbed my arm. I flinched and he quickly let go. "Fucking leave me alone." I said so only he could hear. "y/n please. I still care about you." he said quietly. I looked up at him with tears in my eyes "no you don't! you're the reason I got back with him!" I shouted. Then I quickly made my way out of the apartment, leaving them all in shock.

Harry's pov:

I turned to Simon "what does she mean?" I asked. he froze "I-". I stepped towards him "Simon, what does she mean?!" I asked again sternly. He took a deep breath "Collin he's- he hurts her." My eyes widen, suddenly panicking. I quickly made a run for the front door. I raced down the hallway and was quickly followed by Simon, JJ, Ethan and Talia. My hands were pulled into a fist as the lift slowly went down. As soon as it opened, I booked it out of the building. I looked around and quickly spotted y/n. She stood next to a car and who I assumed was Colin was repeatedly punching her in the stomach. My heart stopped and i froze. Everyone quickly caught up to me. It was all a blur, Simon went running towards y/n as did, JJ and Ethan. I just stood there useless.

"get the fuck off her!" Simon shouted. JJ hit Collin the face with such force he went flying into the side of the car. Simon helped y/n up, Talia called 999 all while JJ and Ethan held Collin down. Suddenly my brain snapped back into action and I flung myself forward, repeatedly punching Collin hard in the face. "Harry stop!" Ethan shouted until Simon pulled me away. I struggled trying to get out of his grasp but eventually calmed. Talia took y/n back up into the apartment as us five waited for the police to arrive. Once they did Collin was taken away in a police car and they told us they'd be back in the morning to take police reports of what happened.

Me, Simon, JJ and Ethan all made our way back up to the apartment soon after. When I walked in I immediately went over to y/n. Talia sat next to her gently stroking her back. "are you okay?" I asked her softly. She nodded, but didn't say anything, her face stained with tears. "Why the fuck didn't you tell me?!" I asked sternly yet quietly (so y/n couldn't hear us). "It wasn't my place to, I promised her I wouldn't tell anyone, she was... embarrassed." Simon said. I sighed "It's my fault." I looked down at my feet.

After that I decided to call Lacy (my girlfriend) so stepped into the hall. "hey!" she said cheerily down the phone. "I- um- I- I can't do this anymore." I said quietly without greeting her. "What- what do you mean you can't do this?" she said, voice suddenly sharp and angry. "I know you slept with someone else." I said. "What, no I didn't?!" She shouted. "Don't fucking like to me Lacy!" I also raised my voice. She frantically took in a breath "Ok, but I'm really sorry it was an accident!" I shook my head, even though she couldn't see me. "We're done, Goodbye."

I walked back into the living room. "You alright?" Ethan asked. "I just broke up with my girlfriend." I said as I sat down. "What?" He said, shocked. "I found out she cheated then left me to be with him but when he left her she came back running back." I said. "Fuck, I'm sorry bog." I shook my head "don't be... I don't love her anyway, I just thought I did." I said with a content sigh.

That night y/n stayed at Simon's apartment and the next day she made a police report. A week went by and things were starting to get back to normal and had calmed down so I decided to finally text y/n...

y/n's pov:

It's been a week since Collin was arrested and all of my friends found out about what he was doing to me. I thought he changed, I hoped he'd changed but he hadn't and he never will. I had just gotten out of the shower when I got a text from Harry: "hey, how are you?" I smiled at the message. "I'm ok, you?" I replied. "I'm good, I was just wondering if you were free today??". I nodded at my phone subconsciously "yes I am". He replied quick "do you want to come round to mine and talk?". I took a deep breath. "Ok I’ll be there in an hour"

I quickly got myself dressed into a grey sweat set, dried my hair and put on a little bit makeup. Just as I was leaving I shoved my uggs on the made my way through my front door. I arrived outside of Harry's apartment building 10 minutes later. I took a deep breath as I knocked on his door, trying to calm myself down since I was very nervous. He opened the door a few seconds later and a warm, comforting smile spread across his face "come in." We sat on his couch and I began the conversation "it wasn't your fault Harry." I looked up at him "I was just angry at Collin." Something twitched in his face when I mentioned his name. He nodded slowly "I'm just sorry you had to go through that." I fiddled with my fingers "that night you- Behz told me that you broke up with your girlfriend." I said without looking at him. "I did," he took a deep breath "I just realised I love someone else." I look up and into his eyes. He leaned forward so our lips were just millimetres apart "you, I love you y/n." he whispered. A small smile spread across my face "I love you too."

[w2soneshots]

Festival -Tobjizzle

words: 0.4k+

warnings: alcohol consumption.

summary: you attend a festival and meet a cute boy.

Today is the last day of the festival. I got dressed and left the hotel I'm staying in. Then I met up with my friend Jess. "no, you know I don't drink." I said to her as we walked, I had a bad experience once plus I'm a pretty confident person so don't really need it to have fun. "fine." she said with an attitude. I rolled my eyes.

Once we got to the festival, Jess got a drink and I got a coke. Then we started talking to a group of guys "hi, I'm Tobi." I smiled. "y/n."

After that we ended up spending most of the day together, talking, laughing plus most of our friends were pissed (especially Jess) so it was nice to have someone to talk to who wasn't drunk. "So what do you do?" Tobi asked. "model." I replied. "Im not surprised." he said looking me up and down. I giggled and asked "what about you, what do you do?" He went on to explain that he was a YouTuber was in a group called the "sidemen" which I found interesting.

"So can I get your number?" He asked as we were all leaving. We also found out that we both live in London. I held out my hand for his phone and typed it in. "there." I said as I handed it back to him. "I'll call you." he said before we all said goodbye. I took Jess back to her hotel room and left a bin next to her bed for tomorrow morning. When I got back to my hotel room I got undressed, took a quick shower and fell straight asleep.

The next morning I woke up, got ready and went down to Jess's hotel room. I knocked on the door and she opened it a few minutes later, looking awful. "You okay?" I asked already knowing the answer. "no, no I'm not." she said quietly. I eventually got her ready and out of the hotel. We got in the uber I booked yesterday to take us home. Jess threw up a few times on the side of the road but we eventually got home.

When I dropped Jess home and got back to my apartment I got a text: "Hey it's Tobi" "Heyy" I replied. "free tomorrow?" He asked. I replied quickly "yup" "dinner?" He asked. "what time?" I asked. "I'll pick you up at 7?" "see you then"

[sour--disposition]

Damage Control

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harry lewis x fem!reader

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This is Part 2 to Bad Girlfriend, which you can find here

You looked down to your phone, rolling your eyes at the name and photo popping up on the screen. “Hello”, you sighed, answering the call and sitting back down on the sofa.

“Y/N…”, Ethan trailed off. “We really need to talk to you. Harry’s really not doing well and we don’t know what else we can do to try and help him”, he told you.

You let your head fall back against the back of the sofa, letting out a deep breath. “I know you hate me and the rest of the boys and Harry, but he needs you”, Ethan begged.

“Where are you?”, you asked heavily.

“We’re all at Harry’s”, Ethan told you. “Thank you”.

Within half an hour, you’d managed to navigate the London traffic that separated both yours and Harry’s apartments. You were still pulling the hoodie over your head when you walked into the lift and hit the button for Harry’s floor. Ethan was waiting for you outside of the front door, arms crossed over his chest as he paced around a small section of the corridor.

“Hey”, he sighed, a small ounce of relief seeming to wash over him.

“Where is he?”, you asked instead of a greeting. Ethan nodded, and motioned for you to follow him into the apartment. As you expected, he led you down to Harry’s room. You passed the living room, where a multitude of shoes and coats had been discarded, and straight into the bedroom where the rest of the Sidemen and Cal congregated.

You got a few looks from some of the boys as you walked through the group and made a beeline for Harry’s bed. “Hey”, you whispered, perching yourself on the side of his bed.

Harry looked up at you, tears immediately filling his eyes. He pulled the duvet up and around his face more, trying to hide his blotchy skin and the dried tear tracks that you’d already noticed. “What’s this about?”, you asked him quietly.

“He won’t speak to us”, Josh said, voice laced with frustration and worry. You nodded at him before turning back to face Harry.

“I can’t help if you don’t speak to me”, you told him. 

As much as Harry had hurt you, nothing hurt more than walking away from his front door after returning the cardboard box with his stuff in it. Seeing him like this, as a shell of the person you thought you were going to spend forever with, was crushing.

You rested your palm on the side of Harry’s face, feeling the rough facial hair that had been building up on his cheeks since you’d last left his apartment. “Harry”, you whispered. You left your spot on the side of the bed in favour of kneeling on the floor so you could come face to face with him, chin propped on his mattress. You let a hand rest on his hair, scratching his scalp gently. “Please”.

“I’m so sorry”, he choked suddenly. “I’m so sorry”, he repeated, just as brokenly.

Fresh tears were running down Harry’s cheeks, dampening the pillowcase under his face. “Is that what’s caused this?”, you asked him gently, swooping your thumb down to wipe away a few of his tears. Harry’s nod was barely noticeable. “Will you talk to me about it?”, you asked, voice still just as soft.

Harry’s eyes met yours before darting around the room. You could see when he’d made his decision, recoiling back in on himself. “Tell you what, I’ll bring you a brew and give you a bit and then see how you’re doing”, you suggested, standing up from your spot and turning around to make your way out of the room.

You turned back to the boys, silently urging them out of the room before pulling Harry’s bedroom door shut and walking towards the kitchen to make him the promised cup of tea.

“Shouldn’t someone be in there with him?”, Vik asked.

“No”, you told him simply. “He’s not the best with people anyway but he’ll just be overwhelmed with this many people if he’s this upset”, you explained. As you waited for the kettle to boil, back rested against the kitchen counter, you turned to Cal. “How long has he been like this?”, you asked him.

“I mean, he’s been bad since you left him”, Cal said with a slight edge to his voice. “But he’s been bad since you brought his stuff round”, he sighed.

“Are you saying that this is my fault?”, you asked, voice turning defensive. The six other men in the room stiffened. Cal hadn’t been there for the blowout between you and Harry and you doubted that he’d been informed about anything that was said.

“Maybe this is a conversation for later”, Josh tried to mediate, voice hesitant and wary.

“No, she needs to hear that this is her fault”, Cal defended. “Bog’s in there on his arse because she’s a selfish cow”, he spat.

You scoffed, turning around to busy yourself with making Harry a cup of tea. “Look”, you said, before anyone could step in and cause any arguments. “You can think what you want about me, but I’m just trying to help Harry. If you don’t want me here, I’ll leave”, you told him simply.

Cal was silent after that and stayed out of the way. He refused to look at the others who kept sending him funny looks and he stepped out of your way when you went to take Harry’s drink down to him. Your murmured ‘thank you’ when unacknowledged, but you couldn’t find it within yourself to care.

Harry was in the same position that you’d left him in, bundled up in the duvet staring blankly ahead at the wall. “Here you go”, you said, placing the cup down on the side table, perching on the side of the bed as you did so. Your hand returned to his hair, stroking through the messy, knotty pile of dirty blond. “I’ll come back in a bit, yeah? Drink that and see if you come ‘round a bit”, you told him, letting your hand have one more smooth over his hair before you got up and left.

You paused in the hallway after you’d shut Harry’s door. You let your head lean back against the wall as you tried and failed to fight the tears that had been bubbling just beneath the surface ever since you’d arrived at Harry’s. Seeing him in the state he was in seemed to reopen all the wounds that you’d managed to emergency triage over the last week or so and it ached so deeply that you didn’t know how to cope.

“Y/N?”, a voice asked from down the hallway. You stood up straight as quick as you could, scrubbing the tears off of your face and sniffing unattractively. “Are you okay?”, Josh asked you, coming closer.

“Yeah”, you told him, but your blotchy face and broken voice gave you away instantly.

“Freya told me how hard this has been for you”, Josh whispered, standing in front of you. “I tried to get Ethan to not call you but…”, he trailed off. “I’m so sorry”, he said.

“What for?”, you asked him, running the sleeves of your jumper under your eyes once again.

“Harry told us everything… I hope”, Josh started. “We were all awful to you and we thought we were protecting Harry. You don’t deserve any of that”, he told you.

“Cal clearly doesn’t have that idea”, you laughed sadly. “Me and Harry both kept secrets, we thought it was the best thing for the both of us. If I knew he was this bad…”, you trailed off.

“Come on, there’s a tea for you in here”, Josh said, guiding you towards the living room. He handed you a cup of tea that had been left on the side for you and went to sit down with the rest of the boys. You sat down in the free corner of the sofa, putting your cup down so you could wipe your tears once again.

“Why did you never tell us?”, Simon asked. “How bad he’d got? Why did you let us hate you?”.

“I don’t know”, you told him truthfully. “It was easier, I guess”, you shrugged.

“If we’d have known…”, Tobi started, trying to find the right words. “I don’t know, we’d have done something, though”. Each of the boys looked distressed, seeing Harry the way he was was taking a toll on everyone, but so was finding out the truth after 6 years worth of lies.

“I know that, but I don’t think he did. Or does”, you said sadly. “He’s terrified of disappointing any of you. I was terrified of disappointing him”, you shrugged weakly. “So I did everything I could to make sure that I didn’t”, you admitted.

Talking about it felt like pouring salt in the reopened wounds. “I guess that didn’t work”, you whispered to yourself, but the room was so deathly quiet that you may as well have shouted it.

“What do you mean?”, Ethan asked. “What didn’t work?”.

“Harry’s always deserved better than me, I guess he finally figured that out”, you said, as though it was obvious. 6 of the 7 faces in front of you wore incredulous expressions. “What?”.

“Harry said that he’s always thought you deserved better than him”, Josh told you sadly. “That that’s why he tried to push you away”.

You looked down to the cup in your hands, fingers tapping relentlessly as you tried to process what Josh had just told you without breaking down into floods of tears once again. “I never knew that”, you said, voice cracking around your tears. “I never thought it would end up like this”.

Nobody knew what to say to you. Josh and Simon had an idea from Freya and Talia about how hard this had hit you and you still dropped everything and came running when Ethan told you that Harry needed your help.

“I know I don’t know everything and I probably have no right to even say anything, but it’s painfully obvious that the two of you still love each other”, Josh told you. “You’re the only person he’s interacted with, let alone spoken to, in the last week”, he reminded you.

“What if loving each other isn’t enough?”, you asked brokenly. You could see the pity written across everyone’s face, even Cal’s, but that did nothing to ease the pain that was hacking away at your insides. 

It was clear that no one had an answer, so you sat up straight, took a deep breath and wiped your face. “I’ll be back in a bit”, you told them. “I’ll text someone if we need anything”, you promised.

You knocked on Harry’s bedroom door, but didn’t wait for a response before walking in and pushing the door half shut behind you. The mug on his side table was empty but Harry had curled himself back under the covers. He looked to you when you came in, before letting his eyes drift closed. He looked exhausted, but you weren’t surprised if he hadn’t been looking after himself.

“What can I do?”, you asked, sitting down next to Harry. He only shrugged in response, still not opening his eyes. “Harry, this isn’t safe, baby”, you whispered, letting your hand rest on his face again. You watched as Harry leaned into your touch, moving his head slightly so that as much of your skin as possible was touching his.

“I’m sorry”, he whispered again, voice a little less hoarse than before. “I don’t deserve this”.

“That’s not your choice”, you told him. “I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t want to”, you promised him.

“Don’t”, Harry said, voice as harsh as it could be given how weak he was. “I don’t deserve you looking after me again. Don’t lie and tell me you want to be here”, he whispered.

“Okay”, you said. “Sitting here hurts more than walking out the other week”, you admitted. “Because I still love you and seeing you like this is breaking my heart even more than it already is”.

Harry squeezed his eyes shut again, stray tears leaking out of the corners. In a change of plan, you stood up and went to the bathroom, grabbing the comb off of the side of the sink. “Let me know if it hurts”, you told him, before taking a small section of his hair and started working the comb through the very ends, working your way down to the roots.

You sat in the same position, slowly working your way through Harry’s hair, for 20 minutes. You did your best to cause him as little pain as possible, but some of the knots kept snagging on the comb because of how big they were. “Beautiful”, you smiled, putting the comb down on the side before turning back to him.

“Thank you, feels better”, he mumbled.

“I’m glad”, you told him, running your fingers through his, albeit greasy, knot-free hair. “Feel like taking a shower?”, you asked him, knowing Harry would find it hard to resist, especially if he hadn’t showered in a good few days.

“Wanna, but I’m too tired”, Harry murmured.

“Bath?”, you asked him. “I’ll get it running so all you need to do is go sit in there once it’s full”, you offered. You watched as the idea ran through Harry’s mind for a few moments, before he smiled up at you weakly and nodded.

Once you’d set the water running, you wandered back through to Harry’s room, sitting down next to him again. “Things aren’t right without you here”, Harry admitted. “Feels wrong”.

“I know”, you said.

“I wish I didn’t ruin everything”, he whispered.

“Josh said you always thought I deserved better than you, that that’s why you pushed me away”, you told him.

Harry looked confused. “Yeah”, he said, like it was obvious. “You’ve always deserved so much better than I can give you”.

“I always thought you deserved better than me”, you admitted. “How were we together for 6 years and didn’t even cover the basics?”, you scoffed.

“You thought you weren’t enough?”, Harry asked, and you could practically hear his heart breaking even more in his chest.

“You tried to push me away, I did everything I could to make sure I never disappointed you… I guess it was a cycle that just needed breaking”, you said sadly. “Your bath will be ready, go on”, you instructed.

While Harry was in the bath, you dug him out some clothes and a few towels and left them folded up on the sink before returning to his bedroom and finding out a fresh set of bedding.

By the time Harry had dried himself off from the bath and gotten dressed, you’d stripped and remade the bed and shoved the bedding into a laundry basket. “You didn’t have to do this”, Harry told you as soon as he spotted the fresh bedding.

“I know, but I need you to be okay and looking after you is the only way I know to make sure that you’re okay”, you told him honestly.

“Are you okay?”, Harry asked you bluntly, coming to sit on his bed. “Tell me the truth”, he whispered, taking your fingers in his.

“No”, you admitted quietly, eyes trained on your fingers.

“Talk to me”, he said quietly.

“I’m not ready to stop loving you yet but I’m scared that it’s not enough to try and make this work”, you said, eyes burning with brewing tears. “I don’t think I can ever stop loving you”, you croaked, tears finally spilling over and dropping onto your conjoined fingers.

Harry wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you between his legs, tucking your head beneath his chin. He squeezed you tightly as you sobbed unabashedly into his chest. Harry kept his head rested on yours, keeping you cocooned in his frame. It also meant that you wouldn’t be able to see the tears flooding his eyes at the sight of you so broken.

“I know I’ll never be able to stop loving you”, he admitted quietly, lips catching on your hair as he spoke. “I know the second tries have never worked before, but we never actually spoke about what was wrong”, Harry told you.

“Maybe breaking up and getting the whole truth out to everyone was the best thing that could happen for us”, you said weakly. “Well, I say that like you’ve not just had your first shower in a week and I’m not holding things together by a thread”, you snorted.

“I meant what I said”, Harry said suddenly after a few moments of silence. “Things aren’t right when you aren’t in my life. And it’s not just because we’ve been together for 6 years”, he told you. “I mean, like, I’ll see something on twitter and my first thought is that you’d find it funny, and how I nearly started crying in M & S because they were out of your favourite pasta shapes and then I remembered how much you hate M & S so I had to leave before I had a breakdown in the pasta aisle”, Harry said.

“I cried in Asda because I walked past a couple bickering about sushi and whether or not it was nice”, you admitted before laughing through the remnants of your tears as you sat up. “We’ve spoken more today than we have in the last 2 years”, you reminded him.

“Maybe another shot is worth it. You make me too happy to not try”, Harry whispered, resting a hand on your cheek and smiling softly when you leaned into it. “I love you too much not to try”.

Instead of replying, you leaned forward and pressed your lips to Harry’s. “I love you, too”, you whispered against his lips. You kissed him once more before pulling back and smiling at him.

You and Harry walked back out into the living room a few moments later, both still with blotchy faces and drying tear tracks and a few fingers hooked together. Harry ducked his head, a shy smile crossing his face when he saw that everyone was staring at the two of you.

Harry smushed himself into the corner of the sofa and quickly pulled you down to sit in the small space beside him. His arm rested over the back of the sofa, fingers twiddling your hair absentmindedly as you let your head drop to his shoulder tiredly.

“So... you all good, Bog?”, Ethan asked warily.

Harry turned to you briefly, an unmistakable look of bliss settling onto his features when your eyes darted up to meet his. The smile that you gave him pulled all the broken pieces back to the centre and the way you rubbed your cheek sleepily against his shoulder glued them all back together again.

Harry looked back up to Ethan, letting his arm behind your head drop down to cradle your shoulder and hold you to his body.

“Never better, mate”