the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.
sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.
you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.
it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.
but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.
they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.
they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.
barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.
and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.
but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.
they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!
this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.
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Nothing makes me feel better emotionally than seeing other adults that I admire also have to deal with their work clients being absolutely stupid or irrating. Like I know that's a weird statement but I'm glad it's not just me that feels like this.
This is about your rant about your client btw
LOL I usually try to keep a pretty decent separation between here and real life/career just so I can have a nice online space to exist in, but sometimes. Sometimes I just. Let me be clear, our clients routinely break little pieces of my remaining soul on the daily lmao but I tend to keep that bitching for my close friends. Sometimes that bitching breaks containment. Solidarity, friend. Make sure you have good non-work things to help regrow and feed your happiness outside of your job.
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i love when people start genuinely analyzing shiv kendall and roman's business skills and debating which one of them would be a better ceo as if it hasn't been proven over and over again that they're all equally bad at business and will never actually win. like roman blew a rocket up. we all saw what happened in 2x05 with shiv. people look up to kendall as the most competent one as if none of us watched the entirety of season 3... they literally spent 10 billion dollars on pierce. they all suck the same amount because they're rich kids who don't understand the value of money and who don't actually have real stakes ever because their last name will always give them the assurance that they'll be fine. and for that same reason they've never had to put in any work. every decision they ever make is the one they think emulates logan the most, they're all trying to win his approval which hasn't stopped even if he is dead. also its literally insane to be rooting for any one of them to become ceo as if its a happy ending... whoever becomes ceo becomes logan and they'll be a living dead man. completely hollow. complete moral bankruptcy will never achieve personal fulfillment because they've given up everything to stand on top of the world. its like which one of the kids are you rooting for to continue perpetuating the cycle of abuse...
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