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no masks at the dr's office at all, not even baggy blues on the doctors lmao we're so fucking cooked

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desktop Tumblr is literally unusable for me now so yeah that's cool

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My Twitter feed has shifted rapidly (like checking at 2am and then 8:30am) several times over the last few weeks, today's fuckery is it's now full of meme accounts, posts in Portuguese, and right-wing chuds. god I hate the internet now

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I hear a Scottish man say murder and my heart skips a beat ok

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Feeling like a brittle empty shell of a person for a while and wish I could figure out how to feel something positive. But not sure that's possible, all things considered. I'm just tired. Doing the best I can for everyone but myself, or trying to anyway ✌🏻

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me: *watching video of Sebastian's quests on Youtube* no one: person in the comments: *writes entire essay* "I understand [Fenris' and Anders'] trauma and what they need to heal. I just want to wrap them all up in therapy blankets and give them hot cocoa. But Sebastian... Sebastian I want to bloody drop kick into the abyss." me: benaffleckmeme.jpg oh and the closing statement of "And you know how we should probably know the writers ALSO hate Sebastian??? Varric doesn't like him in DAI!" is not the epic dunk you think it is lmao

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Sometimes I'm like 🤔 "is this perhaps OOC?" as I'm writing.

Then I remember people write F3nders and I get over it.

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"ok maybe I'll take a little breather from work and figuring out what else I can do about all the terrible things going on in the world and... hm, nope, never mind, everyone's talking about how they want to kill my favorite characters. excellent. back to work."

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One year since I last talked to my friend. One year since he's been gone. But less than a year since I found out, since I found an obituary. I couldn't bring myself to look, because in my heart I knew something terrible had happened. Was I the last person he spoke to? Would it have mattered if I had said anything else? I don't know. Probably not. He wasn't really good at listening to me. I tried.

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as many of you know, gaza has now gone dark.

targeted israeli strikes have wiped out the telecommunications infrastructure. phone lines and internet services are gone. gazans cannot call their loved ones to check if they are still alive. they cannot call for ambulances for aid. if they survive the increased bombardment tonight and the following nights, they will bleed out alone with no aid.

now i will tell you what will happen in the next few days/weeks, and i pray it to be untrue. unfortunately the apartheid state, also known as israel, has been quite obvious and transparent with their plans.

the stated goal of many politicians over the years from israel, including netanyahu, has been to have the entire strip of land of gaza as israel, with no separate region for palestinians. i am not going to provide links, google is free and i am fucking tired.

what they had done before tonight, in the last two weeks, was destroy over 50% of buildings in gaza city as well as neighbouring areas, so gazans have nowhere to return to. gazans have been forced south, and israel will use this opportunity to have troops in north gaza (currently referred to as the ground invasion) advancing south while bombing "h*mas sites" in the south. israel will do this knowing there are plenty more civilians there that will die, causing terror and panic and having palestinians want to flee to anywhere, anywhere that is safe.

israel is doing this in the hopes that this panic and terror will convince egypt to open the border (well, the border israel isn't currently bombing) so that palestinians can escape to the sinai desert in egypt.

once survivors leave, the area that is currently the gaza strip will 1) be reduced in size if a lot of palestinians stay, should they not be bombed out of existence, or 2) be entirely absorbed into israel if very few palestinians stay, which is the ultimate aim of israel. those remaining palestinians will be moved to the west bank, or the remainder of gaza will be converted to west bank conditions where they'd go through the same problems palestinians in the west bank go through (reduced access to water, checkpoints to go from any place to any place within their own land, getting dispossessed, or randomly killed by racist extremist settlers).

now, egypt has been adamant not to displace the palestinians. in online discourse, people have been dehumanising palestinians by talking about past disruptions in other refugee areas and saying that is why egypt does not want to take them. while there may be slight truth to this from egypt's perspective, the major reason egypt is refusing is that no palestinian refugee abroad has even been given the right to return to their own land. and this will be the fate of gazans if they are made to leave in a mass exodus to egypt/other neighbouring countries such as jordan, which these leaflets from army-backed israeli are threatening palestinians with (photo from salfit in the occupied west bank):

therefore, what i likely see happening is the above bombardment (in increased numbers now that gaza has gone dark) -> mass panic in gaza, more so now that gazans are cornered in the south -> a reluctant egypt, but with the US will promise a large amount of "aid" money to egypt to facilitate the mass exodus of palestinians, the borders will open.

palestinians will be forced out. israelis are already planning on hoovering up the prime real estate there, for amusements park no less!

this is nabka 2.0. this is genocide.

btw, as we speak: israel's leading newspaper is already making claims that h*mas's main operation base is under shifa hospital. the hospital currently housing 50,000 displaced palestinians. the idf is claiming h*mas is using the hospital as a human shield, which is their new favourite phrase to justify killing civilians. so you already know what to expect in the news.

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Gaza is witnessing the heaviest bombardment on land, sea and air since the beginning of the war.

Stop calling it a war. Gaza is not a state. Gaza is colonised territory, under siege by a nuclear power. Hamas is not an army. Hamas is a resistance movement. Colonised people have the right to armed resistance under international law. Call it what it is: Israel waging genocide.

This is not war, it is genocide in every sense of the word.

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anyway on a personal note (aka post contains info no one cares about), mental health in the abyss lately. the abyss' shitter maybe. no joy no desire no hope just nothing. no idea why just. like that. having to force myself to do everything and idk even what's the point. used to being kinda broken but I do pretty well usually all things considered. this is new and unpleasant.

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I know my words don't mean much but I just wanted to state here as well that all Palestinian people have my unconditional and unwavering support, now and always. There's no 'both sides,' no 'but' - what is happening is genocide, put plainly. I mourn for every Palestinian life lost, every man, woman, and child that's gone through what no one should ever have to - today, tomorrow, and all the days past. My heart fucking breaks not only at the horrifying violence they're enduring, but at the vile and dehumanizing propaganda from politicians and so-called journalists that too many people have lapped up and repeated uncritically (which is not new, but it's ramped up to a level I've not seen for a while now). I've tried to do what I can, doesn't feel like much, or enough, but I will keep doing everything I can no matter what. Palestine will be free.

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The wood elf and the halfling

just want to draw my halfling Tav's whole body in BG3 scale for the first time. He's so smol 😭

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Halsin?

Yes?

You know, I've never seen you with your hair down.

Well, it's not very practical in battle...

Would you like to see it?

Yes.

stupid sexy halsin