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I'm alive

Title says it all I want to actually finish this stupid chapter soon! I'm at 2000 words and the goal for this chapter is 6000+ words :) Also in my defense, I opened the doc last night only to be met with "Last edit August 6th" so Anyways here's some good soup to fuel angsty naegami desire!

(TRIGGER HAPPY HAVOC SPOILERS!)

“Fuck…!” He angrily whispered, tightly closing his eyes in an attempt to keep himself from crying. He opened them shortly after, looking around the room through bleary eyes. When he first came out, he started to force himself not to cry. While he thought “boys don’t cry” and other stereotypes and expectations were harmful, he had to so he’d be “trans” enough in society’s eyes. It wasn’t like he wasn’t comfortable with his masculinity- well he was just not in that way- and he was getting better, but it was still frustrating. Crying is healthy, he’d always tell others, but he hated it. He had to have hope in this situation.

Soon anger turned to grief and self-doubts.

Sometimes Makoto swore he could see the ruined room from right before that first trial. His room torn apart and a wreck… He could hear the blue-haired girl’s voice, whispering nasty things to him. Telling him bluntly that it was his fault. To join her. He couldn’t stop another person from dying, and this time it was a suicide, of all things! Their hope of getting out, Alter Ego, was crushed. Two friends, one technically wasn’t alive but they were a friend! Sakura felt like she had to kill herself. Hina had been so distraught to lose her girlfriend. Even Togami had a breakdown! Even though it wasn’t necessarily over losing a friend… Which, to be honest, Makoto doubted sometimes. Everything was crumbling, he was so sure when the “game” started nobody would kill each other, yet here he was. With only five friends left (Well six counting Genocide Jill).

He had the thoughts often. He could’ve saved everyone. If they were just more careful- if he tried harder to make it work. Guilt was crushing, he had sent people to their deaths. Granted, if he didn’t everyone would be dead- However, he still indirectly killed them! In the end, it was all the mastermind’s fault, but still. Tears continued to fill Makoto’s eyes before a couple slipped down his cheeks. He pawed at his eyes, trying to wipe them away. The world felt too loud, too heavy to handle, he placed his head between his knees and covered his ears. Even with them covered, he could hear his own pathetic, choked sobs. He couldn’t stop shaking as salty tears stained his cheeks and his body racked with loud violent sobs.

And then the doorbell rang.

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WE'RE SO CLOSE TO 420 KUDOS ON THE DISAPPEARANCE OF MAKOTO NAEGI HOLY SHIT

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god I fucking love him

WHATEVERR

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No, he's just *really* close friends with the stupid lucky boy and he totallllllyyy doesn't wanna kiss him 🙄 /s /j

is it just me or does togami seem kinda fruity?

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Just wanna quickly say

to my five followers

I love you with all my fucking heart please know that and never forget it

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I LOVE THEY SO MUCH AAAAAAAAA

reposting because i deleted the naegis double date accidentally

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I'm getting a haircut

no more mullet :)

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Highkey I rly like how this is going

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im bored and updating the blog's theme lol

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dudes

I had a spark of inspiration

What if I did a They Both Die at the End AU for naegami

cause like

pain and suffering poggers

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An angst where Byakuya tells Makoto(after a ton of prodding) that if a Togami ever gets sick, expect the worse, since they have weak immune systems. A few days later, he gets sick after a prank. If he dies or lives is up to you tho

AYOOO

I love you thank you for implanting this in my brain 🛐🛐🛐

Now I'm in the purgatory of "separate story?" "oneshot?" "add it to graduated?"

Who's to say but either way thank you I love this so fucking much🖤🖤🖤

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*banging head violently against keyboard*

iS THIS HOW YOU WRITE? I DON'T KNOW HOW

god I swear I'm working on the next chapter I really do

also whoops sorry

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I swear I'm working on the fic update

anyways

it's all fucking naegami

I'm so sorry

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this is a public callout post Squid got locked out of its discord like a dumbass and everyone misses her

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Whoo! She's done boys!

(MAJOR TRIGGER HAPPY HAVOC SPOILERS)

"I guess we... Graduated?"

It's hard. When it all sinks in that 11 people died (Counting Alter Ego), it's sickening. It makes your throat tighten. Knowing the world is destroyed, knowing that they all were friends. The betrayal. Regaining memories and accepting everything that happened. It's hard. But... At least,

They have each other.

AKA:

The survivors cope post-THH, slowly regaining their memories and having to work through a swamp of pain.

AO3 LINK HERE

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Update for the 0 people probably checking in lol Writing and formatting are done, should be posted soon. (Context for those dropping in: Working on a new post-THH fic!) She'll be posted soon I swear, my ao3 is here!

SNEAK PEEK (Spoilers for THH!)

It smelt thickly of ash, smoke, blood and death, truly as if ‘The Biggest, Most Awful, Most Tragic Event in Human History’ had happened. The sky, murky and dark, wasn’t in the slightest welcoming. The land seemed devoid of life, the air was thick and strangling, mixed with the horrific scent, it felt unbreathable. Despite all of this, it almost felt worth it. They did it. They escaped the school. Even if the world was gone, they’d make it work. However…

it still hurt. Leaving behind possible comfort and safety, taking the risk to even step foot outside. Leaving a prison that killed 10 (11, if you count Junko.) of their friends.

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IT SHALL BE POSTED TODAY HARR HARR