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crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington · 2 months

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wake up wintersberg nation

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blushft · 8 months

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just looked in a mirror. why did no one tell me how fucking HOT i am???!?!?!?!

#so detached from my own body that i become attracted to myself #i dont see it as me - i see it as that hot guy who exists in my camera app and in most bathrooms #cws??#derealization #depersonalization #if this needs any more lmk #this is a normal trans experience yes??#not seeing me as me but thinking my reflection is hot??#because i see it as some weird boygirl in the mirror but thats not what i am...#I ALSO... god ok i look at my stereotypically “masculine” friends and.. i feel dysphoria from it??#like theyre so tall and big and deep voiced and shit and i either feel like a TWINK or a chick #idk which is worse #SLASH JOKING no offense to twinks or women....#also if ur still reading these tags and ur trans pls help.#is this normal or am i being a bit of a freak.#ianriley

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yunogf · 8 months

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i feel so bad for jaehyun :(

#like . how scary &eerie that must be :((#rmbr how freaked he was when fans knew abt his broken toe #also very weird to me that girlie doesn't seem bothered like?? ur not ok in the head??#cannot wrap my mind around her logic/thinking/mindset like . we dont believe u 😭#sm would not be seeking legal action if they wwre actually friends w her #&its like girl if thats the case don't call the law undergrads like just call jaehyun 👀#mindboggling #out here talking abt how she has soooo many cute stories w the neos she could be sharing if nctzens weren't weirdos #the call is coming from inside the house #hope jaehyun had a good day today :(

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sanchoyo · 1 year

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i start that new job tomorrow 😶 ...

#... im not sure if itll be a full day or just 'more paperwork/general tour/training' tho kinda hopin for maybe like a half day TwT;;#im very nervous and considering taking one of the old anxiety meds i still have #from when i was in therapy. except idk if theyre still in date + they made me feel like a zombie which is why i stopped taking them lol #like i was SO out of it on them. but would that be preferable 2 the feeling of Soon Entering Cardiac Arrest levels of anxiety im having rn?#maybe...#+ going to take a sleeping pill around 10 to make sure i dont stay up all night freaking myself out #jkdkjfhjjk can my brain be normal about this. i havent even started the job yet calm down!!! calm down!!! its ok!!!!#i just feel so bad bc everyone has been rly nice. like 'omg yay u found a chill job w insurance RIGHT before u get kicked off urs thats #great ik youll do well!!' and its like well what if i DONT do well what if i freak out again. and self sabotage. then what. like i KNOW #its bad and i KNOW what i SHOULD be doing but its like herding geese over here in my brain zone. painful and bad and i dont understand why #things happen at all its confusing and frustrating to deal with #logically i know i need a job. i need to pay my debts and start saving and I WANT to move out! but its like that fine dining and breathing #scene from spongebob. brain on fire. lol #sanchoyorambles

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orcelito · 6 months

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read a fic earlier that's just like infiltrated my brain. i am thinking about it so fucking much. i keep remembering it and kicking my feet and giggling like an anime schoolgirl over some severely undernegotiated hardcore bdsm smut like MAN it was neither safe nor sane but it SURE WAS FUN.......................

#speculation nation #me so thoroughly enjoying the angst and the sadomasochism in the fic and being like #oooooooh so Thats why my writing is like that................#like i been knew ykno i fucking Love making my characters suffer #but the utter Glee that this fic makes me feel. it makes ITNL 15 Make Sense lmfao #drawing hearts in my mind's eye around the concept of branding initials over the Eye's tattoo and also accidentally breaking his neck.#like Whoopsie! sorry. heres ur juice. ur better now. Heart #ok but real talk vash doing Whatever ww wants without regard to what HE wants so that ww is having a fucking religious experience over here #but vash ends up rly freaked out bc of uhhhhhhhh well ya kno he sure did accidentally take that Pretty Far Huh #but he had his juice he's better now. but also vash is like 'ok if we do anything like this again we r gonna do this My way'#which is understandable! and how things should be for them to both have fun with it.#but also im just obsessed with everything about this fic. vash freaking out afterwards and just totally breaking down #like OUGHHHHHHHHHHHH it's so fucking good. it's so much fun. i will be thinking about this fic for my Entire fucking life

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bonyato · 1 year

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Sorry abt the occasional digiposting as of late, im coming to terms w/ the fact that it's starting to grow on me orz

#clenches fists.#wondertext #I started watching it w/ some friends recently..for nostalgia reasons in their case‚ but also to introduce me 2 the franchise as well #since it never rly was part of my childhood & i was curious as to what the fuss was all about hsjwjfj #Anyways i never rly took the events all that seriously since I thought shit was so off the wall it was funny But #after nearly 24 episodes i've found myself getting emotionally invested w/ the show at last 😭😭 it's been a journey #ive been progressively getting accustomed to all of its strange concepts . I think im desensitized at this point /lh #like evn the monsters themselves now have me like..ok...Youre not so bad after all. u got a creepy-cute kinda thing goin on &i respect that #(<- Used to find their designs unpleasant. still do a little bit even now tbh sorry But i do appreciate their uniqueness a whole lot)#But yeah i feel Like ive been put thru an entire character arc w/ this thang .#You should've seen the way i used to freak out during the 1st few episodes Everything was So Insane 2 me. it had me flabbergasted #it was like . Lighthearted charming OP song -> Children having a near-death experience in the most surreal way possible #-> Isekai moment -> We get introduced to the ugliest little beasts i've ever seen #-> They spend the rest of the episode almost dying Again -> beast transform into even Uglier beasts & go feral on each other #-> World's calmest most soothing ED sequence that clashes So Hard w/ the tone that was set during the episode it makes ur brain crash.#and thats more-or-less the formula that's been handled throughout the following episodes up until this point #but i suppose I've grown fond of it by now 🧎 I am a Changed man‚ i See the appeal‚ I Understand #well not rly prbablyBut at least each episode keeps me@the edge of my seat now as opposed 2 how i used to enjoy it in more of an ironic way #'tis nice honestly..I've become more appreciative of the kinda vibe the show handles‚ it's got a lot going on :} It's /insanely/ creative

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transfemlogan · 1 year

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IDK yes ppl hate him 4 lame rzns & it should b talked abt but also i guys should. Spend time outside of the fandom. Maybe. Just bcuz someone calls thomas lame doesnt mean u should cry & piss ur pants over it

#exaggeration. emotions r fine its ok 2 b upset but if ur whole day is ruined bcuz someone hates on ur guy.....#u should. work on that!#& thats coming from a schizo who thinks hes 4 real dating logan & anytime someone makes a joke abt kissing him #he starts shaking & crying & freaks out .#all im saying is 2 take care of urself. ur gonna have emotions. make sure u know how 2 cope w/ them #revy.txt

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sidebaxolotl · 2 years

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Talked to an old college bud and i miss her sm 🥺🥺🥺

And I'm so proud of her! She found a friendgroup at her new church and she's satisfied with her relationship status wherever God decides to take it. Its honestly super encouraging. Shes not side b or anything but shes still valuing platonic relationships and trusting God's plan for her love life 🥺🥰

#i very much would like to be a part of a Christian community of ppl my age again #the fact that she found good buds that love christ is very encouraging to me #like hells yeah its possible to make new friends in ur 20s and not be lonely #also she ids as catholic but she spent college with us(baptists) and now shes at a non denom church #which is basically baptists so. the conversion is coming lmao #also it is so freaking refreshing talking to someone who isnt obsessed with being married and is like 'if it is it will be. and if not'#'its not and thats ok'#like holy fck thank you #i feel like i found a spring in the middle of the desert

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kil9 · 1 year

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whenever creepy guys talk to me i just wanna be like "im a man ykno, youre gay now. fucker"

#99.txt #creepy freak customer today =_=;;#i took his order im like ''will u be getting anything else :)'' hes like ''yeah whatever you want''#keep in mind he is old and gross #im like ''lol. ok so thats it then'' & hes like ''ill get u something. im a nice guy you know !!!'' ha ha 😐 heres ur total. buddy #and i hand him his receipt go ''have a nice day (:'' hes like ''what? you just told me to have a nice day ?''#im like ''yep (:'' he literally goes. ''well how about a nice night?'' EUGH 🤢🤢🤢#im just like ''. ok ..''#he pulls out all the FUCKEN coins #like ''i wanna tip u can i tip u'' im like. ''u can tip. the jar. over there''#one by one the fucking coins. making jokes about it while he goes im like. ok goodbye leave.#before he leaves hes like ''whats your name :)'' im like OHHH MY FUCKING.GOD #and he fucken read it on my nametag before i can cover it or smth =_= buddy GET OUT #then he came back like an hour later too ououoguggh #besties help we need to kill him

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ablednt · 1 year

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I hate OCD cause it'll not leave you alone until you do some compulsion and then it'll be like "ugh look what you did you're disgusting anyway what if you did this other compulsion about it" and it just keeps going like this mental illness is an MLM of bad habits actually

#itll b like ok compulsively trigger.yourself.#then ugh ur so disgostang everyone knows you're a freak who likes your trauma #and I'm like why do i want to wash my hands over this it's not gonna change anything #thats not even a usual compulsion for me

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years

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