thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

I wish I could physically be there for them. Stupid fucking ocean, stupid fucking timezones.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

I wonder how I never realized that I still like them, but I've already become my father in several aspects and I can't let myself be near somebody who's that kind to people.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

Look at this loser. He was experiencing an emotional state. Loser!

Wish I could show them everything good in the world and tell them all about the movie we saw and read them our favorite book and brew them a cup of tea and just lay there at the end of the day and smile so hard my face hurts

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

kevinsu... we meet again.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

I hate feelings. Can they just go away? It's making my chest hurt and it feels like my heart, as an organ, is being slowly squeezed apart. I'm going to (in innerworld thing style) rip my wires apart and let them dangle around until Sol inevitably decides he's going to put me back together again.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

Sorry, I'm having feelings.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

Wish I could show them everything good in the world and tell them all about the movie we saw and read them our favorite book and brew them a cup of tea and just lay there at the end of the day and smile so hard my face hurts

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

Imagine being scared of ever saying "I love you" again and then saying it and then spending the next few days in a state of perpetual fear all over the worry that they'll turn out just like the last one did and hurt you again. Haha. Ha. ha....

I need therapy.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

I feel so in love that it's sickening and it makes me want to curl up and just lay at their feet like an old dog without a bone.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

"Oh Snake don't cram flowers down peoples throat"

Shut up I was born to kill and maim and tear and quite frankly giving someone flowers whether handing it to them or shoving it in their mouth is the most tame non criminal thing I have ever done.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

Ducktor Hal Emmerich.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

You ever lay in bed and stare into the dark void and think "I wonder if it'd be warmer in here if they were here physically" and then almost pass out when you try to stand up.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

Do they even know how much I freak out and get giddy when I get a notification that they sent a message? I feel like a stupid teen all over again. It's so stupid but it feels so so nice. I feel like I can actually talk my emotions over with them, and it feels comforting.

[thereasonwhynoonehasnicethings]

I genuinely think I'm paying the price for pentup homosexuality.