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Me: "Who the fuck came up with this kana? It's so needlessly difficult!" Some Japanese scribes 1200 years ago: "Haha, she's going to hate this one."

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Studied for the first time since uni

Actually using my brain is fucking exhausting.

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Saw someone taking themselves seriously on this website just now... terrifying experience.

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I regret to say, work as run out of carrots, it will be sticks from now on apparently.

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Angry Island

Are Australians the worst online gamers? They're always so rude and competitive, especially in tactical shooters and milsims. I think young men here want to be American Ammosexuals so bad and they don't even have airsoft as an outlet. So they hop on Tarkov or Siege just to experience artery popping rage at their teammates sub-optimal game play.

Also in fighting games, I have guys refuse to play with me for the strangest reasons, like using some of the most counterable Bridget combos that somehow fooled them every time. And god forbid you taunt.

Has anyone else noticed this?

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Unbelievable literary take.

I was having an argument about the difference between media popularity and media quality with my brother. He was of the belief that as FIFA 2022 is the most played game right now (he was wrong about that anyway) it must be the greatest game ever. I argued that this has no bearing on its artistic merit. I tried to explain it as such;

"So Harry Potter is very popular. But consider a challenging book like Brothers Karamazo..." "No one know what that is shut up. You live in a fake nerd world."

I was speechless.

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And the camera loves her

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Sick of the Assumptions

Recently I was put in a psych ward for an acute mental health crisis. Before I was discharged I was given a diagnosis for BPD (or EUPD as it is more commonly called here now). Since then I have been subjected to a battery of stupid assumptions about me and my condition. Even my loved ones have told me things such as;

"It's just an excuse for being a shitty person" "You'll need to live alone, you people are a nightmare to live with" "No one I knew with it lived a good life, or lived very long for that matter" "They're like wild animals, impossible to deal with and completely irrational"

I'm appalled someone would say those things to my face. What makes them think saying that is acceptable to anyone because of their condition. Let alone someone they've known and got along with for years. Looking for help online was even worse. There I saw what people say when it's not to a loved one. I realised I had waded into vitriol like I'd never experienced before when someone called me "vermin", in a space usually reserved for polite conversation. How can I show we aren't all manipulative, we aren't all evil and, we can love and be loved.

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Stocks in Antisemitism up 200% as a result some Chabad boys with shovels. I haven't seen blood libel on the TL before the tunnel video.

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I hate my pre-transition self so much but he was real for this one

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My worst (best) drunk experience

One day I went to visit my friends' apartment with a litre of gin. The night started off nice enough, we played Smash, drank, I ordered a meal from Grill'd and they gave me the non-vegan version. The usual.

Then I was about 250ml down and things start getting stupid. Me and the Ukrainian start subjecting people to achieve footage of the 1993 Constitution Crisis. 500ml down and I have mastered the drunken fist and actually beat them in Smash (I do not know the controls I was guided by the liquor).

750ml, I clean up a mess using my lovely new shirt, nearly ruining it! I then head down stairs to call and uber and we're all waiting on the lawn. Apropos of nothing I saw "this is how it's done". I then get on all fours and start eating the grass. Moo. What "it" was I don't know.

I get home, vomit clear. Wander around naked in a drunken stupour then fall asleep to awaken later, unsure of how I got home but with no hangover.

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What the fuck is their problem?

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The collapse of Western civilisation should only be captured in grainy magnetic tape. Doesn't look as miserable in HD digital.

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My @ was misspelled and I didn't notice until a friend told me. This is why I can't live on my own, I would definitely leave the stove on or some shit.

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Baby Steps

I started writing for Medium a few months back, I think that was biting off way more than I can chew. Nothing I wrote felt good enough to post, which is strange because some absolute dog shit gets posted to that site.

With that in mind I've stepped down to Tumblr where I can take myself way less seriously :3.

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Hi, I feel I am making a mistake.