#video presentation transcript

[absentlyabbie]

seriously, though. i work in higher education, and part of my job is students sending me transcripts. you'd think the ones who have the least idea how to actually do that would be the older ones, and while sure, they definitely struggle with it, i see it most with the younger students. the teens to early 20s crowd.

very, astonishingly often, they don't know how to work with .pdf documents. i get garbage phone screenshots, sometimes inserted into an excel or word file for who knows what reason, but most often it's just a raw .jpg or other image file.

they definitely either don't know how to use a scanner, don't have access to one, or don't even know where they might go for that (staples and other office supply stores sometimes still have these services, but public libraries always have your back, kids.) so when they have a paper transcript and need to send me a copy electronically, it's just terrible photos at bad angles full of thumbs and text-obscuring shadows.

mind bogglingly frequently, i get cell phone photos of computer screens. they don't know how to take a screenshot on a computer. they don't know the function of the Print Screen button on the keyboard. they don't know how to right click a web page, hit "print", and choose "save as PDF" to produce a full and unbroken capture of the entirety of a webpage.

sometimes they'll just copy the text of a transcript and paste it right into the message of an email. that's if they figure out the difference between the body text portion of the email and the subject line, because quite frankly they often don't.

these are people who in most cases have done at least some college work already, but they have absolutely no clue how to utilize the attachment function in an email, and for some reason they don't consider they could google very quickly for instructions or even videos.

i am not taking a shit on gen z/gen alpha here, i'm really not.

what i am is aghast that they've been so massively failed on so many levels. the education system assumed they were "native" to technology and needed to be taught nothing. their parents assumed the same, or assumed the schools would teach them, or don't know how themselves and are too intimidated to figure it out and teach their kids these skills at home.

they spend hours a day on instagram and tiktok and youtube and etc, so they surely know (this is ridiculous to assume!!!) how to draft a formal email and format the text and what part goes where and what all those damn little symbols means, right? SURELY they're already familiar with every file type under the sun and know how to make use of whatever's salient in a pinch, right???

THEY MUST CERTAINLY know, innately, as one knows how to inhale, how to type in business formatting and formal communication style, how to present themselves in a way that gets them taken seriously by formal institutions, how to appear and be competent in basic/standard digital skills. SURELY. Of course. RIGHT!!!!

it's MADDENING, it's insane, and it's frustrating from the receiving end, but even more frustrating knowing they're stumbling blind out there in the digital spaces of grown-up matters, being dismissed, being considered less intelligent, being talked down to, because every adult and system responsible for them just

ASSUMED they should "just know" or "just figure out" these important things no one ever bothered to teach them, or half the time even introduce the concepts of before asking them to do it, on the spot, with high educational or professional stakes.

kids shouldn't have to supplement their own education like this and get sneered and scoffed at if they don't.

[foxmulderautism]

literally me when i use a scene from the muppet movie as inspo for what is probably the saddest of the lover boy interlude chapters

[anothermonikan]

'In 33 hours this will all be over, whether you do it good or not you wont have to worry about it anymore, cmon Andy, you got this! You got this!' <<< trying to do their last assignment

[kawaiialeisha]

⚠️ WH SPOILERS

WELCOME HOME APRIL 12TH UPDATE ANALYSIS

This is my analysis on the new WH update with the help of many wonderful people in my server!! ^^

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These are all in reference to the hidden Julie videos.

First video: Julie was attempting to get the entirety of Home (aka the neighbourhood) in bloom before homewarming. Julie came across a flower that hadn’t bloomed. She was trying to get it to bloom but it wasn’t talking to her nor blooming. Frank was not present while she was trying to make it bloom.

She leaves it be as Frank calls her over somewhere, promising to come back to make it bloom.

Second video: Julie seemed to have reserved that flower to show Frank and let him make it bloom with her help.

It's mentioned that rainbow monsters (like herself) have many responsibilities corresponding with nature. She references her family's motto, as if it's something to be proud of. Keep this in mind.

It's also worth noting that according to Julie, with enough positivity, the flowers will bloom by homewarming. So it seems these flowers can only bloom from happiness.

Julie stated that she can’t hear flowers that haven’t bloomed yet. Julie and Frank talk to the flower to try and get it to bloom, getting stumped. Julie attempted to solve it through her board game.

The two state:

Frank: “…No surprise chess manoeuvres! I know you’re not allowed to combine the Queen and the knight during chess, Julie! You can’t trick me again!”

Julie: “But pieces are just keeping each other company, Frank! It sounds like somebody’s just sore about losing the queen’s favourite horsey!”

I think Julie's last line means something more. A lot of these videos almost imply meanings of replacement or loss.

Third video: In the beginning of the video, Julie whispers in a serious tone “you’re still closed” twice before addressing it more clearly and happier.

She talks about how Barnaby and Howdy make fun of her a little, possibly discussing her insecurities. Julie also mentions in this video that she likes Frank the most, considering she met him first when she first came to the neighbourhood. She didn’t know anyone when she came here. She said she doesn’t exactly remember how her and Frank met, but she assumes it was when she was building her burrow. Frank fell into her tunnel. She whispers in a serious voice again to herself, “Was he mad? I don’t think he was. I think he said to me, "Are you new here? I’m new too, my name is Frank." I think he knew I was scared. He said a really corny joke to me, and I laughed.” She states she met Wally the same day, which is when she got her home. She also states she can’t say out long after dark, as they’re not supposed to be outside. The reasoning is unknown. Wally suddenly comes out of nowhere, saying in a slightly distorted tone, “Did all that really happen, Julie?” This might imply she forgot something important, which is brought up in the fifth video analysis.

Fourth Video:

Starting with the flowers POV, Julie says "it's still here" in a slightly distorted voice, referring to the flower. I used to think it was the flower talking, but it was actually Julie's inner thoughts/voices, as proven in the transcripts. It's strange that this flower's POV hears her thoughts, her negative ones too.

The POV cuts to a different one as Julie greets the flower normally: "Hello my possible petunia, it looks like you still haven't opened! Why is that?"

But then it cuts back to the flowers POV, Julie's voice getting serious again, asking, "What's wrong with you?" inside her head.

It cuts back to normal again, "I'm sorry, is it because I haven't been around as often? I promise it wasn't on purpose! I've been busy. I have a lot of responsibilities. I'm home's cheeriest neighbour!"

It's almost as if she's trying to be something of worth, to live up to her actual name. Did you catch that she didn't want to join the joyful sibling's band as a drummer? Maybe she didn't feel worthy enough, maybe she has insecurities, maybe she didn't fit in with that role, or maybe she had feelings that she shoved away to also maintain being home's cheeriest neighbour.

She begins talking about the 'Sweet Briar' play and says, "It's about a princess who falls asleep for a long time after a mean fairy puts a spell on her. Then her handsome prince comes to wake her up!" It cuts back to the flowers POV, saying inside her head, "If only it was that easy."

Again, another possible reference insecurities. Her thoughts start to be more prominent and reoccurring, getting more negative and worrisome.

Here she begins to lack self esteem, by saying she thinks she did alright and struggled a bit during the play. She also mentions how she liked letting someone else lead. She told the flower earlier in the 2nd video that she had a lot of responsibilities, so maybe it ties to that.

More signs of insecurities and spiralling from Julie. The way she fears and talks about her family's thoughts about her not being able to get a flower bloom makes me think they've possibly neglected her before? Or maybe she's avoidant so she can make a good example of herself, as she was hesitant to join her family's band.

Fifth video:

I think something happened to Julie at one point. I think it’s between her and home, maybe. (Considering I think home is trying to take control and isolate the neighbourhood from the darkness surrounding the edges of the map, as seen below)

The link to her fifth video has the words “tears”, “remembrance”, and “instability” in it. The instability part is very obvious within the video, but tears and remembrance mean something deeper I think. Tears and remembrance combined could mean a sad memory. In the video, Julie makes the excuse her family is here and she should go say hi before they leave home. She rushes over to the flower and thinks to herself, “you’re still here. After all this time. I spent so much time talking with you. I gave you everything I could.” She starts to cry in a way, then saying “I’m sorry, I don’t understand what you want, I don’t understand what the problem is.” It then cuts to the flowers POV, now inside her head again, “Was that not enough? Do you want to get me into trouble? Why are you doing this to me? Was it because of the early spring? Are you mad at me for that? I don’t know why that happened, it’s not my fault! It’s not my fault! Please, please don’t do this to me! Frank is nearby, please I’m begging you, please bloom before anyone sees you. Please bloom, please, please-“

She is now treating this flower differently compared to the first video. She's almost threatening this flower in a way, believing it will somehow get her into trouble. Almost like... something is after her.

When in the first video, it seems she had stumbled upon it for the first time, keen to make it bloom. With positivity. But all this flower is consuming are her negative thoughts.

It cuts back to a different POV where Frank is looking for her. She cusses to herself since Frank has found her. She panics, trying to not let him see the flower. She turns to the flower to tell it one last message. "You won’t be around for much longer- You’ll go away by Homewarming- I’ll never see you again, no one will, no one will ever know you were here- and then I’ll be free- I’m as good as I ever was- I’m Julie Joyful!-" It seems as if she’s insecure, incapable of being worthy. Maybe it's even an identity crisis too, as some have speculated. It also seems as if there’s been a significant event that happened in the past that she can’t remember properly. Or perhaps, a consequence. She also seems to be getting a consequence in the near future if this flower gets her in trouble somehow.

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Other thoughts with the information we know now:

Credits to @gho-zzy

Call-back to video three, remember how Wally was there? I believe he's been listening through the flower. I mean, these styles of hidden videos ALWAYS have Wally in there at least somewhere. Especially in his POV. So, he must've taken this flower's POV somehow. It might be the reason why it wasn't blooming either.

Another call-back to this image here:

You can also see footsteps leading into the forest. Perhaps this is where she goes to see the flower?

ANYWAY!! I will update this as things become available again, since the 5th video is currently down.

[warblogs17282]

Just saw this clip of Brandon Rogers at what I presume is some helluva boss panel or whatever featuring him, and to summarise what he said here in this video, season 2 was obviously setting up the plotlines and such that are gonna be present in season 3, that some of the other VAs including Brandon and Bryce had a hard time getting through some of the episodes, and that it's also 'very raw', so basically, season 3 is gonna emotionally destroy us HARD as well.

Transcript of the video:

"Oh my god who's excited for season 3?" "I wish we could say things about it, but we are very very- Viv actually is in the back with a sniper- you know, red dot right here."

"No we're not allowed to say anything."

"But I uhhhh- yea, Blitz and Stolas." "oh fuck."

"Season 3 is going to be wild." "It's- It's ??? for season 2 is definitely setting up the bowling pins for season 3 and ummm."

"Season 2 was fine to get through, there were episodes in season 3 that were hard for, at least for me to get through, I'm sure Bryce who plays Stolas and- some of the other actors had a hard time too, ummm, it's very raw, and so, I cannot wait for you to see it."

[campgender]

butch trans women: a butch voices 2011 panel

…the transcript!

as far as i can tell, the captions on youtube are fairly accurate, but creating a full transcript was still important to me for a few reasons: accessibility, archival, & resources. 1) especially for people who can’t listen to the audio, i think the transcript is a lot easier to read with punctuation, speaker notation, etc. 2) i’m always concerned about the possibility of youtube videos being taken down (by the creator or more likely youtube itself) & text documents are a lot easier than video to share & store, including offline. 3) whenever possible i incorporated updated & archived links of resources mentioned as well as pdf backups.

watch, read, share with your friends, add to your trans microlibrary (@thetransfemininereview), print out & put on your bookshelf, & most importantly remember butch trans women are a vital part of butch/femme history, present, & future❣️

google doc / pdf link

[redgoldsparks]

California Rapid Response Networks

These graphics are from the California Immigrant Policy Center instagram but you can find the same information with hyperlinks on their website (copied as a transcript below the cut).

California Rapid Response Networks

Northern California

Central del Pueblo Rapid Response Network (Humboldt County) – 707-200-8091

Sacramento Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 916-382-0256

Bay Area

​Alameda County Immigration Legal and Education Partnership (ACILEP) – Hotline: 510-241-4011

Marin Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 415-991-4545

North Bay Rapid Response Network (Sonoma, Napa & Solano Counties) – Hotline: 707- 800-4544

San Francisco Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 415-200-1548

San Mateo County Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 203-666-4472

Santa Clara County Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 408-290-1144

Stand Together Contra Costa – Hotline: 925-900-5151

Central Coast & Central Valley

Kern County Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 661-432-2230

Monterey County Solidarity Network  – Hotline: 831-204-8082

Santa Cruz County Your Allied Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 831-239-4289

805 Immigrant Rapid Response Network (Santa Barbara, Ventura & San Luis Obispo Counties) – Hotline:  (805) 870-8855

Valley Watch Rapid Response Network (San Joaquin, Stanislaus, Merced, Madera, Tulare, Kings, Kern) – 559-206-0151

​​Southern California

Long Beach Community Defense Network  – Hotline: 562-245-9575

Los Angeles Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 888-624-4752

Orange County Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 714-881-1558, Email:  casereferral@ocrapidresponse.org

(San Bernardino & Riverside Counties)​ Inland Coalition For Immigrant Justice’s Resource – Hotline: 909-361-4588

Southern California Bilingual Rapid Response Legal Resource Hotline (if detained by ICE) – Hotline: 213-833-8283

San Diego

(North County San Diego) Alianza Comunitaria – Text Alerts for Checkpoints: Envía “Alianza” al 33733 para español / Send “Alianza2” to 33733 for English

San Diego Rapid Response Network – Hotline: 619-536-0823

Additional Resources:

Videos: We Have Rights (English, Spanish, Arabic, Mandarin, Haitian Creole, Russian, Urdu)

Referrals: Deportation Defense Legal Services –

Referrals: Immigration Legal Services (DACA, TPS, Citizenship, etc.)

Know Your Rights Resources

Know Your Rights Materials

Know Your Rights Under the US Constitution – No Matter Who is President (NILC) 

A know-your-rights handout in eight languages to help families prepare for a possible interaction with ICE  

A  Know Your Rights Toolkit by ILRC includes handouts, family preparedness plans and a train-the-trainer toolkit 

Printable ILRC red cards in to distribute to community members (Spanish here)

Know-Your-Rights tutorial videos in 7 languages to help prepare individuals for encounters with Immigration & Customs Enforcement (ICE) (Spanish here) 

CLINIC Know Your Rights flyers

WeHaveRights – Creating an Emergency Plan 

Noncitizen Protest Protection: 10 Things Noncitizen Protestors Need to Know 

KYR / Community Education Preparedness Resources (NIPNLG)

Know Your Rights and Creating Safe Spaces Resource List (NILC) 

Know Your Rights Resources (NIJC)

KYR Community Education Materials:

KYR / Community Education Preparedness – Curated Resources (NIPNLG)

KYR Flyer – English (NPNA)

KYR Graphics – English (NPNA)

KYR Community Education Presentation – English 

KYR Community Education Presentation – Spanish

Train the Trainer KYR Presentation Outline (1 Hour) – English

Train the Trainer KYR Presentation Outline (1 Hour) – Spanish

ILRC Know Your Rights Train the Trainer Toolkit

TRP Immigrant Justice KYR Resources

NAKASEC Resources & Know Your Rights App

Family Preparedness

ILRC Family Preparedness Plan (English / Spanish)

Family Preparedness Plan (TIRRC)

Appleseed Manual on Protecting Assets 

Family Preparedness 2 Pager (NPNA)

Family Preparedness 2 Pager – Spanish (NPNA)

Family Preparedness Graphic Carousel (NPNA)

Deportation & Removal Defense

Building Community-Driven Legal Services to Empower, Protect, and Defend Our Communities: Field Guide for Deportation Defense

Deportation Defense Manual (Make the Road NY)

Community FAQ: What Do We Expect at the Beginning of Trump 2.0 & How You Can Get Prepared (NIPNLG)

[f1cflcfic]

Won't Say I'm In Love (SMAU ft. Lando Norris) - part ix

pairing: lando norris x tennis player!reader (fem!y/n); past carlos alcaraz x tennis player!reader (fem!y/n)

summary: As a general rule, y/n does not date athletes. You've been there, done that - would not recommend. Besides, you definitely don't do love. There's no time in the world for complicated feelings when there's a career Grand Slam to be won. But what if your heart just refuses to listen?

genre: social meda/mixed au, friends to lovers

note: this is RPF and is obviously in no way, shape, or form reflective of real persons and/or events

series: part i | part ii | part iii | part iv | part v | part vi | part vii | part viii | ...

bonus: one, two, three

May 10 - 18, 2025

[Transcript excerpt: Serena Williams & Y/N L/N's "Athletes on Athletes"]

"So, Serena. You've had an amazing career in tennis - to me, you are the Greatest of All Time. But what would you say is the one sacrifice that people might not expect you've had to make?"

"I think a lot of people immediately think of family, and having Olympia and Adira. It wasn't easy, and I did have to think at one point - do I want to really win another championship, or do I want to raise my family and be present. But there's also a lot of other sacrifices you make along the way. I've had times where family members were sick and I couldn't visit them, because I was playing a tournament. I think about the friendships I lost, because I didn't have time to invest in them. And there are a lot of the things I couldn't experience with my peers. Of course, I also gained a lot of things by not doing others. It's more so a choice perhaps, a trade-off, than a sacrifice."

"Yeah, I resonate with that a lot. I'm feeling that now with my niece having been born. And I'm so lucky that my sister is willing to plan her wedding around my schedule, which is insane of her but I love it, too. I think having a family isn't really on my mind at the moment - but I would love to be in love. I just think that it's really difficult for anyone to measure up against the love I have for tennis. And so it doesn't necessarily feel like a sacrifice to put that first. Tennis is my first and forever love. I would want a partner to understand that. My biggest nightmare is not being able to play anymore. Only after that comes being alone."

"Yeah. I think it's about perspective and priorities - and those shift over time. You live and breathe tennis, but it's not all that you are. As long as you've got a solid foundation of people around you who lift you up, but who also keep you grounded and can remind you of that, then you're going to be good. You'll land on your feet. That loyalty we feel to tennis, it's the same loyalty you need from your team. And I think that perhaps that's the hardest choice to make sometimes. When you have to say goodbye to someone you've been on a journey with for so long, but they no longer fit."

"I think that's so hard. It's difficult to know when you need the comfort and stability to perform at your best, or when you need to be challenged to perform at a new best. I'm still figuring that out. But a solid group of friends, I have, thankfully."

May 19 - 25, 2025

[Transcript excerpt: McLaren's Teammate Challenge video]

"For this next bit - we will write down the answer we think the other person's going to give."

"So it's not necessarily what I think is the right answer, but what I think Oscar is going to answer."

"Indeed, Lando."

"Alright then. We'll start with a few easy ones. What is my favourite cuisine?"

"Easy indeed, I've written down Italian."

"Well done Osc, that's true. You go next."

"What is my middle name?"

"Pssh. Done. It's Jack. My turn then - who's my celebrity crush?"

"I've gone for Y/N L/N."

"Wrong - I don't have one."

"That's unfair! We all know the ansewr is Y/N. He can't just make up a new celebrity crush."

"Of course I can? She's my actual friend now. Celebrity crushes are for people you admire from a distance."

"And what if you admire them from up close?"

"I think we should go to the next question."

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author's note: well, it's 1:15 AM and officially King's Day in the Netherlands, but wanted to get this up finally as promised! Next part should be up a bit sooner as it's pretty much finished already and involves some big moments and realisations for y/n at the French Open :) :)

next part is available here

♥ likes, comments, reblogs and asks are always very much appreciated - i love chatting and hearing your thoughts! ♥

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[p-seduonym]

The Little Light That Got Lost (Part Two)

A/N: You guys your notes have sent me over the moon! I'm really glad you like this fic and will try to keep up with you guys. Now, uh, to the bad news, I think I might avoid the typically "reader" insert fic style and keep it as logs, records, and documents. Just to stay consistent. If you hate it, that's fine I probably won't try this type of style of writing again after this. OKKAYBYE--

Checkout @cheust's Ghost Caretaker AU, it's the best!

VIDEO TRANSCRIPT

Session Date: [REDACTED] Session Type: Individual Therapy Therapist: Dr. Johanna Hoffman Patient: Casey Wayne, Age 5 Location: Gotham Pediatric Clinic Recording Start Time: 4:30 PM Recording End Time: 5:30 PM

[VIDEO BEGINS]

(The camera feed opens to a warmly lit therapy room. The walls are painted pastel blue and sage green, decorated with a meadow mural. A plush rug covers the floor, and shelves stocked with fidget toys, kinetic sand, and art materials line the room. A small, child-sized table sits in the center, topped with a tiny vase of artificial flowers. Soft instrumental music plays in the background. Seated at the table is CASEY WAYNE, a small child with tightly coiled hair and striking blue eyes, their hands resting neatly in their lap. DR. JOHANNA HOFFMAN enters the frame, taking a seat across from them with an open, relaxed posture.)

DR. HOFFMAN: Hi, Casey.

CASEY: Hi, Johanna.

DR. HOFFMAN: You look happy. Did something good happen?

CASEY: [nods eagerly] Mmhmm, I’m five now!

DR. HOFFMAN: I heard! That’s very exciting. How was your birthday?

CASEY: It was fun! I got to eat cake and stay up late!

DR. HOFFMAN: Wow, that sounds fun! What flavor of cake is your favorite?

CASEY: Chocolate! It’s really yummy.

DR. HOFFMAN: That’s my favorite too.

CASEY: [gasps] Really?! Do you like the kind with sprinkles?

DR. HOFFMAN: I do! Sprinkles make everything more fun. Did your cake have sprinkles?

CASEY: [nods] Mmhmm! And a big number five candle! I got to blow it out all by myself.

DR. HOFFMAN: That’s a big deal! Did you make a wish?

CASEY: Yep! But I can’t tell you, or it won’t come true.

DR. HOFFMAN: Of course! It’s a secret wish. But I bet it’s something really special.

CASEY: [giggles] It is!

DR. HOFFMAN: I love birthdays because they’re all about celebrating you. Did you get any special presents?

CASEY: [nods excitedly] Uh-huh! Alfred gave me a tea set.

DR. HOFFMAN: A tea set?

CASEY: Yep! It’s really pretty and has flowers on it.

DR. HOFFMAN: That sounds beautiful. Do you have tea parties?

CASEY: [grins] Yeah, I had one with Yaya!

DR. HOFFMAN: I see. Does Yaya like tea?

CASEY: Yep! She taught me how to pour it! Did you know that a long time ago they used “tea bowls” instead of cups? And if you didn’t want any more, you had to put it on the little plate—

DR. HOFFMAN: The saucer?

CASEY: Yeah!

DR. HOFFMAN: You know a lot about tea parties, Casey. Did Yaya teach you all that?

CASEY: [nods] Mmhmm. It’s a real tea set, but we drank pretend tea. I said it was chocolate tea though, 'cause that’s the best!

DR. HOFFMAN: Wow, that sounds delicious. You have quite the imagination!

(CASEY giggles and leans forward in their seat.)

CASEY: Thanks!

DR. HOFFMAN: Do you think you’ll have more tea parties?

CASEY: Uh-huh! You can come too!

DR. HOFFMAN: I’d love that! I’ll make sure to dress really fancy too!

(CASEY laughs happily.)

DR. HOFFMAN: Do you think your family could come to one of your tea parties?

(CASEY suddenly falls silent. They look down at their hands, fingers fidgeting slightly.)

DR. HOFFMAN: Casey?

CASEY: [softly] I dunno.

DR. HOFFMAN: You don’t know? Why’s that?

CASEY: [shrugs] They’re busy all the time.

DR. HOFFMAN: All of them? Have you ever asked them to come to your tea party?

CASEY: I asked Daddy but he said he was busy.

DR HOFFMAN: Well, what about your siblings? I’m sure they’d like to come.

(CASEY frowns, thinking)

CASEY: I don’t want Damian to come. He’s mean.

DR. HOFFMAN: Well, it doesn’t have to be him? What about your other brothers?

(CASEY pauses to think)

CASEY: Jason’s scary.

DR. HOFFMAN: He’s scary?

CASEY: (nods) He’s angry and it scares me.

DR. HOFFMAN: Is he angry at you?

CASEY: (shrugs) I dunno.

DR. HOFFMAN: That must be really hard for you, Casey. Do you ever talk to Jason about how you feel when he's angry?

CASEY: [shakes head] No, I don’t wanna talk to him when he’s angry. He gets loud.

DR. HOFFMAN: That sounds tough. It’s hard when someone’s loud and angry. Do you know what makes him angry?

CASEY: [looks down] He’s angry about stuff. I dunno what.

DR. HOFFMAN: It’s okay if you don’t know. Sometimes people get angry about things we can’t see. Do you think it would help if you told him that his anger makes you feel scared?

CASEY: [quietly] I don’t think he’d care.

DR. HOFFMAN: Hmm. You might be right. But it’s okay to tell him how you feel, even if he doesn’t understand. You’re allowed to feel safe and not scared at home.

CASEY: [nods slowly] I guess.

DR. HOFFMAN: You know, Casey, you have a lot of courage. Not everyone can talk about their feelings like you can. And sometimes it’s okay to ask for help if someone is making you feel unsafe. Do you think you could ask someone in your family to help you talk to Jason?

CASEY: [hesitates] Maybe... like Yaya?

DR. HOFFMAN: Yaya cares about you alot. Maybe you can talk to her about how you feel with Jason?

CASEY: [pauses] I can’t…

DR. HOFFMAN: Why’s that?

CASEY: Jason doesn’t think Yaya is real. He says she’s imaginary.

DR.HOFFMAN: Like your Daddy?

CASEY: [nods and points at head] He says she is here and not real.

DR. HOFFMAN: That must be very hard for you, Casey. You know, sometimes people don’t understand what’s real for others. Yaya is real to you, and that’s what matters. But I can see how it might be confusing if others don’t see her too.

CASEY: [Frowns] No one believes me though. But she’s really nice and helps me.

DR. HOFFMAN: Sometimes, it’s hard for others to understand. But I can tell Yayais very important to you, and would want you to talk to someone about how you feel. Do you know anyone like that?

CASEY: [Shrugs] Maybe Dick. He’s nice.

DR. HOFFMAN: That’s a good choice! Have you tried asking him?

CASEY: [Shakes their head] No…

DR. HOFFMAN: Well, maybe you can ask him next time?

CASEY: [quietly] Maybe.

(Dr. Hoffman watches Casey for a moment, noticing their fingers still fidgeting with the hem of their sleeve.)

DR. HOFFMAN: You seem unsure. Is something else on your mind?

CASEY: He’s gonna be busy too.

DR. HOFFMAN: He is? How are you so sure?

CASEY: (Frustrated) Everyone’s always busy!

DR. HOFFMAN: Really? Everyone? 

CASEY: (Nods) Dick is always with Daddy, Alfred’s gotta clean, Tim’s in his room, Steph and Cass don’t talk to me cause I’m little, Damian’s mean a-and–”

(Casey stammers, before stopping suddenly and lowering their gaze)

CASEY: ….and no one likes me. 

(Silence. Dr. Hoffman watches as Casey shrinks slightly, their small hands gripping the edge of the table. The soft instrumental music plays faintly in the background.)

DR. HOFFMAN: Casey, why do you think no one likes you?

CASEY: … cause no one wants to be with me. Only Yaya does.

DR. HOFFMAN: [softly] Casey, I’m sure that’s not true. 

CASEY: [nods] It is. Everyone is always gone. Only Yaya stays.

(Silence permeates the distance between them once again. The soft music continues to play, undisturbed.)

DR. HOFFMAN: Casey, I know it’s hard to understand right now, but I want you to know that people care about you and how you feel. Even if they’re not always around, they still want you to feel better. I know it might not feel that way now, but please trust me—you’re not alone.

(CASEY remains silent, looking at the artificial flowers in the vase.)

DR. HOFFMAN: I think that’s enough for today.

[VIDEO ENDS]

THERAPIST’S OBSERVATIONS: During the latter half of the session, there was a distinct shift in the patient's demeanor. What initially appeared to be the typical presence of an imaginary friend seemed to evolve into something more complex. Yaya may serve as a coping mechanism, a response to the neglect and lack of emotional support the patient has endured. Of particular significance was the patient's final remark, “Only Yaya stays.” This statement seems to carry deeper implications, suggesting that Casey’s emotional detachment may be rooted in more than just familial neglect. The comfort they find in Yaya, someone others dismiss as imaginary, points to a more profound and perhaps darker emotional struggle—one that might not be easily addressed through conventional therapy or rationalization.

A/N: oh boy I'm tired I wrote all of this after work so it might be rushed.

[svt-meiying]

Hiii how are you?? Can you please write more hook up of meiying with scoups and Joshua please is just I need more details and drama also I'll be cool if you add the 95 line conversation that you mentioned in your other post🤭

Have a good day and also I'm a new follower and honestly your works are amazing I can't wait for what you have prepare 🩷

Hi! Unfortunately today I'm a little under the weather, but seeing you guys interact with my content with so much interest is always a huge mood-booster! I'll gladly tell you more about how they were together 🤭(hopefully that's what you meant), LITTLE SIDE NOTE BEFORE I START ; Another Anon asked the same question regarding the conversation so just know I saw your ask and appreciate you very much (it's just that that this one wanted more detail as well)!

❗This post contains suggestive themes so MDNI (18+)❗

Seungcheol ;

. . Their one night stand was the maknae's first time sleeping with anyone so it was gentle and slow, with the older man talking her through it. They started making out on the couch but when things got too heated, Seungcheol took her to his bedroom because he refused to let her first time happen in the middle of a living room.

. . There were lots of wet, messy, breathy kisses and the leader's lips practically worshipped every single inch of the young woman's warm skin. He made sure to show her everything that intimacy had to offer, from his fingers, to his tongue, to his d- *ahaem*

, , The aftercare was genuinely the sweetest ; he bathed her, dressed her in his shirt and boxers, she fell asleep in his embrace as he ran a hand through her hair and left soft kisses on her forehead, arms wrapped so tightly around her body that one could think he was attempting to protect a treasure.

Joshua ;

. . With Joshua things immediately began with him in control, which the members began noticing whenever they played games. The only thing Joshua would have to do is say something as mundane as 'sit' and the usually rebellious maknae would obey.

. . Over time things began getting slightly rougher while they explored new kinks ; impact play, bondage, sensation play, choking, etc. (though it did go back to more vanilla intimacy whilst she healed from her ACL tear).

. . Their situationship was definitely way more intense than what happened with Seungcheol, Joshua thrived on control and fake sympathy for the trembling maknae.

. . "I know, that was so mean of me~ But do you really think you deserve to finish after the way you mouthed off to me earlier?"

. . Even with that though, the aftercare is always present and thorough. They always sleep in the same bed afterwards, he gives her his own clothes despite her room being right next to his, in the morning whoever is awake first makes breakfast, and LOTS of words of reassurance.

Conversation Transcript ;

JH : 'I saw that video yesterday actually, Shua showed it to me when we were drinking in the kitchen. [pause] Speaking of that night actually...Shua, what were you doing naked on the couch with Meimei?'

[Seungcheol nearly choked on his drink as the man concerned by the question turned red almost immediately, stammering as he tried to find the words. He saw the slight edge in their leader's gaze and part of him wondered whether admitting to it was truly the best idea, especially when his fist tightened around the glass.]

J : H-How did...I mean it's not....listen-

SC : 'You're fucking Mei? He's joking right?'

JH : 'If I am then there's someone with the same blind eye as our maknae...and the same scars, and the same face...small world really.'

[Joshua's glare was almost deadly when these relaxed words left his mouth, before moving to carefully examine Seungcheol's strangely tense demeanor.]

J : 'We sleep together, so what? It's not like she's dating either of you so why do you care? Also maybe don't just walk into our apartment without knocking.'

SC : 'That girl's been with us for years, I trusted you to live with her, and now you're just casually doing this behind our backs?'

JH : 'Cheol it's not that big of a deal you're just drunk...'

SC : 'Shut up for a second. What about her knee, are you even careful about that?'

JH : 'This is going too far, listen we can talk about this in the mor-'

J : 'What does her ACL have to do with this? She's recovering just fine isn't she? What the fuck is your problem? Are you in love with her or something?'

[The leader suddenly stood from his chair only to be instantly held back by the more rational of his friends, though he did admittedly start this. Just then, the blissfully unaware maknae walked into the heavy dorm, the darkness in her blind spot not quite catching the closely diffused fight. Not questioning why the men were standing in such positions after turning around, she immediately ran over to hug the oldest, which seemed to relax the tension in his shoulders.]

SC : Hey princess, you wrapped up that photoshoot pretty quickly.

[As she rambled on about the day, Joshua saw the softness in the rapper's gaze, the light in them, and slowly realized why he had gotten so defensive...]

............

Wow you made it to the end! Thank you so, so, so much for your support, I know I say this quite a bit but I truly appreciate it! I hope you enjoyed this and that I answered your question properly🩷

[leopardom]

hi hello hey, coming here once again with another q&a transcription in case you missed it or don't have a discord account

Official Discord server Q&A with Joker Out (11/5/25)

some disclaimers

questions are in bold and are all from discord

quotation marks are being used for all the the word-by-word answers

dialogues and banter between the band, reactions and some worth-mentioning moments are in italics

all of them were present except for Bojan who appeared towards the end of the q&a

this is going to be a long read

{slight malfunctioning for about 5 minutes because they couldn't hear anything and had to log in discord with Kris' account}

Q: Who played the piano in Sonce? Jure: joking that it was him, then says "it was Jan of course" K: "if you're very attentive you can hear his low rumbling... exhaling ans stuff like that"

Q: Three words to describe the vibes of the new music video? *joking about how it was gonna be five questions-one annouoncement but Jure turned it into a one question-one announcement* Jan: it's a bit punk that's more than 3 words and they all agree K: "this is the new Joker Out era, we're so punk. leave us alone mom!" Jan: "people were impressed by you having eyeshadow" K: "yes, it's eyeliner/eyeshadow. yeah it's definitely something we haven't done before" Jan: "that's because we're so punk now" *Jure mentions Italy* N: the mv was recorded in Trieste

Q: What do you value the most about your fanbase? K: dedication especially when it comes to travelling to other countries for the gigs and how everyone is full of energy etc and the consistency in streaming their music (the rest agree and they thank everyone for that)

Q: DId any of the songs from Souvenir Pop have a different name at first? K: Carpe Diem and Muzika Za Decu had a different tittle (editor's note: sorry i can't make out what they say because they all talk on top of each other), Mesto Duhov was Wembury Mews which was their adress in London, Lips was Je t'aime, Bluza was Muza and "Jan is cringing at that", Everybody's Waiting was first called Shine and then they wanted to name it The Ball but then "Steven, their Liverpoolian godfather suggested Everybody's Waiting". The rest of the songs had the same titles they do on the album

*Jan interrupts to say that Nace's mom has sent them a photo of a cake she baked and then they proceeded to upload it on the band's instagram stories after failing to send it on a discord channel*

Q: Favourite type of coffee? K + N: coffee with milk *Kris proceeds to explain that coffee with milk is not cappuccino but describes it like cappuccino without foam* Jure: same but with two spoons of sugar Jan: drinks his coffee black, like espresso lungo

Q: When new merch? K: new music video is coming out this month and along with it limited edition Souvenir Pop vinyls will be released. "Nace has heard the vinyls and says they sound even better than the cd" *confussion about the colour of the vinyls, they've forgotten what they are but they're apparently black or red*

Q: If you could have any wild animal as a pet, what would you have? N: a hawk or a badger K: a panda. His parents have a nice garden so he could keep it there and move it to a winter garden he means greenhouse but doesn't remember the word during the cold months Jan: a chameleon *Kris joking that a chameleon is "something to be as lost as you"* Jure: first thought of llama but it isn't a wild animal so he settled to an eagle Jan: "why did no one say a capybara???"

Q: If you could be any type of soup, what would you be? N: pho *Kris says Nace makes good pho, Jan says "pho sure"* K: Bojan would be mushroom soup Jan: ješprenj/ričet (props to @chaosofsmarty for mentioning it on joblr server) K: jota (sour cabbage soup) Jure: pea cream soup *they're laughing about the cream and peas combo and how it sounds*

Q: What's your favourite memory from making the album? N: writing and jamming in the living room K: when they first heard a recorded version of Bluza after having trouble with other songs, which made him feel relief Jan: the recording of Everybody's Waiting

Q: I'm going to Ljubljana this summer, what's some place I have to see? Jure: "Just rent a bike and go" K: apart from whatever google suggests, Metelkova, Špica park and Rožnik hill Jan: the area around Ljubljanica and Tivoli Jure: Ljubljana castle

Q: Will you ever release the Live from Stožice in CD form? all: no K: "maybe in 20 years if CDs become hyped again like vinyls are hyped now"

Q: What is your dream venue to play? -venues in Slovenia- K: Bežigrad stadium *proceeds to say how he grew up in that area and go to school opposite of the stadium and how the stadium is not in use for years now so it's unlikely to ever play there* N: Prešernov square in Ljubljana (the first concert he ever attended with his parents was there) -venues outside of Slovenia- K: Royal Albert Hall Jure: wants to play in Japan but doesn't have any venue in mind

*Kris rambles about everyone he knows seems to be visiting Tokyo this year - "Everytime I open Instagram somebody's posting a story from Tokyo, it's just like oh- don't you guys have jobs?"*

Q: How was the experience of recording the Stephanie mv? Jure: "the most fun to record probably" K: very chill, especially for him and Nace because music video recordings are draining for them two so this was a nice change

Q: Which Eurovision 2025 artist do you look forward the most to meet up with? K: they're not very familiar with the artists this year but will be watching the semis and the final this week N: probably Erika Vikman though they've met her already Jure: probably didn't pay much attention to the question because he mentions Dan D (slovenian band, will perform at Pivo in Cvetje fest like Joker Out will) K: Tommy Cash, "he seems like a person to have a fun night with"

Jan mentions that today is two years since their semi final and their advancing to the eurovision final. Kris says that on the 13th it's going to be the bands official 9th birthday and next year will be 10 years which is something they should comemorate. Jan jokes they should ask Nace's mom to bake them a cake for that and then Kris says it should be huge with "those sparkly thingies on the cake". They'd like for many people to be there so save the date because you may get an invitation to their birthday party next year

Q: When is the actual featuring with mrfy is going to happen? all: they don't know, ask Štras

*Jan suggests you go listen to the latest MRFY album, which they all love*

*they're wishing someone on the chat who just turned 19 a happy birthday*

Q: A lot of fans make and bring you stuff during/after concerts, but is there anything you wouldn't like to receive (apart from the obvious, like inappropriate or illegal things)? Or, alternatively, something you particularly like N to K: "would you like to receive the panda?" Jan: loves when they receive ananas lonkero Jure: "and candies from the airport" K: especially the sour candies in the blue packaging he means the sour TVmix

Q: Will the new tour have early entrance tickets? K: yes

*Kris reads the questions about the restock of Umazane Misli and Demoni vinyls. He says they'll think about it once they release the Souvenir Pop vinyl*

Q; Favourite thing about Barcelona? N: their friends there K: the weather

Q: Have your favorite games changed after the interview two years ago? Kris doesn't understand the question at first and Nace reminds him of the eurovision interview with Timur Miroshnychenko. However, they think it was about board games and not video games like the actual question was. Either way, they say that their favourite game is Uno

Q: Will there be a tour with places you've never been before, or do you think that concerts in places you've already been are more "established"? K: (about the upcoming tour) they'll play at a city they haven't played before. Organising a tour is difficult because it needs to be efficient and for the upcoming tour they've focused on places they've been before and like to revisit

Q: What's your favourite spanish dish? all: paella K: he also likes croquettes with jamón and chorizo

Q: What language is the Bojan x Käärijä collab going to be in? Jan: "probably in english?" all: maybe it includes all three langauges (english, finnish and slovene)

Q: Why did you remove the Bluza intro that was only heard live before the album release? K: "sometimes songs just take you in another direction" Jan: (with the theme he's playing at the end of the song) "it would be kind of weird to have two main themes" K: "the one that we kept definitely fits more in the chorus [...] it holistically makes more sense"

*Kris mentions the comments about Schlager*

Jan: "here comes Bojan! [...] Bojan just came"

*Bojan has lost his streak on duolingo and is barely aware that there's a discord q&a going on*

*apparently Bojan brought them coffee and cake and Kris and Nace start singing Espresso Macchiato*

TOUR ANNOUNCEMENT

18/11 - London

19/11 - Tilburg

20/11 - Amsterdam (for Het Grote Songfestivalfeest)

22/11 - Vienna

24/11 - Kraków

26/11 - Warsaw

27/11 - Vilnius

29/11 - Prague

important announcement coming on June 2nd

*honourable mention to this dialogue after this announcement:

B: do we give them another announcement? K: we've already given them every other announcement B: what other announcements? Jan: so the- the- B: about Mesto Duh- Jan: -the music video of the secret song and the vinyls...*

Q: If you could wake up in any movie, even an animated one, which movie would it be? B: Yu-Gi-Oh GX *everyone is laughing because he answered super fast* Jure: Simpsons *laughter continues because they're trying to answer with mouths full of cake* K: Star Wars or Lord Of The Rings N: The Hobbit Jan: Harry Potter - "they do magic and shit"

Q: Hello guys! Firstly, Happy Two Years of SSF! In the past two years you gained many new fans globally. You also faced unpredictable situations and some hardships. What are some of the most valuable lessons you've learned along the way that you'll bring with you as you head into this following year? B: "Do whatever you're doing in life with people you love also outside of what it is that you're doing together as a business, and in that way even the toughest days will be much easier to go through than usually. So I'm leaving the band." (editor's note: that was a joke don't worry) rest of them: they've learned nothing lol

Q: What’s the most random inside joke that’s lasted way too long in the band? *they're just laughing thinking of their inside jokes until they settle to one*

Q: What was your favourite subject in school? Jure: arts and crafts K: history or maths B: history and sociology Jan: maths and chemistry

Q: Whats your favourite italian brainrot? Jan: Špijuniro Golubiro and Bir Bir Patapim (Jure and Nace agree with him, Kris doesn't know what "italian brainrot" means)

Q: Which one do you prefer, Demoni or Dopamin? B: Demoni even though he really loves Dopamin live, especially "when the bass goes out and it's just aaaaah" Jan: "I love it but Nace is not playing bass" (editor's note: the way he says this sounds like he's making fun of Bojan)

Q: What did you enjoy about ireland when you were here? all: Guiness Jure: the apartment they stayed at *Nace agrees* Kris: Temple Bar

*Kris reads a comment about someone saying they'll bring a panda from China for him and has to explain to confused Bojan why that is*

*Kris reads a question about playing Omamljeno Telo in Finland which they read earlier too but just side tracked and forgot to answer. They don't answer the question anyway 💀*

Q: Tickets when? B: "For what???" K: more info about it from Monday on N: there will be a presale on openstage

Q: Anything you can say about the new music video? K: already said eyeliner and Trieste B: "and Mahmood - Soldi" (editor's note: should say Tuta Gold but at least he got Mahmood right)

Q: Will there be one setlist on the summer tour or will it change every gig? K: no idea B: maybe there will be changes sometimes depending on how they feel about the gigs as they approach

Q: Bojan, will you adopt me and my friend? B: "Of course"

Q: Favourite polish word? all: bober B: *speaks the only polish he probably knows*

Q: How many 5 year olds do you think you could fight? (they’re all coming at you at once and trying to take you down) B: wouldn't fight one Jure: thinks if you run fast you don't need to fight N: at least 15

*Bojan asks people to react to messages on the questions channel to see where everyone is from and who will "win". Bojan jokes they've put bets on which country has the most reactions. Jan mentions there are 25 seconds left until they'll stop counting and the dialogue below follows:

Jan: 25 seconds B: 25 Seconds to Mars K: Špijuniro Golubiro B: Is it 20 Seconds of Summer? N: 5 Seconds of Summer Jan: 10 seconds B: okay 20 seconds but could be 5 seconds to summer to mars wtf Bojan K: that makes 35 seconds B: 20 plus 5! 20 Seconds to Mars? Jan: 30 Seconds to Mars!!! B: oh! and I was at their concert...

Finland seems to have the most reactions even though most of them are doubles*

end

[sandplague]

pathologic 3 save & sound 2024 presentation

this is a quick attempt at a transcript of the presentation. I think I got most of it but there are some words I was unable to hear, I can't say I have a lot of practice doing this and that's on me so if any of you guys can help me I'll edit it asap

Ressa Schwarzwald: I'm Ressa from Gameowdio. Our team has been working on Pathologic 3 with Vasily Kashnikov and his apprentice Nikolai. This video will feature some of the audio stuff we've made together.

Our goal regarding audio direction was to give the real experience of being in the epicenter of an epidemic. Fully realistic, no bullshit. So we are obviously shooting this video in The Town. We realized pretty early that the game was quite different from the original Pathologic 2 because of the time travel mechanics. So for the prototype we built a time travel machine [the date November 1924 shows on screen], which appeared to be quite useful to record some source sounds, and [date changes to November 3024] make this video in just half a second using existing technology.

Let's start with the music.

Vasily Kashnikov: Hi, I'm Vasily Kashnikov, audio director of Pathologic 3 project. I'll tell you how our music is structured. We were already thinking about how the Bachelor's game would sound when we were working on Patholgic 2 and writing music for Haruspex. In Pathologic 2, the music had more ethnic and real motives (motifs?) and instruments. Since the city and its customs are familiar with Haruspex since he was a child, he is involved in the traditional way of life. In the case of Pathologic 3, this is the view of an outsider who evaluates everything from the point of view of rationality and science. Therefore, we are trying to make the Pathologic 3 soundtrack colder and more detached from the steppes and ethnicity in character. There is more synthesis, guitars at the same time, the Bachelor communicates with those in power so the soundtrack contains a large share of minimalist so-called furniture music that could sound in the beginning of the last century. Piano etudes and references to composers of that time: Satie, Debussy, etc. The soundtrack is a rather eclectic mix of dreampop, downtempo, and (?) minimalism.

In the city when the Bachelor is alone with himself, we emphasize the cold mind of the rhythm section: less emotional harmony, and sometimes electronic timbres. In the rooms where we need to separate the main character from those he interacts with, we use more expressive harmonies and more classical instruments: piano and guitar passages.

When we designed the interactive music system, we assumed that time is finite, and the music had to change depending on the amount of time the Bachelor had left. However, we later abandoned this system and now the music changes depending on the state of the Bachelor himself, who can fall into apathy or psychosis. To emphasize these states, we apply filters and effects to different layers of our tracks and get a slower, muffled sound in the case of apathy, and wired (?) nervous, glitchy in the case of psychosis. In the infected quarters, there are interactive systems that... [screen begins to distort] oh my god, Nataliya! Please stop this!

Nataliya Radina: Whoops, hehe, sorry. But yeah, basically the other system we created reflects everything you hear in the game. Such as... If we use our gun when dealing with the local thugs, the longer we aim the weapon at the people, the less sounds of the outside world we hear and the louder becomes the heartbeat. To add to the intensity, sharper tone was used along with a high pitch tinnitus sound. If the psychosis level goes to the maximum, it starts to damage Bachelor's health, which is accompanied by flashes on the screen, as well as low heartbeat and short breathing sounds.

Vasily Kashnikov: In the infected and rebel's quarters, there are also interactive systems that change the character of the music by adding or disabling instrument layers depending on the state of the world or the Bachelor's equipment to fight the plague. As a result, we have 12 tracks for each day spent in the city. they can freely switch between each other and several dozen themes for locations and characters, and all the music is subject to change depending on the state of the Bachelor.

Nataliya Radina: Since the game has a weather changing system, we also wanted to reflect that in our audio feedback as well. The game has global wetness parameter that shows how intense the rain is. The more it rains, the more squishy and muddy are the steps of the outside surfaces. Moreover, if you come closer to the window, you can hear the rain pondering on the glass. Even in the middle of the plague, we always have room for cozy moments, right? My favorite part of that system is involving cows. [cow moo]. So, when it's raining, you can actually hear very very soft sound of raindrops dropping on those bovine butts. And I personally think it's beautiful.

Artur Ramanouski: Hi, my name is Artur, and I was also involved in creating some sound assets for the game.

Probably the hardest thing to record were the footsteps. I had everything planned out: bought the equipment, got every type of surface, but...there was one small thing I overlooked: I live in a city with over 12 million people. Noise everywhere. The solution was simple and ingenious: I recorded everything on a Sunday, because in Buenos Ares, Sunday is the one day when no one does anything.

Nataliya Radina: One of the most important places in the game is the cathedral. There we have a system of ladders that control the speed and direction of time. Direction wise, we can have it flow normally, or reversed. [entire presentation is rewound very quickly so it's back to Ressa]

Ressa Schwarzwald: She is super professional.

Nataliya Radina: As for the speed, we can make it stand still, go twice as fast, or half normal speed. We created an audio system that has to (?) understand what is actually happening around (inaudible). When we reverse time, spatial effects are added to the surrounding sounds. Ambience, steps, and the mechanism itself. When time stands still, we increase the low frequencies in the ambience, and all the other sounds are muted to zero. Now lastly, when the time goes twice as fast, or half the original speed, the pitch of the surrounding sound changes accordingly.

The coolest part of this system is that it's been actually implemented into the game engine using only one parameter.

Ressa Schwarzwald: Thank you for watching. See you here, later!

[jakei95]

[Post in English] Something Nyx and I want to publicly address, regarding the recent allegations in the Glitchtale Crew's Discord Server and it's moderators. I really apologize for the upcoming wall of text. These are our Twitter threads I have pasted them here, in case you don't have access to said platform. I have also added some additional notes to provide more context. All details under the line:

NyxTheShield: (Transcription from his official twitter thread) I read some mean comments lately and I just wanna be super clear: I havent been related to Glitchtale since at least 2022. I never considered myself part of the community and went through some much shit while doing stuff for it that my mental health was completely destroyed.

For people who thought I was an admin of the server, that was just in paper. I was constantly de-admin'd, demodded and kicked from the server through the years for simple stuff like asking the rest of the mod team to not say slurs or standing up against the Midnight Crew. I personally left the server for a long while because I really did not want to be around some of the people there. All of this happened years ago (from 2016~ to around 2020). On the early years, my full income came from Youtube/Glitchtale. I was a broke college student and my economic stability depended on it. Despite this, and making literally hundred of tracks and hours of music for the series, most of the income came from my own ad revenue. I was paid less than 2000 USD for all of the work. Essentially, I was paid in exposure.

This wouldn't have been an issue for me if at least I got to keep my artistic vision with the series. That didn't hold true for long.

From the second season and onwards, and in multiple instances, I would score the entire OST for the episode, watch the episode when it released, and then find out a completely new section of the episode (usually a battle scene) with music from somebody else This was completely demotivating to me because I wasn't being paid, the tracks would not fit the rest of the OST at all, and most of the income I made from the battle scenes. I had to work for weeks trying to compose music for glorified powerpoint presentations (Basically everything that's not a battle scene on the series was just still frames of characters barely moving) and do all the heavy lifting and I wasn't even let known about the guest tracks.

This added to the feeling of having absolutely no power within the community. I don't know if this was intentional or not (I don't wanna presume malice), but all of these things together contributed to me distancing myself from the community.

Honestly, there is A LOT more shit that went down these early years that are extremely traumatic to me that I would prefer to not talk about unless completely necessary, but I feel this is a good amount of context for what I wanna talk about next.

As you might be aware, extremely serious (and true) allegations were made against Camila and his partner, Veir, which was accused of grooming minors from 2015 to 2021 There are really good videos out there explaining the entire timeline of what transpired, but I specifically wanna talk about 2020.

(Jakei's note: Links to said videos are here: [1] [2] [3])

In that year, a public document was made by my head mod CrystalFlame alongside 2 other mods in the GT server, that exposed Veir and their actions. This document went mostly unnoticed. Even more, Crystal went through a lot of abuse for coming forward about their abuse and was almost ostracized from the UT AU community because of this.

Because of this, I was asked directly by one of the victims (and also representing the other victims) to please not speak up (Citing that they just wanted to move on and didn't want to involve themselves with more problems and expose themselves)

All the info was kept very vague from me, including the people who were involved, the extent of the stuff that went down, etc But I knew enough to know it was serious. I followed their request and didn't speak up publicly about this, but I banned Veir from my server, warned all of my mods and people close to me in those circles about Veir, and constantly tried to get Camila to please adress the situation. Despite this, she did not listen and we all know how stuff went down later in 2022, where the allegations came back again with full force. This time around I wasnt asked to stay silent so I spread the word around and confronted the entire mod team. I was shortly banned after that.

I needed to address this because this thing has been eating me alive for years. I was intentionally kept in the dark about a lot of context and nuance that would have completely changed my mind about speaking up or not about what happened in 2020.

Everything is easier in retrospective, and with the knowledge I now have about the situation I know for a fact that I would have spoken up about all that happened. But being asked directly to not speak up by the victims was something that goes against what I am Sorry for the long rant, but I really needed to get this off my chest. I am tired of having to deal with this kind of stuff. As a content creator/public figure I am trying my hardest to keep the communities I am active in as safe as possible.

I feel I could have done more for the Glitchtale community regarding the grooming situation, but all of the years of abuse that I endured really fucked up my judgement. I am not very good at dealing with people and I always trust the people close to help me for this kind of stuff

Sadly, in this case, those same people who were close to me were also the victims, so they couldnt have known or had a way to help me out, I should have helped them instead. Most if not all of what was described in this thread is backed up by screenshots, chat logs, and direct testimony from the people who were involved during this time.

I don't want to direct hate to anyone or start a witchhunt, I am doing this purely to decompress a bit and try to vent some of the trauma I experienced all these years.

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Jakei: (Transcription from my official twitter thread) I would also like to share my experiences about my relationship with the Glitchtale Creator, Camila Cuevas. Publicly, we appeared as close friends, but in reality, that friendship was based on bullying and mistreatment, and this affected my mental health deeply.

Years have passed, and the memories still cause me pain. I decided to remain silent, but after the revelations of grooming cases in her community, I realized I wasn’t being too sensitive. The time has come to speak up about my experiences.

During the early years of Underverse, I was dealing with a serious depressive episode. Simultaneous internal and external pressures as an independent artist amplified my mental strain. Meeting Camila felt like finding a genuine friend who shared my passion for the fandom and understood the struggles of being a content creator amidst toxicity. At my lowest, I became compliant to doing things that I didn’t want to, just to keep people around me happy. For Camila, this meant allowing her to belittle my work and make me the butt of her jokes.

Only our veteran followers may remember the 'roasting games' between us on Tumblr (consisting of mutual insults), a spectacle where she'd always win. However, it was a game she privately forced me to "play" and I ended up accepting, despite the discomfort it caused me. These 'games' would give her a cool and strong image in the fandom while painting me as the dumb, 'cringe-worthy' friend. In essence, I became her personal punching bag, unknowingly reinforcing his reputation.

Camila's favorite term to demean my series 'Underverse' was “Cancerverse”. It felt like a constant contest where she'd always position herself as the superior writer and animator simply because my story and animation techniques didn't fit her standards. Years of being subjected to her ridicule left my self-esteem in ruins. I was okay with the negative feedback by some fans, but when my 'friend' publicly disrespected my art, it made me question my abilities as an artist.

I can't deny there were times when she gave me advice to deal with hate or hurtful comments. However, her damaging comments and treatment outweighed those moments of support.

My depressive state worsened around July 2017, where I had accepted people pushing me to do things I wasn’t comfortable with, while being part of Camila's demeaning games, just to appease her ego. I was introduced to Nyx during this time, he offered his music for my series, and eventually we started dating. We met in person in Chile, where I also met Camila. I hoped our friendship would strengthen but everything felt the same. Before I moved to Chile with Nyx, Camila reached out to me in dms, attempting to turn me against him because he opposed the use of slurs in the GT server. She claimed Nyx was being 'brainwashed' by his American friends belonging to the black and LGBTQ+ communities. She made fun of my dating choices, suggesting I was entering a toxic relationship, while showing off her relationship with her then-boyfriend (later exposed as a pedophile). She even quoted her own mother assuring me that Nyx would 'get back to normal', and if it didn’t happen, she would let me live in her house, almost like if she was telling me that Nyx would hurt me or make me feel miserable.

It only took Nyx 3 months to realize that the GT server was going in the wrong way. I initially felt compelled to defend Camila due to my inferiority complex, but soon realized Nyx was right. (Jakei's note: Not only Nyx was right, a lot of people that called her out over the years were right, yet they were not listened to at the time)

Even then, I found it difficult to distance myself from Camila due to the false sense of obligation I felt towards her. My fear of her making fun of my work kept me from interacting with others in the short period of time I stayed in her Discord server. I was afraid that she and her echo chamber would talk behind my back, something that I found out was happening in private chats until recent years.

Rebuilding my self-esteem wasn't an easy task. I began noticing the red flags – Camila's lack of respect not only for me but Nyx also, the emotional manipulation Nyx was suffering from Veir (something he used to do all the time with his other victims), her attempts to 'roast' me in front of her family and fans in the Underverse/Glitchtale meetings, and her constant criticism of my artstyle not being compatible to hers in the few collabs we made.

All these 'small' instances, dismissed as insignificant by many, caused me immense pain while treating my depression. I felt it was too late to express how I felt, as I feared being labeled as attention-seeking or oversensitive by her and her fanbase. Ironically, the moment she talked about her traumas after being bullied in the past, her feelings were the only ones that mattered any time she was involved in a problematic situation in the fandom and deserved to be the only to get pats in the back.

I never expected a sincere apology, as I was convinced she didn't remember or didn't care about the hurt she caused. I tried to maintain a facade of good terms with her, both publicly and privately. Eventually, I distanced myself from her, unfriending her and banning her from my own server even if she didn't interact there. I started focusing on my own work and the people who appreciated it. Despite this, the aftermath of the bullying continued to affect me.

Everything fell into place when the grooming accusations against her former boyfriend and server mods came to light. It was a shocking revelation, but it validated all my doubts and fears about her. The purpose of sharing my experiences is not to stir up drama, but to address the concerns of those worried about my association with Camila. I want to make it clear that I will never tolerate such behavior. Although the things I did for her in the past cannot be erased, I hope Camila at least deletes the animation remake I did for her and all the collabs that boosted her views for free, though I'm not optimistic about it happening.

As I've matured, my hope is that she and her crew learn from their mistakes, start behaving like adults, and take responsibility for their actions in their future projects and with their new followers. But I'm skeptical about any real change, especially if their server continues to exist. The best course of action for me was to cut all ties with Camila and Glitchtale.

NyxTheShield (now my husband) and I have endured too much from our treatment by Camila. We no longer want to be associated with her or Glitchtale. It's a chapter of our lives that we wish to close. It's time for us to focus on recovering our mental health, as remaining silent is only prolonging our pain. We have been working to improve our mental and physical health over the past few years and this is a crucial part of our healing process.

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Feeling a little overly perceived by Dr. Dodson right now, not gonna lie.

I'll throw a transcript under the cut, but both reading the transcript and listening to the video can be difficult as it's quite long, so here's some highlights. As always, these are the opinions of a specialist but only one specialist, so take with a grain of salt, and if you have research to add to this, please feel free to comment or reblog with it. I believe this presentation is from sometime in 2022.

ADHD appears to derive from issues in the corpus striatum in the brain. In most people, the corpus striatum filters out all but the most important input AND output; with ADHD, the things normally handled "outside of awareness" must be handled consciously.

People with ADHD don't see their emotions coming. Emotion is immediate, intense, and unfiltered, making therapies like CBT or ACT difficult, because you can learn the technique but you won't have time to employ it. Because people with ADHD have impulse control issues, expressing emotions "inappropriately" is common, leading people with ADHD to believe they can't trust themselves.

One function of ADHD-typical dysregulation is Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, which nobody understands even a little. People who have it can't even adequately describe it to people who want to study it. It is intense, painful, and apparently impossible to control. Prevention is based in maladaptive behaviors designed to avoid it entirely (perfectionism, people pleasing, generalized withdrawal). The only currently known treatment is alpha agonist medication.

Lastly, by the age of twelve, a child with ADHD has likely received twenty thousand more "negative or corrective" messages than their neurotypical peers. (This isn't relevant to the rest, I just found it sufficiently horrifying to warrant inclusion. Fortunately for me, if I got 20,000 negative or corrective messages, I wasn't paying attention for most of them.)

Anyway, here's the transcript of the first half. I did this by copying and cleaning up the auto-transcript on YouTube, but I stopped at Question Time, so this is only the first half (the presentation). Transcription of the second half is available at YouTube.

There is suddenly a very large interest in the whole subject of emotional dysregulation and ADHD. That has been driven oddly enough by the Food and Drug Administration, which has just opened up several pathways that drug companies can study emotional dysregulation and whether or not their medications can get an FDA indication for emotional dysregulation. So it's sort of follow the money. Up until then, there was not a great deal of interest for ADHD emotional dysregulation.

We have to understand that the ADHD diagnostic criteria were not made for people like you and me, either practitioners or people who have ADHD or their families. They were designed for and made by people who do research and pretty much that's it. People who do research have to have criteria that they can physically see and count. "Little Johnny was up and out of his chair three times in the last hour," and you can write a three on your clipboard. Things which are invisible, not always there, hard to count, or even hidden by the patient, don't lend themselves to research very easily and so tend to be ignored. And so consequently this is one of the main reasons why emotional dysregulation -- until there was some other motive provided -- was pretty much ignored and disregarded.

Consequently ADHD right now, if you look at the 18 diagnostic criteria, are almost entirely behavioral criteria. What is the person doing? Not how is the person thinking, what is the patient feeling, how are they controlling their emotions, how are they sleeping. Things that are all very, very important to the person who has ADHD but which is essentially ignored by the diagnostic criteria.

Why should you care? Who really cares about this? Well, the definition of what ADHD is and isn't defines who and what will be studied. It defines who will actually get into a study and what questions will be asked. It defines who will be diagnosed with ADHD and who will not. One of the most common problems I get is with a secondary referral to me -- somebody clearly has ADHD but they're not pinging off the walls, they can sit and do their work, especially when they get into a hyperfocus, and so they're told they couldn't possibly have ADHD. When really they just have the inattentive subtype and they're not being driven by their behavior, their overt behavior. Therefore it defines who will get treatment, who will get insurance coverage for that treatment, and who will get accommodations in school when they're young and at the workplace when they're older.

Consequently we should also care because the other major components of ADHD get ignored. These are the ones that if you really stand back and look at it cause the greatest amount of impairment, the greatest amount of embarrassment, the greatest amount of just…problems in general. We're talking about cognition and thinking, that people with ADHD fundamentally think in a different way than do neurotypical people. They are able to engage with the tasks of their lives in a totally different way. Their ability to control their emotions and their behavior, control their emotional responses, tremendously affects their self-esteem and their self-definition. Who am I? What am I worth? What am I valued? Why am I valued in a certain way? What do other people think of me?

It affects tremendously the nature and healthiness of relationships. How you respond emotionally to the people in your realm makes a great deal of difference about the healthiness and gratification you get from your relationships. Being highly dysregulated in terms of your energy and emotions also affects deeply how well you sleep, how easy it is to fall asleep and awake refreshed, and of course it affects emotional dysregulation.

And this is probably, when you look at it in the long term and especially with adults, probably the most impairing part of the ADHD syndrome. The vast majority of people with ADHD have found ways around their academic and work performance, but they haven't found their way around their emotional reactions to the people and events of their lives.

At all points in the life cycle -- child, adolescent, adult, and elderly -- people who have ADHD nervous systems lead intense, passionate lives. Their highs are higher, their lows are lower, all of their emotions are much more intense. And that really is what we're talking about: not really the quality of the emotions -- people who have ADHD have the same types of emotions for the same reasons that everybody else does. What we're talking here, in terms of dysregulation, is two things: one, the expression of emotions, being able to choose whether or not you let an emotion out. And then, when you do decide to express it, how intensely that emotion is experienced and expressed by you as a unique individual.

Consequently just about everybody with ADHD, but especially little children, are always at some sort of risk of being overwhelmed by their own emotions from within themselves. This is something that needs to be really emphasized: a lot of people with ADHD grow up not being able to trust themselves.

So why is this happening, especially to people with ADHD? I think that just about everybody now would agree that ADHD is primarily a problem of insufficient inhibition, being able to slow down and keep things from happening. If you look at the mass of the human brain, 85% of all the nerves in your brain and out in your nervous system are inhibitory in function. We happen to be aware of the other 15% because we can see what happens when those nerves are used: they create movement, they create emotions, they create our experience and memory. We have to remember they are a minority of the actual mass of the human brain.

Most of what happens inside the brain occurs outside of awareness. What happens is the brain starts something, it gets it moving, and then uses inhibition to guide that toward the destination it wants. It's like shooting off a rocket -- shooting it off is the easy part, guiding it to where you want it to go is the hard part.

When you look at where stimulant class medications work, they work solely in the deep areas of the brain down in the basal ganglia, and especially in an area called the corpus striatum, which is just Latin for a "striped body". That's how it looks when you look at it -- it's got many very fine stripes in it. This area, the corpus striatum, is almost entirely inhibitory in function. What it does is that it inhibits neurological input and output to just the one piece of information or one action that happens to be most important at that time. Everything else gets handled, but it gets handled out of awareness.

Probably the easiest place to see this in action is when we're driving a car. Driving a car is the most difficult thing that the average human being ever has to learn how to do. It's a very difficult process, if anybody has ever had an adolescent learning to drive. But once we learn how to drive a car we do it largely outside of our own conscious awareness. We can drive along, talk to the person on the seat next to us, think about what we're going to have for dinner, sing along to the radio, and not really pay attention, conscious attention, to what's going on around us. But if suddenly something is out in front of the car, even before our conscious brain can process what that thing is, our corpus striatum has already handled it. Slam on the brakes, swerve to miss it, start to question that person's parentage, in the twinkling of an eye. The corpus striatum has been scanning everything, handling everything.

So basically what ADHD is, is that relative lack of inhibition that should be there. Inattention, which is a cardinal feature of ADHD, is the relative lack of the inhibition of other inputs or distractions. When we look at physiologically what's happening, we don't actually pay attention to one thing. Neurologically, we suppress every other thing we might engage with except the one thing that we want. It is maximally inefficient in that way.

Impulsivity is a relative lack of inhibition, of the expression of actions and emotions before you can think about them and make decisions about that expression. Hyperactivity is the relative lack of inhibition of physical and mental activity. When the physical activity of the hyperactive little boy who's pinging off a wall goes away in adolescence, they're still very much mentally active in their own brains.

So what? The “so what” for most of us is that when this area of the brain is not working as it should, people cannot regulate the experience and expression of their emotions. Emotions are experienced as completely unmodified and unscreened. The word that most people use is that they are raw. They come out without any modification at all, they go in without any modification at all. People can see this in hyperacusis, where somebody chewing or the conversation across the restaurant comes in loud and clear because it can't be screened out.

All this is tremendously overwhelming. We get overwhelmed by entirely too much input, and the impulse to have entirely too much output. It's exhausting, and when it does get inappropriately expressed it's embarrassing, so consequently people with ADHD must always be vigilant of themselves.

Now, when we look at the traditional therapies that have been used, or tried to be used, with ADHD, they have had very very poor track records. They're largely ineffective in helping people control the expression of what they think and feel. The reason for this is that people with ADHD don't see their own emotions, their own actions, coming. They find out about their emotions and actions the same way everybody else does: it's already out there before they even know that it's coming. Consequently they don't have the time and the warning to use the techniques and new skills that they may have learned in behavior modification therapy, or in cognitive therapy. They learned them, learned them perfectly well, but the cat’s out of the bag before they can make use of them.

Right now, as we sit here today, medications are the only thing we have to offer that have a proven track record, because they're there all the time. We have two basic groups: we have the stimulant class medications which are amphetamine, methylphenidate, et cetera, which help directly with inhibition. They help slow things down, they help inhibit both input that would distract us and output. It gives you the same two seconds that everybody else has, to see an emotion or an action coming up, to play it out in your mind. “If this happens then this will happen, then that'll happen. Oh, I don't want that to happen, I'll redirect it.”

The alpha agonist, of which we have two -- guanfacine and clonidine -- inhibit the energy driving the speed and intensity of response. Interesting enough, when we look at just clean effectiveness, when we measure how effective is this treatment, the alpha agonists are significantly more effective than are the stimulants. Usually that's kind of a false choice, because most people end up taking both classes of medication.

A very special type, I think, of emotional dysregulation is -- again a terrible technical term -- what's called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. We actually don't know what it is. It's much too early to tell. But it does seem to be a thing with which many people with ADHD identify. There was a brief article from ADDitude that got posted on Reddit, on their subreddit on ADHD; that particular posting got twice as many responses, in less than a month, than any other posting that had ever been put on that subreddit. It really touched a lot of people in a strong way.

In my own checklist, when I'm asking about Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, the question I have is: “For your entire life, in other words going all the way back into childhood, have you always been much more sensitive than other people you know to rejection, teasing, criticism, or your own perception that you’ve failed or fallen short?” This is directly from a psychiatric textbook, an old one, and it's the definition of a technical term, for psychiatrists called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria.

It's important to note, this is all a matter of degree. No one likes being rejected or criticized. Everybody hates it when we fail, we fall short, especially in front of other people. Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria is much more intense, and is much more than this universal discomfort.

When they were originally doing the research on this particular idea, 45 years ago, they wanted to get that intensity right up there in the name, and so they chose the word dysphoria -- which unfortunately happens to be Greek -- but it means “unbearable”. Because that was the description they were getting from people over and over and over again. Again, for reasons unknown, people with rejection sensitivity have trouble describing what the intense emotion is all about. They can describe its intensity -- “it's awful, it's terrible, it's catastrophic,” -- but not the quality of the mood. And so, over and over again, these research subjects would finally just tell the researcher, “Look, man, back off. I can't find words to tell you what this awful feeling feels like, but I want you to know I can hardly stand it.” And so that's where the word dysphoria came from. A researcher at Harvard who decided to put it into Greek, but that unbearable quality is very much a part of what's going on, a part of the experience of Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria.

It's extremely common in people with ADHD; my guess is that about 95% of my patients report it as a significant impairment, and about a third of my patients say that it is by far the most impairing part of their ADHD. For the majority of people, and most occurrences, it is not that particularly disruptive, but when it hits, it turns your life upside down.

So how is rejection sensitivity experienced? There's no warning. It hits out of the blue; there's no way to protect yourself from it. It happens all at once, it goes from zero to a hundred percent instantaneously. It is commonly experienced as being physically painful, as if someone just punched you in the chest or punched you in the stomach -- there's an aching in the core of your being.

Once it gets started it seems to be largely uncontrollable until it's run its course, whatever it is. The quality of the mood is indescribable. Most people struggle to find any words at all to describe this feeling, even though it's massively intense. The duration can be a few minutes to several months. It's a very potent experience and can make it very difficult to risk ever being rejected or criticized again.

If this very intense emotional reaction is internalized, it looks for all the world like an instantaneous major depression, complete with suicidal thinking. And so a lot of times people do get a diagnosis of major depression, because the clinician they're working with fails to pick up the triggered, instantaneous nature of the onset of that depressive-looking syndrome. If it's externalized, it presents as a rage that is directed at the person or situation that wounded them so terribly. In fact, being “wounded” is is a very common description. This sort of sudden trigger change, with an intense emotional response, not uncommonly leads to a misdiagnosis of borderline character organization.

So if you can't see it coming, and you can't do anything once it's happened, how do people try and protect themselves from episodes of rejection sensitivity happening in the first place? Some people use perfectionism; they try to be above reproach. They feel driven to be the very best at everything they do. These are the penultimate overachievers. It works, but it's also an absolutely terrible, driven way in which to live.

By far the most common response is that people become people pleasers. They are constantly scanning everybody around them and trying to figure out what that person wants or would approve of, and that's what they give them, so much so that it is the to the exclusion of what they want for their own lives. These are people who take care of others, please others, to the exclusion of any sort of gratification in their own lives.

Another very common way that people try to deal with this is that they give up trying anything new, giving up anything in which they might fail or be embarrassed. I have hundreds of patients who have never been able to apply for a job or ask someone of the opposite sex out for a date. Just the imagination of being told no is so frightening, so devastating, that they just say, “No, I'm not going there. I'll sit this one out.”

One of the most effective ways of dealing with this are the alpha agonist medications, and when they work they can be almost completely effective. Alpha agonist again is a tongue twisting name, but it's not as tongue-twisting as the full name, which is alpha-2 selective adrenergic agonists. So you can see why we shorten it a bit. They were originally blood pressure medications that came on the market in the early 1980s. They worked very poorly -- when they did work, at most they lowered blood pressure about 10%, which was measurable but it still required other things that needed to be done in order to get most people's blood pressure down into a therapeutic range.

We have two of them, guanfacine which was marketed both as immediate release and extended release under the name of Intuniv, and clonidine, which was marketed under the trade name of Kapvay, both as an immediate release product and as a delayed release product. They have been used as a treatment of the hyperactive component of ADHD for more than 30 years, so these are not new medications for the field of ADHD. They're very much the treatment of choice for the “hyperactive, disruptive, and obnoxious little boy” that is what most people have in their minds when they consider the notion of “What does a person with ADHD look like?”

The exact mechanism of action of these medications both in ADHD and especially in rejection sensitivity is highly unclear. We really don't know -- we have a couple of ideas but they are very definitely theoretical. The only thing that we know for sure is that the stimulants don't work by stimulating anything, and that the alpha agonists don't work by being alpha agonists. How they do work is completely unknown.

We have two medications, they seem to work equally well, so there's nothing that would lead you to choose one over the other. The problem is that the robust response that we're looking for that really changes people's lives, is disappointingly low -- at about 30% to either molecule. Luckily that 30% is a different 30% of people, so that 30% of people get a good response to guanfacine but it's largely a different 30% that get a response to clonidine. So if the first medication tried does not work, it makes good clinical sense that that one should be stopped and the other one tried. There was an unfortunately worded sentence in an article I wrote for ADDitude several years ago that gave the impression that you could use the two medications together; they should not be used together. You try one, if that doesn't work you try the other.

The typical dose of either one is in the range of three milligrams of guanfacine per day or about three tenths of a milligram of clonidine per day. If you take all the people who get a good robust response to either one of these medications, about 80% are going to end up at these doses, so it's by far the most common dose.

There are of course side effects. Anything that's going to adjust the adrenaline system of the body is going to have the potential for sedation as a side effect, and this does occur for about 25% of people. It's usually mild and it does go away -- over a period of several months. So a person has to be fairly patient with that. It can cause dry mouth, and it's by a different mechanism then the stimulants can cause dry mouth, so the two of them together can really make your mouth cottony dry. And the third one is an accentuation of a universal experience we've all had, when we stand up quickly and suddenly and we get dizzy, get kind of a head rush, vision goes a bit gray. The technical term for it is orthostasis. And this can happen more frequently when you take the alpha agonist medications.

The benefits of the alpha agonist medications take a while to develop. When you change the dose it takes five days for the benefits to develop, so once again they're not like the stimulants where what you see is what you get at one hour. It takes a while for these medications to work and to see all that they can do.

Now just as a side note, Strattera has been looked at in two studies for emotional dysregulation and the results have been what they call mixed. If they did work it was only to a very minimal degree, almost undetectable, so Strattera does not seem to be a medication one could use and expect to have it help with emotional dysregulation.

So in summary, emotional dysregulation is a basic feature of ADHD, is almost universal in ADHD, and it should be considered as a core symptom of ADHD that ought to be evaluated in every initial evaluation. Rejection sensitivity��it's unclear yet -- this is an old concept that has only been brought up in the last couple of years. Its exact nature is still unclear. It does seem to be a specific form of emotional dysregulation, especially in regard that it does respond very well to medication. But again, how it fits into emotional dysregulation is completely unclear at this point. It does seem to be something that's really important, though. It is a thing that resonates with a large number of people with ADHD.

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i wasnt gonna say any more about this on tumblr dot com but ive been watching tubbos stream out of curiosity and ruminating on it, because seeing screenshots and transcripts of dreams response video out of context the bullshit is blatantly obvious when you lay it out, but actually watching the video, he's just as persuasive as he was in 2020 when he made that response video about the speedrunning drama. even though the math doesn't check out, he speaks very confidently and presents bullshit things as if theyre obvious and true, it's easy to see why someone might believe him. so of course im sure tommy enjoyers around the world are worried that people will actually genuinely believe him and what that will mean for tommy.

i personally find it humorous how none of that vitriol and frothing at the mouth is present in the video itself, it's all been channeled into the sloppy bullshitting and forgery and baseless accusations. you have to understand, this video's target audience is his casual youtube audience consisting of ipad babies who watch his regurgitated minecraft slop and whoever else is tuning in for dream vs. tommy drama (aka, very few), he's trying VERY HARD to convince casual viewers that he's been VERY NORMAL about all of this and he's just making a little 9 minute video in response being very very nice and all sunshine and rainbows about tommy. yes they might have their disagreements but in the end dream is vewy proud of you tommy PleadingEyes (girl.)

but with this, assuming normal casual person tuning in at worst their conclusion is going to be these people both seem cringe. in terms of what a youtuber can be accused of, none of his accusations of tommy are that egregious even if they're baseless and bullshit because the intent is not to DESTROY TOMMY FOREVER it's to undermine tommy's credibility and get himself off scot free. in terms of the grand scheme, what he's accusing tommy off is just being an unserious clout chaser who's made some questionable business decisions, which is quite nothing. and dream is a loser for caring about something so nothing. when ive been looking around this seems to be the conclusion for people who are not waist deep in dream smp sludge

of course, it's infuriating that he's doing this, this seems to be his go-to when he receives criticism. to just attack other people's credibility to not even Have to address any criticism himself. why does it matter what they said? they clearly can't be trusted. unlike me, dream, a very normal and sane person who definitely didn't froth at the mouth with vitriol on twitter and onstream for 3 hours and make several reddit posts and then a youtube video because god forbid some people think he's an unpleasant person behind the scenes. i wonder why they think that!

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Justice for Love yourself!!!

Can you please explain why it's clearly the superior Bojere moment

YES I CAN. THANK YOU FOR ASKING.

now listen up people, especially those of you who let love yourself lose in round two of the vote. because this is one of THE bojere moments of all time and y'all let a real one get away.

because let's look at some evidence shall we. let's break down what is actually happening here.

Bojan's Bieber Journey

look at this man back in ESC 23. who is he. this is a man who is nervous as fuck, because he is sitting next to his new crush and now his crush is saying something about being boyfriends ?!?!?!?! LOOK AT HIS FACE. HE CAN'T HANDLE IT.

oh but it was a justin bieber reference, i can do a justin bieber song, he thinks. and then his crush is saying keep me, keep me. and he melts, oh how he melts.

but when justin bieber became their thing the first time, bojan was not ready for it. he is holding back, he doesn't know how to act around jere, he doesn't know what to do, he is awkward and crushing hard.

but then!!! nordic tour comes around!! and so much has happened since they met. and the moment presents itself, to make another justin bieber joke.

and this time, BOJAN IS FUCKING READY.

he has been on his jere journey. (he has been on his knees too, where everyone could see.) he is no longer awkward around jere, no. he is ready to play and he is ready to FLIRT.

so when his justin bieber redemption moment arrives, he puts his all into it. jere wants justin bieber? justin bieber he shall get.

2. The Double Sunglasses Situation

bojan (and this is an actual real transcription of his actual words and also thoughts): khihihihi i got your sunglasses what are you going to do about it, kiss me? well you're not getting them back. you're gonna have to wrestle me to the floor and sit on top of me and take them. oh are you going to tickle me about it? oh are we going to be rolling on the floor, our chests pressed together? oh are you going to breathe hard into my face? oh noooooo how could this happen khihihihihi and also hehehehehe.

let us not sit here and pretend that bojan wearing not only his own sunglasses on top of his head, but jere's on his face, isn't the most classic move for playfully teasing your crush.

you know, in your heart of hearts you all know, that he pulled those sunglasses sensually off of jere's face. you know he gave him one of his signature looks at the lips. you fucking know this.

3. Have You Ever Seen Jere Smile Like THAT

look at his face?! literally go back up and watch the video again. focus on his face. do i have to say more?! HE LOVES HIS BOJAN.

4. The Joker Boys and The Very Inconvenient Crush That Interrupts Their Workday

because what the fuck are bojan and jere even doing here. in the middle of a work day. with, i promise you, the rest of the band on stage, setting things up, giving each other looks like can you actually believe these two idiots.

just picture it. bojan and jere rolling around on the floor, giggling and play fighting over sunglasses while the other joker out guys huff and puff and cough very loudly setting up their little (not so little) stage.

those lovebirds could not give two shits!! all of the equipment could have spontaniously combusted and they would have been like ok well let us know when you guys have fixed it, we'll be over here looking at each other in the eyes and stroking each other's di- hair. they like to stroke each other's hair.

EDIT: OH AND BOJAN IS WEARING JERE'S SHIRT SO THERE IS THAT.

IN CONCLUSION:

Love Yourself is one of THE Bojere Moments of all time, it deserved so much better in the vote, and anyone who doesn't agree is just plain wrong.

CASE CLOSED. BANG, BANG, BANG.