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My boyfriend is trying to explain cricket to me again. “He’s only got two balls to make 48 runs”, he says. The camera focuses on a man. Underneath him it says LEFT ARM FAST MEDIUM. A ball flies into the stands and presumably fractures someone’s skull. “There’s a free six”, my boyfriend says. 348 SIXES says the screen. A child in the audience waves a sign referencing Weet-Bix

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glotta and sachika are hitting rakia with feminization beam. someone reblogged one of my posts saying "we gotta get rakia on monstrogen" or something like that and I've been thinking about it ever since. since I have a mostly sachika-focused approach to watching gavv I think that it would be good for sachika to have a tall and beautiful female friend that she could dress up in outfits. if rakia simply became a woman sachika would be able to put so many pretty dresses on her and she would be like "this sucks" but go along with it anyway every time bc she actually likes sachika

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of all the things that scare me about palestine one of them is the lure of the story, the lure of turning people to myths, because its something i find myself doing. many things that have happened in gaza have become much larger than life. i keep thinking about khaled nabhan, who held his granddaughter so tenderly and called her the soul of my soul, and how those words and that image became so enormous that he was killed a year later wearing a t-shirt that a company had made to fundraise using those words—the soul of my soul. a doctor had brought it in for him from abroad. he was already a myth before he was dead.

i thought about it just now when i saw this image of dr hussam abu safiya walking towards an israeli tank after his "hospital fell" — the words of the poet mosab abu toha, that he used unconsciously in how he described the israeli siege of the last remaining hospital in the north of gaza. he said the hospital fell like it was a fortress. dr hussam abu safiya's teenage son was killed the first time israel raided the hospital. for over a month he refused to abandon his patients while he grieved. in that time we found out other hospital directors had been tortured after being arrested by israeli: doctor muhamed abu silmiya of al-shifa hospital (who was released after months of torture) and doctor adnan al-bursh who was tortured to death. in that month of starvation we saw him comforting his colleagues who lost their children to israeli attacks, and then he lost those colleagues themselves in israeli shelling of the hospital. still the hospital stayed, and dr hussam abu safiya stayed. he recorded a video from inside the hospital almost every day, showing the immobile patients and the brave staff, explaining that he would not abandon them. a delegation from indonesia made it to the hospital and tried to stay with the palestinian staff, israel forced them to leave at gunpoint. dr hussam stayed through it all.

after two months of siege, after ethnically cleansing the rest of northern gaza, israel finally forced its way into kamal adwan hospital and forcibly evacuated the staff and the patients. fifty people were killed during the attack, numerous patients and civilians (including women) stripped and abused by the soldiers, and forced to march in their underwear out in the freezing cold. and finally this is how we get this image, the last time dr hussam abu safiya was seen as israel burned down the hospital he had done his best for, walking alone through the rubble towards the israeli tanks, knowing what awaits him:

a lot of the things happening in gaza right now and over the past year are much larger than most people can accept. they are acts of heroism and tragedy that demand to be remembered. and because palestinians have asked us to bear witness, at least to bear witness, we have fallen into the habit of a kind of mythologizing. in arabic and english. i've seen it from gazans themselves, who have often written their own eulogies and wills before dying. this is how systemic this genocide has been. how forecasted. how foretold.

i think a lot about refaat al areer's work, and his famous poem "if i must die" that he wrote before his death. refaat is another story from gaza that was already mythologized by none other than himself. but i also know people who knew refaat personally. they don't talk about him like a story. they talk about him like a friend they lost. they talk about him like a teacher they lost. when that happens the mythology around him seems very small and worthless compared to the scale of the loss.

people from gaza aren't predestined myths. they're not dead people walking. they're not heroes we are here to watch die. they're not stories and tragedies to mine. they're people. this is a person who has just lived through all that. these are hundreds of thousands of people who just lived through all of these things. these are hundreds of thousands of people who have lost all of these things. and israel is full of people who did that to them. that's a story too, i guess.

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deletes don’t count. this is how long you’ve known about/been part of this website. if you left and came back say when you made your first blog even if you no longer have access to it (but also tell me how long you were gone for because i’m nosy like that)

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being pulverized. I went to the viewing two days ago and it was bittersweet with everyone that knew him, knew each other bc of him, lot of love and grief. cried a lot seeing him lie there when I feel a lot of the time I saw him laughing or falling asleep on us or making weird faces at me.

it was my first time going to a close person's viewing so when I saw him I had a panic attack. funny enough I inhaled my cough drop (had a dry throat so I had the cough drop just in case) I thought "it's either heimlich in front of my friend's coffin or I swallow this like NyQuil" so I swallowed it. pretty fast way to end a panic attack lol from the shock

lo and behold I came home feeling worse, and tested positive for covid. had to text my friend's relative to spread the word that I exposed people to that at the viewing

it's been bad. I know dumping this here feels kinda miserable and attention seeking but being quarantined in my room again for Christmas break and having each thing hit one after the other is really driving me insane;;

idk if anyone's reading up to this point but if you do thanks. and Im sorry. I'll try to push through the best I can. my friends have been going through the same thing minus covid hopefully but they have been so patient with me and my partner is trying to hold my head above water even states away. it's rough. I'm grateful and I've never felt like a bigger burden to ppl than before

experiencing the loss of a friend (and a dog) this week. it's my first time experiencing this, none of which me or my friends were prepared for, and both were very dear and lovely beings in our lives.

it's been an on and off feeling, waves of just fondness for the memories I've had with this friend and then absolute despair that I'll never get to see or tell him anything, or hear his voice and laughter anymore...

(voice cracking) does anyone have tips on how tf to grieve healthily

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experiencing the loss of a friend (and a dog) this week. it's my first time experiencing this, none of which me or my friends were prepared for, and both were very dear and lovely beings in our lives.

it's been an on and off feeling, waves of just fondness for the memories I've had with this friend and then absolute despair that I'll never get to see or tell him anything, or hear his voice and laughter anymore...

(voice cracking) does anyone have tips on how tf to grieve healthily

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WOOOOOOOOOOOO I've been waiting for thorns alter 4eva... so excited for when he comes to global uueeee

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Made a chart for sorting fantheories

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This is a video I took from Bisan's page because I feel like this is important. Bisan, here talks about the second winter of this genocide and some of the important points are:

the rains have caused the sea level to rise and it has flooded the tents which were set up on the beach.

speaking of tents themselves- they do not preserve heat. It is not made to preserve heat and yet gazans have had to live in these shelters for over a year

last November there still were shops; there were means of production, however little, to produce clothes, coats, and blankets that could keep people from freezing...right now there is nothing as every inch of the Gaza Strip has been carpet bombed.

Israel has blocked life sustaining supplies and fuel like coal and wood have started to run out: it is becoming impossible for people keep warm.

I don't have much to say anymore and can only request you to keep your eyes on Gaza. Gazans are struggling to survive and right now every little donation can go a long way into sustaining life. My friend, Siraj Abudayeh ( @siraj2024 ) has been struggling too and while his tent was not washed away in the waves, it did drown because of the destruction of sewage wells. He hopes that if not all, he can at least help some of the most vulnerable members of his family by continuing to rent a shelter. However since his old campaign was abruptly shut down by gofundme, he lost a lot of money and right now he can no longer afford the shelter.

So please this is a request to donate to Siraj. If you have received a refund, please consider a redonation. If it is not possible to donate then please boost. Sharing the fundraiser goes a long way.

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current fan creation landscape is kinda like if you went to a party with a homemade cake and everyone takes a slice and silently thumbs up at you with no attempt to start a conversation except for occasionally some guy sits in the corner with a tape recorder critiquing the cake as though he was a restaurant critic and another guy is handing the cake to an uber driver like "yeah i need you to find a restaurant that makes cake like this so i can have more of it" and the only person that's talked to you in 30 minutes is a very sweet little guy who was like "hey i liked your cake" and then ran away apologizing for bothering you the moment you said thank you.

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