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New goals

64 day to lose 50lbs

Till February 14th



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Lies

I’ve been told my whole life that most of guys don’t like or don’t want to be with skinny girls. That’s a lie, you are lying. That’s wrong. The more weight I loose the more they like me. When I show my collarbones, or my hipbones they go crazy. They literally go crazy, can’t stop staring at them, or my tinny waist, or my thin legs, or even my defined jaw. There are boys that even want to draw me, or take professional pics of myself. Let’s be honest, it’s a big lie.

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You absolute fucking failure

Seriously? Eating again after you know you gained? Fucking pathetic. No wonder you're still a fat fucking whale, you keep stuffing your face like you deserve it. If you don't put that gross shit down you'll never reach your full potential. You'll always be a big, disgusting waste of space. Put down the food, pick up the water and starve. You need this, you'll get past the hunger. Just use it as fuel, the more your stomach growls the more fat you're losing. Yes, no more eating for you. You can eat when you're skinny.

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Page#40

You don't need a meanspo when your family make fat jokes about you every day..

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Page#39

I'm about to smoke my blunt and I hope I can hold back the munchies cuz I'm trying to fast for 73hours 3 days and I'ma pot head anywayswish me luck that

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Me:fast for 2 days finally eat something

Mom: keep eating like that your gonna get as big as me

Mom:do you wanna be fat

Mom:it's easy to put on fat but it's hard to take it off

Mom: didn't you just eat

Me: feelings hurt *

Next day:

Me : gosh my head hurts I haven't eaten anything all day because of school and then work after cuz I don't eat school lunch and I work and I don't eat at work

Mom: shit that's good then

Mom: don't wanna be big ass me ?hm

Mom: watch I'm telling you,you keep eating like you do

I'm gonna show my mom that I'm not gonna be fat forever it's hard when your mom is making fun if you every time you eat some in front of her .... I'mma show her and she'll take back all the mean stuff she's ever said to me

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Asking a depressed person why they are depressed when life is so beautiful is like asking an asthma patient why they have asthma when there is so much air

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Page#38

I’m starting to hate everything about me each and every day ..I didn’t see how I was looking until it’s too late and I regret it so much it’s hard having all skinny friends and seeing how beautiful they are and your just their DUFF yeah DUFF I hate being fat it sucks ..maybe that’s why no guys brother to even look at me always my friends always my skinny sister I just wanna love looking at myself in the mirror..

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Page 35#

22 hours in the fast in I eat something 739cals I’m not mad just confused ........I would have days when I don’t eat until 12am in I’m fine but today my body wasn’t having it I had chest pain and my body hurts like my body and mind new I can do 24 hours but it was like no bitch eat something now and I’m sorry I might be a fat bitch but when it comes to my heart i don’t give a fuck about losing weight me being alive is all ready good enough but it’s crazy it really scared me .. I know some people are like pussy everyone body is different I’m don’t have a ED I’m not the one to be like I’ll die getting skinny shit my ass I wanna live.......shit some guys like cubby girls but imma still get to my goal I’m just saying..I couldn’t do it today maybe it’s because my period is coming but my body hurts and so do my heart soo bad and that’s never happeneds for some reason today was not my day but I did a good ass job today and I’m happy at least I pass 20 !!

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❤️❤️❤️

Meanspo

Look at you, eating. Being healthy. Taking care of yourself. How could you ever think you deserved to starve? It’s fucking disgusting that you would believe for a second that you aren’t beautiful, because you are, for god’s sake. You know what? I hope you get better, goddammit. You are so fucking beautiful it makes me wanna vomit flowers and rainbows. Love yourself, bitch. Eat! Be healthy! you fucking deserve to feel better and love yourself for who you are. I can’t even believe that a person as perfect as you would do this to yourself. It makes me sick. It makes me want to fucking hug you so tight that you feel better. So go ahead, feed yourself. And you know what, eat a fucking cake. Treat yourself, bitch. You deserve it. I don’t care what you did to think you deserve this, but you don’t. YOU. ARE. PERFECT. For fuck’s sake, I love you and you deserve the fucking world. 

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This is so cute to be for some reason like a chubby babies ❤️❤️❤️❤️

hmmm

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I’m really starting to hate my body like damn at first I didn’t think anything about my weight but now everytime I walk pass a mirror I see how fat I really am and I’m soo mad at myself for what I did to my body I don’t have an Ed and I’m not Ana shit I’m just telling it how it is and I really fucked up my body

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95/295

Soo my Bday is in 200days now and I have a 120lbs to lose in 200days my SW:235 and my Cw:230 but I think I can do it ....I don’t do fasting but I’m going to do a 3days water fast start Monday tomorrow I’m stil waters fasting but I’m fasting is so I can boost my metabolism and I can get full easy when I eat something and then im doing a 500to700 cals diet for now on ..I would do like 900 or 1,000cals but it’s time for a boost my weight is just going up in done 235 to 225 and I need to pass at least 200 but my goal for the 1st of next month is to at least be in the it’s one hundreds idc if it’s 199 I just wanna get there I just need to start believing in myself

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push your thigh up between my legs when you make out with me

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94/295

So I was on day 58 the last time I posted and there’s now 201days until my 18th birthday and I have to be ether 120or110lbs by my birthday ......not 125 not 115 ether please please 120or110lbs I wanna look how o see myself in my head beautiful I was trying to take pictures but my face looked soo disgust and my fat chin my weight has been going up in down cuz I’ve been eating shitty there’s days when I can only eat 600cals a see fine and thrnthe nexts day I eat like 2,000cals but fuck that 600-800cals a day now I already eat like 943cals that’s all I get for today and imma drink as much water as I can ....201days until my 18th and I need to beautiful...I have to be

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58/295

okay the last time I posted I was on day 17th day so we're jumping to 58 cuz I haven't been posting I am soo sorry you guy my job was to post evey day so there 237 day until my Bday and I'm SW:was 235lbs my CW:227lbs so i only lost 8lbs in 58day smh I'm so sad ............i binge and binge at first i was doing so goo but i fucked up but I'm back on track i well get to my gw 110lbs