#osdd-1b

[acollectiveconstellation]

so mind explaining then, how you would handle an alter who hurts others? what about abuses them? commits a crime?

you cannot undo hurt feelings, abuse or lives being destroyed. someone has to take accountability for that and the action belongs to the body. what you're doing here is actually unhealthy and allowing excuses to be a shitty person florish.

you're no better than "my evil alter did it" people. please reconsider this statement.

[lutravurr]

anti-endo mindset is literally the most dumb petty shit ive seen in my life. youre deciding what other nd people say to you is either a lie or incorrect because you trust the white neurotypical men who wrote a book about how nd people are to them more than another systems own lived experience. why would the book about ways people can be fucked in the head include a very internal and non disruptive experience as disordered. if you claimed you were multiple people in the past, youd be either labled as a malingerer, or diagnosed as multiple personalities/schizophrenic and locked in an asylum.

and if people say theyre endo but are wrong and are traumagenic who gives a shit. its almost as if the trauma hiding disorder hides trauma. who woulda thunk it. thats literally accounted for in the dsm and by professionals who actually believe patients with cdds.

were traumagenic through mainly emotional neglect and our own early development of ocd. some people wouldnt even consider that ’real trauma’. a lot of people dont consider neglect trauma from how passive it is. and i can so clearly see how someone could just be a dissasociative person just because their brain just didnt happen to develop the way singlets do for neurological reasons.

the brain is a complicated thing with so many ways it can vary. why would non traumatic multiplicity be off the table. why are naturally dissasociative or just plural people such a threat to you.

[crabussy]

why does she do this shit

unfortunately obligatory statement: multiple professionals believe I am part of a system. I have been experiencing pretty undeniable symptoms since I was really young. this shit is unfortunately so real and I do deal with this on a daily basis. pussy bazooka jumpscare can happen to you or your loved ones but especially me

[sunifixation]

Hi. I’m cypress.

I am the host of the system formed due to the fusion of sunny (old host) and the original host.

[shirowm]

[xoxotwig]

would anyone be willing to chat to a baby osdd-1b system abt everything ? like- we don't seem to have an innerworld, and i (the ,, host - ? ig-) never ever leave front, but the others can join me in front and leave, but they don't- know where they go- we don't have any amnesia barriers between alters, at least to our knowledge, so we all share everything we're kinda- rlly confused ,,,, i've been actively denying their existence since i was like- 5 ? i'm 18 now ,,,, would anyone be willing to ,,, idk, help ? give advice ?

[steence]

guys can i complain about something?

like tw venting FR

because like. i used to think i had like. osdd. that thing whenever you have different people in ur head or whatever. and its soooo awful. the only reason i was able to escape that horrible, awful time in my life was when i went on r/systemscringe.

cus they b out there pointing out bullshit. and it snapped me out of it. but the remnants are still so awful. i still hear voices. i still can talk to people in my head and hear a response that i dont think im making even though i definitely am. i still feel so awful

whenever i thought i had it i was so shameful pf it. i didnt tell ANYONE. i was so scared that someone would find out. anytime someone irl brought it up i felt fear.

there are still things that i remember doing but that felt like i didnt *do* or like i did it in a dreamlike state. kind of like when you first wake up. even though i DIDNT.

THERE ARE POSTS ON MY ACCOUNT I DONT REMEMBER MAKING. THERE ARE DRAWINGS IN MY SKETCHBOOK (lets be fr, school workbook) THAT I KNOW I WOULD NEVER MAKE, BUT I REMEMBER DOING

i KNOW you guys wanna hate fakeclaimers but theyre the ONLY reason i was able to get out. and its still awful.

so if ur a system i KNOW uou dont wanna hear this but PLEASE make sure 100% beyond the shadow of a doubt that this is true. please dont go down the awful path i did.

ok rant over <3

[quietsystem]

discovering a system member for the first time that’s actually been there awhile is like “I genuinely thought we didn’t experience anger for the past ten years, but it turns out this whole time we’ve been cramming it all into this fifteen-year-old instead, and he’s fucking had enough.” 

[zeze-mp3]

idk if im a fictive or what but guys he'm litteraly i's

[treehoused]

got reminded that it is almost definitely impossible for me to ever get an accurate diagnosis. i already knew that but i forgot i guess. everything just feels...bleurgh. sinking. like nobody is ever going to believe me and i am never going to be able to get help.

nobody here even knows of dissociation, all people think of cdds are schizos and people lying to get out of trouble. but i still thought it just maybe might be possible despite all that, yknow?

except i can't find anyone who has ever been diagnosed here, only people who are treated like they're in psychosis and are misdiagnosed with schizospec disorders, myself included. no psych person has ever believed me. theyre never going to. it's never going to change

[acollectiveconstellation]

To get syscourse on a better conversation, I have to wonder something. How do other systems view their gender? We view ours as "the body is one, but we are another". The body is masculine, but each of us have our own. I am female, our co-host is female, and some others are male or female, some are not even human genders, like SHAME. Who is a biological weapon. They use She/They/It. Our host views himself as a transmasculine non-binary person.

What about you? :3

-🐏

[lyrics-vent]

Osdd-1b culture is apparently forever feeling like a fraud because you have little to no amnesia barrier

[skulls-n-soup]

Communication is down and the fronting room is closed off and I'm frontstuck and I'm just now seeing how fucked I would be without the system. It disgusts me how I can't function without help.

I saw a cockroach today and nearly vomited and Humboldt and Dell aren't here and I'm dissociating really badly and I can't remember what I did yesterday and I'm really fucking scared. I hate that I was unsafe as a child, I hate being a system, and I HATE being useless without it

[sunifixation]

so… bunny has changed her look a bit after the redit incident,.,

[devils-myriad]

Neurodiversity / disorder boxes. (Made by Mira)

If you'd like some relative to different disorders, please tell us, we have no imagination.

[ur-fav-is-disabled]

nepeta from homestuck has osdd-1b, narcissistic personality disorder, fibromyalgia and autism :3c

had to be held back from putting all my disorders..

NEPETA IS DISABLED!

Disabilities: OSDD-1B, Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD), Fibromyalgia & Autism

Definitions:

WebMD - a complicated, lifelong condition that includes problems with communication and behaviour. (Autism)

Mayo Clinic - A disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain accompanied by fatigue, sleep, memory and mood issues. (Fibromyalgia)

National Institutes of Health - A complex psychological condition that presents with a pervasive pattern of grandiosity, need for admiration, and lack of empathy. (NPD)

DIDResearch.org - A dissociative disorder that serves as a catch-all category for symptom clusters that do not fit neatly within another dissociative disorder diagnosis. (OSDD-1B)