Yūkiai (Gay and Trans Man) & Vanae (Pansexual @tharayya)
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can i j say how much i adore this game
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1.11.2023
Jídlo, vana, zolpidem, práce, jídlo, vana, zolpidem, práce... Včera byla trocha euforie po tom, co jsem si poprvý zkusila fishnets, ale následovala těžká dysforie. Ramena, paže, břicho a ta naprosto odporná brada... Nikdy nebudu passovat. Nikdy si neobleču sukni a fishnets ven. Navždycky se v tom budu schovávat doma jako malá škaredá zrůdička. Snažim se, fakt se snažim bejt pozitivní a vím, že je spousta trans lidí, který nepassujou a stejně jim to sekne, umí to nosit a já neskutečně obdivuju jejich sebevědomí, ale já to prostě nejsem. Pak si připadám špatně, jako bych se za sebe pořád styděla a možná pořád jo. Dlouhý roky internalizovaný transfobie se těžko přemazávaj. Chci bejt jenom šťastná, hezká a vklidu a tichosti si dál žít svůj život.
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1-9 and 25 for a royaltines pair and carmina and ivana?
reading these questions like i dont know what the hell these tropes mean. do i need to do homework to find out what a killer queen is
who fell first, and who fell harder?
merope fell first and harder bc she was a romantic girl who read her little romance novels and poems day in day out. yeah she did get knocked down by the wedding but it was all uphill from there
carmina was interested first, downright brave of her
their hypothetical godly parents (or a deity they could embody in a mythological setting).
religion is not my strong suit
soldiers, poets, or kings?
fenrir is a pretty straightforward king with the outbursts of a soldier and the flakiness of a poet. merope is more of a soldier, happy with the 9-to-5
carmina is a soldier
the olive theory according to them (and their palate).
fenrir is a garbage disposal, he'll eat anything so merope can hand him all the things she doesn't like. fenrir has a habit of making sure merope eats so he's often handing her foodstuffs he knows she'll like, and she hands him treats in return too
carmina is picky, she will just hand whatever she doesn't want to ivana if she indicates it's okay
who's the ‘good old-fashioned lover boy’, and who's the ‘killer-queen’?
i'm not sure if either fits merope, meanwhile fenrir is a bit of both
both are kinda killer queens but ivana more. carmina isn't really a lover boy either
go-to pet names they have for each other, if any.
sweetie, honey, sunshine (softly but sarcastically when fenrir is in a bad mood), darling, my love, meri, fen
carmina calls ivana either vana/vanya or cara
what are their star signs? (i know nothing about astrology, but it's funky so out with it!)
i also know nothing about astrology and i know even less about the astrologic system i couldn't bother to come up with
their sexual orientations and/or gender identities.
pan/poly cis man and cishet woman
cis lesbian and trans lesbian
soulmates by fate/chance or by choice?
kinda by chance, fenrir just happened to meet merope while visiting her family and she just happened to be reading a poetry book and when fenrir said he hadn't read This Specific Book (as if he's ever read a book in his life) she just happened to read a poem to him out loud and he was like wow ok you're cute. they also had a lot of growing up and into each other to become soulmates
chance, carmina's funeral home happened to be the first one ivana found to help her be rid of orion's corpse he so helpfully left for her.
one to five tropes they embody or could pull off in an AU.
uhhh i'm really bad at this. they could do rivals to lovers. or fake dating
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Chilltrax (May 31, 2023)
23:57 Feiertag - Saccharine 374
23:57 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree
23:53 Jako Diaz & Leyet - Only You
23:49 Billie Eilish - Everything I Wanted (Aquadrop Remix)
23:45 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find
23:41 Andre Aguado - Through The Night
23:36 Northern Form - Mend
23:36 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano
23:32 Jones Meadow - Paint
23:27 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale
23:23 Teemid - L.a.
23:18 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars
23:13 Deep Sound Effect Feat. Svetlana Voice - Dreaming About You (Dj Aristocrat Remix)
23:09 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me
23:09 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel Redux
23:05 Valante - Vana
23:01 Two Lanes - Searching (Ct Fixup Mix)
22:57 Edapollo Feat. Akacia - Run
22:54 Emmit Fenn - What Falling In Love Is For
22:51 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories
22:48 Armin Van Buuren Feat. James Newman - Therapy (Sebastian Davidson Remix)
22:48 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u
22:44 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U
22:40 Tep No Feat. Starzun - Hold Me
22:37 Rocket Empire - Lima
22:33 Leisure - Slipping Away (Flight Facilities Remix)
22:32 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan
22:29 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You
22:26 Aftruu - Falling Asleep
22:22 Childish Gambino - Feels Like Summer
22:17 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You
22:13 Shingo Nakamura - Focus
22:13 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1
22:08 Elderbrook - Wasted On You
22:05 Henry Green - Realign
22:01 Arto - Now You're Gone
21:56 Chris Malinchak - Saving My Love
21:52 Beacon - Im U
21:52 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise
21:48 Heard Right & Fløa - Enough
21:44 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother
21:40 53 Thieves - Heights
21:36 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long
21:36 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh
21:31 Blonde Maze - A Break In Continuity (Forty Cats Remix)
21:27 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul)
21:23 Eric Hilton Feat. Brian Jackson - Something For Byrd
21:18 Tsha - I Know
21:18 C H I L L T R A X - Cool Refreshed Smooth As Can Be
21:14 Everything But The Girl - Forever
21:11 Odesza Feat. Maro - Better Now
21:07 Kc Lights Feat. Leo Stannard - Cold Light (6am Remix)
21:02 Blank & Jones - Floatation
20:57 Massive Attack - Teardrop
20:57 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound
20:52 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix)
20:47 Mass Digital - Thoughts Of U
20:43 Sum Wave - Moments Of Sundown
20:39 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix)
20:36 Che Jose Feat. Jodie Knight - Freedom (Mass Digital Remix Edit)
20:35 C H I L L T R A X - World Comes To Chilltrax.com
20:32 Chill Cole - Liquid Life
20:27 Baile & Haulm - Knows No End
20:23 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone
20:19 Approaching Black - Sensitive
20:14 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Let's Get It Right
20:14 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass
20:11 Indigo Eyes Feat. Kehina - All Over Again (Remix)
20:07 Flexible Fire - Amatista
20:04 Armin Van Buuren & Matoma Feat Teddy Swims - Easy To Love
20:00 Alampa - Playoff
19:56 Slow Hearts - Endora
19:55 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away!
19:52 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known
19:47 A.m.r & Lumynesynth - Unfinished
19:43 Palladian - Zagara
19:39 Edapollo - Standing There
19:35 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth
19:35 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc
19:31 Maxxim - Waterfalls
19:28 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life
19:25 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Relapse
19:20 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds
19:17 Boerd Feat. Stella Explorer - Another Life
19:12 Cinnamon Chasers - Surviving The Fire
19:12 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music
19:09 Bonsaye - Kismet
19:05 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo
19:02 53 Thieves - Two Days
18:58 Jos & Eli & Eli & Fur - Riffs Of The Night
18:55 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami
18:51 Lana Del Rey - Doin' Time (Chilltrax Mix)
18:51 C H I L L T R A X - Trans Europe Vocoder
18:45 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream
18:41 Cannons - Tunnel Of You
18:37 Il:lo - Ink
18:32 Nox Vahn & Marsh - Come Together
18:32 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots
18:27 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine
18:22 Two Lanes - Movement
18:18 Heard Right Feat. Phoebe Tsen - Pulling Me Under
18:14 Elderbrook - The End
18:09 Zaven - Passive Activity (Evren Furtuna Remix)
18:09 C H I L L T R A X - Fresh And Fascinating
18:04 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes
18:00 Washed Out - Too Late
17:56 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix)
17:52 Tep No - Say What You Wanted
17:49 Tycho - See (Beacon Remix)
17:49 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel, Chilltrax
17:45 Holen - Breathe
17:40 Max Cooper - A Model Of Reality (Tor Remix)
17:35 Syml & Zero 7 - Symmetry (Zero 7 Remix)
17:29 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See
17:29 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh
17:26 Forester - Saint (Shallou Remix)
17:23 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads
17:20 Sum Wave - Milkyway
17:16 Drama - 3am
17:16 C H I L L T R A X - We Are The Music Makers
17:12 Jako Diaz & Leyet - Only You
17:08 Lp Giobbi Feat. Dj Tennis & Joseph Ashworth - All In A Dream
17:05 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson - Follow
17:01 Fakear - Crystal
16:57 Rhye - Summer Days (Roosevelt Remix)
16:57 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh
16:54 Everything But The Girl - Run A Red Light
16:50 Mango & Cloudcage - More Than This
16:45 Above And Beyond - Sun In Your Eyes (William Orbit Remix)
16:40 Arley & Sirolf - One Day
16:35 Sound Quelle & Tailor - Where We Should Be
16:35 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music
16:32 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories
16:27 Royksopp - Beautiful Day Without You
16:23 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale
16:18 Jones Meadow - Fences
16:14 Leisure - Take You Higher (Serebii & Arjuna Oakes Remix)
16:14 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan
16:10 Avira & Nourey Feat. Tom Bailey - Favourite Game
16:07 Dreem - Miles Away
16:02 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Julia Church - 9 Days
15:58 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away
15:53 Marsh - Me & You (Joe Miller Remix)
15:53 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean
15:49 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix)
15:45 London Grammar - Baby It's You
15:40 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude
15:37 53 Thieves - Waves
15:33 Phello - Timelapse
15:33 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes
15:28 Sao Miguel Feat. Sebastian Reynoso - Hope In Balance (Wisternoff-grant Remix)
15:25 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You
15:21 Kidnap - Start Again (Kidnap Piano Mix)
15:17 Rocket Empire - Astoria
15:13 Kx5 Feat. Hayla - Escape (Chill Mix)
15:09 Odesza Feat. Olafur Arnalds - Light Of Day (Parra For Cuva Remix)
15:09 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit
15:05 Giants' Nest - Storm Trap
15:00 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You
14:55 Sumsuch Feat. Matty Eeles - Find Home (Vincenzo Remix)
14:52 Jimpster & Oliver Night - Ascension
14:48 Melosense - Nous
14:44 Goldfrapp - Moon In Your Mouth
14:44 C H I L L T R A X - Parents Magazine Seal
14:39 Eli & Fur - Where I Find My Mind
14:35 Two Lanes - Never Enough
14:31 Sultan Shepard - Sirens
14:26 Double Touch Feat. Reigan - Greatest Day
14:26 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh
14:22 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul)
14:18 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix)
14:13 Emmit Fenn & Shallou - Hollow
14:09 Evelynka - Letting Go
14:06 Tescana - Benissa
14:05 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u
14:01 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix)
13:58 Lliam And Latroit Feat. Brea - Someday (Latroit Edition)
13:53 Billion Watchers - Rainman
13:48 Sg Lewis - Lifetime
13:43 Massive Attack Feat. Hope Sandoval - The Spoils
13:42 C H I L L T R A X - Chill Out Chilltrax
13:37 Ghenwa Nemnom - Story Of A Battle (Chris Zippel Remix)
13:34 Cannons - Loving You
13:30 Sasha - Bygone
13:27 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix)
13:27 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound
13:23 Sebastian Davidson Feat. Lewyn - Second Hand Love
13:19 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone
13:15 Odsen - Retrospective
13:12 Vok - Skin
13:11 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You
13:08 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise
13:04 Pines Feat. Fractures - Rewrite The Ending
12:59 Royksopp Feat. Pixx - How The Flowers Grow
12:55 Pableno - Heights
12:50 Bob Moses - I Ain't Gonna Be The First To Cry
12:50 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass
12:46 Kidnap & Pinkpirate - Things Change
12:42 Nightcap - The Two Of Us (We Only Need)
12:38 Rohne - Flicker (Faodail Remix)
12:35 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix)
12:32 Jones Meadow - Expect
12:32 C H I L L T R A X - Ct The Backward Chillout Channel
12:27 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long
12:23 Camelphat - Waiting (Eli & Fur's Found Version)
12:20 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life
12:16 Tomb - Unbound
12:12 Alex Hook Feat. Rene - You Showed Me
12:12 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots
12:09 Kaskade With Project 46 - Chains Chilled
12:05 Aftruu - Falling Asleep
12:01 Andrew Nagy & Joel Winterflood - Little To None
11:58 Everything But The Girl - Forever
11:52 Groove Armada - At The River
11:52 C H I L L T R A X - Retsyn
11:47 Max Cooper - A Model Of Reality (Tor Remix)
11:42 Nicolas Godin Feat. Cola Boyy - The Foundation
11:38 Arto - Now You're Gone
11:35 Liz Cass - Blue
11:30 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - It's Enough (The Last High)
11:30 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise
11:25 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine
11:22 Chris Malinchak - Happiness (Eternal Moment Mix)
11:17 Blank & Jones - Floatation
11:13 Above & Beyond & Marty Longstaff - Gratitude (Aname Pm Mix)
11:08 Dj San & Sebastian Moore - In Your Eyes
11:07 C H I L L T R A X - Comes To Chill Out
11:04 Shingo Nakamura - Falling Off
10:59 Two Lanes - Searching (Ct Fixup Mix)
10:56 Embrz Feat. Abroad - Rise
10:52 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head
10:49 Dreem - Miles Away
10:45 Autograf - Sleepless In Nyc (Extended Mix)
10:44 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away!
10:41 Jako Diaz & Leyet - Only You
10:38 Beacon - Pay My Debts
10:33 Emi Ca - Just Breathe
10:29 Catz 'n Dogz Feat. Jaw - Time
10:29 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh
10:25 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads
10:22 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories
10:18 Farius - A Big Life (Sound Quelle Remix)
10:14 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me
10:09 Valante - Eio
10:09 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1
10:04 Elderbrook - Wasted On You
10:00 Kidnap Feat. Leo Stannard - Moments (Ben Bohmer Nils Hoffmann Remix)
09:57 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami
09:53 Attom & Kwesi - Rogue
09:49 Zero 7 - In The Waiting Line
09:48 C H I L L T R A X - Twcc High Standard Of Quality
09:45 Holen - Not Too Late
09:41 Alampa - Playoff
09:38 Kaskade - Where Did You Go
09:32 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See
09:32 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh
09:27 Sons Of Maria - Are You
09:22 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale
09:18 Heard Right & Fløa - Enough
09:14 Hoki - Memories Of Love (Dsf Remix)
09:14 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree
09:11 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo
09:07 Lipless & Blue Noir - Alone
09:04 London Grammar - How Does It Feel
08:59 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars
08:53 Jody Wisternoff Feat. Sian Evans - The Bridge
08:53 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan
08:48 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream
08:43 Mango - Skyline
08:39 Sum Wave - Evening Mood
08:34 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark
08:30 Chris Malinchak, Kiesza, Malin - Tree
08:29 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano
08:26 Flexible Fire - Amatista
08:22 Gareth Emery - St Mary's
08:19 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You
08:15 Eric Hilton Feat. Brian Jackson - Something For Byrd
08:09 Pilots Of Peace - Fallin
08:09 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh
08:05 Circle Sky - Love Hertz
08:02 Chill Cole - Liquid Life
07:56 Shingo Nakamura - Come Closer
07:53 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother
07:49 Morcheeba - It's Summertime
07:49 C H I L L T R A X - We Are The Music Makers
07:44 Arley & Sirolf - One Day
07:39 Washed Out - Time To Walk Away
07:35 Palladian - Zagara
07:31 Flume Feat. Emma Louise - Hollow (Logic1000 Remix)
07:26 Northern Form - Mend
07:26 C H I L L T R A X - Organ The Chillout Channel
07:21 Bonsaye - Viaje
07:17 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul)
07:14 Cannons - Footsteps In The Dark
07:09 Il:lo - Cynnes
07:03 Mass Digital - Little Things
06:59 Che Jose Feat. Jodie Knight - Freedom (Mass Digital Remix Edit)
06:59 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music
06:55 Melosense - Story To Remember
06:51 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix)
06:46 Sg Lewis Feat. Lucky Daye - Feed The Fire (Kassian Remix)
06:41 Darius Feat. Benny Sings - Rise (Darius Remix)
06:37 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix)
06:32 Camelphat & Elderbrook - Cola (Simon Mills Full Sugar Mix)
06:32 C H I L L T R A X - Trans Europe Vocoder
06:27 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes
06:24 Emmit Fenn - --amman
06:20 Giants' Nest - Heart Void
06:17 Blonde Maze - Something Familiar
06:17 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound
06:13 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone
06:08 Two Lanes - Movement
06:04 Sons Of Maria - Always
05:59 Cinnamon Chasers - Surviving The Fire
05:55 Arto - Para Mi
05:55 C H I L L T R A X - Cool Refreshed Smooth As Can Be
05:51 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U
05:46 Mishegas - Temporary Love (Il:lo Remix)
05:43 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix)
05:38 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Just Wanted To Know
05:33 Rufus Du Sol - Like An Animal (Trinidad Remix)
05:33 C H I L L T R A X - Backward Rvb Where World Comes
05:29 Woven - Brushes
05:24 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You
05:21 Eli & Fur - Wild Skies
05:18 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix)
05:18 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass
05:14 Alampa - The One
05:11 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life
05:07 Holen - Breathe
05:03 Nicolas Godin - The Border
05:03 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u
04:59 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise
04:54 Royksopp & Susanne Sundfor - Oh, Lover (Nto Remix)
04:49 Shallou - Fading
04:45 Rocket Empire - Astoria
04:41 Way Out West Feat. Hendrik Burkhard - We Move In The Dark (Sunday Maybe Mix)
04:41 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots
04:37 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known
04:34 Tep No - Deep Sin
04:31 Aether - Jupiter & Saturn
04:27 Cannons - Loving You
04:24 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth
04:23 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc
04:20 Melosense - Nous
04:15 Circle Sky - Your Name
04:10 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine
04:07 Flexible Fire - Marea Turquesa
04:04 Tennyson - Iron
04:04 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh
04:00 Catching Flies - Daymarks
03:57 Aftruu - Falling Asleep
03:53 Olan - Wake And Return (Little Dragon Remix)
03:49 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away
03:45 Childish Gambino - Feels Like Summer
03:44 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean
03:40 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix)
03:35 Roma Moss & Holy - Too Late
03:31 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds
03:26 Vintage And Morelli Feat. Arielle Maren - The Light (Flexible Fire Remix)
03:22 Elderbrook - The End
03:22 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music
03:17 Vincenzo - You Knew
03:13 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads
03:09 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long
03:04 Boehm - Who You Are
02:59 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You
02:54 Deep Lo - Lost In You (Soire Remix)
02:54 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away!
02:49 Eli & Fur - Where I Find My Mind
02:46 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson, Oli Hannaford - Yearn
02:41 Fakear - Crystal
02:38 Lost In Pacific & Hanging Valleys - Escape
02:33 Cinnamon Chasers - Great Escape
02:33 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel Redux
02:30 Sum Wave - Milkyway
02:25 Two Lanes - Searching (Ct Fixup Mix)
02:21 Monkey Safari - Temple
02:18 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories
02:18 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh
02:14 Steven Weston Feat. Lapsley - Like I Used To
02:09 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale
02:05 Il:lo - Ink
02:02 Ferr By Ferry Corsten And Youth Novels - Hands
02:02 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You
01:58 Everything But The Girl - Forever
01:54 Giants' Nest - Crema
01:51 Rezident - Wellenlainge
01:46 Evren Furtuna - Enceladus
01:46 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan
01:42 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix)
01:38 Leisure Feat. Muroki - Summer Season
01:35 Ran The Man - Swimmingpool
01:32 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo
01:28 Odesza Feat. Olafur Arnalds - Light Of Day (Parra For Cuva Remix)
01:28 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise
01:24 Flexible Fire - Amatista
01:19 The Knocks Feat. Muna - Bodies (Tycho Remix)
01:16 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You
01:13 Rocket Empire - Lima
01:10 Baynk Feat. Drama - 1 Chance
01:10 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh
01:06 Twoworldsapart & Panuma & Nina Carr - Slippin'
01:01 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See
00:56 Sound Quelle Feat. Daniel Robinson - Tempest
00:53 Alampa - Playoff
00:48 Groove Armada - At The River
00:48 C H I L L T R A X - Parents Magazine Seal
00:43 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix)
00:39 Pines - Dawn
00:34 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude
00:30 Gold Lounge - Higher
00:25 Phello - Timelapse
00:25 C H I L L T R A X - World Comes To Chilltrax.com
00:20 Two Lanes - Belong
00:16 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul)
00:13 French Braids & Matt Hartke - Heaven On Loan
00:08 Billion Watchers - Rainman
00:04 Melosense - Can't Replace You
00:00 Fabio Vee & Mike D' Jais - Consolation
00:00 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit
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Love Sex Magic by Ciara ft J.T (JRR Tolkien)
Hmm I just wanna spitball some of my ideas about how perspectives of Sex, Marriage and Queerness changed over time for the Noldor. This is gonna be hella long so Read More if you want my opinions on why elves seem so cishet, perisex, abstinance only, wait til marriage despite being so ~°☆natural☆°~ since nature is notoriously bad at being any of the above. (Spoiler; i think it's God's fault, in and out of fiction)
Soooooo.... Pre-Journey I dont think the elves HAD a concept of being queer, in honesty. I think they very much went with whatever felt right to them. I dont think they were particularly chaste, I dont think they only ever had one partner and I don't think it was unusual to have multiple partners at once even. I doubt they had any taboos about gender or sex at all because I think they were far more focused on what made them the same than what made them different, Quendi, ya know? You are not expected to be exclusive with the parent of your child but are expected to stick around to provide for the child. My example for this era is Miriel, Finwe, Indis and Telepsion (an OC, Miriel's twin brother, is taken by morgoth shortly before the great journey). They are in essence a polycule where Miriel and Telepsion are both with Finwe and with Indis. Finwe and Indis are not together at the time but are close friends. The siblings are not together but are dating the same two people and the only flack is poking fun at finwe and indis for having such similar tastes. None of this is considered unusual at this point.
During the great journey there are some changes. As they follow different leaders and split into smaller groups the quendi grow distant and competing for resources leads to a bit of a tabboo for taking a partner from another kindred even if you happen to settle together for a while. Because A. You will have to leave them soon. B. They are technically not your team anymore and C. Should a child result they will not be there to help you with it. An example of this is Nerdanel. Mahtan had a brief affair with a teleri woman, Lalapánen, who refused to continue the journey with Elwe MIA. As he was unwilling to separate from his kin, Lalapánen gave him Nerdanel as she was likely safer with him. She planned to return to them once Elwe was found but she perished before that occurred.
At first not much changes in Valinor, the differing goals and settlements solidify the separation of the kindreds but aside from that things are similar. However, then the valar begin to involve themselves more, begining with the vanyar who revere them most highly. The Valar basically view the elves a bit like.. a project at this point. It is their 'duty' to protect the elves and minimise any marring caused by Melkor and 'Improve' them. And, because even Gods can fall to vanity, they think "well Eru made us as we are so we will make the elves as we are, clearly anything else is a marring!" This leads to a lot of changes. The Valar all favour male or female forms, the ainur the same or else are elemental. Elves cannot be elemental and thus all must be either male or female. Though the Valar, aside from nessa, tulkas, Orome and perhaps vana, are not creatures intimately familiar with flesh and thus their definitions can end up... somewhat strange (this is why a possible definition of female is any elf who can bake bread.) This eventually settles into a definition based on physicality and spirit. If you fall outside of that definition physically (intersex) then that is a marring, if you fall outside of it spiritually in that you do not match your physicality (trans), that is a marring, if you spiritually identify as a deep lake or sudden storm that's... probably ok? But strange for an elf so you should probably join the retinue of the most relevant Vala.
There is also the matter of sex: the Valar don't really do it. Most are Aware of it mechanically and perhaps Some (again the more fleshy ones) occaisionally partake, but it doesn't result in children and they generally don't desire it. Thus, like animals, sex must be for procreation and elves enjoy it because it's necessary for making more elves! There is no *reason* for it outside of procreation though. And those Valar who have a 'spouse' also only have the one and they are, in essence, perfectly paired and yet contrasting in nature. This leads to the triple whammy of A. anything outside of monogamy is a marring, B. Any sex outside of procreation is considered unnecessary or hedonistic and could result in a marring, C. Your partner should not be too similar in form or too like you in nature or that is a marring. This is where we get into marriage and marriage bonds.
In my HC, elven 'marriage', that is, the sould bond formed willingly between elves by invoking Eru etc. Etc. Was not actually meant to be solely romantic nor a one time thing. It was a bond one could forge with any particularly strong spiritual connection. Of course with the expectation of total monogamy, it became increasingly common to only have the one bond with your lover and forging bonds outside of that was slowly pushed into obscurity. These expectations took a very long time to settle and become entrenched and until this point there are still those who look down on the new conventions, Miriel amongst them.
My example for this era is Miriel, Telepsion and Finwe. I believe Miriel had a soul bond with her twin and a 'Marriage' bond with Finwe. Telepsion's disappearance and distance weakened their bond significantly but it remained. When she becomes pregnant, the pregnancy is difficult: her and finwe both pour their spirits into their child but he remains somewhat weak until the very last weeks. Once Feanor is born, Miriel is utterly drained, she was wary of coming to valinor in the first place, resents the valar's influence, misses her dear Indis and misses her brother. She goes to lorien to "recover".... She dies.
... and the Valar blame her death on the bond she had with her brother. After all, this is the first death in childbirth to occur in Valinor that did not begin outside of it, every death before occurred when either one of the parents had a bond with another or there were no bonds between them. The other bonds must 'leech' power from the marriage bond leading to danger for the mother and child! (Nevermind that multiple bonds were common and children were born fine under those circumstances for centuries, nevermind that for the first time they are safe and sheltered and well fed, making deaths rare. They only see the holes in the returning planes wings.)
This is what cements the ideas of marriage, of monogamy, of childbirth as the only goal. Its the nail in the coffin. Miriel was Marred. This is the main view that controls Valinor until the darkening, not always as stringently but always present. With the exception of Finwe and Indis marrying (Indis has no other bond, she is not marred and Finwe's bond to Miriel is totally severed, it cannot leech from them) and the relaxing attitude towards Marrying outside of your kindred as resources become more plentiful.
I will wrap this part up by saying that I don't think the attitudes of Valinor are bigoted the same way we see homophobia or transphobia or intersexism nowadays. I don't think 'abberant' people or relationships are legislated against or hated but I don't think they're well respected either. Non-monogamy, sex outside of marriage and homosexuality are seen as frivolous or pleasure seeking, the goal is not a single spouse and child so it's unnecessary. It lacks self control. It's reckless and indulgent, like drinking to excess. Being intersex, trans or nonbinary is seen as Tragic. They are seen as Victims of Melkor's marring. If they are happy then that's foolish, they are expected to *want* to change themselves. Being asexual or aromantic are seen as puzzling quirks more than anything else, it's not *bad* to marry without having a child but it is a little strange. What's the point of a bond if not to facilitate a child? Not wanting to marry at all is generally just seen as You haven't found The One yet. When you live forever, people don't generally worry about your biological clock ticking, but it's still seen as a bit.. antisocial or arrogant if you're not even trying!
As the memory of Miriel fades, these expectations endure but become less rigid. Most of them fall into the category of Youthful Mistakes that good elves will grow out of, it's only cause for concern if they don't. However, one that remains Completely Inexcusable is having a child outside of marriage or when you have another bond. At this point it's viewed as intentionally endangering the mother and child. Friends and familiy members who have bonds will frequently cut them should they become pregnant and though there are fewer and fewer cases of stillbirth or death in childbirth there's never none. There is almost always a Marring of some sort to blame or point to. My example for this era is Maedhros. Feanor and Nerdanel marry young, not bad but unusual. Maedhros is born shortly afterwards, shortly enough that he may have been conceived before their marriage (he was not, but it was not long after). Maedhros is born physically indeterminate, intersex and thus considered marred. They tell no one this, neither of them believes in it but they refuse to expose their child to the same speculation and rumours that feanor endured. Maedhros is raised outside of tirion, he is well loved and confident and when he decides to join the court on his own they do not know he is marred, so his differences are admired instead of pitied. He learns he can get away with what others can't so long as he presents himself a certain way. So he openly courts women and men; it is normal for the youth to explore and try new experiences after all and he is still young and so other 'adventurous' youths follow. He wears skirts as frequently as trousers, stating that his height makes them more comfortable as well as more versatile in style, and a trend of young, androgynous fashion crops up as a result. But this is a revolution for the young alone, they are expected to tuck away their wild habits as they age. When they grow up there are no excuses.
There are smaller trends around marriage in particular that occur after this era; an era when those who do not wish for marriage are encouraged to devote themselves to the valar instead (Findis and Celegorm are the likely sources of this), a period of exploding skillcraft where marying someone within your industry is seen as a way to improve both of your skills (Maglor and Curufin marry a luthier and industrial chemist respectively) a period where long drawn out courtships are a romantic ideal (Finrod and Amarië are either the cause or result, Turgon and Elenwe are hardly better.)
And then as things begin to break down, as melkor's lies spread and distrust runs rampant: a period where courtships are fleeting but marriage is deathly serious, to marry without the approval of your parents is seen as a betrayal of trust, if they recommend a particular person to you, it is considered rude and disrespectful to flout the courtship without trying, this is why so many are short and unsatisfactory (Fingon endures several of these and remains unmarried, caranthir marries and barely has time to regret it before the darkening.)
Then the Darkening comes and suddenly everyone has bigger priorities.
In summary:
Cuivinen; do whatever or whoever you want, no rules just right.
Great journey; be a bit tactical over who you're boning because it can have consequences but thats it.
Early Valinor; Hey the Valar have some Interesting/Stupid ideas about love, sex, gender and childbirth. We should think about/disregard them!
Post Miriel, The Valar were right FuckFuckFuckFuckFuck, dont you EVER even THINK about breaking The Rules.
Pre Feanor and Nerdanel; hey we all KNOW The Rules are important but you dont need to be a dick about it.... maybe u shouldn't break them though, you are putting ppl in danger :/
Post Maedhros; Go you funky, little bisexuals! Don't worry, you'll learn The Rules when you Grow Up. Just dont make Mistakes or stay like that forever mmmkay? :)
Pre Melkor interfering; thanks to Mae doing it on purpose the royal family now sparks a new trend with every action and relationship, essentially the influencer era of romance.
Pre darkening; Who you Marry is Deathly Important, we will be watching closely and judging your decisions. This has nothing to do with The Rules and everything to do with Loyalty.
Post darkening; do whatever or whoever you want, we dont have time for that this is WAR, PEOPLE.
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Okei teeme
Sisekõne: omg seal on nii väike palk, sa päriselt võtad selle
Sa ei taha ju seda kaua teha, miks sa petad ennast ja teisi
Aga nad nii tahavad mind ja ma saan proovida esinemist ja podcaste ja kirjutamist ja uusi asju
Aga omg kas sa saad siis kuskile mujale tööle - hirm - tegema midagi mis sind rohkem kõnetab ja tõmbab. Äkki nüüd on maailm läbi kui sa sinna lähed
Fine, ma ei lähe
Sisekõne: mida, jälle ütled ära
Kes sind veel tahab, oledki ilma tööta siis
Ja ei tee midagi, ei suhtle kellegagi, ei jõua kuskile
Siin nad vähemalt tahavad sind ja on valmis midagi tegema
Mina: aga teine töö tahtis ka ja oli valmis suuremat palka maksma. Sa eksid, nemad ka tahtsid mind teise tegelase ees
S: Ja aga sina ei tahtnud neid ja pealegi see oli nii tehniline.
M: aga sulle ju meeldib kui on tehniline?
S: jaa aga ei
M: ...
S: igatahes, praegune turu olukord on wtf ja kui sul on pakkumine siis võiks selle vastu võtta
M: aga praegu on võimalus olla tööta ja nautida ja teha asju ja hüvitise rahade peale teha ise tööd mingite projektidega
S: jah, ja ei tea kust sa neid projekte leiad? On sul veel julgust postitada LinkedIni asju ja kuulutada et otsid või on su väärtus su tegemistega nii läbi põimunud, et sa ei ole kuidagi enam väärtuslik kui sa tööd ei tee?
M: no igal juhul kavatsen ma teist tööd vaadata ja oma projekte ka edasi ajada. Ja ma olen edukas kui ma usun ja kui ma fkn sinu suudan ka endasse uskuma panna, sa vana kriitik.
S: ma üritan sind kaitsta.
M: jee. Sa võiks teisi meetodeid valida
S: ???
M: midagi mis innustaks ja pushiks edasi mitte ei tõmbaks tagasi ja võtaks kogu usku ära. See su minu piitsutamine ja kahtlemine teeb mind haigeks, migreenid, seljavalud, unetus, kõhus keerab, käed ja keha väriseb, esimest korda ohatis ja kohe tervel laual varsti kaks nädalat, südamepuperdamine ja mega tempo ainult sinu mõtetest. Sa saad aru mis sa mulle teed oma kaitsmise ja parimat soovitusega? Sa tapad mind!
S: ma... ei taha sind tappa. Ma tahan et sul oleks hea ja turvaline
M: ei sa ei taha
S: tahan küll! Kui sa neid riske võtad, siis mida mina tunnen? Ma pean kõigi nende tagajärgedega tegelema, kõiki võimalikke stsenaariume välja mõtlema mida teha ja mitte teha ning kalkuleerima mis on järgmine parim samm!
M: ...sa tõesti ei pea seda tegema. See ei aita
S: aitab
M: ei, tõesti ei aita. Surra kiiremini ja valusamalt, jah, aga mitte elada täiel rinnal, katsetada, võtta riske, proovida. Selles sa mind ei aita.
S: mis sa siis soovid et ma teen?
M: kui sa päriselt mind aidata tahad, toeta mind. Ole alati minu poolt, isegi kui ma olen naiivselt delulu. Kiida takka. Kiida mind otsuse puhul, ükskõik mis see ka poleks.
S: see aitaks sind?
M: ma arvan küll.
S: okei. Aga selle otsuse puhul... ma tõesti kardan et kui sa ei lähe sinna siis sa jääd inimesteta istuma ja kaotad oma enesekindlust veelgi. Samas kui sa lähed, siis sa kaotad eneseusku, et kas sa paremat teha ei saa
M: kas me ei võiks niimoodi suhtuda, et kui ma lähen, siis see on katsetus teha midagi muud vahelduseks. Ja kui ma tahan, siis ma lähen edasi midagi muud tegema. Ja küll ma saan ja küll elu hoiab ja annab võimalusi.
Ja kui ma ei lähe, siis mul on aega oodata õigemat asja. Udida enda asju vahepeal edasi. Teha bingeid värke. Ja kui ma lähen ja mulle ikka ei meeldi, siis mul on okei ka ära tulla. Aga ma tahaks lihtsalt et ma valin enda pealt, südamehääle ja aususe pealt, mitte hirmu kriitiku suurte silmade ja sassis põlvede pealt.
S: hea küll. Vali... oot. Ma ei suru sind takka :) ms tran et sa seda ei taha. Pealegi meil on aega õhtuni. Sinna on veel neli tundi.
M: mhm. Ma tean, et ma olen nüüd varem mõelnud ja ümber mõelnud seda otsust. See kogu aeg tundus kuidagi ebameeldiv, et ma pean seda tegema.
S: sa ei pea seda tegema, kui sa ei taha.
M: onju? Aga miks ma tunnen et ma pean? Kas ma läksin esimest korda sinna intekale juba nii, et omg, ma ei tea ma ei oska, ma ei taha siia saada. Ja siis teine kord minnes mõtlesin et ah, pole vaja minna aga savi, käime ära. Ja nii ma siis käisin ja lubasin mõelda kas väike palk sobib - ma lõpuks ei öelnudki et sobib.
Jumal tänatud et ka see läheb mööda. Muid polegi selle kohta öelda, et ma soovin oma rahu saada. Et on okei olla ja asju teha.
Ja ma ei öelnud et sobib ja aga ma ei julgenud või ei tahtnud siis kohe ära öelda. Kas siin tulid sina mängu?
S: ma... võibolla. Ma ei tahtnud et sa end peaksid tahtmatult tundma. Ma soovisin et sind tahetaks
M: kas see on äkki midagi millega me peaks töötama? See vajadus olla tahetud. Vot, siit tukeb see baasvajadus välja. Mina ei taha ja ei vali, aga mind tahetakse ja valitakse. Oi kui hea tunne! Aga kas sellest on võimalik jagu saada? Olla õnnelik ja enesekindel ka siis kui sind ei valita. Või kui sa ise valid mitte valida neid. Osata öelda ei, julguses ja kindluses, et elul on enamat. Et sa saad midagi rohkemat kui sa soovid. Ehk ei pea jääma kinni ühte asja.
S: ma usun et see võiks olla võimalik. Teised saavad? Võiks uurida, kuidas. Kuid ma usun, et teised on saanud jagu sellest. Kui teised on saanud, saad sina ka.
M: aitäh sulle selle toetuse eest! Ma tõesti hindan seda <3.
S: :)
M: aitäh.
Huh. Tekst on veel alles. Käisin arhitekti konsulti asju vaatamas.
Nii, mulle tundub et ma tahaks nii enda asja kui sellist süteemiarhitekti rolli. Samas oleks äge ka proovida midagi muud. Proovida.
Nii raske on öelda jah, sest na olen harjunud tegelema pikaajalisemate asjadega. See mõne-kuune esitleja amet ei tundu nagu hea plaan. Aga sa saaksid proovida?
Samas kui ei lähe, siis saab proovida oma neid ideid. Mida saab isegi siis proovida, kui sa lähed, onju? Ükski ei välista teist, lihtsalt ajaliselt võib sul tekkida piir ette kuskil kui sa päevad läbi chillid ülemistes ja pead eestist rääkima. I mean, sa võid sealt ka midagi uut õppida. Kindlasti õpidki. Aga, nagu ka eelmis arendusega, kas sa liigud sinna suunas kuhu sa tahad? Kuhu sa tahad jõuda? Vähema töö ja suurema palgani. Nii nagu sa kunagi valisid it töö, sest see oli su eesmärk mitte fun, siis ka nüüd on täiesti variant valida seda. Küll sa hakkama saad ja ära õpid. Aga igast kogemustest võib ka midagi kasulikku või meeldivat saada.
Kokkuvõttes mul on hea meel selle arutelu ple. Ma küll ei jõudnud otsuseni, aga me saime rääkida
S: ja ma luban et ma toetan sind.
M: aitäh. Nii on palju julgem elada.
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flashback to the one time i drew tempest shadow as a trans man but humanized. those were good times
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i dont usually recc stuff but PLEASE read Vamp Sabbath on Tapas.io its so good
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Les pioneres
Marlene Wayar: Somos otra manera de transitar la humanidad.
El libro de la escritora, activista y directora de El Teje -primer periódico travesti de
Latinoamérica- se conseguirá mañana como compra opcional con Página/12.
“El diálogo que hemos tenido con les jóvenes ha fructificado", dice Wayar.
Marlene Wayar pone el cuerpo y hace política con su propia biografía en el excepcional Diccionario Travesti de la T a la T, que sale este domingo y cierra la colección Biblioteca Soy. La ambición de este abordaje de lo travesti/trans con perspectiva histórica desmonta las violencias arraigadas y hasta las taxonomías bienpensantes impuestas por la heterosexualidad, como la redacción de la Ley de Identidad de Género “sobre la que no solo no fuimos consultadas sobre su pertenencia y urgencia, cuando aún seguimos siendo perseguidas, encarceladas y coimeadas por la policía en diferentes provincias”, plantea la escritora y activista, directora de El Teje, el primer periódico travesti de Latinoamérica. “Una ley que dice ser para reconocer nuestra identidad mientras en ejercicio esquizofrénico escribe que seremos hombres y mujeres, no travestis, transexuales, transgéneros o trans”, agrega Wayar para abrir
las puertas clausuradas a toda una comunidad.
-El Diccionario… empieza con una pregunta: “¿Quieren saber qué es ser travesti? ¿Todavía no lo saben?”. ¿Qué importancia tiene esta pregunta?
-El mundo heterosexual es muy cínico, sinvergüenza, asesino, maltratador, discriminador, genocida; se venden blanco, cristiano, puro, maternal, pero en las prácticas concretas son de una terrible violencia. En un país que a las travestis nos ha cogido a todas, millones de veces, ahora parece que hay una preocupación avanzada: ¿qué es una travesti? Lo saben a la perfección, lo que no están sabiendo es qué son los heterosexuales. Nosotras tenemos
radicalmente una diferencia que es abrazarnos en el respeto irrestricto a nuestro deseo, a nuestra autonomía y a nuestra libertad para ser. Es tan absurdo querer categorizar la experiencia humana que solo el mundo heterosexual puede tener esas pretensiones vanas. Lo rebuscado es lo cínico del “no matarás”, que sea el paradigma de la sociedad occidental y cristiana y que la guerra y la producción de muerte sea uno de los negocios más fructíferos. Las travestis somos otra mismidad: no somos hombres, no somos mujeres. No somos hombres que se transforman en mujeres ni mujeres que se transforman en hombre; tienen que dejar de pensar en esa dicotomía egocéntrica con la que se creen que son el eje del mundo: el hombre como sujeto primordial de la humanidad. La verdad es que son patéticos y algo de eso tiene que ver con que la travesti así nazca en una villa va a construir una belleza de ser y estar en el mundo. Estamos intentando llegar a los niños y las niñas antes de que sean adiestrados y adiestradas por esa heterosexualidad obligatoria que nos imponen.
-“No nos ven cuando somos niñas, nos ven recién cuando somos punibles”, afirmás en una parte del Diccionario… Esta condición de visibilidad, ¿se está empezando a modificar con la lucha de estos últimos años, con leyes como la de Identidad de Género?
-Quisiera ser muy cuidadosa… Todo puede cambiar. Yo estoy envejeciendo con un pedazo menos de intestino, imaginate si no estoy cambiando. La ley de Identidad de Género, siempre y cuando no sea retrabajada y dialogada en los medios de comunicación, en las escuelas, en educación sexual integral y demás, y no reconozca que somos travestis, que hay travestidad, que hay personas transgénero, personas transexuales y todas las que se identifiquen
políticamente –lesbiana, gay, marica- no va a prosperar porque nos siguen proponiendo los corralitos de inteligibilidad en donde están parados: se puede ser hombre y se puede ser mujer. La idea es que nos reconozcan en nuestra travestidad. Y es travestidad, no travestismo.
El travestismo es una práctica y nosotras tenemos una identidad que es la travestidad; somos otra manera de transitar la humanidad. El diálogo que hemos tenido con les jóvenes ha fructificado, pero el mundo adulto sigue pensando en los mismos términos; quiere seguir festejando el progresismo de la Ley de Identidad de Género, del Matrimonio Igualitario, que son leyes que han producido un avance, pero son conquistas muy paupérrimas. El cinismo del
sistema patriarcal-heterosexual-capitalista no nos ve cuando somos absolutamente visibles; estamos en las plazas, estamos en las rutas, alejadas de los pueblos. Los camioneros saben dónde buscarnos, la policía saben dónde buscarnos, y nos contagian enfermedades de transmisión sexual. Nosotras las travestis podemos morir de frío en la calle, de niñas. Si llegamos a sobrevivir, a los 18 años nos van a caer con todo su aparato punitivo, persecutorio, policial, sistemáticamente.
-“Todas las travestis tenemos un cementerio en la cabeza. Han muerto amigas de mi misma edad y más jóvenes a lo largo de toda mi vida, y todas por causas evitables. A las personas heterosexuales no les pasa eso de tener mil quinientas muertes en la historia”, afirmás en el libro. ¿Cómo afecta esta especie de cementerio con el que cargan las travestis?
-Tenemos un cementerio en la cabeza; esto viene desde siempre y no está estudiado cómo nos afecta. La pobreza estructural hace que no podamos investigarnos a nosotras mismas, que no podamos pasarnos las unas a las otras un montón de saberes que tienen que ver con la subsistencia. Esto no está investigado y tenemos que investigarlo, pero con quién lo vamos a
investigar si a quienes podemos preguntarles se van muriendo… Nos hace falta institutos de memoria, nos hace falta tiempo de paz para poder juntarnos a conversar entre nosotras mismas, saber cuáles son los puntos importantes de nuestra agenda, poder hacer un trabajo concienzudo con nosotras mismas. Todas vamos caminando por la vida sabiendo que tenemos una espada de Damocles y que a la vuelta de cualquier esquina, por cualquier absurda razón,
podés terminar torturada, mancillada, golpeada, hasta que te asesinan. Nada te garantiza que -hagas lo mejor que hagas- vas a superar los 35 años de vida. Además tenemos que partir de los estudios de la subjetividad que son heterosexuales y entonces debemos desarmar a Freud,
a Lacan, a Saussure, a Judith Butler, con todo lo importante que puedan haber aportado, pero desde un pensamiento heterosexual. Es el heteropensante el que ha producido conocimiento y lo ha impuesto como norma, y no nos dejan pensar con quién es nuestro Edipo o nuestro complejo de Electra, si es que los tenemos o no los tenemos. Yo no puedo decirte cómo impactan estas muertes; es una pregunta muy ambiciosa. Pero tenemos la convicción de que en cualquier momento, en la mejor de las fiestas, con nuestros mejores vestidos, con nuestras mejores luces y acompañadas de nuestras mejores amigas, nos puede suceder la desgracia de la muerte de manera terrorífica en manos de heterosexuales.
Por Silvina Friera para Página 12, 4 de enero de 2020.
Todas las itálicas son nuestras.
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if the madrigals arent all some form of neurodivergent whats the point
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Hello, loves! So, I recently saw another masterlist post like this and as I’ve written a fair number of victuuri fics, I thought it could be fun to make one as well!!
I’ve written 27 Victor/Yuuri fics (no other ships involved) and all of them (except for one) are complete! This list compiles all of them neatly together and I can give some author insight into my own personal favorites versus which ones are my most popular, etcetera.
The list will be compiled in alphabetical order! All relevant tags, ratings, author’s notes, and short(er) summaries will be shown in an organized manner.
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KEY: ** = author’s favorite bolded = top 3 kudos’d IMG = embedded images in fic
Abstract Intuition ~ Teen/3.2k words ~ Introspection, Japanese Myths, Dreams vs. Reality ~ a/n: weird! loved writing it though ~ in which Yuuri understands more about himself than he thinks he does and believes in a Japanese supernatural being
Aegri somniavana ~ Teen/2.3k words ~ Major Character Death, Heavy Angst, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Depression, Panic Attacks ~ a/n: sad! sad sad sad! if you don’t want to be sad, do not read this! ~ “The love of a half-dead heart will keep you half alive”
a blessing in disguise ~ Teen/WIP~ AUs: Fantasy & Royalty, Witch Curses, Fairy Tale Elements, Mutual Pining, Magic & Wizards, Light Angst, Fluff & Humor, Child Victor (at times) ~ a/n: one of my favorites concept-wise, will update one day! ~ Victor gets cursed. Yuuri does not. Yuuri most definitely feels like he is though.
can’t buy love, but you can try if you’re a ridiculous man like Victor Nikiforov ~ General/495 words ~ SAPPY, old victuuri ~ a/n: domestic victuuri makes me so soft :’’) ~ Victor loves spoiling his grandchildren.
Chair AU (series with 2 fics) ~ General/505 words ~ why ~ a/n: yes it’s that fic the terrible and infamous chair au, yes i wrote that, yes i am aware of its contents, yes it is ridiculous ~ yuuri is a chair
ethereal ~ General/877 words ~ Introspection, Canon Compliant ~ a/n: romantic drabble ~ realizations
even Time ~ Mature/18k words ~ Time Travel Fix-It With A Twist!, AU, Angst with a Happy Ending, Depression, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Poisoning, Depression, Complicated Relationships, Non-Linear Narrative ~ a/n: this was my 2nd yoi fic! there are two ways to read it (one chapter for each way). this is quite sad, but also… not ~ in which yuuri and victor get it wrong until time comes in and allows for them to get it right
finally ~ General/1.8k words ~ Mutual Pining, High School AU, Friends to Lovers, Getting Together, Oblivious Katsuki Yuuri, Fluff ~ a/n: ngl i wrote this so quickly and did not expect people to like it as much as they did ~ in which everyone got the memo that Yuuri and Victor are “totally dating” except for Yuuri
going places ~ Teen/1.2k words ~ Pre-Canon, AU- Canon Divergence, Self-Reflection, Adolescent Sexuality ~ a/n: my first fic!!!!!!!! i wrote this right after ep 3 was released, this was basically my take on how victor and yuuri knew each other before the reveal in ep 10 :3 ~ viktor remembers and yuuri helps
hearts beat ~ Teen/1.4k words ~ Introspection, Angst, Canon Compliant, Insecurity, set after the beginning of episode 12 ~ a/n: i wrote this for a friend actually :3 this isn’t as sad as people seem to think? like? it’s better afterward as seen in the show? people acting like i broke them up smh ~ Yuuri doesn’t see what Victor sees in him.
in sickness & in health ~ General/511 words ~ Sappy, Sickfic, Domestic ~ a/n: cute drabble :( ~ Yuuri takes care of his whiny and sick husband.
in sync ~ Teen/442 words ~ Introspection, Falling in Love ~ a/n: soft :( ~ heartbeat
inevitable ~ Teen/972 words ~ True Love, Domestic, Insecurity, Sappy Fluff ~ a/n: this is probably my favorite work for domestic victuuri ~ Victor had a bad day and comes home and snaps at Yuuri. Cue little fight and makeup. :)
love (leaf) pile ~ General/354 words ~ Fluff, Victor is Extra ~ a/n: this one was so fun to write! ~ Yuuri shows Victor the glory that is jumping in leaf piles!!
love letters are too cliché ~ Teen/7.2k words ~ Pen Pals, Fluff, Light Angst, Mutual Pining, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Coming Out, College AU (sort of), Letters ~ a/n: this was definitely one that took a lot of me to write for some reason but i’m proud of how it ended up uwu ~ Viktor and Yuuri are pen pals. They both get more out of it than they originally thought.
moonstruck ~ General/712 words ~ Canon Compliant, True Love, Gentle Kissing ~ a/n: i think this was my first ever drabble? i was so soft when writing it ~ moon·struck (adjective): unable to think or act normally, especially because of being in love.
Much To Do About Everything ~ Teen/24.8k words ~ Enemies to Lovers, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Misunderstandings, Humor, Pranks and Practical Jokes, Fluff and Angst, Rivalry ~ a/n: this work is more dialogue heavy than my others and it was very fun to write that dialogue :) ~ Victor and Yuuri won’t stop complaining about each other. Phichit and Chris, being the wonderful best friends that they are, just want them to shut the hell up. Starfleet Academy/Star Trek/Much Ado About Nothing AU
**Pigeon Alley ~ IMG ~ Teen/35.5k words ~ Famous Actors Victuuri, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Insecurity, Implied/Referenced Alcoholism/Alcohol Abuse, Unresolved Emotional Tension, Non-Linear Narrative, Friends to Lovers to Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Media Attention ~ a/n: one of my personal favorites, writing this fic helped me in more ways than one ~ What’s meant to be will always find a way. Victor and Yuuri? They’re meant to be.
the rain before the rainbow ~ IMG ~ Teen/7.6k words ~ ANXIETY, Anxiety Attacks, Insecurity, Introspection, Post-Canon, Angst with a Happy Ending, Lack of Communication, Sick Makkachin ~ a/n: one of my more emotionally taxing fics honestly but working with Bee was so fun ~ Yuuri is anxious about marrying Victor.
recovery & the sun ~ Teen/1.2k words ~ Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Introspection, Character Study, Recovery, Drabble ~ a/n: one of my my darkest fics (if not the darkest) and also one where i wrote it just to project some of my own feelings ~ Yuuri understood in a way that Victor had never expected, had never even hoped.
Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy ~ Explicit/1.7k words ~ Anal Sex, Porn with Feelings, basically Yuuri rides Victor while Victor wears a cowboy hat, kind of a crack fic? ~ a/n: fjfjfjfjfjfjjfjfjjfj why ~ When Victor receives a cowboy hat from a fan, Yuuri may or may not want to devastate him.
strength ~ Teen/1.1k words ~ Gender Dysphoria, Trans Katsuki Yuuri, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Anxiety, Established Relationship ~ a/n: so this fic haunts me bc i think i misinterpreted the prompt wrong (didn’t see the “him” at the end there) and a big part of me wishes i wrote yuuri as a trans GUY and i feel bad whenever i think about this fic but some people liked it and yeah ~ Yuuri feels dysphoric and Victor comforts her.
sunflower ~ Teen/1.2k words ~ Slight Angst, Introspection, Femininity, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Fluff, Sappy ~ a/n: one of my fave drabbles! uwu~ Yuuri realizes it’s okay to like wearing dresses.
touch ~ General/439 words ~ True Love, Anxiety ~ a/n: this is also another one of my fave drabbles ~ Viktor and Yuuri express their love through touch.
**The Universe’s Secrets ~ IMG ~ General/5.3k words ~ Pre-Relationship, Mutual Pining, Sappy, Introspection, Canon Compliant, Tension, Relationship Study, Developing Relationship ~ a/n: another fic that took a lot of me but i’m proud of writing and ALSO another fic where i very much enjoyed working with jercy~ 3 times Victor smiles at Yuuri + 3 times Yuuri smiles at Victor.
The World Opened With You ~ IMG ~ Teen/10.6k words ~ Famous Victuuri, Violinist Victor, Pianist Yuuri, Musician AU, Depression, Family Issues, Sappy, Introspection ~ a/n: this fic really popped off huh !! i honestly never expected it to and it meant a lot that it did and thank you STILL nikai for making gorgeous artwork, i really loved working with him too :( ~ Victor and Yuuri are paired up to play a duet together. More things come from it than expected.
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Because I’ve been on a knight kick what with reading The Afterward by E.K. Johnston (great read that you should all check out if for no reason other than the gay lady knight and trans lady knight both of which are normalized in the world of the story) and because I could I’ve made myself my dream knight-tribal commander. Also, now that I think about it, I am so using this character in my fanwalker stories once the origin story stuff is done.
Aryel, Knight of Windgrace is cool and all but without the “valor and honor boros-y” part of the knight flavor it just feels incomplete. Also, to be frank, her abilities are fine but I like the idea of leading the knights rather than leaning on them as their commander; hence the abilities that enhance the creatures rather than relying on having a lot of them like Aryel’s second ability does.
Also adding red brings in Adriana, Bloodsworn Steward, Crimson Honor Guard, Varchild, Truefire Captain, and Skyknight Legionnaire all strictly on-tribe as well as letting Sylvia Brightspear from Battlebond bring along Khorvath to give everybody flying and haste.
This is the first card I’ve ever designed myself, so please be gentle if I made something way too good or bad.
The art, btw, is a piece called Silence by yagaminoue on deviantart and you can see the full piece here.
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APPLICATIONS ARE NOW OPEN!
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I will be accepting as many people as I can this time, but I don’t have a specific number because I never adhere to it.
The current “Story So Far” document is here, and a FAQ is under the cut.
These applications will be open for 24 hours.
Are trans/gay/etc. cats allowed?
Yes.
Can my trans/gay/etc. cat have kits?
Yes.
Is NSFW allowed?
UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES IS DISCUSSING/POSTING LINKS TO NSFW CONTENT ALLOWED. You will be warned once with extreme prejudice. If it happens again, you will be kicked without warning.
Does this roleplay only accept traditional names?
No. Be as creative with the names as you want.
How many cats can I have?
As many as you'd like. I won't politce how many characters a person has, but please know your own limits!
What's the process of applying for another character?
Fill out an application and send it to me [vana] or the mod [crab].
Are there any design restrictions?
Very little. If it can feasibly explained in a natural setting, it's allowed. Any eye color is accepted.
Where is TDD set?
A fictional-ish area of Mt. Rainier, Washington.
How active do I need to be?
TDD is a rather fast-paced roleplay and rewards are given to those that are most active, such as visions and extra plot opportunities. With that said, there are no activity requirements to join, but I do request you message me that you're going on a hiatus. I do periodically clear out "inactive" (as in, haven't interacted with anyone ooc) players with a 48 hour warning.
Can I PLEEEEEAAASEEE have [high rank here]?
Probably not. All the high ranks are taken and medicine cats choose their own apprentices. Don't complain, please. It just makes people uncomfortable.
What is the Crimson Dawn? Is it another clan?
It's not quite a clan, but it's no group of rogues either. The Crimson Dawn worships the Martyr, a cat that they believe has ascended to godhood. The doctrine the Martyr gives is put down to the Prophet, who passes it to his congregation. They have a rather cult-like flair.
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