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SOULMATE

I was born to feel heart break, It’s always something that inspires me.

Used to.

Now I have this person that makes me afraid of heart break. 

He is this beautiful person that makes me feel as though we could change the world with our love, I feel that showing people the amount of love we have for each other could change someone. 

Everyone chases love at some point in their life and some feel as though they haven’t stopped searching their whole lives. It’s sad, but true. We all do things to feel love, we go out, get drunk and fall inlove with the music and hope that someone will fall in love with the person we are. Truthfully. No one is going to fall inlove in a club, It’s seriously rare to find true love while you are drunk or while you are looking for love.

and, That’s the key. Don’t look for love, because once you start looking, you find yourself not being who you actually are, you’re just trying to be everybody’s perfect girl/guy.

The moment you are living your life for yourself, whether you are going to be single forever or married one day. To just be content with the love you have with yourself and your family you will become the person you are. This will also lead you to find the perfect soulmate, because you actually are who you are.

I know ‘soulmate’ might sound silly, but if you think about it, your life is already planned out in some weird way, ‘Everything will happen for a reason’ -- The truth is, there is one person who is the person you were meant to be with, since the beginning, not like the beginning as in birth. Like the beginning beginning, whatever that may be, or wherever that may be. If love is what drives people, there is a plan, there is someone who you have always been with, always loved. Maybe in a different life/dimension or form. 

Scary as it may seem to think about it. It blows my mind. I just believe that there is more about our connections with one another. There is a reason you can be more attracted to one person than another, there is a reason behind falling inlove before finding your soulmate. 

One man. Yes. He made me feel this way, made me come up with this theory. How else could I truly explain a love like this. <3

In the middle of the night he is the guy I turn to when I’ve had a bad dream and he will make me feel better by just seeing him there.

He is the person who’s touch burns a fire on my skin.

I smile at the way he is, the way he laughs, the things he says. 

He turns my world upside down, I cannot explain having someone like that in your life, but everyday I question if he is too good to be true, I wonder if I deserve such a perfect soul.

All that he is to me, is all that I am.

This love will be the everything to me, The ever after and that simple life I long to live. He is my actual Soul-mate. Our souls have known each other before we even knew we were to exsist.

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Stolen Dance

I want you by my side So that I never feel alone again They've always been so kind But now they've brought you away from here I hope they didn't get your mind Your heart is too strong anyway We need to fetch back the time They have stolen from us And I want you We can bring it on the floor You've never danced like this before But we don't talk about it Dancin' on  Doin' the boogie all night long Stoned in paradise Shouldn't talk about it  And I want you We can bring it on the floor You've never danced like this before But we don't talk about it Dancin' on Doin' the boogie all night long Stoned in paradise Shouldn't talk about it  Shouldn't talk about it  Coldest winter for me No sun is shining anymore The only thing I feel is pain Caused by absence of you Suspence is controlling my mind I cannot find the way out of here I want you by my side So that I never feel alone again And I want you We can bring it on the floor You've never danced like this before But we don't talk about it Dancin' on Doin' the boogie all night long Stoned in paradise Shouldn't talk about it  And I want you We can bring it on the floor You've never danced like this before But we don't talk about it Dancin' on  Doin' the boogie all night long Stoned in paradise Shouldn't talk about it  Shouldn't talk about it  And I want you We can bring it on the floor You've never danced like this before But we don't talk about it Dancin' on Doin' the boogie all night long Stoned in paradise Shouldn't talk about it  And I want you We can bring it on the floor You've never danced like this before But we don't talk about it Dancin' on  Doin' the boogie all night long Stoned in paradise Shouldn't talk about it  Shouldn't talk about it

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It took me about 20 seconds to figure out how special you are

30 minutes to figure out how intriguing you are

And one hour to know who you are.

One smile, One conversation.. Just one day.

That day, after I met you, I went home and sat on my bed. I had nothing to say, no words came to my mind. Only one thought. "the one"

I sat there, staring into the nothingness, thinking about every second I spent with you, every facial feature moving as you spoke. Your eyes intense, brown but beautiful. Your openness, and willingness to open yourself up to me. Something in you reminded me of myself. I remember you smiling at me and I looked at you and thought , geez, something about you moves me. Most of the time I spent looking at your mouth, watching the words roll off your tongue, and even though I remember your eyes, now that I wasnt with you, I kind of wished that I took a mental photograph of your eyes. 

That day, was the first day I came to Love you. 

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Tidal waves

Love at first sight, yet we were both blinded by what kind of tidal wave we had started in each others hearts. We were so much more than what we thought.

Just how the waves are beautifully created, out of nothing but pure energy. Our love was created, and neither of us realized until it came crashing up on the shore, dried up and raw. When we found out you were leaving and I wasn't. I remember sitting in the car, watching the tears roll down your cheeks, what could I do? What was there to say that hadn't already been said. My words were stuck as I watched you fall to pieces, opening up to me in a way I never expected. My heart was breaking as I sat there, I could feel the tears coming. Pushing to the surface. 

At that moment I looked up at you and we both had the same look on our faces, "how did this come to this, no, not now"

Even thinking back to this moment I tear up. 

There was no storm on the seas, no terrible natural disaster that would end us,

no.

Just a separation that was out of our control. 

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Come on skinny love just last the year, pour a little salt you were never here my my my- my my my- my my my my staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer. Tell my love to wreck it all, cut all the ropes and let me fall my my my - my my my- my my my my right in the moment this order's tall And I told you to be patient, And I told you to be fine, And I told you to be balanced, And I told you to be kind, And in the morning I'll be with you, But it will be a different kind, 'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets, And you'll be owning all the fines. Come on skinny love, what happened here? Suckle on the hope in light brassieres, My my my, my my my, my-my my-my... Sullen load is full, so slow on the split. And I told you to be patient, And I told you to be fine, And I told you to be balanced, And I told you to be kind, And now all your love is wasted, Then who the hell was I? 'Cause now I'm breaking at the britches, And at the end of all your lies. Who will love you? Who will fight? And who will fall far behind? Come on skinny love.

Bon Iver

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I see you lying next to me, with words I thought I'd never speak, awake and unafraid, asleep or dead.

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A blog dedicated to someone that will never see it.

Someone I love. Not just that love when you have known the person forever, and fall in love with them because its inevitable and then date for 3 years or so and realize that there was actually no spark from the beginning. It was only convenient.

No.

This is not that. This kind of love is fate. Meeting someone and straight away knowing that you love that person. Its what I consider Love at first sight.

In a room full of people, we both came late, we both sat at the back. I didn’t notice you at first, I think I did see you sitting there but I didn’t take note.

When we got up at the end of the speeches you walked into me and we started complaining about having to move closer to the front for the hours we were going to have to be there for. As we started to sit and chat, I remember feeling attracted to your personality, to who you were. I wasn’t worried about the fact that you were good-looking, dark- tanned skin, facial hair. no. I just remember watching your lips, watching all the words roll off your tongue. I remember laughing with you and telling you things I’ve never told anyone. The day I met you, I felt like I’d known you in another lifetime. Two peas in a pod.

Love at first sight is not real. But love at first meet. YES.

I felt a little bit creepy, when I thought to myself that I loved you from day one. I thought I was crazy. But I think that’s Love.