#ummm i wanna make dinner again but idk what

[stonyponyofficial]

i was tagged by @cyber--grrl to list ten songs with food and or beverage in the title. thanks fer the tag :3

ill also rate how yummy each song is for fun! 😋

1. dog food - 100 gecs: mm yummy girlkibble just for me ^w^ also very yummy song. the beginning gives me goosebumps every time, and the ending vocal noise feels very eating kibblecore.... u agree right? umm 8/10

2. Chocolate Matter - Sweet Trip: if there were something out there generically called like "chocolate flavored matter" i think id eat it. also DELICIOUS song lots of variety and good texture here 9/10

3. Cream Soda no Yuutsu - ......... : ill admit im not much of a cream soda fanatic. nothing against it in fact it sounds quite yummy at the moment i just don't really have it ever. similar feelings about the song. good i just haven't listened to it much.. feels like im on a cream soda beach being soaked in the waves 7/10

4. Lean Beef Patty - JPEGMAFIA, Danny Brown: mmm yumm yummy yummy scaring the hoes for dinner AGAIN fuck yesss 🥰😻 however just a patty? in a state of being .. maybe cooked? could just be raw meat on a plate. hmmmm. while the song would be near perfect yumminess on my Violet Yumminess Scale the title brings it down a lot... ill say 6/10

5. honeydew blue - 800 Cherries: oooh double fruits on this one :3c melons besides the famous wawermelon aren't really my go-to fruit snack but id have a little if u were having some o_o and like u were making it look really good idk... oh and id have a few of those 800 cherries u have too even tho i said i didn't really like those too... also the song is what i hear when im full from a nice fruit meal. and the triannnggllleeee 😩 chews on it. it is metal. i was gonna give this song an 8 but me not liking honeydew that much should not bring it down this song is a 9/10 yumminess

6. Fresh Meat - Diet Tea Other Cola: yet again we run into the clash between song and title yumminess. fresh meat: the song's yumminess comes from dtoc's slick lyrics and how they mix like backing screams into these songs with little midi beats? i think they're an interesting artist but thats for another time. fresh meat: the food however? would maybe not be as yummy i think. 4/10 bleh!

7. Princess Lunas Glorious Grilled Cheese Sandwiches - Cats Millionaire: i would do unspeakable things to a grilled cheese rn. especially if it was one of princess lunas 😳.... isn't my favorite off fun fun fun but is still yummy in its own right! 7/10

8. Hotel Breakfast - Bladee: listen if there's a whole buffet of shitty breakfast food im there. and if there's a bladee song about it im also there. wait he missed the hotel breakfast bc he slept too late? rookie mistake. 6/10 for missing it lol

9. Stir Fry - Migos: mmmmmm im just making myself hungry now. personally id fuck up some stir fry. chunky ass noodles. little corn. shit. and this Migos song? yummy enough to back it up 8/10

10. Piggy Pie - Insane Clown Posse: hmmmm if we're talking like a pork pot pie from the freezer section yeah sure yummy as hell. however im not sure about these fellas food handling credentials or their ingredients..... song is very crunchy and record scratchy and yummy however so to balance all this. a 7/10 yumminess :3

okay here is where i use my summoning spells.... in case anyone would like to show off their yummy songs as well ^w^ u don't have to rate them that was just for me hehe.... u don't even have to make a post we can just think about yummy songs together instead! ummm okay here i goes @numetalpuppygirl @metroid-fusion @transgirlmononoke @malicious-face @toriel-vapes @a-little-bit-poss SHAZOOO spell of increase ur notification number by one

and as always thanks for w

and as always anyone can lie and say i tagged them if they wanna do yummy song game!

[trisloshr]

ok im doing this cus @tiny-vermin tagged me and i love verm so i do it (wasting time in class anyway)

last song i listened to: splitting this by spotify/ itunes/ youtube (I Will Listen To 3 Songs At Once) 1. そして、人になる/ mi8k one thing to know about me miyake is my fav vocap ever. yay. 2. 曇天ノ陰ニ/ コン love this album love this song the intro is awesome and the album ver is even better fuck uesssss... 3. 美しき世界/ クロxヒメ sooo good these vocals soooo beuatiful im obsessed (About to start a spiel about lost albums and archiving but i wont)

putting the rest under the cut cus all i care about is music

last book i read: sorry for not reading ok i tried to reread lotr this sem n failed awfully. libby was like Dumbass cant read lotr on top of class in the next 15 days fuckyou. ummm my new issue of dekopon came in yesterday i did read that...

last film i watched: for film class we watched edge of tomorrow last week thought it sucked. everyone booed when they kissed. um. transformers 1984 watched that with friends. laughed so hard Never watch transformers with 2 autistic guys its like being stuck between them on the couch holding the popcorn. and also digimon it was Awesoemeeeeee i love digimon

last tv series: over spring break i started watching the o.c. with my cousin and its rlly fun to watch with a running commentary. once the term started i hvent picked it up again but over the summer id probably finish it. seth is like stilesteenwolf before stiles teenwolf im obsessed withhim.

last thing i googled:

from last friday dont know why i needed peggle make phonecall at 1am Delirious from my all nighter

last thing i ate: all the food here sucks i cant wait to go home i ate indomie for dinner. but when i go home im so excited to eat dry wonton mee... laksa... moving away from home makes u crazy cus i never even liked laksa that much before but now im desperate

sweet savory spicy: awesome splatfest Brother im indian of cause im gonna say spicy. but for snacks i always go savory recently ive been buying lots of chocolate though i have to be in a mood

Amount of sleep: got an hour of sleep on friday and went to 9h of class and slept 16 hours after hope this tells u all that u need to know. theres one week this term i decided i didnt wanna do any hw and i was awake like 4 hours everyday idk what happend to me

currently reading: a book about character design and illustration called イラストのこと、キャラクターデザインのこと by sakazaki chiharu. uts sooo cute... tbh my school library has a lot of really good books but theres no time i also borrowed typographics 2 cybertypes: zines + screens and it looks really cool. would love book recs tbh art books or otherwise

[legendofthe3divas]

ciao ily

THIS THAT 23/07/24'

Would you rather swim in a giant wave pool or go to the beach?

Would you rather wear a swimsuit in the snow or a snowsuit at the beach?

Would you rather jump into freezing cold water or be at the beach in joggers on a hot day?

Would you rather see fireflies at night or butterflies during the day?

Would you rather have to do an hour of homework or an hour of chores every day in the summer?

Would you rather go to a music and arts camp with your favorite artist or a sports camp with your favorite athlete?

Would you rather eat a pickle flavored snow cone or spinach flavored ice cream?

Would you rather go hiking for 2 hours a day or read a book for 2 hours?

Would you rather build a sandcastle or make yourself a sand tail?

Would you rather swim in a salty sea or chlorinated pool?

Would you rather tour a large city for a summer vacation or go camping?

Would you rather have a water balloon fight or an actual water fight?

Would you rather eat a lolly or ice cream?

Would you rather learn how to surf or learn how to wave dive?

Would you rather build a sandcastle or shell dive?

Would you rather spend the summer as a counselor at camp or work at your favorite store?

Would you rather spend the summer learning a new language or a new instrument?

Would you rather have get an extra day off of school in the summer or have no homework for a week?

Would you rather eat a watermelon with seeds in it or drink super sour lemonade?

Would you rather get stung by a bee or get 30 mosquito bites?

Would you rather walk barefoot on hot sand or have slipper feet in sandals?

Would you rather watch the stars at night or sing camp songs around a campfire?

Would you rather eat hot dogs every day for dinner or watermelon every day for breakfast?

Would you rather have to wear your bathing suit every day in the summer or wear a snorkel on your head?

Would you rather take a week-long road trip or spend the day at your favorite amusement park?

done xxx

YAYYYY another this or that!! for the people who don’t know me and @randomescapingwords have been doing this or that’s (not for a long long time) but no one gives two shits

1. go to the beach

2. snow suit at the beach, i can just sit in the sea and cool down

3. jump into freezing cold water

4. fireflies at night

5. hour of homework (which i probably should do tbf if i wanna get it done in time but i can’t do it everyday so)

6. music and arts camp ofc

7. spinach flavoured icecream

8. read a book as i should probably start reading more

9. make myself a sand tail

10. oooooo ummm salty sea more summer vibes

11. go camping

12. water balloon fight

13. icecream

14. surf ig idk what wave dive is

15. sandcastle yet again idk what shell dive is

16. work at fav store

17. new language ig

18. no homework for week

19. eat a watermelon with seeds? cos they all do and i do anyways?

20. 30 mosquito bites (last summer when i went abroad i got 12 mosquito bites within 6 minutes of being outside)

21. barefoot on hot sand

22. watch the stars

23. hotdogs everyday for dinner

24. wear my bathing suit ig

25. week long road trip

[lukesperfectharmonyhair]

im rewatching jatp instead of studying for the 3 tests i have tomorrow and i thought i would share my thoughts and reactions with each episode so enjoy!!....

wake up

- hearing the “1, 2, 3″ at the start of the episode gives me more serotonin than my antidepressants ever will

- julie’s slippers...that’s it...that’s the thought

- that dry ass pasta the molina’s are eating for dinner??? someone needs to give my man ray some cooking tips or a cookbook... something

-the looks the boys give julie when she says it was an OLD cd she found. as if they could be old??

-the entire julie and luke kitchen scene i mean there are no words to describe how much i am in love with scene. the banter, the flirting, luke giving this girl he literally just met an actual PIECE OF HIS SOUL so she can get music back into her life. not a single time have i watched that scene and not felt my heart literally grow cause of how cute they are. 

-the entire scene when julie is singing wake up. that scene is what made me literally CRAVE watching the other episodes. like of course i was going to watch them cause i wasn’t gonna just stop watching a show after one episode, and yes the show was good already but seeing the lighting and her voice, and just everything about the scene,,,,*chef’s kiss* 

bright

-flynn drinking seven sodas....SEVEN??? i would be throwing up if i drank more than like 2 and she drank seven,,,no ma’am.

- flynn and her trumpet. talented queen

- “ i wouldn’t have given you the song if i didnt think you were gonna rock it.” lmaooo im crying:)

- i start tearing up every time julie goes to play the first notes of bright,,, and then i’m full on bawling when the guys come in and play with her cause...they weren’t playing to be seen they were playing to be there for her and play to comfort her. pls i love them<3

- nick vibing in the front row

- the tech guy deserves so much more praise

flying solo

- reggie’s little butt shake or whatever you wanna call it!!

- julie’s little laugh when she yells at the guys to stop it

- “and we’re on the runway again” GENUINELY one of my favorite lines of the whole show pls i love luke’s humor

-this is the first time i noticed this but reggie’s face after alex says “DONT TELL ME HOW TO GHOST!”

-WILLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU<3333333

-the slow mo helmet take off,,,,me too alex me too

-willie’s little giggles:))))

- “oh-oh!”

- “no clue” alex i love you baby<3

- next season better give us a scene of flynn throwing eggs at someone’s house because i think it’s safe to say we were robbed of that experience. 

- the flying solo performance is just amazing

i got the music

- just the whole opening scene is so cute ....the dancing, singing, happiness RADIATING from julie 

-nick in an all white suit and fedora

-WILLEX MUSEUM DATE YEAH BABYYYYY

- carefree skateboarder bf and anxiety ridden drummer bf

- yelling. in. museums. 

-alex thinking he’s literally dying again because of the salt... zero braincells in this band.

- another scene we were robbed of that i need to see in season 2...reggie singing “home is where my horse is” while alex and julie sit patiently and attentively listen to him but luke looks like he’s about to commit murder

- i get SO MUCH second hand embarrassment for julie when she looks through luke’s songbook and says “ wow luke I didn’t know you were such a romantic” julie baby i love you but...eekkkkk

- “he looks like a substitute teacher”- where did he come up with that like so many other things he could be compared to but a substitute teacher??

- “luke introduced you to rock” heck yeah it did.. literal soulmates

- would like to see a picture of the raccoon in Flynn’s backyard

- wee woo wee woo police sirens://///

- julie’s outfit ughhhh i love it

- the poster that im pretty sure says “sexiest role” behind caleb... why was that necessary 

the other side of hollywood

- THE ENTIRE PERFORMANCE OF THE OTHER SIDE OF HOLLYWOOD 

- i lose my absolute shit over this song omg literal chills

- the cape grab i cannot physically do this rn

- willie being so excited the entire performance and looking over to see alex’s reaction

- reggie being in awe everytime one of the girls performing does something.. me too reggie

-”well i wouldn't really call it mAAgiCcCC bUT”

- nick and his fedora again

- alex has a crush, alex has a crush on.....WILLIE

-the boys eating food for the first time in 25 years is honestly so realistic

-alex shoving a whole slice of pizza in his mouth

- lukes ‘OH MY GODDDDD’

- reggie kissing his meatball sub that looks painfully dry but also delicious 

- the continuation of the other side of hollywood performance and everyone dancing

-reggie imitating caleb’s evil laugh and owen trying so hard not to break

-me getting mad at the boys for not showing up for julie and being sad with her but at the same time i’m obviously not mad at the boys just...disappointed?? idk 

finally free

- how did julie get to the school if she missed the first three classes?? wasn’t she still at flynn’s house from the night before cause she slept over so did she walk to school or was she just sitting in flynn’s house by herself and one of flynn’s parents was like you gonna go to school or???

-dance class with nicky poo<3

-reggie fixing his amp in the rain

-julie’s blue dress outfit in this episode is my ABSOLUTE favorite 

- the birthday candle scene makes me sob like a little baby,,,and rightfully so

- julie smart, smart to be taking calculus as what a sophomore??

- all eyes on me yes queen iconic

- alex dancing is how i dance in my brain whenever the song comes on 

- finally free as a song is NEVER given enough credit and why not?? it’s my favorite song they do as a band AND the madison’s vocals and the echoing part omg i loveeeee

- and the whole performance with luke’s heart eyes. i count this performance as the moment luke like fell in love with julie...like full on just blown away with how much awe and admiration he has for her in that moment and all the time.

 - julie and luke singing “and you’re a part of me” while staring directly into each others soul,,,yeah that’s love kids

edge of great

- carlos being the ghost hunter he is and tía being done with him

- luke’s pouting face 

- reggie and ray making breakfast together is so wholesome. reggie really loves and seeks comfort in ray and i love that

- luke just waiting next to julie’s locker and his little “hey”

- the first time i watch this scene i thought charlie was from new york cause of the way he says “ i can't do this without you” and then i watched the cast interviews and just realized he is somewhat joey tribbiani 

- jealous luke hehehehehhehehe

- “well dont you look shARrP”- yes he does luke thank you very much

- “uh oh i think someone has a crush on julie” yeah you do you little shit,,, now admit it to her

- the proud look on luke’s face when he realizes julie is still paying attention to HIM even though she’s supposed to be having a full on conversation with nick

- the shoulder push ( as someone who has had their own shoulder pushed in the middle of a high school hallway as a weird way of flirting,,,,i can definitely somewhat attest to how luke is feeling in that moment and i too continued to flirt with the person who shoulder shoved me while we were still standing in the hallway)

- the flow from whatever the hell dance nick and julie are doing and the perfect harmony dance is so special to me and i love it

-ADOANCLOBNAOVBCOAB THE HAIR PLSSSSS

- EVERYTIME THE SCENE COMES ON AND I SEE HIM WALKING THROUGH THE MIRROR I HAVE TO PAUSE THE SHOW FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES WHILE I DIE LAUGHING BECAUSE THE HAIR IS SO BAD EVEN THOUGH I SHOULD BE USED TO HOW IT LOOKS AFTER WATCHING THIS SHOW LITERALLY 30 TIMES

- i think people see my username and assume i like his hair in this scene but...ummm fun little fact i do not like it

- the dance is so good though ugh my babies

- the hair

- madison is gorgeous 

- another season 2 scene i need: julie teaching this dance to luke and they perform it in front of alex and reggie so they can see luke roll on the floor like that

-the hair

- the lift i loveeee

- the voices at the end of the song *chef’s kiss*

- the way julie spins out from luke and into nick omg so good

- “thAnKs pArTnER”

- luke denying his feelings for julie,,,babe pls

- the whole edge of great performance is so good and beautiful and the colors are SPECTACULAR 

-julie avoiding luke’s gaze lolz

- can't believe my mans really tried to deny he didn’t have feelings for julie like 5 hours earlier even though he’s getting upset because she hasn’t looked at him in 2 minutes

- THE. GUITAR. RIFF. SOLO.

- when i finally learn how to play the electric guitar well enough to learn the guitar solo... it’s over for everyone

-nick just came to watch the girl he likes perform not watch her flirt with a hologram plssss can we give this man a break next season.

- “we have to say goodbye to julie”- that’s literally more important to luke than not playing music anymore because julie is music to him now

unsaid emily

-already crying and the episode hasn't even started

-willex in the orpheum

- alex literally being OVER reggie

- nope too emotionally unstable to watch this scene right now

- my therapist will be hearing about this tomorrow

- show us the baby picture of luke cowards

- this is such a beautiful song that makes me cry every fucking time gosh damn it

- everytime i watch the flashback scene of luke on his bike i think of “christmas song” by phoebe bridges and i cry even more

- i tried to learn how to play this song on my electric guitar (because i dont have an acoustic guitar) and i ended up crying half way through so i do not think i will be playing it anytime soon:/

- the harmonies *chef’s kiss*

- THE POLICE LIGHTS ....i cry

- FAT tears rolling down my face

- there's literally not a moment i don’t cry during this episode

- interesting little relationship :0

- when i played percussion in 7th grade i used to lay down on the couch in the practice room at school ( which god knows what people did on that couch...ew) and stick my drumsticks up my nose too,,,, just another similarity between alex and i 

stand tall

- willie really drove a bus 200 miles into the desert for his crush

- WILLEX HUG 

- i love willie no last name so much,,,i just wanna hold and protect him

- alex’s ballerina dance

-julie’s overall outfit i love<3

- “im swimming”

- the way carlos hangs up the iPad on tía makes me CRACK UP he’s just lmao bye girl

- another julie outfit i love

- “anything julie. you know that.” AHHHHHAASIDSJFPACISN love bitches

- the suits

- luke’s hair in this episode is so much better than the perfect harmony hair pls

- YOU GOT NOTHING TO LOSE

- the way luke looks so restricted and confined in his suit... but at the same time he looks like a 10 week old puppy

-luke’s AGGRESSIVE but small foot tapping leading up to being on the stage

- the solos:)))))

- crying again over julie’s monologue to her mom

- julie really was brave enough to be ready to perform by herself

-the way Trevor looks at carrie when she says “been here before”

-ALEXXXXXX

-REGGIEEEEE

-luuukkKKKEEEEEEE

- this performance makes me cry

- especially the first time when i saw luke flickering...sobs

- he finally looks free in his suit:))

- alex’s solo is so pretty i love him

- reggie’s solo too 

- nick just straight up vibing the entire performance

- alex and luke holding hands...hehehe cute besties

- “thank you, guys” NO THANK YOU 

- the way julie begs for them to do something about the jolts for HER cause she knows luke would never say no to her

- “no music is worth making, julie, if we’re not making it with you,” I JUST SCREAMED AND IM PRETTY SURE I WOKE UP MY ENTIRE HOUSEHOLD...whoops

- going back to that line i could say so much about it but....for someone who’s life was literally MUSIC for the 17 years he was alive, and after finding out he could play music again even though he was dead and saying it made him feel alive, he would give that up- he would give up playing his guitar, playing in a band with his friends, give up writing and singing music- if he wasn’t doing that with julie. that’s more than saying i love you,,,that’s literally like saying i’d give up my ENTIRE LIFE and what i love to do if i dont get to do it with you

- i just made myself cry with that description...wow

-the hug<3

-also imagine how luke felt in that moment,,, hearing this girl, once again that he would give his life up for, saying in his ear that she loves them. i would motherfucking glow too, luke

- *passionately but gently holds each others faces*

-HANDS OFF MY BABY NICK, CALEB

- caleb’s outfit is....something

- the head turn plssss

this was so long and i am so sorry but if you read this far.....leave some of your own reactions or thoughts:)))

k goodnight im gonna, ugh, finally go study ://

[psychewithwings]

Haaaii is there anyway for me to request shino for the make out chronicles

Ummm YES! Always baby <3 i hope you like it xx

Idk who did this fan art but lemme know because they deserve CREDITS!!! It’s amazing and I love it <3

You were breathing heavily, you skin was sticky with sweat. Choji, Naruto, Kiba, and Shino looked to be about in the same condition. You had all been training together for the past two and a half hours. Shino watched as you poured the water from your bottle on your forehead, allowing the liquid to drip down your face. He watched longingly, a sudden sorrow striking him. You were a goddess compared to the mere mortal self he presented... he shouldn’t even begin to think about you this way. It would only set him up for disappointment. Besides, no one ever remembered he existed anyways. 

“Hey are you guys still up for going to the record store I was telling you about?I’m gonna head home and get changed and then go if you guys wanna join?” you asked cheerfully. The boys all grumbled that they were too tired and started to head home for good. Shino didn’t say anything, in fact all he wanted was to go to the record store with you and see what kind of music you liked, but he figured you wouldn’t want to go with just him so he turned around and trudged back towards his apartment. “Hey Shino,” you called, “will I see you there?” He turned around to see your bright smile, his heart melting. You wanted to go to the record store with just him? He shifted his face into the collar of his jacked to hide how red his face was. “Yes, I will be there,” he said. You grinned, “Okay! I’ll see you there at 3, don’t late,” you winked at him and jogged out of the park. Shino stood still trying to process what was going on... Not only did you want to hang out with him alone, but you winked at him? Did that mean you liked him? Or were you just like that? He figured, for the sake of his own heart, that he shouldn’t get too hopeful and that you were probably just like that... But as he walked home to change he couldn’t help being just a little bit hopeful. 

Shino was waiting outside of the record store at exactly, 2:53. He wouldn’t be late and he didn’t mind waiting. You walked up at about 3:02, you hadn’t meant to be late but you were so nervous, you liked Shino... a lot, and it was the first time you guys had hung out just the two of you. Sure, you’d gone out together in a group before, often to the bar. There, you’d normally pair off and talk for hours but nothing had come of it. You figured he didn’t really like you like you had thought so that’s why you had to make sure to dress up a little. You had traded your workout clothes for one of your favorite outfits and fixed your hair and make up just the way you liked it. 

Shino was trying his best to keep his mouth from hanging open. You looked absolutely amazing. You were absolutely beautiful and then... you did the unthinkable. You threw your arms around his neck. “I’m so glad you could come with me,” you murmured. You pulled away and beamed up at him. He wasn’t sure what to say back, wasn’t sure if he remembered verbal communication at all after that. He managed a small “me too” before opening the door for you. 

“So show me what you’re in to?” you sighed, thumbing through a stack of 50% off records. Shino’s eyes widened, “what I’m into?” Shino smiled and his cheeks tinted pink. He went around the isles of records and showed you all the music he liked. You had a few in common but most of what Shino listened to, you’d never even heard of: underground bands from the ‘70s, hard core German metal music, and soft French jazz. He then waited patiently for you to show him some of the music you liked, but you simply told him, “I’ll show you later, let’s listen to this one.” You presented a lilac colored record that he had pointed out earlier to you, telling you it was one of his favourites. It was an album by an obscure indie band, it was rumored to be based off of Walt Whitman’s poems. “You wanna give it a listen?” you smiled and followed Shino to the sampling turn table. 

Shino stood behind you and carefully placed the headphones over your ears. “Just let me know if it’s too loud... okay?” he said before brushing his hand down your shoulder. He moved the needle onto the record and waited, watching for your reaction. Now, it wasn't music that you would normally choose to listen to, but you couldn’t deny that it was beautiful. It was heart breaking, beautiful music. You were stunned and staring at his face, you knew that you would have to try and tell him how much you liked him. 

You both picked a few more records to try out but you were too distracted thinking about how to tell Shino without scaring him away. He went up to the register to buy a record that he liked. You waited for him outside of the store. Maybe you would just ask if he was hungry and then see if he’d have dinner with you? Yeah, that seemed good, for all you know Shino was just nice and wanted to be a good friend to you. 

As he exited the store he shyly held out a paper bag to you. You took it, assuming he wanted you to hold it while he tied his show. “I-it’s for you,” he said. You opened the bag and looked inside to see that it was the lilac record. It was such a rare album so you knew it couldn’t have been cheap. Just as you were about to thank him, the emotion took over you. You grabbed the collar of his jacket and pulled him into a kiss. At first he was surprised, but it seemed to wear off as he wrapped his arms around you and pressed you against the brick wall of the record store. He placed one of his hands on the wall, the other on the back of your neck. He pulled away and studied your face, his eyes dancing across all of your features. “You’re so beautiful,” he said before kissing you again. His lips were skilled and molded to yours perfectly. He caught your bottom lip in his teeth and pulled. You sighed in delight and he kissed down your jaw and to your neck. He nipped and kissed at the soft skin, then trailed his tongue back up. He nipped at your earlobe and you sighed again. It was then he whispered, “if you keep making those sounds, I won’t be able to control myself.” 

[anonil88]

The L Word Gen Q; liveblog Season 2 Ep 1-2

Ep 1:

Sophie chose her future wife wow. Good for her, but I know the truth is gonna come out and it is gonna be a hot mess.

I'm a bit upset that they broke up the throuple because this amazing dynamic that the three of them have. They are so funny in the same setting.

ROSIE O'DONNEL!!!!! Of course Tina would settle down with someone kind of bland but completely removed from the entertainment world. Ugh a public defender.

I LOVE Bette's outfit like absolutely adore the browns.

Angie seems like awkward about this and looking at her moms like ummm....OH she wants to meet her donor ohhhh.

I remember that whole situation and it was a mess. Carrie shut the hell up.

Bette yet again feeling like the "lesser" parent. Yikes.

Ayyy they are still together....wait he's STILL MARRIED. Bro, just leave your husband or completely have a conversation with him about opening up your relationship long term. Instead of when he's away.

Alice is killing her show in the best way and I love that for this queer queen.

Where is Finley? Oh wow she's gone gone? No Alice stay out of it.

Lmfao not Angie saying her mom needs ssri' and yea Bette definitely is having a hard time letting go of her ex-wife well moreso that love, cause it is still there but their relationship was down in the pits at the end.

Y'all don't think Bette, your friend of 10+ years, has a dating criteria? They aren't wrong though Bette is a career lesbian who likes having a wife who does the homely, emotional, and less business labor in her life. A woman that she can dote on and bring to dinners. (If I could have a fun interesting career that I'm also at home to do from time to time that would be me. I'm like a mix of a stay at home husband and an artsy career wife all in one. But, I would just love to cater to my partner and go to idk fancy luncheons all dressed up.

Lmfao Shane switched up so fast lol

Oh thats why they looked like they shit themselves 5 minutes prior in the beginning. Sis was on auto pilot, but also yea she needs to tell Dani. I don't think this location is the place for that.....maybe find an empty room?

Sophie is about to get dumped i feel it in my bones because Micah said it is a deal breaker. Maybe she will tell her about the promotion instead and then at home they can talk about Finley? Sigh idk.

She has a really great partner and may have permanently fucked that up.

Two lesbians get together and make a......queer baby.

Oh so its the confidentiality and also didn't he sign an entire N.D.A.

What's going on with Shane? 👀👀👀 Once a player always a player i guess.

Ay Bette in Tom Ford!

Alice and Nat are too cute...ugh i wanna come home and fuck my partner on the couch one day...lesbian bed death?

Also can I please get a butch/masc on masc (non-man) couple on one of these shows please.

OOOO GIGI WITH THE BURN, that was good. A great save honestly.

Gigi understands what this is like all too closely. These two are gonna be so hot together but, I will miss Tina and Bette fucking.

Carrie is.....weird but, I think these two really work together and Carrie is the type to say something but afterwards apologize. Bette would have never done that with Tina. I do think Tina does still care for Bette but she needed her own life. One away from Bette being the center of her universe that she was expected to orbit around.

Ooooo someone to boss Bette around, yea imma like this pairing even though it may not last.

Is Tess gonna be Shane's voice of reason on her shoulder.

Why are studs like this? Huh I'm confused and I fully get the white people pushing into black spaces. Dinah Shore is not for black lesbians i don't really like playing poker if there aren't a couple femmes around or something. Mainly because a lot of studs be trying to emulate the patriarchy and its so weird.

Just tell her, even though it is going to hurt like hell. This sex scene reminds me of whenever Bette would go to Tina after fucking around on her. Also love how Sophie isn't exactly always topping, it's usually Dani. We love fem tops.

They all really fucked Gigi lmfao

Tess needed that job dammit

Sophie is jittery as hell.

Idk if its because I'm polyamorous/ polya adjacent but I honestly wouldn't mind a partner not telling me they fucked someone else until after our wedding. As long as its not like an active affair and it was a one time thing I'd be like...I'm angry cause you risked me getting sick and yourself but also we talk about a lot so just tell me before you go off putting your tongue into other peoples holes. Oral and nether.

YES! POLYAMORY! also Alice needs to really truly deal with her own insecurities because wasn't the throuple her idea in the first place. Also the way they both be falling into Gigi' jokes was a trip.

This wedding is taking too long to happen smoothly and have 0 issues. I don't know if this show has ever had a smooth wedding so I doubt it is gonna happen now?

And there's the other shoe, Finley is back.

Ep. 2:

Yea this wedding is over, that also was incredibly selfish of Finley especially knowing that Sophie unquestionably wanted to marry Dani. Even Shane the shit show of wedding grooms is like wow that was fucked up.

Hopefully Dani is still a character on the show.

Alice you were in a whole throuple and um bad people cheat? Gurl you have been the other woman how many times in your past relationships? Dana had an entire girlfriend.

Awww Nat. Omg she's crying, she misses their throuple and even in her line of work she has no one to talk to about it. Ugh my heart. 😢😭

Damn Dani moved our fast as hell but also why would you flush a family heirloom?

Bette looks the fuck good in this gold buttoned dress.

You are NOT fine Dani.

Not me having had a crush on the actress who plays Tess since Sense8.

Shane better not fuck with this girl's heart, I swear to God.

Really Finley? EXACTLY MARIBEL! How is everyone calling out Sophie but has literally cheated on other people or been the Finley of their situation. Isn't that the pot calling the kettle black?

Ewwww Jose is a gaslighter ewwww

Mr. Faison

Alice should write about throuple with Nat's and Gigi' permission but most of all she should write about Dana and that hurt. Alice had some really low moments and I wonder if she ever talked about them in her memoir.

As an artist I would LOVE to have an art dealer/director like Bette.

Lmfao Alice said um what the hell. At first she was letting them get it out of their system, but there are people still working and you decided to start snapping very loudly.

Finley can find another job.

Gigi and Bette, also why do gay ppl really date their twins. Are yall some narcissist?

Oh OH GIGI is a DOM TOP. Yes please God more femme dominant tops. The fight for control here with two dominant personalities Jesus christ.

Is Nat okay? Alice stop snooping and awwww see Alice you're loved relax off your commitment issues. Nat just isn't monogamous.

This conversation is something Finley needs to hear especially from two people who have majorly fucked up in their life. Also Shane laughing at Alice being at the middle is funny as hell. Because it's always Alice.

Uncle Shane instincts kicking in and Tess is the voice of clarity and reason.

Shane and Tess are gonna be cute even if its just them flirting instead of actually making a move. I think that works for characters like Shane.

Girl you did not throw out perfectly good food.

Oh so this is where that messy ass scene happens, the one that I saw on instagram as a teaser.

Bette is SHADY but also um Bette you....Yes call her out Shane! 👏🏾 Call Bette out! 👏🏾

Once.... *sips tea*

Alice is so messy but look at this table of cheaters, all of them. Awww Nat 😭, I think she's grieving her relationship but also I'm terrified she is sick. I can't watch Alice loose someone else to illness, that was too hard one time.

Oh, she's polyamorous and it has nothing to do with any of this. Thank God the writers kept someone polyamorous, also Alice is sounding like what people say when they find out you're bi. Alice get a damn grip i swear.

I feel like I would be angry honestly and I get feeling deceived but this is a lot. I guess everyone processes their emotions differently but I'm not giving them gifts back. If me and my ex ended things and we got gifts, we can just split them. Imma put peoples money to good use. 🤷🏾‍♂️

Bette is a really good mom, even to someone's adult child.

Sophie is using Finley as a rebound that is FUCKED UP.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #504

“wash the sorrow from off my skin  /  and show me how to be whole again”

What are your opinions on immigration? Yikes, my man, risky way to start a survey, lol. But basically, I'm thankful it's a thing. There are perfectly valid reasons to want to leave a country, be it just because you want to or because you're fleeing a corrupt government, and I personally find it beneficial to be exposed to different cultures. Your way of life is not the only one, and I believe that it's humbling to learn that and that their cultures should be respected. It's one of the few things I like about my country: our diversity. Now, when it comes to illegal immigration, I have conflicting opinions that I really need to figure out. Would you tell an actual immigrant your views? Sure, if I was asked. What was the subject of the last list you made? Things I want to put on my motivational board whenever I actually make it... Who pays for the majority of your belongings? My mom and dad. Do you think parents are responsible for the actions of their children? Not for the most part. That child still has free will with influences other than their guardians. Should the military draft take both men AND women? Why/why not? I have no idea bro, this is too complex to think about. Does it bother you when you have crumbs on your bed? Yes, but considering I usually eat in my bed, I'm not absolutely pristine about it. Have you ever been arrested? No. Do you drive or use public transportation? My mom drives me around, because I don't have my license yet. Have you ever played the drums? Yes, actually. Well, one drum. In high school when I got my lip pierced and realized "oh wait, I play the flute in band," my instructor put me on percussion while it healed. I SUCKED at ALL the instruments back there. What's something you do even though you know it's bad for you? Neglect exercise. Have you ever had stitches? Two or three times, idr. Do you get popcorn when you go to the movies? Always! Is there any celebrity you like to “keep up with”? Only Markiplier, really. Have you had a negative impact on anyone’s life? I'm sure. Has anyone had a negative impact on yours? Who/why? I mean, I most certainly have hurtful memories from a few people, but I like to ultimately think they in some way had a net positive with what their actions led to, most notably Jason and Colleen. The Jason catastrophe led me to the help I needed, and Colleen gave me a home when I didn't have one, and she's even responsible for me staying in my partial hospitalization program when I wanted to leave because I thought it wasn't working. I don't wanna know where I'd be if I quit that, and therefore my current psychiatrist. Have you ever read any self-help books? No, but I really should. What’s your take on the obesity problem in America? It is a very serious problem that needs fixing for the health of the country. Most obviously, the prices of healthy food options NEED to go down. What is something you used to love, but now greatly dislike? Country music. What is something you used to dislike, but now like? Ummm idk. When/if you become a parent, what will you do differently, compared to how your parents raised you? If I had kids, first of all, I would NEVER spank them. I would not teach my children through any form of violence. I also wouldn't use the "you need to finish your plate" shit at the dinner table, because it creates bad eating habits and just isn't healthy. Maybe there's more, but idk. My parents did pretty good. Do you equate spanking with physical abuse? Would you spank a child? Nice timing, and I sure as hell do. I would never. When you look at the sunset, what do you think about/feel? I just really admire its beauty and find it calming. Ha, and I frequently think about how I want my camera. What do you think of athletes that take steroids? Don't take steroids, period. If a celebrity is involved in scandal after scandal, is that likely to affect how you view him/her & his/her work? Well yeah? What is one celebrity that you have zero respect for? Jake Paul, for one. Or maybe it was Logan? Whichever idiot filmed a hanged body and decided "hey, let's put this person who committed suicide in a suicide-rich forest on YouTube." They both have absolutely zero respect for anybody. What is one “diet” that you think is just utterly worthless? I wouldn't call it worthless, but I know keto is capable of being very dangerous. Doctors advise against it for a reason. What advice would you give someone that is uncomfortable with his or her body/appearance? First of all, to be thankful they have a body that can do such astonishing things, like simply hold your life within it. I'd also remind them that no body is like theirs, that none other has their specific uniqueness, and that alone is beautiful. If only I could take my own advice. What advice would you give someone about to start high school? One, that it doesn't last forever. Obvious, but I definitely would have liked to hear that sometimes. I'd remind them to cherish the time too though, to enjoy times with friends while you're young and (generally) not as busy. As well though, I'd really point out that a lot of those friends won't be so forever, so don't take losses of people who are honestly shitty too seriously. What foreign food are you NOT interested in trying? I mean, I wouldn't say I'm not interested in trying any. I think I'd give some things a go from all cuisines. Do you like the band Rise Against? I only know the song "Re-education (Through Labor)," but I LOVE it. How many times have you been in love? Twice so far, but bordering on thrice. Do you think you’re a strong or weak person? I honestly think I lean more towards weak. Have you ever been miserable, yet happy at the same time? See also: my relationship w/ Jason. Who were you last in a car with? Girt. Is there anyone who you think you deserve an apology from? It'd be nice to hear Bryar say sorry for things he said to me after the breakup and we got in a Facebook fight, but I definitely don't actually lose sleep over the fact I never got one and I'm sure never will. I think I deserve a "sorry" from Colleen too, but yeah, that's not happening. Has anyone seen you in your underwear lately? No. Are you listening to music right now? If so, what? Yes; Girt got me obsessed with "Little Dark Age" by MGMT so I have it on repeat. Who do you care about the most? Mom, Girt, and Sara. Do you like those different flavored Tootsie Rolls? I hate Tootsie Rolls. Think of the last verbal argument you were in; what caused it? I don't remember. Do you have any friends that play instruments? Yeah; my friend Tommy has a band. I think there are others, but I'm not sure. What was the last thing you deleted off of your computer? Some excess screenshots I took of an EXTREMELY rare mount-dropping dragon in WoW, Aeonaxx, to contribute to Wowhead. My photography-loving self tbh can take some quality screenshots in the game to upload to there. Not to ~brag~ or anything, but some of my shots are the primary picture you see when you go to a Wowhead page. Do you own any turtleneck sweaters/shirts? No, because I HATE turtlenecks. What's the strangest band name you've ever heard? Maybe iwrestledabearonce. I KNOW I've come across some mega weird ones, but that's the top that comes to mind right now. What's worse for you; getting yelled at, or getting grounded? DO. NOT. YELL AT ME. I WILL cry/sob. I'm too old to get grounded now, anyway. What would be the worst thing to get grounded from? (Phone, computer, etc.) I was always grounded from the computer, which was the worst. Are you a fan of Michael Jackson's music? (R.I.P) Not that much, honestly. I thoroughly enjoy some songs, but not a whole lot. I fully respect him as a legendary musician, though. Are there any songs you like that are in another language? One of my favorite bands is Rammstein, so clearly. What's one song you can really relate to currently? Something depressing, idk. Have you ever used a fire extinguisher? No. Do you like ramen noodles? If so, what's your favorite flavor? Literally the ONLY ramen I've ever enjoyed was (and still is) Yakisoba's spicy chicken. Would you rather go on vacation to Texas or Colorado? COLORADO!!!!!!! UGH it seems gorgeous there. Would you want your future children to date someone like you as a teenager? IF we're talking who I was as a teenager, sure. I was a good kid with a lot of promise. The only thing I'd be weary about is how obsessed I was with having a picture-perfect relationship. What was the last candy you ate? I haven't had candy in a loooong time. Who is the strangest (or one of the strangest) person you've met? I don't mean "strange" in a bad way here, but rather truly interesting, in which case it'd honestly probably be Jason. He had some interesting stories for sure and was just in general alluring to me. Do you forgive yourself for your mistakes? Most, yes. The only crime I can't manage to forgive is things I said to Jason after the breakup. Do you know anyone who thinks that he or she is God? Yikes, no. If you don't mind my asking, how much do you weigh? I do mind your asking. List three traumatic memories you have. I only have one I consider truly traumatic, and y'all already know what that is. I have more bad memories, sure, but I really hate the abuse of the word "traumatic." Have you ever been misdiagnosed with something by a bad doctor? Yes. Do you prefer sunny days or cloudy days? So long as I'm inside away from the sun itself, sunny. Cloudy days affect my depression. Do you go for days without washing your hair? Meet my good friend Depression. Do you miss anyone who was loving then turned cold? Have I ever talked about Jason in these before? Have you ever personally known a pair of conjoined twins? No. What was the most disturbing thing you have ever heard your mother say? One time when my mom and I got into a big fight in the car, she said something along the lines of, "The only thing stopping me from swerving into a tree right now is you being in this car." It's stayed with e forever. My mom doesn't say shit like that. Is there something in particular you like to look at photos of? What is it? Meerkats and, what a stunner, Mark lmao. Do you think your grandmother is/was beautiful? She was. I don't remember how Dad's mom looked. Do you ever name objects? (i.e. mp3 players, guitars, cars, etc.) I only name some stuffed animals. Have you ever been to craigslist.com? Yeah, plenty. I've adopted and sold pets through it. And trust me, even though Mom won't allow me to have one for as long as I live with her, I look for local tarantulas there ALL the time, lol. Have you ever used Nair? Yes, but I won't use it again. My hair is so incredibly thick that I have to use A LOT and it's honestly just as exhausting as traditional shaving. Has a stranger ever offered to buy you a drink? No, thank Christ. Who did you have your first kiss with? Do you remember what colour his/her eyes were? Jason; dark brown. What is the most expensive thing that you’ve purchased that you paid for: My snake. What is your favorite messaging program? Discord. Have you ever almost drowned? No. What’s the scariest living animal that you’ve petted? I suppose a tarantula? Mind you by the way, you never pet tarantulas; most have what's called urticating hairs on their abdomen that are very irritating to the skin. At this time however, I was clueless about Ts, so my dumb ass literally did pet her, even when she rubbed her hairs off at me. The sweetheart never bit, though. She was very behaved with being handled. Have you ever had to have a mug shot? No. Would you rather get a big tattoo or small tattoo? A big one. What style of wedding dress do you want? Probably a ballgown style with a sweetheart top, but idk for sure.

[moonlightjeno]

so like when youre free maybe you could do roommates!au + enemies to lovers + “you have the emotional capacity of a brick.” from the prompt list with im-not-even-gonna-say-his-name-because-you-know-it? hopefully with a happy ending idk maybe theyve both been burying their feelings for some time? dont push yourself and you dont have to do it if you dont want to 🥰 ly so much bubs ❤❤

asdfghj im so so so sorry this took me ages to actually write !! i do hope you like it’s seriously like just pure fluff and some small tiny angst but basically I want a jeno after this and you know why. 

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬: [roomate!au] +  [enemies to lovers] + [“you have the emotional capacity of a brikc”]

𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: f l u f f and full on crackheads. this is a mess

creds to @mozartwasajungkookstan ,, ty for the help on how to start this!

Having a roommate or really lack thereof was nothing like the movies, especially when lee jeno was involved. It’s not like you saw him often, he seemed to spend most of his time either in his room the only sound coming either grunts or the click click of the video game controller that he seemed to be attached to dearly. You were almost sure he talked more to the tv screen in his room and his phone was six other voices would at times come through, seeping through the door. 

When your old roommate had suggested you move in with jeno, you had initially agreed. From what you’d heard from her he wouldn’t get much in your way, loved animals so wouldn’t mind you bringing your cat and he was cute. Jeno was the epitome of a perfect roommate according to the paper in front of you and Jaemin who’d had to leave you and therefore make you move because of a modeling gig he’d been presented halfway across the world. The boy at least had shown you pictures of the boy who you’d be spending the rest of the year with and when you’d first seen them you couldn’t deny that he was easy on the eye. The pictures that jaemin had shown you had done him no justice, had been your first thought when you’d the boy who’s black hair had been pushed back, clothes clinging to his body from sweat, a result of what you had later learned was from a late dance practice you had been stunned. The initial stun of his beauty quickly faded the moment he opened his mouth only to close it back up again, and turn around leaving you in the entrance hall. 

The relationship between the two of you didn’t grow much from the initial encounter. It seemed that jeno would either spend too much time outside and come back to your apartment marks left along his neck where he would maybe wave a hi to you, and if it was a good day wouldn’t complain about you taking up most of the space in the living room. On your defense, he never used it either way. At least that’s what you thought, it had never occurred to you that the boy was to shy to disturb you, or that anytime he would come in the living room only to find you concentrated, most of the time scribbling over papers across the desk that he didn’t want to bother you. Especially when you looked kinda cute, all concentrated on whatever it is you were working on, he never asked never dared to. 

Three months into the rooming and it seemed that you had traded the boy you loved and had grown to be one of your closest friends for a stone-cold dark-haired boy. Jaemin was a foil to jeno in every way possible that the english dictionary could come up with. Where jaemin would greet you by the door almost every day, and was ready to give you a hug and talk about your day to no end jeno wouldn’t. The most jeno would do was tell you what the weather was outside on the occasion you went out to get the groceries, but in the times of a global pandemic, those were few. No relationship seemed to blossom, not that either of you put much effort into making any sort of conversation, the most you would get out of jeno were vague nods or “mmhhhmmm” that always had you questioning if he was agreeing or disagreeing with you. It had seemed to become a sort of talent to be able to distinguish between the different noises that jeno would make, most of them when you were involved in the speech were negative. That is what one would gather from the low tone that would come from grunts, half of the time it was jeno not every really knowing what to say on the subject of the human body and it’s many muscles, he was a dance major he didn’t know. 

Five months and quarantine hits your city. It’s during moments in quarantine that you are grateful for it and the organized chaos it brings with it in the apartment. Well peace is you considered music blasting through the household as jeno practiced his dance and choreographed new routines while zooming with his even louder group of friends. The pumping music though made up because when you would see jeno a smile or the ghost of one would grace his features, and you two would at times, very small times would make conversation about the weather. Talking about the weather had truly just become a joke, as neither you or jeno could actually leave the apartment. Nevertheless, jeno never failed to remind you when it was going to rain, it was both sweet and slightly annoying you couldn’t quite decide. It was on rare days, when you would get back from a daily grocery shop run you would find dinner prepared. Too much of your surprise it had been edible the last two times he has cooked, and though not much conversation flowed between the two of you it seemed this hate to hate relationship had become a more of acquaintances to acquaintances. It was progress, and you couldn’t help but smile at it.   

There were times when you looked at him, times when you two though wouldn’t talk to each other but would decide that on that night you would maybe attempt to get along better. These scenarios tended to end up happening from the constant nagging that jaemin put you both through, a constant “just talk” and “i swear they aren’t as bad as you think” and you couldn’t forget his most recent one that drove you nuts to no end “are you sure you don’t just you know like him?”. The phone conversation tended to end with a beep the second those words left his mouth, only for jaemin to text you about it continually. You were happy when that jaemin lived so far away in those moments if not you were sure he would have died either from you or jeno. It was one of the rare things you two agreed on. 

“So… what movie do you wanna watch?” you posed the question, not expecting much of an answer apart from maybe a shrug or a complaint on why were the two of you doing this again. 

 “Ummm, are you good with avatar? I haven’t watched it in a while and the sequel is supposed to come out” the suggestion left you gaping at him, eyes wide at the fact he had directed more than five words to you.

“Hold up” the awe in your voice was very much present which caused jeno to turn around and look at you, “did you just actually give me a sentence?” you couldn’t help the smile that blossomed on your lips and it only grows when you see jeno, biting his lip a small attempt to stop his smile from showing. 

“And…” you move closer to him, sitting in front of him one hand pointing slightly at his lips, “are you smiling?” you can’t help the laughter that leaves your lips, and soon jeno has joined you. Though he stops quickly the moment you see him looking at you, a genuine smile on his face. 

“Whatever. Just play the movie” he grunts, shifting his boy to face the tv and hugging your cat next to him. If it weren’t for the fact that you were almost sure you’re cat loved jeno more than he loved you, even if jeno was allergic to them you would have tried to rob him back. But this was the most you’d gotten out of jeno and you sure as hell wasn’t about to ruin it.  

“I’m on it, i’m on it” you mumble, as you search through your disney+ account expecting to find the last few shows and movies you’d been binge-watching cars a childhood favorite of yours right at the top and avatar which at this point you almost thought you watched religiously right next to it. The moment the screen showed Cars, you heard a cough from beside you. Your glare on jeno made him look at you slightly eyes narrowing before he chuckled, rolling his eyes. 

“Why is Cars on here?” the question seemed to mock you and you only smiled. 

“Nostalgia. Why?” the movie brought up the fun and happy memories from when you were younger, you had watched it so many times the dvd had broken. 

“So it’s not because it’s just a bad movie and you wanted to make fun of it?” and just like that, you’re ready to fight jeno, even if the way his hair fell slightly across his eyes from not being cut in months, and the way is he moved just slightly you could see the muscles shift from beneath his white shirt. 

“Are you mocking Cars?” 

“Maybe. It has no emotional value” is his response, followed by a shrug as he turns again to face the tv eyes darting from the tv to you from his side-eye. Oh that’s it. You think bitterly before grabbing the pillow behind you and hitting jeno full face, your power yell leaving your lips. The thud the pillow makes as it collides with jeno’s face and the yelp that leaves his lips and you smile. 

“The fuck was that for?” he’s looking at you again, arms crossed against his chest, your cat no longer in sight.

“Because you” the emphasis on the word is caused by another hit in the shoulder, “have the emotional capacity of a brick.” jeno’s face is the only answer you need before you settle back into the couch, a proud grin adorning your face, until you are pulled by the waist a shriek leaving your lips. In some way you can’t fully understand you are now sitting on jeno’s lap, his face only centimeters from yours, and you can see the light specks of gold that swirl in his dark eyes. 

“No” the word is a whisper, and he moves closer to you, “i” you can feel his hands on your waist holding you in place “don’t” the movement is too fast for you too process but one moment your breaths are mixing and a noise you can’t place is in the background, and the next he’s kissing you. 

kissing jeno like everything related to jeno is nothing like you expected but everything you wanted. It’s slow and warm, and your hands come up behind his neck playing with the loose strands of hair. Kissing jeno is a new feeling, a way of conveying emotions when words between you two have always failed, and maybe just maybe it’s a confession because when you pull apart foreheads touching each other love-struck smiles on both of your faces you realize jeno isn’t that bad. 

“See?” a small peck to the lips, “my emotional capacity is beyond your reach” a grin replaces the small smile, “and i like you” another kiss, this time to the corner of your mouth and you thank the dark lights in the room from hiding the warmth from your cheeks. A small hmmm leaves your lips in response before you kiss him again, “i guess i like you too”

[myatuesday]

I hate that when we're coming to our dude w an issue (aka bitching)

All they hear is "blah blah blah" bitching Charlie Brown teacher voice.

Instead of listening to what the fuck it is we're saying.

I put the shit it writing. I guess he doesn't really read it? Cause he's still like

"Idk wtf you want. All you do is bitch."

Smh.

Sigh.

ISTG.

Or can't separate the praise from the pain

Wtf do you think it means when I say,

"Idgaf if you give me $1,000,000

I want you to stop talking to that bitch."

Did I stutter?

It means EXACTLY what the fuck I JUST mothafuckin said.

Idgaf if you give me $1,000,000

I want you to stop talking to that bitch.

PERIODT.

What about that is confusing?

Or hard to decipher?

Well I'm buying you flowers, I'm taking you to dinner, I'm trying to be nicer to you...

Are you still fucking w that hoe?

Ok then.

Ummm.

Then thanks for that

But

STOP FUCKING WITH THAT HOE

They don't cancel eachother out.

The fuck.

Oldest trick in the book.

Like I'm fucking stupid?

"Well you didn't tell me outright what you wanted. I asked and asked"

Motherfucker.

Not only have I been saying it, and yes, BITCHING about it for 3 goddamn years. I have indeed said it outright.

You wanna play dumb. To keep PLAYING ME.

Time. And time. And time. Again.

Do you need a billboard?

We've talked about it 1000x

You've seen it in writing countless times.

You read my goddamn Tumblr. Hello. Hi.

It's not a fucking mystery.

Period. Hello.

I'm not new.

_

Now I've gone so far as to offer this dude the

Girlfriend Experience (at his expense, of course)

Because he's made it

ABUNDANTLY CLEAR

Through his actions or lack thereof

That's what he's after.

He doesn't want a fn gf.

He wants a hoe he can fuck and go out w sometimes.

No strings attached.

Ok. Well let me just give you my cashapp and that can be arranged.

The Fuck.

But all this inbtwn BULLSHIT.

Is wearing on me.

_

Fucking pick one.

But COME CORRECT with it

Whichever way we're going.

I'm OVER this fucking playing dumb, playing games

"But but but..." BULLSHIT

Then gets an attitude w ME

And says he's sick of being the bad guy.

Well, NEWFLASH

Then... RADICAL IDEA

Stop being the fucking bad guy

You ARE the bad guy.

That's why you feel like it.

That's why you're treated like it.

_

You goddamn cheated.

(Still are, pretty much. Possibly even more than I know)

You live a double fucking life

You throw $ at me to shut me up

(Or you were. You kinda stopped... sooo... idk wtf is up w that. Give it all to somebody else? Smh)

BE A GOOD GUY

Stop lying

Stop cheating

Stop being fucking shady

And stop lying means to EVERYONE; yourself, me, her, your family, your friends, your followers, everyone.

_

If you just wanna hoe, say that

Stop claiming to me - and me alone - that we're in a real relationship

When you, me, and everyone else on this earth knows we're not.

_

He claims to finally get it this time (really?!)

But refuses to talk about it

Or do anything about it today

(We've just been discussing it for weeks.

Years.

Ya know. Whatever. Nbd.)

Fine.

_

But... I'm so sick of this shit

And nothing pisses me off more than this

Cop out playing dumb shit

Mixed w him having the audacity to get an attitude w me

For constantly bringing up his constant fuckboy bullshit

You know when I'll stop bitching?

When you stop giving me shit to bitch about!

DUH.

That's how that works.

YOU ARE THE BAD GUY.

You don't stop being the bad guy

Until you actually stop being the bad guy.

_

I've given you 1000 chances

Feel free to actually be a decent boyfriend

Or just honest about your real intentions

(Either one)

Any fucking day now.

_

But until then

Yeah. I'm pissed.

Duh.

And you are the fucking bad guy. Duh.

_

Buying me flowers like I'm a fucking mistress doesn't absolve you of that.

Yeah I like the flowers.

I don't like the fact you're using them as a detraction to kick the can down the road of just dealing w our actual issues. Or just... being a real boyfriend.

Basic ass shit.

Bare minimum ass shit.

Dudes who beat their wives buy them shit too.

It doesn't make them any less bad

It's a fucking bandaid

And one that does NOT cover up

Nor heal a goddamn fucking thing.

_

I am ready to be healed.

No more goddamn fucking bandaids.

Fuck you.

FIX THIS or FUCK OFF.

_

He keeps saying he will

But he never does

_

And, for whatever reason, rather than just

Calling it what this actually is then

And setting up an agreement and compromise

We can both live with

We're both just

Going through the motions of this bullshit

Pretty fucking miserable

_

I can't make him be honest

I can't make him give me what I deserve

(Namely, respect.)

_

I'll give him a fucking day.

Then... we apparently have to talk about this all over again.

Cause I'm : this close: to breaking up w him. Again.

Which he fucking knows.

So... what the actual fuck.

I have before.

He thinks I won't again?

Over this exact same shit.

It's fucking ridiculous.

_

I told him I'm looking into couples therapy (and I am. Cause this obviously isn't working. We need a place for clear, ideally honest communication. And ACCOUNTABILITY FFS.)

But he didn't say shit about it.

He was too busy being a jackass.

_

And I get if he feels like he's doing xyz

And all I can do is bitch about 123

But

I'm like... unless 123 are fixed

Xyz doesn't really matter.

Smh.

That's the part we can't seem to get on the same page about.

_

Which in fairness is frustrating when Iitererally gave him the option.

Fine. Give me xyz. You can keep 123 then.

Just... can't do that and call it a relationship.

He doesn't address that option either.

Smh.

_

I've done all I know to do other than

Roll over (what he wants me to do)

Or walk away (which is what's coming next. If he can't get his shit together)

_

But if we can stop fighting long enough...

I think couples therapy could help.

_

Cause that's the fucked up part

I do think he cares about me

Maybe even love me, on some level

He definitely needs me. No doubt about that.

He just... is letting Amy and his ego

(And I guess in some ways immaturity)

Fuck it all up.

_

I see potential.

And believe there are real feelings there

That's why it's so hard to give up

(Probably for him too)

But I CAN'T go on like this.

I hate it.

I hate the "relationship". I hate him for putting me through this shit. I hate myself for allowing this shit to go on.

It's absolutely untenable for my emotions, my well being, my fucking psyche, everything.

It's shattering. And soul crushing.

And I keep staying... hoping he'll make it better

Cause he keeps saying he will

And every time he let's me down

I'm just... that much further

From myself, from healing from all this

And the cycles of resentment and anger

It just spins and spins

Sigh

_

It doesn't seem like either of us actually want to leave

We just have to actually get it right this time

But... after 3 years of everything that boy put me through

Flowers and hugs and manicures ain't gonna cure it.

Especially not when the snake is still in the fucking mix. Smh.

Like... ugh. It's not rocket science

Why this isn't working

Or wtf my problem is

WHO else in their right fucking minds would deal w this shit?

Fucking nobody.

Sigh.

_

Then people wonder why the fuck I stay

Including my therapist

Sigh

I guess... hope.

I guess because the good is good.

It's a good I can't find anywhere else.

The bad is just... so fucking detrimental.

It's hard.

_

I've lost no matter what

Is the thing.

Staying.

Trying again

If he'll actually (keep) trying

And actually fully come correct this time

Is the only chance to heal from all this

Is how I feel, I guess.

I walk away.

Then what?

I'm totally damaged still

And... just likely gonna just jump off a fucking cliff

Seriously.

_

This relationship has destroyed me.

He's at least attempting to... sigh

Idk. He's making an attempt.

[multi-fandom-trash]

hey, idk if ur still taking requests so i apologize if i’m sending this and ur not not but how would the ikevamp boys (comte, leo, jean, napoleon, theo, dazai, issac sebas) if that’s too many then u can forget about the last 3 i don’t wanna overwhelm you react to an mc who makes tik toks? like funny/ironic ones maybe occasional dance ones idk how they would find out maybe like they just stumble across her phone and she has a really good data plan lol feel free to mess around with this one tysm!

Hey so i just wanna thank you for what you had said to me. That alone gave me some will power to finish this hc. But disclaimer, i may or may not have ignored Leo, Jean, and Napoleon, but its not that i hate or dislike them, its more of me not knowing what to do for them. But hey i still hope you like it and thank you again for what you had said in my last post.

Comte:

You and Comte had a nice relationship. He’ll spoil you like hell, sure you might have felt bad bc you can never give him anything in return but he would say ur happiness is enough for him. You guys also promised to be honest with each other, so you both can stay happy. 

But like some relationships like that, one of them always hides a secret. Some harsher than others, some more silly and makes you wonder why did they keep that a secret. You had one of these secrets. Not a harsh one, more kinda silly, but you don't know how to tell him, or what his reaction would be, so you kept your phone hidden. 

Also you made some cringy tik toks (srry but who doesn't) and didn't want him to know. 

Sometimes when you aren't busy with work around the house, instead of seeing him like you used to always do, you’ll go to your room to make some tik toks.  But you would go see him occasionally. 

He eventually caught on and was worried about you. So one day when you had finished cleaning and was on your break, you went to your room to upload a tik tok that you’ve been planning on doing while you were cleaning. 

You were 1 quarter through dancing say so by a doja cat, when he softly knocked. You couldn't hear the knock through, because of the music and you were so focused on the dance. So he came in but stood there in shock staring at you. 

You stopped half way through and looked at him kinda worried.  He then chuckled now realizing that why you won't see him burning every break. Also that you kept a phone hidden. The only reason he knew it was a phone was because of sebas. He promised to keep it a secret as long as he spends more time with him than the phone. You agree of course. 

Dazai: 

One day Dazai was looking for you to tell you that sedas was looking for you. The first place he looked was ur room, but insead of finding you he found a small black rectangle thing on your nightstand. You forgot to put it inside your nightstand because you were in a rush that morning. 

He walked up to it with a look of interest. And then it turned on with a small ‘buzz’ and a notification from tiktok. He was intrigued. So he picked it up and for some stupid reason, you dont have a password on your phone, so he got into the app. He was really fond of the arts and dances and creativity that went into it. 

Then you walked into your room to see a smiling and impressed Dazai, holding your phone. You were frozen in fear for what he would say. The he turned to say and asked if you can do one of the challenges with him. 

You were a little confused but then agreed and asked what challenge he wanted to do. 

He then showed you the flip the switch challenge. So you guys did that. After you did more stuff like dances, challenges, reactions. He soon became very famous, which was no surprise to you. 

The two of you had fun, but you told him to promise you that he won't tell anyone about it. And he swore he wouldn't. 

Sebas: 

One day, Sebastian was looking for you. First search the kitchen to see if you are there. Nothing. Then the dining room. Nope. Then your bedroom. You were in the garden at the time hanging laundry. 

Because that morning you were in a rush because you had a lot to do and you wanted to do them quickly but right so you don't need to redo them, so you can go to your phone. 

While Sebastian was looking in your room, he noticed a phone on your bed.(p.s, idk what time period he was from but just go with it.) You forgot to hide it because you were in a rush. 

Then he saw a notification, from an app called tik tok. He was curious because he never heard of the app. Before he can see anything further, you happen to walk in your room exhausted. 

You saw him looking at your phone for a bit then looked at you. 

"How'd you get this?" He asked, sounding really interested. "It was in my pocket when i first came here. "Ahh, and what is 'tik tok"?" He asked, still interested. So you showed him what it was and he was mesmerized by it. 

Also you guys may or may not have done a few together while on break.

Isaac: 

He was on his way looking for you because he wanted to give you a gift. But little did he know you were doing a dance on tik tok. But the dance itself was a problem for the little guy. By that i mean a lot of body movement (idk any dance that would sound like that so witch ever one u want if there is any) 

You were almost halfway through the dance before he opened the door, yet for some reason, you didn't see him. 

He was left face a bright red because of how flustered he was. U finally noticed him almost done with the dance, a bit embarrassed.

"I-i ummm…how long were you standing there?" U studered a bit still embarrassed. 

"A-about 15 s-seconds" he said, still flustered. Then he asked what was the thing you were on. You answered a phone and an app called tik tok showing him. 

You guys would sometimes post videos with each other, just being an absolute cute couple.

You guys even got the title 'the cutest couple' from some of ur fans. U even had more fans but u thought it was bc of isaac. But you both loved it, even if Isaac gets embarrassed from some of the videos you guys make, but he'll get you back for posting them, that was a promise. 

Theo: 

He has been stressed because of work. He was on the clock, 24/7. Of course he would see his hondje at dinner, but after dinner he would go back to work. 

This was kinda ok for you, yes you did miss him, but you also had time to yourself to which you used that time with your phone. So most breaks you had, you would go to your room and be there for the whole time you had.

Arthur took notice of this, like always, so he made a plan. Because you would just stay in your room most of the time he thought you were sad and wanted more theo. He also thought his dear friend needed a break from work. So when he got the time to talk to Theo, he used it to his advantage. 

He told theo something he knew that would make him wanna, *ahem* punish you. (Plz dont ask what i took forever planning that out and i still have nothing)

So as true to form, he cleared his night, so he could do what he planned. 

Because it was night, you had a lot more time to do a dance. So you were half way through a dance before theo barged in the room angry. 

"Hondje!" He said with a scowl. The suddenness of it made you somehow trip and end up falling on the floor with a small 'ow'. 

Theo did a small scoff, looking at you, then he noticed a phone on your desk. His attention was now fully on the device. So he asked about it. 

You told him what it was and the app you were on. He was confused and found your time kinda weird but before you can make a snarky remark, he remembered why he had come there in the first place. 

"Oh, hondje, you deserve a punishment." He said with a smirk, you were confused as to why you needed one. 

"Punishment? Punishment for wh-" before you can finish that question, your lips were caught in a rough kiss. 

Y'all had an amazing night but the next morning you asked theo why you needed a punishment. He came clean and told you what Arthur told him. You told him you never did that. 

Later Theo saw Arthur with a huge grin on his face when he saw theo. Knowing his plan was a success. 

[lallemcnt]

go ahead and watch my heart burn (part four)

“When you look at him you see dark night opening, giving way to dawn.”

— Ibn Said al-Maghribi

-

“Talk to me.”

“You shouldn’t have to reassure me all the fucking time! I’m so sick of my brain and how messed up I am!”

“You’re not messed up, Lucas.”

Lucas is perched on the arm of Eliott’s sofa, head bowed and arms shielding his body. Eliott sits on the edge of the sofa at its other end, the exasperated expression on his face mirroring Lucas’ voice. The distance between them, a sofa separating them, feels like miles upon miles, an impossible space to close. Lucas understands his frustration, he even feels sorry for him, sorry that he has to deal with Lucas when he gets like this: frustrated and insecure, when Eliott hasn’t done anything to incite these feelings, when he has been nothing but understanding, nothing but absolutely caring, nothing but a flame in the dark on the days when Lucas’ anxiety has been particularly debilitating.

He knew this was going to happen, that he would mess it up, he just didn’t know he would only have a month of being with Eliott before it all blew up in his face. Abruptly, the frustration drains from him and he is tired. He moves towards the door, stuffing his feet in his trainers and pulling on his jacket. Eliott gets to his feet, following Lucas to the door, asking in a beseeching voice, “You can’t just leave, we need to talk.”

Lucas doesn’t turn around to address him, simply opens the front door and lets out a quiet: “Let me go” before shutting the door behind him and trudging down the stairs into a chilly late summer day. His shoulders instantly hunch up and he’s blowing hot air into his hands for warmth, not sure where he’s going exactly. Going, he scoffs to himself, more like running, like the coward you are. But the knowledge of his cowardice is not enough to make him go back to Eliott and explain.

Lucas recalls a conversation they had a few days after he told Eliott about his father. When Eliott asked Lucas about his anxiety and how it affected him. He didn’t push Lucas to speak about it or set up some kind of intervention. They had been watching reruns of shitty TV at Eliott’s, as usual, eating popcorn and drinking some kind of nasty-ass beer Lucas has brought over when Eliott had asked him:

“I- Can I ask you questions about your anxiety? I’ve been reading up on it and I know I’ll need to do more, but would you…would you mind that? Because I know it is different for everyone.” His voice was tentative, his hands clenched around his beer bottle as if he was scared he had crossed an unspoken line, entering into unknown territory.

It was completely out of the blue. Lucas wondered if this had been on Eliott’s mind the entire evening, he, himself, felt slightly uncomfortable and nervous, because talking about it never ended well, it only ever crushed his mood, his soul, leaving him disappointed. However, he knew, in his heart, that if this thing between them had any chance of survival Eliott had the prerogative to know, to decide for himself if Lucas was worth all the work, and to make this decision he needed all the facts.

Turning down the volume on the TV, Lucas had shifted to face Eliott, because he could be strong. Hadn’t all his years of quiet survival proven that? He could look Eliott in the eye when he inevitably concluded that it was all too much. That Lucas was not worth it.

“You need to understand that you can’t fix me, okay? I’m always going to be dealing with this and I want you to know that I won’t blame you or hate you if you decide to leave, okay? It is a lot. I know,” Pausing for breath, Lucas had taken a swig of his drink before continuing. “Sometimes I’ll get irritable for no reason, at myself and at you. I’ll be snippy. I won’t want to talk to you. When we’ve planned to go to a party or out for dinner, when the day comes round the thought of going may make me feel physically sick and I won’t want to go because I’m terrified of meeting new people or being left alone at a party with nothing to do or no one to talk to. Sometimes I’ll put off doing things and stay home for days because the idea is a lot more peaceful, comfortable and safe than going out.

“And you have to know, it won’t be your fault. I just need space sometimes. There’s something else, too. It’s hard to explain why…there are times when I think it’s because of my father, but I can be touch averse too, casual touches will annoy me and turn my mood sour. I used to be this really affectionate kid, and I still crave touch, but I also hate it at times.”

Eliott nodded thoughtfully along as Lucas spoke; being given the opportunity to explain how he feels and be heard was everything. Everything and more. More than he ever imagined he would be lucky enough to experience.

He doesn’t even know how this afternoon’s argument got heated so quickly, but when he reaches that level of frustration he can’t be talked down, no placating words can calm him, and Eliott contradicting him, telling him he wasn’t messed up made him more angry, and Lucas also knew that while his head was telling him to yell and slam the door and tell Eliott that he will never understand, that he doesn’t get it, that this will never work between them, his heart was whispering for him to get out of there, to cool off, before he said something he would regret.

He knew why Eliott was frustrated, Lucas had been closed off for the past week, refusing to confide in Eliott who had asked him several times what was going on. He was clueless, unsure if he was the problem. Lucas could have easily reassured him that it wasn’t him, but he was feeling mean and bitter. Communication. The age-old issue that tore couples apart on the daily. He knew Eliott would be struggling to understand if the issue was anxiety-related or if Lucas was just being an asshole, which he was want to be every now and then, but that only made Lucas more irate.

Walking along the Seine, Lucas kicks out at a rock and then another, physically exercising his annoyance. The thing was, deep down is wasn’t just anger he felt, it was fear and shock and insurmountable shame, and even the thought of explaining this to Eliott- it is enough to make him sink down on a bench in fatigue, because hasn’t he told enough secrets for once? Hasn’t even opened himself up to pain over and over again these last few weeks? So, seeing what Lucas saw in conjunction with someone else being worried about you and constantly asking if you are okay when you most definitely are not is too much. To be worrying about someone else’s feelings when you are consumed by your own mounting despair is enough emotional grievance to knock you out for a lifetime.

Today at 13:15

Le gang

yann: my dudes who’s up for a night of gaming at mine? bazzz: HELL YES I’M IN arthur: idk i’ve got this huge essay to get done by tomorrow arthur: and i haven’t started yet bazzz: yikes arthur: lucas!!!!!! have u done it yet?? bazzz: come on we haven’t hung out in ages bazzz: are you’ll really choosing work over spending time with ME?! yann: i have bEER arthur: bold of you to assume i’d bunk of uni work for beer bazzz: we’ve got arthur! yann: lulu! where u at? arthur: lulu! bazzz: lulu!

Lucas clicks off the chat, puts it on silent and pulls up Manon’s.

Today at 13:27

Manon

lucas: hey u around? Manon: hey!! Manon: yeah i am Manon: what are you thinking? lucas: ummm wanna go for a walk? Manon: i’d love to

After deciding where to meet, Lucas begins to stroll across one of the many bridges that cross the river. In an attempt to clear his mind of Eliott and their argument, he marvels at the beauty of his city, at all the history that these old and ornate buildings must contain; the grey water washing by them, dividing banks and creating islands. He walks by children already wrapped up in coats and hats but licking away at vanilla ice-creams. There are two men in suits locked in a heated exchange, jaws tight and eyes narrowed. A couple up ahead leans against the side of the bridge, entangled in each other’s arms, blonde hair whipping against their faces: Lucas looks away quickly at the surge in his chest. And just beyond them, he spots a red pea-coat: Manon. Dressed in woolly tights, her brown hair tied in a loose braid, she clutches a paperback book in one hand, her elbows rest on the off-white arm of the bridge, discoloured by the grim of urban life.

When they meet, Lucas falls into her outstretched arms as though this place, here, is a refuge amidst a storming sea. He doesn’t cry, but he remains there for a while. If Lucas had to describe Manon he would wax poetic about her. She’s closer to a sister to him than a friend, but then who ever said a person couldn’t be both to you?

Drawing away from each other, they smile and return to look over the bridge where Manon rests her  book. Lucas observes the cover and the authors name as recognition hits and he’s turning back to Manon, incredulously, as he exclaims, “No way! What the hell? Is that the last book?”

Manon is grinning and holding it up to Lucas’ face. “Yep! Had to pre-order it and everything. Just went to pick it up from the shop, actually.”

“I can’t believe it. We waited, what, five years for it and now it’s actually here? Fuck.”

When they were twelve, there was this fantasy book series everyone was reading about magicians and vampires, empires falling and rising, quests for lost artefacts and stolen celestial swords. Suffice it to say, Lucas and Manon were obsessed; they would queue up outside the bookstore for midnight releases with Manon’s older brother and parents, they would have reading parties together on weekends, but it was also one of those series where the last book kept getting pushed back until it’s release seemed a fallacy, but after seven years, the final book was out.

Lucas grabbed the book proffered to him and scanned the cover and back, flipping the book open like a fan. The smell of newly printed pages ready to be devoured and loved was an inexplicable bliss. He placed it in reach of Manon whose back was against the bridge’s sides and face directed towards Lucas, her blue gaze is searching. He pretends to be interested in the boats disappearing beneath him, but he’s forgotten Manon can out-wait him, she has the patience of a saint. What’s more is she has always thought of Lucas as a younger brother despite their birthdays only between two weeks apart — one week, six days, two hours and 19 minutes exactly if you ask Lucas — making her infinitely more willing to spend minutes, hours in silence until he is ready to open up or can’t stand the silence so he fills it meaningless words which eventually unwinds into the deeper stuff, because Manon makes the time to be there for everyone she holds dear. Lucas is one of those lucky people, he knows that.

In this way, while the wind insists on dispelling summer in favour of autumn, as Manon waits out Lucas and the sky grows grey in alliance with the wind and the Seine leads its placid journey, winding around the city, Lucas voices what has got him all twisted up inside for the past week, the catalyst for this argument with Eliott.

“I think I saw my father last week. At uni.”

This shocks Manon. Although he isn’t directly looking at here, out of the corner of his eye he sees her blanch at his words, she turns around, standing beside him as though in solidarity, as if she would be able to protect him from what has already happened. His heart clenches at this.

“How are you feeling?” She asks.

Bringing his hand up to chew his thumb nail, Lucas shrugs, which is ridiculous because he knows how he feels, he’s been sinking in this tumult of negativity for seven fucking days.

“You know what I wanted to do? I wanted to go up to him. I wanted to look him dead in the eyes and see if he would even recognise me, to ask him how he could do what he did and claim it was love? How you can do that to someone you’re supposed to love unconditionally? What did I do exactly to make him hate me so much? What did I do? I want to know so I never do it again, so I don’t provoke that kind of behaviour-”

“Listen to me, Lucas. No,” Manon is shaking her head and holding Lucas own between her hands so he is forced to look at her while she speaks. “You did not provoke anything, you hear me? I can’t explain to you why he did what he did to you, why he hurt you. But I do know one thing for certain, and I know you’re tired of hearing me say it but I will say it forever if I have to, this is all on him, nothing you did was wrong. It was all him. All him.”

Biting down on his lip, blinks back tears. “I don’t even know why he was there, and I didn’t want it to become this big thing but Eliott caught on to my mood, I mean, how could he not? And I didn’t feel like talking about it, not after telling him about my father, my anxiety. It would’ve just been overboard for him, you know?”

“No, I don’t know. Lucas, he’s there, right? Wanting to be with you. In relationships there are times where you don’t want to say how you feel and you don’t want to express the messy shit, but Lucas, if this is going on for an extended period of time you have got to let him in. It’s unfair otherwise. You’re part of a team now.”

Lucas sighs.

“Unless he’s been an asshole and said something-”

“No! He hasn’t-”

“-because then I’ll be having words with him.”

That brings a smile to Lucas’ lips. Hearing Manon threaten someone — even thinking it sounds ridiculous in his head — is always a shock because she’s Manon, always flocking to make sure everyone is okay, wearing their coats when it’s cold, ensuring everyone has a ride home after a night out.

“No, he’s great. I’m the asshole, but what’s new, right?”

Throwing an arm around Lucas’ shoulder, easily done because they’re the same height, Manon frowns. “Just talk to him, my love. For him, for your relationship, but, most importantly, for yourself. Now, say this together with me ‘I am not an asshole’.”

Lucas rolls his eyes but Manon is serious. She begins to open her mouth and when Lucas makes no effort to join her she stops and glares, full force, at him until he obliges with another sigh.

“I am not an asshole.”

“And again.”

“I. Am. Not. An. Asshole.”

“Whoop! That is so true, Lucas. You aren’t. Alright, let’s hobble along somewhere, it’s kinda chilly out here. I think my toes are about to stop working.”

“Okay, okay.”

Linking arms, the two friends find a coffee shop to sit at, a feat on days such as this when everyone is seeking the warmth of the inside, clutching warm mugs of hot chocolate between their hands they speak of lighter things, less serious but just as important.

-

By the time eight o’clock rolls around, Lucas is feeling hopelessly guilty about leaving Eliott’s place that afternoon. Manon’s words play on his mind: You have got to let him in. It’s unfair otherwise. You’re part of a team now. But because he’s the king of avoidance, Lucas has agreed to go to Yann’s for a gaming night and he’s rationalised to himself that that is okay, because he hasn’t seen the boys in a while and he misses them and Eliott is probably off hanging out with Idriss and Sofiane, so he’s okay and they can speak tomorrow. It can all be sorted out tomorrow.

On his way over to Yann’s, he begins typing an apologetic text to Eliott, it screams pathetic and cheap, everything he should say in person. Cursing in frustration, Lucas deletes it all, at least he tries to and he does erase most of it but his thumb slips onto the send button in his frustration.

Today 20:04

eliott

lucas: i’m

FUCK.

He shoves his phone into the front pocket of his grey hoodie, and of course this happened, he really can’t catch a break can he?

He gets no response. Radio silence. Hopefully hanging with le gang will be distraction enough.

For the first hour Lucas is caught up in the fervor of his friends’ excitement about a new season of a TV show about a family gang in Birmingham, England on netflix. They settle on Yann’s sofa, pulling up beanbags and lazy-boys to rest their feet on; despite their apparent enthusiasm they talk through the entirety of the first episode, making poor imitations of the Birmingham accent, Baz laments about how attractive the leading male is and Lucas can’t do anything but agree.

As the night goes by, however, Lucas becomes restless, he plays one game with Yann and then a team game with Arthur and Basile. He drinks flat coca-cola and chooses the music they listen to, but there, in the background of everything is Eliott’s face when Lucas left. When he is choosing the next song to play he thinks back to the many nights when they would talk on the phone before bed and Eliott would play Lucas the piano music he had grown to love, sometimes falling asleep to it, lulled by tender notes and impossibly smooth melodies. He should be there. With Eliott.

So he leaves, apologising profusely, promising to meet them at lunch on Monday, his mouth agreeing to anything while his one-track mind retains its steady focus on one boy. He is running in the dark, the sky jet-black where weeks ago the sunset was only beginning be set. Impossibly, a few stars peak through the light-pollution endemic to most cities and the moon is there, coaxing him on his way, as if to say hurry hurry you’re almost there. Out of breath and surely sweating Lucas does not stop. He doesn’t text Eliott; he will wait outside his place until he comes home, he will wait forever if that is what it takes.

Lucas is anxious now. He presses the buzzer for Eliott’s door, hoping against hope that he will be forgiven for walking out.

“Hello?”

“It’s me. Lucas.”

Silence.

Lucas is there on the steps, panting from his run, his heart galloping in his chest for more than one reason he can count. It feels like an eternity before he hears the tell-tale sound of the front door buzzing and he’s pushing it open, climbing up the stairs to Eliott’s door. It is down the end of the corridor, the last one on his floor, and Eliott is there, in the doorway, watching Lucas as he walks towards him and it is agony: he can feel the guilt’s full force curling in his stomach. Lucas is suddenly self-conscious, he wants the floor to swallow him up. His steps are hesitant. He stops a few feet away from Eliott. Wanting to hug him.

“Can I come in?” His words are stilted, coated in uncertainty.

“Why are you here?” Eliott looks tired.

“I want to talk.”

“Okay.” He doesn’t budge a single inch.

Looks like Lucas is going to have to do this here. In the hallway. Where any number of people can just walk by. At least Eliott hasn’t shut the door in his face.

“I’m sorry. For shutting you out, refusing to talk to you. For being mean,” At this, Eliott’s composure starts to falter, Lucas understands then that his annoyed posture was all an act, possibly an attempt to guard himself from hurt, and that nicks at his heart a little. “For walking out earlier, I should have stayed. I’m just really sick of feeling vulnerable all the time, I feel like I can’t catch a break and then I take it out on you by being cold.

“I saw my father last week, unintentionally, he was at uni and it’s the first time since he left that I’ve laid eyes on him. It brought back all the shame and humiliation. I wanted to walk up to him, like I’ve imagined doing multiple times over the years and confronting him, but all I could do was run the other way. I hate that this man still has this power over me. Anyway, that’s not the point, the point is that I hurt you-”

Eliott is stepping forward and wrapping his arms around Lucas, pulling him into his apartment and holding him against the door.

“Please don’t be mad.” Lucas’ voice comes out muffled against Eliott’s chest.

“I’m not mad. The truth is I’d rather be annoyed by you than not have you at all. I want to know when you’re in pain and why. And you were, I could see it and it hurt to know you were fighting something on your own. I am so sorry, Lucas.”

“You have nothing to apologise for.”

“Remember what I told you, yeah? You are not alone.”

Lucas’ heart clenches at those words. How does Eliott think of and say things like that, so sincere like it is effortless, like it costs him nothing but the air he breathes to say them.

He pulls back from Eliott, head tilted up against the door. “You need to stop that.”

“Stop what?” Eliott cups Lucas’ face

“Saying those romantic things.”

“And you need to know that you have nothing,” He says fiercely. “To be ashamed about. You are not what happened to you. You are magnificent, and I can’t believe how lucky I am that you choose to be with me.”

“I love you.” The words slip out, Lucas widens his eyes and Eliott is laughing at Lucas’ brazenness. Simultaneously, his eyes shift and brighten, as if Lucas’ confession has changed the very colour of Eliott’s eyes, as if those three words have changed him.

A kiss, soft and tender. ”Not as much as I love you.”

Another kiss just as tender and slow, torturously slow. “Yeah, yeah. Now carry me to your bed, please.”

They stumble there, stripping off their clothes as much as they can while kissing and touching each other. As soon as Lucas hits Eliott’s bed though he is enraptured by the softness of his duvet and pillow and he sighs contentedly.

Eliott looks up from where he was kissing down Lucas’ chest and lets out a disbelievingly laugh when he sees Lucas snuggling into his pillows. He crawls up Lucas’ body until he is caging him in and looking directly down at him. Eliott, straddling Lucas’ hips now, plants a hard, searing kiss on his lips which Lucas is all too happy to reciprocate, clutching Eliott at the hips.

“You are ridiculous.”

“Ridiculously into you.” Lucas winks.

Eliott rolls over, laying his head on Lucas’ chest. “You’re tired.”

“Yeah…Your bed…Morning sex, instead?”

“Sure.”

From his position on Lucas’ chest, Eliott caresses Lucas’ lower stomach, running his fingers lightly over the skin, raising goose bumps in their wake.

Je t’aime.

Moi aussi.

[dracjoonie]

BTS Reactions - They Have A Crush On Their New Tour Photographer (Photographer!Reader)

I tried to have some fun with this one, I’m not sure if its 100% what you wanted but hopefully its still entertaining <3

Tags: Just fluff and awkwardness

Requests are open !  𝕄𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥  

𝕊𝕖𝕠𝕜𝕛𝕚𝕟

You would have caught his eye immediately. He’s a grown ass adult so idk if “crush” would be an appropriate word to use, but he’d definitely be interested. And not at all afraid to show it. From day one of meeting you he would be walking right up to you to make small talk.

“Hi, I’m worldwide cutie guy; Jin. What’s your name??....Y/N..? I like that.. it suits you.”

“I hope you like it here, let me know if any of the other guys give you trouble though, I’ll knock em out.” He’d say playfully throwing up his fists.

When it came to you going on tour with them he would find excuses to talk to you, or would catch you as you were walking down the hallway. He would never be so persistent that he made you uncomfortable, but his interest would definitely be known.I think he would also make sure you were always taken care of(made sure you were fed, that you were getting enough sleep, that your hotel accommodations were up to pare) , adding that same concern to the rest of the staff as an afterthought/cover-up. When it was time to perform and you were taking pictures he would be very aware of where you were located. Every single show he would find you and his eyes would only leave your camera when the choreo forced him to look away, or while he was interacting with fans. It would be 1000% more intense while he was singing his solos as well because it would be like he was singing to you. The little staff member in the corner with the big camera.

“Hey Jin..? I know this is a strange question… But have you..perhaps.. Been flirting with me?”

“Did you only know realize that? Sweetheart, you’ve got a lot to learn.”

𝕐𝕠𝕠𝕟𝕘𝕚

He would probably be a little shy upon meeting you. Maybe waltzing into the meeting  late/last and  noticing you in the room, and then he would have a hard to looking away. Might even start daydreaming while looking in your direction.  I think someone would probably notice him staring and bump his shoulder, and he would get all embarrassed about it. That classic gummy smile. He would say “Hi..” under his breath, and might awkwardly reach out his hand for you to shake.

He’d say~ “I’m Su-Yoongi, What’s your name?... Oh..Nice to meet you...Y/N.” Just before he bowed his head to you, smiling.

“Guess I’ll see you around.”

I think once tour started he would kind of keep tabs on you, but super lowkey so nobody would suspect anything or tease him. He would just want to know if you had showed up yet so he could compose himself in how to act around you. I don’t think he’s the type to catch a crush easily, so I think he wouldn’t really know how deal with one. New territory. But he would mostly try and act like it didn’t exist, or he would put up his typical cool/tough guy persona thinking that would make him seem more attractive to you.

During shows I think he would try and avoid eye contact with you as much as he could, but he would be hyper aware of your presence. Might even show off, or make sure when he was crowd pleasing it’d be at a good angle for you to take the best pictures. Mostly I just think he would pretend crushes were above him, but if he were ever confronted on it he would be super smooth about it.

“Hey, so I notice you always leave the room when I enter… have you been avoiding me.?”

“Truth is, I’m just a busy guy, but I’d be willing to tell you all about that over drinks some time..” *internal screaming*

ℍ𝕠𝕤𝕖𝕠𝕜

Like Jin I think he would be pretty unfazed. As soon as you met he would be all sly smiles and confidence. Wouldn’t be his first rodeo. He knows his strengths, and he would know how to use them to catch your attention. He would have no problem walking right up to you and introducing himself personally. Would also probably find and excuse to touch you.

“Hey, I’m Hoseok but you can call me Hope. We don’t usually get new staff as cute as you; I’m sorry, what was your name again?....Y/N? I’ll remember that.” Winks.

“Oh, let me just..” As he reaches out to move a misplaced strand of hair.

“There you go. Let me know if you need anything, I’ll take care of it personally.”

So confident he gets called out by the other members for his boldness. Honestly if he had a crush I think “Jay” would take over, and we all know how that goes. I think on tour he would be the most obvious. He’s already rude on stage, but he would be worse. And always in full view of you, making eye contact at the most spine chilling times before licking his lips and flinging water all over the crowd. He’d also be gauging the way you would look at him off stage, especially after a show. Guy would 100% know what he was doing to you at all times.

“Hey, so Hoseok? I think I’m gonna have to delete most of tonight's photos.. They’re very….”

“Very what?” He’d say getting closer, eyeing you as you fiddled with your camera nervously. 

“Um…. risque.”

“Hmm, You know.. You’re even cuter when you blush.”

ℕ𝕒𝕞𝕛𝕠𝕠𝕟

He would get real stiff as soon as you entered the meeting room, probably nothing too noticeable, but he would be moving his hands around a lot or pushing his chin out a little more than usual. Probably would just try and remain professional and not give you much attention. Wouldn’t have too much trouble introducing himself, mostly from all the years of being the leader and having to get past his shyness.

“I’m RM..But you can just call me Namjoon.. This is-” Starts introducing all the other members. “I’m sorry, what was your name again? Y/N..hm.. so um.. How long have you worked as a photographer for? OH, well, we’re lucky to have you as part of the team.” And that would fill the quota for his social interaction with you that day. Nailed it.

During tour he would try not to be as much of a goof in front of you, wanting to give a good impression. But his goofiness would always follow him in the end. He would try to make small talk with you and wouldn’t be paying attention and would drop something, or be banging his hands on the table until things started falling. Or you would walk in while he was dancing around or making dorky sound effect and every time he would just hang his head in embarrassment. Probably would say sorry a lot, even though he hadn't done anything wrong. He would be thankful for the concerts because he could show you his cool side for once. Having the time of his life doing what he’s good at. And I think he would smile whenever he spotted your camera tracking him. It’d probably boost his confidence, and he would do more crowed pleasing because of it.

“So Namjoon.. I can't help but notice that you get really shy around me.. You wanna tell me something?”

“I..umm.” Gets really bashful.

“You caught me..” Gathers the last of his courage. “I can tell you about it over dinner some time if you’d like.. You can say no but.. I’m sorry, can I start over?”

𝕁𝕚𝕞𝕚𝕟

He would be shy and smiley, but would play it off too well. When you entered the room I feel like the members would tease him immediately because of the way he would be looking at you. But he would just laugh it off, maybe looking back to you and raising his brows. Pushing his hair back per usual as he composed himself. Probably would wait for someone else to introduce him. Always teeter tottering between actually being shy and faking it.

“Nice to meet you Y/N. Wow you are soo cute.” And then he’d laugh really shlyly...sorta...kinda...on purpose.

“Well, cya around.” He’d say before waving to you and biting his lip; totally would be pressing his hair back again per usual.

This kid would be such a lil shit on tour around you. From not so subtly flirting with you, to impromptu dance practice simply because you were in the same room working. Oh he’s sweating? Might as well lift up his shirt to wipe the sweat away. Oh did he flash you? Woops. In the midst of him being evil he would also be very attentive and sweet. He would/does always thank the staff after a show, but might lingering on you a little longer. Always making sure you were ok, maybe even asking if you would ever want to tag along with him and the gang on group lunch breaks. During the actual concerts though... He’d be dragging the other members into his thot antics too, no one is safe. He’d be all body rolls and lip bites, totally just for the fans though.

“Hey Jimin?.. so ummm.. I wanted to show you this shot of you I took tonight.. The spotlight made you look like-”

“An angel? I know. But why don’t we grab some Soju Bombs and I let you take some close ups instead?”

𝕋𝕒𝕖𝕙𝕪𝕦𝕟𝕘

He would be pretty awkward at first once he knew he caught a crush, but I think he’d warm up fast. He would probably just be sweet and quite once he first met you. Might ask Namjoon to help introduce him, but I think if he was being that obvious Namjoon and the members would just push him to do it himself.  

“Hi!... I’m V!..”

“Hi V, I’m Y/N”

“Oh!... but I knew that..”

He would be super smiley around you, and would just bounce his hair around super content. He would probably ask you a bunch of questions about your cameras and how you got into such a profession. Would be really interested in seeing your other works as well. Wants to be your #1 model.

I think during tour he would probably find excused to be around you a lot. Or would ask you to take aesthetic pictures of him wherever you were traveling. Would insist it had to be you because he loved your style. Would ask for ways to credit your work when he was uploading pictures, being especially respectful if you were older. During shows he would always be striving to do his best (does that anyway but) wanting to show you all of his talent and stardom. Would pose especially for you and would smile cutely when you’d give him a thumbs up after getting a good shot. I don’t think he would show of too much, just hoping you would like him back when he showed you his genuine self. Overall pure as gold, protect him.

“Hey, Y/N? There’s this museum I heard about in this city.. I was hoping you would go with me? We could take pictures… Maybe it could be… a date?”

“I thought you’d never ask~”

𝕁𝕦𝕟𝕘𝕜𝕠𝕠𝕜 

He’s another one I think would be really awkward about it at first. Awkward and obvious as hell. As soon as he knew, he would stand as far away from you as humanly possible.  The other members might even have to physically drag him over to you to introduce himself.

“Hi! I’m JuNgkook!” He’d say overly loud, maybe his voice even cracking in the middle. And then he would just be awkwardly darting his eyes around the room to everything but you. That classic awkward smiley Jungshook face that falls into a 1000 yard stare when he thinks about it too hard.

“You ok there Jungkook?”

“Uhhhhh.. YeAh I’m gR8, you how are?... I mean…*cough*  What’s your name?”

“Y/N.....?”

“coolcoOolcool..”

Once he realized having a crush wasn’t gonna kill him he would get a little more confident. Might take some encouragement from the members, but he’d get there. Might be a dozen shows into the tour, but who’s counting? Eventually he would start acting more normal in front of you, slowly bringing in his jokes and his goofiness once he knew how much he liked making you laugh. Lots of slapstick. Probably would stare a little too long if he made you smile/laugh though. Mildly Jungshook at all times. During concerts he would try and put his underlying awkwardness aside and play it up 1000 for the fans. He’d probably try not to keep making eye contact with you in the crowd but it would happen anyway. And if literally ANYTHING mildly embarrassing happened on stage, full on Jungshook mode would be back and he’d just malfunction thinking about how you just saw that. Might have to pinch him.

“Hey Jungkook, whatcha daydreaming about?”

“OH! Uh.. I.DON’T.know.. “

Anyone else in the room→ “Dude just ask her out already, this is getting hard to watch.”

[221bshrlocked]

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD. MMA fighter seb where you go into his prep room before a fight to wish him good luck (because you're a huge fan and you two never met before) but things get steamy fast and he's eating you out on any random surface but he has to go fight so he leaves you without you having an orgasm and he puts up the best fight of his career and then he comes back filthy and (idk) fucks you in the shower.

A lot of you were looking forward to this so I hope I delivered ;) NSFW gifs under cut. Little easter egg (not a little at all) left there for you. I got 2 different anons asking for MMA so to the other anon that wanted reader waiting to take care of Seb after a fight, I put that here too :)

Your legs were shaking violently, the feeling of finally meeting him still not settling down. The locker room doors slammed open, your head snapping towards the men walking in and making their way around the lockers. He was standing in the middle, all sweaty and focused, his hands tapping his thighs along with the music blasting through his ears. When he finally looked up, you felt the breath get knocked out of you, literally!

“I thought this room was for employees only.” His voice was calm, the manager taking a few steps towards you looking like he was about to throw you outside. You held out your hands, about to apologize when he spoke again. “It’s fine Don. Leave us.” He nodded towards him, the other guys exiting with his manager and shutting the doors behind them.

“Alright what’ya want me to sign? Your boobs or-” his words made you clench your thighs, blushing at the prospect of actually having touch you anywhere. He trailed off the rest of the sentence, taking out his headphones and throwing his phone on the bleachers before taking a few steps towards you. Sebastian kept eyeing you up and down, loving how scared you looked, like a doe caught in a trap.

“I- god I can’t find the words. Just wanted to wish you good luck sir..I MEAN Sebastian. Ummm yeah good luck- I..I’ll just see my way o-”  You tried to go around him but he stepped in front of you, gaze locking on your heaving chest and teeth looking like a wolf’s. “What? No good luck kiss doll?” His hands blocked your escape route, the heat radiating off of his much larger frame making you shiver.

Standing on your tiptoes, you pecked his jaw and looked anywhere but at him. “Oh sweetheart…I meant I wanted a kiss you.” Without a warning, he slammed you against the wall and smashes his lips with yours, hands grabbing your thighs and supporting your weight with his own. You moaned into the kiss, fingers attempting to pull on his hair but remembering how he always got a haircut before every fight. As your nails scratched his neck, he growled, pushing off the wall and walking to the bleachers again. He fumbled with your skirt, hiking it up and pulling harshly on your panties until they ripped. The sight made you gasp, suddenly looking at him stuffing your panties in his nose and taking a long sniff. “Fucking sweet as candy sweetheart. All for me.” He shoved them in his shorts and pulled your shirt down, sucking and biting your nipples before kneeling in front of you. Between squeezing your ass and kissing your thighs, you were already feeling that buzz in your core, screaming his name when he licked harshly and bit just next to your wet lips. “Oh fuck yes sir yes sir- right there Sebastian…GOD shit yes yes-”

He got off listening to you, fingers slapping your pussy before moving past your lips.

“Is that,” he spat on your lips, curling his fingers upward and looking at your wrecked body, “what you wanted?” He winked at you, sucking on your clit when your hands flew to his head. “Answer me baby girl.” You felt his other hands tease your asshole, screaming your release.

And then he pulled away.

“Wh- I was..n-”

“Gotta match to win darling.” He smirked, standing up and fixing your clothes before reaching for your hand. “What’s your name doll?” Sebastian raised your chin to look at you, studying your almost blissed out face.

“Y/N.”

“Well, Y/N…mind waitin for me here?” He raised an eyebrow when you nodded quickly, smiling and kissing your cheek before walking away. “This match is for you doll.”

Ten minutes later, and you were dying to touch yourself. You wanted to finger yourself as the match played in the screen. You knew it would probably take you a few seconds to cum from just looking at him moving around the ring.

But somehow, the anticipation of having him fill you up made you wait.

The loud bell rang and snapped you out of your haze, frantically looking to see who won and sighing when you saw him raise his hand before checking on the other guy. Not two minutes later, you jumped at the sound of the door opening.

“No one fucking disturbs me. You understand?” You heard a someone agreeing before shutting the door, Sebastian walking around and focus landing on you as soon as he turned around.

He strutted towards you, pushing you up against the wall like earlier.

But this time, he was much more aggressive, barely letting you pull away to breathe. “Fuck- couldn’t end the match any sooner doll. Thinkin about you all the time.”

“Wait-”

“No! I’ve done my waiting.” He nipped at your neck, screaming in your skin when you hands barely touched his head.

“Let me help you.Ahhh shit, please. Le-”

“I don’t fucking care if..”

“Just- please…please.” He couldn’t say no when you kept on whining. Pulling away reluctantly, he sat on the bleachers and motioned for you to come to him. “Alright doll. ‘M all yours.” You smiled before walking to the bathroom and getting the first aid kit, coming back and standing between his thighs. He kept on tickling your stomach and kissing you through your clothes the entire time, only stopping when you dabbed the alcohol on his head again. As soon as you pronounced you were done, he was pushing you away from him and stripping, telling you to do the same and huffing impatiently when you just looked like a lost puppy. He pulled on your clothes and threw them to the side, carrying you to the bathroom and stepping in one of the large stalls.

“Gorgeous.” He turned on the water and trailed his rough hands down your body, wanting to feel you everywhere.

“Just- fuck me already.” You frowned when he ignored you and kissed you again, small hands pumping his cock and massaging his balls. “Got me so hard Y/N…you know how tough it is to fight wit- ahh shit.”

“Must’ve been…so…hard.” You giggled at the stupid joke, finally breaking his resolve and squealing when he leaned down and carried you. With one thrust, he bottomed out, not even bothering to start out slow and fucking the adrenaline out of his system.

“So pretty my baby- those tits are gorgeous Y/N. Shit- fuck fuck ahhhh.” He licked his lips, loving how long your neck looked when you threw your head back in ecstasy. “Oh gah I..can’t- yes yes oh fuck me yes..”

“Thought I already was sugar.” He swallowed the lump in his throat, groaning and yelling filthy things every time you clenched around him.

“Fuck baby ‘m not gonna last-”

“Yes sir…yes Seb right there- shit right ahhh there.” You almost leaned too far backward, waiting for your head to hit the wall but remembering just how much bigger and stronger he was. You came with a cry, walls fluttering around him and back suddenly hitting the wall.

He was so close, just looking at you drove him mad and made him want to spend hours with your legs wrapped around him. With a few more thrusts, he pulled out and came on your stomach, still holding you close to him and biting your nipples while you held onto his shoulders.

A few minute later, he finally looked up and saw you still smiling. “Wanna go to dinner with me?” You whispered before kissing his forehead.

“That’s my line!”

“Hehe more like your punchline.” You snickered at the joke again, making him whisper something about how ridiculous your sense of humor was.

[violetren]

GTKY Once Edition

Rules: Copy the bolded questions and answer them yourself! Don’t forget the specific question that was posed to you by the person who tagged you. (See “Individual question for the people you tag”). Then tag up to 7 people, one for each season.

Musical episode: Yay or nay?

I’m still kinda on the fence about it but I guess ultimately yay just because it was kinda fun.

When did you start watching Once, and do you remember why?

Uhhh. 2012/13? I rented the first seaon on dvd from Blockbuster while I had pneumonia. I picked it up because I have a soft spot for modern/different takes on fairy tales and legends and stuff.

What made watching Once worthwhile?

Regina’s journey from villain to hero. Henry and Regina’s relationship. The fact that even when things were really absurd, and full of plot holes the actors were still giving it their all.

First + Current Main Ships?

Swanqueen came first, now it’s them and dragon queen that count as my current main ships. Oh and probably curious archer.

First + Current Favourite character?

My first fav character was Emma. Back when she was the badass bailbonds-woman who wasn’t perfect but always tried and fought, and had the “are you kidding me?” normal person moments when confronted with the weird fairy tale stuff. Nowadays after how her character “grew” over the course of the show I just feel disappointment and anger. My current fav is definitely Regina. Tilly is pretty awesome though. And I have a soft spot for Zelena even though I hate some of the shit they did with her. 

Favourite arc (Why?)?

Queens Of Darkness! Even if they totally choked and didn’t fully explore it as much as it felt like they could have. I loved everything about Maleficent, and Lily, and how Good was not always Right. And Once was so good at giving their villains depth that they didn’t get in their original stories. I could and would watch a show that was just fairy tale villains working through their traumatic backstories. Fuck I would jump at the chance to help write a show like that even without any screenwriting experience.

Favourite plot twist?

I just blanked on everything that happens on the entire show trying to think of one. Ummm idk? finding out Rumple made the curse to find Baelfire? Zelena getting through the protective wards because she was Regina’s sister? Henry the Author?

Hardest death to watch?

Idk. Neal/Baelfire? Robin’s death sucked too. Merlin deserved better.

This character should have gotten more time?

LILY. And Also Maleficent. I can’t believe that they set up that whole idea of her carrying her potential darkness AND Emma’s and how she might finally have support to deal with that because her mum finally found her and was ready to give her ALL THE LOVE and they just never got seen again. That was fucked.

Also Ruby/Red. The show needed way more of her across the board. Sure it was on different scales for different reasons but she and Regina both had the whole living/trying to live as a good person even though they’d done horrific things story going on. Plus she was so caring. And gay.

So I cheated and said three but COME ON!

How do you summarize the show to your friends? (max. 3 sentences)

Fairy tale characters got cursed to live in the real world with no memory of their life before, until a ten year old who got adopted by the evil queen who cast the curse, finds his bio mum and convinces her to break the curse. They’re actually just a huge dysfunctional family. There is so much potential and Lana Parrilla will own your soul by the end of it.

Favourite Once specific trope (think Memory Wipe, Family Trees, Glowing Walkey-Talkey Hearts, Head Achey Timelines…)

How even the characters are like our family tree and all these different timelines are insane so lets just be super casual about how we talk about them because if we stop and think our heads will explode.

Three quotes that mean a lot to you?

”I don’t know how to love very well”

”Happy endings aren’t always what we think they’ll be, that’s what makes them special”

“I don’t mind a little darkness”

If you could take home any prop from the set, what would it be?

Maybe the Authors Pen?

Favourite funny scene?

So many. At this very moment. Cruella taking a selfie with kidnapped Henry.

Favorite Platonic Ship:  I have so many and some I ship both as romantic and not. Fuck. OH! Regina and Tinkerbell!

Favorite dish from Granny’s? That burger Ruby gave Belle when she’s getting used to things looked pretty great.

A question only for the people you tag (remember to answer the question your tagger made up for you!) 

I was asked by @ussjellyfish: What part of the newly merged realms would you like to live in? Really depends on how wide spread modern amenities became during the merge. I’m gonna say Storybrooke just to be safe, because no way in hell would I give up hot showers and flushing toilet full time. I’d probably travel a lot though to see a bit of everywhere.

I’m asking: If you had to pick three minor and/or guest characters to sit down and have dinner with, which three would you pick?

Now tagging. Who are people that watched Once? Shit. Um. Okay uhhhh

@evilangelfiji, @lexa-kom-skaikru, @dameednaeverage, @namesaretoomuchpressure, @argyle-s, @bethanyactually, @nobinstowergirl

If yas wanna. Also anyone else who sees this an wants in is welcome to play too.

[elisacifuentes]

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(500 years later) hey! i was tagged by @annasvinyl thank you very much  😊💕

and i’ll be tagging @astark @floralfeast @galvezluciana @remuslovestonks @danakatherinescullymd @wlwmermald, honestly whoever wants to do it 

A- AGE: 24 years 4 months and then a few B- BIRTHPLACE: Germany C- CURRENT TIME: 22:17 D- DRINK YOU LAST HAD: apple juice at dinner E- EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: idk my sisters maybe? depends on the topic rip F- FAV SONG: my go to answer is Portugal by Walk the Moon but honestly? so many  G- GROSSEST MEMORY: do we really wanna do this H- HORROR YES OR HORROR NO: horror no. stranger things is the most horor like i will get I- IN LOVE: never been. except you mean with every pretty girl that walks by which are most. then yes.  J- JEALOUS OF PEOPLE:  who are like, good at socialising? yeah K - K: ??? natalie suggested this was meant passive-aggressively so same L- LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OR SHOULD I WALK BY AGAIN: walk by again asdfjksd i’m pretty sure i’d be the definition of a useless lesbian  M- MIDDLE NAME: do not have one N- NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2 O - ONE WISH:  to finish my thesis some time this year P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: the restaurant to make a reservation. two months ago. Q - QUESTION YOU ARE ALWAYS ASKED: “and what are you gonna do with that?” hell if i know R- REASON TO SMILE:  seeing my friends from abroad next week S- SONG YOU LAST SANG: ummm oh i know! on my own since it was the last one at niall’s concert T- TIME YOU WOKE UP: 8:25 or smth U- UNDERWEAR COLOUR: blue V- VACATION DESTINATION: tenerife. duh. W- WORST HABIT: procrastination of damn near everything X- X-RAYS: had a looot as a kid i was very clumsy. since then mostly at the dentist. Y- YOUR FAV FOOD: pasta with some kind of cream sauce and preferably mushrooms Z- ZODIAC SIGN:  capricorn

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If You Come Back ` Hong Jisoo (part 2)

 Admin note: Hey there everyone! I’ve decided to make this a series. I honestly just really wanted to write this story and I know it probably won’t get that many notes but I’m glad I get to try something a bit different than what I normally do ^~^ (there’s going to be multiple parts:)

Recap: Several years have passed since Joshua left to follow his dreams. What may happen when you decide to see him one last time?

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

I Missed You

waiting

waiting isn’t something easy to do is it?

waiting for the future especially

because the future is unknown

waiting led you to this moment

waiting implies that you were hoping for something

you expected something

and it was waiting for him that made you do this

made you impulsively buy a plane ticket

that would take you half-way across the world

to him

you reached instinctively for your suitcase

it was small

only contained enough clothing to last you a few days

some toiletries that you knew you would need

and a letter

you reached for that letter that had been kept carefully in your carry-on

and took a deep breath as you reread what you had written

the letter was several pages

you started on page 1

Page 1

“Hey Josh! How are things over there? I know you don’t get to contact home very often, but your mom said I should probably try to write what I wanna tell you down on paper. That way when you do call, I’ll be able to say everything I wanted to. So uhhh, I guess the first thing I wanted to say is hi! I hope you’re eating well, I hope you’re sleeping well. I hope things are going well. Graduation was kind of boring without you. We could have stood in a corner somewhere being the socially awkward nerds we are together, while everyone else celebrated the end of high school. But don’t worry! I saved you some of your favorite chocolate that your mom got me for graduation. Though I’m not too sure how I’ll send it to you. Anyway, I just wanted to say, that things are going good over here and ummm… I miss you.”

the date read four years ago

you were finishing the last year of college

when you decided to take this trip

the trip that would somehow end up giving you closure

this first page of the letter was four years ago

when he left

at first

right after he had left

you didn’t expect it to hurt quite so much

you didn’t expect Joshua being gone to be quite as difficult as it turned out to be

you missed him

it was hard calling him

he wasn’t given all that much time to call home

and when he did

you didn’t want to take away his time from his family

the truth was

you had to stop every fiber of your body from screaming

if you got on the phone with Joshua

every part of you wanted to scream

and tell him you missed him

that you wanted him to come back

but you also knew how much it meant for him to be there

and so the rare moments you did get to talk to him

went nothing like that

”How are things?”

”There are a lot of trainees, and we have English tests and take vocal lessons and dance until our legs want to fall off. I’m struggling, y/n, it’s hard.”

you want to tell him that you miss him

you want to tell him that if it’s hard, he should rest and that he should get sleep and eat and take care of himself

you want to tell him to be happy

”I believe in you. You can do it.”

and that’s all you say to him

and that’s all you get to say to him

you moved into the dorms for your first year of college

making the trip back to your house

and then the 127 steps down to Joshua’s house

weren’t really an option

not with projects and homework assignments and exams

no rest for the weary

you were ok though

Joshua’s mom talked to your mother quite often

and she would tell you how he was doing

granted you only heard indirectly

but anything left was more than enough

and three years along the line

you never quite forgot about him

never quite understood why your college friends always insisted on setting you up with cute Mike from the biology department

or the babe Zack from the the fine arts department

”Honestly y/n, it’s like you’re married to someone else when you’re hella single.” your friends would tease

”I suppose.”

but all these years you had liked Joshua

had missed Josh

it was a bit like waves crashing on the shore

loving him was like the sound of crashing waves

the sound of the waves was constantly in the back of your mind

fueling all your actions

but never quite so loud that they blocked out your everyday life

which is why

as nice as Ryan from Stats class was

you were ok being in love with your childhood friend

who lived across the ocean

you didn’t tell anyone except your roommate

Cara was more than a bit understanding

and three years of being roommates and friends

was enough for you to find out how wonderfully supportive a friend like her could be

late night convos would be had over love and life

and she’d ask you how long you were willing to wait for him

”I’m not too sure.” would always be your answer

but she understood that

and then

he debuted

you heard from your mom

finally he was going to debut

that was the first time in three years

you had driven home in a rush

tears, happy tears, in your eyes

back home to where your parents were

and treated them and Joshua’s mom to dinner

celebrating how amazing it all seemed

and when his mom handed you her phone asking if you wanted to say something to him

you sat quietly tearing up again

but turned her down

saying he would be busy

but you were scared

what do you say

no it’s better this way

you ordered his first album

his voice matured more when you listened to him singing

no longer quite the boy from church you remember chasing around begging him to sing you something on his guitar

from which he would play a bit of something, any song, just for you

but it was still very much his voice

and when your album arrived

”Ooooh which one is Joshua?” Cara asked you

you looked through the 13 photo cards included and pulled out his

”God y/n, I hate you, your love story is straight out of a movie.”

you thought back on the memories fondly while waiting for your flight

over the years, you had ordered each of his albums

the 12 other boys also had your heart

because they took care of Joshua

and were his friends and family

for that you were happy he was happy

”Flight 207 to Seoul boarding. Flight 207 to Seoul.”

this was it

you dragged your suitcase over and boarded your plane

looking out the plane’s window in your seat

the night sky welcoming

you had thought you could wait for Joshua

well no

you never really expected him to come back

you had hoped he would

but it had been four years already

and while he could very well have moved on

you wanted to see him one last time

to tell him he had done it

he had done well, he had worked hard

you had no plans for how you would see him

surely everyone would think you were just some crazy fan

but you had to

at least one last time

tell him to be happy

and then maybe you’d finally be able to move on

four years is a long time

you drifted to sleep while flying through the clouds

Day 2

Korea was beautiful

after a quick nap in the hotel room after landing

you had decided to just explore the nightlife of the city

going around to various shops

eating food from various food stands

it was all very beautiful

it felt like a dream

you shouldered your backpack as you took in the city lights

staring at awe in everything

you can imagine falling in love with a place like this

you wonder if Joshua fell in love staring at the city lights here

as you begin walking again you feel a sharp pain in your side as you’re roughly shoved

you catch yourself with your arms as you trip onto the ground

”Oh.”

you huff pulling yourself up to face the guy who had just accidentally pushed you

”You know that was very rude. Even if you are in a hurry, there’s no need for pushing!!!” you say brushing off yourself to face the perpetrator

he has a mouth mask and a cap so you can’t see his face really clearly

he doesn’t say anything

”Oh sorry, you probably don’t understand English.” you say switching to Korean, “Anyway, I expect an apology, I fell, you’re lucky I’m not pressing charges-”

”Y/n?”

you freeze

that voice

out of the entire city of Seoul

just your luck

just like fate

that voice

you recognized

Joshua slowly pulled off his cap and pulled his mask down

revealing his identity fully to you

you held your breath

honestly the universe couldn’t have waited until tomorrow for you to meet Joshua again after four years

you had imagined this moment over and over again

imagined what you would say

”So hey” “I traveled halfway across the world to see you again.” “Hey remember me from high school?”

all of your responses drained out of you

you didn’t know what to say

”I-” you begin

you watch at the sound of your voice

a sound he wasn’t quite sure if he’d remember

his face light up at it

it was almost as if he heard it everyday

and before you could really react

his arms pulled you

pulled your very physical being

crashing into his

like waves on a shore

the closing of hundreds of miles of distance

of years of time

as he held you in his arms

as his warmth enveloped you gently

and as you settled your arms around him too

the feeling was indescribable

everything felt blurry and bright and colorful and safe

it felt like home

”I missed you.”

Admin note: More fluff to come, a lot more fluffy, but maybe some angst too? idk you guys tell me what you want from this series

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