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#while my brain is completely fried idk how. and do other lab stuff. sigh...
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#tomorrow is the day the measurements start. the start of my 40+ days of torment. but idk im glad its finally here#i dont have to dread it anymore. hopefully its the last time i have to do these type of measurements#i was talking to my boss yesterday and she was like: oh last timr we were out i realized this might be ur last time doing lpi for thr rest#of ur life. and i was like god i hope so. bc thats a process where i crawl across the ground for 50m per transect and identify all the#plants and soil cover and for the life of me i cant fucking remember plant codes. i hate it bc i basically have to talk for like 3hrs and#have someone standing over my shoulder recording me and all the while my brain is screaminf at me bc field work doesnt count as real work#in my stupid brain. so yea ill do lpi and soil stability as benign torment in purgatory#but anyway. im hesitantly optimistic abt the measurements i have to take bc im going to try my best to make it ok bc i have school#interviews looming and i have to pretend im hanging on by more than a single thread ya kno#so we r going to b careful abt it. well at least well see how long it lasts. i also have tk find the time to read a bunch before interviews#while my brain is completely fried idk how. and do other lab stuff. sigh...#idk im probably going to take measurements all the way thru sunday and then monday see if i can fill out patent intake info with a psy#psychiatrist. and hope they take my insurance. i called and checked for providers and they were the only one in the area so shoulf b ok but#ya kno. god im barely a functional person. like the fact that i have to drive 8min down the road is very nearly enough for me to say fuck#it. id rather suffer forever. i just hate driving so much :-P#i just wish i could focus enough to make words make sense and justify the time i spend to learn things. agh#lmao im such an anxious person. a lab mate had a birthday today and my boss and a fellow lab member surprised her with a cake#and im v worried abt when my birthday happens. it wasnt so bad last time bc another birthday was also that week so the focus was off me a#lil but with my boss leaving this school i was like. yes. i escape the surprise gathering. but probably not. same for when i leave#genuinely i do not want a gathering. i just feel like im waiting for them to end. not that i dont like my lab mates but idk it feels so#artificial. and i feel awkward bc i never make eye contact or look at anyone in a way i think is typical bc i see ppl look at me#like turn their head to see my reaction to something and i just like fundamentally do not understand that impulse#whatever. what i want for my birthday or going away is to not attend the gathering. make it more like a wake lol#but i kno that wont happen. last year my boss asked whst i wanted and i said nothing and she said that wasnt allowed#im just so neurotic that if u try to do anything for me itll prob just upset me. but idk ppl like to give presents and stuff#and sometimes things arent all abt me. so i just gotta accept it and go cry abt it later#but thats like 3 months away so i dont kno why im so stressed abt it now. I've got more pressing things to stress abt#unrelated
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Our Little Secret
Bruce Banner x Daughter!Reader 
Peter Parker x Reader
Summary/Request- I kind of want where the reader is a teen and has a father-daughter relationship with Bruce and hulk doesn’t hurt her And she all strong, sassy, not showing emotion and like dumbs herself down in front of everyone else but not with Bruce she shows her true funny, smart self something like that idk it’s sorta specific sorry. And a peter Parker x reader.
Message- Here’s the second fic rec! It’s from @ihaveamaskon
Word Count- 1385
You had a secret, a secret that only one other person on the planet knew. You’re smart, really smart, like you have a higher IQ than Tony Stark smart. You’re strong to and bullet proof, your brains and strength were things you inherited from your dad Bruce Banner. But you hid these traits away from the outside world, at the urging of your father. He wanted you to blend in and stay safe, according to him it was bad enough that had a target on your back because of who he was, he didn’t want people to go after you because of your own talents as well. So you took it to the extreme, you acted dumb, like a complete air head.  You continued this even when you and your Dad moved into Avengers Tower. But in your defense if was really funny and it always made your Dad laugh.
“Good morning, Y/N.” Friday says as you walk
“Hi, FRIDAY!” You say in your high pitched sing song voice. “So when is JARVIS coming back?”
“He’s not. Remember, Honey? Jarvis is in Vision now.” Tony says in a soft voice.
“Oh! You were promoted? Maybe you can show me where your old office is!!” You ask Vision. This has been a ‘game’ you’ve been playing since you first arrived, you act like you think Jarvis is a man in a room with a microphone in an office. Everyone sighs and Tony launches into a patient explanation about how JARVIS and FRIDAY are AI’s.
“Come on, Y/N, you can do your class work while I work in the lab.” Your Dad says.
“Ugh, internet school is sooo hard.” You groan. Then you follow your dad out of the room and down to the lab.
“So how’s your experiment going?” You dad asks as you enter the lab.
“Pretty good, the cells are reacting like I hypothesized they would.” You say as you move to your section of the lab, dropping your voice down to its regular octave.
“I still can’t believe my kid is getting her PHD in her teens.” You dad murmurs.
“Well I get my smarts from you, so I don’t know why you’re so astonished.” You say as you look into your microscope.
“Tony’s worried about you.” Your dad murmurs after a couple of minutes of silence.
“Why?” You ask.
“On our date yesterday he was telling me about all of these programs and therapists he found for you. He wants to help and he kept talking about getting you all these tutors and specialists. He thinks you need to socialize with people your own age. He even offered to pay to send you to private school.” Your Dad murmurs.
“Aww, he does care.” You say.
“Of course he does. He refers to you as his step daughter, you know.” Your Dad says.
“We could tell him, you know.” You say.
“Soon.” Your Dad murmurs.
“Dr. Banner, Tony and a guest are requesting entry into your lab.” Friday says.
“Let them in, Fri.” You say before you move to the desk with the open laptop you have set up.
“Hey guys, this is Peter. He’s the new recruit.” Tony says.  “This is Bruce and Y/N Banner. I thought Peter could help Y/N with her school work, since they’re in the same grade.”
“That’s a nice thought, Tony. But Y/N is doing fine.” Your Dad says.
“Well, maybe they can just hang out. Y/N, you don’t really have any friends your own age right?” Tony asks.
“Right!” You say.
“Okay, it’s settled then!” Tony says as he claps his hands. “Here’s some money go have fun.” He murmurs as he shoves a couple hundred dollars into your hand.
“Thanks, Tones!” You squeal and then you grab Peters hand and drag him out of the lab.
“So, where do you go to school?” Peter asks as the two of you wait in line for ice cream.
“Online.” You say. Then the two of you start talking about classes and other things. Peter was nice and funny and took everything you said in stride. He wasn’t treating you like you were dumb either- even though you were acting like you were. Eventually the two of you have to go back to the tower.
***
It had been a month since Tony introduced you to Peter. The two of you hung out constantly and Tony couldn’t be more thrilled about it. He always had this huge smile on his face when he saw you and Peter talking quietly to one another.
“You and Peter are getting close.” Your Dad says as you work on your dissertation.
“Yeah, he’s really nice and funny.” You mumble. Then the building shakes. “What was that?”
“I don’t know.” Your Dad murmurs. Then men with guns storm the lab and drag you and your dad into the common room. Everyone is handcuffed or knocked out. They shove you onto the couch and you look to your dad, his skin is rippling green.
“Dad.” You murmur.
“It’s fine.” He grunts out. All of the men are focused on tying your Dad up. So you rush them, knocking 3 of them out immediately. Then the remaining men turn to shoot you, all of your fathers teammates start to yell and scream, but the bullets just crush as they hit your skin. The entire room falls quiet and you finish knocking all of the intruders out. You turn to your Dad- who was mid transformation. You wait calmly.
“Hello.” You say as the Hulk grunts.
“Y/N/N.” Hulk says.
“How’ve you been? It’s been a while?”
“Good. How school?” Hulk grunts out.
“Pretty good, I started my dissertation this year.” You answer.
“Good. Y/N/N strong like Hulk, smart like little guy.” Hulk says.
“Yeah, I got the best of both of you.” You say as you smile. You glance over to the rest of the rest of the Avengers. Their all staring at you with shocked expressions. Tony and Peter both look betrayed. “I need Dad back.”
“No, I protect you.” Hulk grunts out.
“I know and you’re so good at that, but I need Dad back now.” You say and Hulk nods and starts to shrink down and the two of you share a panicked look.
“What the heck was that?” Tony yells. Then you and your Dad explain everything. How you were actually a super strong, bullet proof, genius and everyone accepts it with a quick nod and they leave the room, taking the intruders with them.
“Why didn’t you tell me? I-I thought what we had….Obviously I was wrong.” Tony says as his shoulders slump. Peter hadn’t said anything he was just looking at you with a funny look on his face.
“We were going to tell you- both of you- soon. It’s just we’ve gotten so used to it. It was the best way to protect me growing up.” You say. “Tony, you’re amazing and I’ve wanted to tell you the second you asked Dad out, but it-.”
“I-I get it. I’m hurt, but I understand. Growing up with a target on your back must have been rough and I’m sure having people underestimate you has saved you more than once. I’m glad I know now, think of all the cool stuff we can invent together- as a family.” Tony says as he slings an arm over your shoulder.
“Thanks….Pops.” You say and Tony’s grin gets even bigger. Peters still staring at you and Tony notices.
“We’ll leave you kids to talk.” Tony says as he wraps his arm around your Dads waist to lead him out of the room.
“Hey.” You murmur as you sit down next to Peter.
“So, you’re smart.” Peter murmurs.
“Yeah, like really smart.” You say as you grin at Peter.
“S-So you lied?” Peter asks.
“Kinda, but if it makes you feel any better. I’ve wanted to tell you the truth since the day we met.” You say.
“Really?”
“Yeah, you’re the nicest person I’ve ever met. I-I think I’m falling in love with you.” You murmur and Peter gasps and then he gently pulls your face to his and gives you a chaste kiss.
“Hey, Parker, stop kissing my kid!” Tony shouts from the next room. You pull away from Peter as you chuckle.
“Would you go on a date with me?” Peter asks.
“Yeah, that sounds great.” You murmur before pulling Peter back into another kiss.
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