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me, sitting on a throne barechested but wearing ornately engraved plate armor on my arms and legs and cloaked in fine almost translucent silks with an enormous snake draped over my shoulders: i got lost in the fantasy of this dope outfit and forgot what kinda post i was gonna make

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i watched one (1) video on how to draw hands that changed my life forever. like. i can suddenly draw hands again

these were all drawn without reference btw. i can just. Understand Hands now (for the most part, im sure theres definitely inaccuracies). im a little baffled

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Ideas to make your system members feel safer!

Sometimes healing starts with small, quiet gestures. Here are some things that helped us feel safer inside and out:

🖍️ Make a collage of images and words that feel safe.

💌 Write comforting letters to your headmates. Encourage them to write back!

💗 Create a list of grounding tools and affirmations. Keep it somewhere where everyone can find when it's needed!

🧸 Offer external comfort objects like a soft blanket, a bracelet, or toy.

🔒 Create a “grounding box" with items that engage the senses. For example, you can use photos for sight, perfume for smell, candy for taste, and fidget toys for touch.

🛏️ Design safe areas in your innerworld where anyone can rest, hide, or heal.

🎁 Let headmates have something they can call their own, like a a journal.

🕯️ Visualize something protecting your innerworld. It can be anything: a magic barrier, a tall tree, a dragon, a glowing rune.

🎧 Make a playlist of soothing sounds or songs. Let others know it’s okay to listen.

🐚 Speak kindly inside, even if you’re frustrated. It sets the tone. It shows you’re trying.

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Shout out to fictives who feel uncomfortable and exposed by the fact that their sources exist as public media that anybody gets to see. The fact that anyone can just pull it up and see all of your history and traumas and mistakes, without your say or even knowledge. The fictives who don't even feel they're allowed to be upset about it because it's "just fiction" and therefore doesn't matter. Who feel like less than "real people" because of it.

We see you. You matter.

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ily systems who’s introjects don’t wanna disconnect from their source because it is so entwined with who you are.

ily psychotics who want to keep some of your delusions and hallucinations because they don’t cause you stress.

ily maladaptive daydreamers who don’t wanna quit daydreaming altogether and instead want to keep the aspects that are good and comforting.

ily people who realize that healing isn’t always casting away everything that made you divergent. that sometimes it’s about managing the parts that are bad and keeping the parts that are good.

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I'm starting to have body memories. More than just flashbacks, I can remember the actual physical sensations and it's...not pleasant.

They like to replay when I'm alone and thinking too much.

I think I used to have them too. But they stopped for a long time and then I couldn't remember being plagued with them in the past until today.

Fuuuck

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being a system and also being autistic is super funny because like you can so clearly tell what a system's special interest is by looking at how many fictives from that source they have

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i assure you, my brain contains the normal number of voices.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE NORMAL NUMBERS ONE!!

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This gave me chills…. A perfect performance of Michael Sheen reciting “ Do not go gentle into that good night “ by Dylan Thomas.

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Source YouTube

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i think ultimately you do really have to kill that part of your brain that vividly imagines how you would redo parts of your life.

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shout out to plurals who’s frequent fronters change all the time.

shout out to alters who are afraid of not fronting all the time, either because theyre so use to it or they’re afraid they wont get to front again.

shout out to systems who wish they had a more consistent rotation of fronters and wish it wasn’t so come and go with system members.

shout out to alters who like fronting.

shout out to members who get frontstuck regularly.

and shout out to systems trying to find a middle ground between being front stuck and having completely inconsistent fronters.

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The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.

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take ur power back. doesnt matter how often it was taken, or how devastatingly it was taken. doesnt matter how deeply helpless or violated u felt. take ur power back. take it back in the way that feels right for you. make urself aware theres power just in being alive and having a body, in having a physical voice u can use to project ur opinions and feelings. that there is always going to be smth you can do that will feel restorative, meaningful and powerful. if u didnt have all this agency and power, there wouldnt have been anything for abusers to try to take to start w/. but no one can actually do that. someone can limit ur agency and power for a time. they can extend a lot of energy into doing that. and thats v real. you were helpless. powerless. trapped. but anything youve had to learn during that time, once youre outside this situation, can be unlearned. you can literally just take all that power back. its nothing touchable, tangible that can actually be permanently taken from u. theres not point of no return. theres no actual point in which youve been violated so badly you have to stay defeated. as soon as that constant control over you fades away, and you actually have space to breathe u can rebuild. does it suck and is it painful to have to? sure. do you have a right to be livid, angry, sad? of course. but its rlly never to late. for as long as youre alive youll have some form of power and agency. and its uniquely *yours*. it can stiffled, but never broken.

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And i shit you not the pasta was creepy

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Happy pride month to fellow systems with "it's complicated" genders and orientations.

To those who say "fuck it" and simplify it down, and to those who say "fuck it" and hoard as many labels as possible.

To those with some alters who love labels and others who wish to be unidentified or use umbrella terms.

To systems who've collectively transitioned or had their orientations change because of their systemhood.

Happy pride!

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To anyone who was suicidal at age 14 or younger, here’s your permission to grieve. Here’s your permission to not joke about it or just flat out ignore it. Here’s your permission to acknowledge that lost child who felt way more pain than any child should ever feel. You’re allowed to cry for that child, whether you healed or are still suffering the same thoughts. Finally allow yourself to grieve for that child filled with undeserved hurt.

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you have got to stay alive.

you're going to be such a wonderful middle aged or even elderly plural, system.

young plurals and systems will see you and be in awe. they know that they can make it too.

show the world that we're not doomed to be young and tragic. please, stay alive.