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A human home birth in Cochabamba
It was almost two a.m. For the last couple of hours, a thunderstorm had been building up beyond the mountains rising close by our house. Blue flashes illuminated the sky, silhouetting the undulating ridge. The rain was falling hard and the contractions were intense. Bri was in such pain, having foregone drugs, that the only relief came in taking hot showers. But with the storm closing in, that would have to stop. We determined that after this last shower, she’d go upstairs. Then as soon as the next contraction had passed, I’d ask our doctor Julio to come check her dilation. Thunder crashed. He noted nine centimeters, then donned a gown and began arranging all of his gear, cleaned his hands again and put on gloves. Any minute now.
In the last few days leading up to Lucky’s birth, we were a little nervous because, after weeks of counting on it, our midwife Vivian Camacho couldn’t be with us for the birth. She is working on a Master’s in social entrepreneurship and as summer wore one she’d gotten busier and busier. However, she put us in touch with Dr. Mireya Zapata, whose clinic in Quillacollo serves poor women who might otherwise have unsupervised home births, or, if attended by anyone, then perhaps an aunt, a neighbor woman with some experience birthin’ babies, or some kind of traditional healer – a k’allawaya or curandera/o who may specialize more in magic and faith healing than in delivering a healthy baby. Thus is the reality of far too many pregnant women in Bolivia: poverty conspires with superstitions and fear of doctors, leaving her to face birth in dirty conditions, with inadequate help, the umbilical cord cut with a piece of broken glass…
We had done everything a college-educated couple (unimaginably privileged by comparison to the average Bolivian) could do to prepare for a natural homebirth. We had started in the US – in Portland – where our midwife had given us the kindest and gentlest, non-invasive attention we could have asked for. As the pregnancy seemed to be totally without complication, we did our best to envision finding a midwife in Bolivia and having our baby as we’d planned. Vivi encouraged us with her kindness and solidarity, helping us through the last two months of our pregnancy and introducing us to María René, a natural birth enthusiast and now good friend who helped us throughout the day Bri after began labor. Three days before labor started, we went for an ecografía (sonogram). A 3D ultrasound only cost about $35, but at Bs/240, would have been perhaps a weeks’ wages for the roughly %60 of people living in poverty here. The ecografía showed Lucky was in good shape, decently heavy and in position to begin labor at any moment. We knew we could count on Mireya and her team to help us deliver him safely.
Earlier in the afternoon, we tried some oral nipple stimulation and other touching techniques we’d practiced as we explored tantra, but they helped only a little. Eventually, intense, painful contractions led us to believe the labor was moving along more quickly than, in fact, it was. Bri’s reaction was to engage with the pain. She let her breathing get away from her, and the uterus responded with less productive contractions. We were doing our best, but overlooked this dynamic. Luckily, once Mireya was able to determine her dilation had slowed dramatically, she assessed the breathing pattern needed to change and I translated her instructions. Bri was disappointed the labor didn’t seem to be going anywhere. Mireya and her team left, promising to come back in the evening, allowing time for Bri to move along. There wasn’t anything else we could do but try to change the mood. María René soothed her and the two of them went for a walk. With some years of experience, María René had attended a lot of births and had her two kids at home. She began concocting a mate – an herbal infusion – to mildly stimulate the labor physiology. Around the world folk medicine for labor and birth varies from dangerous to very effective. Just as the medical approach discourages using oxytocin to induce dilation until the cervix is already open 5-6 centimeters, we waited to administer strong teas of oregano (which may stimulate oxytocin production) until later in the evening. Walking helped a lot, so Bri took space from me and paced upstairs, occasionally coming downstairs to take a hot shower. She breathed calmly and as deeply as possible, showing the utmost self-control and deepest inner strength.
Mireya came back at about nine, with her two male doctor comrades - and in true Bolivian fashion, her husband and two sons. Dilation was proceeding, so she left Julio and Gherry behind to supervise the process. As Bri wisely asked, we only let one other person into the bedroom at a time. We had a thin twin mattress on the floor, and a strap hung from the door, so she could labor any number of ways, squatting, standing, hanging. María René had left late at night to get home and take care of her own children. Aurora, our six year old who was also born at home, had come back from the neighbors’ house and did her best to stay out of the way, perhaps to sleep. The guys sat downstairs and talked quietly while I attended Bri as best I could. When her cervix had reached 6 centimeters, I brewed stiff cups of mate de oregano, which Bri sipped between contractions. We kissed and she held onto me tightly, standing as the contractions came, leaning her head on my chest. We exchanged caresses and “I love you’s” and I kept encouraging her, telling her how beautiful she looked and how well she was doing.
Eventually, there came that last moment when we knew birth was imminent. In Spanish, the colloquial expression for giving birth is dar a luz – literally to give to light. I love this expression, as it really maintains the spiritual dimensions of what’s happening. In labor, both mama and baby are in a liminal space. The ability of a woman to push an eight or nine pound baby through her pelvic bones and her pussy is a thing inconceivable to most men or even most women. You’re doing something that is ordinarily impossible. The baby is between worlds: the dark, safe, nurturing haven of the womb, and crossing the difficult, rather dangerous threshold into a world of light, of air, contact with germs and bacteria and the violence of everyday life. But it’s also a glorious, unimaginable awakening – a breakthrough, a passage, the inverse of death. That last hot shower, then back upstairs... Julio came in and checked – nine centimeters plus – and readied himself hurriedly. The thunder was loud. Aurora awoke, sniveling audibly in the hall. I put her back to bed.
Bri was now squatting on the pallet, knees wide, leaning against me – I can’t really remember just how we were holding each other. Julio was in front of her, kneeling, waiting encouraging: “Ahora ¡empuja!” I could tell she was ready to deliver. The candle on our dresser-top altar flickered. Everything about her breath and her actions had shifted. Thunder, lightning. Aurora awoke and stood at the door. “Come on in here – Lucky’s about to come out!” I said. She stood next to me, surprisingly calm, watching with eyes wide, waiting. Bri made animal grunts and gasped quick breaths, pushing, trying, feeling. After maybe three minutes of pushing, out popped a head. Julio held it and pulled gently as Bri pushed, and Lucien Henri sprang into the world, the blue lightning flickering on his wet body in the dark room. Julio deftly cleared his airway. “What’s that?” asked Aurora, staring at the umbilical cord. An adorable smile spread across her face. Bri tilted her head up to kiss me. Julio smiled as he handed the little creature to us. “Felicidades,” he said.
#homebirth#cochabamba#bolivia#partonatural#partodomiciliario#partohumanizado#parteras#naturalchildbirth#briannablackbird#pretendsweethearts#becomingthetenderanimal#diadelamadre#heroinas
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Americana staple and ATL expat sets his sites on Bolivia.
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Last Sundown
Unimaginable hues of copper and ochre spread through the sky, drenching the scrub that puffed up from the walls of the trash-strewn arroyo below the access road. The wind at our backs blasted from the freeway, where the semis and the pickup trucks roared. The desert fell away in a long, slow slope down into Mexico – flat and blueing in the dusk. The twinkling towns on the horizon, miles apart, could have been boats at sea. West Texas. Texas. Sharp, astringent smell of some ragged shrub. Eighty mph on the freeway. The border guard at the checkpoint, with his fatigues and his questions about our citizenship... Now my compañera and child are asleep under the vibrant floral polyester quilt of the Desert Inn. I’m gonna sit here on top of this motel bed and pray for America to start to love itself for real - very, very much.
#merica#ecoporn#texas#mexico#immigration#border#desertlight#futureextinctcultures#themidfuture#dirtandgrime#newpoetry#videoyourpolice
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" ’ i’m trying to figure out if singing songs, getting sober, taking naked pictures and playing for the pitiful and the pariahs has anything to do with a personal revolution that might be helpful to everyone else too’"
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FORMAL TO FERAL - a photopoem from the mid future
Welcome to the mid future! We are Pretend Sweethearts. You may know us, chances are, you don't: time-traveling, tantric trickster twins based in Portland, Oregon. Folk music for the capitalistically-impaired and media-challenged. Formal to Feral is a collaboration with photographer Miri Stebivka, our comrade Darka Dusty and Atlanta poet Laura Carter. We got down in the woods at Pendarvis Farm - the site of the wondrous Pickathon festival - shedding inhibitions and social training, finding our monkey and rolling around in it. Spontaneous ritual emerged. The camera was there and not there. Canned performance art. Camp movies, situationism, pre-Raphaelite influences, mudplay, magic, genre pics, modest nudity, eco porn? ecoporn? The music was invisible, so you don't get to taste it, but it's here. Take a look.
#miri stebivka#mirifoto#lauracarter#pretend sweethearts#darka dusty#brianna blackbird#portland oregon#pendarvis farm#pickathon#eco porn#magic#tantric trickster twins#portland americana duo#portland music#made in oregon#kep portland weird#in the woods#naturism#nudist camp#formal to feral#i'm with you#new poetry#atlanta poet#atlanta songwriter#portland songwriter#americana duo#poesy#photo essay#arty pictures#situationism
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They are fully able, disabused of sustenance, beautiful in age and love. Attention is given. Fully, well, able.
#pretend sweethearts#formal to feral#miriphoto#laura carter#darka dusty#pendarvis farm#pickathon#portland folk duo#portland americana duo#bare feet#mondo#post fashion#arty pictures#weird lighting#keep portland weird#portlandweirder#new poetry#atlanta poet#atlanta poetry#atlanta songwriter#portland songwriter#collaborative art#situationist art#post structuralism#post colonialism#get dirty#get naked#made in oregon#i'm with you#the mid future
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She looks awry. Is there someone in a corridor, nearby, of woods and ferns. He looks able. No guffaw is quite given, but will there be one, later?
#post fashion#arty pictures#cheap suit#gray suit#bebe dress#pendarvis farm#pickathon#bare feet#drew de man#brianna blackbird#darka dusty#miri stebivka#pretend sweethearts#made in oregon#keep portland weird#new poetry#atlanta poet#laura carter#tantric trickster twins#mudplay#dark woods#atlanta songwriter#portland songwriter#poetland oregon#situationist art#post folk#formal to feral#i'm with you#boots undone#mirifoto
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Three
She gazes lovingly. There are (as you may see) bare feet. To place a hand on a knee is the beginning of a great love affair, maybe.
#pretend sweethears#laura carter#new poetry#arty pictures#darka dusty#portland oregon#pendarvis farm#pickathon#portland americana duo#bare feet#dark woods#weird lighting#post structuralism#situationist art#atlanta poet#portland poetry#atlanta poetry#atlanta songwriter#portland songwriter#formal to feral#i'm with you#the mid future#of the sun#brianna blackbird#drew de man#drewdeman#mirifoto
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Four
He looks awry; she looks directly at the camera. Whose gaze is she catching? Someone from behind this small spectacle, someone like me, is writing their story.
#poetland oregan#made in oregon#pretend sweethearts#portland oregon#pendarvis farm#tantric tickster twins#formal to feral#i'm with you#darka dusty#drew de man#brianna blackbird#miri stebivka#pickathon#atlanta poet#new poetry#portland poet#situationist art#eco porn#deep woods#gray suit#bebe dress#cheap suit model#bare feet#americana duo#mirifoto
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Agape, awry, poised. Something is moving, but is it between them? He meets human gaze with simian visage. Last year, she thinks, there was a ruse. There is a disintegration beginning.
#missing link#brianna blackbird#drew de man#miri stebivka#darka dusty#drewdeman#pretend sweethearts#laura carter#new poetry#atlanta poets#poetland oregon#portlandweirder#keep portland weird#pendarvis farm#pickathon#pacfic northwest folk#portland americana duo#tantric trickster twins#bare feet#weird lighting#arty pictures#cheap suit#bebe dress#made in oregon#portland poet#gray suit#mirifoto
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Six
He unbuttons. There is someone in a distance, watching, perhaps. She is coy, alert. A tension begins.
#darka dusty#pendarvis farm#laura carter#drew de man#brianna blackbird#pretend sweethearts#formal to feral#portlantweirder#keep portland weird#i'm with you#the mid future#pickathon#dark woods#portland americana duo#made in oregon#cheap suit#bebe dress#new poetry#atlanta poet#atlanta songwriter#sweet harmonies#anarcho-folk#post structuralism#situationist art#tantric trickster twins#mirifoto
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Seven
She looks at him, sparkles. What does the myth of touch have to say to this?
#laura carter#drew de man#brianna blackbird#altanta-portland#pretend sweethearts#pretendsweethears#darka dusty#portland oregon#keep portland weird#made in oregon#portland americana duo#formal to feral#new poetry#atlanta poet#atlanta poetry#drewdeman#i'm with you#the mid future#mirifoto
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Dirty hands, a foreshadowing. He smiles, looks prescient with belief in her. She is afraid to meet his gaze, but only for a time.
#new poetry#arty pictures#laura carter#pretend sweethearts#tantric trickster twins#formal to feral#keep portland weird#portlandweirder#pdxpsychogeo#darka dusty#pendarvis farm#pickathon#happy valley#portland americana duo#i'm with you#the mid future#atlanta poetry#atlanta poet#oregon woods#made in oregon#mirifoto
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Nine
Like mud, dirt, everywhere. All writing is with hands and faces, extended to cover. There is a fear of uncovering, presaged by its happening.
#new poetry#situationist art#formal to feral#drew de man#brianna blackbird#mudplay#northwest folk music#poetland#portland#keep portland weird#i'm with you#the mid future#pendarvis farm#pickathon#portland americana duo#pretend sweethearts#darka dusty#drewdeman#arty pictures#miri stebivka#mirifoto
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Ten
A smudge, a look from she to him, her to where he is. A pair of cupped hands, meeting, at times, but not here (not yet).
#situationist art#arty pictures#eco porn#yeahpagans#portlandweirder#portland americana duo#keep portland weird#portland oregon#brianna blackbird#drew de man#darka dusty#drewdeman#mondo#mudplay#pendarvis farm#pickathon#poetland#new poetry#post structuralism#ecstasy#new genres#the mid future#i'm with you#mirifoto
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Eleven
Tattooed to a state, or vice versa. As disrobed early. A smudge or two, colors of mud and gristle. They appear to be moving toward something.
#laura carter#drew de man#brianna blackbird#new poetry#arty pictures#situationist art#post structuralism#mondo#mudplay#eco porn#pretend sweethearts#formal to feral#wanderlust#i dug a shallow shallow grave#of the sun#oregon woods#pendarvis farm#pickathon#tattooes#keep portland weird#portlandweirder#pdxpsychogeo#mirifoto#miri stebivka
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