#told myself im gonna be open and talk and air out what i want to say today and by god im going to try

[broh3m3]

https://twitter.com/GameIdentityV/status/1676742756910129152 The anniversary piece is out! I keep typing and deleting things I want to say (it’s been 3 hours 🧍‍♀️), but from the bottom of my heart thank you so much for the love and support throughout the years, especially in drawing for IDV. I don’t think this would have been possible without it.

[remcycl333]

my sp story <3

hi besties! if you've been following my blog for a while you know that i've been single for a while, partly because i like to be independent and single, and partly because i just didn't like anyone. obviously i could just manifest a guy out of thin air, but when im not confronted face to face with a crush then i just don't care about being in a relationship so i never manifested someone out of thin air lol

but then a couple of weeks ago i was at the movies with my friends, and there were couples cuddling around us and i was like "aw :( kinda wish i had a bf now." and what do we do when we feel any type of desire? we immediately fulfill ourselves, no matter how "small" the desire is! so that's what i did. i imagined for like two seconds that i was cuddling with a boy at the theaters, and then i got distracted by the movie and forgot all about it

then like 15 minutes later, a guy that i'd had a crush on four years ago randomly slid into my dms. i never pursued him four years ago bc my bff at the time had dibs on him, but we're not friends anym and haven't been for years so it was my time to shine!!!

anyway, we talk for like a week. i know this guy is funny and shit bc of when we hung out irl, but like all he's sending me are unfunny memes that don't really warrant a response. so it was kinda tough

and this is the part where you guys are going to yell at me!!! i was like oh i should use my manifestation skills and make sure this goes smoothly....but then i was like nah im just gonna go with the flow 😭😭😭 and i know you guys are like REM!!!! u manifest EVERYTHING u can't just turn it off!!!! anyway.....long story short a week into us talking this mf randomly blocks me!!!!

so im instantly like 🙄🙄 damn fine i'll manifest him back bc im stubborn and do not like being told no in my reality

so how did i do it? how did i manifest him back?

if you guys have followed me for a while, you know that i manifested an sp a couple years ago by simply affirming "i love [his name] so much" any time i'd think of him and this would conjure the feeling of the wish fulfilled. (NOT mindless affirming. i'd say it maybe two or three times to catch the feeling and then move on)

ANYWAY so that's what i did! and let me tell you....i was not "perfect" by any means 😭 in fact this manifestation really kinda opened my eyes on how EASY manifestation truly is. like i already knew how easy it was, but damn!

if you know that your desire is promised and that it is coming because you gave it to yourself in imagination (even ONCE) ... there is NOTHING that will stop it. i was gonna make a separate post on this and i tried but i just couldn't articulate it correctly so im going to try again:

it took 12 days to manifest him to unblock me and message me. im sure it would've taken a shorter amount of time if i was more disciplined with myself but it's kinda crazy bc of how UNdisciplined i was 😭 tbh i was just kinda like...unsure if i even wanted to manifest him at all bc thats how much i value my alone time and my independence lol

anyway, i always get asks from people who are stressed and anxious bc they think that in order to manifest your desire, you can never enter the state of lack ever again and that dwelling in negative thoughts will "ruin" your manifestations. but i am here to tell you IT DOES NOT MATTER!!! you do not need to be "perfect"!!!! as long as you are staying faithful to the idea that you have your desire in the 4d, it'll manifest in the 3d.

another thing i see so many people confused and stressed about is whether or not they're naturally thinking from the state. for instance, every time you think of your sp, you think from the end of being in a relationship with them, before you think of the fact that you're not together yet. and let me tell you....while this CAN happen, it's not always gonna happen and it's not necessary. let me tell you, the DAY before my sp reached out, and even the day that he did....i would catch myself thinking about how we weren't together! but the gag is....YOUR THOUGHTS DON'T MANIFEST!!!! yes, they indicate what state you're in, but the actual thoughts themselves don't mean shit!!! they don't manifest. they just don't!

so i'd shift back to the state of being my sp's girlfriend when i'd have these thoughts, but i was fully aware we were not together in my 3d and i never naturally thought of us as being together before i saw any evidence of it in my 3d. all i had was the knowing that my inner man was with my sp, and that since i'd decided i had it in imagination, it would push out into my 3d. because that's how the law works!!! and honestly, that's all you really need. you just need to know that since you gave yourself your desire in your imagination ONE TIME, it WILL manifest. and if you have a true understanding of how the law works and you've read source, you will have no trouble knowing that it will come.

you also do NOT need to be in the state of the wish fulfilled 24/7!!! at all!!!! i cannot stress this enough. and tbh i used to feel the same. i felt like i had to be aware of having my desire in imagination 24/7 or else it wouldn't come. i thought i couldn't perceive the lack or opposite in my 3d or else it wouldn't manifest (see this post about dismissing the 3d btw if u need help with that). but the gods honest truth is that all you need to do is DECIDE you have your desire in imagination & not take no for an answer & KNOW that your desire is GOING TO REFLECT IN YOUR 3D NO MATTER WHAT!!!!

and that's not to say that you wont still get anxious and have intrusive thoughts and be like "oh god what if it never manifests." like... im human and i had those human moments. but i just reminded myself that i know the law and ive proven it to myself many times and i know that it had to manifest.

anyway. back to my sp story!

so for these 12 days that im blocked (lmfao) all i did was affirm "i love [his name] so much" whenever i thought of him until i caught the feeling of the wish fulfilled. that's it. and i knew for a fact that he was mine in the 4d and therefore we'd be together in the 3d bc that's the law!

anyway on friday (5 days ago) at 8pm? im scrolling thru the ulta app and then im like "oh i havent fulfilled myself today i dont think" so i fulfilled myself for like 2 seconds and then get distracted by some product and then two minutes later i get a notif that this guy followed me and then dmed me 😭

it's funny cuz my irls don't know about the law of assumption so i sent them a screenshot and i was like "look who came crawling back" and they were like BOOOOO!!! and i was like no guys!!!!! i created the blocking and i created this like i promise we can trust him 😭😭 hahahaha

anyway. let me tell you. if you are manifesting an sp, DO NOT DO THAT SHIT IN STEPS!!!!! i mean, if you really want to, i can't stop you, but i really don't recommend it.

with my old sp (the one from two years ago) i'd always manifest contact and then get it, and then he'd ghost me and and id have to manifest contact again and it'd be a never ending cycle!!! bc i was just focusing on contact, not on how i felt or how he felt about me.

the reason i loveeee to affirm "i love my sp so much" INSTEAD OF "HE loves ME so much" is because it helps me catch the feeling of the wish fulfilled so much more. not only that, but because remember, THERE IS NO ONE TO CHANGE BUT SELF!!!! changing the way i see my sp and the way i feel about him is all i need to do. im not trying to change him and make him love me lol. this is about me and my inner reality, not him! he'll reflect whatever i am in the 4d

another reason i love affirming this is because TO ME, this is what implies we are already together. whenever im in a relationship, i always find myself laying around all giddy thinking about how obsessed with my bf i am and how i love him so much. so i emulate that when im manifesting an sp.

and it's PERFECT because by jumping straight to the end where we're already together, i don't have to focus on all the things that lead to us being in a relationship. i don't have to manifest him following me, or texting me, or asking me on a date. these things all just happen naturally bc im living in the end.

NOT TO MENTION, it naturally turns your sp into your perfect partner? like remember when i said when we were talking before he blocked me he was kinda dry and he'd just send memes that i didn't find funny? THIS DUDE DID A COMPLETE 180!!!

he's sooo funny, he is the OPPOSITE of dry, he is everything???? and im obsessed.

anyway he unblocked me and dmed me, and then asked for my number and we had such funny and cute convos and then boom 4 days later he asks me on a date and i say no (😭😭😭😭 i was busy) but i agreed to go on a date the next day and the way this boy showed pure unencumbered excitement 🥺 im obsessed

anyway im sorry this is so long? i really just wanted to share how all i did was apply what i've been preaching about on this blog for years and it worked out flawlessly! hopefully this gives you guys some good tips and maybe motivation? <3

[stvrniolotrp]

matt sturniolo x fem!reader oneshot:

requested:nope

summary:matt and reader have been in a very healthy relationship,but what happens when that turns around?do they talk it out?

warnings:angst,fluff,kissing(dont get sensitive on me aint nothing to get mad abt)

inspired by: the song “mine” by taylor swift!

mine

y/ns pov:

my relationship with my boyfriend matt was perfect for a while,he is the best boyfriend i have a ever had. before matt tho i had a boyfriend named hunter,he made me scared of love. not bothering to try with matt since love never lasts in my eyes

but matt opened my eyes,he showed me that love isnt always just fighting.

lately tho,our relationship started becoming rocky,i knew we were gonna face hard times. but everytime we talked or hung out,it ended with a fight,or me being upset.

sometimes i can be dramatic,but i really remember the start of our relationship and when we were still crushing on eachother.

flashback:

i was sitting on the ledge of the doc by myself just admiring my surroundings and the chilly breeze when my friend matt came out of their house,he slowly made his way up to me and sat next to me,our shoulders touching.

“hey are u okay?why are u out here in the cold?”

“im fine just wanted some fresh air”

i quickly smiled at him feeling my cheeks start blushing

“arent u cold?come here”

he said as he put him arm around me for the first time

end of flashback :

does he even remember that? i thought to all the best memories of our relationship. a few moments later my phone dinged indicating a message

my love💕:do u wanna come over?i really wanna see you

i was confused nonetheless,we still havent made up since our argument earlier that day.but i agreed.

y/n❤️:ill be there in 10 read 1:45 AM

maybe he wanted to make up?i told myself while grabbing my keys and heading out to the front door hopping in my car.

i shuffled my playlist and you are in love by taylor swift came on

once i arrived i knocked on the door and heard faint footsteps come to open the door

“oh hey y/n”

chris said while taking me in a slow embrace and leading me inside,i gave him a smile while i walked to matts room

i hesitated to walk in,instead i decided to knock.

matt opened the door looking at me with a bland look on his face not sparing me a small smile.

“come in”

he lead me into the bedroom and i slowly sat on the edge of the bed while he sat against the headboard

“so why did u wanna see me?”

“i wanted to talk to u”

“okay whats up?”

“look i know we got in an argument earlier but i want u to hear how stupid this all sounds to me”

“oh wow so the situation is stupid?”

i said chuckling sarcastically

“y/n just hear me out”

“i think this is stupid because me liking girls posts isnt a big fucking deal,it really isnt.im really sorry for saying this but ur being fucking dramatic”

he said slightly raising his voice

tears started welling up in my eyes due to his tone,matt never yelled at me like this before.

“matt it isnt a big deal okay,but when ur fans start noticing u liking bikini pictures of instagram models and questioning our relationship status i really dont think im being dramatic”

i said raising my voice almost yelling at this point

“at the start of this whole relationship u said u werent gonna fucking believe anything online or take anything fans say to heart y/n”

he said now fully yelling at me

i stood up as tears started streaming down my face

“WHAT DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER MATT?U DONT REMEMBER SHIT IN THIS RELATIONSHIP ITS LIKE UR A WHOLE NEW PERSON MATT”

i said while started to fully sob

i really thought we were gonna fix this,but everything was slipping right out of our hands at this point.

matt didnt say anything he just stared at me with a almost sad look on his face?

i looked over to the clock on his night stand 2:30 am

i ran out of his room,then opened the front door running though it.

i started walking towards my car untill i heard the front foor open and feeling matts presence slowly make its way up to me

“what do u want?”

i said bracing myself for him to call off this relationship

“y/n u said i dont remember anything in this relationship?”

“yes matt if u want to j-“

he cut me off and started talking instead

“well i remember we were sitting right there by the water,i put my arm around u for the first time that night”

“look im-“

“y/n everytime i look at u its like im falling inlove for the first time”

“stop matt ur making me cry even more”

i said slightly giggling

“ill never leave u alone”

“you are the best thing thats ever been mine”

i started full on smiling and stepped forward to give him a hug,he buried his head in my neck and started speaking

“i recognize my mistake and im sorry,im sorry for calling u dramatic u arent. i’ll unfollow any girl u want me to babe i love u”

“i love u more”

i said as i broke our embrace and gave him a soft yet passionate kiss on his lips.

he is the best thing thats ever been mine.

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authors notes: im sorry for going on a month long break and not writing anything literally dont ask idk how that happened

as always send requests pleaseeeeeee and tell me ur thoughts!

love u

[nalaniisthebest]

Call- Jack Harlow

pov: i finally update a story after 5 months ;)

this is also like unedited soo..

SUMMARY: you and jack are having sex while you ex keeps blowing up your phone

“why does he keep blowing up your phone?”

warning 18+

smut, fingering, phone sex, unprotected sex, cursing, overstimulated, dirty talk

*ding ding* *ding ding*

“ugh.” i moaned pulling away from jacks kiss. looking at my phone sitting on table ringing nonstop i press decline without even looking who it is.

“what if it was your mom.” jack asked it.

“it isn’t. trust me. i know.” i responded. wrapping my arms around his neck. i pulled him in for another kiss. the kiss became deep and passionate. i could feel myself start to  slouch down on the couch while jack was hovering over me.

*ding ding* *ding ding*

“ignore it.” i quickly said as i felt his attention start to drift away from me. i pull my shirt over my head and jack started attacking my neck with kisses and bruises while i decline his call again. arching my back as jack reached behind me and i clasped my bra throwing it somewhere

*ding ding* *ding ding*

i lay all the way down on couch as jacks hands slowly travel down to my leggings slowly pulling them down. his lips detached from my neck as he was about to use his teeth to pull down my underwear when my phone rung again.

jack quickly grabbed my phone answering it.

“look i don’t know who the fuck this is, but stop blowing up my girls phone. she’ll call you back when im done fucking her.” he said and without hearing the other person he hung up.

“jack that’s my ex.” i told him as he dropped the phone back on the table.

“why does he keeping blowing up your phone?” he asked with a confused face.

“to tell me that he misses home and he wants another chance. he literally got a new number and everything.” i said as jack just laughed.

“he won’t.” i said cutting me off. “he got the message.” i said clearing up the air as jack nodded his head. jack continued right where he was he took off my underwear throwing it behind. i soft moan fell from my lips as a cold breeze came hitting my pussy.

i sit up on my forearms grabbing my tits as jack lays my legs on his shoulders. i look down at him the whole time while he looks up at me. i felt myself getting excited as jack laid soft kisses on my thighs.

“you’re so beautiful y/n.” jack mumbled against my thigh.

“i don’t know what i would do without you.” jack said again giving me another kiss.

“please jack.” i begin to beg.

“just do something other than kissing me.” i begged never losing eye contact. he smirked and nodded his head as he kissed my clit while softly sucking on it. i bit my lip as my head fell back.

“fuck that felt good.” i said as i started playing with my nipple.

“do again.” i demanded. wasting no time he did what i said and sucked on my clit longer. i hard moan came out my mouth as i look back down at jack to see that he’s looking at me. he started sucking again and this time he didn’t stop. he added his middle finger and started quickly thrusting in and out of me.

“fuck, yes!!” i loudly moaned as legs started to tighten around his neck which buried his face into my pussy. he added another finger and going even faster.

“oh jack.” i moaned as my eyes rolled back. i was racking my hands through his soft curls as started sucking as hard as he could. hips bucked upwards and my mouth open.

“jack im gonna cum! i-im gonna cum!” i loudly moaned as thighs started shaking his free hand grabbed one my tits and started playing with it. he lifted his head while this fingering me.

“go ahead baby. im right here.” he said before going back down. it didn’t take much more of that for me to cum.

“fuck, fuck, fuck!!” i quickly moaned before letting it all go. i let go of jack as he raised up licking my cum of his lips.

“mmm. you taste so good!” jack moaned closing his eyes.

“you wanna taste?” he opened his eyes asking me. before i could even say anything he leaned it kissing me. i tasted myself on his lips i felt his dick press against my stomach. he was hard as a ROCK.

i started palming him through his sweats as he moaned backing up.

“baby please don’t tease. im so fucking hard it’s not even funny.” jack said as i didn’t stop.

“so fuck me.” i said with all the confidence in the world. the biggest smirk grew on jacks face.”

“i-.”

*ding ding* *ding ding*

my phone starts ringing again.

“you know. since he wants to talk to so bad. we can talk.” he said grabbing my phone, and answered it and set it right back on the table. i looked at him with a confused look on my face.

“what are you doing?” i mouthed at him. he didn’t say nothing. he just looked at my with the biggest smirk on his face. he pulled down his sweatpants and his dick popped out hitting his stomach. it was oozing of precum and his tip was really red.

he rubbed his dick against my slit coating it up before slowly thrusting into me stretching me out. he took himself out of me and thrusting into my again but this time as hard as he could making our skin clap and a loud moan come out. but that didn’t stop him, he kept going that same pace the whole time. making me hold my legs against my head, putting my legs over his shoulder, making me fuck myself in his dick. i had came 2 times already, i was overstimulated and sweaty.

“i said you fucks you better than anyone.” jack asked me giving me a harsh it against my ass.

“you jack! fuck!” i loudly moaned as my head fell back. i was riding him right now. my tits harshly slapped against my skin. both of our bodies were hot and sticky and my legs were gonna give out.

“jack, i-i can’t.” i moaned slowing down

“just i little more..im so close baby.” jack said lying against the couch. once he could tell that i didn’t have anymore energy left he started taking matters into his own hands. he held me down and started quickly thrusting in and out of me.

“jack!” i loudly moaned.

“fuck baby im so close.” jack moaned in ear. i started kissing and leaving bruises on his neck. i felt the grip he had on my ass tighten as he moaned in my ear one last time. i felt his cum inside of me. he thrust started to slow down and rested my head on his chest. he leaned forward and grabbed my phone seeing that my ex was still on the phone.

“she don’t want you. if it wasn’t clear then. it’s clear now.” jack said before hanging up. he left a soft kiss on my head.

“that should do it.” jack said as i chuckled

[amber-michaelson]

Your gonna miss me when im gone

yandere Katsuki bakugo x reader x yandere Izuku midoriya

Summary: they bored of you and they learn to regret it

Read at own risk

Warning: swearing, surprise

yn pov

im tired, tired of being ignored, they did this to me they kidnapped me, tortured me to become their perfect play thing and now their ignoring me it started a few months ago katsuki started pushing me away when i wanted to cuddle him, izuku stopped caring if i took care of myself and im tired of it i just want to leave if they don’t care about me then they wouldn’t care if i left.... right?.

i wondered around the house looking to see if they left, they have ‘they didn’t even say goodbye’ i went back into the bedroom and pulled out from under the bed my already packed bag i sighed and put it over my shoulder “i guess this is goodbye” i whispered placing my written note onto deku’s office door as i walked past it wasn’t hard to leave for weeks now they ‘forgot’ to lock the doors and windows i silently walked outside and got into a taxi “the air port please” i murmured and watched as the house fade into the distance ‘im finally free’.

izuku pov

i smiled as i walked into the house i did a good job today and couldn’t wait for katsuki to get home ‘why is it so quiet’ my smile turned into a frown, yn normally greeted me by the door with open arms ‘maybe she’s asleep’ i wonder into the bedroom but nothing she wasn’t there "yn" I yelled I was starting to panic I ran past my office and noticed a not 'what the heck' I picked it up and mentally screamed as I read it

'Dear izuku and katsuki, 

 I am really sorry, I'm boring or plain I don't know what I did wrong or if you don't want me anymore, I left to make your life easier and I am sorry I wasn't here to tell you in person that I'm pregnant and I don't want to see the disappointment in your face if I told you, this is goodbye and I hope that you'll forgive me. 

 I love both of you, goodbye'

I frantically looked noticing all of her things are gone "katsuki, she's gone" "izuku what the fuck are you talking about" my cries turned into sobs and i slowly dropped to my knees, "she left, yn she's gone" it's our fault we pushed her away and now shes gone “im on my way” katsuki muttered and hung up, i sat cradling our anniversary photo, it was the first time she was out in public after we kidnapped her 3 years prior “im sorry, im so so sorry” i cried and started breathing heavily “deku” kacchan yelled as he ran to me and kneeled down beside me “sh-she l-left us kac-kacchan” i sobbed leaning my head against the wall “deku breathe we’ll find her”.

i believed him but after the months turned into years, i lost all hope.

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yn pov

i stood in-front i spent years being locked in “why are we here mommy” i quietly shushed my sons before knocking on the door “coming” i heard a groggy voice on the other side of the door “who is it” i knew who it was “its me izu” i murmured “yn” he shout throwing the door open and hugged me “mommy hes squishing me” tanaka squealed, izuku pulled away and stared at him “izu this is your son and daughter” i murmured putting them down and gently pushed them forward “this is tanaka your son and zulashi your daughter” i smiled “we missed you so much come in” he moved aside “come in but don’t touch anything” i said sternly i walked in side and my heart felt guilty everything was cover in a layer of dust and it looks like the curtains haven’t been open in years “it kinda got-” i turned around and hugged him tightly “i didn’t know it would be this bad” i murmured i shouldn’t have left “yn its not your fault its ours, we pushed you away” his voice broke and my shirt was starting to get wet with his tears “wheres kat” i said pulling away “he’s upstairs, he hasn’t been sleeping well” he murmured worryingly “ill help him and you, im home now and i promise im never going to leave” my hand brushed  away his tears “now go play with your children they’ve heard so much about you” i smiled and watched as he went to go with them ‘please don’t be as bad as i think you are’ i slowly made my way to our room “katsuki” i said and slowly opened the door there wasn’t a response i slowly crept to him and layed beside him “im home” i whispered grazing my hand up his arm “hmm yn” he mumbled sleepily “its me kat” i said kissing his forehead “yn” i yelled jerking awake, he stared at me “are you real” i nodded my head eagerly “what else would i be” i smiled and kissed his lips, i could feel him relax, i squealed as he pulled me on top of him “i missed you so much” he yelled “i did too now come on met your kids” i giggled “my what”. 

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[titan-senpai]

The Crystal Heart

Gyomei x Chubby tall reader

PART ONE 

The long awaited Part 2 of Gyomei x reader is finally here enjoy this finally after months! and it finally has a titel :D Crystal heart

Warning: Mention of suicide, rejecting comfort, Angsty ish

As we walked back home we saw the other pillars just prepairing to head back to bed, as i held his hand i felt mine get numb my hand started to turn blue like a crystal, thank god my jacket/ kimono coverd my hands, it started at the tips of my fingers”My love whats wrong” He suddenly asked feeling my cold hand..”Oh dont worry im just cold”i lied.. we walked to our room, i took my jacket of and helped Gyomei with his.

my hands began to show crack at the tips..”Hey Gyo~ i’m going to take a dip in the hot springs..” i said walking to our private one..”Oh okay can i get a hug first” he asked like always..”Uhh maybe later im not feeling wel” i lied again i took of my clothes in the bathroom and grabed a towel, i wonder if Gyomei is sleeping right now.. i took a peek at gyomei sipping tea enjoying the sounds of the night. 

i closed my door and wraped the towel around my body, walking to the hot springs, “Love dont forget sleep”I told him kissing him on the cheek, “What a shame..i wanted to wait for you” he said sipping his tea.

“Oh..ill be really quick and then ill join you!”i said walking outside to the hot springs, i put the towel away and slowly enterd the water feeling the warmth of it but taking another look at my hands..

they were still cold, and still cracking, its blue to my knuckles now..and the cracking is even worse.. i took a look at my legs they were all blue like crystals? they have some cracks just like my hands... “Something is deffinetly wrong"

I hopped out the water and wraped a towel aorund my cold body, sliding the tatami door and closing it behind me.

Gyomei sat there. Still drinking his now cold tea. "Gyo ill dry meself and change. Then ill come cuddle with you." i said walking to our room sliding the door behind me. 

i took my towel off taking a look at my bod in the mirror... legs, cracking...arms cracking... between the cracks was something neon blue...really shiny.. kinda glowing. i dressed myself and took a closer look in the mirror.. *Crack* i saw and heard my face starting the crack and my eyes turned a neon blue.. “crap”i said under my breath, “love is something wrong youve been in there for a while now..” i heard Gyome say..I didnt dare to anything.. my lips..trembling and starting to crack aswel..”ye..a. i’m fine” i replied to gyomei, “Love im coming in..” he slid the door open ,thank god he coudnt see.. or els he would freak out  “is something wrong?” i said softly trying to hide the fear in my voice.

he didnt say anything and reached out for my hands to hold them “Love lets head to bed” Gyomei smiled trying to feel my hands. “sure love.. you know that i love you right..” i started crying.”ofcourse i know you love me and i love you..no matter what..”

i smiled and walked away to the door “Gyo..im gonna talk a walk outside okay..” i said sliding open the door “Love are you sure, should i come its late..” i started crying..”Yes...i’m sure” i said sliding the door behind me.. feeling the cold air hitting me skin the warmth in my body was completly gone... my hands stil felt numb.

i felt something strange in my body.. i walked torwards the forest something was calling me.. i started running to the forest.. the sound kept getting closer..and closer.. i soon heard a familiar voice.. “Mom?” i said running even faster. there was no way she was still alive.. or is it a illusion.. or a trick.. i stopped running when i saw a famiar figure.. she turned around.. coverd in blood.. blue neon eyes..” Oh my sweet child.. it’s been a while..”she said smiling.. i coudn’t believe it.. it was really her.. i looked closer and saw she coverd her lower body and arms

“Mom..?” i slowly walked into her direction. soon i felt someone put a towel on my mouth and nose. and everything turned dark.

[simpofficial]

I See You

SteddillyxOc

Chapter 4

Chapter 3 Chapter 5

I woke up to the smell of salt.

It's coming from Steve, who sleeps on my chest. I raise my hand and place it in his hair.

I begin to hum as I run my fingers through his hair. Once the smell of salt reduces and hangs in the air I use my other hand to wipe away his tears.

———

"Sevyn?" I roll the other way and hear him laugh. "Sevyn come on. I know you're hungry."

"Blueberry eggos?" The only delicacy Jim Hopper provided.

"We don't have any."

"Sleep."

"I'll ask my dad to pick some up on his way home from work. But you gotta eat something for now. Come with me and you can pick whatever you want."

"Whatever I want?" I turn towards his presence and he laughs.

"Yes whatever you want. Now come on." He grabs my hand and helps me out of the bed. "I don't know much about the bad men but I do know you probably won't want to be in the house all day." He leads me downstairs as he speaks. "So I laid out some clothes to hide you."

"You're nice." I tell him as he sits me down.

"Thank you. Now we have other breakfast foods but we don't have blueberry eggos." He opens something and I heard a crinkle. "We have these breakfast blueberry pancake sausage corn dogs."

"I have."

"Say I will have that."

"I will have that."

"Good." He closes the thing that produces cold air and opens something else. It was barely opened for a second before it closes and produces a hum.

"You cry."

"I'm not crying."

"Night. You cry."

"Last night you were crying." I wasn't.

"No you cry."

"Sevyn say, last night you were crying." Oh.

"Last night you were crying. Why?"

"I don't know that's just English."

"No. Why you were crying?"

"I think I had a dream about Nancy."

"Nancy bad. No dream her." I hear him laugh a little but I wasn't joking.

"I'll try not to."

———

Before he left he helped me put on a hoodie and hat. He even gave me a pair of glasses before he told me to be safe.

When he left I didn't stay in the house much longer. It was nice and quiet but it's empty. Like my room back at the lab.

When I went outside I felt everything and it felt nice. I inhale and smell gas. It's a weird smell and I only know it because of the lab.

I walked on the road before I heard a loud vehicle. It was too loud to pinpoint where it came from. I covered my ears when a loud noise was heard from behind me.

"Get out of the road weirdo!" I turn around and place my hand on the vehicle. It's warm. "Hey don't touch my car!" Car. Car must be another word for vehicle. I place my other hand on the hood before I heard the door of the car open.

"Billy! Don't do anything!"

"Mind your business, the freak is touching my car!" Freak? Me? "Hey what's your problem?!" I'm grabbed by the hoodie. "Who do you think you are touching my car?" I inhale and he smells sweet.

"Smell good." I lean closer and inhale again. He pushes me back some but doesn't let go of the hoodie.

"Billy!" I turn my head back towards the car and sniff. She's young. Smell so different yet a hint of the same over lay so not related but live together.

"Don't look at her. Who are you?"

"I, Seven."

"Like the fucking number?"

"Fucking?"

"What are you stupid?" He let's go before I feel the hat and glasses removed.

"Not stupid."

"Why the fuck are you in the middle of the road and touching peoples cars."

"Loud."

"Billy just let her go and come on!"

"You Billy?"

"No shit. What the fuck is wrong with your eyes?" I reach up and feel them.

"Not know."

"Why do you talk like you're retarded?" Retarded?

"Steve said speech im-imp..." I growl to myself when I couldn't pronounce the word.

"Speech impairment?" I nod. "So in other words you're an idiot."

"Not idiot."

"Billy we're gonna be late!"

"Shut the hell up Max!" I reach up and cover my ears. "What can't take a little yelling?"

"Loud."

"That's the point. Get the fuck out of the road." Another vehicle approaches and I smell Steve causing me to smile.

"Sevyn?" His door opens. "Sevyn!"

"Steve." I turn towards his car and hear his door close.

"Damn Harrington. You're friends with this retard?"

"Don't call her that."

"Steve what's retard?" I felt his hands on my face and he tilts my head from side to side.

"Nothing you have to worry about. What have a told you about the road?"

"I get hit?"

"Yes you could that's why you stay on the sidewalk."

"Side..walk?"

"When you're not by the woods, when the grass ends there's a sidewalk. You stick to that or the grass. You understand?"

"Yes."

"Move your car Harrington."

"Bye Billy."

"Whatever freak." I sense him go back to his car.

"Steve what is freak?"

"Something that you're not, okay?" I nod. "What were you doing in the road Sevyn?"

"Feeling." Billy's car produces a loud noise again causing me to cover my ears.

"Okay, let's go. Let's get in the car." He leads me to his car and closes the door behind me before I feel him walk away and to Billy's car. I listen to them as I relax in the seat.

"What do you want Harrington?"

"You don't call her a freak."

"And why not? She's the one standing in the middle of the road like one." What's a freak though? "Hey here's an idea Harrington move your fucking car." His car makes a loud noise again making me cover my ears. When it stops I let go. "Go back to your freak."

"I'm warning you, Hargrove."

"Billy let's just go."

"Shut up. I want to know what'll happen if I do it again."

"Try it." They both are angry. Angry isn't good. I reach over and press the thing that makes noise. I don't do it for long because it hurts.

"Go on bitch boy. Your freaks calling." I get out of the car when I hear a grunt from Billy. "That's how you want to do this Harrington?"

"Steve get in."

"No he wants to call you a fre-"

"I said in!" I feel him walk to the car.

"That's right Harrington listen to your freak." When Steve stops I turn my head to him.

"In car."

[bunny584]

we'll just have to find out then, won't we~ hehe

i really liked it and like i made such a cute ass paddle and what makes me even more mad is that my big ended up having to share a little with someone else after I was removed.

I've had the chance to travel to london, paris and rome for a trip in high school. i really want to go back to paris so i can appreciate the Louvre more than I did as a tiny teen. i did get a chance to see the lock bridge before it was taken down. my single ass put a little locket for me and 'whoever i loved in the future' asdfl;

then i want to hear from you about your sign! im really trying to figure out which one you are ;-; my brain is wracking itself trying to figure it out and i cant

and i personally would call myself sensitive, but like inwardly. I always feel i talk to much or express myself to much but I get told all the time by those who know me that i dont express myself as much as i think i do (typing for sure is one way for me to open up, brain can just truck for a bit and not feel bad about it)

would you consider yourself sensitive? and would you consider yourself more hard or soft?

-🦊

Omg look at you. Little romantic thing 🥹 putting a lock for you and whoever you’ll love in the future?! That’s poetic in so many ways. Many locks, for your many loves, no?

Hahaha I’m not gonna give it away that easy! My sun sign is water, rising is also water, moon is air. I would say whichever water sign has their head so far in the clouds they can see Saturn…that’s the one I am. I do get mistaken for the spicy water sign though.

Mmm. To piggyback on all the inward sensitivity…are you more introverted or extroverted?

And I’m as soft and sensitive as they come 😅 which is probably the antithesis of my career choice — essential an old boys club where perfect isn’t good enough.

[always-music0]

Run Rabbit Run

Hannah would considers herself the unluckiest girl in the world,having being born into a tangled web of murderers and monsters that live in your closet and under your bed. Until one day an unforeseen issue makes its way into her already fucked life and now if she thought her life sucked it’s about to get a whole lot worse.

Pt.2

A Creepypasta/ Twilight crossover 18+

There was worst things that could happen….

Remember how I said I was unlucky? Well this was one of those instances.

Brian being the most normal looking and best at the art of misdirection and hiding in plan sight would be the eyes and ears in town. Also being absurdly charming and handsome helped his case a whole fucking bunch not that I would tell him. so his job was keeping tabs on the police keeping tabs on local rumors or detouring people trying to stick their noses into their business. Which by default meant he would be my ride too and from school. Which sucked other than the fact that he said the dog could ride with us sometimes.

And this particularly day so happened to be the first day I actually would be attending classes.

We pulled into the parking lot a few minutes early and he put his bronco into park near the front of the school.

“So, Tim told me what you said about this place” he said and glanced over at me I groaned

“of course he did” I muttered Tim and Brian had to have a hive mind cause even when they don’t talk for days they always know what the other is thinking.

“So vampires?” He asked and chuckles I pursed my lips and turned my head to looks at him

“Yeah I know what I saw well sensed” I said and Brian smirked at me

“Yeah? And what was that?” He asked amused at my bad mood

“Well im no stranger to being around the feeling of hunger and some of these people just scream ‘STaRVING’” I explained and Brian nodded still smirking

“Well what do I scream?” He asked and I thought about it for a few seconds

“You scream Tim’s name an awful lot for being just friends” I quipped and this was my turn to grin unfortunately it was short lived

“Damn you got me there but don’t forget who wouldn’t even look at me for the first year you lived with us” he said and I cringed scowling

“Your fucking tall and so help me if I was gonna fuck my neck up to just look at your fugly face” I said smiling as Brian laughed

“You got me there babe” he said and patted me head I shoved his hand off and straightened my hair.

He then turned his whole body towards me and spoke directly at me.

“But seriously Tim meant what he said you wouldn’t be here if it was two high of risk” he said and my smile faded, yeah high risk meaning something I didn’t even want to think about it made me too sick.

“Yeah I know..” I said and he grabbed my hand

“I’ll be back to pick you up after school” he said and leaned over to kiss my head and for a moment I leaned into him and enjoyed the warmth and comfort he somehow still admitted of course when his counterpart came out that feeling went the the complete opposite.

But as soon as I leaned in I quickly pulled away.

“Gross Brian slobber” I complained and he laughed

“Get out of my truck” he said and I reluctantly opened the door and hopped down into the cool air. I turned around to grab my backpack. Brian grabbed my arm as I did.

“Hey you know how to reach me if you need to.” He said firmly and nodded.

“Yeah yeah” I said and he squeezed my arm once and let go. I shut the door only to have him unroll the window. I sighed this couldn’t be good. And as more and more students showed up in the most high pitch voice he could muster he called out which wasn’t that high at all considering how absurdly deep his voice was

“Bye pookieee have a great first day at schooll” he sang out. I winced and snapped at him

“Brian get the fuck out of here before I kill myself” I shushed him and he cackled

“Yeah right” I flipped him off as he pulled away and looked around to see if anyone had seen that embarrassing stunt he pulled. Thankfully it was limited to a few random people who didn’t really give a fuck and one person who would become a constant thorn in my side.

She strolled up pretty unsure and gave me a small smile

“Your first day too?” She asked and I nodded putting my walls up.

“Yeah unfortunately” I said as we started to walk up to the school.

“Well I’m Bella.” She said and extended her hand out for me to shake I tried not to show the panic on my face, I didn’t do friends on the sole purpose that most of them ended up dead anyways. Fuck it, ten months will be gone before I know it

“I’m Hannah” I said and shook her hand.

Thank you to those who read part one! Updates will be kinda random because I work quite a lot but I really love that the few who have found this little piece of me have liked it so far! And it is a work in progress so maybe someday it will be on other platforms and such! I also wanted to thank everyone for putting up with my god awful spelling or grammatical errors that’s something I’ve always struggled with lol anyways I hope you stay tuned for what I have to offer and have a great night/day/life <3 xoxo

[television-pil0t]

Unsurprising I went to the mental hospital. The Carolina Center for Behavioral Health. I stayed 2 almost 3 days.. maybe 3 almost 4 days idk. Idk time blindness is a bitch but whatever. I’m back so I’m gonna talk about it because.. GENUINELY what the fuck.

So I was having a episode odviously. Full out psychotic ass bitch. Voices, believing I was god, thinking there were tall black people in my room (shadow people I just like sounding racist) like the whole nine yards. After I got off I’d tumblr swing “I keep hearing shit” or “seeing shit” or whatever I said I’m not gonna check. I called my friend queenie. She was asleep.. of course. Like no duh it was late.

I’m talking to her and I have her my account so know she knows about my awful bad boy tumblr account but I wanted her to understand what was going on. She dead ass is like “daemon this is really bad. Like your not thinking straight.“ I’m like “whatever whatever I do what I want.” I hang up and sleep like nothing happened.

Next day hits me like a fuckibg truck. I completely convence myself to go to the FUCKING AIR FORCE! LITERALLY LIKE

BRO WHAT LMAO!! I GOT IN CONTACT WITH A FUCKING SARGENT BRO!! AT MY SCHOLL LIKE!! ?!?? So I clearly had no intention of.. preserving my life. I get into a PHYSICAL fight with one of my DEAR FRIENDS and tell him to FUCKING KILL MYSELF. Like.. basically pushing everyone away as fast and aggressively as possible so.. as I told my psychologist ”If I say something or do something so bad then I won’t be tempted to come back to them. And they will hate me to much to come back to me.” 😀? What was I on? Nothing MOTHERFUCKER AND THATS THE PROBLEM.

So after that I go home. I told queenie I was going to the military. She’s like “literally don’t cancel that. Like your not doing that. That’s as never in your plans. Your going so far off the rails rn. What’s up with you. You had a whole plan and you’ve gone so far from what you wanted to do like.. your so creative you can really do something with all this..” blah blah blah saying every true stuff but I was insane so I didn’t care. Hung up. Blocked her in everything. Said fuck her she doesn’t undersand me 🥺 and.. she called the police telling them I need to be taken to the hospital..

LMAO I DID BUT I WAS ODVIOUSLY MAD

THEY HAD EVERYONE OUT THERE BEO. The cops were farther down but they were making sure I didn’t try and kill myself or something so they brought everyone.

So I go to the hospital and I’m out of it at this point I can’t lie I barely remember this shit. Straight up. I don’t remember a lot of this whole.. few months because I’ve been stirring up a episode but like.. I really did good on dissociating the entire thing.

I do remember them giving me apple juice but it was open. I was like “can you.. give me another one I’m not happy that it’s open.” And they were like.. :/ and got me another one but THAT ONE WAS ALSO SLIGHTLY OPEN?! SO I WAS PISSED OFF. Because I was like?? ARE YOU TRYING TO DRUG ME LIKE?? WHY IS IT FUCKING OPEN CUNT?! I eventually just said fuck it and drank it and it did have meds in it because I was knocked out in a matter of a few minutes but like.. if they just told me I’d drink it?! I just don’t like they were like.. hiding it.

So some shit happened. At night they would watch me and I’d be like :/ and they would be like 🤨😦😑🫤 and I be like ☹️🥱😴 and that was that. So then..

This nurse?? Come in. It’s like 8 in the damn morning and I’m tired as fuck and she gives me breakfast and asked if im ok. I’m like “yeah whatever”. She’s like.. “do you know why your here” im say “because im a bad person.” He’s like “can you explain to me how.” I’m like “that would be to long and you have other patience and I’d rather just talk without a time limit.” She looks at me with the most.. “damn.. you right but shit” look I’ve ever seen and then leaves after writing something down on her little tablet.

I stay in the room almost all day. They keep checking in me. I keep responding the same.

So at the end of the day.. bout.??? 9 or 10 idk they didn’t have a clock in there. That nurse came back and sat down in a chair. She was like “would you like the light on” I was like “nah it’s better it adds dramatic effect when it’s dark” I make her laugh at this point I’m like “Hehe I’m in baby!” In where idk but lord knows I was fucking ovulating so nothing I was saying or doing was making since. Thinking with my dick and shit or something idk idk.

So we have a long conversation.

She gives me my phone… and I show her my tumblr..

She looks at me with the most 😐😧😦😬😨😰 look I’ve ever fucking seen. Like bro was SCARED.

She sets my phone down.. DOESN’T TURN IT OFF BTW. And goes “so you think you have aspd. You know you have bpd right.” I was like “very aware.” She was like “well.. I think you have some define characteristics of both.” I just kinda was like thinking ok the worst that could happen is that I stay here for like.. a month if I tell the complete truth. So I go all out. Say fuck it. Tell my whole ass truth because I’d im gonna be here im gone leave with a correct diagnosis and help that I need. I’m like “I feel like I’m constantly in conflict with myself about caring and not caring. Like I know I have abandonment issues but I broke up with my bf out of pure anger and then did shit just to hurt him and I did that to my friend when I got into a fight with him and I did that to my mom when she was still alive.” She as like “do you feel bad?” I was like “I don’t know.” She put her tablet down and it felt like she was just taking to me and not working. I know that’s literally just a ploy. She way probably recording the conversation but it felt nice. “Do you know what it feels like to feel bad about something?” I’m like “I think I remember.” And that goes into my emotional blindness and perception. After a while of not feeling a emotion I forget what it’s like and it feels like I’ve never experienced it before and I tell her that and she’s like “well that sounds like both disorders working together pretty well. Do you ever feel like your fighing against someone else in your head” and I’m like I don’t have DID but.. sometimes sure I do. Because it’s hard to keep both feeling in check. I don’t wanna be reckless but the more I think about something the more in convence myself what I’m doing is right.

So we start talking about people. We talk about the first and I admitted it was a bit irrational (now I know it was very dumb but I wasn’t there yet) and we talk about my mom because I just kept being her up and then she looked at my phone again and asked me how I felt about my ex. I was like “I feel like I did the same thing to him as my friend except I feel like I lost feeling.”

This woman said something that ripped my apart. “Did you lose feelings or did you just not remember them once he hurt you.”

Bro I’m gonna throw up at this point. She goes on because I’m completely silent because I never thought of that but she was completely right. “you wanna feel better than everyone else because that’s how you think you deserve to be treated. Do you treat others like that?” I’m like “yeah I treat all my friends well.” She looks at me and she’s like “do you? Do you treat them and say things you’d like to be said to you? Or do you stop being nice once you realize you can’t control them.” And I’m like “I think I’m nice.. I think I say nice things.” And then I remember again.. she was right. I’m just kinda a asshole. Once I realize I’ve lost someone’s “undying loyalty.” I stop caring for them. Happened with my mom. With Mali once he got a gf I almost completely treated him like a completely different person. Happened with khye. And we didn’t even talk about the “others” until the second day but..

I’m like at a lose. I’m really sad because I realized how bad I fucked up and I start feeling empty and like shit. Idk if it was guilt but.. it all made a lot of since

I felt like I couldn’t feel love for a very long time because I just forgot what it felt like. Not that I want loved by my bf I was. And I loved him. It was just I was having a episode and genuinely couldn’t see it or feel it at the time because sometimes in her words “when your long distance it’s hard to hold someone with your words. You seem to crave that. Even if you don’t want the physical affect do you think he hugged you with his words enough.” And I’m like “I think so. He wrote me letters and gave me gifts” and she as like “ok.. did those make you happy or did they make you feel warm. Did they remind you ‘oh yea this person loves me’ or was it more if just.. this is how I should be treated.” And I was like :( because damn girl this hurts. Your hurting me. She was like “did you stop loving your mom when you realized she didn’t do anything worth loving.” And I was about to fucking kill myself because as much as I saw her struggle.. in my mind the bare minimum was her feeding me and giving me a house and shit. That’s all she COULD do. That’s literally it. She could only do a little bit for me and I didn’t feel love for her when I realized that’s all she could do. That’s.. awful. I feel so fucking bad that I thought like that.. and that I thought like that too late before I could change it and be better. Yes she fucked up. We would fight and argue and she would say some awful shit but she also tried so hard to give me a good life with the best possible education and food on the table as often as she could and the fact that I didn’t see that as enough.. that sucks.

She basically kept going on for about an hour or 2 until I was like.. “damn. I’m tired.” She gave me my meds and I went to bed and the next morning I went out and talked to some people.

Met this guy that was pretty neet. I got called into the office and they talked to me some more this after noon. It was basically just “you have very conflicting mental illness and we’re surprised you haven’t ended it all yet. Here have meds.” Lmao

Fr tho. I have autism, bpd, adhd, and some kinda aspd (not officially diagnosed.. or maybe I am but they gave my paper to my parents and I never saw it.) but they were like “Your listed here as a self centered .. extremely selfish narcissist with paranoia, social anxiety and general psychosis or schizophrenia (like all of it delusions, hallucinations, disorganized, thoughts and behaviors etc I was fucked up yeah I know.)

So paranoid schizophrenic with narcissistic personality disorder and religious psychosis. (Supernatural reference) and I was like :/ damn son where’d you find this.

They gave me some meds to take and the. Kinda watched me for a while.. I have to go back and be watched a few more times cuz ya know but I’m not excited about it.

My meds definitely work. I’m not like.. batshit insane anymore but I still have my symptoms because they didn’t cure me. I still have to go to therapy and shit for a while. I feel bad because my friends fucking hated me for a while because queenie told them what happened and tbh I’m surprised I was even slightly forgiven. I don’t use my mental health as like a “sorry I did that” moment but literally they was no other explanation for what that happened. It was straight up I thought I was god full on insane mode and then basic “your think in a shitty way and that’s not your fault but you still have to work on changing it.” Therapy.

Am I gonna apologize. Yeah. When.. idk. I pissed off so many people I’ve the past couple of days including my parents. They didn’t believe me at first but now they feel really bad for everything and shit.

[oswildin]

im feeling extra sad so i was requesting steven sending you a voicemail of appreciation? he just rambles, goes off track if he brings something up and ykyk. him telling you that he loves how u laugh, care for him, brighten the mood etc.

pure LOVE

i honestly shouldve asked first if you take requests 😃

Thank you for the request! I hope you are feeling less sad now, and I’m sending you all the love in the world 💚 hope this is ok!

Imagine Steven leaving you voicemails:

Steven exited the museum, exhausted after his long shift. He couldn’t wait to get home and just relax. He had plans to see you for dinner, but decided to do what he often did. It was funny. He had once told you ‘don’t answer my call when I get off work’ and you only looked at him in confusion, hesitantly agreeing, not sure what on earth he was talking about. Why didn’t he want you to pick up? But then it made sense when you finally listened to the voicemail. Steven had told you ‘keep these and if you ever feel down in the week you can listen to them and know how much I appreciate you’.

So with that, Steven pulled out his phone, dialling your number as he walked towards the bus stop, a small smile on his lips already.

‘You have reached the one and only (Y/N) (L/N), sorry I can’t come to the phone at the moment, um, I’m probably busy- that’s a lie, I’m never busy- but anyway leave a message!’

Beep.

“Hey Tink-“ Steven used your nickname. He had settled on the nickname ‘Tink’, as in Tinkerbell, because you brought light into his life. Sweet huh? “Just got out of work. Donna was her usual charming self-“ He joked. “But erm, just leaving this message to tell you that you are amazing.” He breathed out. “You made it through another week. Woo!” He subconsciously fist pumped the air as a passerby gave him an odd stare. “But anyway, as I was saying. You are wonderful, smart, funny and sometimes I have to pinch myself to make sure I’m not dreaming and that you are real.” He laughed slightly. “Honestly, the only thing getting me through todays shift was knowing I get to see you later. I know, I know I’m a soppy git. Oh! I’m gonna pick up your favourite flowers also, considering last weeks are probably dead now-“

Yup, Steven even went as far as to buy you flowers every week.

“Oh gosh, will anywhere be open now?” He paused, frowning as he began to think. “Hmm, I’ll work something out. It’s the least I can do for you putting up with me.” He joked, as he neared the bus stop, seeing it approaching. “I better go. Surprised your voicemail hasn’t-“

‘You have reached the time limit to leave a message. Please hang up and redial.’

“Bollocks.” Steven muttered, hanging up, again calling you as it rang out, the bus getting closer.

‘You have reached the one and only (Y/N) (L/N), sorry I can’t come to the phone at the moment, um, I’m probably busy- that’s a lie, I’m never busy- but anyway leave a message!’

“Sorry! Me again.” He laughed. “Voicemail did cut off. Should’ve known it would happen. Not the first time.” He commented as he fumbled for his wallet to get his travel card. “But er- what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re amazing. Obviously.” He smiled to himself. “But I better go, the bus is here and I have 3 hours until I see you. So, I will tell you then as well how amazing you are. And oh! I’ve got a new joke to tell you. You know how I love your laugh. Sorry- getting off topic again.” He sighed, the bus stopping in front of him. “Anyway, I’ll see you tonight, and I love you.

Laters gators.”

[bbybaku]

cranky no nut november boyfriend shigaraki

yes i know its july. 

1.8 k words 

slow burn but there is smut 

warnings: angry shig, humiliation, degrading, oral (fem recieving), use of vibrator, shoes on bed, angst, fluff, mentions of masturbtion

your boyfriend, tomura shigaraki, had made a bet with his friends, about who could last the longest during no nut november.

you thought a month wouldn’t be that bad, right? you guys could handle it.

the first few days were nothing. you two were busy and didnt think that much of it. 

but the first weekend shiggy had invited you over to watch a movie. which was usually code for “let’s fuck”

you went over to his apartment, about 20 minutes into the movie you slipped your hand under the blanket, feeling around for his cock.

“hey” he said softly but irritated as he picked up your hand and moved it.

“what? we always-“ you asked

“i’m taking this month seriously, i can eat you out or something but we cant, you cant” he said

 you were not expecting him to take it this seriously.

you knew your boyfriend he never took anything seriously? why did he have to take this stupid month seriously.

“well, do you want?” he asked as he ran his fingers over your clothed clit.

“no let’s just hang out tonight” you said.

“okay” he said then kissed you on the head and pulled you into his lap.

you could feel his erection. but you knew you had to ignore it. 

week 2 was easy because shigaraki was out of town for a work trip.

you didn’t know how he was doing it. no sex was one thing, but not even masturbating?

you had been touching yourself every day to the thought of him, the pictures you had of him and sometimes 

the movies you had made together.

the night he got back he came straight to your apartment.

he looked pale.

you went in for a hug, but he pushed you away.

“no” he snapped “ i just wanted to see you”

you gulped “oh okay”

you cooked dinner and he told you about the trip.

the space between your thighs ached the entire evening.

you asked him to stay the night but he said he no.

and he left. 

it was day 15. you needed him. your hand could only do so much. you couldnt do what he could do. he knew your body better than you did. 

you texted him to hang out. 

the two of you got coffee then made out in the car. 

his mouth tasted so good. your body presses against the console, arms around his neck. the kiss starting equal but he very quickly shoved his tongue in your mouth. he took your jaw in his hand and held your face while his tongue circled yours. you sucked on his bottom lip. his hand found your tit. your hand found his crotch. 

shigaraki instantly pulled away, he was pissed “how many fucking times do i have to tell you no?” 

you sighed “im sorry i just-” 

he pushed his hair out of his face and took your jaw in his hand again. “look at me. i want to be inside of you so bad. i think about you all the time. i love you so much but we just cant right now.”

 his tone made you want him even more. it was embarrassing how hot you got  when he was irritated. and he knew it. 

“i hate this stupid challenge” you said through his grip on your jaw. 

“do you want to be like that?”  he talked down to you with a smirk.

“we can always go back to my apartment, and work on your attitude” he said letting go of your face and grabbing the gear shift. 

you had soaked through your panties a while ago. you were excited but knew you wouldnt be filled up the way you wanted to be. 

the drive to shiggys apartment was agonizing. the sexual tension was higher now than it was on your first date. it felt like you were getting stopped at every red light, the car in front of you was always going slow. and both of you were sweating. 

he had one hand rubbing your thigh and the other on the steering wheel, except at stops when he would run it through his shaggy hair. when he finally got to his apartment complex the two of you practically sprinted inside. 

“elevator?” you asked pressing the up button repeatedly. 

he took his hands out of his pockets and said “stairs” 

the two of you raced up to the fourth floor, you beat him but just barely. once both of you were in the hallway he picked you up and slung you over his shoulder.

once in his apartment he didnt even turn the lights on, he took you to his bed and threw you on it. 

he stood over you and sighed. “its your lucky day” he then pushed you up to the headboard and pulled off your panties. so eager, you were both still wearing shoes and the window was open. 

you shivered at the cold air on your exposed heat. 

shigaraki just stared for a minute. he loved vulnerability. 

he loved having you at his mercy. 

he pushed your skirt up and grabbed onto your thighs. 

“i knew you would be soaked.” he shook his head “such a whore” he said.

and just like that he dove right in.  

he licked up your folds and you bucked your hips to meet him. 

his grip on your thighs tightened and he pushed you into the bed.

“dont move” he met your eyes when he said it.

he started sucking hickies on your inner thighs, his fingers teasing at your clit. 

you held his head in your hands, not directing him, but rubbing his scalp. 

he occasionally hummed into your thighs at the feeling. 

he pulled off of your inner thigh and brought his mouth and nose to your entrance. you whimpered, expecting him to relieve your ache. 

he blew cold air on your exposed heat. 

you cried out. 

and shigaraki crawled up to meet you at eye level. 

he straddled you and leaned down “beg.” he whispered 

“please” you whispered

“i dont get anything for this. why should i be nice if i dont get the reward of your tight little pussy? or getting to fuck your pretty face. make it worth my while. give me this one little thing.  i said to beg like the whore you are.” 

you gulped. “please tomura. i touch myself to the thought of you every day and nothing satisfies me like you do. i just want you. i want you to fill me up and please let me come. please sir.” 

“hmm okay, i guess but its embarrassing that you touch yourself so much, you really are a whore.” he said as he repositioned his mouth at your entrance. 

he once again pinned your hips to the bed and brough his mouth to your entrance.

his long slender fingers ran through your folds a few times before stopping at your clit and rubbing circles. 

you moaned in pleasure, finally. shigaraki was relieving your ache. 

he sucked on your entrance and drank your juice like it was water from the tap. you could feel his tongue at your entrance, he tease then run his tongue through your folds. 

your entire body was shaking and the knot in your stomach was about to release. 

“please i - can i please” you whined. 

shikaraki hummed yes into you, his grip on your thighs tightening 

the hum was what sent your over the edge, your walls tightening and releasing around shigarakis mouth. 

he pulled off for a moment and looked at you “that was fast. youre so easy, y/n, you know that?” 

and at that he went right back to what he was doing, only this time it was his finger. at your entrace and his tongue on your clit. 

his tongue going all around and eventually stopping and making out with your bud. 

you were crying at the pleasure. 

his long fingers going in and out, and in and out. at no particular speed or regularity and occasionally stoping to curl inside you. 

your hands went to shiggys hair, but you couldnt control yourself the way you had earlier. your hands were shaking as the held onto his head.

you came again, it was so fast you didn’t even have the time to ask.

you could feel him smiling on you.

shigaraki pinched your thigh, acknowledging your high, but showed no sign of stopping.

he maneuvered a little bit, grabbing something under the bed while still fingering you. 

if you thought you were a mess before, you were wrong. because you were even more of a mess when shigaraki started rubbing around your clit with a vibrator. 

your back arched and you grabbed onto the sheets, so as not to pull on shiggys hair, “pleASE. m-gonna c--um” you barely got out. 

your lower body convulsing. 

tears started streaming down your face, it hurt so good. “dont cum yet, baby. i want you to wait this time. like i have to wait.” 

“no-oh-oh-o” you sobbed 

shigaraki mustve been getting irritated because his grip on you tightened, and he pinched your inner thigh. 

“please” you whimpered, running your fingers through his hair as gently as you could. 

“no” he said sweetly. 

your vision was starting to blur and you were still crying, “isnt this what you wanted darling?” shigaraki asked. 

you only sobbed in response, you were loosing the ability to form coherent sentences. 

the knot in your stomach released without warning, and you came on shigaraki’s vibrator. 

with that he sighed and stood up, going to the bathroom to help you clean up. 

despite your scattered brain, you knew your boyfriend well enough to know that he was in agony. 

“does it hurt?” you asked him between deep breaths. 

refering to how bad he wanted you, and how hard he was in his pants. 

he waled back in with a towel and said “yes” looking down at the ground. 

“well what if we” you started. 

“no, im tired of having to explain this to you.”

“please, i just want you so bad” you begged as he climbed on top pf you.

“i said no! just fucking shut up” he snapped

“why?" you whinned

he found your wrists and pinned your hands beside your head on the bed. 

“everyone gets a different penalty. do you know what mine is if i fail? huh? do you want to know”

"um i-” 

you went to speak but no words came out. 

shigaraki leaned down “my penalty is to send the group chat a video of us having sex” 

“oh” you said feeling yourself blush

he gulped and looked away “which i really dont want to do because you are mine.”

he released your wrists and fell on top of you, “youre all mine” 

“please just wait 2 more weeks” he whispered into your neck. 

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Vinnie Hacker x Female Reader

warnings: daddy kink, degrading, some praise, cockwarming, slight spanking.

1.4k words, briefly edited!

So um this is def not a blurb lol, got carried away! sorry lmao! if anyone wants a part 2 let me know and send in ideas!

Requests are open, send in your blurb reqs or concepts! my anons are open too! i also do emoji anons if anyone is interested!

Vinnie has been playing Valorant almost all day and watching him play can be super fun. Sometimes he lets you wear his headset and talk to the boys, sometimes he trys to teach you how to play, others you just like sitting there with him. Today you have done all 3 of those things and you are still bored. You are currently trying to take a nap but he keeps distracting you. Not because he is being loud but he is hot. He doesn't have a shirt on so every time he moves his back flexes, you watch his tattoo move.

"Fuck." Vinnie says as he throws his hands in the air. He stands up to stretch and his sweats slide just a little lower on his waist. You can see his v-line and all you can think about is trailing kisses down his stomach and stopping right at his spade tattoo, leaving kisses all around it, teasing him until he grabs you by the chin, giving you the warning look.

"Babe?...Baby?...Y/N?" Vinnie says calling at you.

"Hmm?" you hum.

"What's on your mind baby? I can tell you were thinking about something." He says slightly concerned/

"Nothing baby, i'm just tired." you answer still feeling your heart beat in 2 different places.

"Okay baby, I love you." He says when he comes over and gives you kisses.

Vinnie gets back into the game and you "take a nap." In reality you are thinking of a way you can get what you want. The idea hits you, a pillow under the desk that's "for hera".

You grab one of the decorative pillows and make your way over to Vinnie. You know that he won't hear you coming, so as you approach the desk you get down on your knees and crawl. You don't think Vin can see you but he can and all he does is smirk to himself, he wants to see what your plan is.

You crawl underneath the desk and set the pillow down right in between his legs. You act like you are setting the pillow just right when he glances down at you with a questioning look.

"Its for hera, when she lays down here!" you say with a slight smirk.

"Yeah?" he says with a slightly cocky tone that makes you clench your legs together.

Instead of crawling out the way you came in, you get in between his legs. You place your hands on his knees and give him a small smile. You slowly start to run your hands up his thighs, causing him to spread them and push his hips forward.

Your hands go to his hips as you sit up on your knees, you run the tips of your fingers over the ace of spades tattoo causing him to let out a low groan. You play with the band of his sweats and right when he thinks you are going to pull them down, you run your hands over his bulge instead. He mutes himself on the game and you know you have him where you want him.

"You know better than to tease me bunny, finish what you started or you will come warm my cock while I play." he says with a stern tone.

You will his sweats down and his cock springs out hitting his stomach, leaving a drop of pre cum on his stomach. You swipe your finger through it and suck the finger into your mouth.

"Tastes good daddy." You moan out giving him the best puppy dog eyes that make him melt every time.

You take the base of his cock in your hand and spit on the tip, bringing your hand up to spread it around. As you slowly jerk him off you press small kisses to his tip, still teasing him despite his previous warning. He gives you another warning look, so you take his tip in between your lips and suck.

One of his hands goes to the back of head, pushing you to take more of his cock your mouth.

"Just like that bunny, got the best mouth." He praises you and feels you moan around his cock.

You bob your head up and down, while using your tongue to swirl around him just how he likes. You hear a new round start and that's when you take him all in.

"Fuck, bunny." He says bringing his hands down, making a makeshift ponytail and using that to control you. Completely abandoning the game.

You moan around him and feel him twitch in your mouth, you know he is getting close but he's not wear you want him yet. As you bob your head up and down with his help, you reach a hand down to grab his balls. You squeeze them in your hand and that's when he bucks up into your mouth and twitches.

"Fuck bunny, gonna cum down that pretty throat. Keep going baby." He moans out while his hand relaxes on your head.

That's when you take the opportunity to completely pull away except for your hand on the base his cock. His tip is red and dripping pre cum, the veins on his cock are pulsing and he his pissed. He pushes his chair out a little more and grabs you by the elbow.

"Stand up and take of your clothes off now." he says with lust and anger in his eyes.

You stand and slowly start stripping, once your (his) shirt is off, you take your panties off and throw them over his head but he catches them. He grabs you by the hips and places you on his lap, hovering over his cock.

"What did I tell you slut? Huh?" He almost yells at you.

"Not to tease." he whisper while looking anywhere but his eyes.

He grabs you by the chin making you look at him as he slides you down on his cock. He watches the way your eyebrows furrow together and your mouth drops open, letting out the prettiest moan as he bottoms out.

You run your hands up his arms and put them over his shoulders, getting ready to bounce on his cock when he grabs your hips stopping you.

"Daddy, wanna ride you. Please." You pout at him with the puppy dogs eyes that he loves oh so much.

"No, those eyes aren't going to work this time. I told that if you teased you'd warm my cock and that is what you are going to do." He says while rubbing his thumbs in little circles on your hips.

"But da-" you whine before he interrupts

"No. Now you can either be a good bunny and sit her while I play and maybe i'll let you cum when Im done. Or you can be a whore and not get anything. I'll use you right now to make myself cum and then you'll get off. Which one you want baby?" He asks with most sly smirk.

As you take one of your hands and place it on his cheek, using your thumb to play with his bottom lip you mutter out "Be a good bunny, wanna cum daddy."

He pecks your lips a few times, giggling at his little bunny pouting on his lap all because she lost her own game. "Good choice bunny, wanna feel you make a mess on my cock later."

You whine out knowing he is trying to rile you up more and it's working. You make yourself as comfy as you can with his cock bottomed out in you and not getting anything else from it but the beautiful pressure of him on your sweet spot. You think that maybe if you stay as still as you can it will over quicker.

Right as you lay your head down on his shoulder and he scoots his chair in to start a new game he says something that ruins your whole plan of "staying still"

"Better hope this game I do good, you know a move a lot when I lose. Know you were watching me earlier bunny, me losing is what started this." He says.

You sit up and give it one last go, see if you can get yourself out of this.

"Im sorry daddy, I just can't help it. You look so good baby, wanted to make you feel good." you give him the puppy dog eyes, the pout, and clench around him.

All you get is a slap on the ass and him chuckling while putting his headset on. You are going to be in for a long ride ;)

AHHH LIKE I SAID ITS MORE THAN A BLURB!! THANK YOU TO THE 2 ANONS WHO SENT IN THEIR IDEAS!! I HOPE YALL LIKE THIS! LEMME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS!

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Hi! Can I request #30, 70 and 72 with Owen Power? Love your writing by the way. Excited for this Blurb Saturday:)

hey nommie !! im starting to love o so i was rlly excited to write this one, and thank u for being excited as well ahh that makes me happy :)) i like this one so i hope u enjoy <3

warnings: sad thoughts (reader doesn't feel good enough), reader has a breakdown

"come here."

"i'm such a disappointment."

"everything about myself is unlikeable."

growing up, you and owen always had a close bond. you went through everything together, from puberty to breakups, from graduation to now. he was your rock and you were his.

you knew it wasn't right for you to develop feelings for him but you couldn't help it. you loved everything about him. it was hard to keep it in, especially because you guys told each other every little detail about your lives, but you'd done alright so far.

today was different, however. it was one of those days, everyone had them. the ones where you don't feel like enough. you feel like a burden, like the world would be better without you. you felt like no one truly liked you and that everyone was just putting up a facade.

the day was spent crying into your pillow as you laid in bed. you'd gotten up to brush your teeth in the morning but that was it. your day wasn't busy, but it sure felt like a lot. it completely slipped your mind that you and owen had planned to have a late lunch together.

when he pulled up to your place and used the spare key you gave him to let himself in, he knew something was off. usually your place smelt sweet because you were baking, one of your hobbies. but the lights were off and his nose wasn't hit with any pleasant scent.

there weren't any sounds, either. it was just.. quiet, and not in a good way. he decided to walk around to see where you were. maybe you weren't home?

he was wrong; he heard your cries as soon as he opened your bedroom door. panic was all he felt. he closed the door shut before walking over to your bedside, placing a hand on your back — which made you jump — and crouching down to meet your eyes.

"hey, what's wrong bug?"

the sight of your quivering lip and glossy eyes hurt his heart. you sniffled, wondering how to answer his question as he brushed your hair out of your face and rested his hand on the back of your head.

"i'm such a disappointment."

"no you're not," he said immediately. his voice was stern, and he almost felt insulted that you'd say something like that about yourself.

"i am o, no one likes me."

your face contorted into one of pain and you shoved your head back into your pillow as you started to cry. owen climbed into the other side of your bed and sat against the frame, hoping to soothe you.

"come here.." he spoke before grabbing you from under your arms.

"owen! no— what are you doing?"

"i'm trying to help you! just come into my lap, come on."

you let out a shaky breath, perching yourself up with your hands and glaring before listening to him and placing yourself in his lap. he wrapped his arms around you and you let your head rest against his chest, one hand playing with the chain around his neck.

"buggy—"

"don't call me that," you cut him off with a stuffy nose.

"it's been your name forever.. my name for you. now can you tell me what's wrong?"

you teared up again and you felt stupid that you'd spent the whole day crying because you were insecure. you thought about your feelings for him and a sob wracked through your body, making you shove your head into the crease of his neck.

"everything about myself is unlikeable," you cried, eyes squeezing shut while you tried to stop the tears. "i just w-want to leave, i feel so bad here."

owen shook his head, rubbing a hand over your back. he'd talk to you about your confession later, for now he had to get you to stop crying.

"shh, it's okay. you're okay, i'm here."

"you're gonna l-leave too."

that caught him off guard. his breath hitched in his throat and he felt like the air had been knocked out of him.

"i'm not going to leave you, y/n. i never will, i promise. everything's okay— i'm telling you i'm here and i always will be."

his words seemed to send something to your heart and your head, and he felt it because your cries quieted down instantly. you looked up at him and again, the sight of your face was too much for him to handle.

"you mean it?" you asked shakily.

he cupped your cheeks, both of you dismissing how close you were to each other. he used the pads of his thumbs to wipe the wetness away from your eyes.

"you're everything to me. when i say i'm always going to be here, i mean it."

you nodded, hastily wrapping your arms around his neck to hug him.

"i love you, o."

he didn't know what you meant. he'd never know that you really meant it, but he said it to you anyway:

"i love you too."

[nightowlfandom]

Kanato Sakamaki- I’m Sadistic For You

FINALLY SOMEONE REQUESTS DIABOLIK LOVERS CONTENT AAAAHHH THANK YOU BESTIE! I GOT YOUR OTHER ONE AND I’M DOING IT TOO!  

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For Kanato from DL ( I haven’t seen much done for him and it makes me sad because he’s a favorite ). (: I could Lowkey do some more if you’re not super bogged down I had another idea BUT I ALREADY SUBMITED ANOTHER BEFORE THIS SO IM NOT GONNA OVERWHELM YOU LOL but- anyway Fee free to be as nsfw with my prompts (if you do them) as you want. I dont have any triggers so- writing them super accurate and sadistic won’t bother me :3

Bruh....Jesus is my helmet...but NOT TODAY let’s fucking go! Okay readers, you heard, they aint got no triggers. So if you do...move it along.

52- “You can’t call me cute!”

80- “Shut up! I’m not blushing!”

31-“You need to be taught a lesson…”

81- “You look so...inviting all tied up.”

84- “What’s the word I’m looking for?....Pet!”

Also in this you and Yui are BFFs because she isn’t some cold hearted bitch (homegirl trips over oxygen, plus I love her lol)

I was legit about to have him spit in your mouth....I’m so shameful...maybe next time.

Leggo!

I’m turning into a Yandere account and I am totally okay with that.

...

“You know living here isn’t that bad.” you mused to Yui. “When no one is talking.”

Your friend laughed as she cut up some carrots. Yui turned to look at you as she prepare to peel some potatoes. “So living here is terrible every day other than right now?” she replied.

You couldn’t help but burst out laughing. She wasn’t wrong. 

You and Yui were making dinner for the house. After a ambush that landed everyone injured except you and her (thankfully). You had offered to make soup and stew for everyone. They were all in their respective rooms healing while you had prepared everything.

“They really fought hard today, I thought Kanato was about to rip that vampires jaw off. He’s really protective of you, Y/N.” she winked. “I think he likes you more than he lets on.” 

Kanato and you had a very strange relationship. He hated you, but he didn’t HATE you. No one could lay a finger on you, no one could even look at you, even if he said he didn’t care. Reiji tried to and Kanato almost murdered him.

“He then told me that Teddy said I was ugly.” you reminded her flatly. “Yeah he so cares.” you snorted.

“Maybe he has trouble telling you his feelings”

“I wish everyone was as optimistic as you.” you shook your head. “Looks like the soup is finished.” 

“I’m just saying Y/N, just think about it.”

...

You only had one bowl of soup left to deliver, to Kanato’s room. You grumbled as you stood outside the door. 

“Kanato? It’s me.” you knocked on the door. “I’m coming in okay?” 

Before you could wait for an answer you opened the door and walked in with the cart. 

Kanato was laying on his bed when you entered, groaning in what you assumed was boredom.

“Teddy, tell Y/N that I don’t want whatever she made.” Kanato turned away from you. The scars he had suffered on his back said it all. All for you...

Your recalled the terror in your voice as you had screamed for help as the rogue vampire wrapped his claws around your leg. Kanato’s name was the first to escape your lips as you had tried to crawl away to Yui. You remembered reaching out to Kanato with your strongest hand, begging him to save you.

The look in his eyes was feral as he screamed your name too, grabbing you hand and pulling you to him. You were sobbing into his chest, clutching onto him for dear life for a good ten seconds before Yui replaced him, hugging you tightly in her small arms too. Before you knew it, the rogue’s head had been thrown through a window...

...

“Y/N, Look at me! You’re safe now...you’re safe with me...”

...

“Teddy, could you please tell Kanato that while his pouting is very adorable, it won’t get him out of this?”

“Don’t call me cute! You can’t do that.” Kanato glared at you through hooded eyes. “If I wasn’t so weak I’d-”

“Well let me take care of you.” you cut him off, taking the bowl to him. “For me?”

Kanato paused, his glare softening. 

“You must be in love with me if you’re so insistent on me getting better.” he grumbled, sitting up. “Y/N is in love with me Teddy!”

“Kanato.” you felt your face heat up violently. “Don’t say things like that.” you groaned.

“It’s blushing teddy, how cute!”

Kanato’s use of the word ‘it’ wasn’t new to you. In fact when he wasn’t calling you names, chasing you around with forks pretending to stab you, or worse, it was denoting you to objects.

“H-hey! I am not blushing!” you pouted. “My face just looks that way.” you lied. “S-shut up.” you grumbled.

“And what if I don’t feel like it?” he challenged, knowing you wouldn’t say a word back. You were kind of like Yui. You wouldn’t dare challenge any of the Sakamaki brothers. It was a death sentence in every sense of the word.

“Kanato, I just want you to feel better.” you looked down at your feet. 

“There’s one thing you can do.” Kanato used his strength to stand to his feet. Despite his looks, he was tall, and under that cute exterior was a mean and feral beast. He staggered over to you, a sick smile on his face. That couldn’t be good, not by a long shot. 

“And what exactly would that be?” you asked. You couldn’t look at him. You didn’t wanna know what he was planning. You were positive that it wasn’t gonna end well either. 

“Get on your knees.”

“My knees?” you repeated. “Why do you want me to-”

“Now Y/N.” he spoke over you. You felt his hand on your shoulder. “I don’t like repeating myself.” his nails dug into your skin, causing your knees to wobble under the pain. “On. Your. Knees!”

Your feet gave out, practically sending you crashing down to the floor. You looked like a dog, on your hands and knees. You appeared weak and pathetic.

You found it in yourself to look up at Kanato. Teddy was perched on the bed, ‘watching’ you two. You felt his fingertips creep under your chin. 

“Aww...” he smiled. “You’re like a little...What’s the word I’m looking for...PET!. It’s cute.” He caressed the side of your face. “Too bad I kill all my pets...they can’t handle me...can you handle me, Pet?”

“Yes, Kanato.” you found yourself saying. You felt like you didn’t have a choice...

and you loved every second of it.

“Bullying you has made me regain my strength! Isn’t this wonderful?” he wrapped one of his hands around your neck. “You’re so fun to torment” he laughed.

“K-kanato.” you coughed.

“Is it hard to breath. Y/N?” he asked sinisterly, that crazed smile gracing his lips. His words were terrifying although his actions said otherwise. He loosened his grip on your throat, allowing air to flow more freely. It was those small things that made you think he didn’t hate you as much as he loved to preach.

“Y/N...when that vampire came...I thought I was gonna lose you for good this time” he said sadly, allowing his arm to return to his side. “I thought I had-...that you were gonna die.” 

“You saved me though.” you replied. Kanato knelt down to your level, still slightly above you. 

“Yeah...because if anyone is gonna break you, it’s gonna be me.”

“I care about you a lot, Kanato.” you finally said it. “I like you too much.” you exposed yourself. “I want you stay by your side.” you said pathetically. “Even if you hate me.”

Before you could say another word, Kanato claimed your lips in a kiss. He held the sides of your face in his hands. It was the first time he had ever kissed you. He hummed thoughtfully, pushing you down to the floor so you were laying on your back. He crawled over you, not breaking the kiss. 

“K-kanato.” you whimpered.

“You need to be taught a lesson. If your gonna be my girlfri- I mean pet, you’ll have to learn.” he kissed down your neck.

Suddenly, Kanato ripped the seam of your jeans all the way up your left leg, leaving it completely exposed to the air.

“Oh look, your clothes are messed up, guess we’ll have to take them off.” he smirked. In another swift motion, your pants were torn to shreds. The fabric fell in a circle around you both.

“Teddy look! Y/N is wearing such cute panties.” he cackled maniacally. “Her naughty place is leaking.”

You trembled, waiting for him to do whatever it was he was planning.

“I heard blood tastes better when it’s from your naughty place.” he ran his tongue along the top row of his teeth. “Y/N” he moaned, running his index finger along your clothed heat. “You smelled so much better here...I just want to- ungh.”

He suddenly drove his fangs into your right thigh. You gasped, arching your back. He violently grabbed your legs, holding them down. His tongue lashed against your freshly made wound. 

You could hear him whimpering, cursing under his breath. 

Kanato would deny it with his life, but everything about you was like a drug to you. Tasting your blood was even sweeter than every dessert he’s ever tasted. Feeling you whimper and plea for him did things to him that would make a sailor blush. 

Forget Yui, forget his brothers, forget it all.

“Fuh-” Kanato couldn’t take it anymore. He couldn’t stop himself from ripping off your panties and driving his tongue into your most sensitive parts. Hearing you moan for him, cry for him. 

The rumors were right, vampires were godly lovers. It was like Kanato knew what you wanted and where. He lashed his tongue against your heat, grabbing your legs. 

“Wrap your legs around my head,” he demanded. “Not like it’s gonna kill me.” he laughed manically. “

Knock knock

“Y/N, are you in there?” Yui’s small voice caused you to panic a little. As you tried to get up, Kanato pushed you right back down, growling into your pussy,

“FUCK!” you whined, making it very obvious what you two were up to. “Kanato, I can’t-”

“Then don’t.” he grunted, not ceasing his movements. “Cum, cum for me.”

“K-KAANAAA!” you cried as you came. You thrashed and writhed under his touch, but he didn’t stop. His tongue never stopped moving. “fuh- fuck! Kanato, t-too much!”

“I said cum for me, I didn’t say I’d stop.” he thrust his fingers into you to add insult to injury. “You’re so fun to fuck with!” he spat.

“Kanato!” you sobbed. You couldn’t stop moving, you couldn’t stop thrashing. Th epleasure had gotten to you so much, you were drooling.

He finally withdrew his mouth from you, smiling evilly at the mess he left.

Kanato had grabbed one of his ties that had left on the floor and bound your wrists together.

“You look so inviting tied up for me...” he shuddered as he bit his lip. He licked his fingers clean of your blood and juices. “Good thing the night is young...because I’m not done with you.”

...

[reidsnose]

love letters

overview: spencer has a wonderful idea after finding out that reader had never gone to her senior prom

genre: fluff fluff fluff

a/n: i mixed two ideas that have been sitting in my notes app for this lol but i think its sweet!! i wrote it a little rushed and definitely not bc im not getting a prom this year due to miss rona👀 LMAO but as always please lmk what yall think ab it :)

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the idea had fully occupied his thoughts the second after the words left your mouth.

it was "the buttcrack of dawn" as you had called it, though spirits were high on the late jet ride home. it was a rare but much needed positive end to the case, and everyone was happily chatting with each other. since the case was involving high schoolers, the subject fell on prom. everyone went around sharing their prom stories one by one, recalling awful dresses and questionable dates til the questions turned to spencer.

"what ab you, pretty boy, what was your prom like?" morgan asked, still smiling widely from recalling his own.

you watched spencer shift uncomfortably for a second.

"i uh..i never went to prom." he stammered, a tight lipped smile on his face.

"no! you just dont wanna tell us!" prentiss cried, throwing her hands in the air.

"i graduated high school when i was 12! why would i have gone to prom?" he reasoned.

"you had to have gone when you were older or something! everyone has!" jj countered.

"thats not true, i never went to prom either," you defended, subconsciously inching closer to spencer.

before anyone could even ask you to explain why, spencer got the idea. he mentally left the conversation after you gave your answer. he spent the whole rest of the ride home and the next couple of weeks brain storming and planning.

and casually after work one day, as he was walking you to your car, he asked you if you wanted to hang out with him that weekend; at his house.

you and Spencer had hung out before, but mostly at your house or at coffee shops; he didn't invite people over very often.

of course you agreed but you grew confused when he told you to dress fancy.

you raced home afterwards to raid your closet, looking for any fancy dresses you may have stuffed in there.

spencer spent the whole day preparing his apartment. he put up streamers and balloons. he made a playlist of all your favorite songs. and then he rushed to get his clothes from the cleaners.

and when you knocked at his door the breath that left your lungs struggled to come back after he opened the door.

he stood in a gorgeous suit, different than he had ever worn to work. he rubbed the back of his neck and gestured to the living room, revealing the adorable (albeit poorly made but its the thought that counts) decorations.

"um.. welcome to prom," he said, turning back to you, revealing a blushy smile.

he tried not to stare too much at you, but it was difficult. your eyes sparkled as you stepped inside and looked around. and the dress you were wearing fit you so gorgeously he truly couldnt take his eyes off of you.

"spencer, i..." you trailed off, enchanted by what he had done.

"sorry if it looks bad. or if you think its weird that i did this. i just thought cause neither of us went to prom maybe you wanted to have a little one with me? yeah now that i say it out loud maybe you hate it im sorr-" he rambled behind you.

you turned quickly to him as he got lost in his words, eyes glued to the floor. cutting him off by wrapping your arms around his neck and hugging him as tight as you could. you could feel the tension leave his body as he melted into the embrace, returning it gladly. he doesn't like to be touched by anyone really, except for you.

"i love it. thank you," you whispered, giving him one last squeeze before letting go.

he has a spread of snacks lying out on the coffee table which he has mooved to the corner of the room to make space for a makeshift dancefloor.

he turns on the music and you two start talking and dancing and laughing. two fools with four left feet completely and obliviously in love. well, oblivious the the other anyway.

a slower song came on, an old one that you had wanted to slow dance to ever since you were a little girl. and somehow naturally you two came together, his hand dropped to your waist, the other delicately cradling your own. your other hand found its way up to his shoulder, feeling as though a magnet was pulling you two closer. and closer.

he looked absolutely stunning. the soft lights he had strung around the apartment sparkled like stars in his eyes; its was...dizzying, in the most incredible way.

unbeknownst to you, as you stared at the stars in his eyes he was looking at his whole world that he had been somehow lucky enough to hold in his arms.

he held his arm out, allowing you to spin and when he pulled you back both of your arms ended up wrapped around his neck, and his around your waist. you were less dancing now and more...hugging. with your head pressed to his chest, he hoped with all his might that you wouldn't be able to hear his hammering heart. you most definitely could, but it was calming to know he was as nervous as you were. you smiled, listening more to his heart than the music he had played for you.

you were both sure that you could burst from pure bliss. the song ended a little too quickly for either of your liking and reluctantly you let go of each other. and suddenly Spencer was hit with the realization that he forgot something.

"oh my gosh," his eyes widened as he looked around the room.

"what?" you asked, mirroring him and looking as well.

"i can't remember where i left your corsage! i was gonna give it to you at the door but i forgot!" he exclaimed, running around the room checking shelves.

you smiled to yourself. he got you a corsage!

"ill help you look" you decided.

"please do," he chuckled.

"i thought you had an eidetic memory, shouldn't you know where you left it?" you joked, shooting him a smug smile.

"y/n, my brain was all jumbled to day and it wasn't just from being around you," he realized what he had said and quickly turned back to the shelf he was looking at, "could you check in my room please?"

his heart was racing at his own stupidity; how could he just say that so nonchalantly? he had been planning to tell you that he liked you for the longest time he cant afford slipping up and having it be anything less than perfect.

you slipped into his room, your cheeks warm from the idea that you make his big brain all jumbled. he probably didn't mean it like that, you were just looking too much into it.

you sighed as you crouched to look under his bed for it. you found a small wooden box that you slid out from underneath. it had your name on it.

is it normal to keep a corsage in a wooden box? you wouldn't know, you never went to prom.

you shrugged your shoulders, "i found it spence!"

with out thinking you opened the box, except instead of a band of flowers you were greeted with letters, all addressed to you. there were annotations written in the margins with purple ink. you furrowed your eyebrows as you scanned the various letters.

dear y/n,

today you complimented my glasses and my heart skipped a beat. thats dumb spencer dont start like that

dear y/n,

im in love with you. too forward

dear y/n,

you make life worth living. shes gonna think youre a creep

you felt a rush of euphoria fill your chest. did he really feel these things for you? your thoughts swirled in the most wonderful way. a wide smile broke across your face, butterflies running rampage through your stomach as you reread his words. his words addressed to you.

"oh thank God i really thought i lost-oh. oh no." spencer started as he walked through the door of his room immediately walking back out. you followed, blinking your watery eyes at him. "i can explain.

"i think youve explained enough, theres like 20 letters in here!" you chuckled, flipping through them.

"i didnt know how to tell you and i dont want to ruin what we already have and i-"

"it wasnt too forward." you stated, grabbing one of the letters.

"what?" he asked, dumbfounded.

"in this one," you held up the letter, "you wrote dear y/n, im in love with you. and then you crossed it out and wrote that it was too forward but i dont think it was."

"youre not mad?"

"mad? spencer ive been trying to admit the fact that im in love with you since i realized it myself, why would i be mad?"

"youre..you feel the same way?" he looked back up at you, a hesitant smile pulling on the corners of his lips.

"more so," you beamed, stepping closer.

he wrapped his arms around you, "thats good or else the rest of this prom would have sucked."

you chuckled, pulling him impossibly closer to you as another perfect song played.

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