Deja Vu pt 11
Alright! Letâs do this!
If youâre new around here you can find the first chapter [here] or if you just want a refresher you can find the previous chapter [here!]
Summary: Like most plans Remus and Janusâs have, this one starts off really great!
Word Count:Â 13351
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âI fucking hate you,â Virgil snarls under his breath, as Remus (lightly) shoves him in the direction he needs to walk. Heâd given up kicking and screaming about seven blocks and ten subway stops ago, after Remus had (not lightly) acquainted a concerned citizen who had stopped them with his fist, but Remus thinks he might have still been (very not lightly) biting out of sheer spite , if it werenât for the cute little face mask Remus shoved on his face before manhandling the reporter out of his own apartment.Â
âYou and Janus can rot in fucking hell together, assholes!â
âI love when you talk dirty to me, honey,â Remus says to him, grinning with all his teeth on display, sharp and pointed and freshly brushed with Virgilâs own shitty Aquafresh toothpaste that tasted like every type of bad mint flavor put together as a brilliant new torture method. âNow keep quiet and be more scared.â
âI should have just fucking killed you, you motherfucking, insaneâ â
Remus pinches him sharply in the side as a warning and his clever and completely accurate description yelps off into some even more creative swears.
Honestly, Remus would have loved to hear the rest of Virgilâs thoughts about him. It had been interesting to watch Virgil lose every ounce of his respect for Remus as Janus had started laying out the details of his plan; Interesting in the same way Remus thinks that watching someone perform an autopsy on his still-living body might be interesting, in the way that being buried alive in wet cement might be interesting, in the way that naming each piranha that takes a bite out of his limbs migh13t be interesting.Â
As far as plans that Janus had, this was shaping up to be one of Remusâs favorites already. The details were tedious and extensive, much more than Janusâs plans usually were, although with the way that Janus kept glancing at Remus throughout it Remus could understand why he was going so overboard with their timeline and plannings. The usual safety net they operated with (aka Remusâs fucked up power) was showing to have some decently large holes in it and those werenât just put there with Romanâs shitty Probability scam.Â
Virgilâs face had gone from pale to deathly pale to walking corpse pale in the matter of minutes.
Apparently not only watching Remus nod along to Fun Ideas, but also listening to Remus contribute to what is Absolutely the Best Idea They Have Ever Had was where Virgil had drawn his line in the sand and refused to cross it. But that was okay.
Virgilâs role did not exactly include him needing to be cooperative with it. Which Janus had planned for. Because he was amazing and Remus was in love.
And while part of Remus (the same part that still loved Roman for no reason, the same part that urged him to call his mother no matter how much it would hurt, the same part that was very clearly sadistic and wanted him dead in the slowest most painful ways) was rejoicing at things going back to normal, the vast majority of his psyche that wasnât already busy swooning over how normal Janus had looked waking up in the bed next to Remus, was mourning the loss of that good happy ending for him, Janus, and Virgil that had almost seemed possible for a whole, entire second.
Remus kinda hates himself for thinking it could have been a thing, for scanning through Janusâs face to wonder if he also felt like they had taken all the wrong turns and missed the exit to that future where Virgil stays with them, chooses them, believes that together they have something thatâs worth all the scary parts for.
âRemusâ Remus waitâ please you donât have to do thisâ â Virgil starts again, barely more than a murmur over the crowd that is around the target building. He digs his heels into the ground, but Remus just drags him along, elbowing their way through the thickets of people that apparently have nowhere else better to be and nothing better to do than gawk. The cameras are flashing, reporters from all the local news stations and a few national ones talking over each other, poster wavers protesting and applauding just about everything that can be protested and applauded, and despite it all, no one stops Remus or Virgil.
No one even looks at them twice.
âListen to me, dickhead! Thereâs still time to turn back and tell Janus he canâ â
Remusâs skin feels like it might be radioactive, like heâs glowing, burning, bristling and boiling all at once and thereâs not a single person who knows it. The last time he was in a crowd, it nearly killed him without anyone ever knowing what sort of things he could do, what sort of liar Roman could be, what sort of tragedy had bleed from their veins onto a car hood at 3AM.
The noise vibrates through his soul, into his bones, into his blood and it prickles the back of his neck in the way that a baby bird might get right before itâs sucked into the jet engine turbine of an economy class passenger plane.
He grips Virgilâs shoulder tightly, like a tether, pushing him along so that if Remus gets swallowed, Virgil will be right there with him. For better or worse or Death.Â
âOh my god!â Someone right next to them says, her camera inches from Remusâs face, sparkly nails glittering in the rare sun, right as he gets near the front of the lineâ because thereâs a fucking line, jeezâ Â elbowing at least six people who didnât have the brains to not be outside right now. âYouâre that guy! Oh my god, youâreâ !â
Last time he was in a crowd, they didnât know who Remus was. This time the crowd is going to learn how to mind their fucking manners.
âHey Roman!â Remus yells, dragging Virgil right in front of himself. âKNOCK KNOCK, MOTHER FUCKER!â
He gets maybe a second to see Romanâs face, the way his eyes jerk up on instinct at the sound of his name, the way that his mask hides most of his expression but not enough because he sees Remus and his mouth open in a rounded âoâ shape and his hand shifts to his rapier handle and, and, and.Â
And then Remus is shoving his boot into Virgilâs back and kicking his hostage directly in Roman, and sending them both through the propped open doors of the grand, sparkling Public Library that the FBE had commandeered.
âThis party looks boring,â Remus says loud and clear and maybe a little too excited for the flashing cameras and the screaming fans and the fight as he stands at the top of the flight of old granite stairs. âDonât worry, I brought some toys to spice it up!â
The news reporters surge like a tidal wave, the citizens stir up in the whirlpool of noise and signs. The police were already on site, keeping the nice little barrier between the building and the crowd so that brave souls could walk up to greet their grand hero, but the police saw Remus go toe-to-toe with Roman and everyone remembers that it ended with Remus holding a gun to Romanâs begging face.
The fear that wafts off them tastes like tear gas and his own burnt flesh.Â
Behind him, further in the building was already a commotion as Virgil hit the ground limbs tangled in Romanâs, scrambling away the best he can when his arms are tied behind his back with a truly insulting amount of duct tapeâJanus had found it in one of the drawers in Virgilâs kitchen while Remus had held him down with a great deal more delight than he should have had. The tumble probably left him with spotted bruises, maybe a sprained wrist, but it doesnât matter much because the farther back he tosses himself with reckless abandon leaves him crashing into Zeal as well.
Patton Hart. The name sounds made up, bizarre and foreign in the way that Remus canât explain so matter how long he spends staring at the high school picture online. He looks like someone, and also like no one; a combination of every friend that had chosen Roman over Remus and somehow that makes Remus feel absolutely nothing at all.
Patton melds out of the bookshelves and crowd like some concerned civilian and not someone who would commit war crimes if he was told not to think too much about it. Virgil lands almost completely in Pattonâs arms, throwing all his weight into him, because he figured out about twelve hours ago that Remus is far more insane than the heathen who wears socks with sandals and shoots down innocent people during a riot.
Roman barely manages to roll back to his feet before Remus is strolling towards him grinning in a way that makes the handful of privately hired guards that were âhelpingâ provide security to such a high profile location train their guns on him. Theyâre stationed strategically around the building, in more places than Janus had predicted: four along the back wall flagging the large stained glass windows, three at the check-in counters with the âdoctorsâ two on either side of the main doors and another two on the mezzanine level above. Itâs enough to make people think twice about causing trouble. There were probably more in the conference rooms where the actual testing was going on but those werenât Remusâs concern.
They would have...other problems soon if they werenât already facing them now.
Just like Janus said, none of these hired guards would dare start the fight themselves; not without Roman acting first, not without certainty that Remus would go down without a problem.Â
And considering how the last fight almost ended (back before Remus had even a theory of what Romanâs power was), if Remus had been in their boots heâd be scared too. Heâd be terrified of what a monster a Sibyl could be, what types of things they could know about him, what types of futures theyâd woven out of existence. The fear would clot in his arteries until he was unable to so much as twitch his finger to pull the trigger.
âHELP! SOMEONE, HELP!â Virgil screams, hints of his sonic power turning the air to static around them. âHEâS GOT A BOMB!â
Oh, yeah. And thereâs that too.
((Remus is twenty one. Heâs seen people shriek over thousands of dollars worth of casino coins spilling across a playing table, seen people scream over a flambeed corpse exploding out of a jewelry shop without warning, seen people screech over a body falling from a balcony onto a car windshield at 3AM, seen people panic in a riot started on a stage by a careless superhero; and still somehow the pitch of the yelling and chaos nearly catches him off guard, reaching a crescendo that even violins in a classical symphony in a stolen car in a future that Remus didnât choose failed to top.))
Roman stutters in his steps, unsure and doubtful and Remus shimmies his hands into the air, clearly showing off the one empty hand and the other very much full hand, spreading his jacket open so that everyone can see the vest he put together late last night, between pressing kisses into Janusâs mouth just because he could.
âAh, ah, ah,â he says loudly and proudly and completely unhinged in every way that everyone who ever knew him had expected him to turn out. His hands arenât shaking but he thinks they should be absolutely quivering with the urge to ruin the surprise before anyoneâs properly had time to be scared, before Romanâs had a chance to dig his own grave, before Remus has been able regret not kissing Janus one more time.Â
Thereâs a guard to his left, finger on the trigger, mouth in a firm line think, think, thinking.Â
Remus beams. âYou arenât going to like what happens if you take that shot. Even in your best dreams, Princey boy can only maybe save a few of you and even then the building is firewood. Thatâs the problem with old places like this.â
He canât see their eyes from under their visorsâ these faceless, emotionless people who could be anyone and anything from Remusâs own mother to Kyle from that casino who never found out that Remusâs bites when he kissesâ but the stiff lines of their mouths make it clear they at least arenât as trigger happy as the police were during the riot. The emblem on their shoulders is strange and threatening and very much not a good sign according to Janus: the white lotus flower looks very out of place on the deep navy blue padding and creates an interesting dichotomy to their violent, deadly weapons. Remus stares them down with his best smile.Â
âBut hey, I mean a 60:40 split ainât bad!â he says. âThereâs what, twenty people in here? That means about 12 people get out and the rest of us get to have an explosive end to all our days! A real bang! But of all the ways to go, I can tell you being blown up is pretty lame. Personal experience talking here: itâs over far too quickly for anyone to properly scream about it!â
âREMUS!âÂ
There was a time when Remus was six-seven-eight years old and the sound of Roman yelling his name meant that it was going to be a good day. There was a time when Remus was nine-ten-eleven and believed Roman called his name from love, that it was them against the world, that when Remus had nothing he would still have the brother he refused to let leave him behind. There was a time when Remus was seventeen years old and Remus would have given anything for Roman to say his name the way he used to and all he got was âI donât need you!â
This is none of those times and Remus feels the ache of the years apart like a physical pressure in the air. Roman is thereâ Remusâs neck cracks when he turns his head to look at his twinâ looking just the same as he was a few days ago: like a cartoon character pulled into the real world with only one obnoxiously white outfit that makes him memorable and wounds that donât stick past a few audience laughs. Topped with a red mask, red boots, red sashâ red like the blood in both their veins that doesnât have a single difference because they both have superpowers and Remus never should have been treated differently and Why is it so hard to just believe me for once?
Thereâs no hints of the wounds that Remus left on him: no bandages on his forehead from the gash that had bled over his eyes, no bruising from Remusâs shoe going into his cheek, no scratch marks or scuffs on his clothes to suggest that they had ever been in a fight. Almost as if Roman would tell him that the fight a million cameras caught and streamed nationwide had never happened at all and Remus was just sick.
âAnd if it isnât the man of the hour!â Remus calls with enough bite that the room seems to chill. âHiya, Ro! Can I just say, congratulations on day three of trending on Twitter! The number two spot isnât bad; although you arenât used to being number two, are you? I know Iâm not used to being number one!â
âAre you insane?!â Roman snaps out. His hair is gelled today, although his quick tumble knocked a bit of it out of place, so he looks like Babyâs First Prom Night With A Girl Who Asked Him Out As A Joke That He Still Thinks Is Genuine. The white of his outfit is offensive on all levels, the red accents just enough of a shade off from blood red that Remus wants to fix it for him by actually making him bleed! The golden tip of his rapier is out and ready for a fight but even with the long range, Remus is hilariously out of reach.
Maybe if Remus had come in with a gun, with a sword, with a knife or a smoke grenade it would have been a good fight, a good chance to bash his head in again and figure out if he would feel bad about Roman dying after all.
But thatâs the beauty of how Janusâs mind works isnât it? He almost laughs.Â
âDidnât we already cover this conversation, Roman?â He asks, grandly. âCome on, it's like you donât know me at all!â
He sweeps his hands in the air, watching the way that Romanâs eyes track the remote in his hand with a focus and intensity that borders on panic. The ridiculous mask on his face might be enough to keep the public in the dark about his inner thoughts, but Remus could read Roman like a picture book: creased lips hiding the way heâs nearly biting his tongue to remind himself to keep a calm face, wrinkle between his eyes that point to him running through all the different way that he might be able to save the day heroically, a twitch of his hands that imply heâs still not very good at following directions.
At the very least Patton is keeping an eye on the crowd (twenty, Remus thinks, all with various powers or weapons and all nervous and unsure about how this is about to go and who are about to be tested in ways they have never been prepared for) that they have trapped in the building, keeping them calm with low toned orders of back up! and weâll handle this! Weâre professionals! Virgil seems all too happy to have someone else handle things: even with his hands still bound he has no problem melding back with the other hostages, still struggling at the duct tape, out of sight and out of mind. Roman doesnât even flick his eyes over to check on any of them, as if he could magically make Remus forget anyone other than him exists through sheer force of a stare.
It feels ridiculously familiar, in the painful, stabbing way that everything that reminds him of their childhood feels painful. If he blinks at the wrong second, Remus will wake up and find himself on the school playground again after he told the wrong kid to stop running before he ends up slamming his head on the asphalt and that kid decided to take offense with Remusâs face for it.
Remus doesnât remember the name of that kid anymore, or their hair color, the sound of their voice or the feel of their tiny stupid fist or what shards of his skull Remus had gotten to see. He remembers that Roman hadnât been there when all the other kids had started backing up and watching with excitement that someone was finally, finally going to shut Remus up and none of the teachers stepped in until the fifth fist had landed.Â
He wonders if somewhere out there that kid without a name is maybe realizing that Remus wasnât lying about seeing him die. He wonders if that kid would feel sorry about punching him until the teachers had to pry him off Remus. He wonders if Roman really did feel sorry about not stopping it like how he had said he felt when he was helping Remus press ice packs to his body afterwards.Â
He wonders if Roman remembers that day at all.
âRemus,â Roman says. âGive me the switch. Please.â
âSo polite,â Remus croons.
âRemus, you donât need to blow yourself upâ â
Remus laughs. âOh this?â Remus says waving to his vest. âNah, this was just for laughs. I had some Christmas lights aroundâŠYou know! Reusing! I care a lot about the environment. My whole outfit is completely thrifted except for the parts that are not! But no, the real bombs are up there.â
It doesnât take anyone more than a few seconds to see them once Remus has nudged their attention upwards: the handful of flashing blinking red lights littered across the grand opulent ceiling, at the junctions that would bring down the whole flaming ceiling on them all, clinically tested by Remus. Someone screams and its fucking music to Remusâs ears. The air buzzes with panic that just barely avoids setting off the charges with electrostatic-physics-pseudo-magic. Remus meets Virgilâs gaze head on, and nearly laughs at how Virgil leans back into Pattonâs very capable, altar boy arms and desperately tries not to throw himself into an unfortunate panic attack that might get them all killed when his sonic waves interfere with the delicately placed devices.
âHowâŠ?â Roman says, flustered, red faced, and rightfully horrified.
âI know a guy, you might have met him, he goes by the name Basilisk. Tell me if this rings any bells but he can turn into literally any fucking animal, excuse my French. Public Library schematics are easily found onlineâ bet you didnât think that through when you chose this place to set up shop, right? And really who didnât spend their formative teen years trying to build things that blow up? The only actual hard part of all this was tying the bombs to my sexy squirrel boyfriend so he could sneak in through the skylight.â Remus says, eyeing the nails on his free hand, tsk-ing at the chipped nail polish he hadnât had time to fix while preparing everything for this moment.
Roman doesnât really flinch, but the tip of his rapier inches upwards at the mention of Janusâs self-picked name, and his teeth grit together just barely short of a sneer that offends every part of Remus on a spiritual level.Â
âI was here last nightâ â
âYeah, you were dealing with the molotov cocktail that was thrown through the window over there atâŠ. nine thirty-seven give or take a few seconds,â Remus jerks a thumb over to the window that had been shattered and boarded up by the time that anyone had actually woken up for the day. âReally, this is a public library, Bro. What will the public think when they hear you didnât even have the firemen come check the building out last night? And that instead of closing it down for today, like it should have been after an event like that, you went ahead and gave me twenty three shiny little hostages! And then we wouldnât be having this conversation and I wouldnât be trying to find a reason not toâŠlet go of this button.â
Behind him, Patton, or Zeal, or Whoever He Was, whispers something to Virgil and steadily lets go of him, only glancing back once to make sure that Virgil wonât drop to his knees and brain himself on the polished wooden floors. It's a close call from the light buzzing in the air that makes Remus think of TV static.Â
âPrince,â Zeal says warningly in a way that was probably meant to be a mumble but the staunch silence of the library crafted it into a local announcement. âThere are people in the back conference rooms having their evaluations done.â
âOh yeah!â Remus agrees, âTwo individuals and a mother with her seven year old daughter. I can even speed up the process for you: Linda Maddock makes really great chocolates, her daughter is super sweet and I hope that the first person stupid enough to break her heart gets eaten by a panther considering her daughter can speak to animals. But honestly they freak me out, you know? I mean, a parent who cares about their child? I wouldnât know what to do if that were me.âÂ
Something flashes through Zealâs face, short and fast and Remus thinks it might have been something like pity. Remusâs body aches from a riot that he almost didnât survive, his eyes burn from tear gas that had been avoidable, his tongue itches with all the things he wants to tell Patton Hart to do with his pity.
âThat information is confidential,â Roman says in a hard voice. âHow did you knowâ ?â
âI know a lot of things! In case it wasnât clear before, I can see the fucking future,â Remus says. Roman shifts a foot forward, and Remus holds up the mechanism again in case his ridiculously short minded brain forgot what exactly Remus was holding over all their heads. Literally. âThough, youâve got everyone so fucking sure they really are still back there. Where did you get your magical power scientists from, Roman? Where are their licenses? Iâve seen drug dealers with better certifications than these guys and thatâs after I hacked the FBE records to find out who would be hosting these registration interviews.âÂ
Remus chances a glance toward Virgil, who seems to freeze like a twenty year old Remus in an eighteen wheeler's headlights. One of the other civilians must have crept over as a silent bequest of Zeal because they were working at trying to quietly undo the duct tape now.
âI hope you get shot,â Virgil hisses, although from the lack of reactions from everyone around him Remus guesses that it was a display of Virgilâs frankly impressive sound control. A special secret message for Remus and Remus alone.Â
Remus winks at him and turns back to Roman. âHow do you know they didnât shuffle each of those people off into a big white van out back? How do you know those people who trusted you arenât screaming your name right now? How do you know any of them are coming back through those doors, Roman?â
Someone is crying. Remus would feel bad, if only he hadnât grown up being told his tears were pointless and changed nothing and didnât make anyone feel better. His fingers ache, pinpricks of pain that feel exactly like needles being methodically slid into each of his digits.
For a moment, he thinks about just opening his hand, letting go of the remote, and watching Romanâs face go from defensive to horrified to scared-out-of-his-mind. Something to pay back for the years and years and years of terror he inflicted on Remus. An end, The End and Remus wouldnât ever have to worry about figuring out his own emotions about a brainwashed, dumbass brother.
âNothing is going to happen,â Roman says, very heroically. âNothing like that isâ is that what you think Iâm doing here?! Kidnapping people?! You rigged the building with bombs because you think Iâm kidnapping people?!â
He sounds like Remus suggested he play an extra in a Broadway musical instead of the lead. He sounds like he doesnât think Remus is actually dangerous. He sounds like he did right before he told Remus that nothing bad was going to happen at that party four years ago.Â
He sounds like he still thinks Remus doesnât have a power. So sure, so certain, so indigent.Â
âWhat is it about his face that makes you people trust that?â Remus asks. âDo you even hear him? Roman, do I need to spell it out? Big Shadow Government. Preppy Dancing Monkey. A list with the names and addresses of everyone who has an ability and what it is.â
âFor getting resources to those that might need it!â Roman says.Â
âOh yeah, definitely not so certain people might go missing in the middle of the night. Do you also fall for Nigerian Prince phone call schemes, too? Whatâs your social security number?â
âWhat do you want, Remus,â Roman says, dangerously, less like a question and more like demanding permission to punch him in the face. Less like the actor Remus had spent seventeen years building up and more like the person who had thrown it all back in his face. Less like this façade heâd convinced everyone else is real, and more like who Remus knew he was underneath.
âPrince,â Zeal, Patton, whoever, says softly, warningly, nervously. It almost sounds like âplease donât do something stupidâ and âwhen do I start getting paid for being your babysitter Roman?â and âwhy do you always get to be the center of attention when Iâm just as morally unethical?â
âStay back,â Roman tells him, with all the authority of a man who doesnât believe a black hole would be able to kill him and Remus definitely wants to see what he would do.
âWhat I want,â Remus bites out, âis for you to be dead in a ditch, so disfigured that no one recognizes you and no one will remember you. But seeing as youâve been on international TV parading around bullshit and dumbassery, Iâm settling for you being dead and everyone hating you as much as I do.â
As if waiting for the right moment, the civilian helping Virgil finally manages to break through the duct tape and free him. Remus tenses his shoulders, bending his knees just so that if Virgil takes a flying lunge at him Remus can maybe dodge before his head is slammed through the polished wooden floor for all this.
But in the end Virgil just glowers at him like they hadnât just spent three days together, practically roommates except that Remus has never paid rent before in his life and is not about to start. He looks pale and sweaty but otherwise content to slip further and further away from Remus, from the stage heâd built, from the spotlight that Remus is certain will burn them all one day (maybe even today). It really was a shame finding out that he had opinions on Self Preservation and feared Death like it was something he could avoid forever if he never did anything slightly upsetting; Remus would have loved to see what other things that voice of his could do.
But then the civilian who was helping Virgil stands up again and Remus thinks that maybe it would have been better if Virgil had knocked him into his next life.
"Oh," Remus says, because he canât forget a death even if he tries; it doesnât matter who it is, when it is, where it is, Remus remembers, remembers, remembers when no one else will.Â
Sharp angels, pale skin, jet black hair tousled by the short sudden panic of the crowd when Remus had made his entrance but Remus only remembers all of that highlighted by humid rain and street lights of a road that he had never walked before. The manâs eyes are bright and blue and narrowed in suspicion through thick lenses with a finger print on them and Remus memorized the sound of construction workers, the feel of a weightless free fall, and the taste of a name he's never spoken.Â
Maybe itâs destiny, if Remus believed in something as benevolent as that. He squeezes the deadman's switch so hard he almost thinks he crushes it.Â
"Ainât this interesting!â He says. âA dead man walking! Future corpse! Howâs your life going, Logan?â
The other people shy away from Remus's sudden target, but Logan merely tips his head to the side without an ounce of fear towards the situation heâs currently in. There's less than ten feet between them, the ceiling rigged with all sorts of flashing lights that he and Janus spent a decent amount of time orchestrating; there's no reason he shouldn't be afraid, thereâs no reason that he should know that he dies somewhere else some time else, thereâs no reason that Remus should like that.Â
Unafraid people do unexpected things. Unafraid people think they know everything. Unafraid people tell Remus he canât see the future and then ruin his life a million times over because they donât know what itâs like to feel blood between their fingers and realize that every death is preventable if Remus kills himself enough for it and somehow that makes his life worth less than theirs.
"Is there something you need from me?" Logan asks neutrally. "Or rather any of us here. I believe that if you have drama to work out with... whatever The Prince is to you, then you have no need to keep any of the rest of us from our daily lives. This whole thing is already ridiculous without you wasting our time."Â
And Remus does believe itâs ridiculous and that heâs wasting their time. Thatâs the whole point of this; dragging each second out as far as he can take it and milking their attention for as much exposure time as he can. He wants this attention, he wants to be seen, he wants Roman to see him and thereâs something about Loganâs gaze that doesnât sit right with Remus so he--
--blinks.Â
"In fact," Logan continues, quite confident for someone who might not survive to see the sun again. "This entire thing will be resolved if you put down the weapon and try talking for once."Â
Remus, who had talked before, who had screamed, who had begged and cried and argued before, sings, "Oh, I sincerely doubt that."
Logan's eyes dart to the side glancing at the other hostages just for a second and the boy he's with, the young man with a Starbucks cup who's name Remus never learned shakes his head subtly. Logan clicks his tongue in something akin to disappointment or distaste, and sets his gaze back on Remus.Â
"I will try again then," Logan says, standing straighter, shoulders squared and spine far stronger than Romanâs had ever been. "Based on your previous actions and reactions, you don't have any actual motivation or urge to hurt anyone other than The Prince, and perhaps Zeal, although I doubt that as well. So you will step away from us and you will avoid hurting civilians in your endeavors to continue... this charade you have set up here. In fact, you will cease your performance because you do not believe it has any purpose in helping your ultimate cause of The Princeâs death."
Remus blinks, almost about to laugh, almost about to ask what Logan thinks this is going to accomplish, almost about to go back to Roman and Zeal and The Plan when his grip loosens and the remote falls into the empty air so much like a body tumbling down a manhole that Remus can do nothing but stare at it and wonder what the fuck just happened.Â
Logan smiles at him, smugly, condescendingly, pompously, and thatâs the last thing Remus sees before Roman is hurtling into him like a freight train.--Â
--blinks.
 âIn factââÂ
âStop,â Remus, who had talked before, who had screamed, who had begged and cried and argued before, blurts out like his ribs didnât nearly snap from the force of a blow that never happened. âWhat the fuck was that?â
Logan's eyes dart to the side glancing at the other hostages just for a second and the boy he's with, the young man with a Starbucks cup who's name Remus never learned looks just as bewildered as everyone else.Â
âI see,â Logan says slowly, a smile creeping across his face like a scythe glinting in the moonlight. âSo it did work. Fascinating. This entire thing will be resolved if you put down the weapon and try talking for once.âÂ
âNo,â Remus says.
Loganâs eyes narrow. He takes a step forward like he doesnât even notice Patton or Roman telling him to stop. His back straightens, and he towers and the people behind him inhale sharply and stare at him as if heâs lost his mind. âYouâre angry. Youâre angry and you donât think anything will change no matter what you do. It wonât, not like this. Not even you believe this will actually change anything about how The Prince sees you. So you will step away from us and you will avoid hurting civilians in your endeavors to continue.â
âLogan,â the kid warns.
âIn fact, you will cease your performance because you do not believe it has any purpose in helping your ultimate cause of The Princeâs death," Logan continues so certain, so convinced, so unchangeable.
Remusâs grip loosens and the remote falls into the empty air so much like a body tumbling down a manhole that Remus can do nothing but lunge for it again and brace for Roman diving into him like a wrecking ball.--
--shifts his weight to the side, favoring the ribs that arenât broken, the leg that isnât sprained, the arm that doesnât feel dislocated. âYou changed the script that time,â Remus says more to himself than to Logan. âWhy did you change the script?â
âIn factâ Pardon?â Logan says cut off from what he was saying.Â
âYour power,â Remus says, ignoring Romanâs claims for his attention. âPhrase activated? You changed the script but not all of it. Why didnât you change all of it?â
Logan seems to realize something, his chin shifting slightly, and his voice raising. He straightens his back and steps forward and the people behind him shift behind him like Loganâs flimsy little body will protect them from a bomb. âYou donât think you can win this without your power. No one in this room thinks you can win this without your power. Zeal and The Prince will attack right now because they are heroes and they can beat you.â
Remusâs mouth opens, but before he can make a sound, Roman is slamming into him, toppling them both to the ground and the remote skids out from Remusâs hand. --
--jerks reflectively from the impact that doesnât happen.Â
âIn factâ âÂ
âWhatâs your power?â Remus interrupts. âVoice activated? No, bitch, eyes on me. What is your stupid ass power?â
There are a billion seconds between them, a gazillion decisions to be made and Remusâs throat feels as dry as a polar desert. Each breath pricks at his skin, yanking at the invisible seams holding him together in a future that Remus isnât going to live through and Logan steps forward like he feels it too.
Loganâs too sharp, too keen, too knowing eyes dart back to Remus quick and lethal and evaluating. â...I donât think I should tell you that.â
âRemus!â Roman says from miles and eons and dimensions away. âYour issue is with me!â
âNot anymore,â Remus says and nearly laughs because he knew there were going to be problems in this plan, he knew there were going to be mistakes and consequences and Remus wasnât going to be able to rely on anyone to help but staring at Logan feels like staring at an exploding sun thatâs collateral damage is so vast thereâs no one left to acknowledge it.
Remus swore he wouldnât die, Remus swore he wouldnât use this power stupidly but Loganâs eyes are narrowing. When Loganâs mouth opens it feels like heâs talking to every version of Remus that has ever died, every version of Remus that wanted to live, every version of Remus that stood in a gas station bathroom clutching the grimy sink and staring at himself in a mirror with a giddy grin left over from being run over that first time.
 âHow many times are you going to go through this, Remus?â--
--grins with all his teeth.
âIn factâ â Logan continues and then he doesnât because Remus is lunging the distance between them without warning. He slams his fist into Loganâs face, knuckles scraping against Loganâs perfect teeth, shoving all those perfect words back into his mouth. He hears the wind go out of the room, the sudden stillness of shock, and the buzz of panic and click of seventeen triggers being pulled.
âDid I say you could talk?â Remus snarls, and thatâs the last thing he says before his inner organs all explode at the same time from a dozen dimestore guardâs guns.
He does not hear Roman scream his name. But then again⊠heâs not hearing anything anymore.--
--immediately knows that Logan has fucked up Janusâs plan to high hell.
"I'm wasting your time? What do you have to do so urgently, Logan?â Remus asks like his ribs didnât nearly snap from the force of a blow that never happened, his lungs arenât punctured with bullet wounds that tore through his body like paper, like his nose isnât suddenly stuffed up with more blood than the rest of his corpse. âDie?â
âRemus!â Roman snarls. âYour issue is with me! Leave everyone else out of it!â
Logan frowns, eyes narrowed and lips pinched into a mostly straight line that reminds Remus of the polished lid of a coffin right before itâs lowered into the ground. The bees in his guts swarm up to his ribs, flitting between his lungs until he has to focus to breathe regularly and not scream.
âDo you know you die from falling down an open manhole?â Remus asks, ignoring Roman entirely. âCompletely avoidable! If only you or your brother were paying slightly more attention!â
Said brother (younger, stupider, better) freezes at the comment, eyes hidden behind those aviator glasses that reflect Remusâs own silhouette right back at him. His iced coffee is clutched in his hand, still half full, with ice cubes clinking together silently compared to the rumbling tension in the room.
Romanâs signature is not on it. Remus isnât sure why that makes him want to fucking laugh.
âYou die, nerd,â he says. âNo do overs. No take backs. Noâ â
âI didnât,â Logan cuts in.
âYou will.â
âYou are misunderstanding,â Logan says loudly, taking a step forward in the way that makes several other people whimper and scoot back behind him like a shield they could trust to protect them and Remus clenches the deadmanâs switch in his hand tighter.
âLogan,â his brother hisses. âYou canât talk away a bomb!â
But Logan doesnât even look back. Heâs nearly Remusâs height, with the edges of his black trench coat sweeping around his calves when his slightly scuffed formal shoes, and Remus doesnât exactly feel like a frog on a dissection table but itâs a near and very interesting thing and he thinks that Janus would either fall hopelessly in love with Logan or put his claws through Loganâs lungs with no in-between.
âI did not die,â Logan says, slowly and pointedly like the teachers who thought that because Remus claimed to see the future that meant he was stupid because he didnât see their pop quizzes coming enough to study for them. âAlthough Iâm unsure how your power works, when we ran into each other previously you granted me the vision of my death. Yesterday, the event played nearly the same as what I had seen: I had taken off my glasses to clean them from the rain and the second before I had fallen, I caught myself. I was able to circumnavigate the manhole.â
Thereâs a beat where Remus is certain that the entire world freezes: the space of air that rings between the tick and the tock, the breath before a scream, the white nothingness that comes after Zeal hits him with his power.
Thereâs part of a scoff deep in his chest that trembles like an earthquake that only Remus can feel.Â
âIt was like Deja Vu,â Logan says, simply, clinically.
--âI didnât say anything about rain. I didnât say anything about you taking off your glasses. I didnât say anythingâ â--
--âDid you feel your death? Did your brother? Did he cry? Whatâs his name?â--
--âHow did you see that? What did you do that hundreds of other people have never been able to do? Why did you get to live?!â--
--âWhat the hell makes you so FUCKING special?â--
--âTHIS IS MY POWER! WHY DONâT I GET TO CONTROL WHO SEES THE FUTURE?!â--
Thereâs pressure in the back of Remusâs throat and it tastes like rainwater when he swallows. He instinctively drags his free hand under his nose, barely acknowledging the lack of real blood before he acknowledges the fury bubbling in his soul.Â
Logan stands in front of him, unbothered by his own death, untouched by the fear that people liked to look at Remus with, unchanged by the fact that he knows Remus has a power and what kind of bullshit is that?! Why of all the people, of all the times, of all the futures, why is it Logan who believes him? Why is it Logan who could see it?
((Remus is twenty one, but for a blink he feels like heâs thirteen again cornered in the boys locker room after gym with the other boys pressing him to tell them if one of the girls will say yes if they ask her out, and how does he know, is he sure, whereâs your proof, Remus? Come on thereâs gotta be something, I think youâre holding out on us, maybe this is jog your memoryâ ))
Remusâs laughter sounds like getting hit by a bullet train. âDeja Vu! Ha! Good one! Okay, nerd! You seem decently smart. Riddle me this: why did you choose to spend the rest of your life? At the FBE? You dragged your brother all the way out here, too?â
Loganâs expression flickers further towards annoyance. âAll persons with extraordinary abilities are required by lawâ â
âBlah, blah, blah,â Remus says. âIf all the other kids were jumping off the bridge would you jump too? Hereâs a hint: water from a 25 foot drop can still feel like concrete if you do it right enough.â
âDonât you mean âwrong enoughâ?â Zeal asks, looking queasy.
âDo I look like the type of person who means âwrong enoughâ, bitch?â Remus says. âOh come on, Pattie! You saw me in that crowd! I was less than a foot from you and I died three times in ways that were directly your fucking fault.â
âRemus!â Roman cries again, stepping forward even as his precious sidekick pales further.Â
âI believe we have entertained this far long enough,â Logan cuts in. He takes another step forward, gently pressing his glasses back up his nose, and Remus wants to know if he smells like rainwater and concrete. His voice is an orchestra that catches everyoneâs attention, including Romanâs, and for someone who is not a hero parading around on TV and taking autographs, Logan looks perfectly in his element. âThis entire thing will be resolved if you put down the weapon and try talking for once.âÂ
âYouâre right!â Remus says, twitching his nose as he feels the pressure of a nosebleed already starting to form. The right side of his body aches from the collision course Roman seems to be itching to throw them into, but he forces his muscles to tense and not give it away to anyone. âI am wasting your time. Iâm wasting everyoneâs time, arenât I, Logan? Letâs stop with the pleasantries! You want me to talk so much, then Iâll talk! Congratulations, everyone! Welcome to the trial!â Remus announces, as loudly as he can. His voice dances off the aching antique building making him impossible to mishear, much less ignore.Â
âYouâve been selected for jury duty and you donât get to opt out. And Logan, you just got promoted to the fucking chairman! So take a step back and shut the fuck up.â
Zeal takes an audible breath, drawing Remusâs attention like a snap. âI think weâve gotten off on the wrong foot here! Remus, if you have a power, we can get it documented right here! It will be official for everyone to see. All you have to do is hand over the remote and let us deactivate the bombs and get these people out of here. I promise.â
He offers out a hand gently to Remus as if he were a wild animal that just needed the healing power of God to fix whatever was wrong with him. Remus thinks about biting into his hand, chomping down until Zeal is screaming, until the bones shatter, until Remus is tasting blood that isnât his own.
âHard pass,â Remus says. âI can print out a certificate of Fucked Up-ness at Staples.â
âWhere is, uhm, Basilisk?â Zeal says, undeterred, and Remus remembers that expression from when a taser latched into his spine and killed him, from when he was looking at a wind maker and stole their power, from when he looked at Janus and raised his hand and Janus dropped like a brick. âHeâ or theyâ seemed to be more⊠uhmâŠâ
Remusâs jaw pinches. âI donât have him GPS tagged. Why? Do you think heâs a better conversationalist than me? I think Iâm offended, Altar Boy. Almost enough to just....â
He twitches his wrist and both Roman and Zeal jerk forward with twin looks of panic on their faces. Thatâs only aborted when Remus yanks the remote back and raises an eyebrow at both of them.
Logan purses his lips and checks his watch as if he has an appointment heâs going to be late for.
âJust kidding,â Remus says, cheerily. âIf we did that, then no one would have time to hate you as much as I do!â
Romanâs eyes flicker green, little lights that remind Remus of all the Christmases where Roman got everything on his wishlist and Remus got a new pair of shoes. The sight of it makes Remusâs teeth hurt, makes his stomach roll, makes the acrimony in his chest grow like a tumor that hasnât figured out if it's going to kill Remus yet.Â
Roman puffs his chest. âIf this is about me then let everyone else leave!â
âBut itâs not!â Remus smiles. âItâs not about you, Roman. Despite how every other thing in our lives has turned out, not everything is about you, specifically!â
Roman grits his teeth, "Really?" He waves his arms around. "Because it feels a lot like itâs all about me right now! Itâs time to end this Remus! Give me the remote, and we can get you help. See a specialistâ "
"Been there! Done that!" Remus says. "Or did you forget how many meds my specialists would put me on no matter how many times I told them it wasnât like that? Did you forget how Mom would grab my hair, yank my head back, and force pill after pill after pill into my mouth before school? How she'd stick her fingers in my mouth to make sure I didn't hide them under my tongue, because she didnât trust me? How she called the school to assign a teacher to watch me when we got to the building to make sure I didn't head straight to the restrooms to throw it all back up? Because surely that was the only reason I wasnât getting better."Â
Thereâs a silence in the room that Remus wasnât expecting. A stiffness that swallows the entire Library that makes the books and the shelves and the aching, ancient walls seem like theyâre suddenly listening to Remus too.
"What?" Zeal whispers.Â
"Is he telling the truth?" Logan asks Roman, and probably for the first time looks like he isnât trying to storm back out the doors.Â
"Thatâs like...that's gotta be illegal," Virgil adds. "So illegal. Oh my god, I'm gonna throw up."Â
((âDo you really think that you can keep your brother talking about himself for that long? Surely even he runs out of things he likes about himself,â Janus had asked a million years ago and a few hours ago and five seconds ago, while holding the fourth rough draft of their plan in his hands. And Remus had nearly snorted that last of Virgilâs tin roof sundae ice cream out his nose.
âIâm not going to be talking about him,â Remus, who was confident, who was in love, who knew Roman more than he knew himself, who was twenty one and stupid and so tired of hurting, says. âIâm going to be talking about me.â))
âWhere were you, Roman?â Remus asks just to push, push, pushhhhh. âHow could my life have been a living nightmare for every single day and you didn't notice at all? I was begging for someone to save me!â
The crowd shifts and mumbles and Remus can feel their apprehension rising like a hot air balloon in the middle of the library. Roman can probably feel it too.
âYou didnâtâ I wasnâtâ â Roman stutters like heâs looking for someone to break into the conversation and call out the line he forgot was in the script.
Remus just stares at him, a smile plastered to his face like a mask when everything underneath it felt he was being boiled alive. Brainwashed or not, someone else holding the strings or not, eleven minutes between them or not, this tastes like relief.
"Oh yeah?" Roman snarls, and just like that the hero persona finally evaporates, folding and twisting and warping Roman into someone completely different and very familiar and Iâm sorry they like me more than you! Maybe if you werenât such a freak you would have been invited too!
"Where were you, Remus? You want to pretend to be the victim here? Want to act like you've never done anything wrong? Where were you when I was drowning under Momâs expectations of a perfect son? Where were you when every single mistake I made was turned into a world ending event by her? Where were you when my power lashed out and got Dad killed?!"Â
"Getting run over on I-90 probably," Remus says. "Guess it depends on when he died. I could have been dropping toasters in the bathtub in a hotel in South Dakota or screwing up parkour in Chicago, too."Â
"Is everything a joke to you?"Â
"Do I look like Iâm laughing?" Remus laughs. "Why should I be sad about the death of the man who couldn't look me in the eyes for our ninth birthday?"Â
Because Remus had been nine years old and only eleven minutes younger and Roman had gotten to choose the cake flavor for them because Remus had seen Dad trip off the ladder when pulling their presents out from the hiding place in the attic and hadn't been able to stop crying all day. Because Remus had been nine years old and only eleven minutes younger and heâd heard Dad read Roman a bedtime story in his bedroom and then listened to the steps pass right by Remusâs room. Because heâd been nine years old and after that first diagnosis from his psychiatrist, after the first round of pills that hadnât worked, after that first time that they hadnât listened to him, their dad had disappeared out of Remusâs life.Â
As quiet as a ghost.
((Remus didnât know he was dead, dead, dead and in the ground. Gone and never coming back. Burned to ashes and scattered into the wind. Six feet under in a cemetery that Remus will never visit. Some part of him (the part that remembers bedtime stories read in silly voices, forehead kisses and hair ruffles, and hugs so big that Remus could disappear into them and forget about seeing blood on bumpers of silver sedans) howls.))
âReally, Roman,â Remus says, when Roman looks like he doesnât know what to do with that information anymore than Remus knows what to do with it. His voice doesnât shake, his throat doesnât burn, and his hand doesnât let go of the remote just to reach forward and strangle Roman to death, but Virgil is staring at him and Remus knows heâs not completely fooling everyone. âIf you want to throw the victim card back and forth we can, but you arenât going to win. You donât get it. Whatever happened, whatever bad thing occurred you always fucking had someone who cared about you. You had Mom. You had teachers. Doctors. Friends. Other students. Do you know what I had?â
((A snowglobe. An eighteen wheeler. A toaster. A noose, scissors, keys, a freefallâ))
âAn incorrect diagnosis,â Remus says. âThat wrecked my entire life.â
âItâs not incorrect!â Roman snaps. âYouâ!"
âEven if it wasnât! Even if I couldnât see the future, do you still think any of the way you treated me for my entire fucking life was fair? That it was fine? That it was good and role model worthy and you deserve to be looked up to?!â Remus yells, his voice echoing in the cavernous hall, maybe shaking, maybe cracking. âDo you?!â
Roman takes a step back and Remus takes a step forward.
"I was eight years old, Roman!" Remus yells, "I saw my brother die! I was scared and I was asking for help in the only way I knew how to!"Â
"You were making it up for attention! Just like youâve always done! Just like you're doing here! Now!" Roman says hotly, eyes burning, burning, burning. "You havenât changed a bit, Remus!"Â
âHeâs going to get everyone blown up,â Virgil strangles out.
Patton seems to be of the same opinion from how he calls out Romans name, barely more than a begging whimper of a catholic school child desperately trying to convince someone to avoid hell by just⊠not being gay.
Roman doesnât spare him a look, and Remus soaks up the attention like a sponge. If Remus was capable of being embarrassed he thinks he might be embarrassed at how delightfully his lungs fill up when Roman is glaring at him like nothing else in the world matters.Â
But hey, if Roman wants to dig a grave, who is Remus to stop him this time? Or all the times before this? All the times that never happened?
Who is Remus to shy away from all the things that Roman had grown into long before seventeen year old Remus had left him behind?
âDid it ever occur to you that I hadnât been?â Remus asks, because if he has enough air to breathe he has enough air to twist his own words into a noose to hang himself. âDid you ever wonder if maybe you werenât so special, Roman? Did you ever think I was worth the air I breathe?â
Roman doesnât answer. Roman doesnât answer and it feels like an answer all by itself. Remusâs freefall is ending in a collision, his thundering heart is exploding in his chest, his soul is finally finding that rest in the suddenly overwhelming static silence around them.
âI thought the world of you,â Remus says and he means it. âSome hero you turned out to be.â
He twists his wrist, shaking the remote between them.
âOkay, this is ridiculous!â Logan finally snaps out and Remus knows enough about wearing out peopleâs patience to know he reached the end of Loganâs. âWhy are we even entertaining any of this?!â
Logan shoves a pointed finger at Roman and Remus. âYou! And you! Both need therapy! Not to be jumping around like⊠like sophomoric imbeciles content to utterly disrupt the rest of our lives because of your puerile communication skills! Remus, I am sorry that your childhood was terrible, but it is not my job to facilitate or placate your uncouth attempts to find closure for the undoubtedly distressing attacks made against you by ignoramuses in your life. This entire farce is the exact reason why he is so confident in his ridiculously shallow minded insistence that you have no empathy, and you are smart enough to know that, which leads me to the conclusion that you are just wasting my personal time while you stall for Basilisk to finish whatever activity heâs been executing in the back area of this Library! And one! More! Thing!â
Remusâs mouth opens, a hundred billion futures rolling off his tongue, tripping on his molars, jumbling around in his throat all in the blink of an eye, in the pause of a breath, in the space between heart beats and still Remus isnât fast enough to stop Logan from talking.
ââthe bombs arenât even real!â Logan yells furiously. âThey are just flickering Christmas lights wrapped around probably empty boxes held together with duct tape!â
The entire globe seems to stop, and Remus can feel the jolt under his feet. Every noise seems to funnel directly out of existence before it can manifest. Remusâs lips ache from his grin, but thereâs not a single part of him that is smiling.
âWhy would you do that, Logan,â Remus says. âYou ruined the surprise.â
âWhat?â Roman echoes. âTheyâre fake?â
âI never said they were real,â Remus says, with a shrug, shifting his weight back. âI never even said I had a bomb! Everyone really is just willing to believe the worst things about me. Honestly I think Iâm offended! Seriously! What have I ever done to make all these very wonderful hostages believe Iâm capable of building a bomb, much less a dozen of them? And then get them into this building without anyone noticing at all? Shame on you! And Jannie, Iâm running out of topics to go through so if at any moment you'd like to finish up before Igetmybrainssplatteredâ"
Remus lunges to the side, just in time to avoid Romanâs lunge with his rapier, and then the deafening boom of gunfire hits the air he would have been if he were slightly slower. The glass doors crack and shatter and the screams start up again bouncing off the walls like thousands of firecracker filled pinballs.
âHey PitPat!â Remus says, âCatch!âÂ
Pattonâs eyes widen and he panics for a whole second, with the wispy white light flicking out like the worldâs most disappointing trick candles. Remus doesnât give him time to figure out the rest, flicking the remote in his hand into the air, to give sweet, sweet relief to his cramped wrist.
Patton lunges forward rolling on the ground and Remus doesnât wait to see if he actually caught it in his illogical distress. He grabs Romanâs rapier wrist and twists around him before the next round of bullets can find a target, shoving Romanâs hand in between his shoulder blades, in a way that he knows hurts.
âYouâre brainwashed,â Remus snarls right into Roman ear.Â
âAnd youâre fucking insane!â Roman yells right back. The world floods green and R--
--omanâs center of gravity drops as he curls forward, throwing Remus back into the line of fire, head over heels and several thousand curses on his tongue. The edge of the rapier scrapes the side of his neck, hot and blood and someone is screaming his name, harsh and violent and gratingly hopelessly worried. The vest takes two shots like fucking swords slamming into his already struggling lungs and Remus looks up just in time to see the next one inches from his fa--
--omanâs center of gravity drops as he curls forward, throwing Remusâs body over him like he weighs absolutely nothing and means even less to him. He twists his neck to side, barely avoiding the blade edge and someone screams his name like a prayer, like a call to a god that is not listening, like a beg to Roman to think for once in his fucking life. Remusâs lungs take two punches to them, and leaves him g-g-gasping for air where there is none. He spits out a curse right before that last bullet drives right through his jaw and everything around him explodes--
--emus lets go of Roman before he can leverage Remus into the air. His body rolls to the side, avoiding the bullets that send the crowds both outside and inside into a panicking screeching riot.Â
âREMY!â Logan screams and now he doesnât sound anything like the bold character who talked his way into getting Remus murdered.
Remusâs ankle catches on the floor tripping him into the polished hard wood so hard his teeth crack and his mouth blooms with blood, blood, blood. Bullets slam into his back, his shoulder blade, his spine tearing through the padding, and Remus catches sight of black combat boots in a forgotten iced coffee mixed with something far too scarlet to be anything but blood--
--emus lets go of Roman before he can leverage Remus into the air, and then he shoves him forward with all the strength that he can manage. The bullets freeze, terrified of hitting their own superhero, and Remus watches as Roman stumbles directly into Virgilâs arms, watches the way that Roman gathers his balance, his mouth curls into a grim thank you, as he shifts to turn back to Remus because like usual heâs not looking at the right mouth because Remus hates Roman but thereâs someone who hates him more right there--
--emus throws himself away from Roman with enough force that Roman goes stumbling directly into the line of fire that had previously been marked as Remusâs. The bullets freeze in the air, too worried, terrified, petrified at the idea of tearing through Romanâs precious paper skin. Remus chokes on his blood, spitting it out of his mouth before it causes him to vomit, his head riiiiiinging with the sounds of gunshots and screams from futures that arenât going to happen and ones that are.Â
Roman stumbles into Virgil, his rapier nearly tumbling to the ground from his twisted wrist. Virgilâs eyes widen, the whites gleaming in the artificial light. Remus feels the seconds grind to halt; everything happening so fast that his brain-mind-thoughts are moving hundreds of times faster than the events around them, than how rapidly his own body can move, than how quickly anyone else can seem to comprehend what is going to happen.
âItâs time to pick a side!â Remus yells, taking steps back. âArenât you tired of hiding? Of being alone?â
âItâs over Remus!â Roman shouts, eyes glowing green, green, green.
Thereâs an inhale.
Virgil has startling brown eyes, with speckles of purple in them.Â
Exhale.
âArenât you tired of being scared of Death?â Remus asks.Â
âYouâre the worst,â Virgil says clear as day, voice vibrating through the air like a sword slashing away all the other sound, his body moving as fluidly as air.
Roman has half a second, a fourth of a second, an eighth of a second to turn back at the sudden noise distortionâ itâs not even enough to recognize how Virgilâs fingers hooked his mask and dragged it down and how his tongue rolls wetly over his thin lips before they open andâ
Remus only has half of a second, a fourth of a second, and eighth of a second, to dive the fuck out of the way before the static air slams Roman at him like a brick wall. A catapult of Red and White and Regis flings over his shoulder and Remus canât stop himself from gawking at Roman slams into a shelf of books and topples it.Â
âGreat!â Virgil yells, âTheyâre going to revoke my library card now!â
But all Remus can do is laugh.
The nearest hired guard turns their gun towards Virgil and Virgil swears on Remusâs mother, as he throws up his arms like that would defend against a bullet to his face.
But before they can pull the trigger, another man appears from the back halls where the conference rooms were, wearing a doctorâs lab coat and glasses with graying out hair and charges recklessly right in between the guard and Virgil. The man is screaming something that Remus canât quite make out with all the static noise in the air but from the way that man points behind him and Remus canât help the grin on his face.
The guard hesitates for a moment looking where the doctor points and wellâŠthatâs all the time that Dr. Janus Witchall needs before heâs driving his knee into the manâs gut, just under his chest protector. The gun falls from the manâs hands and Janus spins and kicks him in the head like some type of martial artist master in a lab coat and Remus is swooning.
 âApologies, darling,â Janus says, scales dancing along his cheeks, as he pulls off the wire rimmed glasses and tosses them carelessly over his shoulder. His hair swoops back to the blond he prefers, and itâs like looking at a sophisticated version of Janus that had been forced to go to Med School instead of being forced to kill his only friend. âI hope I didnât keep you waiting for too long.â
âBasilisk!â Zeal yells, sounding wounded, sounding hurt, sounding betrayed. âWhat did youâ â
Janus smiles sweetly. âRelax, Patton. I left your doctors with some very lovely headaches. Please donât blame Mrs. Maddock too much; her daughter thought it was really funny when I told her I wanted to play a prank on her mom. Poor woman fainted the moment I grew a tail.â
Remus actually had the strong suspicion that it was less of the woman fainting and more of her sitting quietly as Janus knocked out the doctor and stole his clothes, considering she hated the whole FBE registration requirement with all of her heart and when Janus had visited her with about $30,000 in cash asking to dress up as her daughter, the woman had pushed the backpack away and said he could do it for free if he made sure to punch Roman in the face. Remus would even bet real money that the woman had calmly discussed tea flavors with Janus as he tied her up to make it look like sheâd been caught by surprise.
Remus didnât respect a lot of people, but Linda Maddock was probably one of his new favorite people.
Remus laughs bubbling like blood flavored champagne in his chest. âI was worried you were going to miss the party!â
Janus cartwheels over himself, driving his heel into the face of a hired gunman so hard the visor shatters and the man screams despite the No Talking sign right next to them. Even in the form of a forty seven year old, he moves with all the grace and fluidity of his regular self. âWhy do all your parties involve you covered in blood?â
âI think itâs really sexy of me to still be breathing right now!â
âCan the two of you flirt some other time?!â Virgil snarls ducking under a table and clamping his headphones to his head as Zealâs power misses him by inches. âSon of a bitch!âÂ
The remaining glass windows shatter at his exclamation, knocking several more gunmen to the ground away from him but Virgil very much looks like he didnât even notice them approaching. He squeezes his eyes close, gritting his teeth, and curls up like he jumped on a live grenade.
âJust fucking get out of here already!âÂ
Janus meets Remusâs eyes, gaze calculating with a question that Remus has already answered again and again and again.Â
âCome now, Dearest,â Janus says without needing to look at Virgil. âYou chose us, didnât you? Why would we leave without you?â
âFuck you!â
âAsshole!â Roman explodes out of the pile of books that Virgil acquainted his stupid perfect face with. Remus laughs, dodging forward out of the way of Romanâs recovery rapier slash by inches, centimeters, breaths.
Roman presses forward, blocking Remus out of his escape with that stupid sword of his, nearly nicking Remusâs fishnets, and Remus grabs a book from a shelf and throws it at his face before sliding around the aisle. Several of the civilians had launched this way when the gunfire had started and Remus didnât, doesnât, won't have a plan but he reaches out and is grabbing the first person he sees and yanking them in front of him as a barrier between him and Roman.
âYou wouldnât hurt a civilian!â Remus says facing Roman, gripping the kidâ ah fuck it was the kid form Loganâs futures, the one with the glasses and the ice coffee, the one that wanted Romanâs signature in a future that Remus hadnât realized didnât happen until it was too late.Â
The kidâ Remy? Remyâ was just tall enough to be annoying, with Remusâs hold on his throat from behind causing the kidâs spine to bend awkwardly at an angle that did not do either of them any favors. But even with him struggling like a fish on a hook, and Remusâs heart pounding like a drum at how Roman blocked him off from joining up with Janus and Virgil to get the fuck out of here.
Roman pants, snarling but doesnât attack. âYou dishonorableâ â
âSorry, I wasnât afforded a childhood that allowed me to have honor,â Remus says dragging Remy and himself back another several steps, and ignoring the sound of something crunching under his boot.
Remy, Loganâs brother, swears and claws at Remusâs arm.
âShut up and work with me if you donât want to die,â Remus growls under his breath.
âBitch!â The boy spat out. âThose were my favorite glasses!âÂ
To their left, a guard flings through the air and crashes through the elegant stained glass windows and into the crowd outside. Roman throws his arms up to protect himself from the onslaught of sound vibrations and books tumbling off the shelves.
Remus spits blood out of his mouth and grabs the collar of Remyâs jacket and hoists him through the nearest door away from Roman. He shoves the kid forward and yanks the door closed behind them, swirling around to find something to block it with. Except that, Remusâs lungs scream when he recognizes the bland concrete stairwell that must lead up to the mezzanine level, and that his hostage had already scrambled up the first half flight while Remus was wasting his time.Â
Remus takes the stairs two at a time, ignoring the way that the fight rings and echoes in the confines around him. He scoops up Remy again, catching him before the fist can land in his face and tripping the kid before he can get any good contact with Remusâs shins.
âDidnât anyone ever teach you how to actually fight?â Remus asks.
âGirl, Iâm too cute to be involved in fights!â the kid says. âLet go, man! Logan willâ âÂ
Remus kicks open the door to the mezzanine floor, ducking out of the way of several stray bullets before he drags Remy out with him. He feels like the air is shattering, like gravity is working from every direction to tear his limbs apart, like every single one of the bullets that whizzed by had actually exploded through his rib cage.Â
Remus had only glanced at the mezzanine floor when he had been looking at the floor plans, plotting where he and Janus could place the fake bombs while everyone was concerned about the little fire up front. When he had come inside the library there had been two guards up on the level watching with a critical eye but the cavernous layout of the main entrance made the âbombsâ still too far away to make out.Â
Virgilâs sound vibrations had knocked one of them to the floor so hard heâd been knocked out, and Remus didnât see the other one, though he kept Remy pinned in front of him as he checked the shelves with a quick look and then analyzed the fight down below.
The drop is close to twenty feet, and Remus has jumped, skipped, fallen, danced off higher, but his stomach churns at the sight.Â
Remus swears under his breath, âThis is not where I want to be.â
The blood in the back of his throat tastes like death, like his esophagus had suddenly decided to go through emergency surgery, like his stomach acids had suddenly gotten formed a union and were rebelling against working conditions. He could jump, leave Remy right up here for Roman to console, he could jump and roll and only shatter his leg into a billion ways. He could fall and break his neck, he could spring and belly flop and hope that Janus could move fast enough to catch him.Â
Janus flips, swinging a tail around behind him to knock two different attackers in their throats. He might be able to grow wings if Remus tested his adrenaline enough, but Janus moving so fast wouldâŠ. wellâŠVirgil is back-to-back with him, hands raised and every projectile shot towards him slams to a stop and drops to the ground as if there was an invisible wall in front of him. If Janus chose to save Remus, Virgilâs back wouldnât be protected.
âLOGAN!â Remy screams from Remusâs arms and from the awkward angle behind the receptionist desk Loganâs face pops up in distress.
Janus yells something to Zeal, but it's Loganâs cadence that answers back.Â
âYo, Banshee!â Remus yells ducking as the bookshelf holding Eastern European history books explodes under gunfire. âFlood the building with white noise!â
âWhat?!â Virgil screams. âDo I look like a white noise machine to you?!â
âLoganâs power is voice-fucking-activated!â Remus yells back, hauling Remy up when he trips on the threadbare carpet. âShut him up before he says something worthwhile!â
Virgil doesnât respond but it doesnât matter much because Remusâs ears are ringing and he can hear the door behind them slam open with Romanâs signature heroic entrance and Remus is out of time.Â
âThereâs nowhere to go, Remus!â Roman yells.
Remus shouldnât look. Remus shouldnât look. Remus shouldnât look anywhere but at Janus who is so far down below yelling out something about a plan, but at Virgil who is nodding to him, but at his own future because he promised himself heâd stop dying when he didnât need to and if he dies than everything about this was just wasted time.
But then in front of him, miles away and only twenty feet at the same time, Roman is screaming his name from across the ocean of wood floors, furious and angry and green eyes alight and--
--And Roman is standing there in the kitchen, winded, out of breath, his lips on the cusp of a smile that Remus hasnât seen ever directed at him since they were eight years old and didnât know about five words or silver sedans or how alone sharing a room could feel. He looks happy, lovely, free; like who he would have been, if Remus hadnât loved him with all that he was. The sunlight pouring in from between the curtain windows paints him like a golden angel, like a god blessed hero, like something more than Roman Regis.Â
It matches the blood stain on this chest.--Â
-- and that green light washes over the mezzanine level diving right into the ancient, antique wood boards with all the grace of a pretty ineffective light show, and Remus has his mouth open to stall for more time, any more time, any time he can get before he has to admit he failed.
The entire building shakes from the sound vibrations Virgil is sending off, and Remus is holding a child hostage in front of him and there are no kitchens here and Roman probably deserves it if he was going to be shot dead suddenly and Remusâs skin is breaking out in goosebumps and his throat is sore and he thinks that all the screaming in the world will probably never reach Roman if nothing else today had.Â
âD-donât come closer, Roman!â
But Roman is looking at the ground with a wide eyed, panicked expression. âWait, Remusâ !â
Remusâs foot slides back the last step.The railing is digging into his back, the kid is clawing at his already injured arm and Remus feels the cracking before he hears it.Â
Thereâs a rumble under Remusâs shoes that he almost believes is his brain misunderstanding gravity for a moment, that the combined weight of him and the are muddling with his ability to stand on his own two legs, that maybe heâs more injured than he really knew, bleeding from a place he hadnât realized because heâs so used to the unwavering high of losing all the blood inside of him. But then the vibrations race through Remusâs entire body enough to make him stumble and almost lose his grip on the boyâs jacket. And the poppoppoping and tingtingting of the gunfire around them is drowned out completely by the aching, brittle snap, snap, snapping.Â
âOh fuck,â Remus grounds out just as the railing and the ancient wooden floors splinter under his and the kidâs combined weight and Remus plunges into a freefall that tastes like a thunderstorm at 3AM.
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