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we canât always get what we want
a drabble | Chifuyu Matsuno x reader
A/N: i spent 2 hours writing this one đ im bawlinâ
You sigh, dropping your phone onto the bed with a dull thud. Lying there, staring at the ceiling, you wonderâwhat wouldâve happened if youâd just confessed sooner?
Chifuyu has been your best friend since childhood, the boy you've had a hopeless crush on for almost ten years. At first, it was easy to brush offâjust a fleeting thing, a silly infatuation born from spending too much time together. But now, in your twenties, itâs different. It feels different. Deeper, heavierâlike real love.
But is it? Or is it just a prolonged crush, twisted into something bigger? Falling for your childhood best friendâit sounds like something ripped straight from a cheesy romance novel.
And yet, the thought of telling him lingers. Even if youâve spent years convincing yourself it doesnât matter, that itâs not a big deal, that you can live with this secretâ
You donât want to live with it anymore.
A week after your failed attempt at confessing, you find yourself venting to Baji, another childhood friend who somehow managed to figure out your feelings long before you ever admitted them to yourself. He never pushed you, never spilled your secretâjust waited, letting you come to terms with it at your own pace.
âYou never know what might happen,â he said, slurping up the peyoung yakisoba you bought him. âAnything could happen. You know, possibilities are endless.â
You shoot him a look. Of course, youâve thought about it. A thousand different outcomes have played out in your headâsome good, most bad. Maybe Chifuyu likes you back. Maybe he doesnât. Maybe he lets you down gently, or maybe it ruins everything.
Or maybeâjust maybeâheâs felt the same way all along.
The thought is enough to make you feel insane.
âSo, whatâs the plan?â Baji asks, raising a brow.
You shrug. There is no plan. There never was. Chifuyu is your first love, and you donât know how to let go of that.
You want to move on. You want to discard these feelings and live peacefully, without the awkwardness of flinching when he gets too close or feeling your stomach twist when he talks about his crushes. Without the ache in your chest that makes it harder to breathe.
But the world wonât let you.
Because every time you see him, Chifuyu just gets brighter. His presence is undeniableâlike a magnet, like gravity. Everything slows when he walks toward you, the world narrowing until itâs just him. His green eyes, his blond hairâyou can pick him out in any crowd, in any place, without a second thought.
And then he smiles.
And suddenly, forgetting him feels impossible.
Chifuyu has always been kind. Thatâs what you like most about him.
But maybe thatâs also the problem.
Because every time he shows you kindnessâevery time he remembers your favorite drink, or throws an arm around your shoulder, or listens to your rants without complaintâitâs so easy to believe itâs just for you. Like youâre special. Like you mean something more.
But youâve seen him do the same for others. Youâve seen the way he laughs with his friends, how easily he cares for everyone around him.
To him, itâs nothing. Just how he is.
To you? Itâs everything.
And now, here you areâtrapped in a moment that feels like fate.
Chifuyu's green eyes lock onto yours, concern flickering behind them. He reaches for your hand, his thumb brushing gently over your skin, the warmth of his touch sending a shiver down your spine.
This is it, you think.
âYou okay? Youâve seemed a lilâ down lately,â he asks, voice soft. âIâm always here to listen, Y/N.â
The words nearly break you.
You swallow hard, forcing down the lump in your throat, blinking back the sting of tears. You donât want to cryânot here, not now, not in front of him. Not when youâve spent years hiding this part of yourself.
But thereâs no turning back.
With a shaky inhale, you finally speak.
ââŚIâve liked you, Chifuyu. Since we were ten.â
His eyes widen slightly, but you push forward, the words spilling out before you can stop them.
âI donât know when it started. Maybe it was when you stood up for me in elementary school, or when you shared your snacks with me even though you loved them just as much. Maybe it was when you started showing up at my house after bad days, just to make sure I was okay. I donât know.â You laugh, breathless. âBut I do know that Iâve liked you for ten years. And I triedâI really triedâto let it go, but I canât. I just⌠I canât.â
Silence.
You feel sick. Maybe this was a mistake. Maybeâ
Then, he squeezes your hand.
And in that single touch, you already know.
He exhales softly, lips partingâlike he wants to say something, but the words donât come easily. His eyes flicker with something unreadable, something hesitant, something not love.
A small, sad smile pulls at his lips. âY/NâŚâ
Itâs all he says.
But itâs all he needs to say.
Your heart sinks.
You nod, even though you donât want to. Even though it hurts. Even though a stupid, hopeful part of you wants to shake him and demand why not?âwhy canât things just work out the way you want them to?
But life doesnât work that way.
Chifuyu is your best friend. And youâre his. Thatâs all youâve ever been to him.
You squeeze his hand once before letting go.
Youâre ready to accept everything. It wonât affect you... anymore? The pain would still be there, but you know you can always move forward and just be happy for the both of you.
We canât always get what we want.
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