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I reject the notion of smashing the patriarchy, because I envision someone taking a hammer in a rage swinging it over & over, hitting whatever gets in the way.⠀ ⠀ I am not in a blind rage.⠀ ⠀ I am not angrily shouting to defend myself & attacking others because my wealthy white male privilege has been threatened. WE SAW WHO YOU REALLY ARE, #BrettKavanaugh. WE SAW YOU.⠀ ⠀ When my stepfather had angrily lost his shit, I knew what to expect. He would hit until he was done, then send me away from him. That merely required endurance in my part.⠀ ⠀ What was terrifying was walking into my home with him sitting quietly in the dark. When he was calm, his rage transfixed at subzero temperatures. I’d have no idea why he was angry that day, what was coming, & it wasn’t physical. It was psychological torment, him creating a minefield of questions for me to tiptoe through. Him searching for any reason to drop severe punishment even when I had done nothing. And then, even if I made it, there was still a firing squad at the end. Always taking away something deeply meaningful to me, stripping my ability to leave my tortuous home for weeks or even months at a time.⠀ ⠀ It was calculated.⠀ ⠀ It was soul crushing.⠀ ⠀ THAT is what we will do to the patriarchy. The parallel ends at innocence, because the patriarchy is not innocent. It destroys women, men, queer, non-binaries, POC, the poor, non-Christians—everyone who isn’t born into the power structure adds to the pile of bodies that the patriarchy is built upon.⠀ ⠀ I’m not just a body.⠀ ⠀ I’m a human being.⠀ ⠀ I’m standing up.⠀ ⠀ I’m speaking out.⠀ ⠀ Join me.⠀ ⠀ With methodical & calculated work we will grab hold of this evil system and crush the motherfucker to dust In our fists. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoSFZownOc9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1h4yf3s1j46t1

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Here is another #tbt for you.⠀ ⠀ On the left is me the spring of my sophomore year of high school (grade 10) at 15.5 years old; on the right is my junior year (grade 11) at 16.5 years old.⠀ ⠀ For 20 years I believed I was just a gluttonous little piggy, gross & stupid & lazy. Look at me—look at the obvious weight gain. Clearly I must have porked out.⠀ ⠀ But if you saw my last post, or have read “alive.” [link in profile of said post] then you know that at age 15-16 I was sexually assaulted by a male relative whom I adored. A man who knew my father raped me repeatedly for a decade and swore to protect me, yet he, too, erased my humanity to pleasure perverse incestuous desire with me as an underage girl.⠀ ⠀ I was active. I was an athlete. I played multiple sports & always worked with my top ability.⠀ ⠀ And in retrospect, I actually don’t remember changing my eating habits. I always assumed I must have—look how fat I got!⠀ ⠀ But no. The psychological trauma of never being safe, being harmed by someone I trusted YET AGAIN, set something off metabolically & my body began protecting itself.⠀ ⠀ I knew after reading #TheBodyKeepsTheScore that my body refused to let me lose weight as an adult. For two years I have processed that truth & learned peace with my body. [Link in profile to read more.]⠀ ⠀ But I now know more—my body gained weight to protect me. I did not bring it on myself. It has held onto it for the same reason. Effort is not why excess fat has not come off.⠀ ⠀ We cannot #believewomen without also confronting #fatphobia & #fatstigma. As someone I follow mentioned today, people would literally rather EAT SHIT (via pills) than be fat.⠀ ⠀ WE ARE MORE THAN BODIES.⠀ ⠀ Stop reducing us to our bodies. Even #BodyPositivity, well intentioned as it may be, often sends the message that the problem isn’t the dehumanization of women to bodies; it says value fat bodies as much as thin ones.⠀ ⠀ Bodies are not what is valuable—PEOPLE ARE.⠀ ⠀ So believe us. See us. Hear us. ⠀ ⠀ And value our FULL humanity. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoQAYhnnE5X/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=11or3kxho7oig

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TRIGGER WARNING: sexual assault⠀ ⠀ This is me at almost 16; the “x” across my face is from a classmate being a dick in my yearbook.⠀ ⠀ This is me when a beloved male relative pulled my body onto his, rubbed his erection against me, & repeatedly groped my breasts. I stiffened to frozen, confused & terrified, until he stopped.⠀ ⠀ I cannot remember how I felt, nor what I thought.⠀ ⠀ I cannot remember anything but the single incident.⠀ ⠀ I do know I told no one.⠀ ⠀ To this day, only a few very close friends and my husband know who did it.⠀ ⠀ I have never spoken to him about it. Never revealed his identity to anyone else in my family even after recounting it publicly for the first time in “alive.” on my website.⠀ ⠀ The event was 20 years ago.⠀ ⠀ You see, I was raped repeatedly by my father beginning at 2 days old; I told immediately when I found out it was wrong. ⠀ ⠀ My mom believed me, & she went straight to the cops. I spent my 5th birthday given a statement to an officer.⠀ ⠀ The police believed me.⠀ ⠀ The prosecutor believed me.⠀ ⠀ The psychologists believed me.⠀ ⠀ The judge did not.⠀ ⠀ My mom barely survived & our home life went to hell. And my father kept raping me.⠀ ⠀ As an adult, I now know I don’t remember all the worst things that happened to me. Not with my father, not an attempted abduction by strangers, not a trip I have nightmares about which is a black hole in my memory.⠀ ⠀ I don’t know if the incident at 15-16 was the only one. I know when I typed that I couldn’t breathe & my heart raced; perhaps my body knows it wasn’t.⠀ ⠀ Sometimes we tell. But when we don’t it isn’t because it didn’t happen.⠀ ⠀ For me, with this incident, it was because I loved him. I thought he wasn’t capable of such harm; that it was an accident. I was scared it would ruin his life.⠀ ⠀ See, I was so used to being harmed that I expected it & worried for the humanity of my abuser. I was afraid he would suffer if he faced consequences.⠀ ⠀ Now, at nearly 37, I hurt for me. For the girl who believed herself worthless. For every other survivor harmed by the accusation that to speak after passage of time is to lie.⠀ ⠀ No more. I speak bc it is my choice. ⠀ ⠀ I speak bc it makes me free. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoPsGaAHCrs/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1r24pqq9ump14

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I have promised to always be real with you.⠀ ⠀ I really don’t like curated social media wherein a person is marketing a polished version of themselves, particularly to sell you something.⠀ ⠀ I don’t necessarily think it is morally wrong, I just can’t do it. Whether someone has known me for 20 minutes or 20 years they’ll tell you I am always 100% authentically me. ⠀ ⠀ No matter what I discover in myself if I see it i say it.⠀ ⠀ I have more thoughts on the selling something part, but I also have no issues with people making money. I want to see more women, & millennials in general, making living wages.⠀ ⠀ My issue is with being false to trick people into giving you their money. I literally lay awake at night checking my motives. I am PASSIONATE about this business I am building because I believe it will help people be free. ⠀ ⠀ In fact, because of you kind souls reaching out, I know it already is. I have big dreams & feel zero percent bad about making money off of them.⠀ ⠀ SO.⠀ ⠀ This is me today. Puffy faced & wounded eyes. ⠀ ⠀ After traveling a few family members got sniffles. I got knocked down, dragged out sick. I can barely think straight. I can’t breathe without pain. Every joint is screaming. My neck is so stiff I can’t move my head. Being awake is exhausting but I am sleeping like crap.⠀ ⠀ I decided to do some research & it isn’t in my head—autoimmune illness sufferers tend to be hit much harder by viruses & that can cause an autoimmune flare. I always felt like that was true & it is.⠀ ⠀ So this is me. Things aren’t great today. The deck of cards dealt me aren’t the best. My body suffers because those who were supposed to protect me harmed me instead, & #TheBodyKeepsTheScore always.⠀ ⠀ But what is also true is that I only have #ThisOneFuckingLife. I’m LIVING it, not just surviving. ⠀ ⠀ I’m #AliveAndFree.⠀ ⠀ [As always, raw selfie image included.]⠀ ⠀ #bopo #bodyposi #trauma #healingfromtrauma #healingaftertrauma #FreedomAfterTrauma #autoimmuneillness #chronicillness #chronicpain #chronicfatigue #spoonie #t1fl #thisoneeffinglife #BelieveSurvivors #BelieveWomen #ACEScore10 #ACEStoohigh #loveyourself #selflove #childhoodtrauma #incestsurvivor #abusesurvivor https://www.instagram.com/p/BoNmCmpnGbL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=a9nmwxf8w7ik

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Sometimes a child simply needs their mama.⠀ ⠀ She craves comfort.⠀ ⠀ He craves safety.⠀ ⠀ They crave love.⠀ ⠀ If your mother and/or father wounded you in their inability to nurture you, take heart.⠀ ⠀ I know the trauma is great.⠀ ⠀ I know homes are gaping, cavernous, seemingly endless.⠀ ⠀ But you can heal.⠀ ⠀ You can know your worth is not finite, contained in a parent.⠀ ⠀ Love is infinite, boundless.⠀ ⠀ When you choose the truth that love is for you, love is in you, love IS you, it attracts more love from those in the same place if health and peace.⠀ ⠀ There is freedom after trauma, my Loves.⠀ ⠀ I promise you. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoNGL3AH6aE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vucag27xub5d

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Our culture is abusive.⠀ ⠀ It makes demands that can never be met but promises if you just work hard enough you will get the love that you’re chasing.⠀ ⠀ The goalposts always move, though.⠀ ⠀ And somehow it’s always your fault, not the culture that keeps tricking you.⠀ ⠀ You can break the cycle.⠀ ⠀ You CAN.⠀ ⠀ You can say, “Nope. Your goals ain’t for me. I’ll make my own.”⠀ ⠀ And in health you can care about personal growth that is set by what makes YOU feel at peace with your progress.⠀ ⠀ It may seem impossible. But I am doing it. So many of us are doing it.⠀ ⠀ It may be terrifying. But I am finding love. There is so much love out here.⠀ ⠀ Join me. Join us. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoMjy1Inkdp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7y7n8hx4zwth

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Our family returned home from hot & muggy St Louis to crisp & cool Seattle. The leaves are announcing the incoming most wonderful of seasons. This is my back yard & my soul is at peace.⠀ ⠀ Fall is always a time of renewal for me. It is when I feel most alive.⠀ ⠀ Summer is death to me; there are a number of reasons for this.⠀ ⠀ 1: I am deathly allergic to beestings & had multiple close calls to death as a child, all during summer. Even now I have to go inside if bees are present. ⠀ ⠀ 2: Summer wasn’t fun for me. I was tasked with caring for my younger brother & rarely able to go enjoy the “off” time of summer. Additionally my stepfather felt that extra chores were necessary & I had to spent a lot of time out in blazing heat pulling weeds in a large field filled with bees despite my allergy & both parents being at work.⠀ ⠀ 3: I nearly drowned 3 times as a girl, all during summer.⠀ ⠀ 4: I hate the feeling of breathing in warm & moist air. I found out in the last year that I have repressed memories of being forced to sleep with my biological father, the one who raped me for the first decade of my life. I cannot remember it, but my body tells me that he forced me to sleep with him enveloping me, breathing in my face. Summer heat & humidity are particularly oppressive & miserable for me.⠀ ⠀ 5: I also learned that there was a camping trip in late August of 1991, me nearly 10 years old, in which my father brought my brother & me home early, & we refused to say what happened but also refused to ever see him again. Soon after that I told my mom I was being abused again though it had been ongoing for 5 years after my initial telling when the courts deemed me a liar because I couldn’t keep the details straight. I often have nightmares about being by a lake but I can’t access why I am so filled with horror. But it is hot & it is summer.⠀ ⠀ But FALL.⠀ ⠀ Fall feels like freedom.⠀ ⠀ Falls feels like a new start. ⠀ ⠀ Fall feels like I survived & now I get to be ALIVE. ⠀ ⠀ The air is crisp & cool & clean. ⠀ ⠀ Be the skies bright or gloomy, I feel like I can breathe.⠀ ⠀ So, here is to fall. And to only 5 more days until the GREATEST 31 days of every year, the unadulterated glory t https://www.instagram.com/p/BoKH1x9HDEk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kra9jgqg881a

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The most powerful piece of writing in my personal portfolio is back in my Insta profile. . I wrote it almost two years ago, when Trump’s horrific rape-culture-building words were being disregarded as “locker room talk.” . That precious little girl is being raped repeatedly by her father. It began at two days old. She would find not know for nearly 3 more years that it is wrong. She’ll speak up. She’ll be called a liar by the courts. She’ll be raped hundreds more times for the next 5 years. She’ll speak up again. And she’ll be discounted again & her father will serve a measly 5 years in prison because what he did to her is considered “meh” but the sodomizing of a relative too scared to testify is what “counts” but the lack of testimony means a slap on the wrist plea is accepted. She is harassed & assaulted multiple times. She never speaks up again. . Until two years ago. . Sadly, here I am 101 weeks later and not much has changed in the power structure of our nation. . BUT. . We cannot stop fighting. We cannot give up. . I see so many women who have internalized misogyny & act as real life Aunt Lydias fighting to silence & shame the brave & courageous women like Dr. Christine Blasey Ford who speak up. . I won’t quit speaking. I will not cower in shame. . And women, when I see you shaming & silencing women I will call you out. It is often the women who benefit from the current patriarchal & white supremacist power structure—aka primarily white women—who will crush other women to keep it in place. . As your fellow white women I say NOPE. . False accusations are incredibly rare. Traumatized women are literally countless because so many remain silent; in part because rape culture grooms us to not even know when we have been assaulted. . To my suffering, silent sisters, brothers, non-binaries: you are seen. And you don’t have to suffer in silence. If you are in the storm of suffering, find a therapist. Whatever you can make work. Get help. There IS healing for you. . When you can stand up & walk but all around you is the wreckage, that is when you find the freedom. . First the trauma. Then the wreckage. Then the freedom. https://www.instagram.com/p/BoIPvrAH5eD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x1mquiiqg9ql

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You can do this. . I know it is scary. . I know it feels unnatural at first. . I know that the scale & your pants size & the mantra of CICO (calories in calories out) & all the various rules around eating & exercise fuck with your head. . I know you feel like if you do these things you’ll get “fat”. . I know that our culture says that unless you look like the actual goddess who is @gisele you are “fat” and that fat = lazy / smelly / stupid / gross. . I know. And sincerely, I am so sorry for the way culture has abused you. . But listen to me—this is your ONE fucking life. I am begging you to really ask yourself if you want to spend it stressed about your body when all your body wants to do is exist in peace. . You CAN do this. Listen to your gut. Way down there deep, can you hear it? Your body is telling you how. And sure, you may gain a little weight. . But I ask you this, because it is your actual choice: do you want to spend your life fighting for thin but imprisoned OR allowing your body to find its natural set point while doing all the things in the photo but free? . I choose free. . Join me here. It’s glorious. . . . . . #bodypositive #selflove #HAES #t1FL #thisonefuckinglife #antidietculture #iweigh #iweighmovement #endfatphobia #dietculture #fatphobia #BMIisbullshit #bantheBMI #bodylove #ditchthediet #ditchthescale #fatstigma #fatacceptance #selfacceptance #loveyourself #bodypos #healthateverysize #HAES #embrace #freedomfire #fuelyourfreedomfire #fuckcapitalism #bbw #effyourbeautystandards #bodyfreedom #lovethebodyyoulivein https://www.instagram.com/p/BoIB7aon-sd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dsy3rp31iy5u

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This was incredibly painful for me. . Parents lost their baby boy here. . A man saw his best friend murdered here. . Neighbors saw a body lay in the street in the hot afternoon sun for hours and hours, the ultimate sign of disrespect. . As I explained to my children, Mike Brown made some bad choices. But maybe that day he was just frustrated and had had enough. Tired of feeling disrespected and treated as less than and living in a place where there is in place systemic injustice that dictates a bleak future. . I felt awkward, a pasty white woman in a @dougbaldwin_jr @seahawks jersey, but I knelt down & and touched the plaque, praying to a god I’m not sure exists, asking for true equality. For a black young man making bad choices on a bad day to have the same consequences as if my white son in a decade makes bad choices on a bad day. . #blacklivesmatter doesn’t mean that white lives don’t. It means that black lives ALSO matter. An angry black man is not an imminent animalistic threat. He is a human who deserves the right to face a jury of his peers, to have a chance at LIFE. . RIP, Mike Brown, & may your tragic & unjust death lead to changing the system for a better life for all those who share your African American heritage. 💙💔 . . . . . #mikebrown #ripmikebrown #fergusonmo #blackmenarebeautiful #blackmenarehuman #blackisbeautiful #honorblacklives #endsystemicracism #endwhitesupremacy #whiteallies #whiteprivilege (at Ferguson, Missouri) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoFkHCFHMJl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=5xz2cm4my4se

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Don’t mind me—just obliterating the fat people are lazy stereotype out here. I do it for the people. 💁🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #FAT #FreedomAfterTrauma #fromtheashes #T1FL #ThisOneFuckingLife #trauma #traumasurvivor #metoo #selflove #selfcare #selfesteem #loveyourself #InspirationalQuotes #WordsOfWisdom #HAES #beauty #abusesurvivor #loveyouboo #doyouboo #embracemovement #healthateverysize #ditchthediet #antidiet #antidietculture (at Noboleis Venures LLC) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn96t4EnKCz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=znxukyxtyrmz

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You guys. If you are ever in St Louis go to Mr. Wizard’s and get frozen custard. It is a must. So smooth, not overly sweet, and we fed 5 people in our family for $13. #winning . Also, yes, I am in fact fat. And yes I absolutely did enjoy this treat. I don’t like a lot of sweet so I got a small, added loads of pecans, and stopped when I knew it was enough. I ate less than my kids. . Now, if I wanted to eat a large that would be great! The point isn’t that I have to restrict because I am fat—the point is that fat people know how to eat intuitively just as well as thin people. The ability to listen to your body is not blocked by fat; the mind issues have nothing to do with size of one’s body. Plenty of thin people can’t listen to their bodies, but they aren’t attributed the stigma of gross / lazy / stupid. . This is what freedom looks like, Loves. . . . . . #stlouis #mrwizards #ditchthediet #bodypositive #selflove #HAES #t1FL #thisonefuckinglife #antidietculture #iweigh #iweighmovement #endfatphobia #dietculture #fatphobia #BMIisbullshit #bantheBMI #bodylove #ditchthediet #ditchthescale #fatstigma #fatacceptance #selfacceptance #loveyourself #bodypos #fatacceptance #embrace #freedomfire #fuelyourfreedomfire #fuckcapitalism #bbw #effyourbeautystandards (at Mr. Wizard's Frozen Custard) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn7yvzfnGy5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ltp6kp43j2vq

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It’s 3:30am local time, 1:30am at home. The kids did pretty awesome with some peak stress level meltdowns here & there.⠀ ⠀ Juliet told me she wanted to take her fries (first time noshing @SteaknShake!) & iPad with her to bed.⠀ ⠀ I let her bc long ass day & also she only has this one fucking life so why not eat some fries in bed? She has never had food in bed in her nearly 6 revolutions around the sun—not even bottles as a baby. ⠀ ⠀ So look at her—fueling her freedom fire early! I have never felt my daughter more on a spiritual level. 😂😂😂⠀ ⠀ #JulietEliseH #HagglundsInSTL #eatyourfeelings #mamaoffour #fourisalottakids #t1fl #thisonefuckinglife #freedomfire #fuelyourfreedomfire #bopo #bodyposi #bodypositive #loveyourself💕 (at St. Louis) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn5qtZ6gtLw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=axoc5r6mlcx9

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Did you know that there is strong medical data linking childhood sexual assault & falling into the (BS, but that’s for another day) BMI categories of obese and morbidly obese? . Did you know that many women’s postpartum bodies will fight them literally tooth & nail to hold onto fat that wasn’t present pre-pregnancy, particularly if they are breastfeeding? . Did you know that there are women who exercise routinely, eat well, practice stress reducing methods like yoga & mindfulness, get decent amounts of sleep, have fantastic bloodwork, and still fall into the (still BS) BMI categories of obese and even morbidly obese? . Finally, have you ever considered that if someone has a fat body it’s no one’s fucking business but their own and the people they trust to be on a path of love and wholeness with them? . Culture tells women our worth is in our body & our beauty. . You have permission to tell culture to fuck right off. 💙 . . . . . #haes #healthandwellness #healthateverysizemovement #healthateverysize #bbw #bmiisbullshit #loveyourself #bopo #bopowarrior #selflovequotes #selfesteemboost #fuckyourbeautystandards #iweighmovement #iweigh #feministwriters #feministwords #feministworld #bodyposi #bodypositivemovement #t1fl #thisonefuckinglife #FreedomAfterTrauma #FAT #FREEDOMFIRE https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn2DJeVgboD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sd88bzzwl4g0

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These two. . The one on the left has autism & loves to be close to & snuggle me; otherwise he constantly requests “bubble space”. . The one on the right is 2.5 & basically hates people. She always has. We have a picture of her at 18 mos old looking with deep disdain at people waiting in line with us to be seated at a restaurant. She particularly doesn’t like to be touched by her older siblings. . And yet look at this beautiful moment. She even touched his iPad a time or two & he didn’t freak out. . All of this is to say we so easily categorize people. We know their general traits & then cram them into a box where that is all they can be. . We do this with ourselves. We think we know ourselves & define all that we are by boundaries we assume are simply *it* for us. . And yet. . We are so much more. . You are so much more. . Never accept the limits anyone—including yourself—sets for you. Always embrace the “and yet”. . . . . . #selflovequotes #selflovewords #wordsofwisdomforwomen #wordsofwisdom #womenempoweringwomen #autismmom #autismsibling #rogandtats #momoffour #siblinglove #beautifulmoments #selfconfidence #selfesteemboost #selfesteemquotes #andyet #freedomfire #FreedomAfterTrauma #t1fl #thisonefuckinglife #embracetheandyet https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn1soAFHr8D/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nsykgctapn4s

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Sometimes I don’t do so well at turning off the work-brain to be present and at rest. . Today is for snuggling next to my mini-me, a puzzle, tickling my toddler, breathing in the smell of my infant, lots of football watching, and a puzzle on my iPad. If I can convince him to come inside there will be some cuddling with my son, too. . . . . . #footballsundays #familysundays #workandrest #selfcaresunday #puzzlesrelaxme #cozytime #cozyhome https://www.instagram.com/p/BnzFfPtnkNj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1jqqipjsbwa8x

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Hoodie weather walk with the bigs.😍 . I LOVE THE RAIN. This is the Seattle I live in the area for. I try really hard to bite my tongue when people are all “omg sun yassssss” but when it rains MY FULL SOUL CAN GLORY. . Happy rain season to my fellow PNWers. . And...if you are like, “OMG I live in the PNW and we don’t have the rain season you egotistical asshole,” then I shall confirm that yes, yes I am. Because if you don’t have rain from September to June you don’t live in the real PNW. . Don’t @ me. 😘 . . . #pnw #leftcoast #upperleftusa #pluviophile #hoodieseason #hoodieweather #walk #getoutside #familywalk #collegefootballbreak #siblings #rogandjules https://www.instagram.com/p/BnxE-manGm3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lv0m07ie0trf