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Why is it when I make jokes that are about my mental health it’s frowned on, yet a boomer can make joke of major events that impact lots of people negatively and they get praised for their humour.

Honestly at least my jokes are about people in danger or dead but because it’s about something that’s considered dehumanising to myself I get told I need to shut up and stop looking for attention.

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rant

Crying wishing to be able to have a shower without the sewage drains break just about everyday and having them fixed every month (just about) should not have to be a thing. yet it is when you cant escape the situation and no one bothers to get a proper solution because se it only impacts the scape goat.

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sick of making decisions. every day i make a choice

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Waking up to see the sunset, Staying awake to see sunrise.

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As a shift worker i also just want 24/7 public transport. Also Public transport access to more then just the main metro areas.

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What is it when you feel comfortable with your mental health being bad. As in it’s comforting to have existential thoughts as they just destruct enough from the anxiety that wold otherwise leave you constantly crying.

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Why is it that there are way more kids clothes the plus size clothes everywhere.

Also why is I near impossible to by just a pyjama top?

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Reaching an all new low:

So tired I cans stand up to shower. And crying thinking about needing to sleep.

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My local large shopping center has a water feature in the center of the original building.

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Recently they have filled it with rubber duck as promotional material for a film that had come out.

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I don’t know why but seeing all those rubber duck had me laughing like crazy.

Pic for proof:

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This is just what it feels like to be autistic and semi permanently depersonalising just about 24/7 when surrounded by others who have not been fully aware of the existence for years.

You run a secret, hidden café frequented by mythical beings. One day, a human somehow finds their way to the café. They have not noticed they are the only human, nor have the other patrons noticed them. Yet.

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Happy new year, The clock has past midnight yet it all felt like it was before. People still talk with no empathy. Not even attempting to conceal hateful thoughts with lies. ‘Happy new year’. Being screamed all around but the remarks made only moments before still linger around. ‘That artist shouldn’t be wearing that!’ Stings as your moment of confidence is turn down.  ‘Happy New Year’ says everyone you meet but those who want to cover their truth ask in almost a genuine manner go further. ‘What are your new year resolutions?’ They ask as if eager to find out how many of their presumed flaws you will try and fix not so much as for you but for society and them. So no it won’t be a happy new year. The world has had no change. The message did not change the truth about the situation.  The sounding of the clock, the fireworks, or the cheers.  The world has not changed at all for the new year. The new year is nothing but yet another false promise. Why better myself when it is ignored. Society, history, politics are all going to ignore.  The year has change yet everything will remain the same. So it is just a ‘new year’. For all who remained.

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That moment when your in summer but your heart still is in winter.

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How many people out there have to cry out of defeat when they see their doctor.

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The more I’m exposed to conservatives at my work the more I hide myself.

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Losing empathy

Many don’t understand what it’s like to lose your empathy.

Years of being treated as a human punching bag both physically and emotionally leave me with nothing.

Being numb to everyone and everything going around you.

Tears still felt but never released.

Anger is all that remains.

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hello lgbtq I have baby carrots I am willing to feed to you

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It’s that time of year to say no to the Salvation Army.

Never forget they let a Trans woman die instead of helping her.

Never forget they have tossed entire families on the street for having an LGBT child.

Never forget they tell non Christian families that unless they convert they will not help them.

Never forget that the Salvation Army is bigoted and hateful, many of the bell ringers routinely heckle and harass LGBT couples.