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[theclouds43]

it's always 'i like you' never- "lights in the summer night make a false start in the evening sunset. in my seventeenth july I met you. hey, sunflower I ask my dictionary the definition of cute. words bubble up like soda pop. a thunderous roar, words exist for the sake of expression. an evening rainbow, I have something to tell you. a piece of my great passion, sent into your hand. i'll scream with all of my might to you, during summer's end. yamazakura, i like the leaves that you've hidden. yamazakura, i like those cute teeth of yours. yamazakura, i like the leaves that you've hidden. yamazakura, i like those cute teeth of yours. yamazakura I like cute words, too. yamazakura i like cute fireworks, too. yamazakura i like that cute smile of yours. yamazakura i like you, smile. i like you!".

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tell me something. anything. i want to hear you talk. i feel at ease when i hear your voice. my melancholy life changes a little bit whenever you talk to me. you may make me cry sometimes, but still, it feels good in a sad little way.

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Cloudy skies,

cloudy eyes.

It's okay,

it's okay.

So, why do I feel uneasy then??

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Haiku `~`

Innocence is gone.

The grim reaper is near.

Liberty in death.

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Haiku <3

fall is near but,

I don't feel like it is here,

I just feel empty.

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Haiku •~•

Such warm and wet nights,

How they leave me cold, dry and

Aching for the past.

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Haiku! °`~`°

Calm down, take a breath

Focus on the noise around

Yet, you are alone.

(solipsism)

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Haiku!

Calm down, take a breath

Feel the water fill your lungs

Oh, it's so peaceful.

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Haiku!!

Basking in the sun

For solitude as solace

But, drown in lonesome.

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I miss you and hate you all the same.

I miss you. I dont know what else to say. I just do. I know I shouldn't. We aren't friends anymore and it's your birthday today. What will I do without you. I am carrying on, trying to be without you. I just feel incomplete whenever something reminds me of you. It feels like my heart was taken from me. Like I have no emotions left but I have life all the same. I cant believe you dont feel this way. That you easily moved on. Made so many more, different friends. They are so much more different than me and her. She is broken but still tries to hide it from me. I can hear it in her voice, whenever she talks about you. You left us both broken, for no reason. You left us, only for us to savour the memories you made with us. You felt like home to me. I cant believe I fell for your act. Happy Birthday anyways, traitor.

Wrote this while waiting to text a birthday wish to a friend who was part of a trio with me. We lost connection and yet, I stayed awake, just to text a wish at midnight. She left it on read. This is in a form of letter which I wish I wouldve sent to her, instead of a plain wish. Idk why im posting this. To let her go, perhaps.

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Losing (lost) Connection

It hurts a little less, as each day passes. At first, I never thought i'd be able to recover. Kept retracing our steps, our texts. What else could I have done. I was broken. But, now I feel like I am slowly healing. Each day, I think less of you. I don't cry while thinking about you these days, either. Your voice is fading from my memory. I wanna hear it again. I miss your smile too. The sound you made while laughing. Your face seems like a fragment of imagination now. Incomplete. I have forgotten the way your eyes lit up when you smiled. I cant believe myself. I am finally getting over you, even when you and I were just friends to begin with. I just hope I never feel like a stranger to you. Even if we meet years later. Cause you'll always feel like home to me. No matter what.

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New life

Escape is something I wish I could do but cant. I just wish I could get away from the world, my life, from everyone I know. Change my name, lifestyle, hair colour, so that no one from my past life finds me. If they do, the only way they'll recognise me is from my voice. I bet no one will even look for me. I know it. I suppose that deep down, thats what I want.

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Nobody cares

Nobody listens- to what I think, what I like, what my opinions are, my choices, my preferences. They just don't listen. Cause nobody cares. Everyone tells me, listen to this, it's my favorite song, my favorite movie, the funniest video ever. I do it, I watch it, listen to it, pay close attention to everything, thats cause they told me to. They thought I'd like it. I honour their opinions. I just hope, the same happened to me. But they never care, never have, I just hope they did. I keep on hoping, telling everyone my opinions, just hoping, that for once, someone would listen, would honour me, like I have honored them. I care about their opinions, even when I don't care about them overall, even if they don't mean anything to me, I always do, always have, and I don't think I can stop. I just wish they'd reciprocate the feelings. I wish someone understood me. Whenever I show someone something that interests me, and they don't like it, they ignore me. They say that "if you listen to this, i'll listen to your song". I listen to the song completely, even if I don't like it. After that, when I try to play my song, they say, that its bad, and that they don't like it. They don't listen to it. When I remind them about the deal, they say "but you liked my song, I don't like yours!". I never liked their song either, im just a decent person. Thats what always happens, whenever I try to tell people, what I like. I think its time I stop trying.

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Perhaps

When you feel lonely, even with tons of people around, cause they're all strangers, cause perhaps you'll never know their names, cause you wont talk to them. But perhaps you'll remember them forever, even if you don't see them ever again. Perhaps they'll remember you forever, even if you have never talked. Cause maybe you made an impact on them, made the slightest change. But maybe, just maybe, for them, it was life changing. But you have no way of finding out, cause you'll never meet again, you've never talked to each other, either. Perhaps, a simple compliment changed their life, perhaps you'll remember them, but only because of their beautiful eyes, the aura they radiated or something like their smile. Perhaps they'll remember you, in a way you'll never know. Perhaps one simple compliment changed the way they look at themselves. Perhaps it saved their life. Perhaps- perhaps because you'll never know, and you have no way of finding out.

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I look at the still sea,

The calmness is unnerving for me,

It reminds me,

Of glass or a thin layer of ice;

It looks unbreakable,

But shatters like glass,

Against a hammer,

Beautifully and yet causing chaos everywhere;

As I look around me,

I realize that this moment will never come back,

That each passing second,

Is now the past.

The dim lighting of the room,

My sister sleeping quietly besides me,

I look out the window,

And see it again.

What could have been,

But isn't.

I can hear the AC running,

And the sound that it makes is making me feel good.

It makes me feel something, atleast.

The neon lights,

Across the sea,

Are flickering away,

Going on forever,

And at this moment,

I am the happiest and yet the saddest,

I have ever been,

Just another tragic person,

In a world with many.

I wrote this at like 2am, when I was on a holiday trip to dubai, with my family. The hotel room's window looked over the sea, so while staring at its beauty, I thought of the first line, and just went with the flow. lol

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“Nobody wants to hear this, but sometimes the person you want most, is the person you’re best without.”

— B.J

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Sometimes, I may laugh and I may cry.

But to feel happy or sad,

It's burdensome.

So let's just bluff.