#why did they zoom in on cas looking all sad and concerned when dean is talking about this

[decapodparty]

scenes i take out of context to mean whatever i want

[shirtlesssammy]

6x22: The Man Who Knew Too Much

Then:

I will never forgive the show for this pain

Now:

Sam is running for his life and pops into a bar to escape the cops. Duma The bartender tells him to leave and grabs a bat, but Sam begs and she relents. She asks him his name, but he doesn’t remember. 

She tries helping him retrace his steps. He doesn’t remember anything before two cops finding him and him taking them down before running. She tells him that he needs to go to the doctor. He refuses. There’s somewhere he has to be --something he has to stop. 

Sam sees a HP Lovecraft book and has flashes of Bobby and the Nite Owl Hotel. The bartender makes one final push to take Sam to the hospital, but he needs to get to that hotel. She offers to drive. 

Once there, Sam instinctively knows to go to one room. They break in to find the room one giant murder board. She also finds his fake IDs.

Sam has another --longer-- flashback to Bobby, Dean, and him finding Eleanor in an alley, dying. She tells them they know how to crack Purgatory open. 

They plan on opening the door at noon --a solar eclipse. 

Cas flaps in and apologizes. 

Dean wants a fight, but Cas is beyond that. He tells them to go home and just let him stop Raphael. ”I wish it hadn't come to this. Well rest assured, when this is all over, I will save Sam, but only if you stand down.”

He then breaks Sam’s wall. 

In the present day, Sam remembers his name, and doesn’t want to tell Robin (she has a name!--had to look that up though) because it would be crazy. Sam remembers Bobby --but only finds his address. Robin decides it’s her time to bounce. Sam decides to drive his car --his car the Impala --his car-- to Sioux Falls. 

Robin tries stopping him from doing that though. He might not like what he finds. 

Sam’s spidey sense kicks in and he tackles Robin to the ground as the window to the Impala gets shot out. Sam gets back up again to see himself aiming a gun at him. 

Wherps. Sam’s actually comatose in the warded room in Bobby’s basement. Bobby comes in and they recap how royally boned they are. 

Dream Sam and Robin start driving. Robin starts freaking out about their situation. Dean flashes a light at Sam’s eyes, and suddenly it’s day in Sam’s world. “It was night, and now it’s day.” Robin is DONE. Sam hears a noise and convinces her to get back in the car. He grabs a shotgun and heads into the forest. His other self stalks him behind a tree. 

The other Sam breaks down what happened --and reveals that he’s Sam without a soul. He wants to take charge in Sam’s noggin. Sam takes off running and they engage in The Most Dangerous Game until our Sam outsmarts Soulless Sam and shoots him in the back. “If you think I’m bad, wait until you meet the other one,” Soulless Sam says, and dies. His essence is absorbed into Sam.

Sam returns to the car, with many memories restored.

For DAMN She’s Fine Science:

Unfortunately, one of the memories Sam retrieved was of a monster who was using her as a shield. Sam shot and killed her, Soulless Sammy style, to get her out of his way. RUDE. (I totally forgot about this during the later Amara soulless arcs - I don’t know why I keep trying to hold Sam up as this peak virtuous character?) Robin poofs away, having fulfilled her role as the ghost of Christmas past. 

At Bobby’s, Dean drinks and IS SAD. 

Balthazar flaps in to mock Dean and Bobby - but also reassure them that he’s still on their side. He hands over Cas’s whereabouts and flaps away. 

Meanwhile, Crowley hands over the Purgatory spell mix (a jar of blood) to Cas. 

Castiel looks contemplative, and quietly informs Crowley that he’s re-negotiating their agreement. He refuses to hand any souls over to Crowley. Cas advises Crowley to either flee or die. And I’M SORRY but I’m into it. Crowley zaps away. 

Sam sneaks his way into a seriously over-dramatically lit room. SAM, your mind XD. The drama llama who decorates with a hundred candles turns out to be none other than Sam Winchester, victim of hellish torture. 

For 80’s Angsty Music Video Science:

Dean leaves the address Balthazar gave them by Sam’s head and bids him farewell. Mournfully. Just before he departs, he gently lays a gun on Sammy’s bed right next to the note. DEAN WINCHESTER, that’s not safe gun handling. Smh

Sam’s goth self tells him that Tortured Sam has to be reabsorbed before Sam can wake up. Sam trades his gun for a knife - for extra drama apparently - then stabs himself and sucks in all that extra soul whammy. In the bunker, he flails dramatically on the cot. 

Balthazar flaps in to meet Cas, who is deeply concerned that Dean’s on his way. He notes that he’s been betrayed and orders Balthazar to root out the mole. Balthazar is a TERRIBLE LIAR the entire conversation. 

“I’m doing my best in impossible circumstances,” Cas says. Still, he’s being plotted against and he finds it super frustrating. Balthazar continues to bluster away, confident that he’s fooled his friend. Flapping behind a poorly dissembling Balthazar, Cas stabs him. Balthazar burns away. Noooooooo!

Dean and Bobby pull up to the building and find it’s fully guarded by angels. They’re grousing about their odds when a massive cloud of demons swoops in. The demons upend the Impala and assault the compound while Castiel pours over the spell. Crowley flaps in to meet Cas, who immediately moves to smite him.

“You can palm me all you want,” Crowley flirts, but he’s got a new BFF. Raphael flaps in. Crowley and Raphael chastise Cas for his power overreach. It looks like the end for our hero! Cas tosses the jar of Purgatory blood to Crowley and flaps away. 

Crowley and Raphael perform the Purgatory gateway spell. (Side note: hey, remember when Michael just snapped his fingers and made a door into Purgatory in the last season? Good times, good times.) Dean and Bobby claw their way out of the Impala and sneak into the ritual. Unfortunately for them, they’re found out immediately and flung across the room. 

A worse-for-wear Sam stumbles past the Impala, and then heads for Crowley’s lair.

Crowley finishes the spell with a flourish only for...nothing to happen. Cas flaps in holding a half-empty jar. He had the real blood all along! Castiel glows with power, and Rave!Cas is born? “They’re all inside me. Millions upon millions of souls.” Crowley flaps away, which is smart...because Cas snaps his finger and explodes Raphael. 

He smiles serenely at Dean and Bobby. Okay, just kidding. He ONLY has eyes for Dean, who counsels him to send the souls back to Purgatory before the eclipse window...er...eclipses. Castiel is not on board with this plan! He needs to visit holy rage upon Raphael’s followers in Heaven. 

“We were family once. I’d’ve died for you,” Dean tells him. “I’ve lost Lisa. I’ve lost Ben. Now I’ve lost Sam. Don’t make me lose you too.” Cas hears it and...tosses it aside. And then he tells Dean the REALLY BAD NEWS. They’re not family!

Oh, also, he’s declaring himself the new god and he’d really prefer their flannel-clad shoulders to be prostrate before him. We end on stacked zoom footage which reminds us that yes, Robert Singer sure did direct this episode. 

I Am Your Quotes Now:

I love what you've done with the place. It's very Beautiful Mind meets Se7en

I am all filled up on crazy for today

You will bow down and profess your love unto me, your Lord. Or I shall destroy you

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Destiel Chronicles

Vol. LXVII

It was a love story from the very beginning.

You are the one in my heart (Part III)

(11x14)

Hello! Third part of this topic here! Very romantic!

I want to say thank you to @destielle , my beta fixing all this mess and making it readable! Thank you girl! 😘💕

We gonna talk about 'The Vessel', episode 11x14, it’s the one in which Dean discovers that Cas is possessed by Lucifer which leads to a huge change in his priorities.

Casifer takes advantage

When Dean and Sam call Castiel for his assistance with time travel, the cunning Archangel sees an opportunity in it.

Gif credit @mostly10

Dean has plenty of trust in his friend Castiel, but this will drive him into a series of events that won’t end good. So the whole point of the scene where they outline the plan of getting a specific weapon together is to get one point across: Dean’s trust in Castiel. Which also occurs to Casifer as he will take advantage of it.

But not just Dean trusts him, Sam, too.

When Casifer is not able to get inside the submarine, Sam thinks he’s sharing the same concerns with his friend Cas, reading wrongly from Casifers reaction. Lucifer gets so disgusted and done with all the corny love, worries and "sincere brotherhood" between Sam and Cas that he gets mad, maybe kind of jealous even, and reacts by openly showing himself and hurting Sam by reaching for his soul. 

That's when Castiel fights his way back to control, blocking Lucifer and speaking to Sam for a brief moment. And that’s when we find out what was raging inside Castiel's hurt heart to make him say yes to Lucifer…

Gif set credit @subcas

SAM: Cas? Why?

CASTIEL: I wanted to be of service to the fight. And only Lucifer can beat her.

SAM: You chose this? You have to fight, Cas! Eject him now!

CASTIEL: I can't! It's taking all my strength to keep him from killing you. And besides, we need him!

SAM: No Cas, we don't. We'll find another way to stop Amara!

CASTIEL: We need him to save Dean.

SAM: You can't time travel.

CASTIEL: Only Lucifer can.

Castiel wanted this. Castiel was feeling so useless and therefore desperate that it led him to do this.

And now Lucifer has the As. Sam and Cas need him to get Dean back from the time travel.

The Vessel

There's a scene in the submarine, where Delphine asks Dean to kill her. That’s a nod to the title of the episode, because we are representatively talking about Castiel here. Because Cas is the vessel. 

This is a Berens episode, so we should keep in mind that he likes to parallel cut scenes to make us see something, opening up new perspectives, connections… and he chose to parallel Daphne asking Dean to kill her with American Marines fighting a war against Germans. Why? Because to kill the vessel for the greater good is a war decision. BECAUSE LETTING  LUCIFER FIGHT USING CASTIEL'S VESSEL EVEN IF IT MEANS CASTIEL DYING FOR THE GREATER GOOD IS A WAR DECISION.

Pay attention to this…

DELPHINE (whispering) Kill me.

DEAN I don't have to kill you. Okay, I can just cut it, it will work.

Dean doesn't want to kill her, even if that's the wiser thing to do. 

DELPHINE Not with this. It's spell-bound to my blood, my heart. It’s power lives and dies with me. Do it!

This is a reflection of Castiel's vessel being possessed by Lucifer.

Lucifer knows 

One of my favorite scenes is Lucifer mocking Sam while mocking Dean's feelings for Castiel…

LUCIFER: I will touch your soul. Just because you asked so nicely, and I'll use your spell to blast through the warding and retrieve Dean and the uh, Hand of God, and then when Dean comes back and he finds this place decorated with your guts, I will tell him the truth, Sam. I'll just say, 'Dean - '

[LUCIFER pauses and smiles, before putting on his CASTIEL voice.]

Gif credit @danistiel 👇

- 'Dean… he knew the risks. He wouldn't take no for an answer.'

SAM: Lucifer.

LUCIFER: In the flesh.

Lucifer not just imitates Castiel's voice, but Castiel's puppy eyes as if he was looking at Dean. He is mocking the eye fucking, the feelings Dean has for his angel. He is mocking it because he knows about their relationship, every angel and demon knows about them, and now Lucifer knows it too, because he is inside of Cas. Because he senses Dean's longing for Castiel and vice versa. And he mocks them.

So… Lucifer knows… Sammy knows… and Amara noticing Castiel's beautiful blue eyes, calling him "blue eyes" is noticing his charm, too.

"I was just a witness"

Before I continue talking here I want to clarify something: Dean felt sorry for the submarine crew, but he was MORE WORRIED AND SADDER ABOUT LOSING CASTIEL IN FRONT OF HIS EYES.

With that being said, I want you to recall the way Delphine dies while using the Hand of God. She literally exploded because her body (her vessel) couldn't handle such a power. Dean saw that with his own two eyes.

After this he witnesses Casifer handling the Hand of God, of course he didn't know the weapon couldn't be used twice then. That's why Dean screams NO!!!! desperately, with horror in his eyes, because he thought right there Castiel's vessel could be destroyed in front of him just like Daphne was.

Then… at the end of the episode, we have this dialogue between Sam and Dean.

SAM: So.

DEAN So. Cas.

SAM: Yeah. What do we do?

DEAN: What else? We hunt Lucifer, trap the bastard, and save Cas.

SAM: Like I said. Lucifer may be in control now, but Cas may not come back willingly. I mean he chose it.

Gif credit @pinkman

DEAN: No. No, not possible.

Dean brings up the Cas topic, sitting alone, brooding, sad, worried. Sam sees him and approaches him like a good brother, to comfort him. 

Sam tries to explain that it was Castiel's choice, but Dean doesn't want to believe him, he says: ‘NO. NO, NOT IMPOSSIBLE.’ He denies it three times, with such a broken heart, you can tell from the look in his eyes.

So… what does Sammy? He changes the subject…

SAM: So how'd you get through today? I mean what did you do?

DEAN: Nothing. Sam, they…

[DEAN stares out over the water as he shakes his head. He looks close to tears.]

Gif credit @spacedudeee

DEAN: I was just a witness.

But Dean keeps talking about Cas here. He is sad, and mad at himself because he didn't see the signs. He didn't see Castiel's depression, he didn't want to hear his own voice saying Cas was acting weird. He wasn't there for Cas. And now he is in great danger. He could lose Castiel forever. And that's the one thing in his head, in his heart. That's the only topic he can think about. The following episodes will show us DEAN IS DESPERATE, DEAN ONLY WANTS TO GET CASTIEL BACK AT ANY COST. AMARA IS NOT THE CENTER OF HIS ATTENTION ANYMORE. ALL HIS THOUGHTS AND WORRIES ARE FOCUSED ON CASTIEL.

SAM: Do you wanna talk about it?

DEAN: No. No, story for another day.

Gif credit @hallowedbecastiel 👇

Gif credit @sammyhale

Sam also knows why his brother is so down. He knows it, but as always he respects the time Dean's needs to take first.

The camera zooms out, leaving behind a devastated Dean. Is he sad for the crew and Delphine? Of course, yes. But he only got to know them because he couldn’t see what was happening with Cas. And now it’s lost forever. Just like Cas could be.

We already know from previous episodes that Castiel is the one Dean is pining for, the one he is in love with, the one he desires. The only one in his heart. Writers enlightened us about that and now they're showing us unshed tears in Dean's eyes… because he could lose the love of his life... forever.

To Conclude: 

This episode talked about CASTIEL. And how Dean regrets not noticing his friend wasn't his friend anymore. This feelings are so strong and sad in Dean's heart that he even was about to cry.

Losing Castiel because he didn't see it coming, will be a heavy weight on his shoulders. 

And we saw the foreshadow of the war decision we will meet again in episode 11x18. War decision vs Heart decision.

Hope you liked this! See you in the next one!

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[hanny-writes-spn]

Time Heals All

Word Count: 1792

Pairing: Sam x Reader

Warnings: Loss of a fiance, mentions of canon type violence

A/N: This is my (very late) entry for @luci-in-trenchcoats 2K fic challenge!! My quote was, “I guess because every woman I’ve ever had relations with hasn’t ended well.” It’s bolded within this fic. Thank you so much Michelle for being so understanding and giving me an extension, and congratulations on 2K (and now 3K!!) :-)

Also, thank you to my wonderful betas @melonshino and @like-a-bag-of-potatoes! I don’t know what I would do without you two :-)

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Nothing prepared you for a life of hunting.

It was thrust upon you when your fiance, Ryan, was attacked and killed by a werewolf during a camping trip, you were pushed into the life trying to get the revenge you felt he deserved. Sam and Dean Winchester were the reason you were alive and walked away from that dreadful night - that was the same night you struck up a deal with them. They agreed to help you end that werewolf, on the one condition that would be the only thing you would hunt. Ever.

Clearly, that agreement didn’t hold up.

You caught and killed the werewolf two years ago, but here you were, sitting next to Sam in the front seat of the Impala coming home from a simple salt and burn. You were letting your mind wander as you watched the dim lights of the night zoom past you, making you wonder what else was lurking in the darkness.

“Y/N? Are you okay? You’re awfully quiet tonight,” Sam nudged you gently. The concern in his eyes made you smile as you shrugged and nodded.

Your eyes lingered on him a little bit longer than you felt that they should have. Sam was incredibly easy on the eyes.

“Yeah, I’m just tired… how much longer until we get home?”

“About 10 hours or so. Depends how much I drive like Dean.”

You chuckled and looked at your watch. It was 2 AM and you really wanted a bed. Sure, you could in theory sleep anywhere (you had lost count the amount of times you slept in the back seat of the car) but tonight, a bed was calling your name.

“Do you mind if we stop for the night?”

You saw a sigh of relief leave Sam’s shoulders as he graciously nodded and pulled into the nearest motel parking lot. Sam started collecting your bags as you went to the front desk to buy a room for the night.

“Hi, can I get one room with two beds?” you asked groggily, taking out your credit card and running your fingers over the raised numbers. Using stolen credit cards always made you so paranoid.

After a few taps on the computer, the receptionist shook her head. “Sorry, sweetie. The only available room we have has one king sized bed.”

You stood and contemplated. Sharing a bed with Sam wouldn’t be the end of the world, right? You nodded and took the key from her hand and went to the room.

But as you paid you felt a little guilty doing so, yet you couldn’t exactly pinpoint why.

“I requested one room with one bed so I could finally fulfill my deepest, darkest fantasy of getting you into bed, Sam Winchester,” you joked with a wink, leading Sam to the motel room. Of course whenever you flirted with Sam it was done jokingly so, although sometimes you were serious.

He laughed aloud, like he always did when you flirted with him, but this time you swear you could have seen his cheeks flush.

“But seriously, this was all they had left… I hope you don’t mind.”

Sam just shrugged and gave you a weak smile in return. “No, that’s okay,” he barely said above a whisper.

Your relationship with Sam and Dean was brotherly, for the most part. They were your protectors, your friends, and your roommates. They held you when the nightmares came and you comforted them after bad hunts. You and Dean got along well right from the beginning, but with Sam you had to work for it.

From stories you heard from Cas, it was usually the other way around. Sam was usually the friendlier one, but for some reason with you, Dean opened up to you easier than Sam did.

Your theory as to why Dean was open to you was because you brought something helpful to the table - your computer skills were above average to say the least. You learned code at a young age and you were hacking into the FBI database by age 12. Dean was eager to let you help them through technology (as long as you stayed in the bunker, of course) and hesitantly agreed to let you go along on the smaller, less risky cases. It wasn’t like you really wanted to be out there hunting anyway - you didn’t want to be reminded of the horrors that took your fiance.

You considered Dean one of your best friends. He shared secrets with you that he rarely told anyone and he trusted you. You had never let the boys down before, and that meant a great deal to Dean.

Sam on the other hand was unsure about you working with them. You quickly learned that he wasn’t as fond of “the life” as Dean was and even without him telling you, you realized that he wanted you to go out and have a normal life. One that him and Dean never got the chance to have.

The boys never talked about it much, but just by the empty looks in their eyes, you could tell that they had experienced a lot of loss in their lives. Sam probably just didn’t want you to be another person he would have to add to his long list of people he loved who had died.

Sam was never rude to you by any means, but he just wouldn’t let you in. Whenever you would try to sit and have a friendly conversation with him, he would only politely reply and just continue to do his own thing.

But the fact that he agreed to go on this hunt with you was a big step in your relationship. And you were trying to keep every moment of the hunt light and relaxed.

After settling in and eating, you finally decided to take a shower after Sam took his. When you walked out into the main living space to grab some stuff you forgot from you bag, you could feel Sam’s eyes roam over your towel-covered body.

“Oh shoot… Hey, can I, erm… borrow one of your shirts? All of the ones I have in here are dirty.”

Sam nodded wordlessly before throwing you one, which you quickly went back to the bathroom to put on. You were confused by his demeanor change but just shrugged and went with it.

With wet hair and bare feet, you made your way into the king sized bed and propped yourself up with a pillow behind you. You had brought along a book from the Men of Letters library to lull yourself to sleep with.

You missed it, but Sam took a double take, taking a peek at you wearing his shirt. He shook his head quickly and turned so his back was facing you.

As you both laid next to each other, you suddenly realized that this was the first time since your fiance died that you were about to sleep next to another man. That thought sent a horrible sinking feeling into your stomach, reminding you of your beloved. You realized that was probably why you had felt so guilty when buying the room in the first place.

Ryan was the last thing on your mind before you drifted off to sleep.

...

You woke up screaming and sweaty.

It was a recurring nightmare that you had a lot right after Ryan’s death. It was basically the exact same thing that happened, but this time you were getting ripped apart by the werewolf as well.

Sam placed a comforting hand on your shoulder, urging your body closer to his chest.

“It’s okay Y/N, I’m right here… you’re safe,” Sam whispered. He didn’t even have to ask what the nightmare was, as he knew from experience that it was the one about Ryan.

You caught your breath for a moment, enjoying the warmth radiating off of Sam’s bare chest.

“You haven’t had one of those dreams in a while…” Sam said after a minute.

Still out of breath and unable to talk, you just nodded against him. His hard pecs swelled up and he blew out a deep sigh before he started talking again.

“Have I ever told you about Jess?”

You pulled away so you could look at him. You were met with his sad, hazel eyes looking back at you, pitying you. Dean had mentioned that Jess was Sam’s girlfriend in college, but never elaborated further on it.

“No… who’s Jess?”

“She was my girlfriend in college. She uh, was the love of my life… When I tried to get out of this life, she was my rock. I really thought I was going to marry her, until…” he paused and you could see that he was tearing up. “She died. She died because of what I do… what we do, Y/N.”

You weren’t sure what to say, so you did the best that you could. You comforted him by grabbing onto his hand and rubbing little circled over the top of it.

“Sam, I am so sorry…” you whispered. “Why didn’t you ever tell me that?”

“I’ve had a hard time opening up to you, Y/N… I don’t think that’s a secret. Ever since Jess, I haven’t had a lot of girlfriends, but the ones that I have had… something bad has always happened. And when you came into our lives, I was worried. Worried that those same bad things would happen to you if I let myself fall for you. I guess because every woman I’ve ever had relations with hasn’t ended well. I couldn’t bear the thought of losing you.”

“But Sam, I’m… We’re not dating.”

Sam gave your hand a little squeeze. “I know, I know, but… I wouldn’t mind if someday we gave us a chance.”

You pulled away from him and stood up from the bed. “Okay, uh…” you stuttered out as you ran your fingers through your hair. “I don’t know about that, Sam.”

Sam followed you, putting your hands in his once again. “I’ve seen the way you look at me, Y/N… I know you feel the same way…”

You squeezed your eyes shut, forcing a couple of tears out. “I’m… not ready, Sam,” you looked up at him with sorrow in your eyes.

“I’m done being scared, Y/N. I’ll wait for you and I’ll be here for you for as long as it takes for you to be ready.”

You initiated the next hug as you both stood wordlessly in the dark hotel room, holding on to each other as if you were afraid if you didn’t, you would fall apart.

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Some notes on 12x20: Twigs and Twine and Tasha Banes

So this is basically my reaction watching the show in order + some last minute thoughts at the end.

THEN

dean is so small. tiny. pure. i miss him.

and we’re bringing it back to season 2... bless

NOW

TASHA WHY doN’T BE DEAD PLEASE

Okay so... dean is an actual concerned boyfriend who misses Cas v much and is v worried

ALICIA

“Max and Alicia?” okay so yeah dean u have a crush babe

OKAY SO I MCFREAKING LOVE MAX AND ALICIA’S CLOTHES HERE. THE BOOTS!!

“What about Cas?” Okay, so in every episode Dean is always the one trying to go on one-off cases and now he’s so worried about Cas that he’s getting all irritated at sam he is so in love I'm trash ; ;

“Their mom’s on a hunting trip and hasn’t been home in a week” BRINGING IT BACK!

WTF MARY KETCH WYD

okay so it’s A SHAPE SHIFTER and I am ALL OVER THIS!!! Shape shifters are my fav out of the SPN lore oh gosh I’M INTO IT

we will ignore the continuity errors in this scene

ok so also why does ketch’s shape shifter have a weird drawl

so yeah sam’s hair looks good today thanks

FUCK MAX AND DEAN ARE GOING TO LOOK AT THE CAR TOGETHER i love my queer babes

Alicia and Sam are bonding over not fitting in with their fams and i know we get this same arch with every MOTW ep but i mcFREAKING LOVE IT

“Doesn’t seem like much of a hugger” ok now i’m sad it’s too true y can’t mary be loving

Yeah okay don’t check out the creepy cellar just go into the house and ignore it

what the fuck ok trash is back i am INTRIGUED

I love tasha and her hair is beautiful i’m in love

WAIT OK SO IS TASHA A SHAPE SHIFTER CUZ THAT WINE OPENER COULD BE SILVER AM I FISHING?? I JUST WANT A SHAPE SHIFTER

daNG I aM inTO THiS PLoT

Dean! Is Drinking! Wine! I love my fancy babe what a cutie 

yeah okay Mr. “torture is the answer” tell that to dean who spent 30 years resisting it in hell

k so now ketch is getting into shit w/ mary

Dean is like a cute mom drinking his wine, bonding with the other single-hunter-mom dean is a wine mom who goes on Facebook i’m calling it

mary you better call dean back or i’m screaming

YOU ENDED DEAN’S CALL I’M BITTER DON’T DO THAT

so mary is checking her email but it looks like all of Sam’s emails from a while ago??

k so it’s not sam’s emails BUT mary is signed up for the biggerson’s newsletter and also the “NEW ONLINE GAMES” email is favorited lmao

OKAY SO NOW WE’RE GETTING INTO SOME PLOT

THE FILMING IS SO GR8

shit this old woman is crazy what does she have planned???

AWW dean’s old voicemail is still up is that his old voice too?? did they re-record it??

“I miss you” plz say this to him when he has his phone on him i’m sobbing

lmao the cellar smells like death could job dean

MAX IS QUEER IN CANON ONE HUNDRED PERCENT OUT NO TAKE BACKS

nOOOO TASHA IS DEAD

max doesn’t deserve this no no no no

why is no one going to save alicia?? just letting her chill with not-mom??

mary wyd

IS THAT MICK

ya it’s mick

OKAY SO THE CHASE BETWEEN KETCH AND MARY IS NERVE WRACKING

OH MY GOD GARTH

CLAIRE

FUCK

if mary dies i will scream

GET HIM MARY YESSSSS

this is legit the best fight scene in the show so far

HELL YEAH MARY HEADBUTT THAT BITCH PUNCH HIM IN THE DICK YESS FUCK I’M SO HAPPY THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

seriously ketch?? you fuck

THIS SHOT THO WITH THE ZOOMING IN AND THE EYES I’M SHOOK

max is such a fucking badass

this old woman has me shook

dang this is so cool this entire episode i love it

maX HaS To LiVE hiS MOther’S DEATH?? FUck NO i’m DEPREssed

maybe there’s a way to reverse things?? or maybe to do the doll thing in a not-evil way

FuCK max dO NOT tAKE ThE DeAL

max no no no no

YES ALICIA SAVE SAMM!!!!

holy shit no no no no this episode is so emotionally brutal alicia just got fucking stabbed by her mom

alicia HAS to stay alive PLEASE

NO WHY IS ALICIA DEAD THIS EPISODE WAS SO GOOD AND NOW IT’S THE SAME AS EVERY OTHER EPISODE

literally i am bitter as fuck

max, alicia, & tasha were pure and this shit happened they didn’t deserve this

DO NOT leave max alone

u fucks

no no deanbean don’t feel guilty you did the right thing my babe

max what the fuck

SHIT MAN THIS SCENE IS MIRRORING SEASON 2 WHEN DEAN LAYS SAM ON THE BED AND SHIT I LOVE THESE PARALLELS

spin off

SPIN OFFFFF

is it bad that i love this end scene

i hate that max essentially just sold his soul, but he also became an insanely powerful witch.... maybe him and rowena team up?? (PLEASE)

what’s up with sam why is he asleep?????

i love this mirroring from the beginning with the shape shifter and now with the real mary

shit Toni’s back wtf

Positives:

Mixed feelings about this episode. First of all, I loved the shots. Whoever directed this did a wonderful job. I love that Alicia and Max are being included in the narrative more often. I miss when Sam and Dean had a bunch of hunter friends which is why I’m happy that they’re slowly building their contact list up again this season. I think the MOL thing wasn’t overdone this episode which it feels like it is sometimes, so I applaud that. Also whoever choreographed that fight scene between Ketch and Mary was AWESOME because I could watch Mary punch someone is the dick everyday for the rest of my life. I also loved Dean’s pining for Cas and the way that Cas was brought into the episode without being in the episode. Kudos. And I loved that the fact max being gay(?) was brought up again and not ignored from the episode where he’s introduced. I’m glad we got to meet Tasha, no matter how brief. I thought she was a well developed character. I’m happy we’re seeing more “monsters” doing good in the world (aka witch hunters). That’s what SPN has always been about. Also! We’re straying away from angel/demon MOTW episodes which I’m very happy for!!! It feels closer to a season 1-3 sort of vibe which I’m really digging. Especially with all those parallels from the season 2 finale. Maybe we’ll see some more season two parallels (like we saw in the psychic mention from the early part of season 12 and also with the yellow eyed demon comeback). Those were all good things in my opinion.

Negatives:

Some things I wasn’t really digging was the fact more people of color had to die. THAT upset me. I hate all the unnecessary death in Supernatural. I’m hoping that Max and his newfound power becomes an important part of the storyline because if he’s forgotten and Tasha died for nothing I’m going to be severely disappointed. Also, even though Cas was mentioned I’m still bitter that he wasn’t in the episode.

Overall, I’m giving this:

Grade: A

[shirtlesssammy]

14x11: Damaged Goods

Then:

So Death kind of throws a wrench in Dean’s whole need for free will thing.

Now:

Ooh, Nick has resurfaced and is torturing demons into finding Abraxas, the demon that killed his family. Or, well he’s looking for the hunter that captured Abraxas. She’s in Hibbing, Minnesota.

Dean, meanwhile, is packing up and heading out to spend some quality time with his car and his Mom.

(I mean, that’s what he thought here, right?)

Sam is busy doing research, but willingly agrees to come along before Dean stops him and says he’s going alone. Then Dean hugs Sam, and while it’s sweet and heartbreaking and everyone seems to really love this moment, I was cringing at how awkward the hug was. Sam is 100% suspicious of his brother, so I believe he also found it awkward. [Natasha: SO awkward]

Sam calls Mary to talk about Dean. She’s more of a “Go ahead, touch the cornballer” kind of mom and isn’t as concerned about Dean’s state of mind. She respects his privacy. Sam lets that slide because his investigation into what Dean took with him reveals some missing books, and despite the lack of call numbers, Sam Winchester has the entire Men of Letters collection cataloged and classified.

On his road trip, Dean stops to check in with Donna. They’re enjoying their mutual love of burgers. Boy, Dean and Donna sure do have a lot in common. They always seem to love the same type of food. Wow. Despite Dean’s many attempts at avoiding the elephant at the picnic table, Donna finally brings up Michael. She hopes that he’ll open up, but Dean only gives her the old Winchester “I’ll make it through” shutdown.

Dean makes it to Donna’s cabin, only to hear gunshots. He’s on instant alert. Lol, it’s just dear ol’ mom shooting pumpkins for target practice.

That’s one way to get rid of the fall bumper crop (in December…). When Mary suggests Sam join them, Dean snaps that he doesn’t want Sam there. Hmm. Dean’s hangry, guys! He’s also a lying liar who lies, telling Mary that he just had a long drive and no food. He asks her to make his favorite meal when he was a small child, “Winchester Surprise.” And we’re gifted with another piece to Dean’s life puzzle. Greasy food is comfort food not because it’s all he’s known, but because it’s something he remembers from his too short of a childhood. Mary agrees and heads out to get groceries --and pie.

Dean heads to Donna’s workshop to begin the project that really brought him to Hibbing. Before he can begin, he’s gotta take a looky-loo at all the pin-ups of half-naked dark haired men. In no way shape or form is the show that JUST showed us how similar Dean and Donna are about food implying that Dean and Donna are similar in other ways too. Also, in no way shape or form is the show highlighting Dean locking something away deep inside himself by having Michael rage inside his head directly after he stared at all the posters of half-naked dark haired men. Dean finds the 8-track player and selects some tunes. And as @prairiedust posts out in this great post, in no way is this show trying to tell us something through Dean’s musical choices.

We’re then gifted with a montage of Dean using power tools while sparks fly around one of the pictures of a dark haired shirtless man. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

For Subtextual Science:

This all truly distracted me from thinking about what Dean is actually building in the workshop.

Mary gets help from Joe, the grocery store attendant. He’s kind of surprised by her food purchases since she only ever buys pumpkins, whisky, and crossword puzzles. EEsh, is everything ok, Mary? [Natasha: Definitely not. My theory is that Bobby took off right away and Mary’s just been holed up alone with her thoughts and pumpkin guts.]

Later, Joe is putting carts away when Nick pulls up in a completely normal, non-scary, or suspicious van and asks where he can find Mary Winchester. Joe acts like he doesn’t know her (Joe, I’m sorry I doubted your trustworthiness two minutes ago.) And Nick, why the hell would a random citizen of Hibbing know who Mary is? Lucky for us, he does know her and alerts the police with a call.

Later that night, Nick is trolling the back roads of Hibbing when Donna passes him, and pulls him over. He’s driving around in a stolen creeper van.

She cuffs him and runs his fingerprints. AND THEN TURNS HER BACK ON HIM. DONNA NO. He manages to slip his cuffs and they tussle. Nick tasers Donna.

Mary returns after dark to find Dean just leaving the workshop. She asks what he’s been up to, but he’s elusive and changes the subject. Dean wants to help Mary make dinner. He then LIES again by saying he’s a terrible cook. Wut? I know, I get it. It’s how Dean tries to connect to people. Mary is not dumb though and is really suspicious about Dean. While Dean is finishing up cooking the meal, she talks with Sam. Despite Mary’s protests, Sam’s on his way to Hibbing.

Dean and Mary get to eating the dish of grease with extra cheese. Dean tells us what he thinks is a super funny story from his childhood, but it’s really just a very sad reminder for Mary that Dean had a shit childhood and John was a shit parent. And I’m over here weeping because Dean hangs onto these memories as a good thing because they’re all he has.

Later when Dean’s asleep, Mary heads into the barn and discovers books of lore and a folded sheet of paper (ostensibly ripped from Dean’s death book). “No no no no no,” Mary says. URG, that can’t be good. When she rushes back to the house, Nick intercepts Mary.

Dean wakes to his ringing phone. It’s Donna! She’s calling to warn him about Nick, who knocked her out, escaped, and is heading back to Mary’s place. Dean rushes outside, only to find Sam there instead. Hey, Sammy!

Nick holds Mary prisoner in his creeper van and Mary, bless her, looks utterly comfortable in that predicament. PLEASE, she’s dealt with much bigger fish. Nick delivers a rambling villain’s address, to which Mary just shakes her head. 

Nick asks her about a demon hunt a while back where she faced Abraxas (who murdered Nick’s family). Mary’s exasperated with Nick’s theatrics, because he could have just asked her about the demon like a normal person. Mary tells him that Abraxas is dead, but Nick calls her out on a lie. So Mary confesses - Abraxas was too strong so she locked him in an Enochian puzzle box. She directs Nick to a self-storage facility nearby. I LOVE that Mary has her own hunter’s lockup. (Perhaps several, even? Oooo. That seems like a Mary thing to do.)

She opens the door (Dean’s birthday is part of the combination - HELP ME I AM SUFFERING EMOTIONS. It ends with “67.”).

Once inside, Mary carefully steps over her shotgun booby trap line. Alas, Nick notices it as well and dismantles it. Nick! Come on, man. She could reuse that trap. 

Nick bashes the lock off a cage and starts opening lockers. He finds:

A head in a jar

A creepy doll/mannequin

A puzzle box

Nick demands that Mary open the box so he can interrogate Abraxas. Mary shows him her anti-possession tattoo. “You didn’t think this through, did you?” Mary asks, sounding every inch the irritated master hunter whose time is being wasted.

Meanwhile, Donna, Dean, and Sam race to find Mary.

Dean lays into Sam about Nick, but Sam defends his actions. Sam could have ended up being Lucifer’s vessel for years so he was treating Nick with due consideration and empathy. Dean tells Sam that he needs to learn when to cut loose the hopeless cases (a.k.a. Dean).

Back at Mary’s lockup, Nick’s kidnapped the security guard, intent on releasing Abraxas into the guard. Mary tries to get the drop on Nick, but she’s still trussed up and Nick kicks her into the fence. Nick tries to unlock the box but finds it impenetrable...to his intellect.

A power drill goes right through, though. Abraxas zooms out and possesses the guard. 

Nick demands to know why Abraxas killed his family. Abraxas promises to tell him, provided that Nick kills Mary. Nick decides to go for the deal when Sam wings Nick’s ear with a well-aimed gunshot. Dean, Sam, and Donna head into the lockup. It looks like their defeat of Nick is a lock until Nick scratches away part of the devil’s trap and frees Abraxas. Once free, Abraxas tells Nick that his family was killed so he could be a potential vessel for Lucifer - but that there isn’t anything inherently special about him. Suck on that, Nick.

Nick kills Abraxas after his villain monologue and starts to turn the blade on the others in the lockup.

Fortunately, Donna’s there to shoot Nick in the leg. Mary knocks him out. DREAM TEAM <3

Later, Donna prepares to take Nick away to jail.

Sam confronts him and apologizes for not being able to help Nick. “It’s not about you. You couldn’t fix me because I didn’t want to be fixed.” Sam’s regrets aren’t about Nick, though. They’re about all the people Nick hurt. Let’s all take a moment to reflect on Nick’s cold-ass murder of the innocent security guard, whom he kidnapped within the past hour.

“You can burn,” Sam tells Nick. HARD AGREE.

Meanwhile, Mary has her own confrontation with Dean about what he’s building in her shed. “We are gonna talk about that,” Mary tells him - and he had better bring Sam into the loop.

Cut to the next morning. Dean explains the box he’s been building to Sam.

This is the first time we get a good look at it, and DEAR LORD it’s a coffin. It’s a Ma’lak box, Dean explains. It’s a heavily warded container strong enough to hold even an archangel. Sam’s shocked to learn that Dean wants to be buried alive. So I am! BUT WAIT, KIDS, THERE’S MORE. Dean intends to pay “a little hush money” to a boat captain and get hauled out to the Pacific and dropped there to suffer forever under the waves. Dean tells Sam in no uncertain terms that he’s losing his hold on Michael. They’re working under a countdown clock. Dean acknowledges that Sam, Cas, and Jack have tried to save him - “And I love you for trying.” Dean tells Sam about his visit from Billie, during which she gave him the instructions for his once-impossible prison. In his determination, the box is the only option - it’s FATE. Ugh, a Winchester - DEAN Winchester - believing in fate. It hurts.

“So you came out here to see Donna - to see Mom on some sick, secret farewell tour? You were gonna leave and you weren’t even gonna tell me?” Sam’s pissed, and who can blame him? Ouch. OUCH.

Dean tells Sam that he couldn’t tell him about the box because Sam’s the only person who could talk him out of his plan. “Alright,” Sam says softly, finally.

And...scene.

Just Shove These Emotional Quotes into an Impenetrable Box:

We don’t hug--  We do but only when it’s literally the end of the world.

Just wondering if you’ve run out of ways to ask me how I’m doing so as to avoid me repayin’ the favor.

Delicious heart attack on a plate, and I would like mine with extra cheese.

You catch a lotta fish with that Arkansas toothpick you got there on the passenger seat?

First name eat, last name me.

Everyone keeps asking how I am… And how I am is I don’t wanna talk about it.

Since when do we cut people loose?

Since when do we believe in fate?

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