#unfollow and block if its not your cup of tea

[zuppizup]

Me all morning

[rafetopia]

I just wanna clarify something real quick because I've seen some posts about it.

when we (I know im not speaking for everyone here but like from what I have noticed) say we find "dad" and "kid" weird in fics, we don't mean like the normal "jokingly" way. Those words are often used in sexual contexts combined with the fact that the reader often acts like a real kid with like extreme dumbification. I have seen fics where the reader doesn't even realize they are having basically sex and in combination with those nicknames, it just seems weird. If you are into that, then okay you do you. But the dynamic often feels like adult x kid and in my opinion, we have the right to say something about it on our blog if we think that it is weird.

No one (at least not to my knowledge) came into any inboxes directly to shame a writer for writing a fic like that or using those nicknames in any fic. We only expressed our personal opinion on our blogs and it's not our fault if you felt attacked or offended by that. We (also to my knowledge only) never attacked anyone personally and just expressed our discomfort with that. If you have a problem with that or feel offended, then you are free to unfollow or block, I can assure you I personally don't have a problem with that because it's your right.

I know we also have the option to unfollow or block and I have done that before but since those fics are showing up in the tags (which they have every right to) and some of them are not tagged or have those nicknames in the warnings, sometimes you can't avoid them. Besides just because I personally don't like the topics you are writing, doesn't mean I don't like you, or other stuff that you are posting)

Another thing is that there seems to be a big hype surrounding those names or dynamics suddenly and its okay if you like those fics then I'm happy for you but if its not your cup of tea then your pool for fanfics is becoming smaller and smaller. And before you come at me say "if you want something, then write it yourself or request it", yes that is an option but not all of us are writers and not everyone takes requests all the time and In my opinion, everyone has the right to be sad about the lack of something because ppl complain about the lack of certain characters all the time.

What I want to say with this post is that, if we express an opinion on our personal blogs, then it's not meant to offend you. Everyone has the right to express their opinion or feelings and if you don't like that, you can always unfollow. Just as you have the right to keep posting and writing what you like.

with that being said, I hope y'all have an amazing day and please don't feel offended by personal opinions that aren't directly sent into your inbox but made as normal posts to connect with people that feel the same about certain topics. There is always a difference between attacking someone personally (for ex. in their inbox) and posting your thoughts on your blog.

[nanceys]

#nanceys : a   private,   selective,   mutually   exclusive   nancy   wheeler   of   stranger   things.   sleuthed   by   pidge   ( she / her, 24 )

a study in :   girl   next   door,   a   nuclear   family,   female   rage,   survivors   guilt,   weapons   don’t   weep,   feminism,   small   towns   with   big   secrets,   the   eldest   daughter,   the   stages   of   grief,   revenge,   found family, the   soft   underbelly   &   more.

blogroll. robin buckley. multi.

                              mobile rules beneath the cut!

mobile rules.

i will tag every trigger as TRIGGER //. for example : trypophobia //. i will always read guidelines before interacting, and in doing so will take note of triggers so that i can tag things appropriately I want my blog to be a safe space for everyone.  please note that i do have issues with my short term memory, so should a situation ever arise where i don’t tag a needed trigger, please please please reach out to me immediately so that i can tag it. i ask that you tag in - depth child abuse, excessive gore, trypophobia and extreme closeups of moving eyes.

i will not follow nor write with muns under 19, this is  nothing against you or your writing! i am mutuals only , which means i only interact with those who follow me and i follow them. i also will not follow anyone who expresses any type of homophobic , transphobic , racist , writes themes pertaining to rape, incest, pedophilia, or just any other problematic & / harmful behavior. i also do not follow just to follow , if i follow you i’ve read guidelines and character profile(s) and want our characters ( and us if you’d like ) to interact! should you be on the fence about interaction, feel free to send a meme to test the waters, or just pop on by to plot!. 

please note : if you wanna break mutual / don’t see us interacting, i kindly ask if you would hard block. my little brain fog riddled noggin can barely remember where i set down my bag — much less who i have unfollowed / who’s unfollowed me. with my poor memory i will most likely forget & try and follow again. this is for both our comfort, so if you can do so it would be appreciated ( as odd as that sounds, my goodness )

replies may vary in time. please take note that my response time does not equal interest in thread or lack thereof. i love every thread , meme , and starter that’s sent my way the same way i love chocolate cake. memes and plotted threads are the best way to interact with me , and if you’re wondering about turning an ask into a thread , my answer will always be yes please!!  however, i deal with physical and mental health issues where some days all i can do is just draw or watch schitts creek. so my activity will be sporadic — i might go weeks without posting threads, other times i’ll post multiple in a day. will always be around to chat , though!

reply length — as a wannabe author & screenwriter , i am one who loves to delve into inner dialogue, who loves to challenge myself into finding new ways to string together descriptors & play with exposition and emotions. i just get very excited and invested - and that tends to show in the length of my replies. to memes , starters , plotting - they can get LONG. i just want you to know that you never have to feel any kind of pressure to match my length or anything like that. as long as there’s something for me to work with , do what makes you happy and comfortable!! this is a hobby and we’re here to have fun , do what you wanna do & it’ll be amazing i know it <3

regarding shipping and plotting – GIMME. GIMME IT ALL !!! i write nancy as bisexual, and would love to write her in romantic settings. i also LOVE discovering all kinds of platonic and familial relationships — best friends, siblings, parental - child, i’m a sucker for it all. also, im a total slut for plotting. like, can't get enough of it. i will plot with you til the cows come home. HOWEVER, i know that its not everyones cup of tea and thats totally okay!!!! just know that if you do enjoy plotting . . .  ya know where to find me . . just putting that out there.

hey howdy hey! call me pidge. she / her. 24. queer. autistic + adhd + dyslexic. i struggle with generalized anxiety disorder & so ooc back and forth convos aren’t exactly my strong suit. however, being an extrovert trapped in an introverts body, it’s something that i crave more than anything! i’d love to make new friends so please feel free to pop by and say hi. don’t be nervous, i’m like a spider, more scared of you than you are of me!

[felixiecit]

I. AFFILIATION

This is an Independent Canon divergent Ezreal rp blog. I have no ties with Riot Games, nor do I claim ownership of the character or game. I simply role play the character I have grown to love and adore for so long. The only things I own on this blog are art I may or may not post unless stated otherwise.

This is my take on Ezreal. Keep in mind, he can be over dramatic and mean to your muse. I do not condone his acts. Do not confuse mun with muse. If he is not your cup of tea the unfollow button is at the top.

II. BASIC RULES

(Just read these for the short version of my rules!)

✰ NO GODMODDING! That one is pretty self explanatory and obvious. Just don’t do it. It isn’t fun for anyone. ✰ Multiple threads with one person are welcomed. ✰ Tag your content, as i tag mine! ✰ Don’t send hate/anon hate. You’re just wasting your own time and i simply just ignore and block anyways. ✰ Racist, sexist, Transphobic & homphobic muns are NOT welcome here. ✰ Please cut your posts! ✰ Yes, I interact with OCS but I will not follow everyone. I only follow the ones I interact with. I do not like Gary Stu, Mary Stu, Cat girl anime types and Forced ship/Forced child ocs! ✰ Do not take advantage of my kindness and non selectivity. ✰ I AM NOT YOUR MEME SOURCE! please reblog from the source. ✰ I have dyslexia and sometimes trouble reading and understanding and this may come out in my role playing. I try to catch my mistakes before I complete a response but I’m not perfect. ✰ THIS BLOG IS 18+ meaning no minors. Sorry but I am an adult and at times I do rp and reblog adult content.

III. REPLIES

Replies can take a long time as Tumblr is not my main focus. A nudge or poke about our rp is a-ok! I’m so scatterbrained. However, nagging will earn you a block if my warning is ignored. I usually try to respond to my threads equally, but if I am enjoying a role play thread a lot more I may prioritize it. Do not come at me complaining, I will get to your response when I get time. Remember, Role Play is a hobby.

IV. INTERACTIONS 

I am non-selective, this means I interact with anyone and everyone this includes Ocs, & other fandoms. However if your oc has no bio or is just a “big tiddy anime cat girl” I may not interact.

THE FANDOMS I REFUSE TO INTERACT WITH AND BLOCK ARE; MHA, HOMESTUCK, KILLING STALKING, YBC, MCYT, & DANGANRONPA. Respect this or leave, experience with those rpcs have made me very uncomfortable. If you like it that is okay, just keep it away from me :)

V. SHIPPING 

I’m a complete shipping whore! Feel free to hit up Ezreal I ship him with pretty much anything! I love the idea of crack and new ships too. The only things I won’t ship with Ezreal are underage muses. Gross. I headcanon my Ez as bi!

DO NOT FOLLOW/INTERACT WITH ME IF YOU SHIP ZOE X EZREAL. Or zoe with anyone in general. I cannot stress this enough. I have a zero tolerance policy for it. Yes, its canon that Zoe has a crush on Ezreal, but I don't want that nasty ship anywhere near me. I know her age, but her form and mental state are that of a child. I will not argue with you about this ship. I will simply block you. <3

VI. VERSES

I have verses for Pulsefire, Star Guardian, Battle Academia, and Psyops!

VII. TAGS

For aesthetic reasons in my tags of posts I have special tags from Ezreal’s actual quotes with special text. More tags can be added any time! i tag my nsfw with nsfw and sinday, but if you want you can also block my special nsfw tag which is ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ʟᴇᴀʀɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴛᴇxᴛʙᴏᴏᴋ. ( nsfw )

VIII. NSFW

NSFW is welcomed, this can include sexual themes, gore and violence which all will be appropriately tagged. Any smut I might write will be under a read more. He will not just jump into sex with you, that’s where ship chemistry comes into play. I will NOT engage in any sexual stuff with muns & muses -18. Other nsfw regarding violence, Ezreal can and will hurt you if you provoke him. You have been warned. More in depth violence can be role played upon request, tagged appropriately. I will not control or kill off your muse without permission. I ask you do the same.

[inuishis]

Warrior’s Code

i. affiliation

This is an Independent Canon divergent Gorou rp blog. I do not claim ownership of the character or anime and manga. I simply role play the character I have grown to love and adore for so long. The only things I own on this blog are art I may or may not post unless stated otherwise.

This is my take on Gorou. Keep in mind, he can be mean and aggressive. I do not condone his acts. Do not confuse mun with muse. If he is not your cup of tea the unfollow button is at the top.

ii. basic rules (just read these for the short version of my rules!)

✰ NO GODMODDING! That one is pretty self explanatory and obvious. Just don’t do it. It isn’t fun for anyone.

✰ Multiple threads with one person are welcomed.

✰ Tag your content, as I tag mine!

✰ Don’t send hate/anon hate. You’re just wasting your own time and I simply just ignore and block anyways.

✰ Racist, sexist, Transphobic & homphobic muns are not welcome here.

✰ Please cut your posts & do not reblog memes from me please!

✰ Yes, I interact with OCS, and am open to shipping with them too but I will not follow everyone. I only follow the ones I interact with. I do not like Gary Stu, Mary Stu, Cat girl anime types and Forced ship/Forced child ocs!

✰ Do not take advantage of my kindness and non selectivity.

✰ this blog is 18+ meaning no minors. Sorry but I am an adult and at times I do rp and reblog adult content.

✰ I have dyslexia and sometimes trouble reading and understanding and this may come out in my role playing. I try to catch my mistakes before I complete a response but I’m not perfect.

✰This blog has themes consisting of foul language, trauma, violence.

✰If I follow you, I most likely want to write, or if our muses don’t make sense maybe i just want to read your awesome role plays! But I am open to rping with any muse even from other parts, even other fandoms! I just struggle to break out of my shyness at first!

✰I will not rp with duplicates, sorry! This is due to constant theft in all my years on tumblr. 

iii. replies

Replies can take a long time as Tumblr is not my main focus. A nudge or poke about our rp is a-ok! I’m so scatterbrained. However, nagging will earn you a block if my warning is ignored.

I usually try to respond to my threads equally, but if I am enjoying a role play thread a lot more I may prioritize it. Do not come at me complaining, I will get to your response when I get time.

Remember, Role Play is a hobby.

iv. interactions

I am non-selective, this means I interact with anyone and everyone this includes Ocs, & other fandoms. However if your oc has no bio or is just a “big tiddy anime cat girl” I may not interact.

the fandoms i refuse to interact with and block are; homestuck, killing stalking, ybc, mcyt, & danganronpa.

Respect this or leave, experience with those rpcs have made me very uncomfortable. If you like it that is okay, just don’t talk to me about it :)

v. shipping

I’m a complete shipping whore! Feel free to hit up Gorou I ship him with pretty much anyone! I love the idea of crack and new ships too. The only things I won’t ship with him are underage muses.  note; Genshin is unfortunately known for its ship drama and i’m aware of this. Gorou is an adult and i will not be shipping with muses considered underage and just to avoid drama I will not be shipping with the travelers whether yours is of age or not. I will rp with them! But shipping is off limits. 

do not follow/interact with me if you are a kaeluc supporter. I cannot stress this enough. I have a zero tolerance policy for it. I will not argue with you about it. I will simply block you. <3

vi. verses

Currently a work in progress!

vii. tags

For aesthetic reasons in my tags of posts I have special tags with special text. More tags can be added any time!

I tag my nsfw with nsfw and sinday, but if you want you can also block my special nsfw tag which is   ᴛʜᴇ ᴀʟᴘʜᴀ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀᴄᴋ. ( nsfw )

viii. nsfw

NSFW is welcomed, this can include sexual themes, gore and violence which all will be appropriately tagged. Any smut I might write will be under a read more. He will not just jump into sex with you, that’s where ship chemistry comes into play. I will not engage in any sexual stuff with muns & muses -18.

Other nsfw regarding violence, Gorou can and will hurt you if you provoke him. You have been warned. More in depth violence can be role played upon request, tagged appropriately. I will not control or kill off your muse without permission. I ask you do the same.

[lupinzapezit]

hello i thought it was probably time for a state of the blog update so,,, if you wanna know where ive been and whats happening read below (tw for mental health / s.uicide mentions)

if you do read, please like this post just for my own knowledge

okay so first of all i rly hate to be making this post because i absolutely hate being that person in the rpc who just constantly whines and guilt trips people over their own mental health without taking steps irl to work on it. im not gonna go into a lot of detail bc frankly its a lot and i dont super feel like it. (also i feel like its only kinda acceptable when the Big Blogs post a lot of ooc which i am definitely not, like my value is only tied to how much content i output but thats something im working on in my own time and not anyones fault persay)

basically i had a lot of shit happen at the end of 2019 that cause me to go into a very low period and while i was working on improving from that time, obviously the world had different plans plus last year was my final year of uni. i moved out in february this year in the hopes that it would continue to help me heal but along with the fallout of some other events, it’s left me incredibly alone and with a fraction of the support network i once had. june was extremely rough for me where i attempted twice and nearly didnt make it to my 21st birthday.

pretty much with working in customer service and australia being in and out of lockdown constantly (which makes my work much busier because people contact us when they cant go into stores), ive barely had any room to breathe or to try and work through things? and because writing is tied to my goal career of film and thats been difficult as well, you can probably guess why ive been struggling lately to be on tumblr and to write.

now dont get me wrong i adore my muses and being able to write. bucky has been an extremely fun and interesting character for me to explore. i literally never thought i’d end up writing a marvel muse and its caused a lot of hesitation due to how i approach him and feeling insecure. which is fine! thats natural! and ive been doing my best not to project those insecurities onto the dash and my partners but because of how poor my mental health is lately, that means ive just been very inactive. tumblr has always felt like a place where if you’re not constantly active then you lose people and while i know that’s not necessarily the case, it’s still a struggle. when i am here, it just feels like yelling into a void which is not a great motivator.

so what does this actually mean? tbh i’m still trying to figure that out. i made this blog initially with the intent of it being quite small and focused on character exploration n the like and i do still want to keep that goal. there’s a lot to bucky i still very much want to write and explore which i havent because of various reasons. i dont necessarily want to leave but i feel increasingly unsure about my presence which sucks because i have made some very good friends in the last year and a bit stint ive had on tumblr since leaving my old main rpc. i dont really want to give up this passion. 

for the time being, i’m probably still going to be low activity and my presence on the dash will be minimal. if that turns you off, feel free to soft block or unfollow. you can tailor your own experience the way you want. replies are probably going to be more queued and i wanna put a stronger emphasis on longer threads and character/dynamic development as i originally intended. again thats not everyone’s cup of tea so if you wanna leave then feel free. but atm i dont really feel connected to my partners and mutuals which sucks and i wanna improve on that. btw if you are reading this and youre down with this, message me and say hi!! i know that tumblr rp has developed this culture of not approaching people (and i struggle w this too) but the easiest way to plot with me is just to ask.

so yeah! tldr; brain extremely sucks, been feeling very disconnected and uncertain about my muse/writing capabilities/general self esteem, trying to work on that by taking things at my own pace and having bigger threads/metas more infrequently. i’ll still be more active on discord of course but hopefully these steps will help me feel a bit better about being here. 

thanks for reading all of this if you did, i really appreciate it :)

[slink-a-dink]

Hey just a heads up, I am starting to lose a bit of interest in THSC and in its place im getting invested in Library of Ruina/Lobotomy Corporation, these are horror games with darker elements, and i do plan to draw for them, im not sure if ill draw much horror or dark things myself but i do want to warn in advance that if these things arent your cup of tea i would suggest unfollowing or blocking tags such as horror or the game names! As well if you were just here for thsc it’s not going to be the only thing im drawing now^^ i shouldve made a fandom sideblog for thsc tbh bc it overtook this blog but this is my main art blog and i will draw whatever lives in my brain rent free and it switches often^^;

Thanks for reading!

[azakanas]

I. Affiliation

This is an Independent Canon divergent Yone rp blog. I have no ties with Riot Games, nor do I claim ownership of the character or game. I simply role play the character I have grown to love and adore for so long. The only things I own on this blog are art I may or may not post unless stated otherwise.

This is my take on Yone. Keep in mind, he can and will hurt your muse if provoked, I won't dull that down. I do not condone his acts. Do not confuse mun with muse. If he is not your cup of tea the unfollow/block button is at the top.

II. Basic Rules

NO GODMODDING! That one is pretty self explanatory and obvious. Just don’t do it. It isn’t fun for anyone.

Tag your content, as i tag mine! ESPECIALLY NSFW!

Don’t send hate/anon hate. You’re just wasting your own time and i simply just ignore and block anyways ^^

Racist, Transphobic, Homphobic, etc. muns are NOT welcome here.

Please cut your posts!

I AM NOT A MEME SOURCE! REBLOG FROM THE SOURCE!

Yes, I interact with OCS but I will not follow everyone.

THIS BLOG IS 18+ meaning no minors. Sorry but I am an adult and at times I do rp and reblog adult content. I also do not want to babysit anyone.

Turning asks into threads are highly encouraged! You don't have to ask!

I have dyslexia and bad anxiety that sometimes trouble reading and understanding and this may come out in my role playing. I try to catch my mistakes before I complete a response but I’m not perfect.

III. Replies

Replies can take a long time as Tumblr is not my main focus. A nudge or poke about our rp is a-ok! I’m so scatterbrained. However, nagging will earn you a block if my warning is ignored.

I usually try to respond to my threads equally, but if I am enjoying a role play thread a lot more I may prioritize it. Do not come at me complaining, I will get to your response when I get time.

Remember, Role Play is a hobby.

IV. Interactions

I am non-selective, this means I interact with anyone and everyone this includes Ocs, & other fandoms. However if your oc has no bio or is just a “big tiddy anime cat girl” I may not interact.

The fandoms I refuse to interact with and block are; mha, homestuck, genshin impact, killing stalking, ybc, mcyt, & danganronpa.

Respect this or leave, experience with those rpcs have made me very uncomfortable. If you like it that is okay, just keep it away from me :)

V. Shipping

I’m a complete shipping whore! Feel free to hit up Yone I ship him with pretty much anything! I love the idea of crack and new ships too. The only things I won’t ship with Yone are underage muses. Gross.

My Yone is bi!

If you're one of those Yasuo/Yone shippers please leave because that's fucking disgusting, please seek help. They are brothers. And I have a zero tolerance policy for it. Those who come to me and try to validate fucking incest get blocked on sight <3

VI. Verses

Be sure to request which Yone you would like or else it default to main! Below are the other verses I have for Yone;

YOUNG

SPIRIT BLOSSOM

BATTLE ACADEMIA

DAWNBRINGER

VII. Tags

For aesthetic reasons in my tags of posts I have special tags from Yone’s actual quotes with special text. More tags can be added any time!

BLOCK THIS TAG TO NOT SEE MY NSFW STUFF! THIS WILL BE HERE UNTIL TUMBLR FIXES ITS SHIT

ᴅᴏɴ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴜᴄᴄᴜʙɪ'ꜱ ᴍᴀꜱᴋ. ( nsfw )

VIII. NSFW

NSFW is welcomed, this can include sexual themes, gore and violence which all will be appropriately tagged. Any smut I might write will be under a read more. Yone will not just jump into sex with you, that’s where ship chemistry comes into play. I will NOT engage in any sexual stuff with muns & muses -18.

Other nsfw regarding violence, Yone can and will hurt you if you provoke him. You have been warned. More in depth violence can be role played upon request, tagged appropriately. I will not control or kill off your muse without permission. I ask you do the same.

IX. FAQ

Why haven’t you responded to our thread?

Many reasons could be why, I am getting to yours, I am simply busy, or i could have dropped it if it was no fun or you gave me nothing to work with. I rarely drop threads though.

Why did you block me?

You might have broken my rules, could have been nagging me about responses constantly when i gave you reason, you attacking my friends, anon hate or just being a dick in general. I get enough salt from playing LOL alone.

Do you use icons?

Yes, all credited on my credits page! You do not have to use icons.

Am I allowed to add social medias you link?

Hell yeah, I’m always looking to make new friends.

[annemaynova]

Alright. Time To Snap

yall cant keep ignoring half of my point and expect me to just take that. if you dont want to see LL analysis unfollow me, block me, whatever. i dont care. i engage with media i hyperfixate on by picking it apart piece by piece, and i understand its not everyone’s cup of tea. if its not yours, thats ok! i promise you i wont ever post anything else but analysis here. if u want to read my fics, theyre all on ao3 (@maybeanartist02) , if u wanna see my art, its on instagram (@felix.escellun).

if you dont want to see analysis, LEave.

[floescu]

Munday! 6, 16,18, 23

Mun’s Asks: RP Edition 

6.What are your thoughts on the current roleplay trends here right now?

Answered here <3

16. What do you expect from others when they want to roleplay?

To be engaging --!! not just leave me dry with a response that I can't find a way to respond to. Typically why I like semi-literate /Literate style bc there's a lot of meat I can work with~! if that make sense? I try to send memes in when I can even if I don’t turn it into a thread, I wanna see my roleplay partner thrive. I wanna learn about the person/character I'm following ;w; 

18. What’s the one thing you want to try the most on your blog?

To be more consistent in my writing! I find myself to be creative but I have an attention disorder so keeping my attention on one thing is super hard for me sometimes! I want to keep consistency with it~! if it means aesthetic or style, then I don't really have anything I wanna try. I'm a simple person, I like the blockquote, bold/ilatic and etc ;w; I don't have the consistency to change the font/color/spaces and whatnot! once agai-- OH. I KNOW. how to make icons in the center of the post, that's something I wanna learn! : > I really like centered things, its just look cleaner. 

23. What’s the one thing you dislike about the roleplaying community on Tumblr?

Hate & bashing on people for no apparent reason other than they don't like you or the character you play. Unfollowing/Blocking is a great tool and more people need to use it && that OC's a lot of the time aren't given the time of day -- ;3; I can understand if they have zero to little information on them, but Oc's that have had time and love put into them are kinda just pushed to the side too --!! not saying everyone has to follow an oc, if they aren't your cup of tea then that is perfectly fine! it's just the overall popularity toward original characters.

[dana-sachi-b-garcia]

Social Media for Not-So Dummies

Hello there, wonderful netizens! Today’s game plan is unlocking the what’s, how’s, and why’s of social media! Most of us are probably aware of it by now, but hey, give it a shot and read up! You never know, you might have overlooked something and missed a thing or two. So without further ado, let’s get the ball game started!

1. “With great power comes great responsibility.”

I know you’re no Superman and I’m no Uncle Ben but this applies to all of us! As we all know, social media is a platform where people can, well, do quite everything. From creating a post, sharing it, commenting, sending messages, and to sending a like. But remember, we should ALWAYS be mindful of the things we do and share online as other people see it too. Being able to share content with other people is powerful because it can affect and influence them so make sure that what you’re posting is credible and straight up #facts only. It is our responsibility to be credible at all times.

2. Don’t use it as a den of comparison

For sure, I know that all of us have come across a post that shows someone with their new gadgets, holiday trips, achievements, or maybe just their selfies. And I know that, sometimes, it gets unhealthy seeing that sort of posts because we tend to compare ourselves to them. In result, we feel and think less of ourselves.

But let us try our best not to do that. Not only because it harms our mental and emotional health, but also because it’ll make us feel discontented with what we have and who we are.

3. It’s okay if not everyone is your cup of tea

In social media, we have the freedom to follow and see posts of a lot of people. These people, sometimes, are some who we don’t really know and (sorry for  my lack of term) care about. And it’s okay if you don’t necessarily like these people.

Remember, what matters most is your peace of mind. So if you feel uncomfortable and bothered by them, don’t be afraid to click that unfollow or block button.

This is also a simple act of self-care as you are limiting the things you see and the things that can affect you in a negative way.

4. Better safe than sorry

Don’t give your personal information to people who you don’t trust. Don’t give confidential information such as passwords, credit card number, or even identification card. Don’t post personal plans like when you’re leaving home or going to a certain place. These information, if given to anyone, can be used to their advantage and put you in danger.

5. Engage with your family, friends, and people who inspire you

Aside from social media being the ultimate source of content and information, it has also been the ultimate game changer in terms of communication. Messaging apps and other social media sites have adapted the fast and convenient way of sending messages to people all around the world. Thus, it brings us closer to the people we love and care about.

Remember to keep in touch with your family, friends, and even people who inspire you. Make sure to check up on people (e.g. by asking them about their day) to constantly be aware if they are doing okay and to be there for them, even when you’re not literally around them. Keep in touch with people who share the same interests as you and inspire you so that you’ll remain motivated, and creative. With consistence, you might even be better at things such as your hobbies, skills, or talent.

6. Be kind, it doesn’t cost a penny

Social media might be the best thing that had ever happened to us, but remember that it also has its own fair share in tainting how one sees and feels about himself/herself. Some even get hurt by the comments or messages they get whenever they post. So, let us not add up to the negativity the social media has been filled.

Let us all be kind to each other. Let us be careful with our words and as much as possible, let’s say good things to people. Start complimenting and telling people that you appreciate them. You never know, you might make their day better and bearable by just saying those words.

Before you comment on one’s post and say something on the Internet, think first. Consider if you are being insensitive, or unnecessarily mean. Consider if your words would hurt or offend people. Remember, there are actual people behind the screens so treat them with the same respect online as you would in person.

7. Keep in mind that the Internet has a sharp memory

Did you know that the Internet keeps a record of everything? Well, it does apparently. It has an archive where everything is being kept, even those data or posts that you have already deleted. This might be hard to solve, but as others would say, “prevention is better than cure”. So before you do or post something on the Internet that you might regret afterwards or be put on the line, ALWAYS think first. ALWAYS think before you click and remember that everything you do on the Internet is most likely going to be permanent.  

𝙒𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙, 𝙄 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪’𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙙𝙪𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙣𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙯𝙚𝙣! 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙪𝙥 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙚 ‘𝙩𝙞𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙙. 𝙍𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧, 𝙚𝙣𝙟𝙤𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙡𝙞𝙘𝙠 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙮!

[drkinedits]

that’s... a lot to unpack. i looked into it and went ahead and watched the pilot episode because i don’t live in a bubble on tumblr.com and i like to make my decisions based on information i’ve seen firsthand. i probably don’t have 100% of the facts but this is my basic analysis from what i’ve gathered:

so hazbin hotel is an animated show about the princess of hell trying to open a rehabilitation hotel. the characters include charlie, vaggie, angel dust, alastor, and more. there’s candid lgbt representation in nearly every character so far, but vaggie has been getting the most heat for being the stereotypical ‘aggressive hispanic lesbian’ but i honestly don’t see her that way. she seems more defensive and protective than needlessly aggressive, she wants to protect her girlfriend and the hotel. angel dust also gets a lot of slack for being an lgbt “nympho drug addict”. he’s not a nympho just because he’s proud of his sexuality, and i really hate the overuse of the word addict. that’s a mental disease, not a character trait. he has a drug problem, sure, i’ll admit that, but when his drugs were destroyed, he seemed minorly irritated, not completely infuriated like addicts i’ve known irl. i know some people complained about the show being lgbtphobic, but the most i’ve seen of that was when katie killjoy said she ‘doesn’t touch the gays’ because she has ‘standards’, but you’re clearly not meant to like or resonate with katie, she’s supposed to be an asshole. not only that, but the setting of this show is literally Hell. the characters...aren’t supposed to be perfect. they’re all flawed in their own ways and i appreciate that. all in all, the characters were relatable more than they were offensive to me, but that’s my personal take on it. 

enough about the show though, let’s address the complaints leveled against the creator. i’ve seen the accusations about her working with and hiring an abuser. however, i didn’t see any mention of said abuser during the credits or anything, so he clearly wasn’t apart of the show. i don’t have time to go through the entirely of her zoophobia comic so i’m going to set the bestiality claim to the side, as well as the terf complaint-- i haven’t seen evidence for either of those things so i can’t objectively comment on it. if you have sources or proof, please let me know! however, i have seen the panel from zoophobia that people claim is underage pornography, but both characters are the age of consent, 18 and 19 respectively. a lot of the accusations leveled against vivziepop are from years ago and i think it’s important to allow a person to grow and change. i’m certainly not the same person with the same opinions as i was seven years ago.

i need to wrap this up, it’s getting pretty long. i think, overall, that the creator has made some mistakes in the past but those things are in the past. she’s an lgbt latina who made an animated show with adult humor and adult themes, unsurprisingly, for adults! it has mature content that isn’t appropriate for everyone, and that’s okay. i think it’s important that problematic themes be portrayed in media, as long as the problematic themes aren’t framed in a positive manner. i’m critical of all of my interests but i do enjoy content that portrays these themes-- as long as they aren’t glorifying the toxic behavior, it should be alright.

i can’t make you continue to follow or support me, that’s up to you. this is your online experience and you should tailor it to fit your needs. however, this is also my online experience and i enjoyed hazbin quite a bit. i’m not saying that it doesn’t have its’ fair share of issues, but i think the style is cute and the animation is fluid and nice to look at, and the characters are relatable, multifaceted, and interesting. i understand how people would be offended by the content of the show, but i personally don’t mind. that’s just me though. if i post about it anymore, i’ll tag it so filters pick up on it and you don’t have to see it if you don’t want to. feel free to unfollow or block me if you need to. i’m not gonna hold it against you, because i understand that this show isn’t everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s 100% okay. do what you have to to keep your online space safe!

alright. that’s all i have to say on the matter. if you have any further claims or evidence of vivziepop’s wrongdoings, or if you noticed something i mentioned above wasn’t accurate, feel free to send me the info, but i really don’t want to deal with drama about this. my blog is for multifandom edits, not discourse-y topics. thanks if you read this far, hope you all have a productive day!

- clover

[dyketectivecomics]

Are you even aware that Jonah Hex fought for the confederacy sold black people and treated them like crap and his books was knee deep in racism and freaking Bendis is trying to scrub that under a rug by giving him a queer legacy? Lgtb deserve better representation than granddaughter of slave trader (who apparently got cause let's keep all the stereotypes around while we're at it)

Are YOU even aware that Jonah Hex was sold into slavery by his father, and defected from the confederacy after learning that supporting them meant supporting that very same system of oppression that he himself was a victim of?

No, I guess not. Because that would require you to actually read his wikipedia page. It seems a miracle you can read or write at all, anon, since all of your brain cells can’t seem to function beyond sending trolling asks to try to stir up drama.

(I’ll dive a bit further, since you apparently want a Reaction. But the rest of y'all don’t have to worry about this clogging up your dash, since I’m putting a cut right here. If i get any more clownery about Jonah &/or Jinny Hex in my ask, you’re getting a thorough mock & a block. blacklisting and the block button are there for a reason guys. If Jinny or Jonah ain’t your cup of tea, regardless, I suggest using those tools &/or unfollowing me, because I can and will continue to reblog content with them (Especially Jinny, because, well. Jinny).)

Any story, in ANY medium, that covers an historical time, would need to address the racist (& if applicable, misogynistic) attitudes of the time period it is set in. Are those stories going to always be handled 100% unproblematically? Hell no. There’s lots of things that make me uncomfortable with any western movie/book/show that finds its origins in the antebellum south. Do I enjoy them regardless? Yes. Because I can separate the things that make me uncomfortable from things that are used to highlight a change in attitudes towards race &/or women, versus an author using the time period as an excuse to act out racist/misogynistic power fantasies.

But I’ll go ahead and bite one tidbit at a time here. “His books are knee-deep in racism.”

It’s been a LONG ass time since I’ve read a Jonah Hex comic. Or rather, had it read to me, since Dad read a few of his comics to me when I was TINY ass kid (god like? When I was 6/7? I had a very brief Western Phase then.) We ended up watching more westerns than reading them. I’m sure there’s plenty of #Problematic things to be found in the comics themselves. Hell, even just his origin with being ‘sold as a slave’ to an Apache tribe & subsequently ‘taken in’ by them is something we could spend hours and paragraphs tearing apart.

Recognizing something is wrong & calling it out is perfectly fine. But something so many ‘fans’ on tumblr fail to realize is that nothing will be 100% pure. Older comics especially are riddled with racism, and it’s important to recognize those tones. But if you expect me to preface every post I make about Jonah Hex from now with “sorry sorry, I know these comics were racist tho” you must be out of your damn head. 

Now for “Bendis is trying to scrub that under the rug by giving him a queer legacy”

Hon, no one is saying that Jinny’s existence automatically erases everything the writers have done with Jonah’s character. Hell, most people (fans included) aren't even aware of Jinny’s existence at this point in time unless they’re involved with reading comics. Jonah Hex’s “legacy” will survive well past whatever Bendis chooses to do with Jinny. Hell, I won’t be surprised if, after this run of Young Justice is over, she’s swept under the rug by DC & promptly forgotten. Because that’s usually what happens with next gen/legacy characters. People would rather read on ‘The Originals’ not their descendants. (the only hero I can think of off the top of my head who surpassed the legacy of their predecessor would be Zatanna vs Zatara. But she’s also had 40+ years to work to that point.)

What has been done with Jonah’s character in the past, and what Bendis & other writers choose to do with Jinny’s character in the future have nothing to do with one another. If Bendis chooses to integrate more of Jonah beyond just “here’s a weird old truck from his adventures, have fun with that!”, I’d love to see it & dissect it. Until then, there’s really only the name, and what’s looking to be the fantastical side of his adventures, rather than anything with historical weight.

“The LGBT community deserves better” (again, let’s keep in mind that your little ‘slave trader’ line there as a complete lie & the rest is just incomprehensible gibberish bc I’m gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and say you pressed ‘send’ too soon in your haste to troll.)

As a queer, hispanic Texan, I could not disagree more. Who’s ancestor HASN’T done awful things in the past? Show me someone who has a completely pure legacy free of benefit from oppressing those of another race/gender/origin/etc. We all have a fucked up history. It’s our collective human history.

LGBT history itself is built on the backs of trans women of color.

Including one more (presumably, but she IS Texan so we’ll see if they expand to make her hispanic) white wlw character is hardly new, groundbreaking representation here in 2019. But it’s progress. It’s progress where there could have JUST AS EASILY been absolutely NO representation. This shouldn’t be something that I’m absolutely ECSTATIC to see. Queer representation off all kinds should be standard. 

But they aren’t.

So am I going to celebrate the fact that DC has given me a queer wlw character from an area very close to the one that I am from? An historically conservative place, mind you, where being LGBT+ can just as soon mean putting yourself in danger on the day-to-day when you live in a small, conservative Texas town?

Abso-fucking-lutely, I am. 

(And not that I believe that you are, anon. But if you’re following me, I kindly suggest you hop the fuck off my blog and go follow someone else. I’m gonna be over here celebrating what representation I can. And if I feel like sharing an analysis on racist overtones of older/newer comics, I will do so because it interests me to discuss it or because I decide to. Not because some ass decides NOW needs to be the time to ‘discuss’ it, if we can even call this pathetic attempt at trolling a ‘discussion’.

[unkindrewind]

L A W S

* Charlie, his setting, and plot were all developed and conceived by myself and Bunny @gcrefxed / @killerxquccn. While we’re totally fine with others adding their characters into the setting / plot, it must be discussed first by either Bunny or myself. Theft will not be tolerated and WILL be called out.

* Unless it's something applicable to our muses collectively, Please reblog memes or posts in general from the source. I'm not a resource blog and if treated as one, especially by blogs who never interact, I will soft block.

* I will NOT interact with blogs that use youtubers, social media influencers, or anime / drawn characters for their Fcs. Nothing against you, it’s just not my thing.

* I will BLOCK personal blogs that reblog, like, or follow, as I like to keep interactions here between fellow rp mutuals. If you have an rp side-blog, let me know beforehand so I dont mistake you for a non -rp personal.

* I WILL NOT interact with minors. Given the content on this blog and the fact I’m an oldie, I just feel more comfortable writing with people of age, not to mention feel more comfortable exploring the darker / horror themes of this blog with adult mutuals.

* As stated I am MUTUALS ONLY,   meaning i will only write with mutuals. While I do greatly appreciate people following and showing interest, if i dont follow back there’s genuinely no hard feelings. Its not a slight against you or in any way me thinking less of your character or taking some weird high and mighty attitude but : 1. I just get very overwhelmed with an overly busy dash and need to be a bit selective to prevent my anxiety from going nuts 2. At the time, I'm not seeing a way or know how our characters could interact. You’re more than welcome to unfollow. Alternatively please dont feel obligated to follow back if I follow first, aside from understanding this blogs content might not be for everyone, i don't believe in follow for follow. So if you're not genuinely interested in writing, I'd prefer a soft block.  If you want to interact but don't follow me, chances are I’ll say no as I take following as a sign of interest. I may take a while to follow back as my notifications on here are the worst. If I don’t follow back within a weeks time, feel free to unfollow. .

T H R E A D S  /   P L O T T I N G

*  I love plotting. If given my way I'd be plot exclusive but I know that's not everyone's cup of tea. If you're ever interested in plotting, know I am already onboard.

*  If you want to turn a meme or ask into a thread, I’d prefer to be asked before hand. Simply because sometimes its nice to have memes just be stand alone things or for fun.              

  -   Additionally I take the memes I send in to others as just memes for memes sake as well, so if you want a thread to continue off one you'll have to let me know , otherwise I'm clueless.

S H I P P I N G   /   D Y N A M I C S

As of 8/14/20 Charlie is no longer open to romantic ships with female muses specifically, and will ship only with Bunny’s female muses: Irene @gcrefxed and Sarah @killerxquccn  , with her characters being detrimental in Charlie's story and to his character. Sarah specifically has always been the love of Charlie's life with the likelihood of anyone (beyond Irene) able to come close slim to none. This in no way means I will not interact with female muses or am being exclusionary  from this point; I always want to explore the multitude of subtleties in dynamics between Charlie and muses of every gender - even female muses having feelings for charlie, flirting with him etc - but dynamics with those female leaning will not result in anything romantic. Male muses, however,  are still open to the possibility of such a dynamic as that aspect to Charlies sexuality and character hasnt been delved into and I would find really interesting to explore. If you have any questions, feel free to ask! But please respect this decision and don't try to pressure or force me to change my mind as that will result in an automatic block. I ship based on chemistry between muses, but Im also very okay with pre-established dynamics (whether that be romantic, friends with benefits, enemies, platonic, familial, whatever!) Considering that can be a bit easier thread wise for some people instead of starting from the very beginning.  As with most things, I like to talk through it beforehand. If you have anything in mind, you're more than welcome to approach me! But I also reserve the right to respectfully turn things down or offer alternate options if things don't mesh.

S M U T

While I, and my muse, are of age, I’m not entirely comfortable writing smut unless it’s with a mun 1.) I know well and 2.) Is of age. So for the most part any if it all suggestive scenes will lead to a fade to black, time skip, etc.

T R I G G E R S

My muse being horror related there may be some triggers here. There will be mentions, and maybe -though rarely- the occasional image, of : Blood,  Violence , Murder , Serial Killers . Knives / Bladed weapons. I will ABSOLUTELY tag NSFW material [ with the tag nsfw > ] and triggers where applicable, though if you would like me to tag something specific to your needs or if there’s something I missed, don’t hesitate to let me know and I will do so right away!

M U N

* I write under the alias Nox! ( She/Her ) and I am of age

* i am a-okay with questions, especially about my muse! if you have any about anything at all i will be more than happy to answer them the best i can! 

* Also totally fine with random IMs! despite being spacy as hell sometimes, I love talking to people. Even if we havent talked or interacted  before, doors always open. I also have discord which I'll hand out to those I chat with and ask for it.

* I am very forgetful and easily distracted! Its the ADHD / Anxiety in me, added in with my irl stuff going on. Sometimes I forget to respond to IMs, but I promise it's not me ignoring you or a sign of disinterest [if we're mutuals, Im interested]. Dont be afraid to give me a poke if i take too long.     

    - Adding onto that I also have Depression . Which tends to put me in a bad headspace not only fairly often but fairly easily and makes me a bit tentative about trying to start things with others, based on bad past experience and my own mind being a bastard and thinking most people don't want to interact with me. So I promise, if we're mutuals, even if Im not sending things, I want to interact but probably being a clown and just afraid to while admiring you from afar until I can make a move. If you want to go ahead and go for it, I highly encourage it! Your best bet would be to approach me first.

* You can also find me on my other blogs:

@rapturcd // Bioshock OC

@fullcfwoe // CAOS OCs

@synthend // Cyberpunk OC

@sxnned // Demon  OC

@disowncd // Dylan Massett from Bates Motel

@clovcn // Lucifer from CAOS

R E S P O N S E T I M E / A C T I V I T Y

As it is i have a hard time keeping muse, just the way i am sadly. i know this is something a lot of people, myself included, can find frustrating (especially when you’re really into a thread) but a fair amount of the time i may take a while to respond. as much as i love this, aside from being a hobby, i have a chronic illness that makes me exhausted most days or just not in the mood to write and not in any kind of state to type out a response you lovely people would deserve. though i will always try to quickly reply when i can.

M E M E S

Yes. please. send as many as you want, as often as you want. Even if we haven’t interacted, you’re free to send one my way; They can be a great place to start things off.

P O S T L E N G T H  /  F O R M A T T I N G

 * I tend to use icons and small - but not super tiny-  text,  and usually some form of para, multi-para , or novella, but it really depends on my mood etc. Though all these things can vary : If you dont use icons, I can do iconless threads. If my formatting is too small, obnoxious, or hard to read, let me know! And I'll change to whatevers easiest to read. Want something short and sweet, mostly dialogue based? I can do that too. I go with the flow

* You don’t have to match my length in posts! sometimes i can write far too much when i get really into writing (and alternatively not write enough), so don’t feel obligated or pressured to follow suit by any means! whatever you are comfortable with is totally okay! it’s not a contest, this is all for fun.

G R A P H I C S / C R E D I T

* all icons and graphics are created by me unless stated otherwise

* icon psd by plutocommissions

* border by venuscomissions

Thank you sm for taking the time to read!

[unapologeticallybella]

I Don’t Look Like J-Lo but Someone is Gonna Love Me Anyway

TW: Body Dysmorphia/ E.D   

   I’m going to go ahead and say, I am so happy I am not a notably attractive person. I’m not saying I’m ugly in the slightest but you know what I’m talking about. Those people where their attractiveness is one of their defining traits. Like you mention their name and almost always someone responds with, “Oh, the pretty one.” Yeah that’s not my story and that probably won’t ever be me. What I’ve noticed about those kinds of people is that almost always their personality suffers in some way shape or form. I’m not saying notably pretty people can’t have a good personality but basically yes, it’s rare. So when you don’t get to lean into your beauty, you tend to lean on other things like humor, kindness, intelligence; Oh, did I mention humor? One of my earliest memories is being around six years old, waking up in the middle of the night in a god damn panic. I ran to my mom hysterically crying. I said, “I don’t wanna be ugly.” I couldn’t really tell you what she said because I genuinely don’t remember. Obviously it didn’t make me feel better because here we are sixteen years later and I still wake up with that panic from time to time, only now I just don’t wake anyone up to hear me cry about it (that sounds a lot darker than I intended for it to.) Anyway, what I’m saying here is that I’ve always struggled with the way I look. 

   We all have that voice in our head that tells us we look like shit, that we shouldn’t post certain pictures, and that everyone else sees what we see; I swear sometimes I’d just rather stay home. I know everyone looks back at their old pictures and thinks “Wow, why was I so insecure, I looked fucking amazing.” It’s a pretty common thing, I know. For some of us that voice inside our head is a bit louder and a lot more persistent, mine was very cruel and eventually it just kind of took me over. I’ve never really talked about what I dealt with because I did it so privately; partly out of guilt because I knew I was harming myself and secondly because it was something for me to control and I didn’t want to lose that. I think I was eleven when someone else commented on my weight for the first time, I was 115 pounds. That’s when it started. I would go through these spells of not eating, restrictive diets, the obsessive calorie counting; no one noticed. This continued on and off for years, I love food so fucking much that it eventually turned into bingeing and then starving myself for the day, then bingeing again. Eventually I gained weight because my hunger would just build up, my cravings would just get stronger and I would lose every time; I’d binge. I would eat so fucking much. I could eat entire pizzas within 15 minutes, boxes of Oreos, bowls of cereal, tubs of ice cream, blocks of cheese; it’s absurd how fast I could eat it all. I was obsessed with diets, skinny detox teas, meal replacements were my favorite, and I loved watching my fitness pal tell me how much I could lose if I maintained the low calorie intake. My junior year, I tried making myself throw up for the first time. It was such an easy way to get rid of the guilt I felt for eating that much food, it helped me maintain the weight for a while. I really wasn’t under the impression that it was a problem because I wouldn’t do it often, only when I lost control and ate enough for me to feel fucking disgusting.

   You could say it might be emotional eating but what I’ve come to learn is that sadness absorbs my ability to feel hunger; it’s kinda great if you have a fucking problem like mine. My first breakup, I couldn’t eat solid foods for a few weeks; I genuinely only ate a cup of yogurt a day and Cheez-its when I felt like passing out. I lost weight immediately. It made me feel so powerful; I loved the feeling of hearing that I looked good. What’s crazy is that the power only lasts so long before that voice inside tells you still look like a troll. I look back at these pictures where I clearly look small and tiny but in that moment I promise you; I didn’t see that in the slightest, I couldn’t. My senior year, I got better for a while. I was the biggest I had ever been, and I felt like everyone could notice; I thought my curves looked weird and the way my body just held fat in the worst places made me want to die sometimes. I did crash diets on and off that year; I was extremely self conscious and hated the way I looked. I moved to New York, and I had started taking Ritalin (prescribed okay kids.)  Three weeks in, I forgot to eat for a little over two days. I genuinely did not feel hunger in my body. I was outside a hotel during fashion week, waiting for Kylie Jenner to show up when I had a full blown paranoid delusion. I called my mom thinking a bomb was going off. “Mom, I’m looking right at this cop and he looks fucking worried, Mom. Get me on a plane I need to come home right now. Something is happening, there are loud noises.” Then she tried to calm me down, she asked when the last time I ate was and when I tried to think back I was like, “Oh shit that bagel I had was literally two full days ago.” Yeah, so I stopped taking Ritalin, I think that would have been a dangerous combo for me.

   I struggle to call it an eating disorder because I never looked sick; it didn’t ruin my life; it didn’t hurt me (I don’t think) but I definitely wasn’t healthy. I think that was my turning point; I was tired of feeling weak all the time; I was tired of obsessing; I was so burnt out from all of it and I decided I wanted to stop it all completely. I eventually gained over sixty pounds over two years, it’s been a fucking nightmare let me tell you. Every day, I struggle with my body and what goes on inside my head. I tell myself awful things; I know that it’s not good, but it doesn’t really go away. I fight so hard to not fall down that path because I don’t want that for me; I don’t know how bad I could get and that scares me. I went out of my way for the past two years to prove to myself that I didn’t have a problem anymore by constantly treating myself with food. It’s like every time I ate a shit ton and I didn’t throw up was a success but then at the same time it wasn’t. Turns out that guilt manifests in different ways and it’ll find its way to you. I’ve gotten to the point where I know the weight gain is noticeable, I feel like people think the awful things I do; So I did the only thing I knew how, laugh it off. Humor baby! Self deprecation is my middle name, sweetie. 

   I know I joke a lot about the way I look and the weight I’ve gained, it’s all light-hearted, but it actually gets pretty dark in this neck of the woods. Body dysmorphia is a mean bitch; She didn’t even allow me to enjoy my skinny days, talk about a shitty time. I used to do this thing where I would wash my hands on the right side of the sink just to avoid being in front of a mirror; “I just don’t wanna ruin my day, ” I’d always say. Anyone who knows me knows I’ve always used the same 2 inch mirror when doing my makeup because “looking at my whole face all at once is overwhelming.” You did not want to be around me when I couldn’t find that mirror, now that was a full-blown panic attack. I’m trying to be kinder to myself, now that doesn’t mean I won’t still make self-deprecating jokes but I’m trying to unlearn that shit. I go through body positive phases where I force myself to look at myself and find things I like. I unfollow Instagram models sometimes but it doesn’t matter; pretty people are everywhere baby. Every day is a god damn battle with myself; I can look at in the mirror and say “Hey you look good today” out loud but that bitch inside my head is screaming “You look like Shrek dumbass.” Having a past where men weren’t all that nice to me; I have an inherent feeling that if I was prettier, a lot of the things that happened to me maybe wouldn’t have (Come to find out even the hottest people get cheated on too, sick world we live in.) You know I’ve spent so many years comparing myself to other women because of something some asshole did to make me feel insecure; I always fall short so I’m done doing that now. Sometimes I worry that even if I lose the weight or if I cosmetically change the things I don’t like, that voice still won’t go away. Then what? What if I’m never happy with myself regardless of the ways I can change my appearance, I mean there’s a pretty good chance that could happen. So I’ve decided that I need to find a way to fall in love with myself the way I am right now. 

   People always preach “love yourself” and all that shit, but it’s so hard when it’s just you alone with your thoughts. Feeling love for yourself is arguably one of the most difficult things you’ll ever learn to do, it takes a kind of strength I’m trying to find. I will say, I do think the way I feel about myself has projected itself onto my relationships and in-turn sabotaged them. I have always required a certain amount of reassurance and affection from my partners which I’m sure can be draining but I forgive myself for that now. I have so much love for others that it just pours out of me uncontrollably and somehow I can’t find a way to feel that love for myself; it’s quite the problem to hauve. I’m learning to protect myself from that voice inside of me; I avoid things that I know will trigger me and cause me to spiral. I’ve been trying to lose the weight I gained these past two years, but for the first time I’m addressing the inner work. I acknowledge my weaknesses, I know my vices, I know myself better than ever now and that makes all the difference. Last December I forced myself to pick a form of exercise and like it, so I picked cycling. The first time I took a class, I actually catapulted out of the bike. I felt like the biggest idiot, but I tricked myself into enjoying the class. I just told myself that I would feel like one of those people who thinks spin is equivalent to a morning cup of coffee and eventually that’s how I genuinely felt.  Now it’s been almost a year since I made that choice and I’m so happy I forced myself out of bed. After the breakup, my mom really wanted me to start yoga to “soothe my anxiety” and it did surprisingly. It’s amazing what you can do for your body by just taking time to just sit there in silence and think about nothing. Sometimes when it’s that quiet, feelings come up and before you know it you’re on the beach on a yoga mat crying in the arms of your yoga instructor. These past six months, I have healed things inside of myself that I genuinely didn’t know where there. It’s been a mixture of therapy, cycling, yoga, listening to my body, forgiving myself, forgiving others and learning to love the parts of me that I don’t (oh and just not eating Chick-fil-a so fucking much.) This picture is me in my favorite pair of jeans, I bought them almost exactly a year ago and when I bought them they were snug and now this is what I’m working with. Is it sad that my favorite pair of jeans don’t fit me anymore? Hell yeah but I can finally say I can feel and see a difference in my body now. 

   So no, I probably won’t ever look like J-Lo and that’s okay. I’m probably always going to struggle with these issues and I will probably have that voice inside of me forever. But someone is gonna look at me and feel so fucking lucky; and it won’t just be because of the way I look. It’s going to be because of the way I make them laugh and the way love just pours out of me uncontrollably. Most importantly, when that love pours, it will be for me too. 

[whosxafraid]

little bitty tiny rant psa 

if u ever decide to publicly or privately approach me, and accuse me of this sticky gross thing called ‘rp favoritism’ here’s a list of what will happen.

1. i will drop any and all threads with you. 2. i will block u so fast u won’t get a word in edge wise.

accusing people of ‘rp favortism’ is fuckin’ bogus, dudes. rp is not a job. no one is getting paid for this shit. its a hobby. and what does that mean?

1. you dont owe anyone on this site anything as far as rp goes, and they dont owe you. 

even if u plot things out and talk over the finer points. if they never reply to your starter? guess what? that’s just how it goes sometimes. move the hell on. and if you never reply to theirs? don’t let that make you feel like ur worthless and horrible. ur not. things just fizzled out. IT HAPPENS.

even if the thread goes back and forth several times and then they stop replying? THAT’S OKAY. And it’s also OKAY for you to stop replying too.

if someone drops a thread with you because of lack of inspiration, but continues on with someone else’s thread? don’t sit there and try to make urself feel better by accusing them a favoritism. that is literally not up for discussion here. favoritism is a nasty ass word and shouldn’t be used when referring to RP. ever.ever.EVER.

people can write with who they like, when they like, as often as they damn fucking like. and it is literally nobody’s damn business who that is. Not every pair of muns or muses or any combination there of work. Just like not every fruit in the universe taste good mixed together. and not every spice works for every dish. like would really put salt in an apple pie, cookies or a cake? bitch that shit would taste awful. if you’ve never had salt cake make one sometime and take a big ol’ bite. I guarantee you will gag and you will understand in GRAVE detail what i’m trying to say here.

2. as an RP’er it is perfectly within your right to drop any thread at any point for literally A N Y reason, without guilt or shame. ANY reason, my dudes. 

do not let people guilty you into keeping something that you have no muse/inspiration for.

but i can hear some asking, ‘but crow what do i do if they won’t leave me alone about it?’

unfollow. soft block. full on block if they don’t take the hint. your muse and your writing is meant to be enjoyed BY you not to become something you dread/or makes you feel terrible every time you look at your drafts/draft count.

3. DO NOT GUILT SHAME PEOPLE ABOUT DROPPING THREADS WITH YOU.

don’t do it.

don’t

be

that

dick

if things aren’t progressing or things constantly get dropped -elsa vc- LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. 

move on find another partner that works better for your speed and depth.

4. when drafts get out of control. 

scroll through them with your muse. 

decide what you, ur inspiration, and ur muse want to continue. 

everything else? DROP it. 

delete it from your drafts.

and my suggestion: send and ask letting the mun know that ‘hey i’ve lost muse for this thread. sorry about that. I’m gonna have to drop it.’ most people get it. most people wont think less of you because guess wat? i bet there’s drafts they wanna drop too because of lack of inspiration. or lack of whatever else gets their wording going.

one of the largest murderers of inspiration is being overwhelmed with drafts that are never going to get done because of a lack of interest/inspiration/ muse/ whatever else you wanna call it.

5. no inspiration for anything?

step away from your blog.

watch a movie.

watch a show.

get something to eat.

talk to someone around you, phone/IM a friend.

read a book.

take a walk outside.

GET SOME SLEEP.

knit.

go make an edit.

lay on your bed/couch/floor/fave chair and listen to music u love.

make yourself a cup of tea/coffee.

bake something (i do this a lot)

go snuggle with ur s.o. or ur pet.

do anything else you enjoy doing aside from writing.

do multiples of these if you want before you come back.

your brain is a muscle and like all ur other muscles the damn thing needs a break now and then. it works harder 24/7 to keep everything else running okay. it needs some TLC too.

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in closing....rp’ing is a hobby and pass time you should enjoy. it shouldn’t self destruct over who owes who what. nobody owes anybody else anything ever. drop what you need to drop. if someone accuses you of favoritism, remind them its your blog, your muse and u write what you want, when you want, how you want, with who you want. and do NOT let them bully you into believing you are a horrible human being just because you lost muse/inspiration/whatever it is for a thread and can’t continue it.

this is 2019 people. lets fucking act like we’re at least trying to be better humans yea?