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Today, I learned something.

Today I learned that I crave the love back that I have given others. I crave having someone look after me as much as I’m willing to look after someone else.

But I do not want to stop giving this kindness, because it’s no burden, it makes me happy too. Though this is a double edged sword, because I now find myself in a position where I feel like the world owes me something.

It does not.

Maybe I should look after myself, the way I wish others would.

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Date a boy who you miss an incredibly stupid amount when he has to go home after visiting you

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If you lose interest in someone, tell them. 

If you’re not looking for a relationship, tell the person you’re seeing.

If you’re thinking of ghosting someone, tell them.

If you can’t handle meeting up with someone after all, tell them.

If you’re terrible at responding to messages, tell people.

If you prefer talking in person to texting, tell people. 

If you’re seeing several people at the same time, tell them.

If you’re looking for sex rather than dating, tell the person you’re seeing.

It is not difficult to be a decent and honest, open, communicative human being. Respect those whom you interact with and have relationships with by telling the truth instead of leading them on or being deceitful.

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Literally me today

fuck it *discovers my inner worth*

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Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist (2008)

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the more i get ignored by people, the more i feel like excluding people from my life

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“To be ignored like I don’t even deserve an answer, well I get it I take your action as an answer. You made yourself loud and clear I’m nothing to you.”

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Ok but real talk there is nothing fucking worse than being ignored. Like, someone is discrediting your opinion or whatever it is you have to say, simply by not acknowledging that you put it out into the world? I know not everything requires a response, but please just have the decency to be honest about how you feel rather than just hiding from things.

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Gut feeling

I don’t know about this. It’s like you’ve gotten too comfortable, too quickly. I know I thought I was tired of the chase but you can’t just call me over when it’s convenient for you.

Of course I want to see you, of course I want to spend time with you, but I’m gonna need you to prove to me that you want me too.

Sexual compatibility is one thing, but what if this is a terrible mistake? I don’t want to bump into you again if you’re going to hurt me, and I don’t want to plan my life around you.

You better prove me wrong quick because I’m tired of giving you things to work with.

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“She’s crazy”

Ok but here’s a theory

Maybe if you paid attention to me I wouldn’t be a paranoid mess

???

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An overview in memorable quotes and buzzwords

1. Dose

2. “I’ve been seeing someone for a while now”

3. Guitar

4. 3 days in bed

5. Cc

6. Summer fling

7. A mistake

8. Where’s Waldo

9. Kushty

10. Mkay

11. “There she is”

12. Back cross

13. Lion

14. “I can still pack a punch”

15. 1975

16. Mr Worldwide EI

17. Double date disaster

18. The horrible box

19. I’m tired yes, but not of you

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New Light

I searched, for a long time. I may still be searching. I’m wanting to let myself fall but after everything it just won’t be so easy.

Am I just looking for coincidences? For quirks I like and things that match up between us? Am I just ignoring red flags because I’m so tired of looking?

As it stands, timing is poor. I’m willing to be patient if you’re willing to make this worth my while. I can feel myself wanting to be around you, but what if this is all a terrible mistake? Have I just gotten lazy? Impatient?

Please prove me wrong, I’m begging you.

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I never wrote your final chapter

I never wrote about our end, probably because it only just happened. Don’t get me wrong, the end of us happened a while ago, in fact I’d argue nothing ever even started, but I’ve only just stopped feeling anger towards you.

This does not rectify your actions, your deceit or your lies. It also doesn’t rectify your selfishness when you were fully aware of what I felt, and decided to keep things going because you were content with them. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I needed to find someone who is willing to give me what I needed from you, in order to understand how pointless it was to mourn over what little you gave me.

I hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for, and I hope you never come back looking for it in me.