#tumblrinas dont abandon me now

[kalofi]

and some quick ones

[lordiavolo]

hi my dear tumblrinas... im going to semi abandon this accnt as well as taking a break from my discord. when i started my "Identity" as link i was so much different then i am now. i believed different things and thought in different ways. ive changed so much its crazy, wnd i just feel like ive grown out of it. coming back to this blog always makes me slip back into that.

also having bpd sometimes as much as i wish it didnt makes me less toxic/better mentally if i avoid people :^( i dont want things to be that way, and im still trying to figure out the balance and how to accept friendships as human connections insead of transactional, so im not going to log onto discord for a while, but i will come back there eventually! i just dont want ppl to think im mad or ghosting u! im just trying to learn how to be an adult and how to be kind and offline

i will likely come back here just to post art, so im not totally abandoning this account, but i wont really engage with any replies/rbs anymore, just drop my art and scurry back into my hole lol.

om archive server ppl i love u and im sorry im a bad admin 😭. i am still actively archiving, and i wish i could figure out a better plan for having a public archive, ive just gotten really scared of letting everyone down or making ppl mad so i keep disappearing from our server :(

everyone who liked my posts and put up w me being annoying and always tried to see the good in me thank u. ily. if u want my discord (even tho ill be away for a while) u are more than welcome to send an ask or dm edit: also adding to this that i really dont like that i was ever involved in harassment campaigns, even indirectly. even if we disagreed on something its against my morals to do shit like that, and i wish i hadnt. one day i hope to be able to reach out to anyone i hurt directly and apologize, but im still sort of worried i may frighten someone by doing so (ie getting a message from someone you had problems with can be intimidating as i have been through before), so i hope that for right now this apology at least will mean something to you.

[agayworthfightingfor]

do all the space asks!!!!

pluto: what do you love most about yourself?

i like that a bunch of people think i’m calming to be around. it’s a very good thing to be.

mars: who is your ideal best friend?

@f0xf0ce. i no longer id as pansexual, but we are forever pansexual partners in crime.

earth: what’s your ideal house/home?

decent sized place with friends and partners, in easy walking distance of a convenience store and something moderately fun to do, at the very least. needs space for pets (i desperately want a big dopey dog) and really good lighting. ok now i sound like im on fucking hgtv or some shit wow.

saturn: what’s your aesthetic?

tumblrina punk, which is also my blog title. basically its what happens when u combine flower crowns, glitter, spiky things, and a deep hatred of people who would do others harm.

jupiter: if you could choose your own name what would it be?

i did choose my own name but if i picked again id probs wind up picking it again even though my headmates are all desperately shouting their own goddamn names. especially owen. zie really wants this body to be named owen. i wonder why.

neptune: what’s an album that you can listen through entirely w/o skipping song?

shape shift with me by against me! sometimes i can do a fever you cant sweat out by p!atd but sometimes i get bored of the introduction and intermission and skip those. i can

venus: go to piece of clothing/outfit?

ok theres two outfits that are my defaults. my too cute to be binary shirt w/ my floral skirt + combat boots, plus tights in winter. then there’s my black tank top under my red/white flannel shirt with skinny jeans and my floral converse.

mercury: what’s something you couldn’t live without?

hrt. which.. i currently dont have. and need to figure out how to manage an accessibility issue in order to acquire. lmao fuck

uranus: what’s your zodiac sign?

pisces but like certain things say im an aquarius because im on the veeeery cusp. which is bullshit, anyone whos ever talked to me knows im a goddamn pisces

the moon: favorite quote?

“Blood does not quench fire. It only stains.” from Chameleon Moon by @thesylverlining. which if you havent read it you need to. now. go. get it.

the sun: what motivates you?

the fact that nazis want me and everyone i care about dead and i refuse to ever make a nazi happy.

kepler-22b: if you could go anywhere, where would it be/why?

uh? somewhere where i have partners. ppl i care about. anywhere except this fucking room.

phobos: what was your favorite song as a child?

uuuuum? i genuinely dont know. i remember really liking boulevard of broken dreams by green day when i was like 11 because i was a depressed gay child.

ceres: out of everyone/thing in this world, who would you elect president?

um. thats a big decision. theres genuinely no one i can think of who i would trust with that much power. no.

titan: if you could die your hair absolutely any color and pull it off, what would it be?

i have already dyed my hair most colors that i would ever dye it. id totally go for rainbow though. or like... light pink? esp if i could keep up with it so that my roots never showed and it never faded, that’d be HEAVENLY

callisko: what’s your ideal job?

honestly i really want to just stay home and take care of housework? im good at that stuff. i can keep things clean, i would be able to work on my own terms, and if im living with the right people i would basically never have to wear pants.

enceladus: who is your favorite person? what are they like?

i don’t have like a favorite person in the sense of I Am Extremely Attached To This Person In A Mental Illness Way. which is weird for me tbh. im like... dancing with that kind of attachment to @thenannystate which is an adventure that id really like to not subject her to, thank you very much hellbrain? but shes so smart and sweet and she cares a LOT and like. she holds a hell of a grudge which kinda functions as a reality check for me bc i like. instantly forgive terrible people which is Bad. and just. she’s sO FUCKING GOOD I LOVE FRANZ A LOT

hyperion: do you have a favorite store/shop?

lowkey if hot topic cut their prices in half theyd be my fav but they’re so. fuckin. overpriced. otherwise, maybe thinkgeek.com or something like that

comet: what’s your biggest secret?

...gee i love oversharing but damn thats a hell of a question. the biggest secret im willing to divulge is that im into oviposition but that’s not even a fucking secret at this point lets be real

astroid: what’ your biggest fear? i there a reason why you’re scared of it?

rejection/abandonment. yes there is a reason and that is because i grew up a total outcast and now im not and i will never ever ever ever go back to that hell of being alone nope no thanks

shooting star: who is your ideal s/o?

the xenomorph.