#zayn/bressie

[csichick-2]

Need to get to where I can turn my sound on to catch up on stories.

[allwaswell16]

This is a fic rec of One Direction werewolf au fics as requested in this ask. You can find all my other fic recs here. If you enjoy the fics, please leave the writers kudos and comments! Happy reading!

-Larry-

domestic monsters (series) by g_uttertrash / @g-uttertrash

(T, M, E, mythical creatures au, witches, vampires, werewolves, sirens, Halloween, seasons, secrets, magic, monsters, haunted houses, fluff, moving in together, light angst, smut, ghosts, depression, tarot)

Harry is a witch who carries around a stuffed pumpkin, Louis is a vampire with too much time on his hands, and their best mates Zayn & Niall aren't exactly what they seem...

The Woods are Lovely, Dark and Deep (series) by @helloamhere

(T, 101k+, werewolves au, magical realism, hurt/comfort, fluff, angst, Christmas, pining, found family, loneliness, telepathy, supernatural elements, slow burn)

The undeniable, terrifying, gorgeous truth was always going to be this: that he had a heart, and that that heart wanted to live.

I'm On the Hunt Now (I'm After You) by AFangirlFantasy / @afangirlfantasy

(M, 56k, a/b/o, alpha Harry, omega Louis, soulmates, werewolves, mating bond, kidnapped Louis, fluff, angst, pack dynamics, possessive Harry, knotting, smut)

an AU where Alpha Harry and Omega Louis have a lot more than falling in love to deal with after The Mating Ceremony.

Canyon Moon by delsicle / @eeveelou

(E, 40k, a/b/o, alpha Harry, omega Louis, werewolves, soulmates, childhood friends, friends to lovers, arranged marriage, pining, hurt/comfort, angst, mating bond, mating rituals, mild violence, first time, smut)

An A/B/O Lion King AU

Compete Against the Stars, @daggerandrose / amomentoflove

(M, 30k, a/b/o, omega Louis, alpha Harry, werewolves, uni au, arranged marriage, pining, nesting, scenting, smut, angst with a happy ending, lack of communication)

An ABO au where Louis finds out he's claimed to another Alpha. Angst ensues.

Campus Creatures by @kingsofeverything & @louandhazaf / YesIsAWorld

(E, 25k, mythical creatures au, vampires, werewolves, fae, uni, fraternities, rivals, pranks, smut, knotting)

It’s senior year for werewolf Louis Tomlinson and vampire Harry Styles, and as presidents of their respective fraternities, they’re determined to do it right.

break open the sky by @karamelised

(E, 20k, werewolf au, uni, biting, manhandling, smut)

Harry might be a werewolf, but he still wants to experience Uni like everyone else.

The Truth I Can't Explain (Smoke and Mirrors) by @fallinglikethis

(M, 9k, werewolf Louis, blood mage Harry, slave Harry, blood, mute Harry, telepathy, magic, feuds, no smut)

Louis’ pack has opened the door and put down the welcome mat. It’s up to the mages whether that mat becomes stained in blood.

Out With The Old, In With The New by @jaerie

(E, 7k, a/b/o, alpha Harry, omega Louis, werewolves, full shift werewolves, knotting, mating cycles, exhibitionism, public sex, shapeshifting, voyeurism, smut)

Harry becomes the pack's new alpha and Louis can't wait to be bred

I've Been Running with the Wolves by @realitybetterthanfiction

(G, 3k, werewolves, shapeshifters, kid fic, parenting, adopted children)

Poor Daddy Louis is tired, and his shifter babies make snack time into a wild wolf chase.

Thesis Management by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup

(T, 2k, werewolf au, wolf Louis, human Harry, grad student Harry, uni, established relationship, crack, humor, full moon, fluff)

Harry’s got an assignment due and it’s the full moon.

-Nessie-

A thousand teeth and yours among them by balefully

(E, 27k, Niall/Niall Breslin, canon divergent, werewolves, a/b/o, mating, size kink, mental health issues, drug use, smut)

As Niall must deal with returning to life with One Direction and discovering who he is anew, he and Bressie must also deal with their growing feelings for each other, and the ever-present spectre of the wolf ruling their lives and love.

you are the moon that breaks the night (for which I have to howl) by alongthewatchtower / @downintinpanalley

(NR, 12k, Niall/Niall Breslin, werewolves au, a/b/o, alpha Bressie, omega Niall, getting together, wedding, mating, mpreg, heat, possessive behavior, violence, knotting, smut)

"It is a truth universally acknowledged that an unbonded Alpha in possession of power must be in want of a mate,” Laura quotes, and Niall can feel the blush creeping up his neck.

-Nouis-

He Carries The Key by @lululawrence

(NR, 8k, Niall/Louis, alpha Niall, beta Louis, pack dynamics, werewolves, friends to lovers, cuddling, nesting, anxiety, hurt/comfort, no smut)

Niall was mostly home, ready for a shower and a chat with Louis, when suddenly Niall was flooded with emotions from the pack bond.

-Ziam-

Miles to Go by twoshipsdrifting / @polkadotlou

(M, 9k, Zayn/Liam, arranged marriage, a/b/o, alpha Liam, omega Zayn, werewolves, pining, angst)

Alpha!Liam and Omega!Zayn are being thrown into an arranged marriage, to unite their packs.

[missytearex]

Hi! So I’ve decided to do monthly recs instead of weekly recs from now on, which mean this list is kinda long, so I put all the under 10k fics under the cut, but be sure to check them out too! And remember to leave kudos and comments when you do ❤

Tired Tired Sea by @mediawhorefics — [fic post]

larry | 113k | mature

As a B&B owner on the most remote of all the British Isles, Louis Tomlinson is used to spending the coldest half of the year in complete isolation, with his dog and the sea as sole companions. Until, one day, a mysterious stranger on a quest to rebuild himself rents a room for the winter.

Not That Gone by @a-brighter-yellow --- [fic post]

larry | 61k | explicit

A few weeks after Louis and Harry, *ahem*, reconnect at their high school reunion, Harry temporarily moves back home. Louis isn't sure he has the emotional fortitude for a prolonged fling with the man of the dreams.

Play Pretend, Find a Friend? by @angelichl — [fic post]

larry | 40k | explicit

When Louis sees his ex-boyfriend kissing a random girl at a party, he acts out of blind jealousy. He kisses the first guy he can find. It turns into a thing.

INSPIRED BY CLOUDS.

I Just Want You to Stay by @sadaveniren --- [fic post]

larry | 34k | explicit

Louis and Harry have been roommates for four years, comfortable in their routine and their relationship. But all of that is about to change.

The Spaces Between Us by @justalittlelouislove — [fic post]

ziam | 33k | explicit

Liam is a ghost bound to nothing, feeling nothing. Until he finds Zayn and learns what it means to feel everything.

Give A Little Sing To The Singles by @londonfoginacup --- [fic post]

larry | 31k | teen and up

Harry Styles is an adult now, with a real adult job (and benefits! Whatever those are!). He spends his days at the copier. Copying things.

That being said, no one told Harry that being an adult came with a confusingly chaotic boss, a copier machine that would be hell-bent on ruining his life, and a coworker so good looking that Harry might just have to quit. After all, Christmas is coming and if their office doesn’t win the decorating contest, Louis has threatened to break several laws and kneecaps in retaliation.

Happy Christmas, here’s to many more.

The Goat Guy of Bethlehem by @lululawrence --- [fic post]

larry | 25k | not rated

every year, Harry and his family attend a church festival called Bethlehem. Harry's freshman year of high school Bethlehem expands, bringing in new vendors, including one that just might change everything for Harry. But first, he has to see if Anne and Robin are willing to part with him for the price of a few goats.

reach the stars by @disgruntledkittenface — [fic post]

horshaw | 19k | mature

Spring 2021. Four years after breaking up with Louis and moving to New York with his best friend Aimee, Nick runs into Niall and they start dating. When their relationship gets serious, Nick struggles to tell Niall how much he means to him.

Everything I Do by Anonymous — [fic post]

larry | 16k | explicit

the one where Harry finds a book of Elizabethan courtship rituals which sets in motion a series of events that can lead to only one conclusion.

High Heels, Red Dress by Anonymous --- [fic post]

larry | 15k | explicit

Louis answers the call when Pearl Harbor is attacked and there is no way around it. The United States is at war. Hiding his queer identity isn't so hard until he attracts the attention of a particular soldier. It's all lies and secrets until the war is finally over. Maybe then Louis can finally have his happy ending. It's up to fate to decide.

when half spent was the night by @juliusschmidt --- [fic post]

larry | 14k | mature

Hi Harry,

I’ve skimmed your website and am interested in hiring you to be my doula. I’m 7 ½ months pregnant and not keen to do this whole labor and birth thing alone. After looking around, I thought you might be a good fit because you mention enjoying unusual people with unusual birth requests. I can meet up any day this week.

Lou

You are the feeling of drugs, pulling the chain of my love by @peujeune — [fic post]

tomlinshaw | 10k | explicit

Louis gets bored with all the questions by the next week and tells everyone, in no uncertain terms, to fuck off, in a Facebook post he subsequently deletes the next day. Instead, he chooses to ignore all his friends.

And text Nick.

you’ve set my soul to dreaming by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed — [fic post]

larry | 9k | teen and up

Thirty year old Harry Styles goes to bed single on Christmas Eve, only to wake up on Christmas morning with a husband in his bed and a son down the hall.

The Truth I Can’t Explain (Smoke and Mirrors) by @fallinglikethis — [fic post]

larry | 9k | mature

Louis Tomlinson scans the horizon. It’s dark, but his werewolf eyes are equipped for that. He sees clearly in the inky black of the forest around them. He and every other wolf can see the moment the first blood mage crosses the boundary into their compound. The mages must think they’ve disabled the wards on the edges of the boundary but the wolves did that themselves when they found out the mages were coming. Louis’ pack has opened the door and put down the welcome mat. It’s up to the mages whether that mat becomes stained in blood.

on the same page by Anonymous — [fic post]

larry | 8k | mature

The one where Louis doesn’t know what the hell is going on.

You’re a Nightmare, I’m a Disaster by @lululawrence --- [fic post]

tomlinshaw | 7k | not rated

the one where Nick is a writer, Louis works in a bookshop, and things don’t exactly start off on the right foot, but they might just end on it.

The Gingerbread Show Off by @homosociallyyours --- [fic post]

larry | 6k | general audiences

The Gingerbread Show Off is the biggest event of the year at Harry's still sort of new to him job, and when he's given a spot to compete in it he's beyond excited. When he realizes that he's going to be paired up with Louis, the man who's been sneakily stealing his ideas since almost their first day of working together, he's understandably frustrated.

He still wants to win, though, and he's not going to let his office enemy bring him down.

The Circle of Life is Not a Circle, it’s a Stick by @lounonymouse --- [fic post]

tomlinshaw | 5k | teen and up

This is a story about Louis, his husband Nick, their daughter Ella, and her pet stick insect Mr Sticky McStick-Face.

B-Sides & C-Cuts by @bitter-leaf — [fic post]

shiall | 5k | teen and up

Niall’s stuck in Toronto the day before Christmas Eve. Shawn plans to make the most of it.

A Not So Silent Night by @lightwoodsmagic --- [fic post]

ziam | 5k | teen and up

Liam's had a crush on Zayn for months, every time they talk on the phone just making him grow fonder. He's just never met him in real life. When he finally gets to meet him, it turns out that he can't take his eyes off him dancing on the table at the bank's Christmas party. Especially when he starts taking off his sweater.

Summer Love by Anonymous — [fic post]

larry | 5k | teen and up

Summers at his lake house are Harry’s favorite time of the year. They’re treasured moments in time spent with Louis, his favorite person. The boy with the bluest eyes, the brightest smile and loudest laugh. Harry’s best friend for all of his summers. He’s gonna marry him someday. All that Louis needs to do is ask him - again.

my heart got caught on your sleeve by @foliealou  — [fic post]

tomlinshaw | 5k | general audiences

Louis Tomlinson decides to come out: a story in three acts.

it's getting bluer (and you can't keep faking) by @dinoflangellate --- [fic post]

nessie | 4k | explicit

For a second, Niall can’t move, pinned in place by Bressie’s casual words. Get you sorted could mean so many things, things he wants, and his brain almost explodes.

I Knew From The First Time by Anonymous --- [fic post]

larry | 4k | teen and up

Harry spent weeks picking out a gorgeous ring, and months planning every little detail of the perfect anniversary trip to propose to Louis. Except it doesn't go as planned and the ring disappears.

Harry Styles Plays with Kittens While Answering Questions by @sadaveniren — [fic post]

larry | 4k | teen and up

Louis runs a Youtube channel and Harry is his celebrity guest

to love you in word and deed by Anonymous — [fic post]

larry | 4k | general audiences

Louis loves everything about living with Harry. Except for Harry’s effusive proposals. Because the problem is, it’s getting harder and harder for Louis to keep reacting like they’re jokes.

Roll the Dice by @allwaswell16 — [fic post]

larry | 3k | explicit

Louis has been in love with Harry since they were eighteen. It isn’t until Harry’s thirtieth birthday in Las Vegas that Louis must finally decide to either tell Harry how he feels or let him marry someone else.

molecular by @dinoflangellate — [fic post]

zouis | 3k | teen and up

The team pushes into the lab, jostling each other through the sliding glass doors. Eenie, meenie, miney, mo. There they are, the four of them, present and accounted for. Louis shoves his way in last, looking sweaty and triumphant, and the hand around Zayn’s heart finally unclenches.

Unto You by @londonfoginacup — [fic post]

larry | 3k | teen and up

Louis is a lamplighter celebrating the saturnalia season in his own way.

Harry is heavily pregnant and new in the city.

The holiday of Christmas is yet to be created.

Brring Brring (that’s the land line) by Anonymous — [fic post]

larry | 3k | general audiences

Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles have been dating for six months and two weeks.

It’s one in the morning, and the phone rings.

Snowdrops and Mice Pops by @ohharold --- [fic post]

larry | 3k | teen and up

The boys are stuck at Hogwarts over Christmas incapable of taking the Hogwarts Express back to London. A botched together friends Christmas would have to do.

step into christmas by leighbot

zarry | 2k | general audiences

the one where Zayn's written a Christmas book for children and Harry brings his son to a local reading.

Oh Valley Girl by @londonfoginacup — [fic post]

larry | 2k | general audiences

Out past the rolling hills and the churning sea sits a little fishing village, nestled in a valley where its residents are protected from the elements, as well as from the outside world as a whole.

Harry lives in this little fishing village, and she loves nothing more than feeling the earth beneath her and seeing the sky above her and sometimes dreaming of adventure.

Then one day a ship arrives.

Tricks and Treats by @homosociallyyours --- [fic post]

larry | 1k | general audiences

wherein Louis receives a package not intended for him, Harry has a brilliant idea, and the two of them meet properly at a Halloween party.

Gratuitous puns, bone® jokes, and creepy neighbors abound!

This Is Halloween by @hadtobelou --- [fic post]

larry | 1k | explicit

Louis' Halloween doesn't go as planned.

Scarily Incompatible by soidiallednine 

larry | 666 | general audiences

Harry seems perfect for Louis. Lottie certainly thinks so. But one really scary choice by Harry will doom them before they start.

something weird (but it do look good) by @uhohmorshedios — [fic post]

larry | 666 | teen and up

Harry’s upset that Louis didn’t appreciate his attempt to put a very-Harry twist on a Halloween meme and Louis tries his best to make it up to him.

take my hand (i won’t let go) by @tempolarriefix — [fic post]

larry | 666 | general audiences

in which zayn and liam are in love, niall doesn’t want to third wheel, louis hates scary things, and harry works in a haunted house.

aka the ficlet haunted house meet-cute that you never knew you needed.

The Devil Went Down to Georgia by @kingsofeverything — [fic post]

larry | 666 | general audiences

Louis just wants to fall in love for eternity.

the future reflected by @louandhazaf — [fic post]

larry | 666 | not rated

Louis didn’t take the stupid game seriously. Maybe he should’ve.

The Literal Gates of Hell by @evilovesyou — [fic post]

larry | 666 | general audiences

Louis has a passion for the supernatural and tends to drag his friends into his ghost and demon hunting adventures. His guardian angel isn’t too pleased when they set out to find one of the actual gates of hell.

You Win by @ziamhaze --- [fic post]

ziam | 666 | general audiences

Based off this AU: A werewolf finds a human who is strolling in the woods late at night, and just before the werewolf goes to attack the human, the human then starts to beat box and the werewolf is too intrigued to attack them.

I Still Follow by @smoke-flowers — [fic post]

zarry | 606 | general audiences

The sky is cloaked in black velvet, but he swears he sees stars.

[bakagamieru]

Niall’s Fake Relationships

I’ll say this as a reminder: 

Niall has had several demonstrably fake PR relationships before.  If you don’t believe that, you need to look at the evidence.  I’ve done the heavy lifting for at least some of them which you can find in posts linked at https://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/projects-and-posts (at the top of the Niall Posts section) and at the bottom of the https://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/120167922043/nialls-relationships post.

It’s very likely that NONE of the relationships that Niall has ostensibly been in have been real relationships and that ALL his real relationships have been kept entirely unknown to the press AND the fandom.

The relationship with Hailee was very public in the sense that it’s the first and only time Niall ever kissed someone on a pap walk like that (there was sort of another, but it wasn’t nearly the scale).  That means that this, too, was a fake PR relationship.

Ergo, any song ostensibly written about Niall and Hailee’s relationship is no different than a song that Taylor wrote about Harry, that Louis wrote about Eleanor, that Liam wrote about Sophia, or that Zayn wrote about Perrie or Gigi -- i.e., the songs are just as fake as the relationships.

A few other things to consider:

1) The song title is a bit on the nose, begging for drama, and Hailee doesn’t strike me as that type.  I can’t see her writing a song like that and titling it so obviously if this was a real situation.  The in-your-face quality of it screams “stunt created by marketing team” to me.  It’s not that different from Ed Sheeran’s “Don’t” (which, again, was framed to point straight at Niall and Ellie Goulding even though the timeline given in the song CANNOT apply to them).

2) For some reason, Niall’s fake relationships have always framed him as either “the other man” or, more rarely, as a cheater.  In fact, I think every single one of the 1D boys has been framed as a cheater or something in the same vein by their fake relationships.  In any case, it’s a pattern, but that doesn’t mean it’s real.

3) Just because Niall manages to be private doesn’t mean he’s duplicitous.  There are some things Niall never mentions, but the things he does talk about, he’s generally exceedingly open about (e.g., his claustrophobia).  I don’t think celebrities having personas means that they can completely change their personality and successfully hide it.  I think the little things they do still paint a truthful picture of who they are if you pay attention.  It’s in their body language, in the way they talk, and in the way they treat others.

“Wrong Direction” talks about someone completely disregarding the feelings of the person they’re with and I don’t see how that could be Niall.  There’s literally one person who’s ever said a bad word about Niall and it was a tattoo artist who doesn’t even know him.  He’s somehow secretly been best friends with people for years who the fandom doesn’t even realize he knows.  He’s the only one who ever seemed friendly with his fake relationship partners and continues to be friends with people he’s supposedly dated and broken up with.  He also may have the most close female friends of anyone in the band, besides potentially Harry.  Niall is also friends with some straight up angels (Bressie, for one) and I can’t see Bressie ever condoning the way Niall supposedly treats relationships like games (according to his narrative).  If you look at Niall’s lyrics from the Flicker album, it’s also pretty clear that he puts thought and concern into how his partner is feeling and he himself is very emotionally invested.  I don’t see why that would be true for one person and completely opposite for his next relationship.  He also tends to put all the power in the hands of the women in his songs as seen in “Temporary Fix” and “Slow Hands” especially.  All of these things paint a very clear picture of who Niall is to me and none of that adds up to the person in “Wrong Direction”.

Conclusion

Niall’s stunts are less frequent and usually less dramatic, but they do happen.  There is absolutely no reason to treat this situation any differently than it would be treated for Harry, Louis, Liam, or Zayn.  It’s a fake song about a fake relationship.  It’s business as usual in the entertainment industry and Niall’s character shouldn’t be assassinated because of it.

[louandhazaf]

And Let Me Kiss You

multiple pairings /// 38k /// not rated

A collection of quick fics based on kissing prompts. 

*below is a list of the chapters/prompts, as well as the pairings, which include Larry, Lilo, Grouis, Harry/Shawn, Tomlinshaw, Shiall, Gryles, Zouis, Lirry, Ziam, Narry, Nouis, Nick/Louis/Elgar, Zirry, Louis/Bressie, Ziall, and last but not least Harry/Nick Jonas

Kissing... to shut them up (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... to give up control (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... in secrecy (Louis Tomlinson/Liam Payne)

Kissing... passionately (Louis Tomlinson/Greg James)

Kissing... in grief (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... in danger (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... as a lie (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... where it hurts (Harry Styles/Shawn Mendes)

Kissing... as a 'yes' (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... after a small rejection (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... to pretend (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... out of spite (Louis Tomlinson/Greg James)

Kissing... as a distraction (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... out of anger (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... goodnight (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... discreetly (f/f Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... on a scar (Niall Horan/Shawn Mendes)

Kissing... forcefully (Louis Tomlinson/Greg James)

Kissing... as a suggestion (Harry Styles/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... because they’re running out of time (Niall Horan/Shawn Mendes)

Kissing... good morning (Louis Tomlinson/Zayn Malik)

Kissing... desperately (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... in a rush of adrenaline (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw) 

Kissing... out of envy or jealousy (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... to wake up (Harry Styles/Liam Payne)

Kissing... as encouragement (Liam Payne/Zayn Malik)

Kissing... to gain something (Niall Horan/Shawn Mendes)

Kissing... lazily (Louis Tomlinson/Zayn Malik)

Kissing... because the world is saved (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... on a tear (Louis Tomlinson & Zayn Malik)

Kissing... because the world is ending (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... in public (Niall Horan/Harry Styles)

Kissing... casually (Louis Tomlinson/Niall Horan)

Kissing... in a place of insecurity (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... as a promise (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw/Elgar Johnson)

Kissing... out of habit (Harry Styles/Zayn Malik)

Kissing... out of lust (Liam Payne/Zayn Malik)

Kissing... as comfort (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... out of necessity (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... because time’s run out (Louis Tomlinson/Greg James)

Kissing... out of greed (Louis Tomlinson/Zayn Malik)

Kissing... where it doesn’t hurt (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... goodbye (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... out of pride (Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles)

Kissing... as an apology (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... in relief (Harry Styles/Shawn Mendes)

Kissing... in joy (Louis Tomlinson/Nick Grimshaw)

Kissing... for luck (Louis Tomlinson/Niall Breslin)

Kissing... without motive (Zayn Malik/Niall Horan)

Kissing... out of love (Harry Styles/Nick Jonas)

[nho-jungle]

Mikey I would love some gender fic recs

I am completely at ur service! U didn’t specify fandom so im just gonna drop all of them :3

One Direction

sneak out the back door, we don’t have to say goodbye by alexenglish

shawn/niall, explicit, trans masc niall, small town au. 4,239 words.

let it be lightning by alexenglish (they write a lot of good gender stuff)

ot5 1d, niall/bressie, explicit, trans, nb, and asexual characters. pacific rim au (but can be enjoyed with no knowledge of pacific rim). 41,357 words.

infinity times infinity by dinosaur

ot5 1d, niall/bressie, teen, series, trans and asexual characters. sci-fi. 35,475 words.

(i want dirt under my fingernails) by (again lmao) alexenglish

liam/harry/louis, teen, trans and nb characters. alcohol. 2,262 words.

who said I was an angel  by PigSlay

zayn/harry, teen, nb niall, spies and secret agents. 26,517 words.

5 Seconds of Summer

pyrite by awfuldaycupcake

gen, nb luke, gender exploration. 998 words.

Set It Off

dudes just being dudes by radtoro

maxx/cody, teen, trans masc maxx, sleepovers. 1,076 words.

All Time Low

the ocean by EarthToQuinne

jack/alex, gen, nb alex, trans femme jack, coming out. 4,403 words.

this was a terrible day to get my period by orphan_account 

alex/rian, teen, trans masc alex, dysphoria, fluff. 3,225 words.

Multi

as a boy (girl) by orphan_account

kellin/vic, jack/alex, teen, gender exploration, a multitude of trans and nb characters. Minor violence and mentions of self-harm. 19,711 words.

[theficpusher]

wear you like a necklace by ferryboatpeak | E | 7387 Tom's got a nice summer arrangement with the Winstons, until their popstar houseguest shows up.

Good Boys Do Bad Things by YesIsAWorld | E | 8831 Bressie was a fucking stud and Louis couldn’t fully be blamed for his actions when Bressie was around. Harry had made fun of Louis relentlessly for like four months back in college after Louis had admitted there wasn’t much he wouldn’t do for six feet two. And Bressie was six feet fucking six. Or, the one where Louis doesn't mean to fall for his boss.

Should Be, Meant To Be by thecheshirepussycat | E | 9174 Louis signs up for a Sugar Daddy dating website on a drunken dare. He forgets for a while, until one night he gets a notification for a message request from none other than his really hot (really rich) boss, Harry Styles.

fasHUN by silvered_glass | E | 19136 A few years ago, Aimee and Nick had the wild idea to launch a fashion retail website; fasHUN. It's become utterly massive, and here they are, years later, at the head of an international fashion (and financial) empire, when all Nick had really wanted to do was to find an easier way of sleeping his way through the male model population of the world. Well, now he’s a sort of serious CEO always on the brink of a meltdown, especially with Aimee going on maternity leave for a few months and his E.A, Gillian hiring a way-too-charming, way-too-clumsy frustrated fashion writer moonlighting as a personal shopper named Harry Styles to help her deal with Nick’s schedule (and Nick.)

Barefoot in Blue Jeans by indiaalphawhiskey | E | 24462 AU. Louis Tomlinson is trying desperately hard not to fall for his son’s au pair, but he can’t, for the life of him, remember why.

You're the Light by allwaswell16 | E | 31288 Before beginning a new graduate school in the fall, Louis Tomlinson decides to spend the summer working in Chicago as an editor’s assistant for the Chicago Tribune newspaper and staying with his old college roommate. What he finds on his first day of work is a tall, gorgeous editor named Harry who has the most beautiful green eyes he’s ever seen—and who also happens to be his new boss.

That's What I'm Here For by taggiecb | E | 46838 Louis Tomlinson is a dairy farmer on a tiny farm in eastern Canada. His wife of nearly thirty years has left him and his children are all grown up and out of the house. Louis needs help running his business but has no idea where to even start looking. Luckily for him his children know just the man for the job.

Floating On The Water by scottmcniceass | M | 58206 Liam just wants to get through his last summer working at Malik Resort before University without incident. Of course, life is never that easy, and he ends up getting roped into giving the bosses son, Zayn, swimming lessons. That wouldn't be so bad, if Zayn didn't happen to hate him so much.

I'll Crash Until You Notice Me by stylinsoncity | M | 61267 Louis sets off to Barbados to oversee the massive resort his family owns known as Sandy Hill. For years, he's been looking for a change in the monotony of his life, seeking adventure and perhaps love too. What he doesn't expect is the bright eyed boy who spills a milkshake on his shoes. Cue the summer loving.

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Outwit, Outplay, Outlast - rozdział II: dzień 22

Autorki: dancesongsoul, lookatyourchoices

Tłumaczenie: Madeleine

Opis: “Tommo i Harry mają zamiar to zrobić. Nie wiem kiedy, ale zamierzają to zrobić. Mają materac, poduszki, wszystko jest na swoim miejscu, a oni zamierzają to zrobić. Naprawdę życzę im powodzenia” - Taylor Swift, Chapera

Lub Survivor All-Stars AU, w którym Harry i Louis są w tej grze tylko po to, by wygrać milion dolarów, ale kończą z czymś o wiele lepszym.

Gościnnie żółte kąpielowe szorty Harry'ego, Louis w snapback'u i nieuczciwe działania OT5

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DZIEŃ 22

Louis zrywa się na dźwięk trzasku i Nialla krzyczącego – Drzewo!

Pierdolone dupki. Louis nigdy nie zrozumie potrzeby Liama i Nialla by wstawać o bladym świcie i budzenia wszystkich pozostałych członków plemienia swoimi wybrykami.

Harry pociąga lekko nosem i jeszcze głębiej chowa twarz w szyję Louisa, a Louis czuje jak nagle całe rozdrażnienie z niego znika. Chowa swój uśmiech we włosach Harry’ego i przyciąga go bliżej, ponieważ po ostatniej nocy Louis chce być blisko swojego chłopca.

Liam i Niall nadal robią zamieszanie, sprawiając, że Harry znów się porusza, co natomiast sprawia, że Louis ponowie jest zirytowany. Robią to ostatnio coraz częściej i zaczyna to być nudne. Chapera ma wystraczająco dużo drewna na ognisko. Naprawdę nie ma powodu, aby ścinali go więcej i wszystkich budzili. To niegrzeczne.

W brzuchu Louisa pojawia się niespokojne uczucie, nawet gdy głaszcze Harry’ego po włosach, aby go uśpić. To jest to samo uczucie, które Louis czasem ma przed naprawdę złym dniem. Louis karci się za bycie paranoikiem i rozkazuje sobie po prostu cieszyć się dniem, ale nawet jak Harry i reszta się już obudzili i zaczęli poranną rutynę, to to uczucie wciąż nie znika.

 „Niall i ja zdecydowanie jesteśmy tymi pracowitymi pszczółkami w Chapera. Nie zbyt pasuje mi to, że oni tam wszyscy siedzą na tyłkach i nic nie robią, kiedy my wykonujemy całą ciężką pracę za nich, ale… Nie mogę tam po prostu podejść i powiedzieć ‘Ruszcie dupy z łóżek i zabierzcie się do pracy!’ Nie mogę tak powiedzieć.”- Liam, Chapera

 Późnym rankiem w ich skrzynce pocztowej pojawia się niewielka puszka z farbą, bez instrukcji, co z nią zrobić.

- Wydaje mi się, że to farba do ciała. Żebyśmy się pomalowali na wyzwanie – mówi Zayn, a reszta się z nim zgadza. Kto się lubi malować dłońmi?

- Hej Lou? – Podchodzi Harry, wyciągając w jego kierunku puszkę z farbą. – Pomalujesz mnie?

- Jak jedną z moich Francuzek? –Żartuje Louis, biorąc od Harry’ego farbę, który przewraca oczami i chichocze.

Louis przybiera bardzo poważny wyraz twarzy i odchyla się, podnosząc ręce, by obramować Harry’ego tak, jakby obramowywał płótno.

- Hmmm. I co mam z tym zrobić? Na płótnie jest już tyle bazgrołów! – Mówi, wskazując na kolekcje tatuaży Harry’ego.

Harry dąsa się – Mówiłeś, że lubisz moje tatuaże.

Louis przybliża się ponownie do Harry’ego i szepcze do jego ucha – Bo lubię – po czym przeciąga farbą po jednym z dodatkowych sutków Harry’ego, wydobywając z niego pisk i Harry próbuje mu się wyślizgnąć, ale Louis trzyma go mocno w miejscu za ramię.

Harry przestaje się wyrywać, więc Louis zaczyna go łaskotać zamiast malować, ale ostatecznie kończą z jakimś skomplikowanym wzorem wychodzącym z wytatuowanego motyla. Harry spogląda na swój tors, a jego sutki zdecydowanie się ożywiają z zainteresowaniem i uśmiecha się.

- Dzięki Lou – Podnosi wzrok z błyskiem w oczach. – Teraz twoja kolej.

Harry kończy ścigając Louisa przez dobre dwie minuty, śmiejąc się i krzycząc przez cały czas, po czym przygniata Louisa do ziemi i zaczyna jeździć pokrytymi farbą palcami po jego klatce piersiowej. To jak pewien rodzaj słodkich tortur, gdy Harry dotyka go z czystko funkcjonalnych powodów.  Gdy Harry kończy, obaj mają zaszklone oczy. Kiedy wracają do reszty plemienia, Niall zaczyna się śmiać i krzyczy – Lepiej, żebyście nic niegrzecznego tam chłopcy nie robili! Wszyscy musimy tam spać.

- Zamknij się, Ni – Mówi Harry z rumieniąc się, ale na jego twarzy pozostaje uśmiech.

Louis obejmuje go ramieniem – Yeah. Jakbym pozwolił żeby pierwszy raz Harry’ego był w jakimś brudnym obozie. Nasz Harold to delikatny kwiat, który zasługuje tylko na najpiękniejszy romans! – Deklaruje dramatycznie Louis.

Niall ze śmiechu prawie się przewraca. Harry daje Louisowi kuksańca w żebra, wciąż różowy pomimo niezadowolonego spojrzenia skierowanego na Louisa – Nie jestem rumieniącą się dziewicą, Lou.

Louis wzdycha i trzepocze rzęsami – Ale jesteś taki piękny, gdy się rumienisz.

- Oboje jesteście obrzydliwi – Wcina się Zayn, robiąc krok do przodu, aby zabrać farbę z dłoni Harry’ego. – Musimy skończyć się malować, zanim będziemy musieli iść.

Nastrój staje się nieco poważniejszy, gdy Zayn zaczyna malować coś wyszukanego na piersi Liama.

- Myślicie, że to scalanie?- Pyta Niall.

- Nic innego nie przychodzi mi do głowy – odpowiada Jesy, ze swojego miejsca na piasku.

Louis trochę jej współczuje, że Jesy jest jedyną kobietą w plamieniu hałaśliwych chłopców, ale wydaje się mu, że radzi sobie z tym na tyle dobrze na ile można się tego spodziewać. W tym momencie ona i Harry są prawie przyjaciółmi. Nie to, że Louis ma ich na oku czy coś.

To niepokojące uczucie pojawia się ponownie, kiedy Harry mówi – Nigdy nie wiadomo. Chodzi mi o to, że wciąż rzucają nam kłody pod nogi, więc to może być kolejna.

Louis wysyła cichą modlitwę by faktycznie było to scalenie. Są teraz w doskonałej pozycji, mają przewagę liczbową na Mogo Mogo, nikt raczej nie chce przejść na drugą stronę, a on i Harry ustanowili już swoją pozycję władzy w plemieniu.

Błagam, niech to będzie scalenie.

 „Podchodzimy do wyzwania i nie wiemy, czy będzie to scalenie, ale wiemy, że coś się na pewno wydarzy” – Jesy, Chapera

 - Chapera! – Woła Jeff, gdy wchodzą do pomieszczenia – Dobrze wyglądacie!

- Dobrze się bawiliśmy – odzywa się Harry, a Zayn dodaje – Dzięki za farbę!

Gdy siadają na macie, wywołane zostaje Mogo Mogo.

- Chapera, po raz pierwszy widzicie nowe Mogo Mogo. Eleanor została przegłosowana na ostatniej radzie plemiennej.

- Dobrze – Louis słyszy, jak Liam mamrocze pod nosem. Najwyraźniej ta dwójka niezbyt się dogadywała gdy byli w Sabogdze.

Kiedy Louis przygląda się drugiemu plemieniu, zdaje sobie sprawę, że nie pomalowali się i zamiast tego niosą farbę ze sobą. Louis zastanawia się przez chwilę, czy faktycznie powinni byli nie użyć farby, ale wyraz twarzy Jeffa uspakaja go i daje do zrozumienia, że to nie Chapera głupio wygląda tylko Mogo Mogo.

- Wysłaliśmy wam trochę farby i jak wszyscy widzimy, Chapera jej użyła, podczas gdy Mogo Mogo nie. Tommo, czy to oznaka ducha zespołu?

Louis wzrusza ramionami i próbuje się nie uśmiechać- Tak, chyba tak. Dobrze się tu bawimy… malując się nawzajem.

Chapera wybucha na to śmiechem, a Mogo Mogo wygląda gorzej niż zwykle. Dobrze, myśli Louis. Im niższe ich morale, tym lepiej dla Louisa i jego plemienia.

Kiedy Jeff pyta Mogo Mogo dlaczego nie użyli swojej farby odpowiadają jakąś bzdurą, że chcą ją zachować, a Louis nie może powstrzymać niedowierzającego parsknięcia. Harry szczypie go w bok.

Jeff w końcu wyjaśnia dlaczego tu są, i mówi im, że będą odbywać się prywatne rozmowy jeden na jednego z członkami z innego plemienia. Tom wybiera pierwszy i pada na Louisa, co jest do bani, bo Louis typa nie znosi. Tom jest zbyt nachalny i irytujący.

Z drugiej strony, dostaną luchboxy z jedzeniem do podzielenia, a ponieważ ich plemię ma dwóch dodatkowych graczy, Harry i Zayn są razem. Przynajmniej oni będą się dobrze bawić.

Kiedy siadają, Louis otwiera koszyk i bierze trochę jedzenia, ale Tom natychmiast rozpoczyna rozmowę. – Jestem gotowy na scalenie. Jestem gotowy na to, abyśmy wszyscy byli jednym plemieniem, aby były indywidualne wyzwania, żeby naprawdę rozpocząć grę.

Wygląda jak Gollum, gdy siedzi tam taki zgarbiony, z szeroko otwartymi oczami i z odrobioną desperacji w głosie. Louis chętnie uświadomiłby go jak bardzo nieistotny jest w tej grze, ale nie wychyla się i trzyma usta na kłódkę, tak jak polecił mu Harry.

Reszta ich lunchu przebiegła w podobny sposób: Tom mówił, Louis słuchał i jadł. Kiedy zostają wezwani z powrotem do Jeffa, ten mówi im, żeby stanęli gdzie chcą, a przez Louisa przebiega dreszcz ekscytacji, ponieważ to musi oznaczać scalenie. Musi.

- Rzucie swoje chusty – Mówi Jeff z uśmiechem, a Louis odetchną z ulgą. Miał rację. Spogląda wzdłuż linii i wyłapuje wzrok Harry’ego i pokazuje mu kciuki do góry.

W porządku. Pierwszą rzeczą, którą będą musieli zrobić, gdy dotrą do nowego obozu, będzie rozmowa-..

Myśli Louisa zmieniają się w biały szum, gdy Tom wyciąga zupełnie nową czerwoną chustę. Chustę Chapery. Co kurwa.

- Co? Myślałeś, że się scalacie? – Mówi Jeff z wyraźnym uśmiechem w głosie. Louis ma ochotę mu przywalić. – Po prostu trochę zmieniamy rzeczy. Tom jest teraz członkiem Chapery.

Louis ma wrażenie, że serce u wypadło i leży na pisaku u jego stóp. Spogląda nerwowo wokół siebie i oddycha przez nos. Wszystko będzie dobrze, dopóki wyciągnie ten sam kolor co Harry.

Louis wyciąga zieleń Mogo Mogo i ogarnia go fala gniewu. Cała jego ciężka praca w Chaperze poszła się pieprzyć. W jeden cholernej chwili.

- Do twarzy ci w zielonym – Mówi drwiąco Jeff, gdy Louis idzie w kierunku maty Mogo Mogo.

- Nie. Wolę czerwony – Mówi, kiedy mija Harry’ego. Harry próbuje się uśmiechnąć uspokajająco, ale Louis widzi, że jest tak samo zaskoczony tą sytuacją,

- Tommo, nie wyglądasz na szczęśliwego.

- Dostaną nasz obóz?

Jeff kiwa głową, a Louis wzrusza ramionami. – W takim razie nie. Nie jestem szczęśliwy.

Niall jest następny i wyciąga zielony, więc przynajmniej Louis będzie miał w pobliżu kogoś, kogo lubi. Bressie wyciąga czerwony i mruczy pod nosem jak dziwne jest to, że wychodzi na to, że plemiona po prostu zamieniają się kolorami. Leigh-Anne czerwony, Liam zielony, Mary czerwony.

Dosłownie nic się nie zmieniło, a Louis zaczyna myśleć o numerach. Chapera miała dwóch członków więcej niż Mogo Mogo, więc zamiana prawdopodobnie ma na celu wyrównanie liczby graczy. Chapera miała dwóch członków więcej niż Mogo Mogo, więc zamiana prawdopodobnie ma na celu wyrównanie liczby graczy w każdym plemieniu. Oznacza to, że prawdopodobnie jeden członek Chapery znajdzie się w Mogo Mogo. A Harry jest ostatnim wyciągającym chustę.

Louis ma wrażenie, że przestał oddychać, gdy Jesy wyciąga zielony, pozostawiając Zayna i Harry’ego jako dwóch ostatnich. Jeden będzie czerwony, a drugi zielony. Sądząc po wyrazie twarzy Harry’ego on też o tym wie.

- Coś jest w tych plemionach! – Mówi radośnie Jeff.

Dupek.

Zayn wkłada rękę do urny i wyciąga zieloną chustę.

Nie, myśli Louis. Nie nie nie! Nie tak miało być, on i Harry do końca razem. Taki był plan.

Ale bez względu na to, jak bardzo umysł Louisa protestuje, Harry podchodzi z ponurym wyrazem twarzy i spuszczonymi z rezygnacji ramionami i wyciąga czerwoną chustę.

- Harry jako jedyny pozostanie w swoim pierwotnym plemieniu. Nie do wiary.- Louis żałuje, że nie może wyciszyć Jeffa, ale jego zmysły pracują teraz na najwyższym poziomie, próbując wychwycić każdy najmniejszy szczegół o Harrym, jakby to był ostatni raz kiedy go zobaczy i – kurwa, nie. To nieprawda. Z Harrym będzie wszystko w porządku.

Harry podchodzi do swojego nowego plemienia z uśmiechem na twarzy, który jest tak sztuczny, że Louisowi robi się niedobrze. Louis obserwuje Harry’ego, ale Harry nie spogląda w jego stronę, co – tak przyzna, że trochę boli, ale też nie może powiedzieć, że nie rozumie. Jemu też byłoby trudno spojrzeć na Harry’ego, gdyby został zmuszony do przejścia do plemienia prawie obcych mu ludzi. To musi być dla niego trudne. I Louis żałuje, że nie może czegoś dla niego zrobić. Żałuje, że to nie on został wybrany.

- Trochę dziwne, co, Liam? – Pyta Jeff.

- Bardzo dziwne.

- Prawie jak los? – Jeff jest zbyt cholernie zadowolony z tego wszystkiego i Louis jest sekundy od powiedzenia mu czegoś, gdy Liam kontynuuje – Cóż… Harry powinien być z nami – A Niall woła: - Tak! Harry powinien być tu.

Louisowi serce pulsuje w piersi. Wszyscy kochają Harry’ego; należy do ich małej prowizorycznej rodziny, a Jeff nie może tego po prostu zabrać.

Louis spogląda na Harry’ego, żeby zobaczyć jak się czuję, ale Harry patrzy zdecydowanie na Jeffa, twarz ma zamarłą w pół-uśmiechu, który niczego nie zdradza. Jego Harry jest zmartwiony, a Louis nic nie może z tym zrobić.

W końcu Jeff odprawia ich, by „udali się do swoich nowych domów”, a Harry odwraca się w kierunku swojego starego plemienia i macha, wpatrując się przez chwilę w Louisa. Przełamuje to ciężką atmosferę wokół nich i Niall biegnie i porywa Harry’ego w uścisk, a tuż za nim jest Jesy.

Louis podchodzi do nich i nagle Harry odrywa się i zarzuca mu ramiona na szyję, trzymając się go jak życia. Louis masuje go po plecach, próbując uspokoić, gdy Harry ciężko oddycha mu do ucha.

- Wszystko będzie dobrze – Louis szepcze mu do ucha z większym przekonaniem, niż faktycznie czuje. Ściska swojego chłopca i chce, aby jego słowa były prawdziwe. Harry będzie w porządku.

Harry tylko kiwa głową i głaszcze kark Louisa, jakby to on próbował uspokoić jego, co powoduje, że coś ciężkiego osadza się w klatce piersiowej Louisa, gdy już się od siebie odsuwają.

Odejście Harry’ego i zmiana obozu jest najbardziej emocjonalnie wyczerpującą rzeczą, która się przydarzyła Louisowi od samego początku gry, a Louis zastanawia się, czy może już skończyło mu się szczęście, które do tej pory mu towarzyszyło.

 „Zdecydowanie mam wrażenie, że to ja wypadłem najgorzej w tej całej sytuacji. Byłem taki zły. Kiedy Jeff wyciągnął urnę pełną nowych chust – główną myślą, która przeszła mi przez głowę, było ‘proszę, wyciągnij ten kolor, który będzie miał Louis.’” – Harry, Chapera

 - Witam w Chaperze! – Mówi Harry, zataczając ręką w kierunku obozu. – Mam nadzieje, że będzie wam wygodnie.

Przez pierwsze kilka sekund, kiedy wszyscy są pod wrażeniem i nie robią nic innego poza gapieniem i byciem oszołomionym z zachwytu, Harry czuje przypływ dumy z tego, że jego plemieniu udało się osiągnąć coś takiego na plaży. Można powiedzieć, że jest to jeden z najlepszych obozów w historii Survivor. Bungalow jest świadectwem tego, jak dobrze im szło i namacalnym dowodem na to, jak bardzo zasłużyli na te wszystkie wygrane.

Ale potem wszyscy rzucają się do przodu i zaczynają dotykać i przywłaszczać sobie wszystko, co tylko wpadnie im w ręce, a Harry czuje się, jakby połkną właśnie kotwicę, bo taki ciężar czuje nagle na dnie żołądka.

Miał nadzieję, że mimo wszystko, powrót do znajomego otoczenia sprawi, że poczuje się lepiej, ale chyba jest tylko gorzej być tu z ludźmi, którzy tu nie należą.

- Nigdy nie myślałem, ze znów zobaczę pastę do zębów!

- Nie ma kurwa mowy! Czy to jest szachownica?

- Cholera jasna, to jest prawdziwy materac, naprawdę będziemy spać na materacu!

Harry wie, że mieli ciężko w swoim obozie. Gdyby był na ich miejscu, pewnie też pobiegłby do najbliższej butelki szamponu. Ale to nie znaczy, że łatwo się to ogląda.

Tom bawi się instrumentem, którego Niall uczył rzeźbić Zayna; Bressie bawi się w skalnym ogrodzie, z którego Jesy była bardzo dumna, Leigh-Anne przestawia sprzęt do połowu ryb Liama; Mary przesiewa prowizoryczną kuchnie, w której spędzał większość wieczorów, próbując gotować dla wszystkich, podczas gdy Louis starał się go rozproszyć.

Harry czuje kolejne ukłucie bólu. Utrata swoich towarzyszy była okropna, ale utrata Louisa… Myśli, że mógłby stawić czoła wszystkiemu, o ile obok niego byłby Louis.

Jednak nie ma już sensu myśleć w ten sposób. Dał sobie wcześniej radę bez Louisa, więc da i teraz.

Oprowadza wszystkich po obozie przez resztę popołudnia, starając się im jak najlepiej pomóc w zadomowieniu. Musi być jak najbardziej użyteczny, ponieważ jeśli nowa Chapera przegra w wyzwaniu, Harry będzie oczywistym wyborem na eliminację.

W tej chwili jego najlepszym rozwiązaniem jest zachęcenie plemienia do spróbowania gry. Scalenie nie może być zbyt odległe, a kiedy już nastąpi, gracze będą musieli pomyśleć o ostatecznych liczbach i o tym, z kim chcą (lub nie chcą) konkurować w ewentualnych wyzwaniach o nietykalność lub nagrody.

Może uda mu się ich przekonać do głosowania na kogoś innego w plemieniu, kogoś kto po scaleniu będzie większym zagrożeniem.  Albo może obiecać im miejsce w swoim sojuszu z Louisem, skoro Mary z pewnością już im o nim powiedziała.

Nieuchronnie jego myśli kierują się do Louisa, który prawdopodobnie znajduje się w tej samej sytuacji w Mogo Mogo. Reszta plemienia pewnie też zdaje sobie sprawę, że wkrótce nastąpi scalenie. Nie będą już potrzebować Louisa, aby wygrać challenge; zamiast tego będzie ich największą konkurencją w poszczególnych wyzwaniach. Jeśli Mogo Mogo zostanie wysłane do trybunału, imię Louisa na pewno pojawi się jako jedna z możliwości do eliminacji.

Harry dokłada wszelkich starań, aby o tym zapomnieć. Musi się skupić na nauce dynamiki plemienia, aby mógł wymyślić plan na uratowanie samego siebie.

 „To trochę dziwne, że oni wszyscy tu są. Czują się tutaj jak u siebie w domu, ale muszę się jakoś do tego przyzwyczaić. Na pewno to nie jest mój dom, bez ludzi, którzy go stworzyli. Trochę do bani” – Harry, Chapera

 „Utrata Harry’ego i obozu za jednym zamachem – nie czuliśmy, że mamy wiele do świętowania.” – Zayn, Mogo Mogo

 Atmosfera w obozie Mogo Mogo jest w najlepszym razie ponura, nawet z koszem jedzenia, który na nich czekał. Nikt tak naprawdę nie rozmawia, ale tym razem Louis nie ma ochoty przerywać ciszy. Jest zbyt zajęty, myśleniem o swoim Harrym w gnieździe wrogów. Serce go boli na myśl o szansach Harry’ego – i faktu, że nic na to nie poradzi.

To przytłaczające uczucie polega na tym, że zawiódł Harry’ego i nie może tego znieść.

Louis nie jest głupi. Wie, że jego uczucia do Harry’ego wymknęły się spod kontroli. Ale teraz – będąc rozdzielonym – Louis zaczyna zdawać sobie sprawę, że jego uczucia mogą być większe niż ta gra, czego świadomość jest zarówno przerażająca, jak i wspaniała. Ale głównie przerażająca. Zwłaszcza, gdy Louis nie jest pewien, co dokładne czuje Harry.

Liam leniwie dzióbie patykiem w ogniu ze smutnymi oczami szczeniaka, w końcu przerywając ciszę. – Szkoda, że Harry’ego tu nie ma.

Louis zdecydowanie nie patrzy na nikogo, choć czuje na sobie ich spojrzenie.

- Szkoda – Zgadza się Zayn, a kątem oka Louis widzi, jak reszta kiwa głowami, ponieważ – kurwa – wszyscy kochają Harry’ego. Nie można temu zaprzeczyć. A gdyby Louis myślał choćby częścią mózgu zamiast całym swoim cholernym sercem, to byłby zadowolony, że tak się stało.

Jest to idealny sposób na umycie rąk z sojuszy z poważnym zagrożeniem wygranej bez konieczności dźgania go w plecy. Ponieważ Harry jest poważnym zagrożeniem. O ile Louis próbował zignorować ten fakt, nie oznacza to, że staje się to mniej prawdziwe. Powinien być teraz szczęśliwy. W końcu chce to wygrać, prawda?

Louis kręci ze smutkiem głową. Może gdyby nie zainteresował się Harrym na samym początku, sprawy wyglądałyby inaczej, ale teraz – teraz, gdy wie, jak to jest spać obok Harry’ego, mieć go gdy potrzebowałby kogoś kto go uspokoi i sprawić, by Louis dobrze się bawił.. Louis nie sądzi, że da radę grać dalej bez niego.

- Mają schronienie. Dostali jedzenie. Mają wszystkie poduszki i koce. Cały sprzęt do połowu ryb. Wszystko.  – Narzeka Liam, szturchając ogień nieco bardziej agresywnie, podczas gdy reszta grupy milczy.

- Wiesz co w tym jest jedyną dobrą rzeczą? – Jesy pochyla się do przodu, jedząc orzechy. Louis chciałby, żeby go oświeciła co jest takiego dobrego w sytuacji, w której wylądowali. – Niech będą pod wrażeniem wszystkiego, co zrobiliśmy. Niech zobaczą jak żyliśmy. Może to jeszcze bardziej ich przygnębi, bo są do dupy.

Normalnie Louis rzucałby się o niesprawiedliwość tego wszystkiego, ale szczerze mówiąc… to najmniejsze z jego zmartwień w tej chwili.

- Mam nadzieję, że wszystko z nim w porządku – Louis nie zamierzał się odzywać, ale nie mógł się powstrzymać – Naprawdę mam nadzieję.

- Harry? – Zayn trąca go kolanem. – Wszystko będzie dobrze. To tylko kilka dni.

- Tak! Musi być – wtrąca Niall.

Jeśli będzie miał szczęście, wisi niewypowiedziane w powietrzu.

- Gdybym to był ja, to byłbym w stanie… - Co? Jego podświadomość drwi z niego. Na pewno zostałbyś przegłosowany. Czy tego właśnie kurwa chcesz? - …czułbym się znacznie lepiej.

Czuje współczujące spojrzenia na sobie i tym razem nikt nie oferuje żadnych słów pocieszenia.

Jest tylko jedna rzecz. Louis chwyta nietkniętą butelkę wina i berze długi łyk. Jeśli nic nie może zrobić, równie dobrze może się upić i spróbować o tym zapomnieć. Brzmi jak solidny plan.

Kończy swój łyk i podnosi butelkę.- Za Harry’ego! Mam nadzieję, że mu się uda!

- Yep, a jak inaczej. – Niall podnosi drugą butelkę.

- Da radę – mówi Jesy z pewnością.

Po pewnym czasie wszyscy się rozchodzą. Niektórzy idą spać, ale Louis wędruje w dół do skał na linii brzegu i siada, popijając butelką wina i patrząc na księżyc jak zakochany głupiec, którym jest.

Jest bardzo świadomy faktu, że ekipa filmowców jest ustawiona w pobliżu niego i cały czas go filmuje, ale go to nie obchodzi. Jego zlany w trupa mózg z roztargnieniem zastanawia się, w jaki sposób z edytują relację jego i Harry’ego. Jeśli przekręcą to w coś, czym nie jest. Lub jeśli wyemitują prawdę – Louis jako kretyn, który zakochał się w swoim rywalu.

Louis kręci głową, próbując ją trochę oczyścić. Musi się skoncentrować i wymyślić sposób na uratowanie Harry’ego. Nie może się teraz poddać.

I tak Louis siedzi dalej na kamieniach, aż słońce zaczyna zerkać za horyzontu i analizuje każdy możliwy scenariusz. Gdy z powrotem słyszy budzących się do życia w obozie ludzi, w jego żołądku panuje zimna pewność. Już wie, co musi zrobić.

 „Nie obchodzi mnie, że drugie plemię ma nasz obóz. Nie dbam nawet o to, że mają cały nasz dobytek. To jak bardzo na to narzekamy, nie ma żadnego znaczenia. Co mnie denerwuje, to to, że mają tam mojego Harry’ego” – Tommo, Mogo Mogo

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🖤 Withdrawal Was the Weeping by @becomeawendybird (larry, girl direction, historical AU, vampire Louis, THE FIC OF MY DREAMS EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE WANTED AND MORE)

🖤 Our Love is Timeless by @lululawrence (shiall, time travel AU, bed sharing, no smut, panic attacks, fluffy and cute BUT THE FEELS OH MY GOD THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH????, silver fox Niall realness btw happy to report I am destroyed)

🖤 No Bunny But You by @crinkle-eyed-boo (larry, American AU, strangers to lovers, fluff and smut and banter, hilarious and hot all at the same time)

🖤 don’t go quietly by @larrymaybe22 (larry, eating disorders, anorexia, emotional hurt/comfort, beautifully written, two lines in particular really got me where I live)

🖤 The Changer and the Changed by @homosociallyyours (larry, girl direction, 70s AU, New York, feminism, homophobia, transphobia, the world-building! so much research went into this but it never feels bogged down, I am obsessed with Harry’s journey, what a masterpiece honestly)

🖤 You Don’t Care About Me (One More Night) by @lululawrence (tomlinshaw, canon compliant, sexuality crisis, outing, friends with benefits, friends to lovers, LOVED how this was structured and developed, somehow both subtle and epic)

🖤 That’s My Thing by @uhohmorshedios (tomlinshaw, established relationship, role play, Dom/sub undertones, smut, LOUIS AS REGINA GEORGE IS MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE THING)

🖤 hard for me to know i might see you around by @coffeelouis (larry, airport AU, tinder AU, cute and funny and such good characterization with romantic Harry and teasing Louis!)

🖤 Good Boys Do Bad Things by @louandhazaf (Louis/Bressie, boss/employee, size difference, size kink, undernegotiated kink, hot in terms of smut AND emotion, read this and you will ship it too!)

🖤 Haunting Beauty by @evilovesyou (larry, ghost Louis, teacher Harry, fluff, lots of tea and books, loved these characterizations and how their story unfolded)

🖤 your best fake smile by @louandhazaf (larry, Brooklyn, Coney Island, first date, depression, amazing development and depiction of the setting)

🖤 Rear View by @uhohmorshedios (Zayn/Nick, AU, mechanic Zayn, tourist Nick, strangers to lovers, such flirting!, and connection, love this both as a contained story and what it hints they could be)

🖤 Stay forever by @allwaswell16 (larry, A/B/O, non-traditional dynamics, omega Louis, beta harry, camboy Louis, hot and dreamy and perfect)

🖤 Moon Dances Over by @londonfoginacup (larry, A/B/O, mermaid AU, had me feeling some kind of way)

🖤 A Work of Art by @lightwoodsmagic (ziam, uni AU, art student Zayn, life model Liam, smut, listen the whole uni au series is SO GOOD but special shout out to this one, start to finish I was flyinggggg, so so hot and sweet too!)

🖤 From The Heart series by @jacaranda-bloom (larry, coffeeshop AU, writer Louis, barista Harry, loved how meta this was and all the insights into the writing process! really charmed by their connection and OMGGG so hot)

🖤 I’m Not Finished (’Cause You’re Not By My Side) by @stylesbandshirts (larry, New Year’s Eve, fun and fluffy one-shot, that last line! I screamed)

🖤 Wait For It by @comebackassholes (larry, WIP, this fic is going to have EVERYTHING: friends to lovers, friends with benefits, exes to lovers, fluff, angst, banter, smut, everything)

🖤 Lila by @star55 (lirry, girl direction, anxiety, panic attacks, dogs, pure and lovely)

[stylingmrstyles]

now on ao3 Hands On Each Other by @stylingmrstyles Zayn/Bressie, explicit, 4100 words

(with a drabble from the same verse here)

[ao3feed-larry]

The Rest Of My Life

by reminiscingintherain

“M’Niall Breslin. But you can call me Bressie, or Bres if you’d rather.” “I, uh, I’m just Niall,” Niall mumbled. “M’sorry for just dropping in on you like this.” “Ach, but you’re fine,” Bressie waved a hand dismissively. “Da gave me a call and said you were going to be in town. Said Bobby Horan had asked me to keep an eye on ye.” “Ye know me Da?” Niall stared a little.

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When Niall Horan turned up on fellow Mullingar ex-pat Niall Breslin's London doorstep, one rainy night, neither of them expected for it to change the course of their lives.

Words: 10938, Chapters: 6/6, Language: English

Fandoms: One Direction (Band)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Niall Horan, Niall Breslin, Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles, Zayn Malik, Liam Payne

Relationships: Niall Breslin/Niall Horan, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson, Zayn Malik/Liam Payne

Additional Tags: Heartbreak Weather Fic Fest, Song: Black and White (Niall Horan), Nessie - Freeform, Canon Compliant, Snapshots, Through the Years, there's angst, I literally have no idea what to tag, uhhh, Niall's in hospital in one chapter, cos of his knee, Modest bashing, Cowell bashing, Syco bashing, let me know if I'm missing anything

via AO3 works tagged 'Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson' https://ift.tt/2SQNmFl

[jlf23tumble]

I’ve been wondering why there are many people who write Harry in multiple gay ships, but there aren’t very many active people who write Louis with any man besides Harry. Some Zayn and some Nick and the occasional Greg James, but it’s very sparse. Any insight as to why this pattern may be? I worry that it’s because people are unable to fathom Louis as gay without Harry. But he has excellent chemistry with men! I’d love to see more odd pairings like Taron does for Harry. That’d be good content!

It would be GREAT content, I completely agree! Maybe it’s less prevalent because we aren’t as privy to flirty Louis as we used to be in days of yore, this is an AMAZING post if you want some inspo, god, what I wouldn’t give to see the full footage of him clubbing somewhere. But I think it’s more likely a matter of where a writer’s fans are. You worry that people (writers) might be unable to fathom Louis as gay without Harry, but I don’t buy that: he doesn’t need Harry to be convincingly paired with men. There are actually quite a few--wildly varied--Louis/other men fics already out there, just not as many as there are Harry/other pairings, and why is that? Do those authors get shitty anons and comments? (Probably.) Do they get fic recs and likes and reblogs? (Probably not.) What’s the size of the tumblr hot luke/louis fanbase vs. the harry/louis one? Harry has a lot of “anyone but Louis fans,” but he also has a lot of “nobody but Louis fans,” which means he’s a win-win if you’re a writer, at least SOME of your feedback will be positive, your work will be shared in that particular crowd (I’m not even gonna touch top/bottom discourse with a 10-foot dick, I’m talking pairings only). I don’t think that’s the case for Louis/other pairings, at least not yet and especially with recent fic, but these are early days. Harry brought in a lot of non-1D fans to fic through Dunkirk and other projects; Louis’s just launching, but I’ll take a wild guess and predict the same thing will happen with him, too. 

Anyway, getting back to what’s out there, yes, the offerings are smaller for Louis/other pairings, but they DO exist (yet another reason to build a more inclusive dash or to venture out onto twitter, ig, pinterest, deeper ao3 tags, etc.). Terran confirms there’s a lot of hot luke/louis on twitter, but many of that crowd are avid Harry haters, so we’re through the looking glass, people! He also says there was a bit of dalton/louis after XFUK...I remember there being a bit of brendan/louis, too, but thank CHRIST, zero robbie/louis. If you head over into ao3 territory, Louis + any male interviewer is usually a win and easy to find (tomlinshaw, grouis...is that greg james???), but if you type Louis’s name into google plus ao3 plus any male celebrity he’s crossed paths with, you’ll hit paydirt (louis/chad michael murray, louis/james mcavoy, louis/sebastian stan, etc., I gave up after a while). As for people in the D circle, yes, there’s a TON of amazing zouis content, but don’t count out lilo (3k results!!)! Lots of hot luke/louis on ao3, too, even some stan lucas/louis, but as of yet, no oli/louis, which is remarkable, given that they livetogetherdealwithit. There’s even louis/bressie fic (and I’m sure a bunch of nouis), all with varying degrees of “recency.” 

Granted, I spent a very short amount of time hunting around for this, so I’d love to be proven wrong and learn that there ARE loads of louis!terrans out there, all of them writing up amazing Louis/other pairing fics on commission, a small but dedicated crowd, focused on their craft. Let’s face it, there’s plenty of source material that proves his magnetism with *any* guy, and there’s more to come, I mean, JUST LOOK AT HIM. As ever, I’m all for being the change you want to see...write a story, create a ficfest, spend an hour and deep-dive search. There are still (a lot of) people out there in 2020 writing both Louis and Harry as horrible straight men dating horrible straight women and bringing horrible relationship “goals” to life, use the Force or something something Star Wars to counterbalance that garbage.

[missytearex]

This week I actually had a theme: rare pairs! Sometimes I wish rare pairs weren’t so damn rare. Other times, I look at fics like these and I forget what I was complaining about. Look at all the amazing fic we have!

🎀 You Teach Me and I'll Teach You by @dearmrsawyer​ --- [fic post]

gen | 12k | general audiences --- from @1drarepairfest

Harry gets a part-time job at the Pewter City Pokemon Centre to earn some money for his travels and Louis could not be less thrilled.

A Pokemon AU featuring OT5 friendship, the ethics of Pokemon training, and a few possible extra-terrestrials.

🎀 Gravitational Pull by @silveredsound --- [fic post]

narry | 10k | explicit --- from @1drarepairfest

Harry thought working in space was going to be more glamorous. Instead, he’s covered in gravy more often than not, and the most exciting part of his day is when he puts the bins out.

Also, there’s literally a planet between him and Niall now.

But maybe that’s what it’ll take for them to finally get together.

🎀 Good Boys Do Bad Things by @louandhazaf --- [fic post]

louis/bressie | 8k | explicit --- from @1drarepairfest

Bressie was a fucking stud and Louis couldn’t fully be blamed for his actions when Bressie was around. Harry had made fun of Louis relentlessly for like four months back in college after Louis had admitted there wasn’t much he wouldn’t do for six feet two. And Bressie was six feet fucking six.

Or, the one where Louis doesn't mean to fall for his boss.

🎀 Eidos by @insomniacicarus​ --- [fic post]

zarry | 6k | general audiences --- from @1drarepairfest​

Harry never feared the Gods. His mother would always scold him and remind him that he needs to respect the Gods if he doesn’t want to get in trouble with them. She would participate in the rituals for them, bring sacrifices ranging from flowers to live lambs but Harry never saw the point. There were legends, myths and stories about meeting Gods and summoning them. But that’s all they were - stories.

🎀 All I See Is You by @insomniacicarus​ --- [fic post]

zarry | 5k | general audiences --- from @1drarepairfest​

5 times Zayn and Harry annoyed their friends* with snogging and 1 time the tables were turned.

*Mainly Niall. He does get his payback.

🎀 i see you (from a different point of view) by @farfromthstars --- [fic post]

niall/sam smith | 5k | teen and up --- from @1drarepairfest

niall and sam have had a casual friends with benefits situation going on for years. that doesn't have to change...does it?

🎀 The Million Reasons Why by @reminiscingintherain --- [fic post]

tomlinshaw | 4k | teen and up

When closeted Manchester United striker Louis Tomlinson visits his secret boyfriend Nick Grimshaw on the Radio 1 Drivetime Show to promote his charity work, how long can secrets remain secret?

🎀 squash! goes my heart by @dinoflangellate --- [fic post]

nouis | 3k | teen and up

Niall just laughs and ruffles Freddie’s hair, and says, “Maybe next time, buddy,” in a way that shuts Louis up, because suddenly all he can see is years of Octobers, years of them, Freddie getting taller and Niall planting seeds on his stupid back porch like the stubborn-arsed Irishman he is, and all right.

🎀 could but wouldn't stay by @ferryboatpeak --- [fic post]

harry/harry | 2k | teen and up

pure crackfic about the nine harrys in this photo

🎀 Before and After by @star55 --- [fic post]

ziall | 1k | general audiences

Before everything was messy and complicated and filled with love for all of the wrong people.

🎀 Word Play by @uhohmorshedios --- [fic post]

lirry | 1k | teen and up --- from @wordplayfics

Liam's frustrated over grading his students' papers and Harry tries to cheer him up.

🎀 Bright Lament by @musiclily --- [fic post]

gen (harry centric) | 0.6k | mature --- from @1dtrickortreatfest

Deep / as I have been done

🎀 Into The Black by @musiclily --- [fic post]

lirry | 0.6k | not rated --- from @1dtrickortreatfest

“D’we got other flashlights?”

Harry is about to answer that he has no idea, but a loud banging comes from somewhere in the back of the house, outside their kitchen. Or maybe inside their kitchen.

“Better yet, a baseball bat?” Harry whispers, ducking even closer to Liam.

🎀 Missing something? by @himynameiszayn --- [fic post]

zourry | 0.6k | mature --- from @1dtrickortreatfest

Harry and Niall go to a Vampire only club that's open to humans for Halloween only.

🎀 what do you want from me by @musiclily --- [fic post]

gen | 0.6k | general audiences --- from @1dtrickortreatfest

They move into the empty house, Harry scanning his eyes around as if looking at something splendid. Louis kicks up a bit of dust, sneezing twice. When he opens his eyes again, Harry’s inexplicably at the top of the stairs.

🎀 Five Times Niall Wanted To Kiss Louis (And One Time He Did) by becka

nouis | 0.6k | general audiences

Nine years (and exactly 600 words + headings) of Niall wanting to kiss Louis.

Remember to leave kudos + comments to show your appreciation!

More lists here.

 p.s. I have a whole blog dedicated to 1D rare pairs that you can find here.

[hbwbyniall]

Number 2 for the writing prompt pleeeease and thank you!!!

HEEEY!! so I don’t know if you had read my b99 au before but this is kind of a sequel to it!! I hope you enjoy!

MORE PROMPTS

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Harry was undercover for almost ten months trying to dismantle a drug operation that turned into something even bigger, the Italian mafia from that part of Brooklyn.

Niall was reassigned to work with this guy Tom that no one really likes. His cases had been slow and, even if he doesn’t want to admit it, boring. It’s not like he misses Harry, because he doesn’t, he can barely stand the guy. Harry is too charming and too confident to the point of irritation, he acts without thinking of the consequences and drags everyone into his messes. But he’s also pretty smart and funny. So when Niall is stuck in a car with Tom hearing him talk about peanuts and reality shows, he can’t help but think about Harry.

It’s not entirely his fault. It’s Harry’s. The day he was picking up his stuff, just moments before infiltrating into the mafia, he went to Niall’s car to say goodbye and said a couple of words that had been haunting Niall for ten months since he walked away.

“I kinda wish we had been more.”

He didn’t understand it at first. Niall just stood there, his mouth open wide as Harry smile to the side and walk right next to him. More than what? He asked himself for about five minutes and by the time he finally turned around, Harry had left and there was no way to contact him.

Maybe he just said to mess up with him, maybe it didn’t mean anything. Could have been the perfect joke. He left Niall wondering and imagine what if for ten entire months, he took away nights of sleep recreating every interaction and conversation they had since they meet, trying to find the exact moment Harry change his feeling about him, the moment he started liking him too. Because even if he won’t ever say it out loud, Niall likes Harry, he has for a while now, even before the whole undercover operation thing.

But here’s the thing, he could also have been saying the truth. Maybe he really thought he wasn’t coming back, at least not in a long time and he needed Niall to know. But there’s no certainty in that and Niall can’t work with uncertainty. He rational, he’s always prepared and organized, most of the time, he can’t be caught in surprise, but Harry always does, he always surprises him and he is always pushing him far from his comfort zone, and usually it’s not a bad thing.

So when Captain Basil got the call, the one coming from Harry to give him green light to the operation, Niall put his bulletproof vest and ran to the van faster than ever before.

And to be honest, everything was going great. They bust into Lorenzo’s wedding when every guest was eating the cake so they couldn’t get far away when the squad kicked down the door. A pile of money, which according to Harry could be easily be linked to the fire of rival gangs’ lab that occurred three days ago, was on display next to the dessert table, as it was a present for them.

Harry was sitting on the other side of the room, next to the honor table with his hair way too short on the sides and wearing long earring coming from his left ear. The shirt halfway open and he has now a couple more tattoos in his arms and his chest, not like Niall could notice that from where he’s standing arresting Maurizio Monticello nor he could see the side smiling Harry was throwing at his way as Zayn pretended to arrest him, slapping his body to the table, thing that Niall was pretty much enjoying.

But Harry is allergic to play by the book, it’s an actual condition of his, not being physically capable following orders. He likes to be dramatic, he likes the theatrics so when everything was going so smoothly, Niall should’ve known that something bad was about to happen, something like Harry yelling “I rather die than going with you!” at Zayn’s face and then a mafia friend lifting up his hand to make his wishes come true.

Niall heard the shot, it was loud and it made everything go slower, even in the middle of the chaos happening around them. He saw the guy pulling out the gun from his ankle and pointing at Harry, screaming “Fino alla morte, fratello” but it was too late, Niall throw the handcuffed guy to Liam and try to run to Harry but Basil hold him by the waist and took him out of the building.

His captain keeps repeating tohim that Zayn has Harry, he is going to take him to the ambulance and he will be alright and Niall, for the last two and a half years has trust blindly in Basil, but right at this second, with the air filling up his lungs and somehow making it hard to breathe, with his eyes slowly watering, everything coming out of his mouth was just numb noise. He needs to see Harry, he couldn’t just trust in Basil’s words, so he broke the embrace and ran to the other side of the building only to see Zayn going into the ambulance.

When he tried to approach the doors, two officers try to stop him.

“He’s my partner, get out of the way.”

So he knocks, louder than the police sirens and the screams inside the building, he knocks till his knuckles are blood red and he yells Zayn’s name until he finally opens the door. The look on his face is not good, Niall doesn’t like it, he’s concerned, but the second he sees Niall, he smiles, just a little and Niall knows it’s bad.

Zayn steps down and Niall goes into the ambulance as he hears the doors closing behind him and the vehicle starts running. Harry is laying in a litter, his abdomen is covered in blood and he’s having some trouble to breathe. The paramedic is holding some texture to apply pressure on the bullet hole when Harry lays eyes on him. He opens the mouth to say his name but he starts coughing blood.

“I’m right here, okay? You’re all right.” Niall runs to his side, taking the paramedic’s place holding the texture with one hand and Harry’s hand with the other one.

He didn’t realize he was crying until he feels Harry’s fingers running through his face, making a mess more than cleaning it up.

“So,” Harry smiles. “How you been?”

“You’re such an idiot!” Niall yells at his face. “Everything was going well and you just had to make a dramatic exit.”

“You’re ruining my cover, Horan.”

He says, and Niall notices how the words tremble on his lips and how pale he is right now.

“There’s no one here!” Niall looks up to his vital signs trying to figure it out how long is left to get to the hospital.

“Hey.” Harry whispers and Niall gets near him, his lips almost touching his ear. “Remember what I told you when I left?” Niall swallows and then nods. “Well, that’s not true, I was just joking around.”

Niall clears his throat and sits still, letting Harry’s hand go.

“We don’t need to talk about thatright now, Styles,” Niall says, nodding at the paramedic as she starts to give

Harry some morphine. They’re close now. “Or ever again.”

“I’m just saying,” He says, looking at the wall next to him. “I don’t want the brick wall you have for a boyfriend to cause me some trouble.”

“Bressie and I are no longer together,” Niall says, not knowing exactly why, but it’s the truth.

Niall knew they weren’t a good match, and after that night, he could feel it more than ever. Everything with

Bressie was so plain and boring, he never made him laugh, at least not genuinely. And when he found himself comparing him to Harry, he knew he had to end up things. It’s not like he was waiting for him; it was just not fair. He also knew that this was a very plausible scenario, he just has to live with it now.

“What?!” Harry says, turning his head so fast Niall fears he could actually stretch a muscle. “Then I take it back, I mean it.” He reaches for Niall’s hand and he lets him hold it. “I really mean it.”

Niall shakes his head trying to bite down his smile. He shouldn’t put this so easily for Harry. So when he tries to free his hand from Harry’s embrace, he holds on tight.

“That was so stupid, I’m sorry.” He coughs again, but it’s bloodless this time. “I just didn’t want you to hurt me, but I like you, I really do.”

“What makes you think that I like you,” Niall asks as the ambulance parks in the hospital.

“Your eyes.” His eyes are getting tired and his smile his fading.

“You’re gonna be so embarrassed when you wake up.” Niall laughs and hears the doctors screaming outside.

“If I wake up! I’m dying, Niall!” The doors open and they take him immediately. “I need an answer!” he screams from behind and Niall steps outside the ambulance, following the doctors.

“At least the bleeding is not internal, right?” Niall laughs as they enter the emergency room.

“That was one time!” Harry screams back before they take him to operation and Niall pretends his heart is not rising.

At the time the squad gets back, he has bitten all of his nails and his shoes keep tapping the floor. But when Liam puts his hand on his shoulder, he knows everything is fine, it has to be. They still have a lot to talk about.

[louandhazaf]

ANNUAL WRITING SELF EVALUATION

1. List of works published this year: 

Fistiana (Zouis) They met in the center of the ring and bumped their bare knuckles together.

sun, here it comes (Larry) The sun beckoned him. He had no plans for the day other than soaking up some rays on his front stoop.

Counterbalance (Larry) Harry Styles loves two things: teaching ballet and racing motorcycles. Those two worlds collide when his greatest rival on the track, Louis “Tommo” Tomlinson brings his tiny siblings to Harry’s class.

get my kicks like you (none) “Wait,” Liam had said. “You all jerked it at Niall’s?” // Zayn had looked back with furrowed brows over his sunglasses. “Yeah?” he confirmed, with a easy shrug. Like Liam was the weird one for asking.

your best fake smile (Larry) Harry reluctantly agrees to a first date with Louis at Coney Island.

Good Boys Do Bad Things (Louis/Bressie) Bressie was a fucking stud and Louis couldn’t fully be blamed for his actions when Bressie was around. Harry had made fun of Louis relentlessly for like four months back in college after Louis had admitted there wasn’t much he wouldn’t do for six feet two. And Bressie was six feet fucking six. // Or, the one where Louis doesn't mean to fall for his boss.

Live Like You Were Dying (Larry) I’m in love with you. // The phone fell from his hand, and the world went black.

Tennis Whites (Larry) Harry settles himself on the bench, puts his sunglasses on, and focuses his attention on the court. // There, in all his glory, is Louis Tomlinson.

The Future Reflected (Larry) Louis didn't take the stupid game seriously. Maybe he should've.

Heart that I Let Down (Larry) Where do broken hearts go? Louis took Harry’s with him when he went to LA, now Harry’s on a mission to find him.

to love in word and deed (Larry) Louis loves everything about living with Harry. Except for Harry's effusive proposals. Because the problem is, it's getting harder and harder for Louis to keep reacting like they're jokes.

There’s a Ring in the House (Larry) Louis knows Harry is going to propose. He's terribly impatient about it.

37 ficlets -- And Let Me Kiss You (multiple pairings)

 2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

I love Fistiana so incredibly much. I did what I set out to do which was write a homoerotic boxing fic where Louis is really leaning into "You construct intricate rituals which allow you to touch the skin of other men” in this town where he is not out. I had a whole team of betas and so many people who helped me narrow my focus to what I really wanted to happen and I just really love it a lot. I’ve read it more times than I can possibly count. 

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

Heart that I Let Down only because I love "Where Do Broken Hearts Go" more than anything and while I didn’t fail at getting some emotion in there, I think it’s a lot flatter than what I initially set out to do. But. Time. Deadlines. A super stressful year. I did my best and I’m certainly not beating myself up over it. 

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

Uhhh so I wrote a Harry/Shawn kiss for And Let Me Kiss You prompts. I love the potential for angst over Niall in that particular pairing. I want there to be more heartbreaking fics where Harry and Shawn are using each other to get over Niall. Come on fandom, do your thing! 

Anyway... this is from that:

Harry appreciates the honesty. This, thing, isn’t going to linger. It’s what they need, now, to soothe over their pain. “Want to feel what he left me for,” Harry says over a choked breath.

Shawn leans in the rest of the way, and while it doesn’t lessen the pangs–-the sadness, the longing, the questioning of where it all fell apart–-they're muted for as long as their bodies are pressed together.

5. Share or describe a favorite review you received:

Literally all of the nice ones? I love comments. They see me through the hard times and even though I’m shit at responding to them I really do love them all so very much. God, and comments when my fics are still anon? I just... I love them so so so much. I think I have a very special place in my heart for everyone who told me that they related to your best fake smile. Sending big huge hugs to all of those people, specifically. 

6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

The entire second half of the year, to be honest. I got some shitty news at work at the end of May that just never improved and it made focusing on a lot of other things really hard and my writing time and effort just plummeted because I didn’t have enough bandwidth.

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

All of The Future Reflected was a surprise that never in a million years would I have guessed I’d write something like that. 

8. How did you grow as a writer this year:

Oof. To be totally honest I have exactly zero idea how to answer this for 2019.

9. How do you hope to grow next year:

I hope to be better at plotting and writing longer fics. 

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

@kingsofeverything. ILY!

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

It does every year!

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Um. No. I think I’m in a funk with my own writing and the idea of trying to pass on wisdom feels futile at this juncture of my life. 

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

I will finish my Lucifer AU if it will kill me!

14. Tag three writers whose answers you’d like to read.

I am posting this so very late because to love in word and deed was anon until Dec 31st, that probably everyone else has done it!

*All answers should be about works published in 2019. Also, you can skip any questions you hate or don’t want to answer, but please leave them on the list so that others can do them if they want.

(also, here’re my responses from 2016, 2017, 2018)

[thenarrystore]

how to make two lovers of friends -- petals

The first time they meet, they hate each other. Or, Harry hates Niall. The second time they meet, Niall doesn't remember Harry. He says he did. The third time they meet, they become friends. They're friends for a long time. And then they're not. And then they fall in love.

Or a When Harry Met Sally au

enemies to friends to lovers, slow burn, top!niall, bottom!harry, side: lilo, side: Harry/Nick Grimshaw, side: Niall/Bressie, side: Niall/Female, side: Niall/Zayn, side: Harry/Xander, 28.1k