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panda-of-the-trash · 11 months

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Not me just realising I lost one of my most important pieces of lore on tumblr

#small mutterings of a panda of the trash #yeah the pannick is real #and like sure you could say #“if it´s so important you´d remember it”#well no #you see i´m stupid #AND VERY DUSTRAUGHT BECAUSE THAT PIECE OF LORE WAS KINDA IMPORTANT

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tapakah0 · 11 months

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Eh, almost forgot ;~;; Commission for sweet @celestialrose3 ;;~;;; Thank you so much *bows*

#rottmnt #I am always very nervous when I draw commissions that are related to someone's story... how to explain it...#No matter how many times you might tell me that it's okay #I can't put it in the words because it sounds stupid and silly #but #you see #It's CAS #cass fanart tag #and it is commission #I ALWAYS FEEL NERVOUS TO POST COMMISSIONS YES I DID THEM FOR SOMEONE BUT they might be related to someone's story or comic and I sit and #think “Can I show it? Isn't it irritating? Am I even allowed to take commission related to it??” I“M SORRY I'M FIGHTING WITH THIS FEELING #ALL MY LIFE #okay no I can't explain it it's just my stupid brain that feels very nervous about such a topic and wants to hide everything related to it #You saw nothing but I just needed to put it into words to feel a little better about it #*hides*

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genderkoolaid · 2 years

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everytime someone talks about how tomboys are seen as cool and respectable they owe every butch woman, transmasc and anyone else who grew up as a masc girl 100$

#sorry it's just exhausting seeing gender conforming women be like 'well everyone thinks femininity is stupid but masculinity is praised!'#like I PROMISE you it's so much more complicated than that #m.

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ot3 · 1 year

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listen i voted for utena in that poll because im not fake and i support women but i think a lot of folks getting up and arms about it For Real could stand to maybe chill. i don't think it's Orientalism or Misogyny that is giving a show that was airing on nickelodeon when the majority of this sites userbase were children an edge over a dense, surreal psychological yuri anime from the 90s.

#frankly a lot of these people who dont know about utena shouldnt know about utena #do you really want to see the kind of posts people who werent capable of vibing with utena would make about utena #could you imagine the Even More m/m utena aus wed be forced to see #its not worth it. sometimes something being only appreciated within its niche is the best place for it to be in.#i get being mad about stupid stuff is fun online but some of these people seem to be upset for real in a truly crazy way

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transmascutena · 7 months

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thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry:#the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry.#and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think.#like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that.#and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her?#whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it?#how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions.#(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.)#when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know.#again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me.#on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything?#is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid.#either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over.#i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways)#but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about.#which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

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bananonbinary · 1 year

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i feel like more and more i'm seeing people get real mad about "cash grabs" in small media, and its SO weird to me cause like...yeah? people selling art are doing so to make money? what did you THINK was going on? just in the fandoms i enjoy, ive seen all the newer h*mestuck content, the m*gnus pr*tocol, and re: dr*cula get really really angry callout posts as if the fact that the creators made them to make money is some sort of dirty secret the op is "exposing." spin offs have ALWAYS been "cash grabs." sorry that artists like to eat i guess.

#fan wank /#i keep seeing stupid shit about like the state of podcasting #and how ''slimy'' crowdfunding is #because i guess making a podcast with more than 2 guys in a garage is inexcusable #if u follow m*gnus pr*tocol as a tag im sure you keep getting that long long LONG post about it #that is actually about a different podcast and how 'unreasonable' it is that theyre crowdfunding $26k #and then goes on to talk about how tmp has like ruined the industry for everyone forever #26k is not a ridiculous number give people fair salaries jfc

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diagonal-queen · 8 months

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can't believe none of you have mentioned that in kunikida's new years mayoi side story, he asks yosano for help cleaning ranpo's desk because he 'doesn't know what he's allowed to touch' help that's so precious to me. he respects his coworkers so much i can'tfucking handle it they are just a little family

AND THEN YOSANO IS LIKE 'oh tanizaki while you're out shopping can you buy some candy and ramune. ranpo's almost out we need to top him up' why is this 26 year old manchild receiving more love from his coworkers than i ever have from my parents

#dia's daydreams #dazai's paperwork is canonically SO messy that tanizaki compares it to 'geological layers'#and he found an unfinished report of dazai's from the week prior. the only thing filled out was the *date*. i'm crying #and the way kunikida is like 'please can you do this thing for me' and everyone is like 'yea sure' and he's like 'thank you so much. this m #eans more to me than you'll ever realise. i appreciate it more than you know. many thanks'#like goddamnit wtf kunikida stop being perfect challenge failed #also him warning naomi and haruno against going out alone in the dark he's so sweet #and then they convince him to let loose and come see fireworks with them?? help they ARE a family #and then kunikida being like 'i did your stupid fucking papers for you' and dazai just saying 'i appreciate that'#no dumb quips just a little 'thanks man'. like help thats so sweet im gonna kms

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piningpercussionist · 8 months

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Im going to be completely frank with you all... and admit that I read these options and wasn't sure how to take this chart,,, so uh. Under the cut is Another Version. I'd apologize but I've given you the option to keep scrolling ¯\_(･･)_/¯

(If you notice characters missing on Kim's side, I probably figured she doesn't know who they are lol)

For the record,,, if they *wanted* me to pull their hair-- *is shot several times before I can continue*

Uhh Matthew is here because I have been converted fully on he/him or enby lesbian Matthew I think. He lives in my brain rent free now, very gender. I'd pull his hair but also I think he mostly just deserves to have it played with nicely.

And Scott's here because 1) I enjoy trans Scott, 2) Kim Pine Brain Rot possibly, 3) idk he's like,, the exception. God damnit, I've fallen for the inexplicable Scott Pilgrim Effect. What the fuck--

I did think about doing this chart like everyone was actually applicable to my tastes, but even if they were I think the ones I didn't put up would have to fall on the caress side bc I just don't feel that way abt them lol.

Again, not to say that's the case for the gals over on that side,,, I just think I would want to be gentle w them shxkdjsdhbd with the exception for Lynette who probably deserves to have her hair pulled, but again I fear she would Hurt Me,,, but maybe in a fun way,,,

Anyway No One Look At Me....

(,, also,,, Ramona is so far over bc I think she would enjoy it,, otherwise she'd be closer to Kim in that section. Same thing w Roxie)

If anyone actually looks at this version, I'm not opposed to doing a version like this for Kim btw! Just ask for it so I feel like I'm not just Dropping This and scurrying away

#sp comic #meme #kim pine #id tag more people but i Do Not Have The Strength....#also i like Living and I think the idea of more people seeing the suggestively taken one makes me want to Die a little #(not to say you cant reblog this or whatever im just being dramatic shdjejsdhdhgdd I am generally a fairly Reserved person)#for the kim chart- i based my other scott placement on the interaction theyve had here! i think if they interacted for real or more often +#+ he'd end up definitively in the Pull Roughly suggestion with most people #ooc #he maybe if i finish edits for everyone i could try this w the au stuff. kit's thoughts might be different here...#hey*#also let me know if i forgot anyone??? i thought abt including the robots but. no hair. and gideon the cat has Fur so. on technicality-#but like barring parents and peter i think i got most people #i guess if lainey was here she'd go somewhere in the middle or right? w/out knowing what she'd be like #FUCK I DIDNT MEAN TO POST THIS. I MEAN IT'S HERE NOW SO IM NOT REMOVING IT BUT I AM S C R E A M I N G I WASNT READY #ah i forgot crash and the boys actually. thats why i wasnt supposed to post this yet #uhhhh Pull Roughly for like all of them. except trasha. trasha gets head pats and a juice box #except for on Kim's chart. on Kim's chart she's in the pull roughly section I can't lie to myself. she hates that kid 😭 also on that note +#+ knives should probably be in the middle section. like she wants to pull it for her having copped her style and being stupid abt scott.#but I didn't put her there bc I feel like even if she wants to she wouldn't ya know? knives is a Precious Angel after all

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madamescarlette · 2 months

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Lads the self control I have to exert sometimes to NOT clown or go full delulu is so strong and real of me, that's all.

#ladies when a person you like (M) uses a heart react on you how do you deal 🤔#it's so silly but also mayhaps i am tucking it away in my heart as a happy memory :>#the stupid highs and lows of my life i swear you guys #gotta go home and bawl to your brother and then go see a well-rounded movie and then eat with your friends i suppose!!!#anyway hello hello hope you're excited for Eden hours <3

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aq2003 · 1 year

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there comes a beautiful time in life where i have to ask myselg th question, "did i accidentally project too hard onto the character that i only relate to a little bit and in doing so hugely missed this one entire aspect/interpretation of the characters . am i stupid"

#ARE THEY STUPID!#dr who #this is about ten specifically his relationship w martha lmao #m being so serious i genuinely did not. see the 'ten was on purpose leading martha on to make her think her feelings were requited' angle #until going out into the wild and reading the tumblr posts. like i genuinely did not. at ALLLLLL. its like a brick hitting my head #bc the ENTIRE time s3 ten came off to me as 'doing stuff w no romantic intent behind it but would consistently get misinterpreted as such'#cuz IIIIIIIII have done this. IIIIIIII have run into this problem before. and it sucks so incredibly bad.#i actually do want to think my og interpretation still holds water cuz like. well i could gather all the evidence but #first one that comes 2 mind would be him going 'it's like when you fancy someone + they dont know you exist' to martha. in episode TWELVE #two routes; either ten is needlessly cruel and callous even after a season's worth of building up trust and friendship w her #or he is on super 'i dont think she has feelings for me and this is a very unhappy coincidence of a line' cocaine #Or the 'she fancied me' line in s4 to donna. either he is disregarding all the good and positive impact she did him. or the fact that this #went over his head the whole time made him look back on that time w discomfort <- I DID THIS. I MIGHT HAVE BEEN PROJECTING #THIS ONTO HIM. AM I STUPID.?.?????#you know how mikage rgu can either be read as an incel or a gay man lost so completely in the sauce #ten is like in this same ballpark. i think. of 'emotionally manipulative and disrespects women' or 'aroacespec and missed the cues'#funniest possible options to pick from. ten my brother how did you set yourself up like this #absolutely not denying that he was toxic and unhealthy during s3 in like 500 ways btw. but well. ths is the one concwpt that #flew over my head. so completely. and i can kind of see it now but i also still find it hard to incorporate into my belief system #bc its like. brother I'M aroace and missed the cues too lol #tangential note we can trace many problems down to a writer's room filled w white people not giving #martha's character the respect/agency she deserves for the existing narrative she has. bc they pulled this w mickey too both in series 1+2 #if they wanted to portray ten as manipulative then him and martha should've been given more screentime #together where martha (or anyone else) calls him the FUCK out on this. and ten would need to suffer narrative consequences of doing smth #as fucked up as that rather than his happy stable dynamic he has w donna. if they wanted to portray him as oblivious then marthas character #shouldn't have constantly been boiled down to an unrequited crush (particularly her dialogue in the s3 finale - there's a LOT more reasons #why she would choose to leave/why their dynamic was unhealthy besides ten not returning her feelings)#if you read all these tags you may be entitled 2 financial compensation #ten and martha #aspec doc tag

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autogeneity · 4 months

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gotta love stepping out of training and getting changed to immediately get the notification on my phone that it's "time to go to bed to wake up refreshed!" (for training tomorrow morning) before I can even leave the building

#Aaaaaaaaaaa!#waking up early is stupid. the idea of going to sleep at 20:30 was already insane.#now we have an extra session in the evening after normal class for squad training which means I finish at 20:30.#fucking absurd.#what is my life.#m #we joke now as we're leaving instead of goodbye we say 'see you in a few hours'#aaaaaa.

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genderkoolaid · 2 years

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part of the reason its pointless to argue with terfs is that they refuse to own up to any member of their group's fucked up behavior.

when it comes to terfs harassing cis women in women's bathrooms, they insist that NEVER HAPPENS. when it comes to transmascs being correctively sexually assaulted by terfs, they insist that's just made up nonsense. there's never any show of concern or even "if that's true we need to hold these people accountable in our communities," it's just "LOL omg what are you talking about!!! no terf has ever done that haha gendies are so crazy" like. maybe people would be more willing to not treat you like a hate group if y'all weren't so set on refusing to accept that people in your group Do Extremely Harmful Things. like even if you still agree with radical feminism, the fact that they won't even admit there are extremely harmful people within that is telling!

and then they act surprised when there's a huge racism (and from what i've seen, intersexism) problem and a ton of TERFs who are abusive in their interpersonal relationships. that happens in like, every hate movement- the baeddels also had a problem with protecting abusers and cult-like harmful behavior towards their own members. hate groups aren't just harmful to their targets but draw in cruel, abusive people because those are the kind of people who want total control over other's lives.

#m.#everytime i see someone complain abt a post where i mention corrective SA of transmascs #i get someone being like LOL what are you talking about!!!#and like its not about asking for sources.#its about the way they show 0 concern for potential victims #just jumping straight to mockery #and w the bathroom thing its even stupider because like. thats pretty common knowledge #it doesnt take much to find news articles abt that stuff

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buckboi · 16 days

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#okay so i am going to say this once and we’re all going to be on the same page #i find tommy boring #okay? i find him uncompelling as a character outside of the fact he helped buck realise that he was bi #other people love him for some reason - this is fine and i cannot relate #whatever #BUT my problem is that there seems to be no way to express my -tommy is dull - beliefs around those who love him #without being labelled homophobic #(this does include not caring if he dies - because i dont care what he does truly he’s Such a nothing guy to me. whatever)#and I am not homophobic #and well see it just so happens that there’s a loophole through which tommy hate is. well. not ‘allowed’ but morally justified #This exists because tommy used to be racist #is he still racists now? idk. who cares.it’s a tv show.#but if im not allowed to dislike tommy for being boring - surely im allowed to hate him for being racist right?#Anyways literally i couldnt care less if he is or isnt racist still or about anything he does #I think there are wider implications involved with how this guy who is like if a cardboard brick couldnt act is suddenly compelling people #to go to war for him #I also think anyone who believes his actor’s twitter was hacked is actually stupid but that’s unrelated #U m yeah well i think everyone needs to calm down #yes everyone yes me yes you reading this #And yeah idk. it doesnt matter if tommy is or isnt racist #(well…)#rather it matters that the ‘first stone’ was -you’re homophobic if you dont like tommy’#so the retaliation became ‘actually you’re racist if you do’#and because everyone wants to ascribe a moral value to liking/not liking a stale weetabix of a man #now we’re here #do you understand? do you get what im saying #can anyone hear me?#oh wow #did you guys know there’s a tag limit?#it’s 30

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possamble · 5 months

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I think the most egregious case of "tagging a background f/f ship" is when the f/f ship is an established couple that spends most of their screentime trying to get the m/m or f/m ship together. They barely even flirt. Many such cases. :(

I know there are real problems I could get heated about but this one truly makes me want to book a rage room

#asks #yeah sure fine whatever use characters as an accessory or plot device #can you just keep it out of the actual tags for that relationship #we actually want to see them being romantic and important to each other instead of acting entirely for the benefit of another couple thanks #i hate to say this but in my experience ive seen it so much more often for m/m than anything else. maybe its just the fandoms ive been in #but some people think its uwu mlm wlw solidarity to use f/f pairings as accessories to their m/m pairings and its like #you can do that! i get why its cute and feel good to have characters be friends who care abt each others love lives!#but can you please understand that people who use the f/f pairing tag actually want to see them being in love themselves #and not have their entire plot relevance revolve around the dudes in their life.#youre misrepresenting the content of your fic if you tag a pairing as one of the main relationships when theyre only there to help another #pairing along #and believe it or not it gets really tiring to see.#and we can't even joke amongst ourselves about keeping the m/m exclusion filter on without getting accused of homophobia #or being 'weirdo fucking yuriheads' or whatever the trendiest insult lately is #anyway. whatever. this is all so stupid and petty im just gonna clock into work lmfao

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uitzinnigmp3 · 4 months

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#s.txt #am taking a lil social media break bc uni is so fucking busy and i Need to focus for a few days #but my parents r out of town and being home alone just gave me the most soulcrushing lonely feeling i have had in Ages #like GOD i need to talk to someone but im not about to fuck up this streak bc the second i open discord i know that its gonna be over for m #and ive been actually doing well . and i need to keep that up until at least tuesday #so . just doing a little post here . if u see this hi :) hope youre doing well #if we talk regularly then i miss u and i will be back soon !! ok that is all #gonna watch some stupid youtube videos to stave off the loneliness bye now <3 #oh also i watched the new dr who . it is fucking peak . ncuti gatwa i love you

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playroom-sekaii · 6 months

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Don't know why keep having small thoughts when not really small, even when I did actually regress fully for the first time in ages today, a part of me says that doesn't count cuz didn't get to little stuff cuz it was in the middle of calculus, but I rarely get to be small at all so should be grateful. Just wanna be able to be small an taken care of an when I'm small have it be all be all the way, and kinda feels like wanna do a big cry but also don't wanna, and even if do end up small don't wanna bother anyone so I'd be alone, but by making this post bothering everyone, but dumb feelings won't stay inside my head and keep coming out don't want them come out need them stay inside

#vents :(#gonna tag these now cuz don't wanna make you all hafta see them feel free to block the tag #wanna keep the feelings inside but keep forcing their way out #and don't wanna bother my cg about it cuz it's stupid and they're busy with more important stuff #plus they're little more than me so i shouldn't be little m supposed to be a grown-up here #and i'm scared they're gonna see this and hate me

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