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A look back at Friday 23rd April 2021

I started the day with my 6 alarms set from 6:50-7:00am in hopes they'd get me up. Instead I did the usual thing of telling them to shut up and sleeping for an extra half an hour. I gave up and woke up at 7:30am ready to go back to prison, (also known as school). I hate school, I feel like I dont belong in my friend group at all, and one of them isn't exactly the nicest to me. After going in the shower, getting ready and having breakfast, I set off to school. I get there and I meet my boyfriend outside the school gates as I usually do.

1st lesson

I was in first lesson with my boyfriend and we had geography. I'm usually really good but this topic just isn't my fortay. The teacher really liked me but it seems she's going off me now as I look down at my crystals that I take to school for one second and she goes LUCY. I felt like I was going to cry, I know to most people thats probably a stupid thing to cry about, but I hate getting told off, and every time I walk in that lesson now I just feel dumb.

I cant really remember everything that happened in all my lessons but drama really pissed me off. I love drama as a subject as I want to be an actress and singer when I grow up, buuut the girl in my friend group who isn't the nicest to me is in that class, along with the girl who occasionally hangs out with us. Let me give you some incite to her. My boyfriend gets a superdry coat right, which is this quite expensive brand because he needs a new coat. He got it in yellow, as his favourite colour is yellow, he wears it to school and on the walk home the girl comes up to him and goes. "You can't wear that, yellow is my colour, everyone knows me for yellow, besides it suites me better, you look terrible in yellow". Shes 15, 15 years old and acting like that. Not to mention i was talking to the really nice person in my friend group in art on the day of my great grandmas funeral to take my mind off it, she turns around to me and proper yells, "OMG LUCY STOP TALKING NO WONDER YOUR SO BEHIND ON YOUR WORK". We all are behind, not one of us in that class has done everything, and I've done more than her, and she sits there talking all lesson. Not to mention whenever the other girl in my friendship group in my drama tries to get us in a 3, she forces me out of the group to work with someone else, someone who isn't particularly good at drama, but the thing is with me, I can make people look better at drama and get better. So me and the girl I ended out partnered with made this really good peice we were both super proud of, and the two mean girls in my friend group stand there watching us the whole time. They said things like, you look like wolves, we were making a movement sequence representing a hero and villain and my partner and i's had bits of slo mo, and looked very cool if I say so my self. So when they watch ours as my half the class perform, they laugh, but as there half of the class performed, we sat there respectively, they didn't actually plan anything, and they just improvised and did miss' example. One of them (the one who sometimes hangs out with us), said after, look how good at being intimidating i am. All she did was walk super close to her, and look her up and down as the other girl stood still. They had the audacity to call ours bad. Anyway, after I said that was good, to be nice. I don't understand what I've done to get all this but hey ho its always someone in every friendgroup right?

Oh and I forgot to mention them 2 tried to force me to dye my hair because apparently i don't look pansexual because I'm blonde and that if im blonde I look straight, there's nothing wrong with being straight but uh, imagine gatekeeping the lgbtq+ community to people who arnt blonde- them 2 make by blood boil sometimes, but I just deal with it, I'm nice to them because I just don't want drama.