i literally have a graduate degree in information & am a professional librarian & yet when i went to find something i was looking at earlier today instead of doing anything reasonable i somehow ended up searching the fanfiction website for a story with a link to the thing which linked to the thing. maybe they should fire me
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inch resting how i am such a nice, normal person up until the point where i get triggered by irl things that feel too much like being on tumblr, and then i lose my cool...
like (now, after a ton of therapy) im totally cool agreeing to disagree, or understanding that someone might have a different worldview but the same underlying beliefs as me, or understanding that the reaction they have to something might be different than mine but not fundamentally incompatible, and understanding that we are closer in our differing beliefs than either of us are to OTHER beliefs even when we disagree on the exact specifics of lefty progressive ideas... but then it gets to the gaslighting 'actually, the society has always been the way we're trying to change it to be, and this all makes perfect obvious sense as objective TRUTH, and you're the weird one if you think it's new or need an explanation because nothing has changed even though it OBVIOUSLY has' or 'actually these people believe [opposite of what they believe] and [deliberate misreading of what they believe]' and i black out 🙃
its a problem. it's an actual panic response or smth and i can't control myself very well when it happens. and also i don't like feeling compelled to censor my observations about the world around me, and i don't like watching others be asked to either. why can't people just acknowledge that they're asking for something new, and then defend it to people who find it confusing? If you can't defend something without lying and/or using emotional manipulation to get people to stop asking, then maybe you need to think it through more??? or at least accept that it's not THE objective truth?
i regularly find myself begging my therapist to tell me if what im saying is a 'normal people' belief or not because my perspective is so, SO skewed from being terminally On Tumblr for 12 years. i used to believe crazy shit, even when i didn't believe it anymore. imagine my shock when i learned that many of the absolute no-nos on this webbed site do not even register as anything to average progressive joe. that many of the strict, important social rules on here are seen as crazy as fuck by people who vote progressive, hold progressive values, but aren't in these no-nuance no-debate no-disagreement echo chambers? god it's confusing.
the world is so much more complicated than anyone wants to admit, it seems...
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"#BUT HE SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO GO THROUGH ANY OF THE STUFF HE DID." As if Maul didn't deserve everything that happened? After what he did to Obi-Wan?
ah, yes. i forgot that killing one person means he deserved the 19 years of torture before the incident and the 11-12 years trapped on lotho minor after the incident. that he deserved to be cut in half and then to live underground, crazed and not remembering anything but his own anger. like, do i think obi-wan cut him in a way that he would feel agony before he died?? yeah. he had touched the dark side and he wanted this guy to hurt the way he was hurting. but do i think obi-wan, for even a second, would think anyone deserved the life maul had on lotho minor?? no. i think he'd be sick knowing he caused that. and even sicker knowing that maul wasn't kept alive because he was selfishly clinging to life, but rather, he was kept alive unwillingly by his fury. not to mention that obi-wan is the only person to ever even try to appeal to maul. the only one to even acknowledge that he knows he didn't choose the dark side. if obi-wan doesn't think he deserved it then why do you??
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[me, trying to make a wildly specific character playlist] god does no one write any songs about what it feels like to be that one fucking horrible person with repeatedly demonstrated traitorous tendencies who nonetheless deep down secretly really wants to be the kind of man who stays loyal to the protagonist’s noble cause these days?
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I’m not sure why I’m still seeing people try to “re-write” Sakura to make a statement that she should’ve killed Sasuke. I’m not sure what part of teen Sasuke rejecting Sakura was so wrong because he wasn’t mentally in the right headspace to date someone.
Sasuke knew that it was not the right time and place for such a thing, and rejected it, because understandably, it would still get in his way. Would you rather have a girlfriend play mother and therapist to another person, or would you rather have someone just not burdened another person who is unqualified in dealing with their trauma?
As far as I’m aware, the worst thing Sasuke had done to her was just, knock her out to make sure she doesn’t follow him, or flat out reject her when she confessed in a literal warzone, and the several other instances because he was neck-deep in depression.
I’m not sure why that deserves death.
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gotta be honest it’s 8am and i haven’t slept and maybe i’m overreacting but i am so tired of having to get upset over this blog because i really do adore this blog
like i understand my posts are all silly and ooc and just for funsies without any deep meaning but it still feels really fucking bad when people steal them almost word for word without any sort of credit. like the LEAST you could do is repurpose them for a different show or set of characters! i usually can handle that even when it’s not sourced but literally just presenting my posts almost exactly as i posted them with the same fandom and characters just really makes me feel like shit. i understand it’s the internet and it happens and i don’t want to start any drama or directly call anyone out but seriously this blog is legitimately one of the very few things in my life that i don’t have to worry about making me unhappy
—but now it just is making me unhappy because, as much as it pains me to admit (sarcasm), i DO put a lot of thought and effort into my posts. there’s a reason i don’t post very often - half because honestly i’m busy and don’t get to be online 24/7 and ALSO because even though my posts are short i still take time to come up with them, format them, and adjust the wording which somehow makes it feel EXTRA shitty when you copy my post and then “fix” the wording to be better. like i KNOW a lot of my posts are silly and don’t get that many notes but i’m not putting effort in for clout or whatever i’m doing it because i genuinely enjoy it and love doing it so watching other people literally post my stuff for the exact opposite purpose feels really gross and just makes me want to go back and delete everything.
idk i might just be tired and overreacting this just isn’t even the first time i’ve seen this happen and this one was especially blatant about it being their ~original idea~ that it just kind of hurt WAY more than it should and i just feel awful now im sorry if you had to read all this i am just Tired.
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