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i just wanted to say mistakes and forever is !!!!!!!! so good. ough. it’s making me feel the pain of lucas fucking up the wish all over again, but like, in a good way. the deja vu from ashen and falmouth ! theyre so silly and tragic and i want to hug them. and DAEMYS !!!! soup shouldn’t be making me this sad

Oh my god, thank you so much!!! I’m so glad that you’re enjoying the fic!

They’re so tragic and I love them and I’m just so happy that other people are feeling the same way. And I’m sorry that the soup made you sad 🩷 (except not really, because being a writer means I’m inherently mean like that (that’s right, I’m ✨evil✨)).

I’m very bad at responding to compliments, but please know that I really, really appreciate this. Thank you so much for sending this ask!!!

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I'm sorry, but there is no way the other servants don't think Merlin and Arthur are fucking. Merlin constantly insults Arthur in front of his men, shows up late to his job all the time, half-asses it when he is there, and Arthur not only doesn't sack him, he shows clear favoritism toward him. If my coworker did all that I would be like, 'He is fucking our boss for sure, and it's the dicking of the prince's life, because that's the only explanation for why he just puts up with Merlin feeding him rat and constantly undermining his authority on top of not even being good at his job.'

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BEDLIA SAW IT ALL. SHE ALWAYS DID.

“Is Hannibal… in love with me?” “Could he daily feel a stab of hunger for you and find nourishment in the very sight of you? Yes. But do you ache for him?”

Let’s be very clear: Bedelia Du Maurier is the only character who walks into Season 3 knowing exactly what story she’s in.

Everyone else — Will, Jack, Alana is still playing chess. Bedelia is reading the damn script.

She knows Hannibal is dangerous and not just intellectually. She knows he devours not just bodies but identities. And she knows he’s not just obsessed with Will he’s metaphysically bound to him.

She doesn't ask “Does Hannibal love Will?” to be provocative.

She asks because she’s already calculated the cost of being the woman standing between a god and his chosen disciple.

She warns Will. She warns Hannibal. She tries, for a time, to curate her own survival. But what makes her tragic is that she knows she’s not a participant in their story. She’s a footnote. An observer. A ghost inside the theatre.

She’s poised, brilliant, manipulative yes. But she’s also in survival mode, almost always.

Her actions are strategic not seductive. Her elegance is armor, not allure.

She’s not trying to win Hannibal. She’s trying to outrun him.

But she still ends up seated at that long table. Alone. Dressed like the final girl in an opera. Awaiting her own consumption

Not screaming. Not crying. Waiting.

Because Bedelia always knew this was the ending.

She just hoped she’d find a loophole.

SHE'S THE ONLY CHARACTER WHO SEES LOVE AS VIOLENCE

Let’s revisit this exchange:

Will: Is Hannibal... in love with me? Bedelia: “Yes. But do you ache for him?”

This isn’t just Bedelia being sly.

This is Bedelia translating Hannibal's hunger into a divine, destructive force.

She names it. She gives it language.

Not lust. Not obsession.

Ache. Sacrament. Ritual. Death.

She knows Hannibal doesn’t want to possess Will. He wants to transform him. Through suffering.

And Will — Bedelia knows — wants it too.

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Okay, so. You know the scene in Labyrinth of Gedrif where that guy (the Keeper of the Unicorns (I don’t know how to spell his name) in disguise) is telling Arthur that his father’s disappointed in him and all that and Arthur attacks him?

Yeah, I’ve always thought that considering that as him failing a test is bullshit. See, you’re meant to think that Arthur attacked the guy to defend his honour—and, for the record, if that were the reason, I would agree about him failing the test. But I don’t think that was the reason Arthur attacked him at all. The Keeper was literally pressing on his deepest insecurities and poking at his core fears. And Arthur’s response to feeling vulnerable is always to fight. And is that the greatest response? No. But it’s understandable, given the environment he’s spent his entire life in, and I don’t think that the Keeper literally intentionally triggering Arthur’s insecurities and then failing him for his trauma response is a fair test.

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"Do you think we're together in every universe?"

"'course we are, Butch!"

"..."

"Maybe in another universe, things between us could have been different, maybe you could have loved me too."

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Okay not to be dramatic but I think the first of the two kisses in Never Give Annabelle a Gun might be the best SFTH kiss ever, and not just because it’s sapphic (although that’s a definite upside)

I think the thing that gets me about it is the way Annabelle just kisses Butch right in the middle of her sentence. Like, she fully cuts her off—and not the kind of cut-off where you can tell the boys are acting, but Luke actually cutting Tom off in the middle of the sentence. And something about that just really stands out to me. I think it makes it feel even more real (not that their characters and couples don’t usually feel real; they do, this is just an extra level).

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I like Fullset’s line “I resent the description of me as creepy” because it implies they just. Don’t know. Or at least that they don’t think the label is warranted. Those two really believe they’re the only normal ones in this world huh

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Can we all agree that Danny from Never Give Annabelle a Gun and Danny from Death for a Dollar are the same guy and this bar is just wild

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HOLY FUCKING SHIT

So that’s my new favourite play

Happy pride, everybody!!!

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This is so hot

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and then make them all kiss

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Canon ships are great, random pairings are super, but nothing can ever match the high of the writers trying to gaslight you into thinking a pairing isn't romantic.

Nothing beats the feeling of them dangling the pair's 75th prolonged eye contact in front of you like a carrot on a stick just to pull it back and say, "See how they're perfect for each other in every way? Well, they're actually NOT together! In fact, you may even call them siblings."

And then you're banging your hands against the table like a toddler having a tantrum and yelling, "But they ARE! They ARE together!" And then they drag you away kicking and screaming.

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Jack grainmill's mom is so cunty

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Am I the only one who interpreted this as Tom giving a shoutout to most/a lot of the fandom being queer?

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(all dreamy-like)

he runs into walls. he's vaguely european. he was born in britain. he was born in america. time travels around him. he's violent. he's pathetic. he's charismatic. he's been in a 50-person orgy. he's never had friends before. he's a fan favourite. he thinks horse barbie is hot. he'll have a sex on the beach iced. he's a background character. he's the main character. he's a pretty pink prince(ss) and he'll smash you with his huge fucking hammer. he needs a cigarette.

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People don’t talk enough about how having severe food allergies as a little kid will fuck you up.

Like, I have an anaphylactic peanut allergy, and we’ve known that since I was two. And if I found out about it now, it would suck, but I’d be able to deal with it. It wouldn’t mess me up in the same way.

But knowing when you’re a little kid? That stays with you. From the time I was five, I was carrying my own epi-pen every time I left the house. I was checking the ingredients of every food I ate from the time I could read the packaging. And I can try to phrase it in a million different ways, but it really just comes back to: I was a little kid, and I was thinking about how I was going to die. And not in the abstract monsters-under-the-bed way, in the this is a very real threat and there’s nothing you can do to make it go away way.

My parents made the choice to make me very aware of and involved in my allergy from a very young age, and I fully stand by that decision, because it’s definitely saved me a number of hospital trips, and it very well might’ve saved my life. But the choice they were faced with was to protect either my mental health or my life. And again, I think they made the right choice, but there is no good choice in that situation.

I used to sit and watch other kids eat foods I couldn’t—not because they had peanuts, just because they could have peanuts—and internalise that feeling of exclusion. I used to have panic attacks and psychosomatic reactions all the time when I ate new foods—I still do, sometimes—or when I tried to sleep at night. I used to break down crying for no reason other than the fact that I was terrified.

And I think this needs to be talked about more. Because yes, allergies, even severe allergies, are fairly common, but that doesn’t mean this should be normalised. And there’s really no good solution. There’s no way you can fix the problem. There’s no way you can raise a little kid with a severe allergy without either traumatising them or risking their life.

But it still needs to be talked about.

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