when paris paloma said “all day every day therapist mother maid, nymph then a virgin, nurse then a servant, 24/7 baby machine so he can live out his pickett fence dreams, it’s not an act of love if you make her, you make me do TOO MUCH LABOUR” it awoke a primal feminine rage in me
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In the spirit of Paris Paloma's "Labour":
- I have to completely plan out my meals for the week of my period (endometriosis, ergo immense pain), because I can't trust my husband to cook me anything. Not one meal. Apparently he doesn't know how. When I offer to teach him or ask for him to help me cook in the hope for him to learn at least a bit through exposure, he doesn't want to.
- I am completely responsible for the housework. Even when I still worked, it was all left for me to do.
- I am apparently to blame, that there's absolute chaos. But if I ask him to tidy up only his stuff, he doesn't know where or how. I'm supposed to do it. Then I get yelled at, when he can't find, what he's looking for.
- When I asked him to sort out his closet and get rid of maybe a couple things, because he had way to much stuff he wasn't wearing, he didn't have too much, I was just exaggerating, while I didn't knew where to put freshly washed clothes of his anymore, because it was so much.
- Multiple times I had to help him out financially. He earns pretty good money, but spends it on so much unnecessary stuff, that there's almost nothing left for living. Now that I don't work anymore, I get money from my father. No, not from my well-earning husband, but from my worker dad, which is barely enough for me by myself. And husband expects me to manage to feed us for 200$ a month.
- He says I'm exaggerating all my symptoms of my various illnesses and disorders. They aren't that bad, I just needed to pick myself up, not think about it that much and smile more. I'm also overreacting on my multiple experiences on SA, because "I never got penetrated in them" (he did. When he r*ped me, he did. But hey, that doesn't count).
- He spends almost all of his time and money in streams, when I interrupt him even the slightest he gets annoyed and mad.
- He still blames me, that he is not a dad. He wanted kids, but only until he was 25, because beyond that age he would be "too old to be a dad". I never wanted kids, and in the beginning he told me that it was okay. But now he regularly tells me, how old our imaginary child could be, if only I pulled myself together and let him have his dream child.
- He treats me like a toddler, degrades me, doesn't take me seriously. Sometimes falls into babyspeech when talking to me. I asked him to stop it, but according to him I'm just imagining things, and he doesn't do that.
I'm tired, in pain, physically and mentally, exhausted. I just want to run, leave him and his semantics behind. But I don't have the means to live on my own. Also, I'm afraid if he ever finds out, that as soon as I can, I'll leave him, he'll get even worse. I don't have anybody I can turn to, nobody that can offer me shelter for a long enough period. Nobody is willing to hire me and pay me enough, that I can live on my own, because of my disabilities.
I'm not really looking for advice here, just some space to vent. But I'm at the end of... Everything. Patience, strength, willpower, you name it.
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Who tends the orchards? Who fixes up the gables?
Emotional torture from the head of your high table
Who fetches the water from the rocky mountain spring?
And walk back down again to feel your words and their sharp sting
And I'm getting fucking tired
The capillaries in my eyes are bursting
If our love died, would that be the worst thing?
For somebody I thought was my saviour
You sure make me do a whole lot of labour
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🎶ALL DAY, EVERYDAY, THERAPIST, MOTHER, MAID, NYMPH THEN A VIRGIN, NURSE THEN A SERVANT, JUST AN APPENDAGE, LIVE TO ATTEND HIM SO THAT HE NEVER LIFTS A FINGER, 24/7 BABY MACHINE, SO HE CAN LIVE OUT HIS PICKETT FENCE DREAMS, IT'S NOT AN ACT OF LOVE IF YOU MAKE HER, YOU MAKE ME DO TOO MUCH LABOUR🎶
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I rewatched Dan Olson’s video about contrapeneurs recently and parts of it rubbed me the wrong way, because he seems to base some of his argument on claiming that the grift of “subcontracting a ghostwriter to write a script for an audiobook you will publish and profit from using trending subjects as the topic for 1 cent a word” is bad primarily because it encourages intellectual laziness and allows people to not work, and not the fact that like, setting up a system where you are allowed to become someone’s boss and force them to write misinformation about, like, hypnotherapy as a cure for epilepsy is an abusive one. The problem isn’t that it encourages laziness, it’s not even that it produces dangerous misinformation (although that’s obviously bad), it’s that it provides people with the opportunity to enter into a set of labour conditions that require them to exploit and abuse workers who get paid next to nothing
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