#uploading fic in a bit

[nobluesea]

A blow straight through the heart.

Fic so good it ended me my art slump

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[sboochi]

Hypotetical meet-cute that turns into Jack questioning his life and Hiccup wondering who the frick is that guy staring at him from across the street

[erinwantstowrite]

trying not to be stressed about your silly foreshadowing bc it will be 15 years before we get it/lh

i can't even be mad because the spoiler is for something in fic 3 and you might be right 💔

[randomyuu]

i keep the warmest truth.

Well you look at that. Another comic hahahaha why did I do this to myself—

But I do enjoy drawing this comic! It was a different kind of challenge, where this one focuses a lot on close-ups, so I need to learn about the subtlety of expressions. Can’t say I learn a lot (I use lots of copy-pasting of the same position lmao), but I still learn... something!

This beautiful one-shot fic is titled i keep the warmest truth by Dehawny. If I have to summarise the fic, it’s basically Ace!Gojou and Adorable!Yuuji. It's more like gray ace but better keep the “A” going, haha. And as usual, the fic is NSFW, so please do read the tags before you decide to give it a read.

Ace!Gojou is something I don’t know I need. I think I love almost every kind of Gojou headcanons, but Ace!Gojou holds a special place in my heart. I could be biased as someone in the ace spectrum, but the way Dehawny wrote Gojou and Yuuji’s interaction is truly heartwarming. And also a bit possessive, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Possessive Gojou is my jam.

And Yuuji. Oh, dear lord where do I even start with this boy. I don’t have enough vocabularies to express how much I adore Yuuji. Him being his horny teen-self and constantly worrying about making the pleasure mutual is too much for my heart. And he’s still understanding of Gojou’s sexuality. Yuuji is kind, like that. Don’t mind me as I’m crying out happy tears in the corner.

Alrighty, below are my thoughts as I drew this, as usual haha:

After I got a taste with comic-making from my previous GoYuu comic, this one is a bit easier to plan once I narrowed down the scene I want to draw. I wanted the comic to start with Gojou positioning himself and Yuuji in the futon, bringing up Yuuji’s question weeks ago, but that means I have to draw 10+ pages and I was like, “haha nope”. I still love my hands, thank you very much. So I start with Yuuji’s reaction after Gojou explains a bit about his sexuality.

Panelling is still a struggle. In a way that I still feel that the layout can be improved, but I can’t for the life of me figured out what needs to be improved. I guess this kind of thing will come eventually, but not now.

During the sketching, I must say I got super hyped drawing Gojou’s eyes. That eye close-up? I really want to try making it as ethereal as possible in an achromatic setting. It’s intimidating, don’t get me wrong, but I have always loved drawing eyes since I was a kid and this is a fun thing to test my love for eyes.

If I have to complain… it would be the intimate position of them laying on the futon. I never really try drawing “couple-like” positions before, but it was really hard! Like, holy shit, can you guys stop being so awkward looking? Where the hell did I draw it wrong??? Thankfully references have helped me a lot with positioning.

The line art took sooo much time because I realise I want to make Gojou and Yuuji more… buff (kinda) so I need to re-sketch a bit :(( but the result is better than the previous one, so I’ll take what I can get haha. And I start to really like using screentones for shading—once I properly learn how to do manga layout, I think I might fall in love with drawing mangas!

But overall, this is a fun process to do, and I hope you enjoy the comic and this rambling of mine! :D

[sad-leon]

hey what if i wrote a fic 👀

featuring a doodle i have of him:

[causenessus]

hi! i'll keep this short

i came to the realization everytime i've disappeared from tumblr to "take a break" i never really have because of other things going on in my life (which, duh, this isn't my whole life) but! i also realized that if i never actually take the time to recover and rest and think about things i should be writing i'll never feel better. so! i'm (once again)(but now more formally) going on hiatus until maybe may! i might pop in for spring break or earlier if i feel like it, but until then, not really any writing from me! with that being said, i'll still be around, doting on my moots (i.e. like, dorothea <3 wyr <3 and bug <3) because i love them so much and i will probably also post chapters of present ever so often! the reason being (i'm going to try to make this make sense but it may only make sense to me but i'm aware of how contradicting i am to me five seconds ago when i said i need to take a break from writing) present is a very personal fic for me that i've worked on for years at this point. what i'm posting now are chapters i wrote months ago after I've read over and edited them (or in the case of the upcoming chapter, i did randomly add it in and had to write it from the ground up last week lmao) but if it isn't obvious, present is a work i'm very passionate about and am just posting in case anyone else enjoys it but it feels like it's a work that is very individualized just for me and it doesn't cause me any stress or anxiety. on the topic of individualization, although i am of course so so thankful for all of the support and people that follow me, i do sort of miss when my blog and world were a lot smaller. it's something i feel like i only get when i get to reply to people in comments, but other than that, all the numbers and people on my feed give me a lot of anxiety. the hq (smau fandom especially) fandom or at least how much i'm (was) involved in it has grown exponentially and of course i'm happy about that but it's a bit too much for me. i'll be taking a huge step back from the fandom and any hq works i've written at least in the meantime, but that's not to say they'll never be finished! but i either need to grow to handle the bigger audience that now reads my works or wait for things to grow a little smaller again :) i hope to still be able to read my moots works but forgive me if it takes me a bit or i never get to them! i think at the least i'll still like them to show my support <3 thank you if you read my long ramble! i love you all <3

oh also i'll probably post self ship moodboards and the beginning of my reading list (thank you again dorothea for the idea <3)! but again, I think you get the idea by now; I want to go back to doing this for me! so this is a tiny little goodbye now i'm leaving for you all with forehead kisses and flowers and love notes and mwah <3 i'll see you around!

[gloomyshoujo]

Ark! More old art from years ago.x_x The chibi comic is pretty much the only reason why I bothered scanning this at all.:-V I do find the rest of the page very bleh and I didn't want to share it but idkkk I figured I might as well;;; (I also recently coloured it, which was fun!)

The comic might be familiar to another Jetko doodle I did!:-) As for the bottom part, I don't watch/read MH/A at all, but there was a cute fic where Zuko was sort of a big bro to Todoroki and his other siblings. There's a few of them out there, but I can't remember which one of em specifically inspired said doodle, sowwy.;3; And the purple-ish one is just a Howl AU lol.

[ancha-aus]

RealAgeAU Drabble - Parentalbond Horror

*grinning* I am baaaaaaaack!! @spotaus get over here :D

So. I had the difficult choice on which drabble i wanted to write so For now I settled on this one because I haven't had the chance to write a drabble with Horror's pov since a while and that is a crime.

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As always we go in unbeta'ed and unedited.

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Horror checks the windows again before turning back to the couch and seeing Nightmare just staring at him.

Horror tils his skull "sleep will be easier if you actually lay down...." And he looks pointedly at the couch.

Nightmare gains that stubborn glint in his sockets again as he huffs "I am fine. Not tired at all." he looks at the pile of bags in the corner of the room wishfully.

Horror has to keep his chuckling inside as he answers "Shame then that it is bedtime for young skeletons." And adult skeletons. Horror glances at the other three. All KO on the other couch, all still dressed in their normal clothes and none of them actually finished their meals.

Horror will have to pack up the leftovers. Make sure nothing goes to waste. But he will let them sleep for now and just make them eat a big breakfast. But all three had been running themselves ragged lately. Especially after the last encounter they had had with the Stars.

It meant they have been making more jumps and teleports and not going out as much to collect things to make it easier for them.

Horror walks over to them and puts one of the blankets in this apartment over them, he doesn't bother to try and pull them away from one another. The four of them always had the habit of sleeping in a pile and that habit only got worse once they started searching for Nightmare and reclaimed him.

Horror checks Ngihtmare's plate and smiles "You finished it all today." No wonder he is grumpier and more active than usual.

Nightmare pulls a face and crosses his arms. Horror walks over and nudges him at his shoudler "Sleep time." and he waits.

Nightmare grumbles more as he pushes the blankets and pillows around. Horror just crosses his arms as he waits. Nightmare huffs but lays his skull down on the pillow and glares at him.

Horror knows he is grinning but he is proud to say he doesn't actually snort or laugh at the grumpy face Nightmare is pulling. instead he moves closer slowly, the first week of watching Nightmare flinch at every movement and sound had been horrible, and puts the blanket over him as well.

Nightmare doesnt complain about it. Most likely becuase he just saw Horror do the same for the other three.

Horror nods and sits by him "Time to sleep." it is his turn to keep watch and he plans on taking ti seriously.

Nightmare huffs but just turns his face further into the pillow. Tiny body starting to relax with the simple comforts.

Horror tries to not be obvious as he keeps an eye on Nightmare.

Horror knows of course what is going on and he is trying to not give in. At least one of them should not give into the adopting.

Horror can admit he had been surprised that Dust was the first one to actually soul adopt Nightmare. Especially after only a week. It had been so fast and the transition between the before and after state had been so smoothly that Horror had honestly thought that Dust had done it on purpose and planned.

It would have made sense. Dust had been the one to find the book first and been the one to actually manage to get Nightmare back to them.

Only for it to become obvious that Dust had no idea what he had just done.

Soul adoption is a rather normal thing for monsters to do. Though in most universes they rarely happened as monsters don't tend to abandon children.

But well, Horror's AU had been one with starvation and a lot of fighting. People lost their lives in multiple ways. That meant quite a few orphans.

Soul adoption happened when an adult monster willingly took the role as caretaker for a younger monster who doesn't have a caretaker. There are a few more factors obviously but Horror doesn't know all of them of the top of his skull, especially not now with that hole in it.

What it comes down to? Nightmare is an orphan and has no one he could go to that could take care of them, and all of them know this. Dust found out first and surprisingly his soul was open enough to the idea to accept Nightmare as... well... his.

There are more hurdles in this situation of course. The fact that they Nightmare they knew was an adult, which is what Horror thinks is tripping up Cross. But Dust had been very quick with accepting that Nightmare is now a child and so immediantly treated him as one.

Killer took a bit longer but quickly fell into step as well. Calling Nightmare tiny boss and going from his right-hand-man to his babysitter, Killer's words not Horror's.

Horror is however a bit surprised that Killer also soul adopted Nightmare. In theory it shouldn't have happened as Nightmare at this time already had Dust as his caretaker and so technically didn't need one anymore.

Seems like Killer's soul didn't agree with that.

Horror can't say a lot about it though, seeing as he can feel it happening with himself as well. And he has no doubt that Cross is very close to giving into his own instincts and feelings concerning this as well.

The whole thing with their last interaction with the Stars is a very big give away. Even if Cross felt very embarresed by his own reaction.

At least Nightmare is no truly convinced that they won't harm him and will help him. Horror is happy they managed to get there and with it having only been a month since they took him with them. Horror can say they did a good job.

Nightmare has falled asleep.

Horror move slowly and silently and puts two fingers to the the side of his small belly and feels.

Horror may not have a lot of magic himself but his AU was left him with a very useful skill. Wiht how little food there was available and how little magic there was there came issues. One of the issues was that after a while the magic monsters had wasn't strong enough anymore to digest the food that the mosnters did manage to eat. meaning that even if the monster ate food they would not get any energy or new magic from it.

Meaing that even if they ate they would continue to starve.

Wiht how difficult it had been for Nightmare at first to eat or even remember to eat Horror had worried something simular may have happened. That being in the goop form had caused his own magic to grow too weak to be able to function fully.

But all Horror feels is the soft and quiet purr of NIghtmare's magic working hard to use the offered food to rebuild the babybones' small reserves.

Horror sighs a sigh or relieve and just watches Nightmare for a moment. Nightmare, having noticed the pressure on him, makes an unhappy sound and his socket flutters open to give him a sour look.

Horror chuckles as he whispers "I apologise." Horror is unsure how clear his answer is as Horror himself is purring like a loud law mower at this point.

Nightmare blinks at him, still looking like the tiniest little grumpy skeleton this multiverse has ever known, before closing his sockets again and turning on his side. surprisingly not away from the touch and light hold.

Horror watches the other. It is strange. They are all different yet Nightmare still has them all completely under his control. Yet it is in a completely different way and Ngihtmare now doesn't even seem to realise it.

Horror leans on the couch and watches their tiny charge just sleep. Horror had managed to keep the need to complete an adoption at bay by reminding himself that Nightmare already had a caretaker- well two and a half now, Horror is sure that all Cross still needs to complete the soul adoption is a tiny nudge. Horror thinks that Cross is jsut thinking too much about it and doubting his own instincts and feelings.

But that still leaves Horror, and what he wants to do. He figured that it would be better to at least keep one of them unbiased in this nature, just in case that Nightmare suddenly turns into an adult again. But the longer this went on the less likely it seemed to Horror.

Not to forget. Horror doesn't even think Nightmare wants to be an adult again. Not now that he is a child but doens't have to vigilent every moment of every day.

Does he technically already have caretakers? Yes. Does Horror still want to count himself as one? Yes.

So. He just picks for himself.

Horror moves slowly and quietly as he picks Nightmare up. Nightmare grumbles in his sleep at being moved but calms when his magic recognises Horror.

Horror gets comfortable on the couch and lays Nightmare on his sternum. He can still feel the tiny soul beat and pulse fast even through two shirts.

Horror pulls the blanket back over Nightmare and waits.

It doesn't take long as Horror can feel the slight pull on his magic and energy. Hardly noticable and Horror doubts that if he wasn't so paranoid about his own levels he would have noticed.

It is something tiny monsters do. To help stabalise and sharp their own magic they try to take tiny bits of their parents, or caretakers in this case, to help guide them. It all happens naturally.

Horror just holds the tiny babybones closer and feesl Ngihtmare's soul slowly start to match Horror's own soulbeat and he feels all the calmer.

Now it is pretty much done. Horror will have to probably deal with this decision one day but for now he is happy. Their tiny babybones is comfortable and everyone is resting. Tomorrow they will have to worry about getting supplies and where they can go and eventually where they will sleep that night.

But right now? Right now he doesn't have to worry about that. and all he ahs to worry about is that their babybones is comfortable and healing.

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[cuz-reasons]

Summary: Emmet wakes up late for work.

rip Emmet's unathletic ass at the start of this

[doodlinge]

(throws this at you and scurries away)

[fosermi]

Quick doodle before the day had started earlier, for some reason I woke up and chose Eclipse angst.

Anyway, here's eclipse dealing with grief about loosing his adoptive children in the Sacrofoced chaos au. He keeps picking up kids but because they're not immortal like him, time always claims them.

[courfee]

do you have an upload schedule for ritardando? :)

i dont! its currently roughly every two-ish weeks plus minus a few days going for tuesday or thursday uploads, so you can vaguely anticipate when the next chapter is coming :)

[pine-needle-shuffle]

Memory

"Have you ever thought about being like them?"

"Huh?" Gaze shifting from the ocean view of Junon, Cloud gave Zack a puzzled look.

"Y'know. The-" Zack made a spinning motion with his hand, face contorted in thought. "The Harpies. It seems so...free up there."

Looking back out to sea, they watched as winged soldiers took flight, soaring gracefully away from port. "Yeah, I guess."

"'You guess', come on Cloud! Can you imagine? With wings like those we could go anywhere. And like, they're heroes!" Zacks hands moved wildly, caught up in his own excitement. "Isn't that why we joined? To be like them?"

Clouds eyes drifted down to his own hands, which rested over the rail, and tilted his head a bit. 'In a way.'

"Geal says I'm talking nonsense, something about how the weight those wings carry will crush you. And, obviously that there's no way I could have them anyway." With a pout, he leaned his face into his palm, brows crossed in annoyance.

Cloud snickered to himself, "I think Commander Hewley might be right on this one."

Zack turned abruptly, feigned hurt written across his face, mouth agape in offense. He took Cloud in with the nook of his elbow, ruffling his hair. "Oh, your taking his side now? Traitor."

Act faltering, Zack couldn't help but laugh, a grin running ear to ear by the time he let go. Bumping shoulders, the two look back out, watching the sun slowly disappear behind the sea. "I'm still right, though."

Cloud shook his head. "Sure."

~~~

With a jolt, Cloud was roused from his sleep. 'Ocean must be rough today.' Untangling his wings from the hammock, he did his best to flip himself onto his back, and stared at the ceiling.

"I'm gonna kill him."

[inkblackorchid]

Hello! Love your work! So, after Ember is finished (by the way, how is that going? Any expected date of release? Do hope it's going well) Or when you find time, would you ever consider writing about the early times of yusei and aki's relationship? It would be really cute!

Hi, and thanks, glad to hear it!

As far as my fic plans are concerned, there are at least two more fics I want to write to complete Aki's arc after I finish Embers. (Though I have also been considering putting those on the back burner for a little while to give Carly some attention again in between.) So those are probably what I would seamlessly transition to writing once Embers has a full first draft. That said, I have thought about early YuAki relationship shenanigans before and will most likely do so again, so yeah, I could see myself writing them during that awkward phase at the start where two people who don't know much about dating (Aki on account of being ostracised, Yusei on account of Satellite) start dating. I think it would be very sweet and I have several ideas for scenarios I could write. (Some of which might be in my fic idea backlog already, I haven't checked in a hot minute.)

(And re: Embers. Just for you, here's the current word count of chapter 12:

So the fic's still continuing just fine. I never really stop working on it, anyway, since I have a habit of writing daily, progress is just a little slow atm because I'm also trying to give my own, original works some attention and because I've got other, less creative, more real-life-responsibilities work to stay on top of. Still, Embers grows steadily longer. Sadly can't give you a release date though, because if this fic has taught me anything, then that every time I think I can estimate how much more I need to write, it will get away from me again. My current estimate is that I need at least 8 more chapters to finish this. So I'll just keep on trucking and try to keep you guys posted.)

[actuallyjustabiscuit]

Excerpt from my revised Ch. 1 of Sweet Sorrow

Why did I agree to let him come along?

When Pomni had announced that he would join them, Ragatha was immediately concerned about whether Caine would object in some way. But helping the NPC was clearly important to her, and Ragatha would’ve done anything to make her feel better after everything that had happened. She would’ve done anything to keep her smiling, to make her feel more at home.

Her progress was as short-lived as poor Gummigoo.

She hates me now. She has to. Why wouldn’t she? It’s all my fault. I should’ve known better. Why did I think he would have lasted longer than he was meant to exist? Why did I think this day could’ve been different? Why, why, why am I so useless to her?

Kaufmo’s framed portrait beamed at her from his funeral altar. A friendly face that became another reminder of someone she had failed. The despondent ragdoll held in a breath she didn’t need for the lungs she didn’t have for a body that was arguably no more real than Gummigoo was. As if to simulate the sudden suffocating feeling that overcame her.

Just how long until it’s Pomni’s picture? How long until you’ll have to hold a funeral for her?

Try as she might, Ragatha couldn’t stop her mind from veering in a direction she’d been desperately avoiding.

What if she’s not the one who goes next? What if you break before she does? Surely you can’t keep this up for much longer.

Letting herself breathe again did the opposite of helping. It quickly became shallow and erratic, chest heaving and shoulders shaking uncontrollably, making her feel dizzier.

Huh, what then? When it’s time to say a few words in honor of your sorry excuse for a life, would she say anything good about you? In fact, would any of them?

In a blink, Kaufmo’s face was replaced with hers, also smiling. Always smiling like nothing was wrong. Except, she always seemed to be what was wrong.

Honestly, is there anything good to say about you?

[suusoh]

I'm not able to fully respond to anyone right now, in the event I post something, it's with the intent of just removing it out of my drafts.

But I'd like to let the anon who sent their very long, honest, heartfelt, and overall very moving ask that I have received it and that my askbox, thankfully, didn't gobble up such a wonderful message. I'd like to give you a proper and equally heartfelt response when I am able my dear anon <3 along with other thoughtful asks sent on this blog or the other.