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weekend vent dumps #7?

Good evening my mutuals, it's totally not midnight.....

I totally forgot to write my venting shit bro... I am so sorry for the negletting.....thats so my fault...

So, Everythings going shitty, Semester 1 ended and I did shitty.

Tell me why, my biology is a bitch... must please... I seariously want to make a diss track about her. Actually, I started making a diss track about one of my classmates.. who is a senior, in a damn junior class.... I dont care how the education works... WTF ARE YOU DOING IN A JUNIOR CLASS, tell me your a super senior without telling me.

My friend is gonna be my producer, would you guys like to listen to it when it's done? It will be straight fire.

So yeah, my Junior year will be shitty, I end school on May, so yeah, My dad's birthday today so, imma celebrate him, even though he's ungrateful as fuck and hates it when we do shit for him..

So all I got him was socks.. he better be grateful..

So yeah imma end it here and tell this man Happy Birthday.

Night y'all, and as usually here's a quote by the one and only Aretha Franklin

“We all require and want respect, man or woman, black or white. It’s our basic human right.”

~ Aretha Franklin

if I have any updates, ill make another post.

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #6

2023 already sucks... but it's great at the same time.

So remember the "porn bots" that I have mentioned on my last post? So like, they're gone now, in questioning? Literally 3/4 of my followers were the pornbots. LORDY IT WAS A JUMPSCARE.

Anyways, this first week was ight. I wish I could restart this whole year. I spent my New Years at a party my friend invited me too. What she didn't mention was it was a senior party. Now me, as a junior, HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO INTERACT WITH COLLEGE STUDENTS.

Not even that, when we got back to school (yeah I went back on the 3rd), everyone was telling outrageous stories that happened.

The party was okay, but I didn't know I was signing for people to be grinding on each other. I mean, who am I kidding, seniors think they're big and bold, so whatever (let me stop talking shit).

My family is okay, life is okay, my job is okay. I really want food so imma eat (there wasn't much things to talk about, if I have more stuff I'll definitely post).

Here's a quote by Mrs. Megan Thee Stallion, because she received justice.

"Sometimes, when you’re doing too much, things get overwhelming. So I just have to calm myself down and think, ‘What would my mama want me to do?’"

Megan Thee Stallion

love her ❤️

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #5

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE GUYS!

this week has been oddly innocent-ish. I have came to recently found out that there was something called porn bots.

I guess this problem has been going on for a while so I guess I'll have to deal with it.

Nonetheless, what are some goals you guys have? Like resolutions and that dumb shit.

Mine is to pray to graduate and get into college. Let's pray we can do that. I want to go into a good college, maybe Brown or maybe the College of Arts (California or maybe Massachusetts).

I'm thinking about doing a Humanities and Arts major, so I can continue writing ad doing visual arts. Y'know, do what I do best. But it's hard looking for a college outside of Massachusetts and Connecticut, because they are the most popular states for colleges.

I'll try my hardest, BUT YOU TOO.

2022 may not be the year for you, but lets hope that 2023 can make our dreams come true.

Other than that, lets end this with a Chadwick Boseman quote, because he was my inspiration this year.

RIP KING ❤️

"People don't experience change; they just want to wake up, and it's different."

CHADWICK BOSEMAN

HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR MY LOVELIES

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #4

FUCK 2022 BECAUSE THE NEW YEAR GOTTA BE LIT.

Imagine studying of midterms during Christmas Eve? COULDNT BE ME HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Nonetheless, how are you guys doing? Well? Good.

Anyways, I have a problem, or it's more like my account has a problem. Tell me why there's a lot of pornstars following me. Honestly I'm not complaining but, WTF. Literally I was checking my follower list because I found it sketchy that I kept on getting a follower each day.

TELL ME WHY I WAS LOOKING AT PORNOGRAPHY. It's not like I'm complaining but WHY. I thought I had nice innocent followers looking up to someone who had similar experiences as them.

It's not like I'm complaining but whatever, lets get into the depths of this week...

Can we please talk about the hashtag #xblackreader? And the meaning of it for the people who are clearly dumb.

The hashtag #xblackreader is a hashtag for us black people to feel comfortable. As you can see, sometimes, fluff, smut, or even headcannons itself are sometimes not inclusive.

Who remembers the y/n epidemic? Well y/n was usually described as a pale girl, with blonde hair and blue eyes. When I was 13, I was confused as fuck when I read that I had straight black hair, a slim waist, and a 4'11 figure (I'm 5'1 wtf).

Now the hashtag #xblackreader, helps black girls like me (DO NOT BE LIKE ME AND WAS EXPOSED TO WATTPAD YOUNG), to have relatable experiences/ features.

Now the reason why I'm complaining today is, well, smut.

The smut community is going through it. And I mean the "kinks" in this community.

Now I get it. Calling someone "master" and getting whipped and playing with your own FECES is apparently a thing. Now tell me that isn't sketchy.

Now as a black person, and a woman with sexual desires, HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE ENJOY THAT. Not only that, how the hell do you get turned on by getting called a "slave"? BITCH YOUR BEING CALLED A SLAVE.

Now if someone called me a "whore" or "slut", do you think I wouldn't want to cry? I WOULD FUCKING CRY. I would be like "Why would you say such things, wtf." Not, "OMG DADDY FUCK ME!"

Which is why, #xblackreader exists. For people like me, who doesn't like those kinds of things, because, these could lead to micro-aggressions and cause racism antics. Next thing you know, my white boyfriend would think it would be okay to call me the n word.

So, please, respect black spaces and let our people have what they didn't have before. Have the respect and praise that they need and deserve.

So my take on this week is well, SAYING FUCK Y/N.

"Don't try to lessen yourself for the world; let the world catch up to you."

BEYONCE

HAVE A GREAT MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS 🎄

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #3.5

so like, I know I posted yesterday but why not post something again. (this one is long so get something to drink or something)

okay now, ahem.

NOW CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT THE EPIDEMIC OF WHEN PEOPLE DO SOMETHING NICE TO YOU THEN SAY YOU OWE THEM AFTERWARDS.

Let me paint the situation for you, a cousin of yours says they want to treat you to some Qdoba. You were like "Ight, I'll get a quesadilla with a rootbeer." you get what you asked for and they turn around and say "You owe me a 20" BITCH WHAT.

It's like, bitch, did I not drive you all the way here just to get you food and gift wrapping? It's shit like that that just aggravates me. Also, you said you could cover the purchase. So as your motherfucking chauffeur, BITCH PAY ME SOMEHOW.

Imagine the other persons' perspective BITCH. (don't worry, I had problems with this cousin before and I literally blocked them, mentally)

Nonetheless, yesterday when I was coming home from work, tell me why I had the craving for Chick-fil-A. I got so pissed at myself cus as a person of the LGBTQ community, thats hella disrespectful, so I went to McDonalds. BUT AT THE SAME TIME. I didn't want to be a fatty so I went Wendy's, BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO CUSS SOMEONE OUT. So I went to Burger King. Mind you guys, it's about 10 o'clock at night and I'm out here driving, wasting gas, to find food.

So I said fuck Burger King. Now, since I knew Popeyes (and a gas station) was the closest to my house, I drove there and said fuck the other places.

But for some odd reason, there was a line. So I said screw it and joined the line. Anyways, after 10 minutes of waiting, I ordered a spicy chicken sandwich and a side of cajun fries (AND OF COURSE A ROOTBEER).

So as I was pulling up to the next window, and the guy infront of me was not moving. So I was like, "wtf." and the person behind said 'fuck this' and left the line. They tried honking to the guy infront of me, but the dude didn't move, but they didn't give a shit and left.

Now me, pissed and hungry asf. I decided to honk on this mf. And I was getting more pissed and hungry, but then I thought of something. DID THIS MF JUST DIE. CAUSE THIS IS THE WORST MOMENT TO DO THAT. So I drove next to him and I blowed my horn again. Dude didn't move, I looked through his windows (but they were tinted and I'm blind asf so I wasn't a 100% sure) but this mf was KNOCKED OUT. I mean HEAD BACK AND EVERYTHING. So, my ass didn't want to get arrested so I pulled up to the next window and said that the guy behind me was passed out.

Now mind you, the workers came out flabbergasted. They gave me my food and told me 'thank you' for informing them (they also gave my food for free HAHAHAH).

Came to the conclusion, this guy passed out but was alive, he woke up and pulled over to the side. Once I knew the situation was "okay" I drove away as fast as I could before they changed their mind about the payment.

So yes, I got free food 2x this weekend, and they were outrageous times.

These are stories to remember and I thought it was oddly crucial to my "weekend vent dumps" series.

Also, I want to spice up my Tumblr a bit, do you guys want me to write stories? I think that would be cool. If you don't want me too thats okay, I don't mind dumping random shit on this page.

Nonetheless my mutuals, I have the late shift today and I have it at 7:30. So Imma go.

(I didn't have time for a quote, sorry 😞)

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #3

alrighty doe, how is everyone? I hope you all have been doing well.

WELL GUESS WHAT? GUESS WHOS ON BREAK BITCHES. ME. AND GUESS WHO HAS MIDTERMS WHEN THEY GET BACK. ME.

High school is just the best. As a Junior in a private school, I don't know how I did it. I remember getting my acceptance letter like it was yesterday.

My parents picked me up from school and gave me a letter with fancy printing. I opened it and it revealed the best of both worlds. My name engraved in it with the ink and the words flowed with great elegancy.

As you can tell I ain't shit. In middle school, my parents said that if I didn't get into a private school, they would send me all the way to Connecticut to an ALL GIRLS SCHOOL. Which I thought was outrageous. But at the same time, I live in Massachusetts in the middle of nowhere so there isn't much of a difference.

Anyways, private school is Massachusetts sucks. Massachusetts is so big on its education, it's not even funny. Now everyone knows that Harvard and Yale are in Massachusetts and Connecticut. Which are the best colleges in all of America, so those 2 states make the children work 10x harder I feel like. We have to take tests on specific years to check our education mentality to see if we are the very top in America. Low key, MCAS (a state test in Massachusetts) made my mental health go down then it needed to be.

Now, I used to go to public school in middle and elementary. And I say, don't be ashamed that you go to a public school for high school. Colleges just wonder if you graduated or not (and of course if you can read). I wished I stayed in public school, but at the same time I'm grateful for private school (and I'm so glad I got a scholarship cuz that shit costs MONEY).

Also, my biggest flex is that I don't have to worry about MCAS now because I'm in private school and they don't do that shit. YUH

Nonetheless, ITS CHRISTMAS TIME! Which means Miss Mariah Carey is unfrozen and I will cry myself to sleep every time I go to the store with my mother. I don't want a lot for Christmas this year, I just want money. And knowing my grandparents, they'll give me like 200 dollars.

That doesn't matter, what matters is family and that I survived another crazy year. I can't wait to be a senior. So I can graduate and get the hell out of my parents and ship myself to college.

I should apply for colleges really soon, I'm thinking about doing community college or something. I just want a small degree in something where I can continue writing. Maybe I'll study English or something. You need a degree in something I believe.

Well, Imma end it here, I have a shift soon at my part-time job (yes I have a job at a cinema, all I do is scan tickets). So yeah, without a further ado my mutuals, drink water and be safe. And here's a quote by Whitney Houston because she has a movie coming out soon. (WAKANDA FOREVER WAS FIRE IDGAF WITH WHAT YOU PEOPLE SAY)

“I finally faced the fact that it isn`t a crime not having friends. Being alone means you have fewer problems.”

-Whitney Houston

So my take on this week was to never be ashamed of who you are.

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #2 

Goodness gracious, this week has been long. Right now, I'm doing a dumb project for bio. Hot Tip: DONT TAKE HONORS BIOLOGY. The only thing that has me going is anime and TikTok.

But, while I'm at it. I want to talk about the dangers of TikTok. Especially with teenagers on it. Recently, I gave a friend (more like an acquaintance) a picture of me. Since they wanted to do this trend where they do "friends we shouldn't take for granted". Now I want to talk about how fake people can be.

Now as you can see, this friend is a sophomore. I only knew this kid since the beginning of the year and now we're "friends". I don't mind being friends with the kid, but if you're using my money and ask me if the Little Mermaid should be black seems to be a stretch.

I could be over exaggerating but this kid seems to want to get the best from me and I don't get anything back. I wouldn't have a problem if you, payed me back, or not have asked me such racist questions (if you're wondering, yes they're white). I don't want to seem harsh but just don't do such things.

Now about TikTok. Apparently people can photoshop their bodies in videos. wtf.

It's hard, day by day, to find someone that is real. TikTok is turning into Instagram slowly (THATS A LIE) and we're soon going to believe that BBLs actually look good again (RIP asian doll).

Anyways, as a young person who's is soon going to vote in 2024, can we please have an argument that social media should not have filters. We seriously have filters that make your skin lighter (DO BETTER TIKTOK, but at the same time, me being a lightskin looks funny).

Now this post seems to be everywhere, so I hope it's not too confusing. Imma finish my project now.

"There are some people that if they don't know, you can't tell them."

-Louis Armstrong

REMEMBER TO DRINK WATER MY MUTUALS

dont be like me who drinks rootbeer 24/7

EDITED - MY DUMBASS FORGOT TAGS

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #1

this is my first post so I guess ill give some details about myself. I used to have Tumblr a while back but I encountered some INTERESTING things with some people, so I got a new one. With this account I guess I'll vent about random stuff to make myself feel better. I will post some stuff about deep or so topics and if it doesn't interest you, I guess leave. If it does, I guess listen to the tea.

Some things about me is well, 1 I'm black and female (like that matters). 2, I like to write (if I feel adventurous I'll write a short story or 2). 3, I like anime (no I won't answer your 1million questions). 4, I'm bisexual. 5, I believe I am a very nice person, an introvert who has a very large opinion about certain topics. (I low-key think I should be a politician)

That doesn't matter. Lets vent. (get comfortable, this is long)

This week had been very stressful. Monday started off okay, but my first class was biology. Bio is my weak class for various reasons. 1, my teacher is an asshole and thinks that I don't know how to study (mind you I'm a Junior in hs). 2, I'm mostly on discord dming my friends half of the time. So this is a me and her problem type of thing. Other than bio being horrible, my life at home has been going through shreds. I have a step mother and she's an asshole. She believes she can get away with a few things because she's been in my life since I was 3. Which is stupid.

Recently, I have been doing community hours for my school. I have been cleaning the theatre (but this is different kind of cleaning, I have to take done stud walls and carry lumber in and out of workshops), since I'm very passionate about theatre, I knew I wouldn't be complaining about doing such a thing. Except for the fact that my stepmother comes home complaining that I'm lazy for not doing opportunities for community hours, outside of school (I hope that makes sense). She says I should "help out the church" or "help clean out the block", like I'm tryna help out and leave yo house. It's unfortunate that my dad sees the way she talks to me and literally does nothing. Yet he is the one that questions why I hang out with my actual mother more than stay at his house more. And if you're wondering, yes, I still talk to my bio-mom even though she abandoned me at a young age.

Enough with the sad stuff, the positive thing is that Christmas break is coming up. I love Christmas, it's so romantic and fun with family and friends. But, today is December 3rd and nobody gave me a sweater. I swear next year I will be in a relationship (p.s. I say this every year).

I have said a lot in this first post so I know it's overwhelming. If you have any similar experiences, my chat is always open, I'm willing to talk to random people.

Other than that, my goals this week is to turn the D in bio to at least a B. And have my step mother get off my ass.

I hope this gets to the right audience, remember to drink water and stay positive!

"A wise woman wishes to be no one's enemy; a wise woman refuses to be anyone's victim."

-Maya Angelou