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I have not been active woah everything’s picked up and i started dating another system and it’s been a wild ride and it’s absolutely amazing ^~^

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That moment when you have a mini panic attack because you realize you are turning 25 but barely remember anything before you turned 13 so time just seemed to have flown too far to fast

-Blizz

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Plural culture is having very connected alters and always worrying you're faking because of it

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This last week was super rough, stayed awake for 24 hours once and 36 the other and fuckin-

^ winter v blizzard

Oh winter didn’t finish it uhhh here have this thought

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I OPEN THE APP AFTER A FEW DAYS AND I GOT A MESSAGE FROM A BOT ANYTIME IVE USED TUMBLR IN THE PAST THIS WASNT A PROBLEM

Blizz 💕

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hmmm *puttin the pieces of a puzzle together* wait a minute.

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*Decorates Inner world apt with balloons and party streamers*

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This for fuckin real

Plural culture is never feeling like an entirely different person but never fully feeling like yourself. Feeling like I have less than a personality rather than multiple personalities

Plural culture is randomly getting the urge to cry during school and not knowing why

Plural culture is feeling like the days are going by so fast I can't even remember what happened a few hours ago

Plural culture is watching yourself doing basic things and feeling like you're just watching a movie scene about your life

Plural culture is knowing almost nothing about your system and feeling so constantly confused because you just want to know what's happening in your own head

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It has dawned on me that i should seperate the blog with system stuff to other things but i think it’s early on i could do that but i’ve already gone too far. anyways have some food y’all want some i made extras.

-Blizz

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Me for real :3

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Gonna voice some insecurity, and ramble a bit and then post a meme (not plurality related) 3

I feel as a person I recently learned what OSDD was and it just kinda made sense but i feel so invalid as i have thought i had something there for years and years and years but never fell under the amnesia side of things.

and that being said i just chopped my bad memory up to trauma and stress like i honestly remember next to nothing before the age of 11 and figured that’s probably normal for most people

I’ve always had a issue dissociating and just kinda being in my own lil headspace and i always thought i was chatting with myself because i didn’t line up with the diagnosis for did but i still feel like i had issues

talked to people about it and never had a therapist or counselor who had training or education on the subject so i’ve never had anyone to talk to about this.

and it wasn’t until my last partner who brought up the fact that she thought i might be plural and a roommate who said the same with but mentioned OSDD that it kinda clicked

but even then it felt invalid because There’s only one other headmate and they rarely front. it’s just a struggle but there’s clear distinction anyways that’s a lil ramble i’m so sorry

~Blizz

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Oh I’m also not here much though, fuckin Blizz puts us in fuckin to many social situation, and fuck that shit.

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Blizz makin me do this shit, I’m Winter. Use she/her pronouns, not much of a talker but will respond if i’m here, y‘know ain’t gonna be fuckin rude. I probably will come across as blunt.

I enjoy my FPS, and racing games, Drawing, Graphic design stuff.

Don’t know how Blizz can drink that coffee shit, I know it works but it’s gross, i favor our a red bull myself.

I also make sure shit ain’t fucked the fuck up, as Blizz can be clumsy and dumb.

Anyways Heyo.

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Oh i guess i should have expanded on our system

we are a system of two, which is a incredibly low number i feel and i (blizz) usually front, as i prefer to be more social and talkative and in our life it’s hard for us to avoid it

Winter is usually a bit more back end and just keeps us afloat a bit more, she’s very driven and i admire her a lot

We are working through our system and stuff here and there in therapy and with other systems, but we are a OSDD-1B system as there is no amnesia (at least none that i am aware of?)

and we are still learning about plurality as well we haven’t had much information up until recently on it, but had a working theory of about 8 years that is what we were, so please bare with me as i ramble and rant and post random things here ^~^

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OH BUT THERE WILL PROBABLY BE RANDOM SPAM POSTS

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i guess i’ll start with the introductions,

im Blyzzi | age 23 | she/her

i like socializing and cuddles and generally cozy games such as stardew and minecraft but anything with people. I have a hard time with story based games though

i like coffee and sweets and often time snuggling up with someone and watching a disney movie or bluey(favorite tv show)

i however do have a fair bit of mental health issues the biggest and most prominent is anxiety, panic, and depression, but i try to not put that onto others

i guess i’m kinda the driving factor in making this account and just uhhh self discovery but yeah!

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We gonna use this as a outlet so be warned, it’s just gonna be misc random shit. Sometimes just a blunt thought, other times a meme, random part of the day, really fuck’n anything y’know?”